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Christmas Without You

The lights are blinking merrily
The tinsel’s on the tree
It sits there in the window
For all the world to see.

The house is filled with holly
And pinecone scents the air
The Christmas cards keep coming
Each one is hung with care.

The gifts are tied with ribbons red
And topped with pretty bows
I’m done with all the details
As far as Christmas goes.

The fire is softly glowing
I think about your touch
But Christmas isn’t Christmas
I miss you oh, so much.

If I could have just anything
My Christmas wish would be
To wake up in the morning
And find you here with me.

Staring at your picture
I long to be set free
Tonight the tears are streaming
As I hold it next to me.

Flakes of snow swirl through the air
I’m braced for stormy weather
I wait for brighter days ahead
When we can be together.

So hold a place in heaven
Someday when life is through
I’ll be the Christmas angel
Who shares this day with you.


MY CHRISTMAS ANGEL

With Much Love

Christmas Time

It's Christmas time my family,
Yes, it's that time of year.
I'm not sure what it's like done there,
but it's heavenly up here.

There's lots of toys and lots of games.
A cake and presents too.
There's only one thing missing,
And that one thing is you.

But please don't cry my mummy,
Don't fret my daddy please.
Your present will still reach me,
On this lovely Christmas eve.

Cause I have a great big stocking,
Which is hung beside my bed.
The angels made it for me,
And it's beautiful velvet red.

And if, while you are sleeping,
You feel a touch upon your cheek,
Or maybe a gentle breeze blow by,
It is an angel, so do not weep.

Any thoughts you have for me,
Or messages of love,
The angels will collect them from you,
And bring them up above.

They will put them in my stocking,
When I am fast asleep.
And when I wake on Christmas morn,
I'll have them all to keep.

And so my precious family,
As you can plainly see,
Anything you want to say,
The angels will bring to me.

I know that it is hard for you,
To be happy when your heart is broke.
With a tear stained hanky on your lap,
And a great big lump in your throat.

But remember why we celebrate Christmas,
Remember the birth of Christ.
For it is because of him
I have eternal life.

With Much Love

What beautiful pictures! I love Colby's smile:) I wanted to come by and let you know I was thinking of each of you, I do a lot.
Love, Tracy and
Katia (a.k.a. "The Ladybug")
Fighting leukemia AML with a vengence!
Sharing Hope on the Wings of a Ladybug

What gorgeous pictures! Thank you so much for sharing them. With pictures like those, there's no doubt that *Colby* will forever be in the hearts of MANY people. And I can't believe how big Colton and Cameron have gotten. My how time flies.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

Happy Labor Day!! Just stopping by to send my love. I was at Chris's burial place today (My friend I lost 15 years ago) and I really felt like I had a presence with me. I first thought it was Chris, but then all I could think about was Colby. It was so warm and loving. AHH - I wish I could send that feeling to you. I love you Angel Baby.

I will forever love you and you have changed me forever,

Hello Friends. I hope and pray that you have had a wonderful week! I have been thinking about you and just wanted to pop in and say hi!!!

Hello Cole's. How is my extended family doing? I hope and pray all of you are doing well.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

With Much Love,

I just wanted to stop by and let you know that your family continues to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Hey you beautiful family! I am thinking of you - just wanted you to know!!!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Cole Family


Hoping this weekend is a great one for you!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Dearest Cole Family



Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

hello dear friends. so so sorry we have not been able to sign in lately..computer problems. hope your doing well today. may your memories be sweet and your tomorrows bright.

Always in our thoughts hearts and prayers!!
~*~Samantha’s Story~*~

Because growing up is hard enough without cancer!!

Jack



Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love to you on your special day!!!

I thought I would stop by and say

Plus I had to let you know that I'm thinking of you always.I will be thinking of you this Father's Day!

Cole Family

Thank you for posting "Star in the Sky." I had never read it before and I'm glad I had the chance.

I hope all of you are doing well. It has been VERY hot in our neck of the woods lately -- Sammi thinks it's perfect weather to play outside. I hope Cameron & Colton are having lots of fun playing outside as well.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Always thinking of Colby with a smile. I miss him so much!

I've been hearing that people can't get into my guestbook I think I fixed it now I hope.Thinking of you always.

(*National Nurses Week is May 6-12*)

Laura

I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. My thoughts and prayers (as always) are with all of you.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

Laura,

www.caringbridge.org/pa/celeste

God Made You For A Reason

When I look upon my screen
I find a happy reason
the joy that comes to me from you
is gratitude so very pleasing...

What a wonderful creator
that made a friend like you,
He placed a sweet kind person
and gave me lots of comfort too.

A world without your kindness
would be a sad sad world.

But I don't have to worry,
there's no need to be,
because of you I am very happy,
and that's good enough for me.

I've found great people everywhere,
they come into my life.
Just like you, all those others too,
have given me delight.

So I thank God I met you,
I thank him for all seasons.
Now I know for sure with all my heart,
GOD Created YOU for a reason.

Thinking and praying for you always.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Just letting you know that I'm thinking of you.

Cole Family

Wishing every one of you a VERY



Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Laura, Jack, & boys,
I haven't been by your site for awhile, but wanted to drop by to wish you all a very HAPPY EASTER. The boys are growing so fast. They are absolutely beautiful little boys! Keeping you all in our prayers.
Love & God Bless, Shelly ~*~Angel Michaela~*~
Shelly Brewster <shellybrew1985@yahoo.com>
Watertown, SD USA - Saturday, March 26, 2005 2:14 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just stopping by to send you my love and let you know that you are always at the top of my prayer list.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed.

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, March 25, 2005 8:12 PM CST

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HAPPY EASTER Coles!!!!
I hope the Easter Bunny is even more generious with his eggs this year :) Thinking of each of you!!!!!!

*~*~Girlie's Page*~*~

Love,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice, Colby's Fairygodmother FOREVER & EVER <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Thursday, March 24, 2005 8:49 PM CST

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Dear Jack and Laura,Stopped by to let you know I am thinking about all of you and I have not forgotten and I never will. Always in my heart and prayers as you continue your earthly journey with Colby.Wishing you a very Blessed Easter.Hugs,
Regina <rmsloan@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, March 23, 2005 4:31 PM CST

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LOVEMy Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Wednesday, March 23, 2005 12:43 AM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

I hope you are having a wonderful week.

I am very disappointed that the CaringBridge center wants the links to be removed from the pages. So, please know I am doing all I can do on my end so that all of the voices are heard that disagree with the decision.

I pray you have a little Angel Baby visit you tonight as you sleep.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed.

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, March 22, 2005 7:25 PM CST

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Still thinking of you... Laura
www.caringbridge.org/ca/coltonmeyer
- Monday, March 21, 2005 10:34 PM CST

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Thanks again for stopping in at my Dad's site.I so nice when you drop in.THinking of your family always and always thinking of your angel Colby.
LOVEMy Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, March 21, 2005 1:01 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Simply here and simply praying for you.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed.


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, March 20, 2005 7:52 PM CST

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HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK


Post Pals <info@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, March 20, 2005 12:58 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending my love, as I love you so darn much!!!!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed.


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, March 19, 2005 9:08 PM CST

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hello....wanted to let u know that even though caringbridge had us remove all our friends links, your still always with us. We will continue to visit and keep u in our prayers...

Always in our thougths prayers and hearts...
~*~Samantha's Story~*~

karen n sammi <mpbowler1@aol.com>
- Saturday, March 19, 2005 8:24 PM CST

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Just thought I would stop

in and say that I'm thinking of you always.

See you on Monday.

LOVEMy Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Saturday, March 19, 2005 0:23 AM CST

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You are on my mind today. I found myself thinking of Colby over and over today and I just wanted to stop by and say hello.
Janet Sims, www.caringbridge.org/al/janiesims <janetsims@juno.com>
Birmingham, AL - Friday, March 18, 2005 10:14 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Once again I am sorry for the lack of posts, we have had computer problems and on top of that I have been very sick.

I am always here and always praying! Love to all of you!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed.

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, March 18, 2005 9:10 PM CST

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Hoping all of you have a VERY



Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!




Shannon, Jeff & Our Little Leprechaun <humphity@gmail.com>
Always Remembering *Colby* - Thursday, March 17, 2005 12:12 AM CST

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LOVEMy Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 4:45 PM CST

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I haven't stopped by for a while, but had to send a note tonight to tell you that I was touched to tears by the beautiful letter you wrote to Colby. What a heartfelt letter to your special son. Thank you for sharing your heart with your internet family. I've been part of the Colby fan club since shortly after you started this web site and I come here knowing that I will leave a better person. Thank for you showing me the courage and strength that is possible and that I can strive for. Colby was a teacher far beyond his years.
Lisa
Lynnwood, WA - Wednesday, March 16, 2005 0:21 AM CST

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Hello Angel Baby – you are on my mind tonight. You are loved so much by so many people – I am one of them! I love you Angel Baby!!!!


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, March 15, 2005 7:09 PM CST

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LOVEMy Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, March 14, 2005 2:03 AM CST

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You had me in tears. I so wish I could still come here and find out how sweet Colby is doing. I want him to still be with you so bad. BUT, you should never feel guilty. How many families have your amount of dedication and love? I am sure Colby would never want you to think you didn't go thousands of miles beyond everything you could have done. Cancer doesn't make sense. I think of you guys so much and wonder how you are doing. How you are getting through the days. We love you guys. Love,
Tracy and Katia




Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Saturday, March 12, 2005 9:29 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

One of these days I am going to figure out how to place a pretty picture on the page! In the mean time I will just send my love with words!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, March 12, 2005 7:21 PM CST

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Always LOVEDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Saturday, March 12, 2005 12:19 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,
My name is Susan Villareal and I am Jordan Villareal's mother. I just wanted to say thank you for having Jordan's name on Colby's web page along with the many other precious angels and children still having to fight for a cure for JMML. Colby was such an inspiration to us. Colby's site was the first site that we came across when we joined the JMML group. He was such an inspiration to me. At the time of diagnosis of my son, I was so low that I did not have energy to do anything but just cry but just by reading about Colby and your family, it gave me great strength and I feel so honored to have been able to read his story. Jordan had his transplant on September 17, 2003 and he just turned four on January 12, 2005. Everyday is a miracle. Reading your story about the steril birthday cake brings back so many many memories. Jordan has been isolated for nearly 16 months. I am so scared to let him go into a store and to even think about it brings chills down my back and literally makes me sick. We have a nurse that comes and sits with Jordan (4) and Jarrod(2) at our house and my husband says I have ocd because I am constanly wiping and disenfecting everything in the house many many times a day. I am sorry that I have not written in a while but it just breaks my heart to see and read of how many children are dying from cancer every single day. I just wanted to say thank you so very much for allowing us to be a part of Colby's journey as he struggled so hard to beat JMML. You and your family are such an inspiration to us and you are always in our hearts, thoughts and especially prayers.

love your JMML Arkansas family
susan villareal
susan villareal <srv1971@yahoo.com>
star city, ar usa - Friday, March 11, 2005 2:48 PM CST

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Hellooooo Coles!!!
Just here to let ya'll know that I'm alive :) Also wanted to come by and say hi and to let each of you know that you are NEVER EVER far from my thoughts each day...it is not hard to think of Angel Colby and his beauitful smile that we all miss so much...and of course all of you too. I hope and pray things are going well for you guys...just enjoying life and cherishing whatever moments we have left here on earth. I'm sending you lots of love from Down Under... and truck loads of kisses and hugs...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Friday, March 11, 2005 7:07 AM CST

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Stopping in to say hi and that I'm thinking of you.
Always LOVEDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Friday, March 11, 2005 1:43 AM CST

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Thinking of you Angel Baby...Forever loving you - thank you for changing me.


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, March 10, 2005 7:39 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I come by Colby’s page every single day, but have not been signing in all the time because you know I care, you know I am here and you know how much I love you and your Angel Baby. Sometimes I just do not know what to say. I know you pain is no better and I know your days are still a moment of time just trying to make it to the next moment. Today is one of those days where Colby has been on my mind constantly. I am really praying for you and always will be. Your Angel Baby is such a part of my soul. I love you all so very much.

Heavenly Father, tonight I come to you in prayer for my friends. They are still hurting so much and even though they know Colby is with You, they have a rawness to the pain that just will not, nor may ever go away. You know better than anyone Lord, so please comfort them tonight and let them feel a peace and warmth from Heaven above. They know that they will be reunited with You and Colby, yet I see how they hurt so much and need Your comfort. I thank You Lord for the love that still exists because of Colby. He gave more in his short time with them than most people do in a lifetime and I praise You for making him such a blessing. Please be with the Cole’s, especially Jack and Laura. In Your name I pray. Amen.

Always here and always praying for you.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, March 9, 2005 8:36 PM CST

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Just a little note to let you know I am praying for you all. I found your site while visting another.
Ann Parkhurst <aparkhurst@warren.k12.ky.us>
bowling green, ky - Wednesday, March 9, 2005 3:30 PM CST

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Always LOVEDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Wednesday, March 9, 2005 2:28 PM CST

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Stopping in to let you know that I'm Thinking about you today and always.
Always LOVEDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, March 7, 2005 7:23 PM CST

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Your loving birthday letter to Colby was simply beautiful. I can only imagine how your heart feels as only a Mother's heart could for her precious baby. My prayers are always with you & hope that some day your pain will lessen, but I know in my heart that it will always be there, won't it? May God Bless you & all of your boys!

Eileen Spratt <etspratt@charter.net>
Eureka , MO - Sunday, March 6, 2005 9:25 PM CST

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Dropping by to say "hello" and to let you know that I think of your beautiful angel often.

Much love and continued prayers of peace...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, March 6, 2005 7:57 PM CST

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Goodnight Cole Family.

I guess I did not catch up with you this weekend, but I will try to do so this week. I pray all is well!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, March 6, 2005 7:17 PM CST

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Just wanted you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Jaime www.caringbridge.org/nj/jaimelynn <Jaime13042@aol.com>
nj USA - Sunday, March 6, 2005 5:18 PM CST

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You are in my thougths what cute little boys you have. Jodi and McKayla

Jodi Phelan <jodiphelan@hotmail.com>
Sherwood Park, AB Canada - Sunday, March 6, 2005 11:49 AM CST

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Always LOVEDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Saturday, March 5, 2005 1:30 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I hope all is well at the Cole house. Hopefully I will have a chance to catch up with you this weekend. I have a lot to fill you in on!

I pray tonight is a wonderful start to a good and restful weekend.

Faith says, “Hello Cameron. I love you. I am so happy that you have a new little brother. I am soooo happy for you. Isn’t it cool to be five? Goodnight!”

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, March 4, 2005 7:46 PM CST

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Thinking of you always.Sending hugs your way.

Brenda Dave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Thursday, March 3, 2005 1:11 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Nothing to say to you tonight that is profound (nor is it ever profound), but I wanted to say I love you – all of you so much.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, March 2, 2005 8:55 PM CST

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Thank you for stopping by our Angel James' website and leaving a message,it warms our hearts to know people still think of us.God bless you!

Blessings,
Bonnie,grandma to ^J^ James www.caringbridge.com/page/jamiebowman
Columbus, Ohio - Wednesday, March 2, 2005 9:41 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Hello friends. Thinking of you and praying as always. Looking at those angel eyes and angel smile is exactly what I needed tonight!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, March 1, 2005 7:20 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, February 28, 2005 3:01 PM CST

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Good afternoon Cole Family,
Happy belated birthday Cameron.
Hi Jack and Laura, I wanted to share this poem with you....
... It was in my Angel Connections Group.
Take Care and May God Be With You Always


Star in the Sky
Once upon a time there was a very young star in the sky near Heaven.
She was a very bright and happy star. Everybody loved her. And even
though she was only four years old in star time, the moon, all the
planets, and all the other stars kept asking her to come and be near
them. She was so bright and loving. But her response was always that
she would stay close to God and Heaven. She knew her spiritual job
was to shine brightly and lovingly on everyone. She could do this and
still be close to God by staying where she was.

One day God visited her and she was so happy. God had a favor to ask.
He told her He could only ask it of the star with the most perfect
love. It was a special mission. The star knew there wasn't anything
that God could ask of her that she wouldn't do--even if she didn't
completely understand why.

God was very happy that she accepted his call for help. God explained
that she would have to be born on earth and within a very short time
thereafter she was to get very sick and die. He explained that there
were metabolic diseases of young children and it was killing them.
Not many people on earth knew about these diseases and therefore
there was very little research being done to find a cure. God wanted
a heavenly light to be shown upon this illness so more people would
know about it, and maybe in the future a cure would be found. He
further explained that He was sorry that she would be sick and die
within five years but He needed perfect love to help with this divine
mission.

The star had some questions for God. She asked, "After I die can I
come back and be a star just like I am now?" God said, "Of course!"
The star then asked, "When I look down from the sky to earth I notice
that a child has parents and a family. How will they handle a sick
and dying child? How will it affect them?" God smiled. He told the
star not only was she beautiful but she was so wise also. He then
explained, "I have chosen special people to be your parents. They are
very strong, caring, understanding, and most important of all, very
loving. They will be a big help to you in your spiritual mission.
They may not totally understand everything that is happening to you
or them. They may think something is wrong with them for bearing a
child so sick. They will question Me as to why, why, why? However, I
will understand their grief and I will surround them with other
family members and friends who will be their solace during their
earthly journey."

The star had one more question for God. It was more of a request than
a question. She asked, "God, when my mission is completed and I die
on earth, may I still communicate with my parents and family while
I'm a star?"

God roared with delight. "My young star, because you have
unconditionally accepted this mission, I promise your return to your
exact place in the heavenly sky near me. And you shall communicate
with your parents and family and friends by using any earthly device
to get their attention. They may not be able to see you. But they
will be able to feel you. They will see the earthly things that you
will use to let them know that you are nearby. All they have to do is
to be open and receptive."

The young star told God she was ready to go to earth. God hugged her
and then placed her in her mother's womb. God called over Michael the
Archangel and commanded the archangel to personally watch over the
star's place in the sky until she returned.

Amen.

Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Monday, February 28, 2005 2:24 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray you have a wonderful week! Please stay safe and warm with this approaching storm!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, February 27, 2005 7:18 PM CST

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Thinking of you and sending my love.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed!!!!!!


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, February 26, 2005 7:43 PM CST

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Laura and Jack,Thank you for including Gianna in Cameron's birthday celebration.She was very excited about seeing so many of her favorite people .We talked about everyone that was there as she was going to sleep lst nite. Thank you for the birthday cake. It was yummy!!!! Many hugs,

Regina <rmsloan@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, February 26, 2005 7:41 AM CST

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Oh my God...I got your website from Angel Joshua's page and clicked on..I am in tears at your absolutely beautiful entry. I feel like I knew Colby myself. My 3.5 year old son Jack was diagnosed with Stage 3 Neurpblastoma in January of 04, and we are being treated at Memorial Sloan Kettering. Our story is on HOPEFORJACK.com if you ever want to check us out. What a beautiful family you have. Colby...whata beautifukl child. I can't imagine your pain and hope that you find continued stregnth in your healing and your beautiful memories live on forever. I have lived the pain of diagnosis as you are right our world does come crashing down, I have lived through all of the uncertainties that treatment bring and all of the decisions that we are forced to make almost immedaitely as we are thrown into this, I have lived through the pain of very scary moments and relished in the joy of calmer ones, that to the normal people of the world..the ones we once were before it all came crashing down wouldn't even be able to comprehend.I have lived through putting my child through, chemos, radiations, 2 surgery's, fevers, transfusions, broviac infections, stem cell harvests etc...I have gotten through this with all of the other parents having to put their babies through teh same thing day in and day out. I have looked around me and wondered why? I have looked around me and wondered how? I have looked aroiund me and felt such enormous stregnth through the eyes of children and their caregivers going through this. But I have never had to go through the ultimate sacrifice that your family and unfortuneately many others have had to go through. My heart absolutely breaks. I wish you peace and stregnth, I wish you absolute love and above all I wish you the confidence in knowing what a beautifu; SUPERHERO your Colby is. I will check on you often as I am adding you to our favorites page.Much love from across the miles. Francesca and lil' Jack Demers
Francesca Demers <jackandmommy143@aol.com>
Harrison, NY USA - Friday, February 25, 2005 6:09 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Thursday, February 24, 2005 3:40 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending my love and prayers.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, February 23, 2005 8:18 PM CST

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What a beautiful tribute to your sweet boy.

God bless <Deirdre40@frontiernet.net>
- Wednesday, February 23, 2005 9:39 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I just love all the pictures of those gorgeous boys! Yet, I see the last picture on the page and my heart aches. I have no words to explain what I feel, but ache – an ache that catches me for no reason.

I love you Cole’s. I will pray that your pain will go away – just for a night and that Colby will visit you. I pray that you have a wonderful night of sleep with no pain or emptiness. I pray that you wake refreshed and full of love and life and with wonderful memories of dancing with Colby in your dreams.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, February 22, 2005 7:36 PM CST

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It's been a long, long time since I've talked to you. Please know that you are continually in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings to you. Happy (belated) Birthday in Heaven Colby!
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Tuesday, February 22, 2005 5:19 PM CST

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^^HUGS^^

The Dobrowski's - Dave, Judy, Katie, Dana and ^^Angel^^ Emily Ann <davidd@comporium.net.......www.caringbridge.org/page/emiann>
Rockhill, SC
5200 and CMC Family, Rainbow of Hope and Cancer Sucks Club Members - Tuesday, February 22, 2005 4:07 PM CST

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Colby is always in my heart.I wish I could of met the little man.What an inspriration he was to everyone.

BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Tuesday, February 22, 2005 2:13 PM CST

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your kids are soo cute! your entry made me smile. i am still laughing about the waterbed and what he said. that was so cute. thank you for sharing your story.

mommy of angel Rachel
jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Monday, February 21, 2005 5:27 PM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEET GORGEOUS CAMERON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey buddy!!! Just wanted you to know that you were such a great little brother to Angel Colby and you now make the best big brother to Colton. I hope you had the most wonderful birthday ever... I'm sure Colby poured tons and tons of his love down to you from Heaven on your special day... love you, Cameron :) I'm sending loads of birthday hugs and kisses to you...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & hugs,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, February 21, 2005 1:08 AM CST

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Well there Cameron, after reading my post from the other night I realized that I did not tell you what my “special wish” for you is… My special wish for you is for you to grow up healthy, happy and wonderfully blessed with love all around you. So, happy birthday again handsome prince!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, February 20, 2005 7:44 PM CST

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Sorry I missed coming by on Colby's birthday. I am sure it was not an easy day for any of you. Thank you for sharing so much about Colby. He will always be so special to me.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Saturday, February 19, 2005 7:12 PM CST

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Hi Laura, Wanted to wish Cameron a very happy birthday. Gianna is very excited about seeing him on Friday. She said she misses him. Love to all and special hugs.

Regina
- Saturday, February 19, 2005 5:04 PM CST

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Happy 5th Birthday Cameron!!! Hope you had a great day, I am a day late, oh well better late then never! Wow, 5 years old..it's hard to believe. You will be starting kindergarten!! I am sure Colby was singing Happy Birthday to his brother from up in heaven and celebrating with all the other angels. Pretty soon it will be Colton's 1st Birthday!!! Wow, all kinds of celebrations going on. God Bless all of you!!!
Sandy Kaiser <mkskay@verizon.net>
Masontown, PA USA - Saturday, February 19, 2005 10:40 AM CST

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Well, do I have a special wish for a very special prince…Happy Birthday Cameron!!!! Five years old – no way – you could not be over three years old? You are getting so old there big guy. What a handsome prince you are!!

Faith wanted to say this, “Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Cameron, happy birthday to you. I love you. Please come play soon. Nite nite.” ~ Faith

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, February 18, 2005 8:41 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Friday, February 18, 2005 5:18 PM CST

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Hi...I want to wish Cameron a Happy Birthday. God Bless You All.
Dee A Mullins www.caringbridge.org/wv/taylor <deemullins@adelphia.net>
Mount Sterling, KY - Friday, February 18, 2005 1:22 PM CST

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Hi Jack and family. I just saw your beautiful posting on Stantons web site and realizing I had just missed Colby's birthday, wanted to come over and sends lots of cyber hugs. I know as you say it never gets easier, and I know that hole in your heart hurts so bad you feel it every time the wind blows, but I think it's amazing how you continue on in faith- I know, you say you have no choice and while thats somewhat true, its evident that you continue to use the power of Colbys love, to keep giving, keep smiling and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Happy Birthday sweet Colby.
Carol
mom to Riley, Reagan, Reese and my forever baby Reid
Carol Miller (Reid's page) <dmill3@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, February 18, 2005 10:28 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

One of “those days” where I am so happy to be looking into Angel Baby’s eyes and knowing the comfort from above!

I pray you have comfort from above tonight as well. Sending my love to you and my prayers.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, February 17, 2005 9:17 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending my love – always here and always praying.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, February 16, 2005 8:42 PM CST

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What a bittersweet Valentines it must be for you now. I honestly cant believe its going on 2 years, where has the time gone? Easy for me to say, I am sure it feels like an eternity to you since you've held Colby. Its just sickening how many kids have joined him, way too many. Wishing you all peace.
Chris - Gooch's mom
- Tuesday, February 15, 2005 8:56 PM CST

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I just found your site and wanted to say that Colby was adorable. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Tina & ~Lance~ <lneonkia@comcast.net>
- Tuesday, February 15, 2005 7:42 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just thinking of you and praying for you. So many beautiful posts have been left.

I have been thinking of this song in my head since yesterday and reading all the posts, I think this is a very appropriate song about Colby.

Unforgettable, that’s what you are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that’s how you’ll stay
That’s why, darling, it’s incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that’s how you’ll stay
That’s why, darling, it’s incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

-- Nat King Cole

Hang tightly to your faith because that beautiful Angel Baby is looking forward to showing you his world when the time is right. He loves you so much.

Sending a huge heartfelt hug your way tonight.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 7:11 PM CST

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You are in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.
Dee A Mullins www.caringbridge.org/wv/taylor <deemullins@adelphia.net>
Mount Sterling, KY - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 1:09 PM CST

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IN HIS HANDS

JACK,
God, I know what his troubles maybe;
What sorrows have come his way;
But I ask you to help him in this time,
("This, MY LORD I PRAY")!!
You know the troubles of our hearts,
Our souls our minds, our life!
You can make the problems pass,
Can resolve our every strife!
I do not have to know my brother,
Or what he's going through,
To deliver all his hopes and needs,
My Father, unto you!
So Father give him courage,
Please hear this my prayer,
I deliver him unto you this day,
And leave him in your care!
("IN HIS HOLY NAME")!!
AMEN
Love You So Much ("MY TWIN")
I feel all of our pain,
Janice Cole
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 10:14 AM CST

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I have followed Colby for years, and don't even really remember how I came across the page, but I believe through Gooch's site. He is one little boy that I will never ever forget-those eyes and that smile just melt your heart. I check on your site every so often to read your updates...what a wonderful family...what a wonderful angel. Happy Birthday Colby...you have touched so many lives.
Jenifer
NJ - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 10:05 AM CST

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Laura - what a wonderful tribute to Angel Colby. The stories were wonderful, I could picture him! Thanks for sharing.

