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Happy New Year Miller Family!
Praying 2008 will be a great new year for you all.
Looking forward to see all God has in store!
Blessings and more blessings are coming your way,
Susan
Jordan's Site <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Monday, December 31, 2007 2:38 PM CST
A New Year’s Prayer
May God make your year a happy one!
Not by shielding you from all sorrows and pain,
But by strengthening you to bear it, as it comes;
Not by making your path easy,
But by making you sturdy to travel any path;
Not by taking hardships from you,
But by taking fear from your heart;
Not by granting you unbroken sunshine,
But by keeping your face bright, even in the shadows;
Not by making your life always pleasant,
But by showing you when people and their causes need you most,
and by making you anxious to be there to help.
God’s love, peace, hope and joy to you for the year ahead.
Numbers 6:24-26
24 "The LORD bless you
and keep you;
25 the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
26 the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace."
With Love and Prayers MJ/Angel_Wings
MJ/Angel_Wings <marijeighn@gmail.com>
Orlando, Fl - Sunday, December 30, 2007 11:31 AM CST
Hello Sweet Family. I am here by way of Emily Cassetty. Just wanted to tell you that you are being prayed for today. Thank you for sharing your boys with us and for your commitment to the God we share. It is a blessing.
Julie Keefe <promisesunseen@yahoo.com>
Lake Worth, FL USa - Saturday, December 29, 2007 9:03 AM CST
Do you know how often I peek in on you guys and don't sign?.....TOO MANY!!! Tonight I wanted you to know that you are often in my thoughts! I hope that your Christmas was filled with memories that will last a lifetime and that 2008 brings more peace!
Close in my thoughts~
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Saturday, December 29, 2007 0:51 AM CST
wonderful photos!
mrs pam
- Friday, December 28, 2007 9:52 AM CST
Love to You
By: Anonymous
I've nothing else to offer,
So, to you, it's love I'll send.
It's nothing that I borrowed.
And it's nothing that I'd lend
It has no dollar value,
And it can't be overused;
It isn't fragile, so it can't break,
Though, often, it's abused.
I've given it to others,
But each time it's unique.
It's meaning's always different;
It depends on what you seek.
It's something you can store away
To feel when you're in need,
But never is it on display;
It's beauty can't be seen.
I'm giving it "no strings attached",
No costly warranty.
This love that I am sending
Has a lifetime guarantee.
Sending Angel_Wings Remembers hugs and prayers.
Polly from Angel_Wings Remembers <polly1511@gmail.com>
Rolette, ND USA - Thursday, December 27, 2007 5:42 PM CST
Wishing each of you a very Merry Christmas. We look forward to hearing all the stories. We have had several funny ones too. Hoping you have had lots of time today to do nothing much but enjoy each other and remember our Savior.
Much love,
Susan (Katie too!)
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, December 25, 2007 8:25 PM CST
Wishing you all a very Merry Christmas!! And may peace reign in your hearts!
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, GA - Tuesday, December 25, 2007 4:49 PM CST
Thinking of You and Wishing You Peace, Comfort and Joy this Christmas Season! God Bless!
Love~Hugs~Prayers from S.C.
Darline Rollins <drollins07@yahoo.com>
Kershaw, S.C. - Monday, December 24, 2007 10:22 PM CST
I love your Christmas card, and the family picture. You're a beautiful family. You know, When I see your three girls, I really see all five of your kids.
Praying that you feel the presence of ALL of your children tomorrow, Love and hugs, Merry Christmas, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
USA - Monday, December 24, 2007 8:37 PM CST
Love the new pictures! And the Christmas card pictures. They are amazing! Hope you all have a great Christmas tomorrow. I will be in the same state, lol, as you five but still pretty far. I am going to see my parents and it should be a fun time for them and me as well. Sending love, hope and many well wishes your way.
Kristi
- Monday, December 24, 2007 11:50 AM CST
HE ONLY TOOK MY HAND
Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around
But he did not appear.
He said "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, Mom
He only took my hand
When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to his side.
He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.
My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.
I love you and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!
And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.
(Unknown)
All my Love and Prayers
MJ/Angel_Wings
MJ/Angel_Wings <marijeighn@gmail.com>
Orlando, Fl - Monday, December 24, 2007 10:04 AM CST
Wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas! I managed to get on to sign without getting the boot so I figured I would wish you all one.
Riley and Reagan, I was watching Oprah and they had Miley Cyrus on and did you know her name is really Destiny Hope. Her dad named her that because he believed it was her destiny to bring hope to the world. She was such a smiley baby that they called her smiley and the s came off at one time and she was Miley and in first grade that's when they realized it:) But I bet you all knew that;
Kristi
- Saturday, December 22, 2007 10:03 PM CST
Carol,
We are holding your family extra close
in our prayers this Christmas!
Trish/AngelWingsRemembers <Boyerangeltrish@aol.com>
Kingston, TN USA - Saturday, December 22, 2007 5:55 PM CST
Just dropping by,and to say that we are thinking of your, particuarly this christmas time
Just wanted to say that we love the song choices on this page ( love that song by Amy Grant - breath of heaven, not heard it before, wow how moving )
Jo Hannah, Rebecca and Rachel
England UK
- Saturday, December 22, 2007 11:32 AM CST
Carol,
I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am thinking about you. Missing your updates and hoping everyone is well.
Mason has the stomach bug but we are praying that he'll be over it before Tuesday. :-)
Merry Christmas to the Miller family.
Love,
Dawn
Angel Shae <longhornfan2@comast.net>
Hernando, MS - Saturday, December 22, 2007 8:30 AM CST
Merry Christmas!
I know December isn't your favorite month, by any stretch, but I have been keeping you in my prayers. I am praying you are thriving this month, not just surviving. =)
Have a great Christmas and New Year with your precious family.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Friday, December 21, 2007 11:23 AM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Wow, it's been awhile since I've visited. I'm so sorry I missed Reid's birthday. I pray you made it "OK" that day.
I received your picture in the mail, oh my, I was so excited! Thanks...
The girls are all growing up, right before my eyes. So beautiful, each one so special.
Wishing you joy that only Jesus can give this coming Christmas and a blessed new year ahead.
So blessed to know you!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Been missing you.................................., - Friday, December 21, 2007 6:44 AM CST
Thought of you all on the 14th - Reid shares my birthday
Peace, love and prayers
Diane
- Friday, December 21, 2007 3:01 AM CST
I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, La - Thursday, December 20, 2007 11:41 AM CST
Dear Carol- Hoping that you and your sweet family are looking forward to Christmas. I know that sometimes it is hard to celebrate. But know that we are thinking about you and your precious angels are looking down and taking good care of you and your girls. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!! Hoping that 08 is GREAT with lots of wonderful things ahead to celebrate!! Love Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Thursday, December 20, 2007 8:01 AM CST
Dear Carol, I pray you are doing well. I also pray that everyone else is physically well and that all of the sickness you have been experiencing is healed. Take care and my love to you and yours this Christmas season. Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, December 19, 2007 4:08 PM CST
Carol,
I have just a minute but wanted to thank you for the beautiful Christmas music I'm able to play thru this website while I'm at work. You always have such a nice selection. It's like they were hand-picked for me, even though they're not. Thanks, and I'm remembering you quite often this hard time of year. I heard Mandissa's song and it about made me cry!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, December 18, 2007 12:15 AM CST
Just thinking of you five and hoping all is well. It's a winter wonderland outside! Five inches of snow and two to three coming tomorrow:) I love it! Only because I don't have to go out in it.
I hope your weekend is going well. Continuing to lift you up in prayers.
Kristi
- Saturday, December 15, 2007 10:22 PM CST
Thinking of you...love and hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
Layton, UT USA - Saturday, December 15, 2007 10:15 PM CST
Thinking that today was the 14th,
I wanted to be sure to let you know that
I was thinking about Reid's family on his 6th
birthday.
prayers on the day after for all of you,
and for the family you mentioned, too
mrs pam
- Saturday, December 15, 2007 3:14 PM CST
Happy Birthday, sweet Reid!!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, tn - Friday, December 14, 2007 4:39 PM CST
Thinking of you today. Holding you close in our prayers. all our love...
The England Family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, Ky - Friday, December 14, 2007 4:20 PM CST
Thinking of you today
Leslie Persinger <lpersinger@chartertn.net>
Jonesborough, TN - Friday, December 14, 2007 2:14 PM CST
Carol and family:
You are in my mind today more than the other days.......this is a day of sadness, I know, but also a day of celebration, the day you met him. Please have that warm fuzzy feeling inside you as you reflect on the precious moments...........
BOTH boys are together sending you love as I write this. They so love their family on earth!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, December 14, 2007 11:33 AM CST
Dear Sweet Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese, today I am remembering Angel Reid on his birthday and remembering sweet Angel Randon as well. I know today may hold pain and hurt for you all but I pray that you are reminded of your special days with him and the beautiful boy he was. Always with a smile and playing peek-a-boo. Know that, as always, especially today you have my prayers and I am sending love and hugs your way.
Kristi
- Friday, December 14, 2007 11:20 AM CST
Thinking of you today and praying for you and knowing that Reid is celebrating with Jesus and Dale's Mom and Grandpa and other family members on his birthday!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, December 14, 2007 9:24 AM CST
Thinking even more of all of you today and will be praying for each of you as you remember sweet Reid's birthday.
Much love and prayers,
Susan
P.S. Katie says to tell Reese hello and hopes that she is feeling better.
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Friday, December 14, 2007 8:07 AM CST
Thinking even more of all of you today and will be praying for each of you as you remember sweet Reid's birthday.
Much love and prayers,
Susan
P.S. Katie says to tell Reese hello and hopes that she is feeling better.
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Friday, December 14, 2007 8:07 AM CST
Carol,
I have been holding you close in prayer this week, as I know this time of year is hard but particulary harder as you approach tomorrow and it being Reid's birthday. Sophie prayed a prayer on December 4th that struck me and made me cry. I had been telling the girls we needed to pray even harder for the Coates family because Dec. 4th was Dan's birthday and the first birthday his family had without him. Sophie prayed for Vicki and the girls that night, but she also prayed that Dan would have a "great birthday party in Heaven." Her honest and innocent prayer touched me, and I pray that Reid has a "great birthday party in Heaven" too. We love you and will be praying for you tomorrow! Also, I will pray for this close family to you who experienced such a sudden loss and dealing with this over their first Christmas without him. These stories are sad reminders of how fragile life is, but also how precious each day is! In case I'm gone tomorrow, know how much I love your family and how you have impacted my life and always remind my family that I love them beyond words and they are my precious treasures!
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, December 13, 2007 2:33 PM CST
Praying for you this week as you celebrate knowing and loving sweet, precious Reid.
angela conklin a friend (in NC) thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
Graham, NC - Thursday, December 13, 2007 12:22 AM CST
I'll be thinking of you all in the days to come and praying that His Peace will fill your hearts.
Leigh Ann Edwards <PeapodsMama@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 13, 2007 10:42 AM CST
Thinking of and praying for you, sweet Miller's, these next couple of days and always.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 13, 2007 8:36 AM CST
Love the scrapbook...thinking of you this week. Hope to talk to you soon.
Amy
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
Bowling Green, - Wednesday, December 12, 2007 5:51 PM CST
Hey amazing Miller Family! I just thought I would stop by to see if their was an update and even though there wasn't, I decided to sign in to let you all know I am thinking of you. I can't wait to see Christmas pictures of the house:). This year, I wasn't at my house so my friend and I decorated hers. I told her that I would put the lights on the roof and she just told me one fixator was enough and she did not want to see me come sliding down the roof, I was kidding of course:). I don't think I could even get on the roof.
I am thinking of your all. I hope that this month, this year brings more happiness than pain. You are all an amazing family and Carol, you are an inspiration to many as our your girls.
Kristi
- Wednesday, December 12, 2007 2:45 PM CST
An Angel’s Kiss
by: Peggy Bouse
We go through life so often,
Not stopping to enjoy the day.
And we take each one for granted,
As we travel on our way.
For in your pain and sorrow,
An Angel's kiss will help you through,
This kiss is very private,
For it is meant for only you.
We never stop to measure,
Anything we just might miss.
But if the wind should blow by softly,
You'll feel an Angel's kiss.
A kiss that is sent from heaven,
A kiss from up above.
A kiss that is very special,
From someone that you love.
So when, your hearts are heavy,
And filled with tears and pain.
And no one can console you,
Remember once again...
About the ones you grieve for,
Because you sadly miss.
And the gentle breeze you took for granted,
Was just an Angel's kiss.
Polly/Angel_Wings: www.groups.yahoo.com/groups/AngelWingsRemembers <polly1511@gmail.com>
Rolette, ND USA - Tuesday, December 11, 2007 6:27 PM CST
Carol, Just stopped by to let you know I am praying for you, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese. I know these are difficult days for you all and I will be lifting you up in prayer idividually. Each of your journeys are similar yet experienced from a different view. For you and Dale I pray for healing and memories of those sweet smiles while playing peekaboo! For the girls understanding and knowledge that no school could ever teach! And Grace for ALL of you!
Amy Jarboe
- Tuesday, December 11, 2007 5:36 PM CST
Keeping you in my thoughts during the Holiday season and in my prayer's always.
Brenda MY CHRISTMAS ANGEL <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta/Canada, - Tuesday, December 11, 2007 11:32 AM CST
Carol, I will be thinking about you this week. What a precious gift Megan sent you! Those sweet pictures of that sweet boy! It seems like yesterday in a way! I know this week will be tough for you and I will hold you close to my heart (as I always do)! You all are in my prayers! The pictures of the concert are priceless! Love you guys, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, December 10, 2007 8:21 AM CST
Carol,
I have been thinking about you and what this month brings for you. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
When you mentioned "Sometimes Christmas makes me cry", I instantly went online to find that song to download on our ipod. It's a beautiful song.
I must go and update Shae's site now. It's passed time.
I love ya girl and pray that we can get together soon. I miss you and Susan.
Holding onto Hope,
Dawn
Angel Shae <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
Hernando, MS - Sunday, December 9, 2007 2:00 PM CST
To my dear sweet Carol,
Hey girlfriend, I've been missing you BIG time. I've been so blessed to read all the fun things you and the girls have been up to and now this holiday season...sigh.
My heart truly aches for you Carol.
Just wanted to let you know I'll be lighting a candle tonight in memory of
Reid and Randon, and all the many young warriors out there that have WON THEIR BATTLES and are now in the arms of Jesus.
I pray you feel all the love and many prayers that come your way each day.
Love you!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Sunday, December 9, 2007 8:33 AM CST
Yeah! I managed to get into the guestbook, dial up is way too slow but I will be home again with high speed on January 1st. I don't sign much but I hope you know how much I think of you five and your two angel boys.
I am SO glad that the girls are okay with tests. I know you worry and I continue to pray that your family is blessed with health. Hopefully, 2008 brings less sickness and more health...
I think of sweet Reid as his birthday approaches. Those pictures of Reid that Megan made is beautiful. Those pictures of him playing with the blanket are my favorite ones. I am so glad that Megan has made you one for Randon and now Reid.
Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese, I hope you know how much I think of you. My heart, thoughts and prayers are with you as always. Sending love to you all.
Kristi
Oakwood, Oh USA - Friday, December 7, 2007 10:37 PM CST
Carol, Dale and girls,
Hope all is well. Just thought I would check in for an update. I have to share a funny story with you all. We took mom and dad out last Saturday night to see the Christmas lights. Dad suggested we try to find Dale and Carols and see the lights. Needless to say we got lost. We found the house (three times)!!! Jeff would drive and drive and mom would say I do believe that looks like "Dale's house." We laughed til we cried. It was the most fun we had had since dad was diagonsed with cancer. He is doing well for the time being. He goes back to the doctor Thursday but he is refusing to take anymore medicine. Please pray he will come to his senses. We all love your family. Know we are thinking about you constantly. Take care.
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Friday, December 7, 2007 9:34 PM CST
Carol--- please try to remember all the good you have, are, and give. Celebrate Reid's birth--as it is a marker of when you were able to be his mother forever. Everyone has a sadness to share at the holidays, and yours is by far the saddest I know, yet, somehow they are the holidays and a HUGE time of reflection and love. Please try to look at this timeas our children do, through the lights and the magic and let others help you through the sad parts. I wish I could say something comforting that would make your pain less.
OK--well, where are the pictures of your new kitchen???? We are envious and awaiting!!
love you
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, December 7, 2007 8:04 PM CST
Carol,
Wow! I just heard Mandissa's new song this morning and it made me think of my parents who lost my sister at Christmas, and your precious family and my aunt who is getting ready to face her first Christmas without her son. As joyful as Christmas can be, it definitely is a most difficult time for so many people. Please know that I'm sending up some extra prayers for you this month.
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, December 7, 2007 2:35 PM CST
What a wonderful anniversary get-away!
Today is St. Nick Day!
A St. Nicholas (the patron of children) Prayer
"God, our Father, we pray that you will protect
our children, especially Reid and Randon's
sisters Reagan, Reese, and Riley.
Keep them safe from harm, and
help them grow and to continue becoming
worthy in Your sight.
Give them strength to keep their faith in You; and
to keep alive their joy in Your creation.
Through Jesus Christ our Lord."
Amen
mrs pam
St Louis, - Thursday, December 6, 2007 5:23 PM CST
This morning Tanner said "where's Randon?" I asked him "Do you want to see Randon." His answer was "YES." So, we came to watch the slide show. Tanner loves to see the pictures of sweet Randon and Reid.
Love you guys, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
USA - Thursday, December 6, 2007 3:16 PM CST
Carol, It sounds as if you and your family had a great Holiday Weekend! I had to write and tell you that the picture of Reese looking at the young girl behind her screaming just cracked me up. The look on her face is priceless! Sending thoughts and prayers to you from Louisville!
Mary
Louisville, Ky USA - Tuesday, December 4, 2007 11:15 AM CST
Oh man, I didn't even try to get tickets because I'd heard it was sold-out months ago. I don't understand how all this works, but I sure wish I knew it was possible. I would have loved to surprise my girls with that, because I don't think any girl could love Hannah Montana more than my girls. I actually like her quite a bit myself. I'm glad you all had such a fun time. Glad you got your Iphone too, although I have no idea what I'm missing and am not tech-savvy and don't even know what it's features are. I'm too simple for such things probably.
Hope we'll see you Sunday. It seems like ages since I've seen you!
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <bbbsrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Friday, November 30, 2007 2:23 AM CST
Hi Carol!!! You girls JUST HAVE FUN!!!! Looks like it was a hit! Your daughters are soooo beautiful. I am jealous that you have ALL your decorating done and you can just sit back and ENJOY!!! Always love hearing about what you all are up to and your perspective. "talk" to you soon. Love -Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Wednesday, November 28, 2007 8:36 PM CST
WOW! Dial up is SO slow!!!!!!!! It took me five minutes to get into here but I wasn't getting off until I got onto this guestbook to write.
I am SO glad that you got tickets to see Hannah Montana! I am sure the girls and you loved it. I am thrilled for you girls, I know how much you love Hannah Montana and being there most have been amazing! You three deserved it so much and I am glad you got to see it. The pictures were amazing! I love the one of Reese and the blue cotton candy.
Carol, you so deserve the Apple phone. I am glad you got it and that it offers so many features that you were able to use at the concert. I don't know how you have figured it out yet, I got a TOMTOM GPS with my birthday money and I am still trying to figure it out and have had it since Friday.
Thanksgiving was great for me. I spent time with my family and the Dare Bear. Then I was able to begin walking on my fixator without crutches on carpet so I think in a couple of weeks, I will be walking with just the fixator on:) YEAH!
As always, I am sending my love to you all. You five are truly an inspiration!
Kristi
- Tuesday, November 27, 2007 2:49 PM CST
Just stopping by to check in on you all. The concert sounded like lots of fun!
Sending hugs and prayers...
Kristin, Conner and Family
Lafayette, IN
- Tuesday, November 27, 2007 2:44 PM CST
I am so glad you got to go to the Hannah Montana concert. I had tried to find tickets for you, but didn't have any luck. We prayed for you guys to get to go and it is so amazing how it worked out! I didn't see you there though! Surprising huh! Ha! So glad you had a great Thanksgiving weekend. Happy belated anniversary to you and Dale.
Kyna Petersen <daleandkyna@comcast.net>
Murfreesboro, TN - Tuesday, November 27, 2007 10:29 AM CST
Hi Carol,
From the looks of it, everyone had a great time at the concert. Meghan has really enjoyed looking at the pictures. It sounds like your weekend was jam packed.
Take care,
Christa
www.caringbridge.org/visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Monday, November 26, 2007 6:53 PM CST
So, is this what I have to look forward to? =)
I am sure you loved every minute of that quality time, though. You are an awesome mom!
I am glad y'all had a fun, yet very busy, Thanksgiving.
Ours was great as well.
Hope your Christmas season is even better!
Love, Kristin
P.S. Dale, awesome gift, by the way!
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Monday, November 26, 2007 2:55 PM CST
Carol, sounds like you all had a wonderful holiday weekend! You so deserve it! Glad you had such great family time! Can't wait to see the pictures!! Love ya always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, November 26, 2007 2:02 PM CST
Happy belated Thanksgiving!! It was great to read about what a great holiday weekend you had!!! Now are you ready for Christmas????
Danielle and Jordan <twxee@aol.com>
Norristown, PA - Monday, November 26, 2007 12:03 AM CST
Hey Dale, Carol, Riley, Reagan and Reese, sorry I haven't been signing in much but I am on dial up and it's sometimes hard to get on this page. Happy belated Thanksgiving, I hope you all had a wonderful day and enjoyed the time as a family!
Happy Anniversary, Carol and Dale! I am so glad you are going to a game together but am sorry about the Hannah Montana tickets. That is CRAZY! Did you all manage to catch her on Oprah on Wednesday.
Exciting news from me, I made a 3.75 GPA for fall quarter:) so I am thrilled about that.
My love to you all.
Kristi
- Friday, November 23, 2007 10:20 AM CST
Thought I signed in this morning, but I guess I pushed the wrong button. Hoping you have had a terrific Thanksgiving and are enjoying the game tonight. One of the things that I am very thankful for this year is the entire Miller clan. (Reese's name made our Thanksgiving tree as one of Katie's things she is most thankful for!) Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Much love and prayers,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, November 22, 2007 9:18 PM CST
My house is "Christmasized" today, too.
My children/grandchildren always came here
for Thanksgiving, and we would celebrate
Christmas two days later, so I've decorated for
21 years in Nov. They aren't here this year, and
I declined the invite to go to Cleveland. So, it
doesn't really feel too Thanksgivingish, but I will
go to a friend from church's house later this afternoon.
Wishing you a Thanksgiving filled with thankful blessings....
mrs pam
- Thursday, November 22, 2007 9:21 AM CST
Thinking of the precious Miller family today.
Love and hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007 3:23 PM CST
Oh yeah...I completely understand about the Hannah Montana tickets. We will be sitting in the nosebleed seats where we'll need oxygen tanks in Indianapolis on Dec. 9th. Those were the closest tickets I could get in the presale. I was so mad that when I got online to get Louisville tickets they were sold out in only a few minutes! I told the kids Merry Christmas!
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, November 21, 2007 9:00 AM CST
Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. Happy Thanksgiving to you all! Love you!
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, November 21, 2007 8:49 AM CST
Carol,
I am a former PCCU RN from VCH (we have since we moved to the Chicagoland area) and you probably never met me. I worked nights and never had Randon as my patient (I was always either in charge or one of the out of staffing nurses) but I did help with Randon quite a bit.I always enjoyed caring for Randon, and even when he didn't feel well, he was still a very sweet baby. I have followed your website since Randon was in the PCCU and then at least a few times a week thereafter. You and your family continue to warm my heart and soul and make me realize what life is really about.I always look forward to the newest chapter in Miller Family Chronicles! Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family this holiday season. I have shared your story with many members of my family and you are an inspiration to us all!!!
Erika, RN <erikaklitzke@hotmail.com>
Grayslake, IL - Monday, November 19, 2007 5:10 PM CST
I have come regularly for a while now and your strength and wisdom help me all the time.
Diane
Australia, - Friday, November 16, 2007 7:28 PM CST
Carol,
You are an Awesome, Godly woman!! Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you today, way out in CA!!
Amy <sunnymon@hotmail.com>
merced, CA - Wednesday, November 14, 2007 9:23 PM CST
Hey Carol. I am so sorry to hear about Dale's grandfather passing. What a legacy he has left you all.
I check your site daily at work and at home just to see if you have updated. Shame on me for not signing more. Anyway, when I check it at work I am never able to hear the music that you have posted. Well, today has been a different story. God knew that I needed to hear some encouraging music b/c I am not having a good work day. I clicked on your site and the music started playing. Thanks for sharing your music. Know that you have blessed me today.
I love and miss you. Susan and I are hoping that January is okay with you and yours to come for a little visit. Let us know when you can.
Love you,
Dawn
Angel Shae <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Tuesday, November 13, 2007 12:33 AM CST
Carol,
The pictures are great. McKenna was so happy Reece could come to her party. I hope she had fun. This is my first time on this site. I actually got on to get the update on Isaiah, and saw your link. I have heard your story through people at church, but have never felt comfortable to ask you about everything that has happened to you and your family. I sat here crying while I read the whole story. Please know that I have prayed for you in the past and will continue to do so. I honestly cannot imagine what you go through every day, no matter how long it has been. Please know that I would feel honored to listen if you ever need another ear to listen. I know you have a long list of friends to lean on, but hopefully there's room for one more.
Love and prayers,
Heather
Heather Armstrong <hersheymav@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, November 12, 2007 4:32 PM CST
Dear Carol, I am so sorry to hear about Dale's Grandfather. What a wonderful man he sounded like and to of had him here with Dale so long is a huge blessing. My husband's Mother passed away on October the 30th. And I now know exactly what you mean when people do not acknowledge a loss, how sad that can be to a person/family! You all look great in all the pictures! You really must of had Riley when you were 15!?!?!?!? Have a wonderful week and tell Dale not to stress too much about the BB Wildcats. They will get it together soon.....hopefully. Was it tough to decide who to cheer for yesterday?? Vandy did great but just not enough. "Talk" to you soon. If you are ever up here let me know. Love - Megan
megan <meganmmg@alltel.net>
lexington, Ky - Sunday, November 11, 2007 4:11 PM CST
Hey Carol and Dale--just wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you this week and sorry to hear about your grandfather Dale. I can only imagine what a fun party they are all having in heaven! Also loved all of the new photos--the girls' looked great on Halloween--even Ariel's pigtails!! I made it through my first week at work Carol!!!!! I think the biggest challenge is just getting ourselves into a routine at home:) Hope all is well--we miss you all--Love, Gail, Rick and family
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Friday, November 9, 2007 4:44 PM CST
Praying for you.
Katie
Peterborough, ON Canada - Friday, November 9, 2007 4:23 PM CST
Carol, Dale & Family,
We are all so sad to hear about Mr. Stuart. Mom and dad send their love and prayers during this time. We are taking one day at a time with dad and the awful cancer. Just know your entire family is thought of by the Walkers and The Rasdalls. Take care.
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY - Thursday, November 8, 2007 6:40 PM CST
Carol, it was really good visiting with you this morning. I hope the girls recover soon!
Georgann
- Thursday, November 8, 2007 12:32 AM CST
I am so sorry about another death in your family. I am sure in heaven, the boys, his daughter and his wife are enjoying having them there with them. My thoughts and prayers are with you as always! The picture posted of him with Dale and the girls is a good one!
The girls looked great on Halloween, it was so COLD here on Halloween! I love the sunglasses on Riley. All three looked adorable as normal.
I hope the nasty bug leaves soon and that the girls stop getting it. I had it a lot as a kid until the tonsils came out. Now, I have only had it once or twice since then. Sending love, get well wishes and prayers your way.
Off to my LAST day of classes until January 7th!
Kristi
- Thursday, November 8, 2007 10:00 AM CST
Hey, I just went back and viewed Reagan's slideshow (which I had missed before). It was great, and reminded me just how beautiful Reagan is on the outside too. I often think about how beautiful Reagan's heart is on the inside, and while I believe that is where "true beauty" counts, it sure doesn't hurt that she is so lovely on the outside too. What a cutie she has always been, those curls when little! Just adorable! I will have to tell the girls so that they can view the slideshow. Sydney needs photos of Reagan for this project she's working on, so maybe I can pull a couple off, but if not, I have some, no worries.
Happy Birthday again, Reagan, your mom was right...you have the biggest heart and so much love to give. I hope you always strive to love and continue on this path! I can't wait to see what God works in your life....you're the best!!
Love,
Ms. Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, November 8, 2007 9:18 AM CST
Carol,
I'm so sorry to hear of Mr. Stuart's passing. I think this is Merrill's dad, right? I need to check funeral arrangements, but I am very sorry for your loss. I know he had to be a fine man, because I see what kind of wonderful man Merrill is, and the influences left on Dale, what a wonderful guy you got there too!
I'm very late in wishing Reagan a "happy birthday" but it somehow eluded me this year. I guess because we usually have the full-out party with all the girls, but still no excuse,....I'm very sorry to have overlooked such a special girl's special day! Reagan, happy birthday you precious gift from God! You are such a joy to see each time I get that pleasure. You have been such an encourager and friend to Sarah and Sydney, and in fact, Sydney is working on a school project involving you. She would probably rather tell you about it herself, but I was touched with what she has remembered and written about you, and I hope you will be too. I hope you always remain friends with my girls, and they will be better "women of the Lord" because of you. Thanks for being Reagan and for touching lives already, just like your wonderful mother and father. We love you!
Well, better go. I'll be praying for you and your loss, and sorry that I found out a little late! I'm late in everything it seems. I sometimes feel like that's my only "gift" (or more like a curse)...I'm always late. I wonder if God can use my always being late for His glory? I doubt it, but I guess it doesn't hurt to pray that way, ha ha.
Carol, your words brought about a beautiful picture in my head of Mr. Stuart's reunion with his wife, daughter and his 2 special great-grandsons.I sure don't understand how heaven "works" either, but I still believe those reunions are such joyful times! That's all that really matters I suppose. Somehow I picture Christ as being the host of that joyful reunion, loving on us all together, or at least I hope it goes something like that...