With Love -
Rachel <rsummer@twcny.rr.com>
- Tuesday, February 15, 2005 9:27 AM CST

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ANGEL COLBY, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Laura, thank you for sharing with us even more of your precious Colby....I am in tears. I feel like I have met him in real life even though I didn't get the chance too.. I wish more than ever that I had that chance.. I would've loved to have been able to give him a hug and to see his smile in real life. I hope one day I'll be able to give you, Jack, Cameron & Colton a hug. I'm thinking of you guys...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & hugs,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 5:12 AM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Tuesday, February 15, 2005 2:43 AM CST

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Happy Birthday Angel Colby! Still thinking of you and your family and all will remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Cassandra <cmraven@msn.com>
Albuquerque, NM - Monday, February 14, 2005 10:30 PM CST

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Dear Jack and Laura,

Oh yea – remember me – I am the one praying for laughter…

The same one that tried to call four times today and did not get through and thought, “That is probably good because I would only bring them down with my emotions and I am supposed to help?” Yea, that was me having to leave work early, yea that was me on my knees, yea, that was me screaming “why”? That was me knowing my “discomfort” today was NOTHING compared to you and the pain and what you are going through today AND EVERY DAY.

I love you. I hurt for you and I am so sorry. Nothing, no words, no comfort, NOTHING is good enough. It is just not good enough. I feel helpless tonight. I pray for forgiveness - I have not given the two of you anything to help. Yet, I am here and will always be praying for you first and foremost.

I love you Colby – I love you Colby – I love you Colby… HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

You are in your Mom and Dad today, this I know to be true, please let them feel it too. I LOVE YOU ANGEL BABY. I LOVE YOU.

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, February 14, 2005 9:09 PM CST

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My biggest Turkeybutt...

I often wonder if you would still let me call you that. I think that you would. I am so busy these days, I feel so terrible that I don't get to see Mommy, Daddy, Cameron and Colton very much. It honestly breaks my heart to be so far away. I love them so much and I wish that I could be there more. We always remember the best stuff about you, we laugh, and we even cry. Cameron never fails to tell me a story when I visit.. "Hey Jess... remember when Colby did that". He misses you so much. The last time I was there he told me he was getting pretty good at one of your games. He is getting so big, he is so grown up. He isn't as efficient as you were about making me pictures. I think I have be waiting on one for a year now... can you tell him to get on that for me. I am not home right now... but you have been on my mind and in my heart all day. I am going to go home and celebarate you. I am going to look at the powerpoint we made for you... I love looking at your pictures. My memories with you are so fresh, like they were yesterday. I can still smell you sometimes ans often think of your hands. The way you would hold a marker... I went to an outdoor show yesterday and the one thing I would have never expected to see... as I was walking down one of the isles, there were a bunch of little kids standing around a table. They were shooting rubber band guns. Something came over me, all I could think of was you shooting that rubber band gun and hitting every can. You wanted me to buy it for you so bad. Of course I did, the day I gave it to you was the last time I saw that BEAUTIFUL ENDLESS smile. You were so excited, so glad that I didn't forget. Now, I can only see that smile in my dreams... until we meet again, I love you with all of my heart and soul. I hope you know that buddy. You ARE so special to me, you drive me every day, you are always with me. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL COLBY!

FOREVER LOVING YOU!
Jessica Whateeka <jessicazalek@yahoo.com>
Frederick, MD - Monday, February 14, 2005 7:07 PM CST

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MY PRECIOUS SON,
It's the end of the work day, and I thought it would be appropriate for me to sign in on your guest book. I haven't signed it many times, but I'm here almost every day. I still go around and visit some of the other families here on caringbridge, but as time moves on I've been finding it harder and harder to do so. The pain of your loss is so so deep, that when coming to caringbridge, I get quite emotional!!! My love for you is so deep, that I never knew I could have this kind of love! It took me 44 years, your birth, and my love for you to show me what real love is! My heart has a whole in it bigger than this whole world, and the pain, emptiness, and sadness that fills it seems unbearable at times! And you know what buddy, your mom and I know that this pain is going to be with us untill we see you again!!!!! For now, we try to stay strong and provide a good life for your little brothers. We try not to let them see our pain because we don't want them to hurt like us. Cameron, wow, he misses you too. He always says how he wishes God would send you down to play with him. Wow does that hurt us! I would give any thing to see you guys all playing together, chasing each other, argueing, fighting! Baby doll, I dream of the day that I'll see you again. I dream, and dream, and dream of that day. I visited you 3 times today, and you know what? "it's never often enough!!!" My son, my goal in life is to join you in heaven some day. I just pray that I will lead the rest of my earthly life to make it happen, that our GOD will see me worthy enough to join you. Until then, my heart cries for you every minute of every day. I love you so much! I miss you even more, if that is possible! My precious child, you are by my side, in my heart, on my mind, with me at all times. I luv you - luv you - luv you I dooooo!!!!!
ALWAYS, your daddy forever and ever
jack - colby's daddy forever and ever
www.caringbridge.org/pa/colby, uniontown pa usa - Monday, February 14, 2005 5:00 PM CST

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Happy Birthday sweet Colby. I never met you but you taught me so much and I still think of you each time I see a yellow balloon.
Kristy <kristydarren@yahoo.com>
Conor's Site, - Monday, February 14, 2005 2:59 PM CST

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I couldn't wait for this day to send you a note and say Happy Birthday. We love you!
Sandy <gray56@optonline.net>
Bridgewater, - Monday, February 14, 2005 2:14 PM CST

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Thinking of you today and everyday! Love, Susan and Angel Jordan
www.caringbridge.org/ia/jordangrosclaude
Susan Grosclaude <Grosclaude@msn.com>
Marion, IA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 1:31 PM CST

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What a beautiful entry today. Happy Birthday sweet Colby.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Monday, February 14, 2005 1:19 PM CST

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What an absolutely beautiful entry today...a very fitting tribute to one of Heavens sweetest Angels.
Happy 7th birthday Colby James...I'll bet Heaven and all the clouds are decorated in everything you love....and lots of hearts and red stuff too!! :0)
Missing you aways...


Cameron and Colton...you both are getting so big!!
Happy Valentines Day!!!


Love, Kim and Kody
~SK8ER BOY KODY BEAR~
- Monday, February 14, 2005 1:02 PM CST

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Sending you my thoughts and prayers as we all remember your precious Angel Colby on his birthday. Your entry was absolutely beautiful. Happy Birthday sweet Colby, I know my Angel Meghan is singing a loud Happy Birthday Cha-Cha-Cha to you.
Carol Mack (Mom2Angelz Meghan & Taylor) www.caringbridge.org/fl/meghansjourney <tmcmbm@aol.com>
Titusville, FL USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 9:35 AM CST

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Thinking of you today.

Prayers Deneen
www.caringbridge/page/tiffanie
Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa.us>
Enola, PA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 9:32 AM CST

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Commander in Chief,
Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday Colby! I hope you are having a wonderful birthday in heaven with all the other angels. I will spend today looking at pictures of you playing here in our home with Cameron. How much fun we had hanging toys off the balcony. I loved watching you sit on Emilio's shoulder while he taught you how to play video games! We will never forget the first time we made cotton candy, you always wanted the blue kind and Cameron always wanted to have the pink kind. How you loved to put it on your face and make a blue beard!
Today I will also remember your great strength and courage and how you never wanted to give up the fight. Yes Colby, today we remember all the laughter, all the tears but mostly all the Love we still have for you today and always!
Holding you in my heart still............FOREVER!
I LOVE YOU COLBY
The General and Family
Elaine Vignali <IMAQTali@aol.com>
Uniontown, PA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 9:15 AM CST

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Thinking of your precious boy on his birthday.
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
Nj - Monday, February 14, 2005 8:48 AM CST

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Happy Birthday, Colby! Not a day goes by that I don't think of your smile.

Cole Family, may you feel the brush of Colby's wings on your faces today. Blessings to you all!


Suzanne
Nicholson, GA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 6:50 AM CST

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Laura...my tears are flowing as I read the homepage..I just want to hug you right now. I just can't imagine losing a child...my heart goes out to you and Jack. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of all of you..my thoughts and prayers.

Dear Angel Colby...I hope your Birthday is wonderful up in Heaven, and you have lots of fun with all your angel friends. But I pray that God sends you down with angel wings just for a moment to spend with your loving mommy, daddy and brothers. I pray that you come to your mommy in a sweet and beautiful dream, or just softly touch her so she can feel your wings brush by her. It would sure help her get through your Birthday. I will light a candle for you on your Birthday and as I do I will say a prayer for you and your family. Happy 7th Birthday in Heaven Angel Colby!! Happy Valentine's Day Too!!
Sandy Kaiser <mkskay@verizon.net>
Masontown , PA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 6:11 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY IN HEAVEN LITTLE MAN.


LOVE BERNEICE <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
MASONTOWN, PA USA - Monday, February 14, 2005 3:14 AM CST

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET ANGEL COLBY.
BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, February 14, 2005 1:38 AM CST

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Dear Angel Colby,
Wanted to wish you a Heavely 7th Birthday! I am thinking of your family on this day and praying for them, that God comforts them on this day and all through the year, helping them through the most difficult days, when they are missing you the most.
Happy Birthday and Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Kathy H.
Thousand Oaks, CA - Sunday, February 13, 2005 11:55 PM CST

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In those quiet moments in the still of the night
Remember to rejoice and celebrate life
Do not think of me gone and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sunlight on the grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
When you awaken in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in flight
I am the soft stars that shine
You will hear my gentle voice
and remember to rejoice
Never give up your fight
and remember always
to Celebrate Life....
---- Author Unknown

Sweet Angel Colby...Today I celebrate you! You are so dearly missed. I celebrate your love of playstation...your love of cinnamon french toast and sausage...your love of Shania...your love for animals. You had the best curly hair, but I know you always wanted it to be straight. I can remember every conversation we had. You were never shy and you were always willing to share your love. You were never able to say goodbye...and now I understand why.
Colby...Happy heavenly birthday, today we celebrate you...Forever 5.
Missing you,
Dana Big Hair


Dana Doctor
- Sunday, February 13, 2005 10:14 PM CST

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Love that endless smile…

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, February 13, 2005 7:41 PM CST

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Dearest Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
It is Valentines Day in Melbourne now (with the time difference and everything!), so I wanted to drop by and let you guys know that I'm thinking of each of you so dearly on this special day...I know you guys still feel the pain and hurt so deeply...I wish I could take it all away. I you are able to enjoy today in your own way and I know Colby is looking over each of you as he does everyday but more so today as he knows it'll be hard for you. I pray you are able to feel his warmth and love around you...his cute chubby cheeks against yours...his loving arms around your neck...hold on to the memories. I love you guys and I'm sending lots of love your way today...Happy Valentines Day too!!

***Sweet Colby, HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY in Heaven, little man. We miss you so much here on Earth, but I bet nothing beats Heaven. Watch over mommy and daddy, Cameron & Colton. They need you now more than ever!! You continue to make us so proud :) Love you, Colby!!!!***

*~*~Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXO

Colby's Fairygodmother Forever & Ever <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Sunday, February 13, 2005 2:55 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Sunday, February 13, 2005 2:02 AM CST

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Hello, had to stop in today to let you know you were on my heart. I know your precious boy's earthly birthday is this Monday and I wanted you to know he was being thought of. Also want you to know I keep you and the family in my prayers daily. I don't sign nearly as often as I should, but I wanted to be sure Monday did not pass by without me acknowledging Colby's birthday. He touched my heart in a special way, I will never forget him.
God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, February 13, 2005 0:36 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and praying for smiles and laughter. I love you!!!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, February 12, 2005 9:25 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I wanted to say that I will be praying especially hard for you the next few days, yet I pray for you so hard every single day already about finding peace and comfort without Colby in big ways and small ways, that this Valentine’s Day I am going to shift my prayer to something else. I will be praying that as you move forward to his earthly birthday that you find tears of joy and laughter thinking of Colby and the funny things he use to do and the things that made him giggle until he peed his pants (or you peed your pants)! I will be praying that you are reminded of all the times he was just a little boy saying something new that had you laughing behind your hand or him discovering that “toots” in the tub made bubbles. Whatever the “whatever” was, I will pray that you remember it and laugh and then remember, know and REALLY know that is what he is doing ALL the time.

I believe that your pain is something that will always be a part of you. Some say it will get easier or better over time, but I disagree, as I believe that you just adjust your life to the pain and learn to live differently with it because the pain is a part of you. So, as I always pray for peace and comfort for you, I will change my prayer for a few days.

Love, laughter and happiness is all that he is made of and I will pray that during these next few days will find you with laughter. Smile Angel Baby smile and giggle as you sail through the clouds.

Heavenly Father I come to You tonight to pray for my friends. I will continue to pray for strength, wisdom, peace, comfort and all those necessary things that exist in our cruel world, yet tonight I ask You to bless them with memories of joy and laughter. I pray that they are able to feel happiness in memories that will never part from them. Thank You Jesus for loving us and always hearing our cries. In Your name I pray. Amen

I love you and will be praying, praying and praying for laughter.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, February 11, 2005 8:02 PM CST

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Happy Birthday Colby


Abbie «♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
tru, ns canada - Friday, February 11, 2005 7:40 PM CST

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Good afternoon Cole Family,
Jack & Laura you are so on my mind. I have been thinking of you all day. With Colbys birthday coming in a few days. I just have been looking up towards Mt.Macrina and wondering. So many thoughts go through my head while at work gazing out up over that hill there.
My heart just aches for you especially this weekend into the week.
My prayers will be extra hard for you. May you find peace in each other during this difficult time of year.
I will be visiting Angel Colby tomorrow. Want to drop off a little something for him for his birthday.


Take care Cole family. May the Peace of the Lord be with you...........

This poem was in my angel connections group e-mail today. I wanted to share it with you.

MY CHILD
I can shed tears that my child is gone, or
I can smile that my child has lived.
I can close my eyes and pray my child come back, or
I can open my eyes and see all that my child has left.
My heart can be empty because I can't see my child, or
it can be full of the love we shared.
I can turn my back on tomorrow and live yesterday or,
I can be happy tomorrow because of yesterday.
I can remember my child and only that my child is gone, or
I can cherish my childs memory and let it live on.
I can cry and close my mind, be empty and turn my back or
I can do what my child would want....
Smile, open my eyes, love and go on.
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, February 11, 2005 4:09 PM CST

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hello cole family.hope all is well with all of you.i just wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.in a few days it will be colbys birthday and i can only imagine how hard it is going to be for all of you.my heart goes out to all of you.
jolene schiavoni <princessjojo_25@yahoo.com>
uniontown, pa usa - Friday, February 11, 2005 8:46 AM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Friday, February 11, 2005 2:35 AM CST

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Jack, Laura, and family,
I was drawn to your site tonight for some reason, and I learned about Colby's and Cameron's birthdays coming up so soon. Today I was also visited in the hospital by a stranger, who learned about my daughter Chiara by bouncing from one caringbridge page to another, and who decided he wanted to give a direct donation of blood and platelets to her. His birthday happens to be on Feb 18 too, and so is my wife's. We're in the hospital for Chiara's transplant now, and Ethan, another boy with JMML, will be receiving his on Feb 14. I'm not good at interpreting coincidences, I only know that since Chiara was diagnosed, they've been happening very frequently, to the point where I am a firm believer in guidance from angels and the existence of the spiritual world. The only feelings I can offer are that many very loving people have been born on Feb 18, and that I would like to ask your beautiful son Colby, as I've asked so many other relatives and friends that have gone before me to Heaven, to watch over Chiara and Ethan and to play with them in their dreams. I continue to think of you and will especially this month.
Fred Dini <fmfdini@hotmail.com>
San Diego, CA USA - Friday, February 11, 2005 1:51 AM CST

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Good night Cole Family – sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, February 10, 2005 8:42 PM CST

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Laura and Jack, My thoughts and heart are with you both. February cannot be an easy month for either of you. Hugs to you both.
Regina
- Thursday, February 10, 2005 3:01 PM CST

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A LETTER FROM
HEAVEN




"To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.



Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every
morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."



"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."



God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do,
and foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you... in the middle of the night.


When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years,
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.



I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.





There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too....
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.



If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night... "My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented.... that my life has been wothwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.



So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in you footsteps only half a step behind.



And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.... you're coming here to me.
guardian angel <angegardienangegardien@hotmail.com>
lebanon - Thursday, February 10, 2005 12:15 AM CST

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Hello Cole’s – home computer problems again, so I apologize for the lack of posts. However, please know (as I am sure you do) that you are never far from my heart or mind. I love you Cole’s and your Angel Baby has part of me in Heaven with him and I have a part of him in me that will NEVER go away.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 8:26 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <smokinbee@hotmail.com.>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 5:20 PM CST

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To All,

Tips For True Beauty


The following was written by Audrey Hepburn regarding "Beauty Tips."
For attractive lips, Speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, Seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, Share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, Walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived,
reclaimed, and redeemed;
Never throw out anybody.
Remember, If you ever need a helping hand,
you'll find one at the end of your arm.
As you grow older, you will discover that
you have two hands, one for helping yourself,
the other for helping others.

Love You,
Janice Wright
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, February 9, 2005 2:39 PM CST

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Hi Laura-
I know February will be difficult with Colby's birthday in heaven next week. Several of us have already agreed to skip the month of February if you would like to join us. I still think about you all and hope you are doing well under the circumstances.
God Bless-
Alison Haddock
Mom to Angel ALexandria
www.caringbridge.com/page/alexandriasangels
Alison Haddock <alisonhaddock@charter.net>
O Fallon, MO - Tuesday, February 8, 2005 7:50 PM CST

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You all continue to be in our daily thoughts and prayers...
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody & Family <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbridge.org/va/cody, - Tuesday, February 8, 2005 12:49 AM CST

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Just want you to know that your always in our prayers.
Love LaKota and her mom Debbie.

Here is a poem that I would like to share with all the moms that have a love one in that is in Heaven:

My Mom Is A Survivor


My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom, who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise.
But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom...through Heaven's open door.
I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more.
But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...no matter what she feels.
My surviving mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal~!

Author unknown.
http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@Hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, mn - Tuesday, February 8, 2005 12:24 AM CST

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Just letting you know that you are in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.
BrendaDave's Site <rurka70@hotmail.com>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Tuesday, February 8, 2005 1:43 AM CST

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Dear Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
Hey you guys...Jack, thank you for your loveeeeeeely message a couple of weeks ago...it was so great to hear from you. And it really made me smile :) I was having a tough week, so thank you!!! I know this month will be extra hard for your family...Valentines Day being Colby's b'day...what a special guy...to be born on Valentines Day. I couldn't imagine anyone else being born on that day other than Colby...he had a smile that melted hearts.. a heart bigger than this world...I don't know, I just think it was perfect that he was born on Valentines Day..I do know that if he were here today, he'd have girls flocking to him on Vals Day :) Hehe. I know things are still so hard for you guys...but I'm so happy you are all hanging in there...in your own way...I'm here for you guys if you ever need me...I know we're oceans apart but if there's anything I can do, I will. Just wanted each of you to know that I'm thinking of you guys...as I do always...but this month and on Colby's b'day even more so...I'm sending all of you loadssss of hugs and kisses...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & hugs,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, February 7, 2005 6:18 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just checking in and hope all is well. Praying for you always.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, February 6, 2005 7:25 PM CST

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To all You Beautiful People who come to visit
("Precious Angel Colby James Cole")

Have you ever seen an angel?
A thought I know is rare but true.
There really are angels out there,
so, hear me when I say this to you.
There are angels all around us.
We see them every day.
We pass them by sometimes unnoticed,
on life's busy highway.
Sometimes we stop and say hello
or greet them with a smile.
Sometimes we go and visit them
and stop to chat for a while.
These angels are so different,
like none you've ever seen,
for they wear no golden halos,
or beautiful satin wings.
Yet we know,
they're so very special.
We feel it from the start
and so we offer them
a special place,
deep within our hearts.
So, although your halo's hidden,
and your wings no eye can see,
the day you fell from heaven,
I'm so glad you came to me.
Love You All,
Janice Wright

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, February 6, 2005 1:16 PM CST

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Hello Cole’s!

I am praying that you have a wonderful and blessed weekend. I am also praying for you to feel butterfly kisses tonight as you sleep. I am sending a lot of love and HUGE hugs your way.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, February 4, 2005 8:58 PM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <rurka70@hotmail.com>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Thursday, February 3, 2005 5:02 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, February 2, 2005 7:47 PM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Just popping in to say Hi and let you know you are on my mind this early morning. Have a wonderful day. My prayers are with you especially this month. I know how it is going to be for you. I am keeping you all close at heart.
Many Blessings being sent your way.
Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Wednesday, February 2, 2005 3:09 AM CST

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Keeping you all in my prayers. Birthdays and anniversarys are so hard with what if's and I wish...Just know he is in the presence of our Savior. He feels of that love and joy all the time. He has no strife, no pain, no trials,,,Take Care.. Hugs,
Jeanine
VA - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 9:31 PM CST

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HI Laura...the pictures of the boys are absolutely wonderful. I love those curls. Colton does look so much like Colby. Praying all of you, but will say an extra pray for Jack. God Bless.
Dee A Mullins www.caringbridge.org/wv/taylor <deemullins@adelphia.net>
Mt Sterling, KY - Tuesday, February 1, 2005 11:18 AM CST

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BrendaDave's Site <smokinbee@hotmail.com.>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Monday, January 31, 2005 1:16 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I love seeing the people out here in “cyber-space” sending their thoughts and love. I especially loved seeing an “Aunt Dee” post and the story as well. I personally need to take note of that one. Praying for all of you and sending my love to the Cole’s – you too “Aunt Dee”.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, January 30, 2005 8:42 PM CST

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Laura - So nice to hear from you!! I've been thinking of you a lot lately.

With love -
Rachel
- Sunday, January 30, 2005 3:12 PM CST

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Brenda Dave's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta Canada, - Sunday, January 30, 2005 2:54 PM CST

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I am sure Colby would be one of the best looking kids in his class! I always said, "What a cutie!" when I would come to his page:) I think of you guys often and wonder how you are doing. I am trying to get more regular at getting around to sites. I have found it is easier at the end of the day to list what I DIDN'T do than what I DID do. It seems the day gets by so quickly:) Love, Tracy and Katia (a.k.a. "The Ladybug")
Fighting leukemia AML with a vengence!
Sharing Hope on the Wings of a Ladybug





Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Sunday, January 30, 2005 1:12 PM CST

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Jack & Laura,
Hay, Good idea!!!!

The Trouble Tree

The carpenter I hired to help me restore an old farmhouse had just finished a rough first day on the job. A flat tire made him lose an hour of work, his electric saw quit and now his ancient pickup truck refused to start.

While I drove him home, he sat in stony silence. On arriving, he invited me in to meet his family. As we walked toward the front door, he paused briefly at a small tree, touching the tips of the branches with both hands. When opening the door he underwent an amazing transformation. His tanned face was wreathed in smiles, he hugged his two small children and gave his wife a big kiss.

Afterward, he walked me to the car. We passed the tree and my curiosity got the better of me. I asked him about what I had seen him do earlier.

"Oh, that's my trouble tree," he replied. "I know I can't help having troubles on the job, but one thing for sure, troubles don't belong in the house with my wife and children. So I just hang them up on the tree every night when I come home. Then in the morning I pick them up again."

Funny thing is," he smiled, "when I come out in the morning to pick em up, there aren't nearly as many as I remember hanging up the night before."

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, January 30, 2005 11:58 AM CST

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It was great to read the update Laura. It is so hard to believe that Cameron is going to be 5 years old soon. He has grown up so much. I just love the picture of him and Colton. Colton's resemblance to Colby is striking!! I am sorry to hear that Jack is having a difficult time, but I certainly can understand. I would think that the loss and grief never goes away. I read on another site that you just become more proficient at masking the pain of the loss. I thought that was a very appropriate way of stating the perception of a grieving parent that "seems" to be doing so much better. I will definitely pray for you Jack. May you feel strength from our Lord and a peace about Colby's continued life in God's presence. That continued life to one day be united with all of you. Also praying for you too Laura and the boys.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Sunday, January 30, 2005 0:10 AM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

I heard this song on the radio tonight and although the song is not about an angel, some of the lyrics may be what you Angel Baby wants you to know. I wanted to share the whole song, but decided to cut what did not apply – regardless, thinking of Colby during the song rocked my most inner being and brought me to that “place” with the angels.


Lonestar Lyrics
I'm Already There Lyrics


I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There

Sending love to you Coles.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, January 28, 2005 9:12 PM CST

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Cole family,I was at jack's place of business today and he told me the story of your son.I just wanted you to know that i was truely touched and felt alot for you and your loss.Being a mother myself i could never fully understand your pain but i can appretiate it,so in this your family is always going to be in my prayers and thoughts.You have touched me and i am sure plenty of others.If any thing is learned from your loss it is that compassion still goes on for your son and also yourself.Thank you Jack for sharing your story and letting me be apart of you and your wife laura's battle.prayers for all of you.










jolene schiavoni <princessjojo_25@yahoo.com>
uniontown, pa usa - Friday, January 28, 2005 7:30 PM CST

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I stop by often, but usually don't sign. After reading your update today, I wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Friday, January 28, 2005 2:01 PM CST

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Laura, Thank you for the update. I know you are very busy taking care of your boys.It is very easy to see by your updates that your children are first and foremost in your heart. How wonderful. They are soooo lucky to have you as their mom. Time spent with a child is always very rewarding . You guys are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,Regina
- Friday, January 28, 2005 12:56 AM CST

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thanks for the update, I check all the time.
Sandy <gray56@optonline.net>
Bridgewater, NJ - Thursday, January 27, 2005 9:47 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family

Thank you for updating Laura. It warmed my heart to read your post, yet it still hurts to read your words. You, Jack and your sweet boys are all so close to my heart and very dear to me. I love all of you so much. Praying, praying and praying without end.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, January 27, 2005 8:42 PM CST

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Your family remains in my thoughts and prayers.
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
NJ - Thursday, January 27, 2005 1:49 PM CST

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Brenda http://www2.caringbridge.org/ca/daverurka/ <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton, AB Canada - Thursday, January 27, 2005 12:51 AM CST

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Just stopping in to let you know that I have not forgotten you. I think of and pray for you all the time. I hope things are going as well as they can be. I'm sure you miss Colby tremendously and always will. Just know you aren't forgotten. I love you guys. Blessings.
Khalita Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Wednesday, January 26, 2005 5:24 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and praying that all is well.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, January 25, 2005 7:12 PM CST

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Thanks for stopping by my Dad's site it means alot.I know what you mean about wanting our loved ones.They are truly missed.I miss my Dad so much,but I can't imagine what the loss of a child is like.My heart goes out to so many caringbridge families.They will never be forgotten for they will always be our angels.
Brenda http://www2.caringbridge.org/ca/daverurka/ <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton, AB Canada - Tuesday, January 25, 2005 12:32 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family

Praying for all of you to have a wonderful week.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, January 23, 2005 7:08 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Boy oh boy, or should I say angel oh angel? Today Heaven and the helpers were watching over the Cole-Dowler Family!!! Yet another story…

Today Tom went into work for me, as I was tired and had a feeling that I was getting sick. So, much to my protest, Faith convinced me to go outside in the snow to play with the dogs. I figured I might as well help Tom and do the shoveling, which I NEVER do, as my physical limitations do not allow, but I felt the need to. As I was shoveling I started to get very tired from my rotator cuff tears and rheumatoid arthritis and about half way through I decided to give up knowing that I may end up in bed or on pain killers for a few days, so I stopped. As I put everything away and was fighting with Faith to go inside, something pulled me back to the shoveling – the pain and frustration was gone and I had the strange (even to me) sense that I would be much better off toiling away at the work. I love the inclement weather and I was reminded of this as my thought’s turned to Colby and the beauty of God’s natural wonders. I kept smiling, thinking of Colby and the phrase “Strong like a bull”. 1 ½ hours later found me at the end (getting very proud of myself) overcome with a headache and happiness, but tiredness. I finished by the garage and smelled a faint smell of gas. It did not register immediately, but something kept beckoning me to walk over to the gas line into the house. It was then I realized we had a HUGE problem.

Several hours later, we had the problem fixed. We had a gas leak – a very dangerous one at that according to Columbia, yet all is well. I have lived here for 4 ½ years and this is only the 2nd time I have shoveled snow, as Tom always does it and it may have been a miracle from Heaven today that I did or simply a coincidence, yet I believe it was the first. Thank you Jesus and thank you Angel Baby for reminding me to push myself and stay “strong like a bull”. I love you Colby and know you were the one pushing me beyond my limits!

Now, I am ready for bed – good night Cole Family – sending love and huge hugs!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, January 22, 2005 8:53 PM CST

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Brenda http://www2.caringbridge.org/ca/daverurka/ <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton, AB Canada - Friday, January 21, 2005 7:14 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Happy Friday! We are finally settling in from a long week and looking forward to the grand snowstorm on the way. I pray that the storm will keep you close, warm and snuggled under a blanket with peace in your heart.

May God Bless You and Keep You In His Loving Care.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, January 21, 2005 7:13 PM CST

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Dearest Cole family,
The past few days I've spent reading through your journals of when Colby was still with us. Boy did it make me cry... and smile too of course :) I will NEVER forget how special he was...not only to me but to sooooo many others who followed his journey. I can't even begin to describe how happy and grateful I am to have stumbled upon his website so long ago...I had no idea I was starting a journey with the most amazing five year old I had come across in my entire life. I love your family to bits and keep each of you in my prayers...sending lots of love your way!!!!!!!

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Colby's fairygodmother forever, Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Friday, January 21, 2005 1:30 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just thinking of you and wanted to let you know.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, January 20, 2005 7:46 PM CST

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Good Afternoon Cole Family,
Just stopping by to say HI and let you know you were thought of today.
Many Blessings and Prayers sent your way
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, January 20, 2005 3:50 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending my love, huge hugs and big kisses for Cameron and Colton. Faith wanted me to say this (her exact words), “put from Faith too and I hope your brother grows up as handsome as you.” Obviously that was directed solely to Cameron! Oh my goodness!!!!!!

Have a wonderful night.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, January 18, 2005 7:40 PM CST

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Letting you know that your in our prayers and thoughts.
Sending lots of prayers your way.++++++++++++++++++
Love LaKota and her mom Debbie.
~*~LaKota~*~


http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@Hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Tuesday, January 18, 2005 9:57 AM CST

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Jack and Laura, I just love looking into the eyes of your precious angel. There I find myself sometimes and tonight this is one of those times. The first picture of Colby in the tub makes me giggle every time I look at it, so I think THAT picture has become my favorite. I love the one where he is in bed praying, but the one in the tub has become the “Heavenly” smile I see when I think of all the fun he is having in Heaven. Giggle on Angel Baby…

That being said, I must say those other little munchkins are so darn cute too. I know my daughter is so enamoured with Cameron STILL. You never know…

Sending my love and prayers to you this evening. I pray your dreams are filled with Colby’s presence.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, January 17, 2005 7:50 PM CST

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Good Afternoon Cole Family,
I wanted to share this poem with you. It is from the angel connections group I belong to. It was in the newsletter today.
Take care and May God Be With You Always.
Praying for you.






A Grieving Parent Is...


A grieving parent is someone who will never forget their child
no matter how painful memories are.


A grieving parent is someone who yearns to be with their dead
but cannot conceive leaving their living ones.


A grieving parent is someone who has part of a heart
as the rest is buried with their child.


A grieving parent is someone who begs for relief from the memories which plague them
and then feels guilty when they get it.


A grieving parent is someone who pretends to be happy and enjoying life
when they really are dying inside.


A grieving parent is someone who can cry or laugh at the drop of a hat
whenever they remember their beloved child.


A grieving parent is some who feels as if they just lost their child yesterday
no matter how much time has passed.


A grieving parent is someone who fears for their remaining family
because they cannot bear to have any more losses.


A grieving parent is someone who sits by their child's gravestone
and feels a knife stabbing their heart.


A grieving parent is someone who wants to help others who have lost loved ones
because somehow their loss is theirs all over again.


Copyright Judy Skapnik



Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, January 16, 2005 2:00 PM CST

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Thinking of you Cole's and sending my love.

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed!!!!!
Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, January 15, 2005 8:39 PM CST

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Laura and Jack,
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you!
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Saturday, January 15, 2005 12:48 AM CST

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Hey there sweet Angel Colby,
Thank you for coming to see me in my dream. I can still feel the kiss on my cheek and hear you whispering "I remember you". I wonder if how I saw you, is how you want to look...Just like your Daddy. I miss you and think of you all the time. I am so lucky to have had you as a little friend. Your Mommy and Daddy are amazing. They have more grace and courage than I have ever known or imagined a person can have. They miss you so much as does Cameron. Tonight I wish for you to whisper in their ears and kiss them too. I am sure you do everyday, but I want them to wake in the morning remembering it. I long to see you at your beautiful resting place, so I may have to brave the winter and take a drive. I must admit...I miss being face to face with your Mommy.
Missing you, but I take comfort in knowing you are safe.
Always,
Dana Big Hair
Dana"too far from Uniontown" Doctor Zackie's page
- Friday, January 14, 2005 9:54 PM CST

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Jack and Laura,
Just to let you know...you are always on my heart... While it is comforting to know Colby is home with the Lord, I know your pain and yearning remain very real while in this world. I know that is such an obvious statement but I guess I say it to let you know that I may not check in enough but please know that I'm praying to our Almighty God for your continued strength as you live out your life on earth without Colby. Cameron has been on my mind a lot too. Everytime I see my girls having fun playing etc. I get an instant flash of Cameron and Colby being the best of buddies and my heart gets heavy. I'm sure he's a great big brother to Colton. Hope I get to see Colton soon. Your boys will remain in our prayers. Hope they are healthy and giggling.


We Love you guys,
Kristi <vze42kq7@verizon.net>
Uniontown, PA - Friday, January 14, 2005 8:54 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just here and just praying as always.

Dear Sweet Berneice, how lovely and real your post was tonight. I am praying for you too.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, January 13, 2005 8:18 PM CST

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Good evening Cole family,

I saw this poem in my greiving parents site and thought I would share it with you.

Mommy, please don't cry a beautiful angel carried me here. I met Jesus today, Mommy. He cradled me in his big, strong arms. He made me feel so happy inside.Mommy, please dont cry...Heaven is wonderful! Did you know the streets are made of gold? Real gold! I have lots of friends, Mommy. We run and play, we giggle and laugh. I can't wait to show you my secret hide outs! Mommy, please don't cry...When I fall it dosen't hurt! There are no tears in Heaven. I met a man named Noah. He told me about his boat, all the animals, and the very first rainbow. Have you heard of Noah, mommy?Mommy, please don't cry...We have lots of parties here; streamers and hats, and the best chocolate cake ever! When it is time to rest, angels tuck us in. I never get scared Mommy, there is no darkness here! Jesus is the light of Heaven.Mommy, please don't cry... The angels are always singing. I love to sing with the angels! You,d be proud of me, I have a pretty good voice. I must have gotten it from you. There is a river, Mommy, in the most beautiful garden you could ever imagine...and a huge tree with yummy fruit. The angels call it the tree of life. Mommy, it is so wonderful to be alive in Heaven! Mommy please don't cry...Sometimes I just like to be by myself. That's when I think of you. Someday, Mommy, we will hold each other tight! Then you will cradle me in your arms, and stroke my hair...And once again our hearts will beat together. Mommy, please don't cry...I'll wait right here for you.

by Linda DeYmaz


take care praying for you always
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, January 13, 2005 5:38 PM CST

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Good Evening Cole Family,
I was in my greiving parents group today and saw this poem:

Mommy, please don't cry a beautiful angel carried me here. I met Jesus today, Mommy. He cradled me in his big, strong arms. He made me feel so happy inside.Mommy, please dont cry...Heaven is wonderful! Did you know the streets are made of gold? Real gold! I have lots of friends, Mommy. We run and play, we giggle and laugh. I can't wait to show you my secret hide outs! Mommy, please don't cry...When I fall it dosen't hurt! There are no tears in Heaven. I met a man named Noah. He told me about his boat, all the animals, and the very first rainbow. Have you heard of Noah, mommy?Mommy, please don't cry...We have lots of parties here; streamers and hats, and the best chocolate cake ever! When it is time to rest, angels tuck us in. I never get scared Mommy, there is no darkness here! Jesus is the light of Heaven.Mommy, please don't cry... The angels are always singing. I love to sing with the angels! You,d be proud of me, I have a pretty good voice. I must have gotten it from you. There is a river, Mommy, in the most beautiful garden you could ever imagine...and a huge tree with yummy fruit. The angels call it the tree of life. Mommy, it is so wonderful to be alive in Heaven! Mommy please don't cry...Sometimes I just like to be by myself. That's when I think of you. Someday, Mommy, we will hold each other tight! Then you will cradle me in your arms, and stroke my hair...And once again our hearts will beat together. Mommy, please don't cry...I'll wait right here for you.

by Linda DeYmaz

I just had to share it with you.
Take Care Praying for you always
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, January 13, 2005 5:20 PM CST

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Dear Loved Ones,

I am thinking of you today and your sweet Angel Baby. When times are difficult for me I think of you Jack and Laura and put everything back into perspective, yet in these most tumultuous times I know God and the angels are with me and I find comfort. So, tonight I thank the Heavens and sincerely pray for you. Your longing, your search for peace, your emptiness, your search for comfort, your cries and screams when with and when without people that truly understand, your simple tasks that must go on no matter what, and your “being” that is a reality for you – all this and more my prayer will be for you. I love you – God and Colby does too – this I REALLY know to be true.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, January 12, 2005 9:20 PM CST

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Cole family,
I pray the new year is bringing your family some peace. Stopping by to say hi and let you know my e-mail address has changed. Take care.

with love <Deirdre40@frontiernet.net>
- Wednesday, January 12, 2005 4:11 PM CST

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Good evening Cole Family,
Just checking in. Have been a little down so thought I would stop by and see Angel Colby's Smile.
Take Care
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Wednesday, January 12, 2005 3:32 PM CST

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Dear Laura and Jack, Please know that as time goes on I have not forgotten. You are always in my heart and prayers.Colby will always be remembered.Much love to all of you as your journey continues.

Regina
- Tuesday, January 11, 2005 7:25 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and sending my prayers.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, January 11, 2005 6:49 PM CST

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How precious Colby is! I am so sorry for your loss and am so sorry for your plain. I learned about him through my nehpew Reid Miller's website. My heart goes out to you and your family will be in my prayers.
Shannon Fry <frysd@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, TN USA - Tuesday, January 11, 2005 12:35 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Just checking in to see how things are going in the new year. Praying for you. Take Care

Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Monday, January 10, 2005 3:16 AM CST

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Hi Cole family. I think I found your site from Zach Doctors. We met Dana at CHOP during our BMT. I enjoyed seeing all the cute pictures of the boys. How precious they all are. I hope 2005 brings you a lot of happiness. What a tribute you've given your son by rising from the devastation of your loss and moving forward- I'm sure using the power of your son's love. You sound like a remarkable family.
Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan, Reese & ^^Reid^^!
Carol Miller <dmill3@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Sunday, January 9, 2005 2:56 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray you are having a fantastic weekend and have a blessed Sunday tomorrow. We have my niece Emily here and she asked if we could do the “Colby Dance”! It brought such warmth to my heart that she remembered from the last time she stayed.

Never forgotten Angel Baby – I love you!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, January 8, 2005 8:35 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and praying that you have a very restful weekend. Colby has been on my mind today and I feel close to Heaven and to the sweet angels.

May God’s love and precious Angel Colby’s love give you comfort and peace tonight.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, January 7, 2005 8:52 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Happy belated Birthday Laura! I hope you had a good one. I am sure your boys made the day special for you.

Praying for you as always.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, January 6, 2005 8:34 PM CST

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The Images of your mother at different stages of your life:

4 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mommy can do anything!

8 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!

12 YEARS OF AGE ~ My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.

14 YEARS OF AGE ~ Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either.

16 YEARS OF AGE ~ Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.

18 YEARS OF AGE ~ That old woman? She's way out of date!

25 YEARS OF AGE ~ Well, she might know a little bit about it.

35 YEARS OF AGE ~ Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion!

45 YEARS OF AGE ~ Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?

65 YEARS OF AGE ~ I sure wish I could talk it over with Mom...

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, January 5, 2005 9:45 AM CST

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Hi Laura!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you have a fantastic day and are spoilt rotten by your boys :) I know Colby is singing you happy birthday from Heaven... thinking of you on your special day...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & hugs,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Wednesday, January 5, 2005 5:25 AM CST

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Dear Cole family,
I see from Dana's entry below that it is Laura's birthday...so Happy Birthday Laura and I hope it has been a wonderful one. I know that the Christmas season is bittersweet for you because you love the Lord and want to celebrate His birth with your two children here on earth, but there is still an emptiness because precious Colby is not here to share it with you. I am so sorry for that ache and pain that you feel with him being gone. I know there are no words to offer, but I can offer my prayers. My prayer for you in 2005 is a year filled with peace and hope. Continuing to remember you in my prayers and God bless always.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Tuesday, January 4, 2005 10:17 PM CST

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Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday dear Laura...Happy Birthday to you!
Love you,
Dana Big Hair
Dana Doctor
- Tuesday, January 4, 2005 9:39 AM CST

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THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS.
Brenda http://www2.caringbridge.org/ca/daverurka/
Edmonton, AB Canada - Monday, January 3, 2005 2:18 AM CST

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HAPPY NEW YEAR Cole family!!!!!
Just here to let you guys know I'm thinking of each of you this new year...a new year, new beginnings...but not a day without remembering the past and what Colby Cole was all about!! I hope and pray you guys are doing good and keeping up just fine :) Sending all my love from Down Under...love ya'll!!!

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love,
XOOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, January 3, 2005 0:59 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I am praying for all of you tonight. You are on my mind as I unwind my day. 2005 will be a great year with new beginnings and promises to come. May God’s love hold you close tonight and may you feel so much love from above.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, January 2, 2005 8:55 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, January 1, 2005 8:15 PM CST

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Happy New Year Cole Family,
I pray you are having a wonderful and beautiful day today. The weather is just beautiful here. Who could ask for a better way to start the day.
Take Care
Praying for you always

Wanted to share this beautiful poem with you.

Twas thE night Jesus came
and all through the house,
not a person was praying
not one in the house.
The Bible was left
on the shelf without care,
for no one thought Jesus would come there.
The children were dressing to crawl into bed,
not once ever kneeling or bowing their head,
and Mom in the rocking chair
with babe on her lap, was watching the Late show
as I took a nap.

When out of the East
there rose such a clatter
I sprang to my feet
to see what was the matter..
Away to the window
I flew like a flash,
tore open the shutters
and lifted the sash,
when what to my wondering eyes should appear
but angels proclaiming
that Jesus was here.

The light of his face
made me cover my head..
was Jesus returning
just like he'd said..
and though I possessed
worldly wisdom and wealth,
I cried when I saw him
in spite of myself.

In the Book of Life
which he held in his hand,
was written the name
of every saved man.

He spoke not a word
as he searched for my name,
when he said "it's not here"
my head hung in shame.

The people whose names
had been written with love,
he gathered to take
to his Father above.

With those who are ready
he rose without sound,
while all of the others
were left standing around.

I fell to my knees
but it was too late,
I'd waited too long
and thus sealed my fate.

I stood and I cried
as they rose out of sight,
oh, if only I'd known
that this was the night.

In the words of this poem
the meaning is clear
the coming of Jesus
is now drawing near.

There's only one life
and when comes the last call
We'll find out the Bible
was true after all.

B BASIC
I INSTRUCTIONS
B BEFORE
L LEAVING
E EARTH.

PASS THIS ALONG TO ALL YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS
START THE NEW YEAR RIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Saturday, January 1, 2005 12:44 AM CST

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Happy New Year Cole Family,

My prayer for you tonight is that 2005 will bring peace, love and so much comfort into your home. I love all of you and believe that 05 will be a blessing to you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, December 31, 2004 8:17 PM CST

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("HAPPY NEW YEAR") TO ALL YOU ("BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE")
WHO COME TO VISIT
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE")

Happy New Year Just For You

When I go to bed my prayers
are just for you!!!
My thoughts of friendship
are just for you!!!!
All my hopes and wishes
are just for you!!!!
My dreams of happiness
are just for you!!!
When I am happy it is
because of you!!!
When feeling blessed it is
because of you!!!
So I write this poem of Love
just for you!!!!!
Love You so much ("MY LITTLE BUDDY"),
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE")
With Love Forever and Ever,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, December 31, 2004 12:24 AM CST

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Hi- I am thinking of you all. I hoping and praying your first Christmas with Colton was a blessing sent from Colby.
Jackie is well and getting stronger by the day 15 months cancer free. Love and prayers, Dede
d roth <pauljr@cape.k12.mo.us>
Cape GIr, Mo - Thursday, December 30, 2004 7:47 PM CST

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Well, I am sorry for the duplicate posts Laura. I kept coming in the guest book and my entry wasn't there.
But, now I see it was there just wasn't there LOL.
I have a poem from the Angel Connections I wanted to share with all of you.

Sometimes we can't help
but ask the reason "why?"..
when a person we love
will just suddenly die!
Our heart is emptied
and replaced with pain.
There's such a heartache
that no words can explain!

For, one day he's here...
but the next day, he's gone!
You're surrounded by love,
Yet you feel lost and alone!
Everyone has felt the sting of death...
at some point in their life!
They know it cuts into your heart...
just like a two-edged knife!

But, there's one thing
that we must all understand...
without "death", he can't walk
with God hand in hand!
And, if he could come back today...
to this cruel worldly place!
He'd tell you how great Heaven is,
as he'd wipe the tears from your face!

He'd tell you that Heaven
is such a beauty to behold;
that the paths are lined with jewels...
that he walks on streets made of gold!
He'd tell you not to cry for him...
To stop the flow of your tears!
For he now walks with Angels,
And...he'll always be near!

Written by: Kaye Des'Ormeaux
Copyright 1998
(June 2, 1998)
Dedicated to anyone
who has lost a loved one!



Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, December 30, 2004 8:25 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Something about that tiny Angel Colby that draws me here. I was checking my e-mails and Angel Colby popped into my head. I love him and never even knew him. I have regrets so many times that my chance came up to see him and I just didn't push myself to go. I know Angel Colby is in the minds of so many people. His love was just amazing. I sit and read articles and look at pictures and just sigh.
My Angel Charlene is with Angel Colby. Char was a kid at heart. Never had the chance to grow up either. Those two and all the others up there in that big place in the beautiful sky called : HEAVEN look down on all of us and wonder, why so much violence when we have such a beautiful place to spend eternity.
I pray that you will have a Blessed New Year, Peace within,
with so much Love to share........ :)
Take Care Cole Family,
You are in my daily prayers and on my mind always...
May God Be With You Always
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, December 30, 2004 5:23 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Something about that tiny Angel Colby that draws me here. I was checking my e-mails and Angel Colby popped into my head. I love him and never even knew him. I have regrets so many times that my chance came up to see him and I just didn't push myself to go. I know Angel Colby is in the minds of so many people. His love was just amazing. I sit and read articles and look at pictures and just sigh.
My Angel Charlene is with Angel Colby. Char was a kid at heart. Never had the chance to grow up either. Those two and all the others up there in that big place in the beautiful sky called : HEAVEN look down on all of us and wonder, why so much violence when we have such a beautiful place to spend eternity.
I pray that you will have a Blessed New Year, Peace within,
with so much Love to share........ :)
Take Care Cole Family,
You are in my daily prayers and on my mind always...
May God Be With You Always
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, December 30, 2004 5:17 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Something about that tiny Angel Colby that draws me here. I was checking my e-mails and Angel Colby popped into my head. I love him and never even knew him. I have regrets so many times that my chance came up to see him and I just didn't push myself to go. I know Angel Colby is in the minds of so many people. His love was just amazing. I sit and read articles and look at pictures and just sigh.
My Angel Charlene is with Angel Colby. Char was a kid at heart. Never had the chance to grow up either. Those two and all the others up there in that big place in the beautiful sky called : HEAVEN look down on all of us and wonder, why so much violence when we have such a beautiful place to spend eternity.
I pray that you will have a Blessed New Year, Peace within,with so much Love to share........ :)
Take Care Cole Family,
You are in my daily prayers and on my mind always...
May God Be With You Always
Love,Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, December 30, 2004 5:16 AM CST

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Oh Sweet Angel Colby… I have a thousand (plus) pictures on my computer screen saver, yet this past week your sweet smile keeps crossing my computer time and time again. Just when I need it the most – TYJ and TYAC!!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, December 29, 2004 8:51 PM CST

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Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton
("Angel Cobly James Cole")

The Rules For Being Human

YOU WILL RECEIVE A BODY
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period you're around.

YOU WILL LEARN LESSONS
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.

THERE ARE NO MISTAKES, ONLY LESSONS
Growth is a process of trial and error, experimentation. The "Failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately "works".

A LESSON IS REPEATED UNTIL LEARNED
A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can then go on to the next lesson.

LEARNING LESSONS DOES NOT END
There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

"THERE" IS NO BETTER THAN "HERE"
When your "There" has become a "Here", you will simply obtain another "There" that will, again, look better than "Here".

OTHERS ARE MERELY MIRRORS OF YOU
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

WHAT YOU MAKE OF YOUR LIFE IS UP TO YOU
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

YOUR ANSWERS LIE INSIDE YOU
The answers to life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen and trust.

YOU WILL FORGET ALL OF THIS
Unless you consistently stay focused on the goals you have set for yourself, everything you've just read won't mean a thing.

~Author Unknown~
Love,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, December 29, 2004 12:05 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Thinking of you and praying that you have a wonderful night and a blessed day tomorrow.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, December 28, 2004 8:51 PM CST

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Good evening Cole Family,
Just checking in.
Praying all is well at your house.
Are you settled in yet Jack?
I was going to pop in icu this morning Laura but I got busy.
Take Care and May God Be With You Always

Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Tuesday, December 28, 2004 5:00 PM CST

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Hi Coles. Just stopping in to wish you a Happy New Year filled with memories of Colby and "visits" from him that remind you that he is with you! New pictures of the boys?? :) Always in my thoughts and prayers,
Cassandra <cmraven@msn.com>
Albuquerque, NM - Tuesday, December 28, 2004 0:56 AM CST

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Laura and Jack,
Hoping that your Christmas was peaceful and happy. Laura,I do hope that AngelColby will come and visit you in your dreams. I know you will find much comfort there.

Hugs and Love
Regina
- Monday, December 27, 2004 10:22 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I am stopping by tonight just to tell you that I love you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, December 27, 2004 8:35 PM CST

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Jack,Laura, Cameron & Colton
To You("Angel Colby James Cole")
Who Has It All, No More ("PAIN & SUFFERING")
I also do not want to foget all
("THE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE THAT COME TO VISIT")
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES Cole")

May you get a clean bill of health from your dentist, your cardiologist, your gastro-enterologist, your urologist, your proctologist, your podiatrist, your psychiatrist, your plumber and the I.R.S.

May your hair, your teeth, your face-lift, your abs and your stocks not fall; and may your blood pressure, your triglycerides, your cholesterol, your white blood count and your mortgage interest not rise.

May New Year's Eve find you seated around the table, together with your beloved family and cherished friends. May you find the food better, the environment quieter, the cost much cheaper, and the pleasure much more fulfilling than anything else you might ordinarily do that night.

May what you see in the mirror delight you, and what others see in you delight them. May someone love you enough to forgive your faults, be blind to your blemishes, and tell the world about your virtues.

May the telemarketers wait to make their sales calls until you finish dinner, may the commercials on TV not be louder than the program you have been watching, and may your check book and your budget balance - and include generous amounts for charity.

May you remember to say "I love you" at least once a day to your spouse, your child, your parent, your siblings; but not to your secretary, your nurse, your masseuse, your hairdresser or your tennis instructor.

And may we live in a world at peace and with the awareness of God's love in every sunset, every flower's unfolding petals, every baby's smile, every lover's kiss, and every wonderful, astonishing, miraculous beat of our heart.

~Extracts from a Prayer by Rabbi Jacob Pressman~
LOVE YOU ALL,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, December 26, 2004 1:02 PM CST

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Dearest Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
Hey guys! I hope you've each had a wonderful, happy and blessed Christmas, surrounded by love, family and friends. I know it must be so hard celebrating the season without your precious Colby, but know that I pray for God to grant each of you the strength that you need. It's tough but you're all doing great and I know Colby would be so proud of all of you!! Well, we always celebrate a warm Christmas here Down Under...and it has been really nice for me this year. Quiet, but nice. Sending lots of love to each of you during this holiday season.. love you guys!

***MERRY CHRISTMAS in Heaven Colby! You are so missed!!!***

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & prayers,
XOXOXOXOXOX
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Sunday, December 26, 2004 1:23 AM CST

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As this day of celebration of the birth of Jesus is unwinding, as I tucked my sweet Faith into bed and as I now sit exhausted looking at my beautiful angel tree top – I was and am thinking of you Colby. I am reminded of that “smell” I once had and the comfort you have brought to me. I feel so enveloped with love, yet sorrowful as well. How wonderful it must be to actually be in Heaven celebrating with Jesus tonight and how wonderful the cake and manna must taste. I miss you Colby and I know that there are people here, especially your mommy and daddy, that long for you so much that mere words cannot describe that feeling. Yet, you know all that Angel Baby – huh? I love you and I feel so blessed by your undying love. Please tell Jesus “Happy Birthday” for me Angel Baby!!

Praying for you Jack and Laura and your sweet boys. Merry “Christ”mas and sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, December 25, 2004 9:16 PM CST

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As this day of celebration of the birth of Jesus is unwinding, as I tucked my sweet Faith into bed and as I now sit exhausted looking at my beautiful angel tree top – I was and am thinking of you Colby. I am reminded of that “smell” I once had and the comfort you have brought to me. I feel so enveloped with love, yet sorrowful as well. How wonderful it must be to actually be in Heaven celebrating with Jesus tonight and how wonderful the cake and manna must taste. I miss you Colby and I know that there are people here, especially your mommy and daddy, that long for you so much that mere words cannot describe that feeling. Yet, you know all that Angel Baby – huh? I love you and I feel so blessed by your undying love. Please tell Jesus “Happy Birthday” for me Angel Baby!!