Well, better hush...you can see why I'm always late....I take too long to do things.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, November 8, 2007 9:05 AM CST
Carol, so sorry to hear about Dale's grandfather! He did a fine job shaping Dale, didn't he? I know he's rejoicing in heaven with his daughter and those beautiful great-grandsons. Please remember my friend Cynthia Ingram who buried her husband Saturday. He died at 46. She is now a widow at 46 with two children. Like you said, sickness and death aren't fair, aren't choosy, and it's hard for us to accept why someone like you or Cynthia has to endure the pain that you've been through. Our pastor always reminds us that we all have seasons of life and that we will all have seasons of pain and suffering and loss, and if it's not our time now, our time is coming. But he also reminds us that after the pain and suffering, seasons of goodness and happiness will return. We have to trust God to get us through every season. Easier said than done!!! Love the Halloween pictures, especially Reagan!! Love ya always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, November 8, 2007 8:39 AM CST
Dear Millers- My heart just broke when mom called me to tell me about Mr. Stuart. I have been blessed in my life to know Mr. & Mrs. Stuart, and Lana! I can't even imagine their reunion! I will be praying for you all. I loved Mr. Stuart dearly and will miss sending him cards.
Love you all,
Nicky
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, November 8, 2007 8:33 AM CST
Carol,
Thinking of you and praying for you today!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, November 7, 2007 7:42 AM CST
Thinking of you....
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
USA - Sunday, November 4, 2007 0:54 AM CDT
Just thought I would drop by to say hi and that I hope the cold weather is hitting you all:) It's hitting here. Sending love and hugs.
Kristi
- Saturday, November 3, 2007 9:19 PM CDT
Hey girls, happy belated Halloween! I hope you all had fun last night. I tried to sign in last night to wish you all a good one but dial up is slow and it wouldn't load so I am doing it today. I can't wait to see pictures and see who you all are though Riley, I don't think you can top last years:) Thinking of you all and remember two sweet boys and hope you are all doing well. Sending love.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 1, 2007 7:17 AM CDT
Thinking of you and your boys today.
Tina & Angel Lance
- Wednesday, October 31, 2007 10:05 AM CDT
I was thinking of you this morning so I wanted to say Hi. Hope you guys have a great Halloween.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, October 31, 2007 9:36 AM CDT
Reagan
so sorry that I missed your birthday!
mrs pam
St Louis, MO - Monday, October 29, 2007 7:41 AM CDT
More tissues please.
Angie Meredith <pjm-adm@insightbb.com>
Alvaton, KY - Sunday, October 28, 2007 5:08 PM CDT
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REAGAN - YOU ARE A JEWEL...
RILEY - GEORGEOUS SMILE!!!!
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, October 27, 2007 1:48 PM CDT
I know I am one day late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY REAGAN! As I told your mom last week, you truly are one amazing kid. I can't wait to see what your future holds and I hope to have opportunities for me and my girls to be around you more. I love watching you with Reese. You are a great big sister. I hope you enjoyed your day and are celebrating through the weekend. You only turn 10 once.
Love,
Susan (Katie May's Mom)
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Friday, October 26, 2007 8:31 PM CDT
Happy birthday Reagan!
Kate <kags_sutherland@hotmail.com>
- Friday, October 26, 2007 3:42 PM CDT
Happy Belated Birthday Reagan! Hope you had a great day and that your year is filled with God's unending blessings!
P.S. Love your middle name!
Leigh Ann Edwards <PeapodsMama@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, October 26, 2007 7:22 AM CDT
Reagan,
Happy birthday. 10 already!!!!
You are a beautiful girl inside and out. You amaze me all the time with the things you do.
Hope today has been wonderful for you.
The Buchanon's <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, October 25, 2007 10:34 PM CDT
OOPS, I almost, missed a very, very special day in history, Reagan's birthday!
I love you sweet Reagan. You are just so precious to me!
You are such a great big sister to Reese, and you have such a giving heart. God has such mighty plans for your life.
I'm looking forward to meeting you one day...soon. Could I share your room?
Hope your day was special!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Thursday, October 25, 2007 10:09 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Reagan!!!
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend celebration! And a blast on Halloween too. Lots of fun things to look forward to this week. Any "Gabriella's" at your house? That's what my neices are saying up hear for Trick or Treat. Can't wait for those pictures. Your girls ( you too Carol!) are WONDERFUL!!!! Inside and Out!! Love - Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Thursday, October 25, 2007 9:58 PM CDT
Riley- Your smile is gorgeous!! I know you are so glad to be done with those braces. Remember: no boyfriends until you are 25! haha
You all are always in my thoughts & prayers,
Nicky
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, October 25, 2007 5:02 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Reagan! I meant to send you a card, guess I'm getting forgetful in my old age! :O)~ I hope you have the best birthday ever.
God bless & love,
Nicky
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, October 25, 2007 4:59 PM CDT
Happy Birthday, Reagan!! What a beautiful young lady you have grown into! I remember that little girl who would knock on my garage door and say "Can Cody play?" and you're
smart now, and know to stay away from boys, right? You are so smart and so pretty and have so much going for you! Hope you have a wonderful 10th birthday!!!
Kim and Mallory Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, October 25, 2007 3:36 PM CDT
Riley - Your teeth look great!! I remember when I got my braces off, I think I kept licking my teeth for about 3 weeks. It felt so weird. Congrats on getting them off and being able to show us that beautiful smile.
Reagen - Happy Birthday to you sweetheart. I love the pictures that your mom has on the slideshow. What a cutie you are. I think my favorite picture of you is the one with your hair in pig tails and your glasses on.
Carol - I love and miss ya girl. Let me and Susan know if we can come see you all in January. She and I are needing our Carol fix again!!!
Much love to you all,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Missing my friend................. <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
Hernando, MS - Thursday, October 25, 2007 1:44 PM CDT
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, DEAR SWEET REAGAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
I just wanted to stop by and wish you a wonderful birthday! I meant to earlier but I slept till 10:45! Reagan, thanks for all your encouragement and prayers as I have endured my ankle surgeries, as your mom says about you, because of you my life is better. You are amazing kid (as are you Riley and Reese!) and I thank God I know you. Enjoy your birthday and let me know what you think of your birthday surprise from me:) Sending love to all of you.
Kristi
- Thursday, October 25, 2007 10:17 AM CDT
YEAH RILEY! You're teeth look good! I am so glad that you have them off and have teeth that won't cause you pain. Make sure you wear your retainer. They aren't fun but they keep those teeth from moving! I had my braces for about a year and it was the same cost, go figure... I hope you are enjoying not having them.
Thinking of you all as always and sending tons of love and encouragement down your way.
Kristi
- Wednesday, October 24, 2007 1:34 PM CDT
Riley, your teeth look GREAT! You are so beautiful just like your mother, inside and out!! I remember how excited we were when Cody got his off! It's an exciting time!! Loved the picture of Dale and his hotty at the Predators game! She's got nothing on you, babe!! Love you guys, Kim
PS PLease be in prayer for my Dale's and my dear friend John Ingram who is in very critical condition at Vandy from
complications of chemo! He is on a respirator, and his lungs have irreversible damage and there is nothing but a miracle that can save him right now! He and his wife Cynthia and their two children Shelby and Kurt are great people! Please keep them in your prayers!!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, October 24, 2007 10:58 AM CDT
YEAH RILEY!!!!
You are so BEAUTIFUL, inside and out!
Blessings!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Tuesday, October 23, 2007 9:02 PM CDT
Hi Carol--glad fall break was fun--loved the pictures-especially the one's from the Predators game:) We have an early release for the kids tomorrow and then off for two days--much needed by all!!! We are going to be touring colleges with Breana--the year is flying by. We chatted with Dale last night--we're going to try to meet him on one of his ventures to WI. Wish you all could come:) Things here are busy as I'm sure they are for you--football playoffs start tonight for the high school team Kaitlyn cheers for, so that could go for awhile since they are 9-0! Bradley begins basketball today, so not much of a break for him. Tell the girls hi for us and give them all big hugs--we miss you all--Love, Gail
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Tuesday, October 23, 2007 9:23 AM CDT
Dear Ylaria
I love you Please take care of yourself. May God Bless You
remember we miss you and we all love you.
Rosa Gomez <mamrose5@sbcglobal.net>
Bakersfield, ca USA - Monday, October 22, 2007 4:36 PM CDT
Hey There Carol!
I'm SOOOOO SO SORRY that it's taken me this long to get back with you. I've been trying hard to keep myself busy. Brent's birthday will be Sunday (October 28) and this will be the first spent without him. There are so many "firsts" that we have coming up and they're all clumped together. UGHH!! Anyway, I wanted you to know that I think of you so often and felt SO BLESSED to have met you! I too have heard so much about you through Susan. (Isn't she just precious?) I must say that our trip to Nashville was DEFINITELY one of the most FUN & MEMORABLE I've ever had! I'm just so thankful that GOD allowed us to meet and share our experiences. I will continue to follow your family & pray for you.
I hope you all have a WONDERFUL week! (With no sick babies)
Love You,
Tonya
Remembering Brent <nason5@aol.com>
Mathiston, MS USA - Monday, October 22, 2007 7:20 AM CDT
I still think about my favorite family (many precious patients and families later, you still hold a very special place in my heart)!! I love reading the updates and looking at pics-the girls are so grown up and are gorgeous-I know they're just as beautiful on the inside! I'm now in Charlotte, NC working as a nurse practitioner at a wonderful peds heme/onc clinic. I still talk about Reid all the time to families and coworkers I meet along the way. Sending you all my love and blessings, Mollie.
Mollie (Barksdale) Gee <molliebgee@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, October 20, 2007 9:06 PM CDT
Just wanted you all to know I am thinking of you and sending love and prayers your way!
Kristi
- Saturday, October 20, 2007 3:33 PM CDT
Carol,
You guys crack me up in all your Predators gear, ha ha! I was totally caught off-guard by Dale's photo with Miss Tight-Abs! No one should be allowed to look that good, ha! Dale looked pretty happy, ha! I guess let him have his moment, after all it is his birthday. Carol, you always make the best photos. It's like you never have a bad one! Also, the picture of you, Riley and Reagan is just terrific of you all! You look more like their sister than their mom. It amazes me each time I see you that you don't look more "worn" for the horrific life events you have weathered. It's a testament to your spirit (and I know there's sadness deep in there, don't hear me wrong), but for whatever reason your tragedies have not aged you at all. You continue to be radiant and beautiful! I admire you greatly. Ok, I'm starting to sound like a stalker or something, ha!
Enjoyed talking to you yesterday and thanks for all the information about granite and countertops. I'm sorry I'm such a moron about such things!
Hope to see you Sunday!! Love you!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Friday, October 19, 2007 10:20 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I Love all the pictures and just wanted to stop in and let you know that I think of you often! I haven't signed in in a while, but I do check in on all of you.
Oh, as for the fighting, just wait 'till puberty is running rampant! :) Keep smiling! (You're all so beautiful!) Love and Courage!!
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, GA - Thursday, October 18, 2007 8:00 PM CDT
Love the pictures! Looks like Dale had one amazing birthday and I am glad you got to attend the game.
The fighting will end soon. When the girls are about 20, 16, and 10. LOL. Well, maybe not, Reagan and Reese will probably still have their moments but as they grow older, their bond will become amazing...
Reagan, sweetie, I hope you are feeling better! Being sick is NOT fun so I hope you are on the mend! You take care and GET WELL SOON!
I am glad the kitchen is almost done! One of these days, if I ever can get rid of "Frankenfoot", I am going to do my best to make it down to that area. I want to meet you all and Isaiah and his family!
Carol, I am glad you and Dale are able to stay so close and that he gets you. You are blessed with an amazing husband as he is to have an amazing wife and your children have amazing parents!
Kristi
- Thursday, October 18, 2007 3:56 PM CDT
The album that Meagan made for Randon took my breath away...(in case you did not notice-ha)... it was absoutely beautiful and so incredibly sweet and thoughtful. I loved it completely.
On a lighter note, I am cracking up at the picture of Dale and the cheerleader. Hilarious!!!
Love,
Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, October 18, 2007 11:32 AM CDT
I haven't signed your guestbook in a while, but wanted you to know that I think of you often and am still lifting you up to the Lord in prayer. Glad your fall break went well and hopefully by now your household is antibiotic free!!
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, October 18, 2007 9:13 AM CDT
Hi Carol, I finally got the chance to read Riley's wonderful essay. She is such a blessing and a treasure. The girls and I are thankful to have all of you in our lives. See you soon. Love you guys!
Laura K. Napier <laura.napier@LRC.ky.gov>
Frankfort, Ky - Thursday, October 18, 2007 8:57 AM CDT
Amazing. I came to see how your week is going and forgot that I had the window of my blog open, too. They were playing the exact same song! :) I'm so glad your fall break was a blessing and glad to hear Reagan's feeling better. Be blessed.
Emily Cassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, October 17, 2007 10:15 PM CDT
So Dale - I have never seen a Pred cheerleader before - where did she come from? Love the growling Riley and Reagan - Riley girl, you have that growl down... Go Preds...Reesie - hope you are feeling much better by now. Carol, you are one in a million. I know they all appreciate you. God's Blessings as you go through the week.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, October 17, 2007 8:02 AM CDT
It has been too long since i have visited the boys site. I continue to pray for you daily...sometimes I don't always let you know that when I see you. :) We had such a good time today, we should do it more often.
Everyone has peeked my interest in Riley's story, where can I read it?
Talk to you soon! -tara
Tara <tara.huss@vanderbilt.edu>
Brentwood, TN - Tuesday, October 16, 2007 9:28 PM CDT
Hi Carol!
Like so many others I also loved Riley's essay on Randon, it was beautifully written, but knowing Riley that doesn't surprise me at all! I will be in town on Thursday and I hope we can get together, I would love to see you! Thank you for all your kind words about Caroline---and your sweet notes to her too! Tell everyone hello, I continue to keep you and your family in my prayers!
Love, Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 16, 2007 6:58 PM CDT
To my precious Carol,
OK, let me start out by saying, I was very SAD on Saturday. Yep, while you felt excited our "NUMBER ONE TEAM IN THE NATION" just got knocked off!
OK, I'll be gentle, loving and forgiving, since after all you are more into "HOCKEY" then football, and I know in your heart of hearts you were rooting for LSU, right????
Glad you had such a nice fall break, and I was so sorry to read Reagan was so sick! I can hardly wait to meet your girls.
Dawn and I are very serious about our visit up there. I'm going to start checking flights soon. So, get ready!!!
I'm waiting for the pictures of your kitchen! (hint...)
I miss you, and I pray for you daily. Keep singing and praising God, I know he honors this "sacrafice of praise".
Lots of love and many hugs,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
TIGER TOWN.........................................., - Tuesday, October 16, 2007 1:26 PM CDT
Oh Carol!!! I LOVED the essay and all of the wonderful pictures that you posted!! I also LOVE that Riley got to go to Midnight Madness!!! We missed it :( but were there to cheer on the CATS Saturday!!! So glad that you maybe leaning a little BLUE and ORANGE :). I know that you all enjoyed a much needed break away from life. Those are always the best when it's not a vacation built up to be paradise but just a good, quality time, fun-filled getaway!!! Thanks for sharing.....YOU and your sweet family are the best!! Love-Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Monday, October 15, 2007 6:07 PM CDT
Dear Carol, The pictures are great and Dale looks really happy in his :) You are such a good wife and mother. Sorry to hear Reagan got sick again. Looks like you all had a great time. Hope to see you soon
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 15, 2007 4:54 PM CDT
What a powerful essay with so much emotion and insight! The things that she has had to live through are overwhelming for anyone. All of her past experiences are shaping her life. She is developing into a beautiful, caring young woman that anyone would be proud to claim. I see a wonderful future for her in which she will make a difference in whatever she chooses to do. I know that you are very proud of her. God Bless!