Praying for you Jack and Laura and your sweet boys. Merry “Christ”mas and sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, December 25, 2004 9:16 PM CST

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Just wanted to stop by and let you know that I did visit with Angel Colby today. I also stopped by and had a visit with little Angel Noah also.
It is so sad to go to a cemetery and visit children on a holiday. But I like to stop by now and then to visit the little angels at Mt. Macrina. It just shouldn't be.
Well hope your day went well.
Hey Cameron did you get what you wanted from Santa?
Hope you enjoyed your day.
My grandchildren had so much fun. Their day hasn't ended yet. I just left there and they are still in full force. Don't even seem to be getting tired out yet.
Well Cole Family
Take Care and May God Be With You
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Saturday, December 25, 2004 9:01 PM CST

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We are thinking of each of you and remembering sweet Colby today (always really). Thank you so much for being a part of our lives and for continuing to follow Katia's journey. That means so much to me! Love, Tracy and Katia (a.k.a. "The Ladybug")
Fighting leukemia AML with a vengence!
Sharing Hope on the Wings of a Ladybug



Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Saturday, December 25, 2004 2:42 PM CST

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Always remembering Colby James. He has forever changed my life...for the better, just as you have Laura. I hope the only tears today are tears of joy from the joyous memories of Colby and the wonder of watching Cameron and Colton.
Thinking of all of you. I hope to see you guys soon.
All my love,
Dana Big Hair
Missing you Colby!
Dana Doctor
- Saturday, December 25, 2004 3:35 AM CST

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Merry Christmas Cole Family,
I just wanted to visit with you before the eve is over.
I have been thinking of you alot today.
When I opened the mail today I had tears of sadness and joy all at the same time. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the Christmas card of Angel Colbys tree on it. It is just beautiful. I will keep it forever.
Thank you for the picture too. Colton sure is growing. He is getting to be a handful I'll bet. He sure is a cutie pie. Cameron is so handsome. Hope Santa brings you everything you want little one.
Well Cole family, You will be on my mind throughout these next few days during this holiday.
I am going to visit Angel Colby tomorrow. I have a little Santa for him.
I got these 2 poems from a friend at Angel Connections. The group I am in. These ladies are just wonderful. You would love them too Laura.

I hope you enjoy the poems as much as I did. Grab a hankie they were a tear jerker for me.

I visited with Angel Char this evening. I went and lit the christmas lights I put on her grave blanket. Those batteries just seem to freeze up before the morning gets here from the cold. But thats ok. Char sees the pretty christmas decorations I leave for her.
May you have a day filled with Peace within and Joy tomorrow.
Take Care Cole Family.
May God Be With You Always
Praying for you daily.



CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN


Christmas in Heaven must be a wondrous thing
Think of the choir there, gathered to sing...

Think of the party for our Jesus' birth...
So much more joyous than parties on Earth

Think of the Light, they've all come to know...
So very much brighter than our lights here below

Think of the music that is heard all the while...
Perfectly played, and in every style

Think of the love that fills every day...
The spirit of angels who go on their way...

Think of the beauty and wonder above...
It must be a Heavenly Christmas of Love




Christmas In The Cemetery

Decorations placed so carefully,
Trees glittering so prettily,
Make you forget temporarily,
Spending Christmas in the cemetery.

No carols playing merrily,
No siblings giggling with glee,
My son has no presents under the tree,
Spending Christmas in the cemetery.

The silence settles eerily,
Family looks about uneasily,
It's clear that no one wants to be,
Spending Christmas in the cemetery.

As years go by, it's plain to see,
I try to keep alive your memory,
But no one's here, just you and me,
Spending Christmas in the cemetery.

This is my fate, unhappily,
I won't abandon our child, you see,
So every year, here's where I'll be,
Spending Christmas in the cemetery.


Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, December 24, 2004 10:29 PM CST

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A PRAYER FOR CHRISTMAS


God Give Us eyes this Christmas
To see the Christmas Star.
And give us ears to hear the song
of angels from afar

And, with our eyes and ears attuned
for a message from above,
Let "Christmas Angels" speak to us
of hope and faith and love

Hope to light our pathway
When the way ahead is dark,
Hope to sing through stormy days,
with the sweetness of the lark

Faith to trust in things unseen
and know beyond all seeing
That it is in our Fathers love
We live and have our being

And love to break down barriers
of color, race and creed,
Love to see and understand
and help all those in need.

Lord, bless those we love this Christmas Day,be they near or far away Bless those good friends who mean so much and those with whom we're out of touch. We bring them all to You in prayer, and ask You to keep them in Your care.

Please know that you are thought of, in a very special way, not just this beautiful season but every day.
Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
- Friday, December 24, 2004 10:13 PM CST

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Dear Cameron and Colton,

Guess who I just saw??????? SANTA!!!! Ho, Ho, Ho. I bet Colby is helping Santa at your house tonight boys! I love you and know that tomorrow will be wonderful for you two. Trust me, I know it will be great – Santa told me so!!!!!!

Thinking of you Jack and Laura and praying as always.

Thinking of you too Aunt Dee and my prayers go out to you as well.

Sending love and huge hugs to ALL the Coles tonight.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, December 24, 2004 9:22 PM CST

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("Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton")
I'm all alone on ("THIS Christmas Day")
Except for You ("My Angel Baby")
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE") I feel your Blessing!!
I feel you around me today sharing your
time with me and all the people you
("LOVE")!!!!

Merry Christmas to all,
As Christmas time approaches,
may your heart be filled with joy.
May every child in your family
have their very most-wished for toy.
May you find time in your busy life,
to brighten this day for a lonely one.
May you find enough silver , lining your pockets,
to share with the folks who have none.
And may we all remember the Original Gift
that we celebrate, for it's true.
The blessings you share with others,
all circulate back to you.
Let our hearts not be sad o'er the loss of our loved ones,
but rather recall their love, once more.
Let us all heed tradition and share what we have,
as did those in the days of yore.
("May the warmth of the love of those gone before us"),
continue to bless us, ("we pray").
May sweet recollections of Christmases past,
enrich our Christmas on this Blessed Day.
Author Unknown
Love You all Forever and Ever,
Aunt DEE
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, December 24, 2004 2:03 PM CST

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Thinking of you all this holiday season!!

Love,hugs, and forever moving FORWARD..
Eva and Rodney <KWfan4ever@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 24, 2004 7:19 AM CST

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happy holidays
sandy <gray56@optonline.net>
Bridgewater, - Friday, December 24, 2004 6:58 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I just wanted to stop by and send my love and a lot of hugs. I am so sorry for my lack of posts. We have been dealing with some “issues” and I have not been able to get to my computer. In the midst of my problems, I know God and sweet Angel Baby are here with me – TYJ and TYAC!!!

I pray you are doing well and have moments of sheer joy this weekend. I love all of you so much!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, December 23, 2004 9:11 PM CST

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Praying for each of you especially at Christmas!
LK
Urbana, IL USA - Thursday, December 23, 2004 10:12 AM CST

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Remembering your family and Colby this holiday season. May you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Give your other two adorable boys a kiss for me...
Hugs and Prayers
Deneen
www.caringbridge.org/page/tiffanie
Deneen Gethouas <dgethouas@state.pa,.us>
Enola, PA USA - Thursday, December 23, 2004 9:16 AM CST

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Remembering Colby and Remembering All of You During this Holiday Season

We thought of Colby today, but that is nothing new.
We thought of Colby yesterday, and will tomorrow too.
And we also think of all of you as well,
even though you make no outward show.
For what it means to lose a child,
we will never truly know.
Remembering Colby will be easy,
he was such a special joy each day.
But we will remember your heartache as well,
which we know will never go away.

Thinking of you during this Holiday Season and wishing you a peaceful Holiday Season...You all are in out hearts and prayers...Love: Sandy, Paul, Zachary and Tristin
Sandy Kaiser <mkskay@verizon.net>
Masontown, PA USA - Thursday, December 23, 2004 9:04 AM CST

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Hello! I've come here many time and just need to say that Colby and Colton look so much alike! Amazing! Wishing you a peaceful Holiday and a Healthy New Year full of happy memories with your new baby and your family!
Jenn Hartley <ronjenn696@prodigy.net>
Bensalem, PA USA - Thursday, December 23, 2004 6:16 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family-just thinking of you during this holiday season & always.
Eileen Spratt <etspratt@charter.net>
Eureka, MO - Wednesday, December 22, 2004 7:53 PM CST

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Hello Cole Family,
Just stopped by to check in. Was sitting watching Childrens Hospital on channel 2 and had to come check out little Angel Colby.
Those little ones on there just break my heart.
Thanks for the update Laura.
And Jack some day you will be organized again. Until then, good luck on finding your clothes LOL
Hey Cameron are you ready for Santa. Only a few more days.
Well Laura, it was nice seeing you the other morning at work.

I am going to visit Angel Colby tomorrow. I would like to visit with him before Christmas.

Take Care Cole Family
May God Be With You Always
Praying for you with my morning prayers daily.

Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Tuesday, December 21, 2004 8:30 PM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

Praying for you tonight and thinking of you. Thank you for the update Laura. I read it last night, but did not sign in, as sometimes (most of the time) I do not know what to say. I have said so much on this page, yet I know there are no words to make it any better – I wish I had the power to take the pain away. Since I do not, I just leave you with the FACT that there is the eternal love I have for Colby and you and your family –I love all FIVE of you so much!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, December 20, 2004 9:00 PM CST

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Cole's -

I hope you have lots of peace and joy to balance your grief this holiday season. All 3 of your boys are so beautiful! We think of all of you often. The image of Colby and Connor playing together gets me through lots of nights!

With love -
Jim, Rachel, Angel Connor and Noah
- Monday, December 20, 2004 6:04 PM CST

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Remembering Angel Colby and wishing the family Peace. You're in our prayers.


Smile Quilts Angels and all your friends at Smile Quilts <smilequilts@smilequilts.com>
- Monday, December 20, 2004 5:31 AM CST

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Laura, Thank you for the update.Have been thinking of you guys so very much in the last fews weeks especially with the holiday season. You all are never far from my thoughts and heart. I cannot imagine the ache you have deep in your heart.Always praying that you all will find some peace as you continue this journey here withouth sweet Colby. Many hugs to you all
Regina
- Sunday, December 19, 2004 5:34 PM CST

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To all you wonderful Parent"s whom get to read this
wonderful story to there children!!!!
("Twas the night before Christmas")

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there;
The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads;
And mamma in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,
Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,
When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.
The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
Gave the lustre of mid-day to objects below,
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a miniature sleigh, and eight tiny reindeer,
With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.
More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,
And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name;
"Now, Dasher! Now, Dancer! Now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On Cupid! On, Donder and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!"
As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky,
So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
With the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too.
And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my hand, and was turning around,
Down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.
He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot;
A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,
And he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.
His eyes -- how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow;
The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath;
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook, when he laughed like a bowlful of jelly.
He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself;
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread;
He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled all the stockings; then turned with a jerk,
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose;
He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, ere he drove out of sight,
"Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night."
"The Night Before Christmas," by Clement Clarke Moore
Merry Christmas to all you BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE
With Love,
Janice Cole Wright
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, December 19, 2004 12:27 AM CST

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Dear cole Family,
I was just surfing the net and you popped in my mind. Had to stop by to say Hi
Take Care
May God Be With You Always.
Praying for you daily.

Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, December 19, 2004 10:38 AM CST

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Oh sweet Angel Baby, you are really on my mind tonight. I cannot believe that you are gone. I wrapped presents today and found myself gazing at my angel treetop and thinking of you. Just thinking of you Colby…I love you. You are part of me – in my heart, in my soul and always on my mind… A connection I cannot explain.

Praying for you Cole’s.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, December 18, 2004 8:48 PM CST

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You guys continue to be very much in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings in Christ and Merry Christmas.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Friday, December 17, 2004 5:05 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Stopping by to send my love, as always.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, December 16, 2004 8:44 PM CST

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Thinking of your family today.
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
NJ - Thursday, December 16, 2004 2:05 PM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

Just here and sending love. I pray tonight finds you with peace and love from above.

Colby – my angel treetop is so precious to me and reminds me of you; however YOU ARE MY ANGEL AND I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, December 15, 2004 8:53 PM CST

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I followed Colby's story LONG before he entered heaven and I still come back quite often to see how you're all holding up. Your new son is beautiful. I have a daughter right around his age. She was born March 23, 2004! You're going to have to watch out with Cameron...the girls will be all over him :-)
Danielle ~ Friends of Allie ~ My story
Santa Clarita, CA USA - Tuesday, December 14, 2004 2:58 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Praying for you and sending love. If there were something I could say to ease your pain, I would say it - unfortunately, I am sure I cannot, so I send my heart and soul to you tonight. Always praying, praying and praying. You are strong Cole’s and “stay strong like a bull”. Look up, as you know all that is looking down – tenfold.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, December 13, 2004 9:00 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I am not sure if I ever mentioned to you that my uncle is a songwriter in TN, but he is and we happen to be friends of a country singer, Andy Griggs. I am not a big Country Music Fan, but pray for Andy nonetheless. My cousin told me that I would love Andy’s new song and he was right as I do. I hope you have the chance to see the video and/or hear the song. Andy really is a decent man and truly loves his family and his angel brother. I found the lyrics and wanted to share them with you:

If heaven was an hour, it would be twilight
When the fireflies start dancin on the lawn
And suppers on the stove and mammas laughin
And everybody’s workin day is done

If heaven was a town it would be my town
Oh…on a summer day in 1985
And everything I wanted is out there waiting
And everyone I loved is still alive

Chorus:
Don’t cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time we all must say goodbye
And if that’s what heavens made of
You know I, I ain’t afraid to die

If heaven was a pie it would be cherry
So, Cool and sweet and heavy on the tongue
And just one bite would satisfy your hunger
And there’d always be enough for everyone

If heaven was a train it sure would be a fast one
that could take this weary traveler round the bend
if heaven was a tear it'd be my last one
And you’d be in my arms again

Chorus:
Don’t cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time we must all say goodbye
And if that’s what heavens made of
You know I, I ain’t afraid to die

Yea, if that’s what heavens made of
You know I, I ain’t afraid to die…..

I love the four of you and your precious Angel Baby.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, December 12, 2004 8:51 PM CST

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("Christmas In Heaven")

The following poem was written by a mother in honor of her 13-year-old daughter
who passed away at Christmas time a few years ago.

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
With tiny light, like Heaven's stars
reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular,
please wipe away that tear,
For I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
For it is beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask Him to lift your spirit
as I tell Him of your love
so then pray for one another
as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in Heaven
and I'm walking with the King.

~By Wanda Bencke~
bencke@ponyexpress.net
Copyright 1998
Published By Permission
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, December 12, 2004 11:25 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
I was in this site and just had to share it with you.

http://www.spiritisup.com/childgoestoheavenlh.html

It is so beautiful
Have a Good Day. :)
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, December 12, 2004 8:44 AM CST

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Thinking of all of you during this very difficult holiday season. You're all in my continued prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Saturday, December 11, 2004 7:20 PM CST

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Dear Angel Colby,

Why in a million years did I find my angel so far away from my “Christ”mas decorations wrapped in an old rug that was meant to go to the garbage last year? It just does not make sense, but thank you for reminding me that hope and faith remain. We just put her on the tree and she is stunning and beautiful just like you Angel Baby.

Sending love to you Cole’s.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, December 10, 2004 8:23 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just stopping by to send my love and hugs.

Looking for that tree-top Angel Baby...

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, December 9, 2004 8:26 PM CST

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Dear Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton!
Hey you guys...just checking in :) Hope things are going well where you are...have things slowed down for you at work, Jack? I hope so, with the holidays approaching and everything. Right now, I'm back in Malaysia on a 3 week break just visiting dad, the rest of the family and some very dearly missed friends!!! I'm having a blast though.. it's great not having to wake up and go to work :) Anyways, just wanted to check in and make sure you guys are doing good...I'm sure you are as Colby watches over you every second of the day! Thinking of each of you and your precious, gorgeous, most beautiful angel up above... take care!!!

***Miss you Colby, buddy***

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Wednesday, December 8, 2004 12:45 AM CST

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The Christmas Rose

When the Magi laid their rich offerings of gold, frankincense, and myrrh by the bed of the sleeping Christ Child, legend says that a shepherd maiden stood outside the door quietly weeping.

She, too, had sought the Christ Child. She, too, desired to bring him gifts. But she had nothing to offer, for she was very poor indeed. In vain she had searched the countryside over for one little flower to bring Him, but she could find neither bloom nor leaf, for the winter had been cold.

As she stood there weeping, a passing angel saw her sorrow, and, stooping, brushed aside the snow at her feet. And there sprang up on the spot a cluster of beautiful winter roses, -- waxen white with pink-tipped petals.

"Nor myrrh, nor frankincense, nor gold," said the angel, "is offering more meet for the Christ Child than these pure Christmas Roses."

Joyfully the shepherd maiden gathered the flowers and made her offering to the Holy Child. And thus the legend of the Christmas Rose took bloom.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, December 8, 2004 10:18 AM CST

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Good Morning Cole Family,
Wanted to see that smiley face of Little Angel Colby.
Hope all is well with you.
I have been sick for almost 2 weeks. Went to dr twice.
I hope you guys don't get a nasty bug.
Take care and May God Be With You Always
Praying for you daily.

Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Wednesday, December 8, 2004 9:56 AM CST

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Okay Colby…what are you up to? Remember my special angel treetop I have had for MANY years?? My VERY, VERY special tree top? I think you are playing tricks on me because I have a beautifully decorated tree and my angel is missing, so I have nothing to put on my tree. It reminds me of you and because of that I cannot accept anything else. Anyway, are you playing a trick on me? I love you Angel Baby. If you know where my treetop is can you help me find it?

I am thinking of you Cole’s and send my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, December 6, 2004 7:34 PM CST

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Dear Cole family,
Just stopping by to let you know that I am remembering you in prayer during the holiday season. I know you are forever missing Colby.
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, - Monday, December 6, 2004 8:28 AM CST

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Wishing you a blessed Christmas and Peaceful New Year!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, December 6, 2004 1:16 AM CST

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we wish you peace of heart this holiday season. I wish we had the magic words to say to make this season happier for you. but remember your christmas angel is watching you and wants you to think good thoughts.

Always in our thoughts hearts and prayers!!
~*~Samantha's Story~*~
karen n sammi <mpbowler1@aol.com>
- Sunday, December 5, 2004 3:03 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

We were doing “Christ”mas shopping tonight, as we all are and I saw so many angels that left me thinking of Colby tonight. Oh, sweet Colby…

I love you Angel Baby and I am so blessed to have you as a part of my life.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, December 4, 2004 8:50 PM CST

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Good Evening Cole Family.
I was in Charlene's Find a Grave site and was thinking about you. I lit a candle for Char tonight. I pray everything is going okay for you. I joined this teriffic group called Angel Connections on Yahoo.
Laura it is a very welcoming place. You would really like it.
We sent out christmas cards with our Angels names on them.
I loved the idea. It made me feel good to finally write Charlene's name on something I was putting in the mail for other people to see.
The people in the Angel Connections site are wonderful people Laura and Jack. I hope you just go check them out. You might stay too. Cyssi one of the ladies was on Charlene's website and left me a note in the guestbook. That is how I found them.
Well, Take Care Cole Family Praying for you daily.
O forgot hey Cameron, I was watching a comericial a little while ago. That little boy reminded me so much of you. He is the little welch's grapejuice boy. LOL :)
Praying for you Always
Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, PA USA - Saturday, December 4, 2004 5:01 PM CST

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Hello Cole Family,
I just saw your new address on the web-page. I didn't realize you had a new house yet. Thanks
Hope all is well with you.
Thinking of you always
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, December 3, 2004 2:40 PM CST

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Thinking of you today Colby. Your smile will never leave my heart.
Pam <lakenormanheat@yahoo.com>
Denver, NC USA - Friday, December 3, 2004 7:57 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Good night! Sending love your way.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, December 2, 2004 8:20 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending love tonight and smiles. I wish I could display smiles for you on this page so you would see them. Think about the biggest smile you have ever seen and then picture it on my face – that is what I want to send to you and NOW I KNOW you are really SMILING AND LAUGHING TOO!!!!! Love you!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, November 30, 2004 8:58 PM CST

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Hello Cole Family,
I hope this entry finds all of you well. I check in each day to see sweet Colby. Such wonderful memories I have of him at Panda Care. Thinking of you each day and always praying for God to grant you strength to continue this journey. I bet Colton and Cameron are growing way too fast.
Regina
- Monday, November 29, 2004 8:45 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray you are doing well and have a fantastic week. I know you were under the weather and I pray you are feeling better now. We spent the latter part of our long weekend in bed too. The three of us battled the “tummy virus” to put it nicely. Anyway, I am sending love from me tonight and I am sure there is a special angel sending love from above tonight as well. You are loved so very much and I hope tonight finds you in abundance.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, November 29, 2004 8:39 PM CST

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Dear Laura and Jack,
I came across your site from Julianna's and just read all of your entries. What a beautiful family you have!! I too, have a child with leukemia, AML. I know the heartache of childhood cancer, but by the grace of God she is till here. I am so sorry that Colby has lost the battle, but like you belive he is dacning and happy cancer free. May God Bless you and guide you though this holiday season.
Michelle Petrow
www.caringbridge.org/nj/jaclynpetrow
Michelle Petrow <prayersforjaclyn@aol.com>
Scotch Plains, Nj - Saturday, November 27, 2004 11:20 PM CST

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To all the ("BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE") who come
to visit
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE")

May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand.
May the pain you have known
and the conflict you have experienced
give you the strength to walk through life
facing each new situation
with optimism and courage.
Always know that there are those
whose love and understanding
will always be there
even when you feel most alone.
May you discover enough goodness in others
to believe in a world of peace.
May a kind word, a reassuring touch,
a warm smile, be yours every day of your life,
and may you give these gifts as well as receive them.
Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.
Teach love to those who know hate,
and let that love embrace you as you go into the world.
May the teaching of those you admire
become part of you,
so that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched
and who have touched yours are always a part of you,
even if the encounters were less
than you would have wished.
May you not become too concerned
with material matters, but instead place
immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart.
Find time in each day to see the beauty
and love in the world around you.
Realize that each person has limitless abilities,
but each of us is different in our own way.
What you may feel you lack in one regard
may be more than compensated for in another.
What you feel you lack in the present
may become one of your strengths in the future.
May you see your future
as one filled with promise and possibility.
Learn to view everything
as a worthwhile experience.
May you find enough inner strength
to determine your own worth by yourself,
and not be dependent on another's judgements
of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.

~by Sandra Sturtz Hauss~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, November 27, 2004 12:32 AM CST

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Dearest Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
Hi guys! It's been awhile since I last signed in...SORRY. Oh I've LOVED the new photos!!! And the update too. I hope you guys had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know Colby would've been looking down over each of you...please know that I'm thinking of you guys always and forever praying for each of you...I know you guys miss Colby..I do too!! I love just coming by and looking at his photos. You guys stay strong, I'll be back soon...love ya'll!!

****HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!****

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Lots of love,
Janice
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Saturday, November 27, 2004 6:35 AM CST

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Happy Thanksgiving Cole Family!

God Bless,

The Dowler Family
Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, November 25, 2004 7:54 PM CST

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Coles,
No matter how sad you get this holiday season, I hope and pray you can still find lots to be thankful for.

with love <Deirdre@rochester.rr.com>
- Thursday, November 25, 2004 9:10 AM CST

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Thinking of all of you and of beautiful Angel Colby. Have a blessed day...

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, November 25, 2004 7:59 AM CST

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Wishing you a very Healthy and Happy Thanksgiving Day!
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 10:29 PM CST

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Good night Cole’s.

Just here, just praying and just sending love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, November 24, 2004 8:59 PM CST

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Dearest Coles...
May your Thanksgiving be blessed with beautiful memories of Angel Colby, Cameron and Colton.
We love you all..
Kim and Kody
~SK8ER BOY KODY BEAR~
- Wednesday, November 24, 2004 11:57 AM CST

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Laura I am sorry to hear the house fell through but you know what, Colby is with you guys, not the house....
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Tuesday, November 23, 2004 9:21 PM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending my love tonight and praying for you. I will always be here for you and will always love your Angel Baby. He is a part of me now and I simply love that! Sometimes the angels startle me, yet the Heavenly connection gives me peace and love from above. I pray your precious angel visits soon – no matter where you are.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, November 23, 2004 8:54 PM CST

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Laura and Jack,
Thinking of you as this Thanksgiving Day approaches and praying that you are finding peace and strength . I know that not a day goes by that you are not missing and thinking of Angel Colby .You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Much love.

Regina
- Tuesday, November 23, 2004 6:30 PM CST

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Good night Cole’s.

I had to stop by and see that beautiful smile. I am trying so hard to be more positive and less negative and seeing that smile makes me know that seeing the “light” and not the “darkness” is what God has intended for all of us. Keep looking up Cole’s for God and your Angel Baby are surely looking down and LOVE to see you smile! I pray the next couple of weeks find you cozy, safe, warm, but mostly loved from above and at home.

Aunt Dee, I love to see your posts and want to let you know that I am thinking of you and praying for you. THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE IN PA YELL SO I CAN COME AND SEE YOU!!!!! I would love to see you and it would warm my heart to spend time with you. I would also love for you to meet my miracle baby, Faith. Sending my love to you. Give a big smile for Colby tonight Janice, as he is counting on it – this is definitely one of those “things” I know to be true.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, November 22, 2004 7:56 PM CST

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Happy Thanksgiving
~ Giving Thanks ~


For the hay and the corn and
the wheat that is reaped,
For the labor well done,
and the barns that are heaped,

For the sun and the dew
and the sweet honeycomb,
For the rose and the song
and the harvest brought home --

For the trade and the skill
and the wealth in our land,
For the cunning and strength
of the workingman's hand,

For the good that our artists
and poets have taught,
For the friendship that hope
and affection have brought --

For the homes that with
purest affection are blest,
For the season of plenty
and well-deserved rest,

For our country extending
from sea unto sea;
The land that is known as
the "Land of the Free" --

~ Author Unknown ~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, November 22, 2004 7:56 AM CST

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Good evening Cole Family,

Sending love and huge hugs. May this coming week be a blessing to you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, November 21, 2004 7:12 PM CST

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EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON
("I JUST LOVE THIS,AND I LOVE MY WHOLE
FAMILY SO MUCH. THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EVEN
EXPLAIN THE LOVE I FEEL SO DEEP INSIDE")
YOU ("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE") TAUGHT ME THE
MOST ABOUT ("LOVE")!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
AND MISS YOU SO MUCH("MY LITTLE ANGEL ")
("COLBY JAMES COLE")
THANKS FOR COMING TO VISIT ME IN PA.WITH
THE COLE FAMILY!!!!!

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love , break free and set your sights high. Hold you head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Share this with anyone whom you believe
has made a difference in your life!

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, November 21, 2004 11:43 AM CST

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Sending Thanksgiving wishes for a blessed day!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, November 20, 2004 8:15 PM CST

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Good evening Cole Family,

I pray you have a wonderful weekend. I had a chance to view those gorgeous boys! Wow Colton and Cameron are the true “future heart breakers”. Watch out Faith!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, November 19, 2004 7:06 PM CST

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HI.
I hope that everything went well since your last update.
I am sure that everything has a porpouse even though we are not able to catch the meaning of it every time.
Keep your faith and hopes up
Thinking of you
Mari
www.carignbridge.org/me/chiara
- Friday, November 19, 2004 1:56 AM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

Thinking of you and praying for you as always.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, November 18, 2004 7:49 PM CST

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Thinking of you and your precious angel Colby. I loved your pix of everyone. Love and prayers- Dede
Dianne Roth <www.caringbridge.org/mo/jackiesjourney pauljr@bigrivertel.net>
Cape Girardeau, MO - Thursday, November 18, 2004 10:47 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Hellooooooo! I am home and thankful to read the new update. It sounds like there are A LOT of changes taking place once again. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be for you to see Colby in the home, just to turn around and not be able to live there. I do know that God has a plan and it will be revealed in time. Until that time I will be praying for something wonderful to come from this disheartening experience. Sending my love from 40 miles away instead of 1000 miles away!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, November 16, 2004 7:51 PM CST

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Laura...Sorry to hear of the problems with the house. I just have to tell you that the pictures are SO beautiful! What gorgeous boys! Everytime I see Colby's face, I, immediately, smile...what a beautiful, beautiful boy! Thank you for including the picture of the duck I made in his honor. All the ducks are safely packed away until next year's Light The Night.

Sending special prayers to your mother and father and sending continued prayers of comfort and peace to you and Jack.

God bless...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Monday, November 15, 2004 5:35 PM CST

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thanks for the update and pictures. I check in all the time.
sandy <gray56@optonline.net>
- Monday, November 15, 2004 10:45 AM CST

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Good Sunday Morning Cole Family,
Just popping in to say Hi...
Praying for you always.

Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, November 14, 2004 5:35 AM CST

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Laura, Read your last update. I am praying that you will find peace and comfort when you finally get settled in to your new home. May our Lord give you strenth and courage to continue your journey here on earth until you see Angel Colby again. My heart aches for all of you . I don't think anyone can imagine what you,Jack and Cameron feel each day.Please know that you are always in my prayers .God Bless You All.
Regina
- Saturday, November 13, 2004 6:02 PM CST

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Sorry to hear about your house.
I will keep your Mom & Dad in my Prayers Laura. I was talking to Georgie today and he did tell me about your mother. He said you are the best sister and that you got the best for you Mom. He was going to call to see how your mom's operation was going. You are the greatest Laura.
The pictures of the boys are just BEAUTIFUL.......... I just could look at Angel Colby's smiley pictures all day.
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL GOD HAS UP THERE IN HEAVEN
Cameron and Colton are growing up so fast.
You have alot to be proud of Cole Parents. Beautiful Children................
Thanks for the update. I have been wondering about you.
Hey Cameron, Did you get your smiley cookies? Hope you enjoyed them. Maybe you could share one with little Colton.
Well Take Care Cole Family.
I will be Praying for you.
My friend's son was killed in a car accident on 519 Wednesday. Would you keep Linda and Gary in your Prayers.
THANKS


Love,Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, November 12, 2004 6:03 PM CST

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Coles,
So nice to "read" you and I think and pray for you often.

love <deirdre@rochester.rr.com>
- Friday, November 12, 2004 2:49 PM CST

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Hi, Laura, Jack, Cameron, Colton and Colby too. Edna Russman and I were thinking of your family and wanted to send our love to you. The Cole family is in our thoughts and prayers every day (even if we don't communicate with you on a daily basis). God bless!
D' John <deejohn@fjrealty.com>
- Friday, November 12, 2004 7:53 AM CST

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Laura,
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and your family. I keep you close in thought and prayer each day. Much love.
Regina <rmsloan@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 9, 2004 7:54 PM CST

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Laura and Jack,
Miss our talks and emails.....hope all is well. Love your beautiful family!!

Hugs,
Niki <ndaubach@cox.net>
- Tuesday, November 9, 2004 11:31 AM CST

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Dreaming

Don't ever stop dreaming your dreams
They're a very essential part of you.
Do whatever you can to make them a reality.
By the course you take,
the plans you make...
and all the things you do.

Don't dwell on past mistakes...
leave yesterday behind you.
Along with all of its problems,
worries and doubts.

Do realize that you can't change the past,
but just ahead is the future...
And you Can do something about that!

Don't try to accomplish everything at once,
life can be difficult enough...
Without adding frustration to the list.

Do travel one step at a time
and reach for one goal at a time.
That's the way to find out what real
accomplishment is.

Don't be afraid to try the impossible...
even if others don't think you'll succeed.

Do remember that history is filled
with incredible accomplishments...
Of those that others thought were
foolish enough to Believe.
And yet they did!

Don't forget that there are many things
that are Wonderful, Rare and Unique about You!

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, November 8, 2004 9:23 AM CST

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Things I Love About You
by Anthony West

Your eyes
which first held me captivated
where I stood.

Your smile
to dazzle the sun
and warm every corner of my soul.

Your voice
like a sparkling mountain stream
which flows into my heart.

Your walk
and the way your gracefulness
took my breath away.

Your hair
about which I dreamed
cascading into my face
as you leaned over me.
("THOSE CURLS")
Your hands
whose caress I crave
to hold my face
in their tenderness.

Your arms
I long to have around my neck
as you pull me close
to your warmth.

Most of all
everything you are
changed the way
I feel about my life.

I love you.
Aunt Dee

PS.I will never forget how when you use to grab
my face when you were talking to me!!!!!
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, November 8, 2004 9:01 AM CST

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("Angels-Angel Colby James Cole")

Angels are the guardians of hope and wonder,
the keepers of magic and dreams.

Angels watch over you wherever you go,
keeping each day perfect and promising a new tomorrow.
The motto of the angels is "its a wonderful life".
Wherever there is love, an angel is flying by.
Angels help you carry the ball, the tune,
carry your weight and carry on!
Your Guardian Angel knows you inside and out
and loves you just the way that you are.
Angels keep the world safe for hummingbirds
and butterflies and rainbows in spring.
Angels keep it simple and always travel light.
Angels love whispering secrets
and whistling in the dark.
Wherever you hear music,
an angel is speaking with you.

Remember to leave space in your relationships
so the angels have room to play.

Your Guardian Angel helps you to find a place
when you feel there's no place to go.
Keep a spare angel in your pocket.
Angels carry high-beam lights
to help you through the darkest hours.
Whenever you feel lonely,
a special angel drops in for tea.
Angels know that love is only a four letter word.
We are always "angels on call" for a friend.
Everytime you hear a bell,
another angel has earned its wings.
Angels are with you every step of the way
and help you to soar with amazing grace.
After all, we are angels in training,
all we have to do is spread our wings and fly.

written by Bonnie Altenhein
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, November 7, 2004 11:13 AM CST

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Wanted to let you know that you are on my mind. I was thinking of Colby so much yesterday. I want to go visit him tomorrow sometime. I usually stop by and visit Noah while there. I met Noah's grandmother yesterday. She is so sweet. So brokenhearted. And we can surely understand that.
I just had to stop by and see Angel Colby's Smile........
My new grandson sure is growing fast. He is nosey too... :)
So how is Little Baby Colton doing?
Hi Cameron and how are you little one? I was going through some of my old mail and throwing it away and stumbled on the card you sent me. It brought a smile to my face. Then I started thinking of smiley cookies and you this morning. I will have to be getting some sent your way. Probally next week little one. EXPECT TO GET SMILEYS FROM ME.... :)
So how have you been Cole Family. Pray all is well with you guys. I am praying for you.
Take Care and May GOD Be With You Always!!!!!!!!
Good Night Cole Family

Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Saturday, November 6, 2004 8:04 PM CST

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Missing You ("My Little Buddy,My Little Man")
I wish I could talk to You, Angel Colby on the
phone like we use to!!!!
Loving You,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, November 6, 2004 10:41 AM CST

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I do not sign your guestbook often these days but I cetainly use it to inspire me to search for a better understanding of my faith. Your family is absolutely an inspiration, a demonstration of love and courage enhanced by the beautiful Angel Colby. Prayers for your peace.
Ivy Cameron <ivyjivy@yahoo.com>
lynnnwood, w usa - Friday, November 5, 2004 11:24 PM CST

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Just wanting to let you know that although I don't sign in as much as I would like, your family is continually in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings and love to you in Christ.
Khalita My Caringbridge Site Duke Peds BMT Aplastic Anemia <khalita@hecaresonline.org>
Lexington, NC - Thursday, November 4, 2004 7:35 PM CST

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Everything Happens For A Reason

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love , break free and set your sights high. Hold you head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Share this with anyone whom you believe
has made a difference in your life!

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, November 3, 2004 9:15 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

What an exciting night for me – election and leaving for a vacation!

I will be leaving tomorrow for a couple of weeks for a much-needed vacation, yet my heart and prayers will be with you. I love your Angel Baby so much and know he is with you always, no matter where you are or what you are doing or even where you may be living. I like knowing he is with me, wherever I may be as well. God is good and takes care of us with His all encompassing arms.

Only a phone call away at any time – I love you Cole’s.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 8:44 PM CST

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I think people will love your little boy forever... Laura
.org/ca/coltonmeyer
- Tuesday, November 2, 2004 4:44 PM CST

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Stopping by to say hello.
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
NJ - Tuesday, November 2, 2004 9:59 AM CST

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Dear Cole Family,

Just stopping by to send my love and prayers your way.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, November 1, 2004 7:50 PM CST

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A Tour of Heaven
===========

A newly arrived soul in Heaven was met by St.Peter. The saint
toured the soul around Heaven. Both of them walked side by side
inside a large workroom filled with angels.

St.Peter stopped in front of the first section and said,
"This is the Receiving Section. Here, all the petitions to God
said in prayer are received."

The soul looked at the section, and it was terribly busy with so
many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper
sheets from all the people of the world.

They walked again until they reached the 2nd section, and St.
Peter told the soul, "This is the Packaging and Delivery
Section. Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for
are packed and delivered to the people who asked for them down
on earth."

The soul saw how busy it was. There were so many angels working
in that room, since so many blessings were being packed and
delivered to Earth.

Finally, at the farthest corner of the room, the soul stopped at
the last section. To the surprise of the soul, only one angel
stayed there idly, doing nothing.

"This is the Acknowledging Section," St. Peter told the soul.

The soul asked, "How is that, there is no work here?"

"That's the sad thing," St. Peter answered, "after the people
received the blessings they asked for, very few send their
acknowledgments."

"How does one acknowledge God's blessings?"

"Simple," St. Peter answered, "Just say "Thank you, Lord."

~Author Unknown~

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, November 1, 2004 8:56 AM CST

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Dear Cole’s,

Okay, I am in a good mood after that Pittsburgh win – whewhoo!

I pray you have a marvelous week. I hope that something unexpected and wonderful happens to lighten your step. Hugs, hugs and more hugs.

Janice, please know I am praying for you and that I am only a phone call away. I wish there were something I could do for you. I am sure Angel Colby is watching over you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, October 31, 2004 7:15 PM CST

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Renne',

Hello!! Sorry about not getting in touch with you!!
Have been very depressed. I was sch. for back surg.
Nov. 5th, got all the pre-testing,got fitted for brace,
got the brace,got clothing to fit over the brace and
on and on and Medicare cancelled the surg.Besides no
fusion from surg. 9-23-1998 I have also been dignosed
with arodnordridus, not sure of the spelling. It is an
ingury to the spinal cord!!!My mental statis is having a hard
time dealing with this pain all the time. I think I'm
on the verg of losing it!!Thank God I can come to visit
("Angel Colby James Cole"). He makes me very sad but
he also puts a smile on my face!!!!!
Love You Rennie',
Janice Cole
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, October 31, 2004 9:55 AM CST

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Sunday October 31, 2004
Today's Proverb:
("A man's heart deviseth his way:
but the LORD directeth his steps").
Proverbs 16:9 / KJV
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, October 31, 2004 9:32 AM CST

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GOOD SUNDAY MORNING TO THE COLE FAMILY.
JUST SITTING HERE AT MY COMPUTER WONDERING HOW YOU ARE.
HAPPY HOLLOWEEN. DON'T EAT TOO MUCH CANDY CAMERON IT WILL GIVE YOU A SUGAR RUSH.
TAKE CARE AND MAY GOD BE WITH YOU ALWAYS.
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, October 31, 2004 8:07 AM CST

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Happy Halloween!

We just returned from trick-or-treating! We had so much fun. Now, if we could just come off the “sugar high”. I am sure you and all parents are facing the same thing and happy for the extra hour of sleep tonight. Faith was Dora the Explorer Princess and is anxiously waiting to see a picture of her prince! I am sure both boys were quite handsome. Have a great night.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, October 30, 2004 7:16 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

It was so wonderful to see you today. We never seem to be able to get together with the busy schedules and distance, yet when we do even for short periods of time it is so enjoyable. You are just a wonderful and fun family. We must not let the months pass without seeing each other.

Okay, okay, okay we have a message for Romeo from Faith. I had fun playing with you today and would like you to come and have a tea party again. Night-night and I love you.

I am amazed how smitten she is! Presently I am wanting to hold the little on again. I could have just run off with Colton today.

Anyway, I enjoyed seeing all of you so much. Please have a wonderful night.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, October 29, 2004 7:21 PM CDT

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Thinking about you daily...wondering how you are surviving...hope you are experiencing joy in Cameron and Colton and each other...Praying for you...that you fully experience the comfort and love of Jesus.

Was thinking about the Halloween pictures you posted before. If I remember correctly, I think Colby was in some sort of "muscle" costume? Still brings a smile to my face--and then my heart aches for you.

With Love and Concern,

Kristi <vze42kq7@verizon.net>
Uniontown, - Friday, October 29, 2004 10:00 AM CDT

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Hi Cameron,
I just wanted to wish you a very fun and safe Halloween. Hope you get lots of treats.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Kathy Haws
Thousand Oaks, CA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 11:35 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

God is good – He takes care of us in our time of need and loves us no matter what. He also has an army to watch over us. You have the God of life and His SPECIAL ARMY ANGEL watching over you tonight – this I know to be true.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

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Good evening Cole Family,
Just stopped by to see how you are doing. Had to see that smiley face....
Hope all is well at your house.
I am still praying for you daily to get through your tough times.....
I bet that littlest Cole is growing fast...
How is preschool Cameron?
Sorry I haven't been here much. I have been pre occupied with my new grandson...... :) Dylan Charles....
Take Care Cole Family.
May God Be With You Always!!!!!!!!!

Love Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 7:32 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Praying for you Cole’s and sending love and endless hugs!

Hey buddy “Aunt Dee”, where are you? I miss you! I pray you are doing well.

God bless all of you Cole’s.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 7:49 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,
I am stopping by tonight to let you know that I am here, that I care, that I am praying, praying and praying, but mostly to tell you that I love you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 7:45 PM CDT

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Hi Cole Family,
It has been awhile since I have said hello. I still visit each day. Still praying for continued strength and peace for all of you. Much love,

Regina <rmsloan@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 4:06 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I just had this going through my head and thought I would share it with you too. It has been a tough day and I just love knowing that I really am not the one in control. My Heavenly Father is in control and wants my cares. Tonight I give them to Him.

The Serenity Prayer

GOD, grant me the serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change,
Courage to change the
things I can, and the
wisdom to know the difference.
Living ONE DAY AT A TIME;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardship as the
pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this
sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make
all things right if I
surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy
in this life, and supremely
happy with Him forever in
the next. Amen

Reinhold Neibuhr-1926

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, October 25, 2004 7:47 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Praying you have had a restful and relaxing weekend. Ours was way too busy for my liking, yet I am so thankful just to be here! Praying, praying and praying – always and forever. Sending love Cole’s!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, October 24, 2004 9:14 PM CDT

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The Beauty Of A Woman


The beauty of a woman
Is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries,
Or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows,
And the beauty of a woman
With passing years--only grows!

~Sam Levinsen~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, October 23, 2004 9:46 AM CDT

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Hey Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton!!
Hey guys!! Just dropping in to say G'DAY. I hope and pray things are going well over your side of the world...I'm sure the boys must be all ready and prepared for Halloween. I'm curious so know what their costumes will be??? Can't wait for the photos!!! Sending lots of love and prayers your way...

***MISSING YOU STILL, COLBY COLE!!***

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Lots of love,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Friday, October 22, 2004 10:07 PM CDT

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Praying, Praying and praying Cole Family!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, October 22, 2004 7:24 PM CDT

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Good night Cole Family. May you have a blessed evening and wonderful day tomorrow.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, October 21, 2004 7:55 PM CDT

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Hello,
Just stopping by to let you know that we are thinking of you, and sending lots of prayer's your way.++++++++++++
Love LaKota and her mom Debbie
God be with you.
~*~ LaKota~*~

http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 9:17 PM CDT

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Hello Cole Family!

I wanted to stop by and send my love and support. You know it is not going anywhere! I love you!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Now And Forever

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

NOW AND FOREVER,
Aunt Dee

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 9:03 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I have read this many times and I am sure you have as well, but for some reason every single time I read it, it really touches my heart. So I want to share it with you.

This is what the world needs - more of people like this!!!!!

Breakfast at McDonald's . Please read until the end.

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through

until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting

facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed
My college degree. The last class I had to take was! Sociology.
The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish
Every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was
called "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document
their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone
and say Hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son,
And I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.
It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.
We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden
everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.
I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up
inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.
As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and

There standing behind me were two poor homeless men.
As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was
"smiling". His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he
searched For acceptance. He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.
He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could
afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to
buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached
Out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.
That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me,
judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the
counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen
as a resting spot I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the
blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his
eyes, and said, "Thank you." I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son When I
Sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to
me, Honey, to give me hope." We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love. I returned to
college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand
I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.
Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"
I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class
She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings
And being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband,
son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last
night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest
lessons I would ever learn:
UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE !.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may
Read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends
Will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head.
To handle others, use your heart.
God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 8:41 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I have read this many times and I am sure you have as well, but for some reason every single time I read it, it really touches my heart. So I want to share it with you.

This is what the world needs - more of people like this!!!!!

Breakfast at McDonald's . Please read until the end.

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through

until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting

facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed
My college degree. The last class I had to take was! Sociology.
The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish
Every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was
called "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document
their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone
and say Hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son,
And I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.
It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.
We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden
everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.
I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up
inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.
As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and

There standing behind me were two poor homeless men.
As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was
"smiling". His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he
searched For acceptance. He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.
He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could
afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to
buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached
Out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.
That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me,
judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the
counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen
as a resting spot I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the
blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his
eyes, and said, "Thank you." I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son When I
Sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to
me, Honey, to give me hope." We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love. I returned to
college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand
I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.
Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"
I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class
She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings
And being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband,
son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last
night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest
lessons I would ever learn:
UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE !.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may
Read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends
Will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head.
To handle others, use your heart.
God Gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 8:40 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Are you looking up?

I know who is looking down and wanting you to know that you are loved. Keep looking up – definitely keep looking up.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, October 18, 2004 9:15 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Ready to jump start the week? Lord willing, I sure am! I want to wish you a wonderful week with much love and kindness everywhere you turn. I pray this week is a blessing for you and that only positive things and people enter your path. May God bless you and keep you in His care.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 8:42 PM CDT

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You are all in my heart today. I miss you SOOO SOOOO SOOOOOOOO much. I can't wait till Friday! See you soon.

Whateeka
Frederick and 4 days away, MD USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 6:54 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Just here, just praying, just loving – just me loving your Angel Baby.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, October 16, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

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("Each Day Is A Wonder")

Each day is a wonder!
Each day a blessing.
Each day I awake
I will fill each moment
With joy!

Each person is divine!
Each person a blessing.
Each person I meet
I will fill and embrace
With love!

Each place is a Heaven!
Each place a blessing.
Each place I wander
I will cherish and fill
With peace!

Don't march through your day
Unaware, eyes closed;
Breathe in the glory
Of the creation around you.
Each day
Each person
Each place
Is a gift
A blessing
And is filled
With its own piece
Of Heaven

Each day is a wonder!
Let's fill each moment
With joy!
~by Dobhran~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, October 16, 2004 10:00 AM CDT

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Jack and Laura -

I come here sometimes just to admire the pictures of your beautiful boys! Wow are you brave to let those boys be diaperless - Noah pees on me everytime! Thinking of you all everyday...
Rachel <jimandrach@aol.com>
- Friday, October 15, 2004 9:42 PM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

I am sending love and huge hugs your way tonight. I pray you have a wonderful weekend. Please give kisses to your boys from me.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, October 15, 2004 8:43 PM CDT

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So many of our dreams at first seem impossible,
then they seem improbable, and then when we summon
the will, they soon become inevitable."
-- Christopher Reeve

We Must. We Can. We Will.

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, October 15, 2004 9:20 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family and Sweet Angel Baby,

I have been so depressed battling my pneumonia the past two weeks that I have actually spent many days in my pajamas just forcing myself to take a shower and put new ones on – yet today I felt heaven above. I have been feeling so sorry for myself, yet today something said, “Come on – remember strong like a bull”. “STRONG LIKE A BULL…STRONG LIKE A BULL…STRONG LIKE A BULL”. Yes I am weak, yet Our Father helps us to be “strong like a bull”. Colby dealt with so much more than mere pneumonia, so I can kick this in the butt! The angels have been everywhere I have turned and God has been there every single moment – I just need to listen. Oh sweet Colby you give me so much love, comfort, peace and STRENGTH and I thank you for being my hope and forevermore. I love you sweetie! STRONG LIKE A BULL – I DO REMEMBER LOUD AND CLEAR.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, October 14, 2004 8:53 PM CDT

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Hi Jack and Laura, Stopping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and always in my prayers.


Regina
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 7:43 PM CDT

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CARVED IN STONE

A story tells that two friends were walking
through the desert.
During some point of the journey, they had an
argument, and one friend slapped the other one in
the face.
The one who got slapped was hurt, but without
saying anything, wrote in the sand:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE
FACE.
They keep walking until they found an oasis,
where they decided to take a bath.
The one who got slapped got stuck in the
mire and started drowning, but the friend saved
him.
After he recovered from the near-drowning, he
wrote on a stone:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE,
the friend who had slapped and saved his best
friend asked him, "after I hurt you, you wrote in
the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"
The other friend replied "When someone hurts us
we should write it down in sand where winds of
forgiveness can erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE
YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

SEND THIS PHRASE TO ALL THE PEOPLE YOU
WILL NEVER FORGET.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Thursday, October 14, 2004 10:21 AM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

I am just stopping by to look at your Angel Baby. That smile- never-ending smile.

Please have a wonderful night and a great day tomorrow.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I, Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

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In Honor Of The Women
In My Life

A handsome, middle aged man walked quietly into the cafe and sat down. Before he ordered, he couldn't help but notice a group of younger men at the table next to him. It was obvious they were making fun of something about him, and it wasn't until he remembered he was wearing a small pink ribbon on the lapel of his suit that he became aware of what the joke was all about.

The man brushed off the reaction as ignorance, but the smirks began to get to him. He looked one of the rude men square in the eye, placed his hand beneath the ribbon and asked, quizzically, "This?"

With that the men all began to laugh out loud. The man he addressed said, as he fought back laughter, "Hey, sorry man, but we were just commenting on how pretty your little ribbon looks against your blue jacket!"

The middle aged man calmly motioned for the joker to come over to his table, and invited him to sit down. As uncomfortable as he was, the guy obliged, not really sure why. In a soft voice, the middle aged man said, "I wear this ribbon to bring awareness about breast cancer. I wear it in my mother's honor."

"Oh, sorry dude. She died of breast cancer?"

"No, she didn't. She's alive and well. But her breasts nourished me as an infant, and were a soft resting place for my head when I was scared or lonely as a little boy. I'm very grateful for my mother's breasts, and her health."

"Umm", the stranger replied, "yeah."

"And I wear this ribbon to honor my wife", the middle aged man went on.

"And she's okay, too?", the other guy asked" "Oh, yes. She's fine. Her breasts have been a great source of loving pleasure for both of us, and with them she nurtured and nourished our beautiful daughter 23 years ago. I am grateful for my wife's breasts, and for her health."

"Uh huh. And I guess you wear it to honor your daughter, also?"

"No. It's too late to honor my daughter by wearing it now. My daughter died of breast cancer one month ago. She thought she was too young to have breast cancer, so when she accidentally noticed a small lump, she ignored it. She thought that since it wasn't painful, it must not be anything to worry about."

Shaken and ashamed, the now sober stranger said, "Oh, man, I'm so sorry mister."

"So, in my daughter's memory, too, I proudly wear this little ribbon, which allows me the opportunity to enlighten others. Now, go home and talk to your wife and your daughters, your mother and your friends. And here . . ."

The middle aged man reached in his pocket and handed the other man a little pink ribbon. The guy looked at it, slowly raised his head and asked, "Can ya help me put it on?"

Do regular breast self-exams and have annual mammograms
if you are a woman over the age of 45.
And encourage those women you love to do the same..

~Author Unknown~
Janice Wright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, Oh - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 8:09 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray you have had a wonderful day and that you feel comfort, peace and so much love as you sleep tonight.

Heavenly Father, I ask you to bless Jack, Laura, Cameron and Colton tonight. May they find happiness as each day passes and serenity that only You can give to them. Let them be strong and steadfast in their faith. I ask you to give them more and more strength with each passing day. Please let them feel Your love tonight. Praise You and thank You Sweet Jesus. Amen

I love you Cole’s!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 7:42 PM CDT

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A Lesson Learned From A Bug
==================

I pulled out of my driveway heading for my mom's and noticed a
katydid on my windshield. This is rare for the area I live in
since it is more city than farm or wooded area. For those of
you who do not know what a katydid is, it is similar to a
grasshopper. It is green but has a flat (up-down) body
whereas the grasshopper has a round body and is more brown
colored.

As I accelerated, I noticed the wind was making his body flutter,
but the legs were securely attached to the windshield. I was
sure he would lose his battle to the wind, but he kept hanging
on body fluttering in the wind. He did this for a couple of
miles. As I slowed down one time he tried to re-adjust his
footing. He released his grip on the windshield with just one
leg and it was all over, he was gone.

That was a MountainWings Moment.

The wind is our trials.

The windshield is like the word of God.

When we hold on to our "windshield" securely, we are secure.

When things start to settle down we often loosen our grip on
God’s word. We start to rely on our strength and understanding
rather than staying in God’s word. That’s when the trials come
back and catch us unprepared and the trials drag us away.

If we hold firm to God's word, we will be ready for the trials
as they come.


~A MountainWings Original by Mike Stull, Chino, CA~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 9:52 AM CDT

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I Know Something Good About You

Wouldn't this world be better
If the folks we meet would say,
"I know something good about you!"
And treat us just that way?

Wouldn't it be fine and dandy
If each handclasp, fond and true,
Carried with it this assurance,
"I know something good about you!"

Wouldn't life be lots more happy
If the good that's in us all
Was the only thing about us
That folks bothered to recall?