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA USA - Monday, October 15, 2007 2:35 PM CDT
What an awesome essay--which can't have been very easy for Riley to put down on paper. Adults always do a lot of thinking and dwelling, and I guess I (or any of us) can get caught up and overlook that a child can also feel so "robbed" when someone dies. I know she would be extremely sad about her brother(s) like any child would be, but who knew that she was carrying around such enormous feelings of connection with that little guy, and that she is able to talk about it so beautifully! I'd bet that Randon may have even been sent specifically to be her guardian angel. And she got to meet and love on her angel for a little while! Wow!! I'd say she gets an A+ on that paper, and an even bigger amount of love and hugs from mama and daddy for having such a sweet outlook!! What a mature girl Riley has become. I know y'all are so proud of her you can't even stand it! Love you and miss you... Jamie
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Monday, October 15, 2007 8:52 AM CDT
oh my goodness,
Riley is a gifted writer!
mrs pam
- Sunday, October 14, 2007 7:45 PM CDT
As the author of over 50 books, when I read your daughter's report, all I can say is, "WOW."
Recently diagnosed with cancer myself, I have a 6 year old son who has been battling cancer for almost 3 years now. God has upheld us through it all, and continues to do so. It is such a blessing to see how He can use even these tragic, horrible circumstances to shape our lives.
Thank you for sharing.
You continue to be in our prayers, like you have been since we first learned about Reid.
Blessings in Christ,
Sandi Queen (Jeremiah's Mommy) caringbridge.org/pa/jeremiah <queens07@windstream.net>
New Freeport, PA - Sunday, October 14, 2007 2:34 PM CDT
Carol and family, I have not posted in quite a while, but I continue to pray for you each day and to give thanks for your wonderful witness. Thank you for allowing so many to share in your life. God bless you.
Frank M. Lowrey <flowrey4@bellsouth.net>
Americus, GA - Friday, October 12, 2007 3:36 PM CDT
Wow...just wow. I have tears in my eyes as I type this. Riley is obviously a very special young lady, and I'm sure that God has something big planned for her and her giving heart. Blessings to you all!
Kristi Gerdon <kgerdon@widrick.com>
Croghan, NY - Friday, October 12, 2007 8:27 AM CDT
To my dearest Carol,
First off, I'm just sitting here in "awe" of the paper Riley wrote, oh my...
"Even though my brother was only with us for a short time, he taught me so much. He taught me not to stress over the small things and that there are things in life that are way more important. He also taught me to be brave and to appreciate evrything. I felt like Randon was a special part of me, and even though he is now in heaven, I feel as if he is watching over me, like a gardian angel or something. I will always remember Randon as a special part of my life. He has definitely made me who I am today."
Now talk about someone who has and will CONTINUE to change her world! This young lady's life has truly been transformed because of all she's had to endure at such a young age. She is so "wise beyound her young years".
Reid and Randon will always be part of her life and the lives of your other daughters as well. Their lives spoke LOUDLY, and have counted for so much. I'm just so blessed and honored I had a small part to play as I prayed each day for Randon. I feel in love with this precious little boy long before he came out to meet everyone.
So blessed you got to get-a-way for the weekend, hope it was relaxing and special.
I had so much fun with Dawn, but you were missing. Looking forward to our upcoming visit, better start getting ready now!
Love you girlfriend,
Susan
PS I'm loving the songlist, every single one you chose, is MY favorite! If I ever use one, I'll just grab your code if you don't mind.
Lots of love,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Thursday, October 11, 2007 4:25 PM CDT
I haven't signed in a while, but it doesn't mean that I haven't been here. As I read Riley's words, my heart broke and it was hard to read through the tears. What a gift she is. You and Dale know this, but she is so very precious. She is wise beyond her years.
I have to tell you that Susan and I are trying to make plans to come see you and meet your family. The next few months are out for me, so I think we are thinking about January. I'll give you more details to make sure all is okay with you and your crew. She and I are having some serious withdrawals and need a "Carol" fix. I did get to see her last night while she and Jordan were in town for scans. It was great to see her, but we sure wished you could have been there with us.
I hope you are enjoying fall break this week. Take care and know that I love ya!!
Missing my friend,
Dawn
Glad to have you as a friend................................ <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Wednesday, October 10, 2007 10:04 PM CDT
Riley is amazing just like her Mom and Grandmother!
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, October 10, 2007 9:15 PM CDT
Sweet Carol,
Just wanted to thank you again for these precious songs that I play while I'm at work. They make me think of you all so often if you listen to the lyrics. We visited Gatlinburg over the weekend and had a great time. I really tried to treasure each moment there, because while our whole family goes each Fall Break, I really realized this time that we all may never "pass this way again". The untimely passing of our friend, Dan, made me realize once again, that it might be my last trip there. Not to sound morbid, but to live each day and live it abundantly. I know I could always do it better, but I want to thank you again for your reminders. Tell Riley again what a beautiful, gifted writer and young lady she is. I hope you're enjoying some special one-on-one time with sweet Reese! Sophie was spelling Reese's name yesterday on our way home. Given what she's learning in Kindergarten, she wants to try to spell things a lot now, ha ha! Hope to see you all soon, and miss you too!!
Much love,
Robin
Robin <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, October 10, 2007 11:28 AM CDT
Carol,
I check in on your family every week, but only post when I'm really feeling compelled to do so, and after Riley's autobiography...WOW! The 4th grade teacher in me wanted to immediately put a big "Distinguished" on that one :-)! All joking aside, what a special gift she gave us all to see and hear and feel what a only a child can describe about such an indescribable event. She really is special...as are all of you. Thanks for having such an impact on my life.
Carol S.
Carol Stice <carolstice@windstream.net>
Brownsville, KY - Monday, October 8, 2007 7:27 PM CDT
Riley is a special young lady. She has your writing gift.
Caroline <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, October 8, 2007 6:59 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you all had a fabulous weekend. I hope the Riley & Reagan made it Hilton Head safely and that you and Reese are enjoying your time together. take care. Love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 8, 2007 1:41 PM CDT
Your daughter sounds like such a wonderfully sensitive and articulate young woman--her feelings just reach out and grab you by the heart. Thank you so much for sharing this very personal and moving tribute to her brother.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Sunday, October 7, 2007 11:47 PM CDT
WOWEE -What an amazing teenager you have. Riley is a powerful communicator like her SUPER MOM... Incredible... God's Blessings to everyone as you go through the coming week and Godspeed to the girls as they go on their trip.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, October 6, 2007 8:57 AM CDT
Beautifully written and VERY INSPIRING!! What a special young sister that Riley is! I know Randon and Reid know this all too well!! Thank you for sharing such a BEAUTIFUL LETTER!!!
Dawn <dpickens_42@yahoo.com>
Beaumont, Tx - Friday, October 5, 2007 4:59 PM CDT
Wow! Precious Ri-Ri! She is truly an amazing young woman & so full of grace. What a touching tribute to the precious souls of her brothers.
Our thoughts & prayers are with you all.
The Perry's <acp3469@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY US - Friday, October 5, 2007 1:33 PM CDT
I have tears too now. What a wonderful girl you are raising.
Tina & Angel Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Friday, October 5, 2007 10:52 AM CDT
As the tears roll down my face I have to say that is one of the most beautifully written things I have ever read. I am of course sad that she had to go through it will never seem fair. I'm sure writing it all down helps with the healing or as I like to say the getting through each day thing. God Bless you all.
Karen Patterson <Anchormom@comcast.net>
New Castle, DE - Thursday, October 4, 2007 8:24 PM CDT
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DALE! I hope you are able to be home with you family... Thinking of you all.
Kristi
- Thursday, October 4, 2007 5:32 PM CDT
Can't say any more than the other guestbook entries. Agree wholeheartdly with them all especially the one "The Apple doesn't fall far from the tree" Amongst your struggles know that you have done and continue to do a wonderful job.
Diane
Australia, - Thursday, October 4, 2007 5:16 PM CDT
You should be so incredibly proud of her. What an amazing spirit she has. "Out of the mouths of babes" comes to mind. Her words are so real and so honest. She really gets what life is all about and just seems like a complete angel, (as do the rest of your girls.) You guys just seem to be doing an awesome job as parents, even after all you have had to endure. The world needs more families and children like this!! Thanks for sharing.
K Cottongim <cottongims@yahoo.com>
Perkins, OK - Thursday, October 4, 2007 5:08 PM CDT
I am sitting here at work just crying over what Riley wrote. Just like you, she is just a wonderful writer. The way she put things, so simply yet not simple at all! So beautiful! You must be so proud to have such a wonderful daughter!!
Danielle and Jordan
- Thursday, October 4, 2007 3:17 PM CDT
Well, Carol, this is my 2nd time here today. The first time I couldn't sign in b/c I was speechless and in tears!
Now I know what I want to write...CAN I PLEASE HAVE RILEY??? (At least as a student.) What a sweet and very special young lady. She has such a tender heart, and I know God has great plans in store for her. You and Dale did good! =)
I hope y'all have a wonderful weekend.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, October 4, 2007 2:07 PM CDT
God bless sweet Riley Miller today! Thank you for finding the strength to share something so amazing with us, Carol. I smile to think of the great things the Lord has in store for these sisters our babies have left behind.
Emily Cassetty www.caringbridge.org/visit/millergracecassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, October 4, 2007 1:18 PM CDT
Carol, I'm trying to control my crying now. Like a fool I read this at work, not expecting to read something so personal from Riley. What a treasure that girl is!! She really wrote from her heart, and what precious words they were. She has your gift of eloquence, great writing ability and personal honesty with her feelings (which so many hide today). Too often I make the mistake of thinking of what you and Dale have lost and don't think enough of what your girls lost too,...two brothers. I can't imagine my life without my brother, so it really moved me hearing Riley open her heart so about losing Randon. She was so right...no child should have to endure losing two brothers. It's heartbreaking to hear of losing one brother, much less two. Her powerful words took me right back to those hard days at Vanderbilt and your losses, and I'll be reflecting on her powerful words all day! Well, I could sit her and brag about your wonderful children all day, but knowing your girls like I do, I don't think they would even want me to do that since they're also gifted with humility. I do love them, and know that you must love them beyond words! There's one thing I've observed about your girls, I don't think their heartfelt losses will ever cripple them like it can some, but I expect it to only bring out the best in them, and that's one big reason that they shine as bright as the noontime sun. Reagan has so many gifts, just as Riley does! I can't wait to see Reese as she grows into a precious young lady as her sisters are doing too! You and Dale set such a marvelous example for them.
I must work now, and dry up my tears. I won't mention your sharing with Riley, but I may just hug her a little tighter the next time I see her. Tell her again what a fabulous job she did on her essay, and give her teacher a box of Kleenex when she turns it in.
Oh, and have fun at the hockey games! I wish I could go to Hilton Head with the girls (do they have room in the trunk?). I want to get with you when we get back from Gatlinburg.
Love you lots,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, October 4, 2007 10:03 AM CDT
Thank you for sharing that essay with us. It made me so sad that Riley had to go through that, that Randon had to go through that, that you had to go through that. She amazes me...
Love and prayers, and a great big hug, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 8:00 PM CDT
Carol--since I cannot say this to Riley--I'll say it to you:
Hold onto her--she is going to go places. Not only in her writing and her scholastic achievements but as a human being. To be able to identify with her emotions and feelings like that--is such an ability that most of us do not get until we are 30. I am sure you are so so proud of her- and I am also proud of you and Dale for creating her. The apples don't fall far from the tree, you know.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 3:24 PM CDT
Carol, OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!! Who knew this skinny blond had such power. I am sitting here sobbing. What a tribute to your precious angel. Riley is quite an amazing young lady- be very proud. I hope you have a great trip with your family and tell Dale happy b-day. Again THANX for sharing.
Love to all- Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, October 3, 2007 2:42 PM CDT
Carol, WOW!! Riley is quite a writer, How very special that Randon touched your daughter in ways that nobody would have ever dreampt. What a very special essay to be such a special reminder of your baby boy. Thank you for sharing this with us.Glad to hear you will be getting away for a short break with your family. Always thinking of you and keeping you and your family in my prayers Maria
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
Battleboro, NC - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 1:56 PM CDT
You have very special children....here & in heaven....but then you already knew that!
Your posts always make me tear up & then appreciate what I have just a bit more.
Lisa
Saginaw, MI - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 12:54 AM CDT
Carol, your daughter has the same amazing writing ability as you do. Tears streamed down my face as I read her words. I hope she knows that what she wrote is so touching and a wonderful remembrance of Randon's life. To read Riley's emotions and feelings about it, just sheds a new light on what your girls felt.
You are raising three amazing girls who truly continue to make an impact in society. You gave birth to, loved and held two tiny boys who continue on in the hearts of many and change lives.
I don't remember how I found your site but I thank God each and every day that I did because you are all an inspiration to me. I hope you know that days may pass but there are so many people who will never forget Reid and Randon and your three girls that continue to bless your life.
Sending love your way and in case I am not on tomorrow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALE!
Kristi
- Wednesday, October 3, 2007 11:40 AM CDT
Carol,
I really shouldn't read your entries at work, because I now have tears streaming down my face! Riley's essay is very eloquent, and she put me right into that hospital room with the rest of your family. What a very special daughter you have there! (Reagan and Reese are pretty awesome too!) I continue to be amazed by your family and your witnesses for Christ. Continued Blessings!!
Leigh Ann Edwards <PeapodsMama@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 11:02 AM CDT
Dear Carol, with tears streaming down my face I write this entry. What a beautiful tribute to your son and Riley's brother Randon. she writes so eloquently, just like her Mother. She expressed her feelings in this letter and anyone who reads would feel the pain that she felt. From reading this, you get a glimpse of her sweet heart and how broken her heart was to lose another brother and how much she wanted to be the one to give him his life saving bone marrow, which never came to be. Thank you for sharing this letter, one of the most touching things I have read in a long time. My love to you and everyone, always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 10:33 AM CDT
Hi Carol--been thinking of you lots lately!! Wow--what an awesome essay by Riley--who could not love that kid?? She definitely knows how to move a reader with her emotional writing! The girls were thrilled when Riley and Reagan called the other night:) Hope you and Miss Reese find some special things to do over break--wish we had one next week too--we do get a long weekend at the end of the month, so looking forward to that! We miss you all and hold you close in our hearts each day--Love, Gail P.S. Tell the big girls to have fun in Hilton Head!
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 10:21 AM CDT
Carol--thank you s much for the songs..... I don't see the one (Held???) that you had on Randon's site??? I love that one!! Maybe you kept it out because it was a favorite........
Winter is definitely on its way here in Oregon. Stinks. We were so jipped this summer.
Hope you are all doing well..............
Take Care,
Debbie
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, October 3, 2007 9:27 AM CDT
Don't think I have ever mentioned to you how much I enjoy the songs. Thank you so much for taking the time to put them on here. They have become my background music for any time I am upstairs. They are all favorites and I love to belt them out and sing Praise to the Father. Nearly all of them have ministered to me over the past year and the ones I hadn't heard before are new favorites. Thanks so much!
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, October 2, 2007 8:59 PM CDT
Hi Carol...just thinking of you, so I wanted to drop you a line.
I hope you have a great day!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Tuesday, October 2, 2007 7:57 AM CDT
Carol, Those pictures are so awesome. I love the one with Riley looking at Randon. What a precious treasure to have. My heart ached as I looked at the pictures of that little angel. I think sometimes, we see you out and think Oh she is doing great. This renewed for me the pain you endure every day. I lift you up in prayer and pray for peace and love for you. Please continue to share so your friends don't become complacent to your pain. I love you-
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
- Monday, October 1, 2007 7:13 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you had a great weekend. I hope your kitchen remodel is coming right along. I imagine it is beautiful. Take care and I do hope to see you soon. Love,Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 1, 2007 4:26 PM CDT
Hello precious friend. I hope that you have had a good week and are looking at a wonderful weekend. I miss you girl. We had a great weekend at Deeper Still, but selfish me wants to be able to spend more time with you and Susan to just sit and talk. You know what I mean???
I never commented on how COOL you and Dale are for letting Riley have the largest food fight. You guys are great. I am sure that there aren't many kids who can say that their parents allowed them to have a food fight.
Thanks for sharing your songs, I believe we have the same taste in music. I love Rascal Flatts and so does Mason.
I must go and put Mr. Mason to bed. He didn't get a nap today and I'm feeling under the weather.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Missing my precious friend.................. <longhornfan2@comcast.net>
- Friday, September 28, 2007 9:31 PM CDT
Carol,
Thanks so much for sharing these beautiful songs with us (you know how much I LOVE music), so this is a treasure being able to work and listen to such inspirational songs at the same time! I hope you never take this song listing off of here. Thanks so much!! Hope to see you this weekend!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Friday, September 28, 2007 2:13 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you are doing well today. I hope everyone in your household is over all the sickness. Seems that when one is sick, they all are sick. I hope your renovations are going as planned. Take care and hope to see you soon. Love, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, September 27, 2007 11:15 AM CDT
Carol, Your "scrapbook " of Randon and the girls along with the rest of the family was absoluteley beautiful You can see the love felt for your little baby boy. I know he is still loved and cherished even more with his earthly passing. He is still so much ALIVE in all of our hearts. Glad to hear you made it through the day. What a very special gift that Meagan did for you. I am sure you will cherish it forever. Thinking of you, Maria
Maria Newcomb <ganashman@aol.com>
Battleboro, NC - Wednesday, September 26, 2007 3:31 PM CDT
Carol- Oh my...... The pictures of your "big girls" with Randon are BEAUTIFUL!!!!! They are so proud to be Randon's big sister......you can see it all over their faces. They are all just too sweet for words!!! I have been thinking of you and your whole family this week. Sending only good wishes your way. Have a wonderful week/weekend. "Talk" to you soon. Love -Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Tuesday, September 25, 2007 8:49 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
Just wanted you to know that you have been in my thoughts many many times over this past week. ( I wanted to talk to you today when I saw you in the parking lot at school, but I could not get the window down and then you were in side...sorry!). Maybe we will catch up soon. Just wanted you to know that your sweet boys continue to touch the lives many. Thank you for continuing to show us your "love, hope, and courage."
Jennifer Earnhart
Jennifer Earnhart <earnhart@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, September 25, 2007 7:49 PM CDT
Hi Carol--what a beautiful tribute to your little man--glad that you made it through the day and had a little or should I say big distraction to help--I'd love to see pictures of your kitchen when it's done--maybe that will give me some ideas for ours:) Tell everyone hi for us--we miss you all very much--the big girls have homecoming this weekend, so lots of excitement--Bradley turned 13 yesterday--wow! We continue to keep you all close in our hearts--take care--Love, Gail
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Tuesday, September 25, 2007 1:20 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I thought of you often this weekend and kept you close in prayer too. I am so thankful to this amazing lady who sent you such a nice scrapbook. I would love to look thru it with you. People shock you sometimes by their extreme generosity, and this woman not having even met you....can be only something that God would orchestrate! I know that God will bless her in return for her being such a blessing to you. I hope to see you soon, and can't wait to see your new kitchen too. I'm glad you got some nice surprises over the weekend to help you through the sadness!
Love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, September 25, 2007 12:42 AM CDT
Carol--We all cannot wait to see the before and after pictures of your kitchen!!!!!
Have a nice day
debbie
newberg, or - Tuesday, September 25, 2007 10:15 AM CDT
Carol,
I thought of you a lot this weekend. Would love to see the scrapbook sometime. Thanks for your friendship.
Amy
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, September 24, 2007 9:33 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I am sorry I have such a bad memory! I wanted to check in with you yesterday but we spent most of our day at church. New kitchen counters sound like a great distraction. I think you should photograph the scrapbook and post it for all of us to see. It sounds wonderful.
Take care,
Christa
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Monday, September 24, 2007 9:05 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I loved the new pictures. Thank you for sharing. How precious of your caring bridge friend to send you the scrapebook, that gift is priceless for you. I hope everyone is well at your home. My love to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, September 24, 2007 4:48 PM CDT
What a wonderful surprise! A completed scrapbook. Although I enjoy going back through our old pictures, I tend to get too much into "looking & remebereing" and not actually scrapbooking! I know you will cherish it. Such a sweet tribute to such a sweet boy. My thoughts, prayers & heart were with you all weekend.
The Englands <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Monday, September 24, 2007 4:42 PM CDT
I forgot to say how much I love the new pictures. Randon has that soft silky baby hair, I just love that! The ultrasound photos are amazing, too. His sisters look so happy to be holding their little brother.
Love and hugs, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Monday, September 24, 2007 3:10 PM CDT
I'm am so blessed to know you! I know that you have blessed the lives or more people than you could ever imagine. Thank you for letting us be a part of your life.
Hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Monday, September 24, 2007 3:07 PM CDT
My friend Carol.... I love you and I am thinking about you!! Just know how much you have blessed our lives by opening up your heart and emotions to all of us! love, Donna
Donna Wills <wills330@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, September 24, 2007 2:14 PM CDT
Oh Carol... Thank you for sharing those pictures of Randon. Seeing his precious face and the love in all your faces left tears streaming down my face. He was an adorable baby who was greatly and still is loved... I love you all and pray that you feel God's presence. Hope the girls are all doing better. Strep is NO fun! Give Reagan a get well soon hug from me...
Kristi
- Monday, September 24, 2007 12:56 AM CDT
Carol-- so glad to see you made it through... Thank you for sharing Randon's pictures. I always love those ultrasound pictures. Thank you MEGAN for giving something Carol can hold on to--forever.
Debbie
newberg, or - Monday, September 24, 2007 12:29 AM CDT
Dearest Carol...
You have been on my heart all weekend, actually all last week. As always, I will never take all that we have been blessed with for granted. I will love a little more (and show it) b/c of you and your precious boys.
Thanks for always being a light! I love the quote you ended with, btw.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Monday, September 24, 2007 12:04 AM CDT
Just wanted you to know that I thought about you guys this weekend. I know it was tough for you and that sweet baby Randon will always be a very very special part of you!! Hope God will provide you comfort as you think about your two special boys!! Love you always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, September 24, 2007 10:51 AM CDT
I just wanted you to know that we were thinking of your family this weekend. I hope you find peace and comfort during this time. Sincerely, Michelle Roberts and family
Michelle Roberts <michelle_roberts123@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 24, 2007 10:00 AM CDT
Thinking of you this weekend. I can only imagine how difficult this time is for you, but want you to know I am lifting you up in my prayers. Lots of love and respect,
Jennifer
Jennifer Bryant <jpbjjb@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Sunday, September 23, 2007 10:47 PM CDT
I know you know this already, but I have been praying for you today. Love you lots, Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 10:09 PM CDT
I hope you spent the day surrounded by the love of your family. I know it had to be a tough day. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Diane
Scottsville, Ky - Sunday, September 23, 2007 8:58 PM CDT
Hi Miller Family,
I am thinking of you today. I know none of these journal entries or address book entries make it any easier but maybe it will let you know how much two little boys' lives meant and how many people they brought together.
Love, Paula
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Sunday, September 23, 2007 8:10 PM CDT
praying for you today...
Abby
Spring, TX - Sunday, September 23, 2007 6:54 PM CDT
Carol and Dale,
I just wanted to say hello and I hope the both of you are well this weekend. I have thought all week about you and our precious Randon. I remember his sweet personality and his little ways of letting us know what he liked or disliked! I think of you guys often and what such bittersweet memories we shared. My prayers are with you!
Love,
Hope Stock <kathryn.stock@vanderbilt.edu>
Portland, Tn - Sunday, September 23, 2007 4:57 PM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and your family this weekend and Randon. I admire your strength and faith and hope it provides you with some comfort.
Karen Buchanon <kbuchanon@bellsouth.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Sunday, September 23, 2007 2:54 PM CDT
Dearest Miller Family,
No words seem appropriate, but just wanted to let you know that you were being thought of and prayed for especially today. I continue to give praise to our Father for Randon's sweet life and what a difference his life made in many others' lives. Your family will always be dear to us.
Much love,
Ken, Susan, Katie, and Abbie
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 1:30 PM CDT
It doesn't seem possible....a year. Hold tight to your memories of that amazing little boy today.
Wish I were with you today to hug you. We are thinking of you and all of the Miller's today. Timmy came in this morning from work and little Randon's precious life was the first thing we talked about. Wish I had great words of comfort but I know no words can comfort the empty spot. We love you guys and miss you.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 11:03 AM CDT
Carol and family,
I just wanted to stop by and let you know that I am thinking of you all today and praying for God's comfort and peace to fill your hearts today.
Amen to Susan's prayer below. I don't have any profound words for you, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I love you girl and am here for you.
Holding on to Hope,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Missing my precious friend.................. <longhornfan2@comcast.net>
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 10:53 AM CDT
Carol and family,
Just wanted to let you know your in my thoughts and prayers today. May you find peace and comfort to guide you through this day. Randon is watching over you from Heaven above.
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
Battleboro, NC - Sunday, September 23, 2007 9:49 AM CDT
Dearest Millers, Our thoughts and prayers are with you on this day. I can not even begin to fathom the pain and difficulty this day holds for you. Please know we will lift you up in church this morning. May the peace and comfort of the Lord be with you today and always. We love you and continue to praise Him in the storm. The Gregory's-Scott, Teresa, Lauren and Ali
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky - Sunday, September 23, 2007 9:14 AM CDT
Today, as always, I am thinking of and remembering sweet Randon and his short but VERY touching life! Carol, for the past year, you have shared your pain, you joys, your emotions of your first year without you son, your Randon and continued with your emotions of sweet Reid's death. You are an inspiration to many and I hope you know that. You gave this world five beautiful children, all of which will, two already have, changed the world for the best. I know today is a day that hurts you and I hope that through Dale and your beautiful girls that you will all find a new degree of healing. So many will always remember Randon (and Reid), your boys touched many and I know because of them, because of you, because of your family, I am not the same person. You are all an inspiration to me and I love you all dearly.
Kristi <Patzman.2@wright.edu>
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 9:00 AM CDT
"May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope," (2 Thessalonians 2:16 NIV)
Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you this morning on behalf of Carol and her precious family. I ask you to surround them with your great love, your comfort, and many loved ones to share in the memory of such a precious gift you gave them "Randon Speakman Miller".
Lord we don't understand your ways, yet we still love and trust you. Encourage their hearts, renew their hope, and remind them of all the many promises you have given us.
Place your banner of love over them today. Thank you Jesus for bringing this wonderful family into my life, and today I thank you for Randon.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen
LOVE YOU CAROL!!!!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Missing you.........................., - Sunday, September 23, 2007 8:25 AM CDT
remembering precious Randon,
most especially today.
Praying for all of you on this difficult date.
mrs pam
- Sunday, September 23, 2007 7:48 AM CDT
Carol,
As I was sitting last night watching the beautiful sunset on the lake, my thoughts turned to you. I just can't understand why in God's beautiful world there has to be so much pain and suffering. I am praying for you today. I pray that somehow through the pain, you will see glimpses of God's beauty and grace.
You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Erika Mannen <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Sunday, September 23, 2007 7:36 AM CDT
How does a year feel like moments at times, and an eternity at other times? God bless you today as you remember..........
angela conklin a friend thru your entries in NC <conoil@yahoo.com>
graham, NC - Sunday, September 23, 2007 5:40 AM CDT
My heart is aching with you. I pray that Heavenly Father sends peace to your heart.
Love, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Sunday, September 23, 2007 0:36 AM CDT
All our love and prayers are with you on this difficult day. May you find peace and continued strength with God's guidance and love. We will never understand or feel your pain but may you find comfort through family and friends who will always be there to listen,love, and put joy into your life. Gabby,Keith,Matt,Jamie,&Samantha
Gabby <gabbysprings@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Saturday, September 22, 2007 11:37 PM CDT
Just wanted to let you know I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.
Aly
- Saturday, September 22, 2007 9:01 PM CDT
May the angels keep you till morning.
May they guide you through the night.
May they comfort all your sorrows.
May they help you win the fight.
May they keep watch on your soul.
May they show you better ways.
May they guard you while you're sleeping.
May they see you through your days.
May they show you new hopes.
May they still your every doubt.
May they calm your every fear.
May they hear you when you shout.
May the angels keep you till morning.
More than this I cannot pray.
And if the angels ever fail you.
Then may God be there that day.
~~ Author: Anonymous ~~
Polly/Angel_Wings www.groups.yahoo.com/groups/Angel_Wings
Rolette, ND USA - Saturday, September 22, 2007 7:22 PM CDT
Hey my Sweet Carol & family,
Just want you to know that I'm thinking of you always and especially this weekend. Know that I'm so thankful God allowed our paths to cross and blessed me with another great Sister.
Take care, one step at a time and know this crazy woman in Arkansas loves you bunches!
Only By His Grace - Trish, Momma to Heaven's Lil Dancin' Darlin ~ Emma Grace
Trish Hampton <bubbleup42@yahoo.com>
Prairie Grove, AR - Friday, September 21, 2007 4:40 PM CDT
Carol, Dale and the girls......... as this weekend approaches and marks a sad day for you, please know we all are out there pulling for you. Little Randon knows how much you all love him and he is shining in all of you with his big brother, Reid. Just do what you need to do to be a family and to get through this. No one can give you any magic words and you probably do not want them anyway. We love you and honor you and appreciate you all so much!!! And girls, you better appreciate the COOLEST parents in the world...... you owe them, big time!!!
debbie
newberg, or - Friday, September 21, 2007 3:56 PM CDT
Hey Carol - just checking in to let you know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers. It doesn't seem possible that a year has passed. Randon will always be in our hearts to right along with sweet Reid.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, September 21, 2007 3:03 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Very long time no see. I was in Paducah working a couple of weeks ago with one of my sales reps and had lunch with Anita Fleenor-Ford. We were catching up on the last 16 years and she updated me on you and your family. I just want you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you. Your daughters are just beautiful. I have a daughter named Taylor who just turned 7. I hope to catch up with you someday. I live in Houston but get to KY every now and then. I wish you all the best. Chari Beth White
Chari Beth White <cwhite.white@gilead.com>
Houston, TX USA - Friday, September 21, 2007 11:22 AM CDT
Coolness certainly doesn't say the half of it. Good on you - know I would have run a mile but know it was harmless and a great time. Thinking of you especially at this time - I check in regularly on you and the girls
Diane
- Friday, September 21, 2007 3:38 AM CDT
Carol,
Wow -- I'm speechless! I came to the computer to send you a message to let you know that you are in my thoughts more than usual this weekend. However, I'm having a hard time getting my jaw off the floor after reading your last update. You are definitely the kind of mother we all wish we could be! I will make sure that my own 13 year old doesn't see the fun you let yours have! I have been thinking of you a lot this week, and will continue to lift you up in my prayers as the anniversary approaches. Let me know if you need anything!