Wouldn't life be lots more happy
If we praised the good we see?
For there's such a lot of goodness
In the worst of you and me!

Wouldn't it be nice to practice
That fine way of thinking too?
You know something good about me,
I know something good about you!
Love You,
Janice
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 9:42 AM CDT

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Only Time

Who can say where the road goes Where the day flows Only time...

And who can say if your love grows As your heart chose Only time...

Who can say why your heart sighs As your love flies Only time...

And who can say why your heart cries When your love lies Only time...

Who can say when the roads meet That they might be In your heart...

And who can say when the day sleeps If the night keeps all your heart ...

Who can say if your love grows As your heart chose Only time...

And who can say where the road goes Where the day flows Only time...

Who knows? Only time...

Performed by Enya
Written by Roma Ryan

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 8:41 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,
Just wanted to stop by & let you know that you are all in my thoughts & prayers always. You are a special family that has really touched my heart so much.
Eileen Spratt <etspratt@aol.com>
Eureka, MO - Monday, October 11, 2004 11:03 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray this evening finds you well rested and ready to tackle another week. I pray you have strength, guidance, wisdom and love from above this coming week.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, October 10, 2004 8:38 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Thinking about you ("My Little Man")
Missing You So Much!!!
Forever Changed Forever More,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, October 10, 2004 12:27 AM CDT

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Just a short hello from me,



Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, October 10, 2004 6:02 AM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

Sending love and huge hugs tonight!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, October 9, 2004 9:08 PM CDT

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Oh Sweet Angel Colby – how I needed to see your face tonight. Our Lord is wonderful and I am glad you are helping Him watch over all of us, as I am one that needs that care tonight. You are doing a great job Angel Baby helping our Father! I love you so much and just appreciate you so much!

Forever Changed and Forever Loving YOU ANGEL BABY,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, October 8, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

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Your Cross
=======

A young man was at the end of his rope;
seeing no way out, he dropped to his knees in prayer.
"Lord, I can't go on," he said.
"I have too heavy a cross to bear."
The Lord replied, "My son, if you can't bear its weight,
just place your cross inside this room.
Then, open that other door and pick out any cross you wish."
The man was filled with relief and said,
"Thank you Lord," and he did as he was told.
Upon entering the other room, he saw many crosses,
some so large the tops were not visible.
Then, he spotted a tiny cross leaning against a far wall.
"I'd like that one, Lord," he whispered.

The Lord replied,
"My son, that is the cross you just brought in."
When life's problems seem overwhelming, it helps to look around
and see what other people are coping with.
You may consider yourself far more fortunate than you imagined.

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, October 8, 2004 10:41 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Stopping by to wish you a good night and praying that tomorrow is a wonderful day for you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, October 7, 2004 8:27 PM CDT

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Thinking of you all this morning. Glad to hear that Cameron is adjusting to preschool. I'm sure you are feeling relieved about that... Since we haven't been attending New Salem Church, I miss seeing you Laura...even if it was only for brief moments during fellowship... I also can't wait to see Colton again. Let me know if you want to visit and chat. I'd enjoy comparing and sharing parenting stories with you. Thinking of Colby often and praying for your continued strength and courage to face each day.

With Faith in Christ,


Kristi <vze42kq7@verizon.net>
Uniontown, - Thursday, October 7, 2004 8:57 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I almost went to bed before coming to Colby’s page, as I am still quite ill, yet I had to see him, as he gives me strength when I am weak. I love you so much Angel Baby that it hurts. You have my heart sweetie and I love knowing that you are watching over Faith and me.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 8:34 PM CDT

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Hello,
Stopping by to let you know that we are thinking of you.
Hope that every one is having a great week.
Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
~*~ LaKota~*~
http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 7:46 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Sweet dreams – may you feel heaven tonight and may God bless you and keep you in His care.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 7:57 PM CDT

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QUESTIONS
Answers to tough questions

What should happen if Christ has really entered my life?


Once you have sincerely asked Christ into your life, several areas will begin to change or develop. The rate of change will vary for each individual, but after some days/weeks/months if there is no change in heart attitude and behavior, a person should re-assess if they have actually become a Christian. True repentance is not just an attitude, but rather a transformational process.

If a person demonstrates no clear change in their lifestyle, habits, thoughts and words over a period of time, then little assurance can be given to them regarding their salvation. The Apostle Paul exhorted people to "Test yourselves to see if you are in the faith; examine yourselves! Or do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you – unless indeed you fail the test." (2 Corinthians 13:5)

Some areas that you might expect to see change are the following:

A growing desire to read the Bible (Psalms 119:10), understanding of what you are reading, and a desire to apply what you are learning to your life.

A growing sense of God’s presence (Romans 5: 1-5), and gentle voice whispering to you to obey the Scriptures as they should apply to your life

A greater awareness of God’s holiness, one’s sin + motivation for doing things, plus a growing sorrow over anything which displeases God, leading to a quiet humility. (Psalms 51:1-17)

A growing sense that you are forgiven as you confess and repent (stop doing it!) from specific sins. (Psalms 32:1,2) Increasing manifestation of the ‘fruit of the Spirit which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, faithfulness, goodness and self-control, as you rely on God’s Spirit to fill you more each day, moment-by-moment. (Galatians 5:22,23)

A growing desire to pray and talk with your Father in heaven about everything, all the time. (I Thessalonians 5:17,18)

A growing desire to fellowship with like-minded believers in Bible study and churches (Hebrews 10:25), as well as to help those in need, especially other believers, but also non-believers.

A growing desire to share your faith in Christ with others as you depend moment by moment on the empowering of God’s Spirit. (1 John 4:2,3, Acts 1:8)

A growing strengthening of your faith; perseverance in the midst of suffering or persecution for your faith, and a desire to honor Him in all areas. (Acts 4:1-35)

A growing desire to give of your time, talents and resources to promote the kingdom of God. (Acts 2:44-47)

A growing desire to integrate one’s faith with all elements of one’s life, seeking to please God in all areas (2 Corinthians 5:9). For example, if the Bible clearly speaks about on issue, how will it affect your personal life and ethics? Your family life? Your business? The way and people you vote for? Think about it.

Again, a person who claims to be a Christian, but who does not demonstrate a deepening love for God manifested by allowing Christ to increasingly be Lord of their life may not be a true believer. For example, there are many terrible, hateful things done by religious people, including so-called Christians.

The Apostle John stated that a person who is not growing in love, but remains hateful, is not a believer. (1 John 3:15) The Apostle Paul stated in 2 Thessalonians 1:6-10, "… after all it is only just for God to repay with affliction those who afflict you, and to give relief to you who are afflicted and to us as well when the Lord Jesus will be revealed from heaven with His mighty angels in flaming fire, dealing out retribution to those who do not know God and to those who do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. These will pay the penalty of eternal destruction, away from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of His power, when He comes to be glorified in His saints on that day, and to be marveled at among all who have believed -- for our testimony to you was believed. (NASU)

In that case, if those people were to die this moment, they would go to hell rather than heaven, having chosen to live a false life, pretending to be a Christian. They gave themselves the ‘label’ Christian, but it was not true of their actual relationship with Christ Himself. God is love, and true Christians demonstrate more of this over time.

Finally, one fog-clearing question: "In a court of law, would there be enough evidence to convict you of being a true Christian?"
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, October 5, 2004 11:14 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Just stopping by to say good night and send my love. Faith wanted to say hi to Cameron – “Hi Cameron”!

Thank you Janice for the kind words. I have been really sick since Saturday and appreciate your note! Love to you as well.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, October 4, 2004 7:27 PM CDT

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Hi Cole family!!
I am so sorry, it's been a while since I have written, but I always check in on you guys. I am so glad that you worked out the system for Cameron to get into school without the long (tearful) good-bye. LOL I was driving the baby into school, but realized that it was easier on BOTH of us when she went on the bus! LOL No more crying fits at the door. Colton is beautiful and it is amazing how quickly he is growing. Colby is beaming down at his two little brothers. I am sure he is teaching them how to get into mischief in their dreams.
In our thoughts and prayers,
Renee
www.caringbridge.com/ny/my2angels <rcurk@aol.com>
- Monday, October 4, 2004 6:26 PM CDT

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Rennee Cole Dowler & Family,

Wish for ...
nothing but wonderful
things to come to you.

In your life, which is
so precious to are family,
may troubles, worries,
and problems never linger;
may they only make you
that much stronger
and able and wise.
And may you rise
each day with sunlight
in your heart,
success in your path,
answers to your prayers,
and that smile ...
...that I love to see ...
always there - - -
in your eyes.
I got your picture from the 50th
Birthday Party - the ("Smile in the Eyes")
Hope you all are feeling better,alot
of nasty bug's going around!!!!
Love You,
Janice Cole

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, October 4, 2004 9:38 AM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

We shall light a candle
of understanding
in our hearts,
that shall not
be put out.
Forever Changed Forever More,
Aunt Dee

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, October 4, 2004 9:22 AM CDT

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YOU - ("Angel Colby James Cole")

Who's the coolest friend I know
YOU
Who is there wherever I go
YOU
Who's the life of any bash
YOU
Who's got style & wit & class
YOU
Who's never dull & always fun
YOU
Who's best under the sun
YOU
Forever Changed Forever More,
Aunt DEE
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, October 3, 2004 7:49 AM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

This Cole-Dowler Family is sick and we hope and pray your Cole Family is well, healthy and have boundless energy (yet a restful night). Sending love and hugs your way. May God bless you and keep you in His care.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, October 2, 2004 8:56 PM CDT

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Jack & Laura,

Each year is a brand new beginning with so much to see and to do. With new opportunities waiting to make all our wishes come true. It's such a good time to plan changes. To make the fresh start we might need. To try something different and daring. to reach for the stars and succeed.

Love You,
Janice
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, October 2, 2004 1:16 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I sit here tonight as this week is unwinding and for some reason I am very reflective. I am just thinking about the past, decisions I have made, people I have met, people that have come into my life just to walk out of it, times I have been so very happy and so very sad, etc. As I write this, Faith is curled up at my side so tightly that at first it was uncomfortable, but now it is a warm reminder of how blessed I am. Sometimes I go through the “hustle and bustle” of this fast world that I forget where I have been and what a blessed life I truly have. I just forget the little things that mean the most. Tonight I am remembering them.

So, let me wrap up talking about me and just say thank you for doing my awnings Jack, as meeting you that day and you introducing me into you lovely family has become a part of who I am today. I am gracious to know all of you and love you so much – that goes for you too Aunt Dee! I am blessed to know you and thankful for the Heavenly connection I have with your Angel Baby.

Good night, sleep well and please find time to just reminisce!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, October 1, 2004 7:48 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

You ("My Little Man")
are my quiet place away
from the rest of the world,
and ("I Love You So!!!!!

Forever Changed Forever,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, October 1, 2004 10:30 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I am here sending love and huge hugs! I pray you have butterfly kisses tonight from the one and only Angel Colby.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, September 30, 2004 8:50 PM CDT

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Hello Cole Family,
What an awesome entry Laura.
I have to laugh at Cameron. He is really growing up.
Colton sure seems to be growing also.
I was in a site sent to me by a friend. Just thought I would share it with you.

http://www.angelhugs.com/AreYouListenin.html

It is so beautiful and upliftiing.

Take care Cole Family, I think of you often.Pray for you every morning while praying the ROSARY.. :-)
Never to be forgotten.


Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Thursday, September 30, 2004 3:45 PM CDT

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Dust if You Must!

Dust if you must.
But wouldn't it be better to paint a picture,
or write a letter, bake a cake,
or plant a seed.
Ponder the difference between
want and need.
Dust if you must.
But there is not much time,
with rivers to swim and
mountains to climb!
Music to hear, and books to read,
friends to cherish and life to lead.
Dust if you must.
But the world's out there
with the sun in your eyes,
the wind in your hair, a flutter
of snow, a shower of rain.
This day will not come round again.
Dust if you must.
But bear in mind, old age will come
and it's not kind.
And when you go, and go you must,
you, yourself, will make more dust.
Remember,
a house becomes a home
when you can write
"I love you" on the furniture.

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by Lynda aka summerbreeze
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Thursday, September 30, 2004 10:32 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I am always so happy to read a new update. I am sure it is still so very difficult and we here in cyber-space really appreciate it.

Cameron as “Romeo”? Faith wants to be his “Juliet”, so tell the teacher and all other girls to watch out!!!!! She is so enamored with Cameron! Too cute – they are only four and have “puppy love” already!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 8:41 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I truly love that smile – that smile makes me smile. Heaven only knows smiles, so Colby cannot do anything but smile. Smiles are so contagious and I pray you are smiling tonight Cole Family, as I am unable to stop after seeing your Angel Baby tonight.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 8:51 PM CDT

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Just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love the new pictures! What beautiful boys all three of them are!

Still waiting to see if we're going to have a Light The Night walk this year. Our local walk was cancelled due to Hurricane Frances and now the Boca Raton walk, scheduled for this Friday night, may be cancelled because of the damage from Hurricane Jeanne. It's all so frustrating! I am glad, though, that you liked the duck we made to honor your beautiful Colby. That little man has such a special place in my heart and always will.

Much love and continued prayers...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 6:27 PM CDT

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SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO FIND GOD


Tell Jesus that you understand that everyone in this world is a sinner and that includes you.
Ask Him to forgive you for your sins.
Tell Him that you want to be the person that He wants you to be and ask Him to make you the person He wants you to be.
Tell Him you love Him and want Him to be a huge part of your life.
Ask Him to guide you down the right path in life.


SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO GET CLOSE TO GOD

Jesus wants to be your friend, so pray to Him like you are talking to Him. Not in a way that is structured or recited but in a way you would talk to your friends because the whole idea is to make Him your best friend. If Jesus had His way He would want you to talk to Him all day long. Ask Him for anything and everything -- this is a good way to to get to know Him (He wants you to know Him). Keep in mind that He wants the best for you. For example, if you ask for a million dollars -- don't expect it because that may not be the best for you. He hears your prayers and wants good for you so trust Him with all your might. Once you ask Him for help in your life - YOU MUST TRUST HIM AND NOT WORRY ABOUT IT BECAUSE JESUS HAS CONTROL OVER IT -- Think of it this way... If you had a child and he or she asked you for help and then starting to show no trust in you -- would your feelings be hurt? Jesus made us in His Image and He has feelings just like we do so don't hurt Him by worrying about a problem in your life that you asked Jesus to help you with.

Also, keep in mind that chances are that He may wait until the very last minute to answer your prayers. This builds our faith and also it gives Him more glory because you know it was Him that saved you from your problems. Jesus wants our faith and He also wants the glory so don't forget to thank Him. Let Him show you the meaning of the Bible and let Him guide your life every moment of the day. Stay focused on Him constantly and don't let adversity discourage you because if you have faith in Jesus and love Him with all your heart and let Him make you the person He wants you to be -- and when the time comes for you to meet your Maker -- you'll be glad you did!!!!!!
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 10:54 AM CDT

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Stopping by to say hello-loved the pictures you posted!! You are such a beautiful family. Thoughts and prayers are always with you
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
NJ - Tuesday, September 28, 2004 10:18 AM CDT

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Hi, Great pictures! You're right, Colton looks like Colby, except I think Colby beat him in the cheeks area! He is a doll. Cameron looks so mature! Glad to hear that you had a good time with the Doctors :) Always in my thoughts and prayers,
Cassandra cousin to Brendon http://www.caringbridge.org/nm/brendon <cmraven@msn.com>
Albuquerque, NM - Monday, September 27, 2004 11:19 PM CDT

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just sending our love and support across the miles...

always in our hearts thoughts and prayers!!
~*~Samantha's Story~*~
karen n sammi <mpbowler1`@aol.,com>
- Monday, September 27, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

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Hello Sweet Angel Colby Cole Family! I have my home system back – whewhoo! I absolutely LOVE the new pictures! Make copies of the new picture page to show the girlfriends someday!! Boy oh boy are you going to be in trouble for the nudie pictures, but gee they are just so darn cute! Colby is having a good laugh too!

Always here and always praying, praying and praying. God is good and will continue to watch over you day in and day out. His little helper keeps a watchful eye over all of you as well. Sending a lot of love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, September 27, 2004 7:29 PM CDT

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All a Hug Can Do

A hug can say "I'll miss you"
or "I'll be thinking of you"
It can say, "your something special"
or best of all, "I love you".
It can sooth a hurt or calm a fear
or cheer us when we're BLUE.
It almost seems a mircle,
all the things a hug can do.
("Angel Colby James Cole,
maybe you can come give me
a hug in my sleep")
Love You so much,
("My Little Man")
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, September 27, 2004 10:17 AM CDT

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Just stopping by to see Colby's beautiful smile and say a prayer for his wonderful family. Colton resembles Colby so much!!
Love,

Debbie Nagy
St. Louis, MO - Monday, September 27, 2004 10:10 AM CDT

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Well I can sure say it makes me happy to see the pictures of the three BEAUTIFUL little guys the two of you created. Colton is absolutely precious! He does resemble Colby in the picture. What precious, precious, precious children. I hope they make you as happy as ever. I know, and it gives me peace to know, that your lives have lost a true love, but I take peace in that you have two other true loves still here on earth. Colby is with you too. Always and forever.
Tracee Saltz <TraceeSaltz@mchsi.com>
Norwalk, Ia - Sunday, September 26, 2004 8:19 PM CDT

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Happiness

No person can be consciously happy all the time. The world just isn't made that way. In fact, it is doubtful if human nature could appreciate long stretches of uninterrupted happiness. The sameness of it would dull its savor.

It would be possible to bog down in what we mean by happiness. But most people have a pretty good idea of what happiness means to them and they know, too, that they have too much to do to be fully aware at all times whether or not they are happy.

Life is a complex business. It is work and leisure; achievement and failure; anticipation and disappointment; love and hate; hope and despair; faith and skepticism; pleasure and pain. And it is responsibility. In life there are periods of happiness and there are periods of sorrow.

Nature gives us a life to lead, with certain laws that make life much easier for those who obey them. She makes happiness a sort of reward for right living, as a sort of dessert. We can look forward to it and enjoy it fully --- but we can't take it as a steady diet.

It takes only moments of happiness to make the years worthwhile. Such moments come to us all.

~By Robert N. Filie'~
Contributed by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:43 AM CDT

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Jack, Laura, Cameron, Colton,
("Angel Colby James Cole")

Make Me Worthy

God, please help me
do a little better each day.
When I'm lost,
show me the way.
In all my endeavors,
Let me do my best,
and when trouble calls,
put my worries to rest.
Help me get past
the things I fear,
and never let me forget
the dreams I hold dear.
Let Your light touch me
like the sunshine above,
and make me worthy
of Your dear love.

~Author Unknown~
Compliments of: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:40 AM CDT

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I Believe

I believe in miracles
and dreams that will come true.
I believe in tender moments
and friendship, through and through.

I believe in stardust
and moonbeams all aglow.
I believe there's magic
and more there than we know.

I believe in reaching out
and touching from the heart.
I believe that if we touch,
a gift we can impart.

I believe that if you cry
your tears are not in vain.
And when you're sad and lonely,
others know your pain.

I believe that when we laugh
a sparkle starts to shine.
And I just know that spark will spread
from more hearts than just mine.

I believe that hidden
in the quiet of the night.
There's magic moths and gypsies,
a fairy and a sprite.

I believe that if you dance
the dances of your heart,
that greater happiness will find
a brand new way to start.

I believe the gifts you have,
are there for you to share.
And when you give from the heart,
the whole world knows you care.

I believe that if you give,
even just to one.
That gift will grow in magnitude,
before the day is done.

I believe that comfort comes
from giving part of me.
And if I share with others,
there's more for all to see.

I believe that love is still
the greatest gift of all.
And when it's given from the heart,
then not one of us will fall.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:29 AM CDT

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Just popping in to see how things are going at the Cole House.
Have been thinking about you.
Glad to see the golf outting was a success.
Take Care
Praying for You
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, September 24, 2004 5:06 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Hello, ("My Little Man")Here to tell
YOU ("Colby James Cole")
how much ("I MISS & LOVE YOU")!!!!

Forever Changed For Forever More,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, September 24, 2004 11:25 AM CDT

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Dearest Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
I've been bad..I let more than a month go by without writing to you guys!!! SORRY! I know you guys understand when I say time has not been on my side. It's hard to get on the computer these days...work take up so much time!! Anyways, no more excuses, I'm here. I miss you guys. I miss your updates, Laura! I hope all is well on your side.. we in Australia are slowly heading into summer, so you guys must be slowly heading into winter. I wish you all a warm and fuzzy winter season. I pray the boys are doing great and that they are both just growing and growing. I pray that Colby has been visiting you in each of your dreams. He hasn't visited mine for awhile but I see his face everyday in my mind. Jack, I wanted to thank you again for the necklace you gave just over a year ago. I had it close to my heart on September 8th, and somewhere inside me was a sense of peace I have always longed for. Both our families have lost our precious angels...they are never to be forgotten!! And I hope you know Colby still remains just as special as the first time I ever came upon his site and laid my eyes on his gorgeous beaming smile :)

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Thursday, September 23, 2004 7:43 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I was in the middle of my post last night and lost my home network, so it did not get there! Anyway, tomorrow the computers are going to Pittsburgh to be fixed, so I may not be able to post for a while, yet I just wanted you to know that you are always in my thought’s and my prayer’s. I love you Angel Baby!

Forever loving Colby and FOREVER changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 7:13 PM CDT

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Kindness Can Accomplish Much

Those who vow to do good should not expect people to clear the stones from their path on this account.
They must expect the contrary; that others will roll great boulders around them.

Such obstacles can be overcome by the kind of strength gained in the very struggle.

Those who merely resent obstacles will waste whatever force they have.

Three kinds of progress are significant for culture: progress in knowledge and technology; progress in the socialization of man; progress in spirituality. The last is the most important.

Just as the wave cannot exist by itself, but must always participate in the swell of the ocean,

so we can always experience our lives by ourselves, but must always share the experiencing of life that takes place around us.

Constant kindness can accomplish much. As the sun makes ice melt, kindness causes misunderstanding, mistrust and hostility to evaporate.

~By Albert Schw eitzer~
Contributed by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 8:37 AM CDT

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A Time To Believe

To believe is to know that every day
is a new beginning.
It is to trust that miracles happen,
and dreams really do come true.

To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds
to know the wonder of a stardust sky
and the wisdom of the man in the moon.

To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,
the innocence of a child's eyes
and the beauty of an aging hand,
for it is through their teachings we learn to love.

To believe is to find the strength
and courage that lies within us when it is time
to pick up the pieces and begin again.

To believe is to know we are not alone,
that life is a gift
and this is our time to cherish it.

To believe is to know that wonderful surprises
are just waiting to happen,
and all our hopes and dreams are within reach.

"If only we believe."
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 8:24 AM CDT

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My Golden Angel

I think I saw an Angel,
In my house last night.
She was sitting in my bedroom,
When I turned off the light.

She was elegantly simple,
In a gown of golden mesh.
Which glittered in the moonlight,
That shone upon her dress.

Soft, golden threaded wings,
Fluttered 'round her haloed head.
I could barely see them move,
As I looked out from my bed.

Oh, so tiny - so petite,
Was I sure that she was there?
I took another little peek,
And saw her perched upon my chair.

For a moment I was frightened,
Yet, I felt assurance, too.
I wanted then to pick her up,
But my body would not move.

"Is she my Angel, God?" I asked,
"Of course she is," He said.
"And in the dark of night,
She is always by your bed.

"In the daylight hours,
She often perches on an ear.
Everyone has Angels,
And they are always near."

So I lay quite still and watched her,
As she fluttered 'round the place.
Soon she came up on my pillow,
And I swear she brushed my face.

Then, as I watched, she disappeared,
She completely left my sight.
I lay there just an instant,
Then turned on my bedroom light.

I looked into my dresser mirror,
And on the cheek that she had brushed.
Was the tiny imprint of a kiss,
That felt warm when I touched.

Then I looked about the room,
And what did my eye behold.
But there upon my pillow case,
Was a tiny thread of gold.

Virginia (Ginny) Ellis
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 8:37 AM CDT

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Hey guys!!!

I just wanted to say hello. Laura, I am so glad I have you in my life. You are the BEST! I must have not erased the last message you left me and when checking my voice mail today I heard your ever so loving voice pick me up. You always know what to say... or should I say what I need to hear. Love you! Cam-man.... I hope you are having fun in school. I am still waiting on my picture silly goose.

Miss you ALL so much. Hope to see you soon. Please give Cameron and Colton big hugs and kisss or me.

Angle Colby... missing you SO much. You are in my heart every day. BIG HUGS TO YOU!

FOREVER LOVING COLBY,
Whateeka XOXOXOXOXOXO <jessicazalek@yahoo.com>
Frederick... way too far from Uniontown, PA :-( - Monday, September 20, 2004 10:05 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Good night – sending a lot of love – just feeling blessed from above!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, September 20, 2004 9:08 PM CDT

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Like A Rose

Beginning small
Slowly rising
Growing, thriving
Every twist and turn something new to be discovered
Each path brings you closer
Teaches you something significant
As each mystery unravels into a larger one
More to be unearthed

Along the way
There are obstacles to meet
Thorns to block your way
You are faced with difficult decisions, fears to overcome
Virulent and deadly
Pain that leaves you scarred forever
Lessons you will never forget
But wisdom to make better choices in the future

Through all the bad memories
There will also be grand experiences
Memories bursting with color
Happiness, love
Serenity and peace
Making up for anything unpleasant
Complete bliss
A reassurance that everything will be all right

For at the end of the journey
You will reach your destination
Deep in the heart
If you have ambition and determination
Life is like a rose
A sign of beauty, a sign of hope
A sign of anything and everything you can be
If you believe

by Melody
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, September 20, 2004 10:15 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I pray this evening finds you safe, sound and dry. We have been dealing with flooding issues at home and at work. Thankfully, it has finally come to an end. The good and most important news is that EVERYONE is safe! We have so much to be thankful for, as we were all taken care of by God, and certainly all those angels – TYJ & TYAC!!! Even in this time of peril for so many people Our Loving Father is there!!

By the way, after this extraordinary experience I still indeed love the inclement weather just as much as always! Sending you love Angel Baby and Cole’s!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, September 19, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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~ Doors ~

Through all our lives
There are to many choices

The door to the right
May look good

But the door to the left
May look equally as good
if not better

We will never know

Once we choose our path
It's a done deal

If it turns out bad
The other door could have been worse

If it turns out good
The other door could have been better

So we all plod along
In blindness
Trying to make
"the right decisions"
Many times we do
But sometimes we don't

Sometimes, surprisingly
And sometimes, expectantly
We hit the last set of doors

You realize at that point
Most of the other doors
didn't really matter

So you examine the door to the left
It says

"The Right Door"

You ponder this for a moment
You feel the door
It's warm
A warmth that surges through your body
with the love of all your family and friends

You jump back very startled

You think to yourself
"I've chosen to many wrong doors
How can I be sure this one is the right one?"

So you turn your attention to the door on the right

The sign reads

"The Right Door"

A little confused
you feel the door
But feel nothing

You notice a peep hole in the door
So you look through

There are many beautiful children
playing in a park
Laughing and jumping
Having as much fun
As one could imagine

Again startled you back up

You notice to the right is yet another door

Of coarse it has a sign which reads

"The Right Door"

After that another door with the same sign
and another and another
A dozen doors which lead back to the first

Which door did Mom pick?