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
BOWLING GREEN, - Thursday, September 20, 2007 10:28 PM CDT
sending many loves hugs and prayers for you all this week and weekend - especially on Sunday!!!
tanya - nick www.caringbridge.org/visit/nicholasdeyo
tanya <todddeyo@sbcglobal.net>
- Thursday, September 20, 2007 8:09 PM CDT
SO MUCH FUN!! I'm sure that everyone thought that you were the greatest. It will be something that they will never forget. We'll be thinking of you in the coming days.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA USA - Thursday, September 20, 2007 12:32 AM CDT
Wow, you do win the cool parents award! That is so great! I love it! Thinking of you for this weekend. Be good to yourself!
Danielle and Jordan <twxee@aol.com>
Norristown, PA - Thursday, September 20, 2007 11:08 AM CDT
Thinking of you.
Susan <Susanmvt@aol.com>
PTC, GA USA - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 9:05 PM CDT
Oh Carol,
Thank you for making me smile tonight! I sure needed it. I will be thinking of (as always) as the week goes on. I know there is nothing I can say, but know I am praying for you.
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 8:55 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
OK, let me get up from the floor...
I guess I'm getting really "OLD", just looking at those pictures wore me out!
All I can say with 5 sons, I know they have done this many times before, but never "officially" organized!
I'm glad this is behind you now, and it looks like Riley made memories for a life~time. You are very brave!
I know Randon's anniversary is coming up, I can't believe a year has gone by. I will continue to pray for you and your family this coming weekend.
Missing you, praying for you, and sending LOTS of love your way,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 8:36 PM CDT
Thinking of you, hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 7:01 PM CDT
Hi Carol--so glad that you had a great weekend away!! Riley's party looked like a blast--Bradley did this at Youth Group and thought it was cool--you and Dale are great parents and oh so brave for having that many kids over--how was the smell afterwards??? That's what got me when I picked Bradley and his friends up from Youth--a quick swim took care of it though:) My thoughts are with you this week as I know it is tough reliving the memories, I just can't believe it's been a year already--the time goes so quickly--I'll continue to keep you all in my prayers--miss you so much--take care--Love, Gail
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Wednesday, September 19, 2007 10:20 AM CDT
Carol- You Go Girl!!!!! Way to Party like a rock star!! :) Was all this during the UK/U of L footaball game? If so Dale really does get husband/ Dad of the year!! As does the whole Miller gang for hosting such a great get together!! I LOVE it!!! Talk about sending some video tape into funniest home videos.....can't wait.
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 7:49 PM CDT
Carol,
My friend, Dana Gibbs, emailed your website along with asking for prayers for Randon last year around August. I was pregnant with our 4th child, Ruby Anne, at the time. I prayed for your family and Randon, thought "I can't imagine", and then deleted the email. A few short weeks later, our Ruby was stillborn at 24 weeks. I was devastated. At some point soon after that, I dug that email out of the deleted items box and obsessively read every word of your journey on your website. Your honesty, strength, and faith have been such an encouragement and strength to me.
And I was at Deeper Still too and felt JUST like you did! That Thur before was Ruby's 1st heaven-birthday. I sat there Sat, tears streaming down my face for 2 hours while God spoke to me through Beth thinking, "How in the world could He love me enough to bring 23,000 women together just to tell me what I needed to hear?" I'm so thankful you heard the same message.
We are praying for you as Randon's homegoing anniversary approaches. Each day is one day closer to being home with them. "I've never been more homesick than now!" ("Homesick" MercyMe)
Love,
Melanie Smalling & family
Melanie Smalling <jaredmelanie@netzero.com>
Nashville, TN USA - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 4:47 PM CDT
Wow, I love the party idea. Riley should be a professional party planner, I couldn't even start to come up with something like that.
I continue praying for you and your family, especially this week.
Valerie Greene <val.greene@hotmail.com>
Leander, TX USA - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 3:53 PM CDT
Man, it is mom's like you that make the moms like me look so blah and uncool! I don't think I could ever sign on for a party like that, but it sure does sound fun to attend (just not the clean-up part!). I know that you made a memory for Riley and your whole family that you will never forget, and that's what makes life worth living! Great job at throwing caution (along with every other mentionable food item) to the wind and saying, "why not?!" I am having trouble envisioning Dale in the middle of the pudding tossed to and fro! I wish you had invited me to referee, ha ha! This will probably become the new rage for parties, thanks Carol, ha ha!
I will be remembering you and your whole family this weekend. I know it has to be very, very tough reliving those anniversary dates, but I hope you sense that you are not alone that day! I hope you somehow sense God's nearness that day, every day! I'll be thinking of you and praying for you this weekend!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 2:27 PM CDT
Congratulations on living in the moment!! It's something I have never been real good at but I am trying to learn it. Your site and so many others remind me often to do so, and to not take for granted the people I have been blessed with. I will pray for a hedge of protection around you as you continue on your journey of healing.
Kristi Gerdon <kgerdon@widrick.com>
Croghan, NY - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 2:00 PM CDT
WOW! I'm not sure I could do that for the sixteen year old in my house! Riley indeed has a memory that will last forever. I'll be remembering you this weekend.
Leigh Ann Edwards <PeapodsMama@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 10:44 AM CDT
GOOD FOR YOU! I am very impressed and your girls will NEVER forget that you "let you hair down" and went for it.
Ginny Streeter <gstreeter@hookercreek.net>
Bend, OR - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 10:16 AM CDT
Carol--you are way cooler than I will ever be!! The fact you even listened to their proposal says you are a little nutty inside...... Glad everyone had a great time.
Please go to church on Sunday where you will be in an environment of love and compassion. A slide show for Randon would be great for you too!! You will be prayed for this week.
debbie
newberg, or - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 9:44 AM CDT
Girl, you just won "Mother of the Year" award!!! No way I could have done that! But how fun it would have been to participate if I didn't have to clean it up!! Riley will never forget that!! I'm sure you and Dale won't either! What a great memory!! You are so awesome!! You make the rest of us look bad! Just teasing!! Hope you all had fun! Love ya, Kim
Kiim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 9:06 AM CDT
WOW, what a great Mom you are. That looked like a lot of fun for the kids and I am sure it was fun to watch them have such a great time and No one got hurt. You gave her a treasure and that is a memory that she will always have and will always talk about, a remember when. I hope to see you soon. Love to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, September 18, 2007 8:39 AM CDT
Carol, I hope your weekend was as wonderful as the weather. I pray you are doing well. Love to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, September 17, 2007 9:14 AM CDT
carol
that's a good looking bunch of ladies!
Your weekend sounds like it did so much
for you...new friends and new awareness of
different aspects of faith. I imagine that
"struggle" is a part of many folks' faith.
Am indeed sorry about your dear friend Dan.
mrs pam
- Saturday, September 15, 2007 6:13 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Last week at this time we were together! Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and MISSING you!
Hope you have a nice weekend!
Love you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Friday, September 14, 2007 10:05 PM CDT
Carol, I am friends with Susan A. and Trish H., Dawn P. and CB friends with a couple more of the ladies. Also, Mylissa and Mark Horrocks ministry, Habitat For Hope, is a favorite of mine. I have been praying for all the ladies who were planning on going with Mylissa to the Deeper Still conference for weeks before it happened.
From all accounts, it was a miraculous time of blessing from GOD ALMIGHTY! Wow, did HE ever pour out HIS HOLY SPIRIT on your group of ladies.
I just want you to know that I am continuing to pray for you, as you process all that God had for you that weekend. May you remember each day to give your burdens, questions and any difficulties to HIS powerful and willing shoulders, as you your growth deepens and your commitment is taken to even another level. God bless you as you live in HIS precious will.
Mrs. Fay <thomasx@suddenlink.net>
Bastrop, LA - Friday, September 14, 2007 1:33 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
So many people like me read your journal entries and grieve for you and with you. We will never, ever know the depth of the pain and heartache you must live with (I am an ovarian cancer survivor, but it is still not the same as having and losing a child to cancer), but we grieve with and for you deeply, nonetheless, even in the midst of knowing we have an awesome God who loves us so deeply. I am so glad the conference this weekend meant so much to you and the others who attended and gave you a chance to fellowship with those who have walked in your shoes. May God continue to strengthen and encourage you. You have a great cloud of witnesses observing how God is working in you and through you and your family!
Susan Breeding <susanbreeding@hotmail.com>
Suwanee, GA - Friday, September 14, 2007 9:22 AM CDT
Okay so I love the Hannah Montana Miller girls. It has had our whole house cracking up! We had a similar concert this week at Vicki's house. Kelsey was Hannah with a flashlight for her microphone, standing on top of the table in her playroom singing as Madison and Lindsey were acting like they were fans grabbing towards her........so funny! Love these videos keep them coming.
:)
Astra
Astra <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, September 13, 2007 10:20 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Thanks so much for sending me my camera. You need to let me know how much I owe you for shipping. I know that it wasn't free. And as far as my phone cover, don't get in a hurry to send it to me. I'm okay without it.
Hope things are going well and that God's still blessing you.
Have a good weekend.
Missing my friend,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
So glad that we finally got to meet................. <longhornfan2@comast.net>
- Thursday, September 13, 2007 9:12 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Wow, I'm having "withdrawals" from this weekend. I can't begin to tell you how much I enjoyed spending time with you!
I'm so sorry you had to come home to such bad news. I know this must of been very difficult for you. I will keep this precious family in prayer, I can't imagine...
Did you see the God~Tube of the Deeper Still Conference yet? Here is the link, check it out:
http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=b6519162b221f50d23ac
I pray this brings back a flood of beautiful memories.
Looking forward to our next get~together already!!
Love you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Bato Rouge, LA - Wednesday, September 12, 2007 9:29 PM CDT
I'm thrilled you had such an amazing time! From my Beth Moore experiences...it feels like she is talking to you, that God said "Hey Beth, Jill needs to hear this today!" I'm happy you got a message!
So sorry about your friend Dan
Jill England <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Wednesday, September 12, 2007 8:05 PM CDT
Dear Carol-It was good to see you on Sunday - I'm so thrilled to read about your Beth Moore experience. I've seen her several times, and each time it is like God directed her study to be about what I was dealing with at that time. I always wait for her to say, "Mary-John, are you listening to me????" I know that she was a blessing to you. I'm so glad that this also afforded you the opportunity to finally meet your Caringbridge friends in person and that you all got to share a good couple of days! Know that I think of you often and check in on you and yours. Take care of yourself!
Mary-John Carmon Gugler (still getting used to writing the last name-lol) <mjtbear568@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 11:08 PM CDT
Dearest Carol,
I have been waiting for this update! =)
Of course, I have an insider who filled me in, but I couldn't wait to hear your take on it.
First, let me say that I had such a burden for you ladies all weekend, and prayed constantly. It sounds like God sure moved in a mighty way! Thank you, Jesus.
I am in school...so this will be the last thing I say (for now). Who couldn't like you? I fell in love with you and your sweet, honest spirit just through cyber world!
I will continue to pray that God reveals His purpose for your life in big ways!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 11:46 AM CDT
Hi Carol: Glad to hear you had a worthwhile experience. I too, constantly struggle with trusting God--for on this day 6 years ago, we stood in awe watching TV at my parents' house--watching our country fall victim.. Where was God in all of this??? Why did he allow this to occur? Only 4 days before my dad had a small, minor accident and lay in a coma only to pass away on the 14th. Again, I ask where was God??
~for you, I highly recommend reading a very easy to read book that will last you maybe a day. It is by my guy's wife, Denise Jackson, entitled-"It's all about him". I wish the HIM were AJ--but it is not. They are from your parts of the country-- but I think you will relate to her better than I did. She in no way had the severity of devastation you do, but I think her message is clear. Try it, and let me know what you think.
Love you
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 10:10 AM CDT
Sweet Carol, I am so very glad that the conference was good for you and that you were able to be with friends with whom you could let your guard down and just be able to relax. You look so beautiful. Thank you for the wonderful update. I am still envious, I would have loved to have been at the conference, but like you said, it sold out very quickly and this was a God thing.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 10:03 AM CDT
Glad you had a great weekend and so glad you got hooked up with your new group of friends! I think they will be a wonderful support system for you and that they can relate to you and your pain and emotions you have to be experiencing daily! I know God put you all together!! It sounds like a wonderful weekend!! Take care! Thinking of and praying for you always!! Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007 9:21 AM CDT
Carol
hope your weekend getaway was a good one.
the photos of the girls are so beautiful!
(I'm not able to watch the videos)
prayers and love from st. louis
mrs pam
- Monday, September 10, 2007 2:54 AM CDT
Can't get enough of the video!!!
JIll <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Sunday, September 9, 2007 8:39 PM CDT
Dear Carol- Hoping that you have a wonderful weekend! I know it was good to go and it will be good to get back to your sweet family. Can't wait to hear all about your trip. What a wonderful experience that I am sure you have had!!! Love- Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Sunday, September 9, 2007 11:23 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I pray that your weekend is better than you anticipate. love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, September 7, 2007 8:24 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I hope you have a wonderful, rewarding time this weekend. I know it is hard to leave the girls and Dale, but it will be good for them to have some time together. I think I always appreciate my girls and husband more when I have had a little time to myself. It should be a fabulous conference, plus what a rich experience it will be to meet some of your dear CB friends. Can't wait to hear about the weekend.
Love,
Susan
P.S. Katie has had so much fun watching Reese dance. Every time I get on the computer, she asks to see the video and ends with a "I want one of them." Tell Reese that Katie thinks having big sisters is just the neatest thing.
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, September 6, 2007 8:49 PM CDT
I'm glad you're going to Beth Moore anyway!! Maybe a miracle will happen in that mass of ladies and I'll run into you :)
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, September 6, 2007 4:39 PM CDT
Hey Carol--love the video of your crazy girls!!! Have a fabulous weekend at Beth Moore and meeting all of your caringbridge friends--miss you all lots--we are surviving the first week of school and are muttling through the boxes--take care--Love, Gail p.s. it was weird not to put Bowling Green down for the city!!
Gail Good <gail.good@yahoo.com>
Waunakee, WI USA - Thursday, September 6, 2007 3:39 PM CDT
Thanks for keeping the video up - I just had the time to watch it and I laughed out loud! :) LOVE it! This will be something I'm sure you'll cherish for years to come - aah, the beauty of a child/children... :) Enjoy your time away! Unwind and relish in the whole - "no responsibilities" for the weekend. Being a Mom, I know that certainly doesn't come very often. Take care and God Bless!!
Shawn Hanson
- Thursday, September 6, 2007 12:28 AM CDT
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE THE VIDEO!!!!! I especially liked when Reese gets knocked down and Reagan says sorry and kisses her on the head!!! Riley looks SO good!!!