"The right door" of coarse.

God may leave us choices in life
but after that he gently
but surely brings us home.

He only wants us to think we had a choice.
by DMR
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 19, 2004 12:08 AM CDT

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Just checking in to see how things are going.
I love the new pictures you posted. They are so
precious.
Baby Colton sure is growing.
So beautiful too.
The three pictures of your three boys are so beautiful.
It would be nice to have them put into one big picture.
Praying for you
Take Care and May God Be With You Always.
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Saturday, September 18, 2004 7:25 PM CDT

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Inspiring Thoughts

Anger is a condition in which
the tongue works faster than the mind.

You can't change the past,
but you can ruin the present
by worrying over the future.

Love...and you shall be loved.

God always gives His best to those
who leave the choice with Him.

All people smile in the same language.

A hug is a great gift... one size fits all.
It can be given for any occasion
and it's easy to exchange.

Everyone needs to be loved...
especially when they do not deserve it.

The real measure of a man's wealth
is what he has invested in eternity.

Laughter is God's sunshine.

Everyone has beauty
but not everyone sees it.

It's important for parents to live
the same things they teach.

Thank God for what you have,
TRUST GOD for what you need.

If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday
and the worries of tomorrow,
you have no today to be thankful for.

Man looks at outward appearance
but the Lord looks within.

The choice you make today
will usually affect tomorrow.

Take time to laugh, for it is
the music of the soul.

If anyone speaks badly of you,
live so none will believe it.

Patience is the ability to idle your motor
when you feel like stripping your gears.

Love is strengthened by working
through conflicts together.

The best thing parents can do
for their children is to love each other.

Harsh words break no bones
but they do break hearts.

To get out of a difficulty,
one usually must go through it.

We take for granted the things
that we should be giving thanks for.

Love is the only thing that can be
divided without being diminished.

Happiness is enhanced by others
but does not depend upon others.

For every minute you are angry with someone,
you lose 60 seconds of happiness
that you can never get back.

Do what you can, for who you can,
with what you have, and where you are.

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, September 18, 2004 9:03 AM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

Missing You So Much,
("My Little Angel")
Like Rennie puts it,
("Forever Changed"),
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, September 17, 2004 11:36 AM CDT

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Good night Cole Family. I am exhausted from a very long day and cannot wait to get into my bed! Whew – I am sure you can say the same about your day and just “love bed” sometimes too! Sweet dreams of your Angel Baby!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washintgon, PA - Thursday, September 16, 2004 8:45 PM CDT

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A Mother's
Little Shadows

I saw a young mother
With eyes full of laughter
And two little shadows
Came following after.

Wherever she moved,
They were always right there
Holding onto her skirts,
Hanging onto her chair.
Before her, behind her-
An adhesive pair.

"Don't you ever get weary
As, day after day,
Your two little tagalongs
Get in your way?

She smiled as she shook
Her pretty young head,
And I'll always remember
The words that she said

"It's good to have shadows
That run when you run,
That laugh when you're happy
And hum when you hum -
For you only have shadows
When your life's filled with sun."

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Thursday, September 16, 2004 8:47 AM CDT

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Dear Cole family,
Just stopping by to say a special prayer for all of you and letting you know that I have not forgotten your wonderful family, and I will never forget Colby!! I know you still miss Colby terribly and I am sure you always will. May God continue to give you the peace and strength you need to find happiness in living.
Love,

Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@earthlink.net>
St. Louis, MO - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:06 PM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

The last couple of lines from “Aunt Dee’s” post states it best: “These gifts that I can't give to you come only from above.” Indeed that is so true! The Heaven above, Our Loving Father and sweet Angel Baby Colby can give all that we “underlings” cannot!

May Heaven and all the love that comes with it keep you very close tonight.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dwoler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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Jack & Laura,

The thing's I wish for you
Real love in the morning
True Love for afternoon
And Love that lasts forever
Underneath the sun and moon

Peace when storms surround you
Comfort in the night
Someone to confide in
When things are just not right

Happiness and Laughter
Joy that's deep within
Friends that you can turn to
And on whom you can depend

Knowledge when you don't know
Just what you're going to do
Wisdom that will guide you
And help you make it through

Strength to face another day
When your heart is wracked with pain
And those no longer with you
Still in your heart remain

So now I wish you all these things
And send to you with love
These gifts that I can't give to you
Come only from Above

~by Ruth Bourdon~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 8:17 AM CDT

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Good night Angel Colby Cole Family – sending my love.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 8:27 PM CDT

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Students in Life
=========

Please pray for the 7th grade students in my class to behave.
They lie, cheat, steal, curse, call out, act out and are
extremely disrespectful.

I am stressed from teaching them all year. Please pray that
they will behave in class, JUST sit quietly and act normal.


The above is a MountainWings Prayer request. The thing is, bad
behavior occurs at all ages. So does good behavior.

This teacher could just as well have been talking about some
governmental legislatures, some corporate boards, some church
groups, some college students, and definitely many parents.

We prayed for her and those who misbehave,
no matter what their ages or position.


~A MountainWings Original~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 11:10 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Today was an interesting day as I returned to work. I went through the motions and did what I had to do, yet there was this voice in my head reminding me that life is so much more than work. I am sure you know this voice as well Cole’s. I am certain I need to listen to it more, as I fail to so many times. Thank you my Lord and Savior and thank you Sweet Angel Baby - I AM listening! Sending love, hugs and a lot of prayers your way.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, September 13, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

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What Do You Do?
==========

“What do you do?”

People often ask me that question. In recent years I found it
increasingly difficult to answer.
At first I believed it was because I had a multitude of jobs.
I was a part of my family’s business that my father started.
I owned a business separate from that.
I was the pastor of a church.
I published MountainWings.
Even within the businesses my title was not clear. I am a
chemist by education but I’m no longer in the lab much.
I function more as an executive so “chemist” no longer fit.
People know me as a minister, but I won’t take a salary or any
money from the church. When people ask you “what do you do?”
they usually mean "How do you make money?"
So minister didn’t exactly fit either.
I sat in a class at the church one Saturday. The speaker was
talking about getting finances in order and about what you do.
I still didn't have a solid answer when people asked me the
question, then it became crystal clear in an instant.
I knew my destiny.
I knew exactly what I did.
I knew exactly what my passion was.
I knew exactly what I was called to do.
In that instant, the quandary that I struggled with for years
melted away into a very clear idea of what I did.
The company that I started with my youngest brother
Thewoman.com sells natural health products. It was
an extension of what my father did. Daddy was not in the health
products business but it was a personal passion of his.
He took sick people teas, juices and tinctures to help them get
well. We have daddy's passion but put it into a product and
multiplied his effectiveness ten thousand times.
I preach each week at the church and thousands listen to the
sermons each month from the net on TheOnLineWord.com.
MountainWings reaches people all over the world each day,
CryofTheSpirit.com does the same.
I realized what I do.
At last, I realized it.
If you are to ever truly achieve your divine mission here on
earth, you need to realize “what you do” and “what you are meant
to do.” It’s not just a plumber, doctor, lawyer, housewife, or
a simple label that defines who you really are and what you
really do.
You are more than that.
Much more.
So what did I realize in that instant that I did...
I help people.
That’s it, that’s what I do. One way or another, I help people.
In every position that I have, whether I make money at it or
not, I help people.
Once that realization struck,
I realized everything else was secondary.

So,

What do you do?


~A MountainWings Original~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, September 13, 2004 10:38 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

There is that face I love so much! Home sweet home is where I love to be. I am sure home is where you want to be tonight Cole’s. I pray this evening finds you snuggled up under the covers together! Sending warm hugs!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, September 12, 2004 8:42 PM CDT

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("NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP")

Many of you are familiar with the childhood prayer "Now I lay me down to sleep," but I was little surprised to learn that it is a shortened version of an Old English prayer, which goes like this:
Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John,
bless the bed that I lie on.
Before I lay me down to sleep,
I give my soul to Christ to keep.

Four corners to my bed,
four angels there aspread,
two to foot, and two to head,
and two to carry me when I'm dead.

I go by sea, I go by land,
the Lord made me by his right hand.
If any danger comes to me,
Sweet Jesus Christ, deliver me.

He's the branch, and I'm the flower,
pray God send me a happy hour.
And if I die before I wake,
I pray that Christ my soul will take.

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 12, 2004 9:57 AM CDT

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Thank you for all of your support, I think of you all the time. This pain is so hard to endure I just don't know what to do or how to live anymore. I hope things are ok with you. Love, Susan and Angel Jordan
www.caringbridge.org/ia/jordangrosclaude
Susan Grosclaude <Grosclaude@msn.com>
marion, IA USA - Saturday, September 11, 2004 9:46 PM CDT

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I want to let you know that I continue to visit your web pages and pray for your family to find peace. Our earthly journey isn't always a smooth ride and the bumps seem harder and bigger for some than for others. Enjoy the even times and God's Blessing that they are more frequent than the rough road for you now.
`Ivy <ivyjivy@yahoo.com>
lynnwood, wa usa - Saturday, September 11, 2004 4:29 PM CDT

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Matthew 24:6
===========

"And ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars:
see that ye be not troubled:
for all these things must come to pass,
but the end is not yet."
Jesus (Matthew 24:6)
In the midst of it all. . .
. . .the sympathy, the terror, the anger, the confusion,
the hate, the blame, the fear, the uncertainty. . .
. . .on both sides.
See that YOU be NOT troubled,
for these things MUST come to pass.

We pray for your peace. . .

. . .in a world that so often knows it not.


A MountainWings Original
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, September 11, 2004 9:37 AM CDT

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Jack and Laura,Stopped by to say hello and let you know I haven't stopped thinking about you or praying for you.You both are such caring people. Much love.

Regina
- Friday, September 10, 2004 11:50 AM CDT

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The Second Ten Commandments,

1. Thou shall not worry,
for worry is the most unproductive of all human activities.

2. Thou shall not be fearful,
for most of the things we fear never come to pass.

3. Thou shall not cross bridges before you come to them,
for no one yet has succeeded in accomplishing this.

4. Thou shall face each problem as it comes.
You can only handle one at a time anyway.

5. Thou shall not take problems to bed with you,
for they make very poor bedfellows.

6. Thou shall not borrow other people's problems.
They can better care for them than you can.

7. Thou shall not try to relive yesterday for good or ill,
it is forever gone. Concentrate on what is happening
in your life and be happy now!

8. Thou shall be a good listener,
for only when you listen do you hear ideas different from
your own. It is hard to learn something new when you are
talking, and some people do know more than you do.

9. Thou shall not become "bogged down" by frustration,
for 90% of it is rooted in self-pity and will only
interfere with positive action.

10. Thou shall count thy blessings,
never overlooking the small ones,
for a lot of small blessings add up to a big one

~By Ruth Bourdon~
Visit Ruth's Web page at: http://hometown.aol.com/gypsycat9/myhomepage/profile.html http://hometown.aol.com/gypsycat9/myhomepage/profile.html





JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Thursday, September 9, 2004 10:15 AM CDT

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Did I mention...always in our prayers...

God Bless,


The Horvats <vze42kq7@verizon.net>
Uniontown, PA - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 8:43 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Good night Cole’s! I am sending my love and hugs from far away!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 8:27 PM CDT

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Hang On To One Another

Too often, we feel alone. But there is always someone ready to take our hand.

There is a beautiful story of an overworked nurse who escorted a tired, young man to her patient's bedside.

Leaning over and speaking loudly to the elderly patient, she said, "Your son is here."

With great effort, his unfocused eyes opened, then flickered shut again. The young man squeezed the aged hand in his and sat beside the bed.

Throughout the night he sat there, holding the old man's hand and whispering words of comfort.

By morning light, the patient had died. In moments, hospital staff swarmed into the room to turn off machines and remove needles.

The nurse stepped over to the young man's side and began to offer sympathy, but he interrupted her.

"Who was that man?" he asked.

The startled nurse replied, "I thought he was your father!" "No he was not my father," he answered. "I never saw him before in my life." "Then, why didn't you say something when I took you to him?"

"I realized he needed his son and his son wasn't here," the man explained. "And since he was too sick to recognize that I was not his son, I knew he needed me."

Mother Teresa used to remind us that nobody should have to die alone. Likewise, nobody should have to grieve alone or cry alone either. Or laugh alone or celebrate alone.

We are made to travel life's journey hand in hand. There is someone ready to grasp your hand today. And someone hoping you will take his or her hand.
Remember To hang On To One Another!

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by Jo-Ann Llewellyn
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 10:02 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Tonight I feel so much Heavenly love. I had a decent day and usually I feel Heaven the most when times are tough, yet today I am just smiling and thankful that I feel so closely held by God, Heaven and Heaven’s angels on a good day!! Even Faith, knowing that I am going away, reminded me of her love and that she would have A LOT OF FUN while I was gone!!!! TYJ, TYF and I must say TYAC – I love you Angel Baby!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 8:45 PM CDT

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Good night Cole's! I pray you had a nice holiday.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, September 6, 2004 7:12 PM CDT

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Jack & Laura,

Look My Friends
and You Will See,
I Am Here,
Looking Over Thee...

I May Not Speak Words To Hear,
But If You Listen Closely,
You Will Feel Me Near.
I Am Your Goodness,
Love So Pure
I Am Your Soul,
Love Me Dear.

I'm With You Daily,
Following You Close
Your Deepest Thoughts,
Your Saddest Woes.

I Love You Unconditionally
Your Heart I See,
So When In Need,
Please Call On Me.
I Am...

Your Guardian Angel
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, September 6, 2004 11:30 AM CDT

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Good Morning Cole Family
Thank you for the e-mail Laura,
I will get back to you on a visit.
I went to visit Colby again.
I like visiting with him and chatting.:0)
Today will be a very trying day................. I went yesterday and cleaned Chars resting place and brought some things home to be washed. Will be there again today for a visit with Char. :0(
That is such a beautiful cemetery where he is.
Take Care
Thinking of you always
Praying for you everyday.
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Monday, September 6, 2004 10:18 AM CDT

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Just dropping by to let you know that our love and prayers are with you...today...tomorrow...forever.
In Love & Prayer...Eleasha & Cody <eleasha@cox.net>
www.caringbridge.org/va/cody, - Monday, September 6, 2004 1:44 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I am praying you have a wonderful night and a great holiday tomorrow! May God bless you and keep you in His care.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, September 5, 2004 7:21 PM CDT

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Colby's spirit will always live on in the hope and good works that others are doing in his honor, and I hope this and God's love give you strength.
Kathy Spellman <webmaster@spellmanstudio.com>
Uniontown, PA 15401 - Sunday, September 5, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

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Thoughts To Remember

1. If you want your dreams to come true,
don't oversleep.
2. The smallest good deed is better
than the grandest intention.
3. Of all the things you wear,
your expression is the most important.
4. The best vitamin for making friends
....B1.
5. The 10 commandments are
not multiple choice.
6. The happiness of your life depends on
the quality of your thoughts.
7. Minds are like parachutes...
they function only when open.
8. Ideas won't work
unless YOU do.
9. One thing you can't recycle
is wasted time.
10. One who lacks the courage to start
has already finished.
11. The heaviest thing to carry
is a grudge.
12. Don't learn safety rules
by accident.
13. We lie the loudest when
we lie to ourselves.
14. Jumping to conclusions
can be bad exercise.
15. A turtle makes progress when
it sticks its head out.
16. One thing you can give and still keep
...is your word.
17. A friend walks in when
everyone else walks out.

AND FINALLY...

18. The pursuit of happiness is
the chase of a lifetime!

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, September 5, 2004 8:47 AM CDT

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Okay… The Cole Family in Uniontown is okay, the Cole Family in Canton is okay and the Cole Family in Washington is okay…we are all okay! Now I am laughing!!! I love all of you and bid you a good night and great weekend!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, September 4, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

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The Challenge
========

Charles Schwab, president of U.S. Steel and the highest-paid
executive of his time, understood how to motivate men.

When one of his mills wasn't producing its quota, he went to the
mill manager and addressed him personally: "How is it," Schwab
asked, "that a man as capable as you can't make this mill turn
out what it should?"

"I don't know," the man replied, "I've coaxed the men; I've
pushed them; I've sworn and cussed; I've threatened them with
damnation and being fired. But nothing works. They just won't
produce."

"Give me a piece of chalk," Schwab said. Then, turning to the
nearest man: "How many heats did your shift make today?"

"Six"

Without another word, Schwab chalked a big figure six on the
floor, and walked away. When the night shift came in, they saw
the "6" and asked what it meant. "The big boss was in here
today," the day men said. He asked us how many heats we made,
and we told him six. He chalked it on the floor."

The next morning Schwab walked through the mill again. The
night shift had rubbed out "6" and replaced it with a big "7".

When the day shift reported for work the next morning, they saw
a big "7" chalked on the floor. So the night shift thought they
were better than the day shift, did they? Well, they would show
the night shift a thing or two. They pitched in with enthusiasm
and when they quit that night, they left behind them an
enormous, swaggering "10". Things were stepping up...

If you're looking to motivate those around you, throw down a
challenge.

If you're looking to motivate yourself, throw down a challenge.

Thank you for inviting MountainWings in your mailbox.
See you tomorrow.


JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, September 4, 2004 2:27 PM CDT

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One more thing - I would give my life for Colby's if I could bring him back. I wanted to write this in my post, but did not want to upset you MORE than I already have done, yet I selfishly wanted you to know - If I could I would, just as I would and will do the same for my Faith.
Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, September 3, 2004 10:19 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Sending love and a lot of prayer, as you are always on my mind.

I must say I think my entry from Wednesday may have implied something it was not meant to, so please accept my apology as it is very sincere. When I posted that entry I was in a huge state of uncontrollable emotion and was not saying that Colby was my son – please know I do not even have a clue what it is like for you. When I ended my post I had the song in my head and posted “He is my son”, and even as I read it I can see how messed up the message was. I was not thinking about being a parent in your situation. I was thinking about my being on borrowed time and how I would give my life for an innocent child, just as I prayed for God to take me and not Faith when we were fighting for our lives – she was not just anyone she was my daughter. I was so upset that night, as I had never actually seen a dead infant in person, and I was on my knees in desperation. I feel like a fool and give you my deepest apology for what I have done to you and your family from a very inappropriate post. I would never compare my insignificant feelings and thought’s to your reality. That night I knew my frame of mind was not stable, and I should have just said I love you and nothing more. Once again I am so sorry. I love your Angel Baby so much.

Thank you Janice for giving me a true picture of what I have done, I do love you – you are a great woman and blessed by Our Father.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, September 3, 2004 9:35 PM CDT

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Good Afternoon cole Family,
Just checking in to see how things are going at the Cole Homefront.
Take Care and May God Be with You Always..........
:)
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Friday, September 3, 2004 2:06 PM CDT

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RENNIE COLE DOWLER,
Renne Cole, we are going to be fighting over that ("ENTRY")
("HE IS MY SON") - PUT UP YOUR FISTS ("RENNIE COLE" DOWLER)
WE HAVE THE SAME BLOOD, I'M SURE, RENNIE, BUT I WILL WHIP YOU ANYWAY!!!!
HOPE THIS LITTLE ENTRY, MADE YOU AT LEAST PUT A "SMILE" ON
("THAT BEAUTIFUL FACE")!!!!!
As I sit here crying!!!!
I ("REALLY") Love You, Rennie Cole,
Janice Cole
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, September 3, 2004 1:32 PM CDT

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Lessons From The Real World

Living well really IS the best revenge.
Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.
You only need two tools: WD-40 and duct tape.
If it doesn't move and it should, use WD-40.
If it moves and it shouldn't, use duct tape.
When baking, follow directions carefully.
When cooking on top of the stove,
go by your own taste.
Life is 10% what happens to you,
and 90% how you respond to it.
The two most essential phrases for a happy relationship:
"I apologize" and "You are right."
Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect,
it just means you decided to see beyond
the imperfections and be happy anyway.
If you woke up breathing, be thankful!
You have another chance!
Being miserable because of a former relationship
just proves that the other person was right about you.
Real friends are those who,
when you make a fool of yourself,
don't feel you've done a permanent job.
If he or she says that you are too good for them - believe it.
You don't have to attend every argument you're invited to.
You should lead your life so you wouldn't be
ashamed to sell your parrot to the town gossip.
Learn from the mistakes of others.
You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, September 3, 2004 12:26 AM CDT

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Hello Cole Family!

I am sending you love and cheer tonight. My negativity has been replaced with the thought of ever after and the great Home where the streets are gold. Praise you Jesus – I am blessed by Your love. I love you Cole’s and I love you Angel Baby.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, September 2, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

We arrived home tonight from Audia Andy’s only viewing and I just cannot get over the whole… the whole … what do I even call it? I saw her, I saw Colby, I saw Chris… I just cannot get anything straight in my mind right now as my whole heart, mind, soul and being hurt so damn much. I am sick and just want to push it all away. As soon as I am done writing this I am going to go to bed and get into “my happy place” with God searching for answers. Can I find them? I am not sure I can, nor can anyone until we reach the Kingdom of Heaven. Then I think of you – the feeling in the pit of my stomach gets even worse. I have no comprehension of what it is like for you to get up every single day, when I apparently cannot even think about it as I push, push and push my feelings out of my mind until I am numb. I do not cry very often, yet the angels are making me have a torrent of tears tonight that I cannot control or even deal with. I honestly know not of what you have gone through, go through and will continue to go through – I cannot even get past the thought. I am sorry if this post is inappropriate, yet I seem to feel so much for you and your “Angel Baby” that I cannot do less than bare myself at times. I want to be a support, yet tonight I clearly cannot be that for you. Please forgive me; I am sorry and send my love – I am here and I am not going anywhere because your son means so much to me “He is my son”.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 9:17 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

We arrived home tonight from Audia Andy’s only viewing and I just cannot get over the whole… the whole … what do I even call it? I saw her, I saw Colby, I saw Chris… I just cannot get anything straight in my mind right now as my whole heart, mind, soul and being hurt so damn much. I am sick and just want to push it all away. As soon as I am done writing this I am going to go to bed and get into “my happy place” with God searching for answers. Can I find them? I am not sure I can, nor can anyone until we reach the Kingdom of Heaven. Then I think of you – the feeling in the pit of my stomach gets even worse. I have no comprehension of what it is like for you to get up every single day, when I apparently cannot even think about it as I push, push and push my feelings out of my mind until I am numb. I do not cry very often, yet the angels are making me have a torrent of tears tonight that I cannot control or even deal with. I honestly know not of what you have gone through, go through and will continue to go through – I cannot even get past the thought. I am sorry if this post is inappropriate, yet I seem to feel so much for you and your “Angel Baby” that I cannot do less than bare myself at times. I want to be a support, yet tonight I clearly cannot be that for you. Please forgive me; I am sorry and send my love – I am here and I am not going anywhere because your son means so much to me “He is my son”.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 9:16 PM CDT

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Hi Laura, I just had to share this poem with you. It was sent to me today. I thought of you as soon as I read it. We do have one special bond. That is OUR PRECIOUS ANGELS.... :).
Thank you Cameron for the beautiful card.

I put a memorial in for Charlene's Heaven Date. It will be in Sundays newspaper.
Thanks Laura you and your family are very special poeple. God brought us together..................

GRAB A HANKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angel Moms

We have shared our tears and our sorrow,
We have given encouragement to each other,
Given hope for a brighter tomorrow,
We share the title of grieving mother.

Some of us lost older daughters or sons,
Who we watched grow over the years,
Some have lost their babies before their lives begun,
But no matter the age , we cry the same tears.

We understand each others pain,
The bond we share is very strong,
With each other there is no need to explain,
The path we walk is hard and long.

Our children brought us together,
They didn't want us on this journey alone,
They knew we needed each other,
To survive the pain of them being gone.

So take my hand my friend,
We may stumble and fall along the way,
But we'll get up and try again,
Because together we can make it day by day.

We can give each other hope,
We'll create a place where we belong,
Together we will find ways to cope,
Because we are Angel Moms and together we are strong!

Judi Walker
(Shane's Mom)
Copyright Dec. 28, 1999
Dedicated to all moms who have lost a child.


Love, Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Wednesday, September 1, 2004 2:13 PM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

Tonight, as I was reading Faith’s devotion and Bible, I thought about you. The topic was joy and how to find it regardless of anything. One verse that was given (this is simplified for children) –
“These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full.” John 15:11

God is alive and in your heart. He leaves joy within you, no matter what. I am praying for you to find joy. God and Colby want you to have it, and so do all of us that love you so much!!!

I am sorry this is going to be long. After putting Faith down and thinking about “joy”, I was humming in my head one of my favorite songs. “The Rose” by Bette Midler. Then, I come to this page and read “Aunt Dee’s” post about “The Rose”, entirely different, yet the same in so many ways to a beloved song of mine. So I will “cut and paste” the song for you to read, however I must tell you that my favorite message of the song is that last stanza. This is where we find hope and joy (When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love, in the spring becomes the rose).

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, it's only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the rose

I LOVE YOU COLE’S AND I AM SENDING YOU HUGE HUGS!!!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,


Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 9:11 PM CDT

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Jack & Laura,
The Rose

I've dreamed many dreams that never came true. I've seen them vanish at dawn. But I've realized enough of my dreams, thank God, to make me want to dream on.

I've prayed many prayers, when no answers came, though I waited patient and long. But answers came to enough of my prayers to make me keep praying on.

I've trusted many a friend that failed and left me to weep alone. But I've found enough of my friends, true blue, to make me keep trusting on.

I've sown many seeds that fell by the way for the birds to feed upon. But I have held enough golden sheaves in my hands to make me keep sowing on.

I've drained the cup of disappointment and pain and gone many days without song. But I've sipped enough nectar from the roses of life to make me want to live on.

May you always sip enough nectar from the Roses of Life...

Love You,
Janice
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 10:34 AM CDT

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What a huge success the fundraiser was...! A lot of work that was certainly worth it. Praying that Cameron is doing well and adjusts easily to preschool. Lily starts tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

Always in our prayers
Kristi <vze42kq7@verizon.net>
Uniontown, - Monday, August 30, 2004 10:00 PM CDT

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Happy Monday Cole Family!

Whew! I am so glad to be home with my husband and the “love of my life” Faith – I am sure you feel the same way about your own. I am CERTAIN it IS different for you, however being home can be so welcoming in so many ways and today it is that for me and I pray “home” is wonderful for you tonight as well. The “little things” mean so much.

Praying for you and loving all of you from the bottom of my heart.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, August 30, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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Laura,You are a warm,loving and caring person. Please don't doubt yourself.I hope your date with Cameron was fun.Thinking of you guys daily and always praying that God will continue to give you strength and peace until you see precious Colby again. Much love always.

Regina
- Monday, August 30, 2004 8:17 PM CDT

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Laura and Jack,
I'm glad to hear that Colby's Memorial Golf Outing was a huge success! Hope your date with Cameron was fun. I think that was a great idea! Have a good week. You are in my prayers.
Kathy H.
Thousand Oaks, CA - Monday, August 30, 2004 5:40 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

My love is you.
My heart is you.
My dream is you.
Always will be you.