Julie Swack <sewjuliesew@aol.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, September 5, 2007 10:22 PM CDT
Carol I envy you going to Beth Moore. I love to watch her on tv. I hope to one day go myself. I know what you mean about Riley's room. Two years ago we painted and Lauren wanted lime green and purple. We settled for lettuce leaf walls and purple bedding and curtains. It is very pretty, although I wouldn't want it for my room. If I can help Dale with Reagan's games, let me know. I would be glad to. Take care and have a great time.
Love ya, Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, September 5, 2007 5:49 PM CDT
Carol, so glad you are going to see Beth Moore with these other special ladies. I think that is wonderful and you know Dale can handle it all! Glad you are staying busy and I can't wait to see Reese in her soccer uniform!! How cute!! As much soccer as she has watched, she will probably be a pro! Hope you have a great weekend!! Take care as always!! Love ya, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, September 5, 2007 1:04 PM CDT
Me again, just checked back and glad to see you are 'busy' doing who knows what. I feel the same, I get up, do house things, do homework, soccer, dinner and bed and feel like I did nothing all day.
Dale will be awesome, maybe he and the girls will make a part II to the video--after all, Hannah's dad is on the show!!
Enjoy your weekend, and as bittersweet as it may be, you are so deserving of this support and you also need to know that you are helping others too.
debbie
- Wednesday, September 5, 2007 11:57 AM CDT
Hi Carol: Just wondering how you are--what's up--it's been a little bit. Maybe you are touring with the girls as they have become A.J.'s backup singers?????
Thinking of you as I begin a long week of reflecting on my father's accident and then death..... 6 years it will be but seems like 6 minutes--I know you know what I mean.
Take Care
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Wednesday, September 5, 2007 10:01 AM CDT
Dear Carol, just came to check on you. I have been out for a while. Hope you are doing well. Take care
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling green, ky - Tuesday, September 4, 2007 3:24 PM CDT
Dear Miller Family,
I came here tonight to say, "Happy Labor Day Weekend, Miller Family," but I found a beautiful video tribute to a loving grandfather, from Riley, and a lot of encouraging words about faith and scripture. Thank you.
God bless you all.
Grace and peace,
Colette (from Connor Hunley's guest book)
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, September 1, 2007 6:24 PM CDT
Hi! I found your site through Jordan's. I am so glad I found it. I read your story and I am so sorry that you guys have had such a hard time. Your girls are just gorgeous! And the video....I LOVED it!!! I watched the whole thing and it put the biggest smile on my face. I haven't had a whole lot of those smiles lately, so it was just what I needed! Hope this puts a smile on your girls faces!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/carriemaniscalco
Carrie Maniscalco <fitchic06@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 1, 2007 4:11 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I love the video!! Too funny, I hope Riley doesn't find out to soon, I'm glad that I didn't miss it! You really need to keep that for later on in life, like at her graduation party, or her sweet 16.. Thinking of you always
God Bless!!
Rachelle Sparks <rml281@yahoo.com>
Sidney, MT 59270 - Friday, August 31, 2007 1:54 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Loved the girls and all their moves! Also, the video Riley put together for her grandpa was incredible!
LOVE YOU!
Catherine Warren <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, August 30, 2007 10:05 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
That was like taking a trip back in time...if I had a dollar for every time I sang and danced in front of my mirror in my childhood and in my bedroom (before the days of the IPod and I Video...I don't even know what that is....). They did a great job and it was just like witnessing my girls at home. They're all Hannah Montana obsessed...wish I had created the phenomenon of HM and High School Musical. Sophie is the big dancer at our house, and she can really boogie...looks like Reese is well on her way too, ha ha. They were all so cute, but it was precious that you could only see Reese's head bobbing around all over the place, ha ha! I loved that Reagan tried to lift Reese up so she could be better seen. That sounds just like her heart! They're all good dancers, and I loved that Riley is not "too" big to do that. What nice memories!! Keep this video always!
Also, we need to catch up. I've really missed talking to you. It seems that I keep missing you at church. I hope you are doing well, and hope I can see and talk to you soon.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, August 30, 2007 2:50 PM CDT
I love it! Your girls and mine would fit in just right together. All our Hannah Montana episodes are DVR'd and I've seen some very similar dancing happening around here. This looked all too familiar! Hang on to this one to show Riley's future husband someday!
Dana <danagibbs@inisightbb.com>
- Thursday, August 30, 2007 10:48 AM CDT
Hey Carol...
OK, this was hilarious! I'll be in serious prayer for you once Riley finds out!
Boy does this bring back so many great memories. I'm the middle child of 3 girls, so I totally felt Reagan's frustration... ahh, and I love the way she helped her little sister out.
This is priceless Carol, thanks for sharing this with us.
It's count down time now, YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, La - Wednesday, August 29, 2007 8:41 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Colleen and I loved the video, we watched it twice and laughed hard both times! The girls just look like they are having so much fun with each other. I think of you all often and look forward to seeing you on my next visit to Bowling Green.
Love, Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, August 29, 2007 7:29 PM CDT
Love Love Love the video. My favorite part is when Reese gets up from falling and Reagan kisses her head. Sweet sisters!!
The whole video reminded me of me and my two sisters singing in front of the mirror with our hair brushes and/or curling irons. If only we had a video camera then.
Carol - Thanks for sharing your precious children with us. I know that you cherish every moment with them and love them beyond their understanding.
I am so looking forward to next weekend!!!! I am so glad that you are going.
Have a wonderful week.
Blessed,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Just 9 more days................................ <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Wednesday, August 29, 2007 3:03 PM CDT
Too funny! Poor Reese!
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, August 29, 2007 2:53 PM CDT
That is the best video! Who needs the videos from the internet.....we all have the Montana I mean Miller girls to keep us entertained. Riley was a hoot, she has the dancing down. Her sisters aren't far behind!!!! Poor Reese did she have a new bump from that one? Her sister had her right up with a kiss and all! Tell the girls when they find out about it being up that we loved it!!!!! They know how to have fun!
Hope your week has been ok. Maybe there are more kitchen plans along and decisions have been made. Thanks for letting us visit the other day. We had a really good time. I just hated to invade you.....oh and the food was amazing. Ate every last little bit of it....thanks!
Isaiah is blowing me kisses now. Maybe he will work for me some. He hasn't wanted to do much except for talk and move all over the floor. Sitting is something he is bored with now...... Gotta go lots to do after being gone all day yesterday.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
lets go get our toes done...????..., - Wednesday, August 29, 2007 10:14 AM CDT
That was absolutely hilarious. Boy, did I need that laugh! You better not leave it up too long. If Riley finds out, you are in big trouble, Mama!
Hope the girls are having a great year. I wish I had one of them in my class. They are too much!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Tuesday, August 28, 2007 8:31 PM CDT
That was adorable! It's Tuesday and Riley hasn't figured it out yet:) Thanks for sharing it. I think of you all often.
Kristi
- Tuesday, August 28, 2007 3:05 PM CDT
Love the video, how cute! I have 3 boys and they video themselves showing off thier muscles, no dancing!!
Treasure it, they will be grown before you know it!
Love, Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 28, 2007 2:08 PM CDT
I absolutely love the video! Those girls are so beautiful and talented too! You're right...Riley is going to be mad and Reagan will be wanting to sign autographs. Keep it in a safe place for their wedding receptions! :o)~ Love to all!
Lenora <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, August 28, 2007 1:29 PM CDT
That is the funniest thing I have seen in a while... You Rock Miller Girls.. Poor Reesie... She did make a BIG thud but, buddy she popped right back up and did not miss a beat. Thanks for posting.... Hope you have a good week - maybe it will cool off a little. God's Blessings.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, August 28, 2007 9:12 AM CDT
Loved the video! Better not let Riley know you have let the world see her perform! About that age they get funny about that stuff! But that was adorable!!! I always knew your girls were beautiful and talented!!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, August 28, 2007 8:51 AM CDT
Okay, I have never posted before, but I have to now. I am still cracking up over the video. My favorite part is when Reagan tries to bump her way back into the video and ends up knocking Reese right over. I could not stop laughing. What also impressed me was the obvious love that they have for each other, especially when Reagan kissed Reese after knocking her over. I don't even know your girls, but LOVED the video.
Laura
Tucson, AZ USA - Monday, August 27, 2007 9:28 PM CDT
Thank you so much for sharing the video, it reminds me of when I was that age! I needed a laugh today! Thanks!
Abby
- Monday, August 27, 2007 8:51 PM CDT
Carol--OH my my!!! You know, the more they make the better they'll get--watch out daddy!!! I love the thud Reese makes when she gets knocked over......
Hey--try not to look too far down the road ahead of you--focus on the moment, and in my book, you are OK because you get up every day and go through the motions. You have taught me not to quit, and not to get too cozy on the pity pot. Your life is still good, you are good.
~Thanks for sharing, everything.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Monday, August 27, 2007 8:46 PM CDT
Carol.
That is the best video I have seen in a long time. I'm still laughing as I type this note. Thank you so much for sharing. Take care and keep them coming.
Love,
Kristy
Kristy Morton <kristy.morton@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY usa - Monday, August 27, 2007 5:16 PM CDT
I loved the video of the girls. So very cute. they must get a long well and I could see a little bit of frustation, but they did good. Glad to know that you have had a good week
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
- Monday, August 27, 2007 4:48 PM CDT
Loved the video, it made me smile and cry!
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Friday, August 24, 2007 4:09 PM CDT
I come by regulary to check on you all. Loved the slide show. Take care - love and prayers
Diane
- Friday, August 24, 2007 2:54 AM CDT
Riley,
I love the video of that you made. We have a mac book and we love it. You will have to show me how to do a slide show. You are one talented girl.
Reagan - we can't wait to see the one that you make for your best friend. You know what, I have a friend that I have kept in touch with for 26 years and we are as close now as we were when we were 10. (Oops, I think I just told my age.) Anyway, always stay in touch with your friend as you both will have wonderful stories to share with your children.
Have a wonderful rest of the week and weekend.
Carol - Time's ticking and I can't wait for Nashville!!! I get choked up every time I tell someone about going to the conference and getting to finally meet you.
Love you all,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae and Mason
www.caringbridge.org/ms/shaepierce <longhonfan2@comcast.net>
- Thursday, August 23, 2007 6:49 PM CDT
What a great video Riley put together. My Mom and your Dad share the same birthday. I bet my Mom is a little older than your Dad, although she would kick me for saying so. Hope the kitchen remodel goes well and at least as fast as they tell you it will!! Thinking of you.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, August 23, 2007 3:52 PM CDT
Riley, that was amazing. I can see you are loving that Mac. They want us using them in college but um, well, I am not so hot at working them.
Carol and Reagan, just wanted to let you two know I am thinking of you... I have been busy. PT, doctor's, stripping wallpaper (hey, I was getting bored) and just haven't been on much. My love to you all though...
Kristi
- Wednesday, August 22, 2007 8:54 PM CDT
Riley--wow!! very impressive--what a proud, proud grandpa you have and I know your mom is super proud of you, too!!!
Keep it up, you are definitely going places.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, August 22, 2007 5:41 PM CDT
Hey Riley,
Wow, I was so "IMPRESSED" with that video you made of your grandfather!! I may need to hire you to make me one soon!
Your grand-dad is so handsome, and I know he just adores you and your sisters. Looks like you made him VERY happy on his birthday!
I'm looking forward to the day my grand-daughters will do nice things for me! What a blessing you are...
Hope you have a wonderful year Riley. Keep letting your light shine for Jesus!
With lots of love,
Mrs. Susan (Jordan's mom, and an ADMIRER of your mom!)
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, la - Wednesday, August 22, 2007 4:30 PM CDT
Carol
I was thinking of you today as I do many days and wanted to let you know.
Hope to see you soon,
Kyla
Kyla Byard/ky/logan <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 22, 2007 2:34 PM CDT
Carol, it has been a long time since I have posted, but I am always checking in on your family. I am the mom who told you that our daughters have the same birthday January 17, 1994 and now I look at your website and realize that your dad and my husband have the same birthday August 17th. Weird! Maybe that is why I am drawn to your website, we are so far apart but so close in many things! I admire you greatly! Your a great wife,mom & daughter. High School Musical 2 was very cute and if you haven't seen it yet you will enjoy it!
SHERI FUSON <SHERI.FUSON.JDDM@STATEFARM.OCM >
BAKERSFIELD , CA USA - Tuesday, August 21, 2007 2:25 PM CDT
Carol, I was so happy to hear that Astra ran into you this evening. We need some time to catch up, too. You girls are beautiful. Aren't they awesome. I enjoy those grandchildren so much. Astra mentioned clothing for our family resource center. I just went to our first Advisory Council meeting last Thurs night and our Family Center is already out of clothing. We could really use it at Warren Elem. Things are just different there than most other schools. I can come pick it up. Just e-mail me or call (796-4062). God Bless you and yours! Love, Linda
Linda K. Heflin <garyheflin@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green , KY. USA - Monday, August 20, 2007 9:08 PM CDT
Carol,
What an awesome song, thanks for sharing!!!
Love,
Anne Barker
Anne Barker <barkeran@Insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, August 20, 2007 5:07 PM CDT
I was drawn to this site today and it just reminded me what a wonderful person you are Carol! I am reminded every time I visit this site how precious every minute of life really is! Thank you for reminding me of that- love, Donna Wills
Donna <wills330@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky usa - Monday, August 20, 2007 4:39 PM CDT
Hey Miller Family!
I have been following your journey for a while now (via Julianna Banana) and am so moved by the amazing love and beautiful family. I was so pleased to see the "My Wish" song on the site. It is truly amazing. My Dad passed away very unexpectedly at the age of 58 and we chose that song as the message we wanted to hold on to during this time. When I hear it, it reminds me of all the things still possible and that his love is always with me. Thank you for sharing your story and great family with all of us.
Love and wishes!
Lana Cowling <wdldsedo@mts.net>
Warren, MB Canada - Monday, August 20, 2007 11:50 AM CDT
Carol, the girls' pictures are great as always!! They are all growing up too fast! I'm so excited that you have found a Bible study you are enjoying!! Thanks for the song! That is my fav!! So sad to hear the Goods are moving but happy they are getting close to family for their sake! Hope the girls have a great school year! Mine are both at Greenwood now! It doesn't seem possible! Take care and enjoy every minute with those girls!! Love ya, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY Warren - Monday, August 20, 2007 10:46 AM CDT
Great video, Carol. Both of them. I managed to get thru the Held video pretty well. I kept getting interrupted, so that helped me keep my emotions in check. Thanks for the warning though, because you know that these kinds of touching things make me cry very easily! We missed Reagan at our HS Musical 2 get-together. We all had fun, but we did miss Reagan. I'm so glad you got to celebrate your dad's birthday. He's a very special man, and so is your mom, and they deserve all the celebrations you can heap upon them! It's no wonder they raised such a special daughter! Same goes for Dale too! And, same goes for the precious 3 daughters you are raising! I enjoyed Reese in class last night!! I'm so glad to have her in there! Sarah and Sydney enjoy seeing Reagan every chance they can get, since they miss so many of their friends from Rich Pond. In speaking of missing friends, I'd also like to add on here, that I too will miss seeing the Goode family! Gail, you are a precious person and have been such an amazing friend to Carol. I wanted so badly to hug you "goodbye" the day I ran into you at Target before your move, but I could sense I didn't need to make a big deal of it, and I didn't want to make you sad. You will be missed, and I wish you guys all the best in your new location closer to family! Keep in touch! Hope you don't mind me doing that, Carol. Hope you have a great week, and keep a pointers journal for remodeling your kitchen, since that's something we desperately need to attempt, but I don't have the foggiest idea where to start! Does Disney make a book for that?!