Like stars in the sky,
Like a rose in the garden.
Like love in the heart.
My love is in you.

The time will past by.
But your love will
always be in my heart.
I wish you will
always love me too.
I can't even think
of living without you.
Maybe I can live without
breathing for seconds.
But without you I am so Sad

In my past, present
and is future,
its you, only you.
Stars will be broken.
Moon will stop shinning.
Time will stop.
But until my last breath
I will look for you.
I Miss & Love You So Much,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Monday, August 30, 2004 9:27 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Just reading over all of the entries posted today. So much love, so much pain, so much caring – wow. You are so cared for and loved Cole’s and so is your Angel Baby.

Good night and praying you have a wonderful week.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, August 29, 2004 7:54 PM CDT

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Stopped by to say hi and check in. I like looking at that Angel Smile on Angel Colbys FAce...........
I hope everything is going well in the Cole Household. Sorry I keep missing you Laura at the ICU.
I keep checking in but you aren't there when I am. Thats ok.
Just wanted to stop by and say HI and Give You A Well Deserved HUG.
Went to see Angel Colby the other day. Said a prayer for him while I was there. Had a very nice visit.
I also stopped by to see little Noah. Said a prayer for him also.
These days are so hard to get through. I just keep trying to stay busy. I think it helps going to visit other children that have gone after my Charlene.
I know that God had a plan for our ANGELS..............
But still I can't help wondering WHY.......
I also know that is wrong to question but I just can't help myself.
Well, Cameron, How were your smiley cookies???????????
Hope you enjoyed them.
Take Care Cole Family.
Praying for you Always.
Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Sunday, August 29, 2004 7:15 PM CDT

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A Picture Of Peace


There once was a king who offered a prize to the artist who would paint the best picture of peace. Many artists tried. The King looked at all the pictures, but there were only two he really liked and he had to choose between them.
One picture was of a calm lake. The lake was a perfect mirror for peaceful towering mountains were all around it. Overhead was a blue sky with fluffy white clouds. All who saw this picture thought that it was a perfect picture of peace.

The other picture had mountains too. But these were rugged and bare. Above was an angry sky from which rain fell, in which lightening played. Down the side of the mountain tumbled a foaming waterfall. This did not look peaceful at all.

But when the King looked, he saw behind the waterfall a tiny bush growing in a crack in the rock.

In the bush a mother bird had built her nest. There, in the midst of the rush of angry water, sat the mother bird on her nest ... perfect peace.

Which picture do you think won the prize?

The King chose the second picture.

Do you know why?

"Because," explained the King, "peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart. That is the real meaning of peace."

~Author Unknown~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, August 29, 2004 9:44 AM CDT

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JACK, LAURA, CAMERON & COLTON
("ANGEL COLBY JAMES COLE")

I Pray That You Have...
Joy - Unspeakable and full of glory
Peace - That surpasses understanding
Success - In each facet of your life
Friends - Sent from God
Love - Everlasting
Knowledge - That ye may not perish
Special Memories - Of all the Lord has done
A rejoiceful day - That the Lord has made
A path - That leads to the blessings of God
Dreams - That become realities
And appreciation - For all that God has made you!

~Author Unknown~
Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, August 29, 2004 9:19 AM CDT

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SEASONS OF LIFE

At birth we're nothing more you see
Than just a sapling of a tree.
A tree that sprouts up in the spring
To show new life to everything.

We stay this way for a quiet time
Then, like the tree, we learn to climb
Unlike the tree which grows alone
We must be taught the art at home.

"As the twig is bent so grows the tree."
It's much the same with you and me
For as we're taught, so will we grow
And what we learn is all we'll know.

If we permit within this life
The little bird with all its strife
To land upon our limbs and sing
Then we'll be like the tree in spring.

In later, life when in our teens
If we should act like kings or queens
The value of our fruit will be
That equal to the great oak tree.

The color of our locks of hair
Is like the leaves the tree will wear
And all too soon, in life we find
The summer time we've left behind

Thus in the fall the leaves doth turn
Just as in life for youth we yearn
For in the fall of life you see
Again we are just like the tree.

The tree must show in colors bright
That soon the wind will chill the night.
'Tis time for man just past his prime
To settle down for winter time.

In wintertime, the tree is bare
With nests, where robins struggled there
The same is true when mortal man
Has always done the best he can.

When in this life of you or me
If we have been what we should be
There is no place for deep regret
For, like the tree, we still live yet.

~By Worth Brown~

Submitted by: Harry Updegraff, Jr.
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, August 29, 2004 8:39 AM CDT

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I am just stopping by to say hi and let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



Lighting Children's Lives

My website


*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 9:58 PM CDT

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Good night Cole's. May you have a wonderful night full of Angel Colby dreams.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 8:19 PM CDT

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I haven't signed recently but want you to know you ae still in my prayers. I receive as many rewards coming to read your site as the guestbooks gives to you. Thanks for the updates and sharing of your on-going grief process. I think it is a process and in some circumstances a never ending one. The grief may never go away, but it can change. I am glad you had the vision of Colby having fun.
Ivy Cameron <ivyjivy@yahoo.com>
lynnwood, wa usa - Saturday, August 28, 2004 5:03 PM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

I searched among the card displays,
To see if I could find,
A little something that would say
Just what was on my mind.

However there was not a one,
That captured it just right,
For no one else can understand
Just what I'd like to write.

I even find it difficult
To try to write it down,
For how do I portray to you,
The LOVE that I have known?

I close my eyes and what I see,
Is someone I adore;
A person who is beautiful,
Right down into their soul.

Mere words cannot describe
The many qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
You share with those who know.

Your kind and gentle temperament,
Your sweet angelic smile,

Your smile and laugh that sparkle with
The softness of your sighs,
The way your face lights up a room ...
That twinkle in your eye.

The loving gestures through the years,
That quickly come to mind,
For always you've a gentle word
To calm and soothe I find.

I struggle and I search to try
To find some words anew ...
And yet I cannot capture
All the things that make you you.

I shall therefore, be satisfied
That you must simply know,
Just how I feel about you,
For with words I cannot show.

Forever Missing You,
("MY Little Man")
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Saturday, August 28, 2004 10:31 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

Today has been one of “THOSE” days, yet I am reminded of God’s love and purpose. It can be so difficult to understand life and find the answers we seek…I am certain we are not to find answers to some questions until we meet our Maker. I don’t know… Anyway, I am glad to be your friend and a part of your lives Cole’s.

You are really on my mind tonight Colby. You will be gaining a sweet angel tonight and I am sure you will give a Heavenly welcome. Show this sweet baby how to dance and fly. I love you.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Friday, August 27, 2004 6:55 PM CDT

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FEELING SO SAD TODAY
("MY LITTLE MAN")

("Angel Colby James Cole")

I'll love you tomorrow,
I'll love you today,
I'll love you forever,
And forever always.

Forever Always,
Aunt Dee

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Friday, August 27, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I tried to post last night, but for some reason it did not go through. Anyway… Sometimes I do not have a lot to say, nor know what to say, yet I will say – I love you and care so darn much!!!!!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler@aol.com <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Thursday, August 26, 2004 8:30 PM CDT

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It was nice to see your update. Glad the golf outing was such a success. Thinking of you today,
Maria <mariaw19@hotmail.com>
NJ - Thursday, August 26, 2004 10:53 AM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

I'll love you tomorrow,
I'll love you today,
I'll love you forever,
And forever always.

Forever Always,
Aunt Dee
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Thursday, August 26, 2004 8:55 AM CDT

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What place do feelings have?

The Bible teaches that believers should not depend on feelings. Feelings are not bad in themselves. However, when it comes to salvation, decisions and choices are more important than feelings.

The promise of God's Word, the Bible - not our feelings - is our authority. The Christian lives by faith (trust) in the trustworthiness of God Himself and His Word. This train diagram illustrates the relationship among fact (God and His Word), faith (our trust in God and His Word), and feeling (the result of our faith and obedience) (John 14:21)



The train will run with or without a caboose. However, it would be useless to attempt to pull the train by the caboose. In the same way, as Christians, we do not depend on feelings or emotions, but we place our faith (trust) in the trustworthiness of God and the promises of His Word.

What will you place your faith in?

Note: Do you want your faith to grow? First, receive Christ as Savior, and ask Him to begin changing your life and attitudes from the inside out.

Next, begin by reading the Gospel of John, chapters 1-6, several times. Then read the remainder of John and the other three Gospels accounts (Matthew, Mark, and Luke), then the book of Acts, then Romans, followed by the rest of the New Testament. Begin reading a few of the Psalms and Proverbs daily, and eventually work your way through the Old Testament.

As you read, first pray and ask God to speak to you about Himself through His Word. Keep a journal of what His Spirit reveals to you and what He wants you to do. As you read, you will want to talk with Him. This communication is known as prayer. A simple acrostic may help you to give some structure to your growing prayer times. It is the word ACTS:

A – stands for Adore. We should worship God for His character, power, love, and wisdom.

C – stands for Confess. To ‘confess’ means that we agree with anything God says in His Word in sin, choose to stop doing it (the Bible calls this repentance), and begin doing what He tells us.

T: stands for Thanksgiving. We thank Him for His love, forgiveness, answered prayer and help.

S – stands for Supplication. This simply means asking God for His help to meet any needs you, your family or others may be experiencing.

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 1:24 PM CDT

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Dana "Infectious" Big Hair made me cry a little with her entry... cause the ache of missing Colby is still ever so present in me as well. I feel him when I am with you all though. I know he is there with you always and I know that when I visit I can feel his presence even more so.

But oh Laura... you made me smile SO BIG! I love you. Please kiss Cameron for me and have a WONDERFUL time on your date... and tell him that the next time I am in town I want to go on a date with him too!!!

Colby, Keep dancing sweetie! I miss you more than you will ever know. I hope you know how special you are to me and how much inspiration you have given to my future. I am so fortunate that you came into my life.

Jessica What-t-ka
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 8:07 AM CDT

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Shania Twain "Forever and for always"
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face--always

Mmmm, baby
In your heart--I can still hear
a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me

Laura,
I will never forget your tears of joy when you were in the loft of the new house. I hope images of Colby are forever dancing through that house warming your heart. Missing Colby is so hard...the worst ache I ever knew, I can only begin to imagine the emptiness you and Jack feel. Everytime I hear Shania, I can feel Colby dancing in heaven. Thank you for trusting in me your deepest thoughts and feelings. Colby lives on in your laughter and your tears. I miss you already!
Thank you for warmly welcoming our family,
Love you,
Dana
Dana Doctor
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 3:28 AM CDT

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Thank you so much Laura for the update. I am so glad to hear of your encounter with Colby. He knew the perfect time and place to let you know his presence. I am quite sure he gave you a silent message as well. I am always praying for you and your family Laura. God Bless.

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 7:59 PM CDT

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$10,000?!?!?!?! That is SOOOOO awesome. Congratulations! What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful son! I'm sure Colby was smiling down on all of you.

Sending continued prayers of comfort and peace...
Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 7:47 PM CDT

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To It and Thru It
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I am one of the survivors of hurricane Charley.
As the storm approached, I prayed that God would steer it in
another direction because I live in a mobile home as do my parents.
But God did not honor that request and set Charley on a path
straight to us.
My father is dying of cancer and could not possibly go to a
shelter so we opted to ride out the storm all together in my
mobile home.
As the winds blew, I sat and prayed and wondered if God knew
what He was doing? He kept firmly in my mind that if He brings
me to it, He will surly bring me thru it.
The most we suffered was a blown out screen on a porch
enclosure. As thousands are still without power, we never lost
ours which was a TRUE blessing as my father would not have
survived the heat.
My mother who was in need of a new roof on her home (but unable
to afford it) was blessed (yes blessed) to have a tree come
through her roof. Now insurance will provide the new roof.
The moral of this story?
When you think God does not hear let me assure you that He does
...maybe just not the way you want.


~A MountainWings Original by Beth Dewey, Orlando FL~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 1:05 PM CDT

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Hello Cole’s! I am back and glad to see that Angel Baby face I love so very much. However, tonight I want to send my message to Cameron.

Hello Great Warrior! Do you know how handsome you are? Well I do and so does my “Fighter Faith”. She thinks you are soooo cute! Do you know why Faith is here today? Let me tell you…she has angels in Heaven watching over her. She had angels watching over her even before she was born, JUST LIKE COLTON! So you can be sure that Colton has one VERY SPECIAL ANGEL watching over him to make sure he is a wonderful playmate and little brother. There are just some things I know to be true and this is one of them. You are so very special Cameron and loved so very much by your Daddy, Mommy, Colton and YOUR VERY SPECIAL ANGEL COLBY. I love you big guy and know you can and will be a WONDERFUL big brother for many, many years to come!

Forever loving Colby and forever changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, August 23, 2004 9:16 PM CDT

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It was so good to see everyone this weekend. You all warm my heart and are the friends that only one can dream to have. I cannot even begin to tell you how much you all mean to me. I miss you so much already!

Love you Colby.

Whateeka <jessicazalek@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 23, 2004 8:05 AM CDT

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Sunday August 22, 2004

Today's Promise:
Beloved, now are we the sons of God,
and it doth not yet appear what we shall be:
but we know that, when he shall appear,
we shall be like him;
for we shall see him as he is.
1 John 3:2 / KJV

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, OH - Sunday, August 22, 2004 12:23 AM CDT

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How can you believe a Bible that is full of contradictions?


It is truly amazing how often this question is asked. It contains the assumption that the Bible is filled with many obvious discrepancies – which, if true, would make it impossible for someone to believe that the Bible has a divine origin.

If, indeed, the Bible does contain demonstrable errors, it would show that at least those parts could not have come from a perfect, all-knowing God. While one could not argue with this conclusion, there is disagreement with the initial premise. It is very easy to accuse the Bible of inaccuracies, but it is quite another matter to prove it.

Certain passages at first glance appear to be contradictory, but further investigation shows that this is not the case. What constitutes a contradiction? The Law of non-Contradiction, which is the basis of all logical thinking, states that a thing cannot be a and non-a at the same time. In other words, it cannot be raining and not raining at the same time in the same exact spot.

If one can demonstrate a violation of this principle from Scripture, then and only then can he prove a contradiction. For example, if the Bible said -- which it does not -- that Jesus died by crucifixion both at Jerusalem and at Nazareth at the same time, this would be a provable error.

It is important to remember that two statements may differ from each other without being contradictory. Some fail to make a distinction between contradiction and difference.

For example, take the case of the blind men at Jericho. Matthew relates how two blind men met Jesus, while both Mark and Luke mention only one. However, neither statement denies the other; rather they are complementary.

Suppose you were talking to the mayor of your city and the chief of police at city hall. Later, you see your friend Jim and tell him you talked to the mayor today. An hour later, you see your friend John and tell him you talked to both the mayor and the chief of police. The statements you actually made to Jim and John are different, but not contradictory. Likewise, many biblical statements fall into this category. Many think they find errors in passages that they have not correctly read.

In the Book of Judges we have the account of the death of Sisera. Judges 5:25-27 is supposed to represent Jael as having slain him with her hammer and tent peg while he was drinking milk. Judges 4:21 says she did it while he was asleep. However, a closer reading of Judges 5:25-27 will reveal that it is not stated that he was drinking milk at the moment of impact. Thus, the discrepancy disappears.

Sometimes two passages appear to be contradictory because the translation is not as accurate as it could be. A knowledge of the original languages of the Bible can immediately solve many of these difficulties. The reason is that both Greek and Hebrew -- like all languages -- have peculiarities that make them difficult to render into English or any other language.

A classic example concerns the accounts of Paul’s conversion as recorded in the Book of Acts. Acts 9:7 (KJV) states, "And the men which journeyed with him stood speechless, hearing a voice, but seeing no man." Acts 22:9 (KJV) states, "And they that were with me saw indeed the light, and were afraid; but they heard not the voice of him that spake to me."

These statements seem contradictory; one says that Paul’s companions heard a voice, while the other account says that no voice was heard. However, knowledge of Greek solves this difficulty. As the Greek scholar, W. F. Arndt, explains in his book Does the Bible Contradict itself?:

"The construction of the verb ‘to hear’ (akouo) is not the same in both accounts. In Acts 9:7 it is used with the genitive, in Acts 22:9 with the accusative. The construction with the genetive simply expresses that something is being heard or that certain sounds reach the ear; nothing is indicated as to whether a person understands what he hears or not. The construction with the accusative, however, describes a hearing which includes mental apprehension of the message spoken. From this it becomes evident that the two passages are not contradictory. "

Acts 22:9 does not deny that the associates of Paul heard certain sounds; it simply declares that they did not hear in such a way as to understand what was being said. Our English idiom in this case simply is not so expressive as the original Greek" (Does the Bible Contradict Itself?, pp. 13,14). [Note: Newer translations, such as the New King James Version, the NIV, or the NASB are more accurate due to better understanding of linguistics. In other words, while the original Greek manuscripts have not changed, current versions render the languages more "readable" and easier to understand.]

It must also be stressed that when a possible explanation is given to a Bible difficulty, it is unreasonable to state that the passage contains a demonstrable error. Some difficulties in Scriptures result from our inadequate knowledge about the circumstances, and do not necessarily involve an error. These only prove that we are ignorant of the background.

As historical and archaeological studies proceed, new light is being shed on difficult portions of Scripture, and many "errors" have disappeared with better-informed understanding. We need a wait-and-see attitude regarding some problems. While all Bible difficulties have not yet been cleared up, it is our firm conviction that, as more knowledge is gained of the Bible’s past, these problems will fade away. The biblical conception of God is an all-knowing, all-powerful being who does not contradict Himself. Therefore, we feel that His Word, when properly understood, will not contradict itself.

Let us turn the question around. With a body of sacred Scriptures so different from the rest (e.g. supported by many historical records and a great amount of evidence, fulfilled prophecy, etc.) why won’t you put your trust in Jesus Christ, Who attested to the complete accuracy of this written Word, the Bible?
Janice Wright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
Canton, Oh - Saturday, August 21, 2004 1:32 PM CDT

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Why won't living a good, moral life make me acceptable to God?

Many believe that if they do their best here on earth and are ‘sincere’, God will recognize their effort, overlook their weaknesses and "grade on the curve." This belief, however, shows a misunderstanding of God’s infinite righteousness and perfection.

The Bible says, "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."(Romans 3:23) Not a single one of us could honestly say that we have never knowingly done anything wrong. The apostle James tells us, "For whoever keeps the whole law, (God’s absolute standards) and yet stumbles in one point, he has become guilty of all."(James 2:10)

These violations (sins) are not just isolated events; they are a reflection of the sin nature that permeates our entire being. Consider, for illustration, an omelet (which is a cooked mixture of eggs, some milk and cheese). It takes only one rotten egg to make the entire omelet rotten, no matter how many good eggs we add. The one rotten egg permeates the whole mixture and makes it unacceptable to our taste. Similarly, it takes only one sin to make us unacceptable to God. God is infinitely holy and good, and no matter how hard we try, we could never succeed in reaching His absolute standard of perfections. He is also a just God who holds us accountable for violating those standards that we know to be right. (Romans 2:14-16)

Only one person has ever lived a perfect life – Jesus Christ, God the Son. Therefore, His death on the cross in payment for our sins is the only basis for God’s total forgiveness and acceptance of us. When we receive Jesus Christ as our personal Savior, and choose to follow Him, then we are no longer under God’s condemnation."(Romans 8:1)

People who feel their sincerity [in whatever they believe] should gain them entrance to heaven are misled. It is not the degree of sincerity one has in whatever they choose to believe. Rather, it is the object of one’s faith. Someone may be a sincere follower of some religion, cult or philosophy, but they will go to hell because they did not come to the One Person who should be the object of faith. Jesus Christ is the only object in whom you should place your faith … with all your sincerity and commitment.

In this society, many say, "Your truth is not my truth." They feel they somehow can decide [like God] what are the absolutes. They feel all truth is relative. However, the fact is that not all religions or belief systems are equal. There are absolutes (check out gravity). It is faith in Jesus, God revealed in history, not faith in faith itself, or some code of ethics, other religions, or mindset that someone has constructed. Jesus wants you to know for sure that you can have eternal life. (I John 5:11-13) He offers His love to you. Won’t you receive Him as your Savior, friend and Lord today?

JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
canton, OH - Friday, August 20, 2004 8:54 AM CDT

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Thinking of all of you and your beautiful Angel today. Hope the golf tournament went well and I'm looking forward to your next update.

God bless...
Sending continued prayers of peace and comfort.
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Thursday, August 19, 2004 9:44 AM CDT

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("Angel Colby James Cole")

I gave you a piece of my heart
To remind you I'm here for you...
No matter if we are far apart,
My love will always be true.

I gave you a piece of my soul,
A part of me reserved for you...
Hold it dearly and don't let it go,
No matter where we are!

Whether it's a bright and happy day
Or you're troubled and struggling to smile...
Remember the special piece of my heart
That reaches you across the miles!

I will always be thinking of you
("My Little Man") - ("Colby James Cole")
Loving You Forever,
Aunt Dee



JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
canton, OH - Thursday, August 19, 2004 8:10 AM CDT

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I hope the golf tournament was a big success. I'm sure Colby would be so proud with what you are doing.
Hope the boys are doing well. Does Cameron start school this year?
Kathy H.
Thousand Oaks, CA - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:06 PM CDT

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Thinking of you





Love Viks From Post Pals and Bears Who Care

viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:07 AM CDT

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Hurricane
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I'm only 15 and don't know much but I hope this story can help
someone like it did for me.
I just got back from vacationing in Florida last night. I was
staying in a rented house in Clermont for about a week, and
was there during Hurricane Charley. Luckily, no one I knew was
killed or injured, but I am sorry for those who were.
I remember the next morning, going outside and seeing everything
the hurricane had destroyed. There were trees that had been
torn out from the ground; some even were turned upside down.
Some cars, houses, and trailers had been dented and smashed.
Even billboards and signs were laying in the middle of the road.
But there was one thing that I thought was weird.
Almost everyone in Florida has a pool, with a screen-like thing
around it, to keep out bugs I'm guessing. These screens look
pretty flimsy and like they would fall down in an instant,
yet none of them were messed up at all.
I thought it was weird how this level four hurricane could
destroy huge things like trees, cars, and houses, yet these
little screens around the pool could stay up.
I later asked my dad how could they stand the hurricane while
the big things couldn't, and he said it was because they
basically let the air through them, since there are many holes.
I had what people sending these emails usually call a
"MountainWings Moment".
What my dad told me also relates in the real world too.
If people won't budge at all (like the cars and trees), then
they'll get blown away and destroyed. But if people would act
more like the pool-screens, they could survive the "hurricane"
of life.
Instead of always having it your way, compromise with the wind.
That way you'll stay standing.


~A MountainWings Original by Angela Potter, Woodbridge, VA~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
canton, OH - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 10:31 AM CDT

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Faith Hill "There You'll be"

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

I miss you Colby.


Dana "big hair" Doctor
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 3:31 AM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

We are going away for a much-needed long weekend; therefore I will not be signing in, yet know my heart and prayers are with you nevertheless. I love you and am sending my hugs and loves your way!

FOREVER LOVING COLBY AND FOREVER CHANGED,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

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Dear Cole Family,

I just wanted to bid you a good night and a wonderful day tomorrow.

I am here, as I want to be and just want to send my love, with huge heartfelt arms!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Monday, August 16, 2004 8:50 PM CDT

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Dear Jack and Laura, You are always are on mind, in my heart and most certainly always in my prayers. Please know that you are the best parents any child could ask for. Colby knew that and still does. Never doubt yourself or the choices you made for Colby. They were 100% correct. I hope this entry finds all of you well . Always in my thoughts. Much love,

Regina <rmsloan@hotmail.com>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 8:04 PM CDT

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Good Evening Cole Family,
Cameron, you have been on my mind since saturday evening. You see I went to Eat&Park. All I thought of was you when my newphew wanted a box of smiley faces cookies.When we got to my mom's house he played with the cookies. I said, Michael ya know there is a little boy in Uniontown that would just love to have those cookies. Michael is only 3yr. old. He said I would share them Aunt BeaCee but my fingers were in all the eyes. I just laughed and said ya know Mike next time I won't buy you a whole box to waste but I will buy you one cookie and mail a box to my little friend Cameron. So then Cameron I was at Eat&Park yesterday. I so wanted to buy you a box of cookies. So I am going to back to Eat&Park this weekend. And ya know what I am doing while there. I am buying you a box of Smiley Faces Cookies. So look forward to them little one. They will be coming your way real soon. Take Care Cameron. I just wanted to let you know that you were being thought of.
So how are you Laura and Jack. I think of you often and wonder how big Colton is now. You are always in my prayers.
Take Care and May God Be With You Always!


Berneice <charsmom79_98@yahoo.com>
Masontown, Pa USA - Monday, August 16, 2004 6:23 PM CDT

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THEM!

Them!
It’s a word that I hear so often in counseling.
The other person, the spouse, the boss, the co-worker, the
parent, the relative, the company, the government, the system,
the President, even God.
It’s always them.
Here’s a quick newsflash: you won’t have much luck changing them,
but there is one person who I can absolutely guarantee that you
can change who will have a bigger impact on your life than even
the President or the government.
It doesn’t matter whether this person is a Republican, Democrat,
hypocrite, or even all three, you can change them.
It doesn’t matter what denomination they belong to or even if
they have been inside of a church this decade, you can change
them.
It doesn’t matter what race or nationality they are, you can
change them.
This person has more power and influence over your life than
anyone alive or dead, all you have to do is to change them.
When THEY start changing, amazingly you will notice that it will
affect people around you; and even if people around you don’t
change, it will sure seem like they've changed.
Where can you find this all powerful person in your life?
I can tell you exactly.
Go to the mirror and there THEY will stand.
You need to get to work on THEM right away.


~A MountainWings Original~
JWright <jwright31@neo.rr.com>
canton, OH - Monday, August 16, 2004 10:16 AM CDT

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Hey Jack, Laura, Cameron & Colton,
Hi guys!! Just here to see how my favourite family are keeping up :) Hope you guys are doing fine and that you are all just too busy having a great time together as a family and that's why we've had no update :) No pressure! Haha. Anyways, I'm thinking of you guys as always...and forever keeping your beautiful family in my prayers :) Sending all my love your way!

*~*~*~*MISSING YOU SOOOOO MUCH, COLBY COLE!!!*~*~*~*~*

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love & prayers,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, August 16, 2004 3:33 AM CDT

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You are so often on my mind and forever in my heart!
God bless!



Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Please come by and visit and sign the guestbook if possible! Thanks! EVERYONE is a welcome visitor! :)
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, August 15, 2004 9:20 PM CDT

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Dear Cole’s,

Faith wanted to tell all of you hello, especially Cameron! She is blowing kisses into the computer! Have a wonderful night and may this week be terrific for you!

Forever Loving Colby and Forever Changed,

Renne' I. Cole-Dowler <rennedowler@aol.com>
Washington, PA - Sunday, August 15, 2004 7:44 PM CDT

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I came to your page from a link from Chance's page. What a beautiful family. I am from Washington PA! I hope your golf outing was a huge success. Please stop by our Foundation web site if you have a minute.
Mary