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Monday, August 20, 2007 10:46 AM CDT
What memories that video brought back!!!!!
It was a wonderful mini concert. Glad it was something we got to do together. I laugh thinking of us running out of the PCCU like high school girls (or me dragging you at first until you got the hint I wasn't giving up!!!). All that was going on and we were able to have 30 minutes of time where things seemed calm. Remember the little boy riding the car up the path way they had made that went to the stage. For some reason that image sticks with me....probably because they were singing that song and all I could think of were the wishes for that little guy who had obviously been through alot. I am glad there were good memories to be taken from the hospital...with this being just a drop in the bucket of the good memories of Randon.
The girls pictures are great. Reagan has grown a ton it looks like....or she looks so much older in that picture. So glad you were able to celebrate with your dad. He is such a wonderful caring man. Oh, Tara is just wonderful. She is all that you said she would be plus some. She is easy to talk to and truely seems to already love Isaiah....what a blessing she is to our lives.
Well I should think about bed. I have been trying to stay up for a bit to make sure Isaiah isn't going to wake up in his first few hours of sleep like he has lately. So far so good maybe tonight will be better.
I think I am done with my book now!!!!!! Talk to you soon....and we need to get that appointment made!!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Friday, August 17, 2007 11:36 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
OK, I did it, I hope it was "OK" with you...heck you said we should anyhow, right?????
I'm so excited about your bible study, this is so neat. I just started one myself and I'm looking forward to getting to know some new women here in town.
Now as far as the kitchen, NO FUN...but when it's all said and done, you will love it and be glad you did. Make sure you take pictures all along the way...(you won't want to forget the big mess and inconveniences!)
Give all your beautiful girls a hug from me. OK, count down time... I'm getting a little nervous, being around all you young chickens!
Hope you have a nice weekend...great video!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, la - Friday, August 17, 2007 4:16 PM CDT
Carol,
I just finished looking at some pictures of Reid and Randon that you placed on the site. Again, I was made breathless by how sweet and precious they both are! Thank you for teaching me to never take my son for granted, and thank you for your faith and ability to minister to so many through this site. God Bless and have a great weekend!
Leigh Ann Edwards <APoohFan514321@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, August 17, 2007 1:17 PM CDT
Hi Carol--loved the video and always love that song!! Sorry I haven't signed for awhile--things have been wild with the move--just want you to know that I have learned so much from your entries about faith, hope and just life! I'm so glad that you've found a bible study group--I truly hope you get as much from yours as I have from mine over the past years:) Hoping that today is a great one and that you will continue to feel held each day--love you--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, August 17, 2007 8:18 AM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you. I pray every night that God will help heal your heart just a little more each day.
We keep running in to each other. I would love to take you to lunch some day!!!
Love,
Anne Barker
P.S., Your hair looked great!!
Anne Barker <barkeran@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, August 14, 2007 8:23 PM CDT
Carol: Thanks for the video--hope today is one of those 'feeling more held than others' days. :)
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, August 14, 2007 12:33 AM CDT
Carol
i have a sign on my back door that says
"the only reason I have a kitchen is
because it came with the house".
(I wouldn't be too good with remodeling.)
glad you have a new bible study group.
mrs pam
- Monday, August 13, 2007 7:14 PM CDT
Hey!! This link is a place where they will choose the "Best Lemonade Stand of the Week". I thought you might want to check it out and see if Riley & Reagan's qualifies. To me, they have the Best Lemonade Stand in the South!!! I continue to check in on you and pray for you on a regular basis. You continue to amaze me with your testimony.
God Bless!!
http://www.inc.com/lemonade/2007/
Kelli Sparks
La Vergne, TN USA - Monday, August 13, 2007 4:10 PM CDT
I am so excited that Susan spilled the beans. I just can't put in words how excited I am about getting to meet you next month. I honestly thought it would never happen. Now it is and what a better place to be than at a Womens Conference with Beth Moore and Kay Arthur. Talk about being orchestrated by God!!! I will be buying some extra kleenex because I will be crying some happy tears.
I love ya girl and am looking forward to spending some special time with you, Susan, and a group of wonderful ladies.
Blessed,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
24 more days................. <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Monday, August 13, 2007 1:17 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Just want to say hi and let you know that I am thinking of you! Hope you have a great weekend! I love the pictures of the girls, very cute!
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
- Friday, August 10, 2007 9:20 PM CDT
Carol--I will spend myself with some light humor; your last line in your entry reads "have a good weed"--now WHAT exactly does that mean????
love you
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, August 10, 2007 6:55 PM CDT
Thinking of you.
Hugs, Megan (tannersmom)
"For one so small, the loss is so enormous" anonymous
Megan Nielsen
USA - Friday, August 10, 2007 12:35 AM CDT
Hi Carol~ I always love to "hear" your words! They inspire me and encourage me to take a better road. Thank you so much!! My only words of wisdom on the remodel are........once the workers are in your home I always say......."you can't stand it when they are there and you can't stand it when they are NOT there!" It's so funny! However when it is all done you will be so thrilled you did it. Good Luck! Love ~Megan and stay cool :)
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Friday, August 10, 2007 9:34 AM CDT
Hey Carol,
Oh my, those girls of yours are, JUST BEAUTIFUL!!!! You are really getting those "Hallmark moments" with your camera these days!
I know you are going to miss the girls, and they are truly growing up much TOO quickly. We will have to think of a way to keep them YOUNG!!!
Hey, let's not put Reese in school. It's time for her to go backwards...
Praying for you each day. Keep taking it easy, be gentle on your self, and know how loved you are.
Now, I'm getting real excited about our little surprise. Let me know when you think we should "spill the beans"!! I can hardly wait for "our secret" to become a reality!
Love you Carol,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
From one sneaky friend to another............................., - Wednesday, August 8, 2007 9:06 PM CDT
Carol, just checking in on you guys! The pictures of the girls are beautiful as always! Hope they are settling into school and, you are, probably, like me trying to get a schedule going! Miss you guys and hope each day will bring a little sunshine!! Love ya, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, Ky USA - Monday, August 6, 2007 11:26 AM CDT
Carol, Well the first few days of school have come and gone. Lauren had a good start to things. She has some friends in her classes and seems pleased with her family, tigers. The one teacher I knew in that family changed families this year so again, I know none of the teachers except Mrs. Smalling for band. Ali enjoyed her first few days. Her teacher is great and I ran into Robin Pemberton and her girls are in Ali's class. So, you decided to take the kitchen remodel plunge. Good for you. Mine was complete yesterday. Now begins the fun of putting the house back together. Although, I think we are going to redo the hardwood in the foyer now!!!!!!!! I am a glutten for punishment. Keep me posted on how it goes. See you at soccer, soon I hope. Love to all.
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
B G, Ky - Sunday, August 5, 2007 8:31 PM CDT
The girls pictures are awesome! Thanks for sharing.
Kristi
- Friday, August 3, 2007 9:40 PM CDT
WOW - what beauties they have become. Thinking of and praying for you all always.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, August 3, 2007 10:32 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I hope the first day of school got off to a good start for you all. I read your entry today and was really kicking myself in the seat of my pants for even mentioning that I was dreading Sophie starting Kindergarten. It did dawn on me a little late that Reid would have been in Kindergarten today too. It does add perspective. I'm so sorry for even mentioning a word to you about being sad about today. You're right....it's a day to rejoice, because I've had these 5 wonderful years with her and it's a wonderful milestone to reach. I'm so sorry if I seemed insensitive. I really didn't think, and I'm very ashamed! I know you would have longed for this day for Reid and for Randon too! Gosh, I'm such a bad friend! I hope you'll forgive me!
I enjoyed yesterday with your girls, and yes, you've got some awesome daughters there (not that you don't know that). I hope no one ever quenches Reagan's spirit too, because there's a lot there for anyone to see! I know that I've said it before, but I just can't wait to see what that girl grows up to become! She's such a joy to be around. Reese is fully coming into her own too, and I forgot to tell you that yesterday out of nowhere Reese looks at me and says, "I've missed Sophie." She looked so grown up when she said that, and I had to just grin! Thanks for allowing me some time with them yesterday.
Hope you get all good news when the girls report in after school today. Sophie cried as soon as the van door opened and had about stopped by the time we all entered the school. I think she would have been fine at Rich Pond, but the new school and not knowing anyone has made it tougher. She got put at tables with all boys too (and you know that's not the best thing for little girls, ha ha).
Anyways, I will remember the "lesson" you taught me today and be thankful for having two girls enter fourth grade and a new Kindergartener reaching that new step. I'm thankful and happy to see it come, and I will be remembering you too my friend for the new milestone that should have been yours today. I'm so, so sorry that Reid wasn't alongside those Rich Pond Kindergartners today....that breaks my heart.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, August 2, 2007 2:03 PM CDT
What beauties school is going to have this year!! No wonder your mom (and dad, I am sure) do not want to let go of you!!!Enjoy it--I know you do well, have fun, and Carol and Dale, be proud!!!
debbie
newberg, or - Thursday, August 2, 2007 0:51 AM CDT
Here's to a fantastic first day of school...and a wonderful school year!!!
WOW...I can't imagine going back so soon...our kids in MI don't go back until after Labor Day....but don't get out until first week in June so I guess that is the trade off.
Many hugs & prayers!
Lisa <madamelisa69@aol.com>
Saginaw, MI - Wednesday, August 1, 2007 11:05 PM CDT
Hey Riley and Reagan, have an AMAZING first day of school! I am glad you got the teachers you wanted Riley. I am in school for two more weeks, then I have a two week break that I am so ready for, one week in Michigan and another week in Kentucky...
Kristi
- Wednesday, August 1, 2007 10:34 PM CDT
You are still in my prayers daily, have not signed in a while. We have a new granddaughter--Abbey Sue- who was born July 2.2007--she is adorable...only weight 5 lbs 15 ounces--so very tiny--but so very special.
Just want you to know you and your family are always in my heart.
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgow, KY USA - Wednesday, August 1, 2007 5:00 PM CDT
Carol--school?????? I know the feeling--we are just getting some heat here. I cringe at the thought of school. Though I have no patience for homeschool--so off they will go too!!!
Kitchen remodel.......hmmmmmmmmmmmm would love pictures of that!! Every wife on here would love pictures of that!!
Take Care, glad to hear you are on the up of the roller coaster for now.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, August 1, 2007 10:07 AM CDT
Hi Carol--wishing you some clarity and serenity today.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, July 31, 2007 11:46 AM CDT
Words fail. Thank you for your continued honesty. Though I am a stranger, I am forever changed by your boys and I won't forget their short lives. Each time I visit your site, I walk away understanding that each second with my kids should be cherished, and though you can never understand someone else's hurt exactly as they feel it, you are still equipped with arms to embrace- and some days it may be enough to lighten the day. I've learned that doing nothing is far greater a crime than saying something that isn't "perfect".
Your sweet family is in my prayers,
Tisra
Tisra
Nashville, TN USA - Tuesday, July 31, 2007 9:29 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
You were on my heart this morning, so I did some crying out to our Father on your behalf. I pray you felt the prayers, and peace and comfort are filling your house this morning.
Have a great weekend with those beautiful girls of yours!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Saturday, July 28, 2007 9:08 AM CDT
I know you are busy with your busy family, but if you have some time, go buy the book 90 Minutes in Heaven....it is a very fast read. It just may help you as you continue your recovery. It made me realize that those who we have lost are truly the lucky ones and that we WILL be runited in perfect love one day.
Suzy <Suzy88@aol.com>
West Chester, pa - Friday, July 27, 2007 11:56 AM CDT
Carol,
Just to let you know that I'm sending you out a hug right at this very moment. I understand what it means to question the things we can't fully understand. Caleb has a condition known as macrodactyly in his left foot that was diagnosed when he was less than a year old. He is a patient of Shriners Hospital and has had to endure surgery after surgery and will have to continue to until his foot stops growing. It will be nine years this coming Tuesday that my son was born and he was diagnosed and I still find myself "questioning" sometimes and asking why; but please do not misunderstand. I just wanted you to know that even though I can never be able to understand your pain; I do understand that we are only human and even though we are not supposed to question ;we do and I believe that is only normal. Caleb's cousin was his age (8) when he passed away from cancer in 1995. Our family will forever miss Logan and his smile; but to this day it is still hard to understand. The many visits our family made to st. Jude certainly caused us to see the world from a whole different view. It wasn't until after I became a mother that I could even begin to relate to my sister and the pain she endured. My heart goes out to you Carol and to your family; I read your entries as often as I can and sometimes struggle for the right thing to say; so it is my hope that you continue to keep your faith and peace will someday be yours; and know that I have found that even though people may not say or do the right thing as we would like; usually their heart is in the right place. :)Love & prayers
Your friend, Sherri Cox-Doughty <blossomchicks@bellsouth.net>
- Friday, July 27, 2007 9:33 AM CDT
Carol,
I haven't written in such a long time, but I have still been checking your entries and praying for you often. Though I strongly believe in the power of prayer, I too can't understand why so many have to experience so much heartache. I know that in my case I can at least find the comfort and peace in praying, regardless of the outcome. I see your heart as very fragile. It has been damaged so badly that it is nearly beyond repair, but hopefully as your family and friends continue to not only pray for you, but show you how much they love you then you can at least survive the damage that has been done. I know that it will never be whole without your beloved sons, but as long as it continues to beat strong for your family and friends, I am confident that it will be whole again when you join your sons in heaven. I can't think of anything worth while in saying or writing to you. My heart just aches for you. I wish I could take away your pain. Your words of wisdom and honesty are so powerful. I truly believe that God is using you to teach others and I appreciate you sharing your life and all your raw emotions with us. I think it is natural to question what we don't understand. You and your family are in my prayers always.
Penny <pennywarwick77@hotmail.com>
BG, KY - Friday, July 27, 2007 8:50 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
Yes, that is a picture of Zack and I. It was taken right after he raced his very first soap box derby race. I am bad about having pictures taken with me in them. We are going on a short vacation this weekend. I will work on it.
Thanks for the note and take care.
Christa visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, July 26, 2007 9:50 PM CDT
PS 147:3" He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you tonight and I ask for you to wrap your loving arms around my sister Carol. Father you know her heart, the pain, the questions, and unanswered prayers she has cried out to you for.
Be a refuge for her, a strong tower she can run into and hide. Comfort her with the comfort you received as you laid down your life for us.
Bind up her wounds, and heal her broken heart. Wipe away her tears, strengthen her, and continue to give her your grace to face each day.
Surround Carol with those who love her, let them be instruments of your love. Thank you for allowing our paths to cross, for our friendship, and for all I have gleaned from her life.
Watch over her and her precious family each day. I ask this in your precious name, Amen.
Love you Carol, I'm hurt when you hurt, and rejoice when rejoice. Thanks for for being so real. There is nothing you have said that NONE of us have thought and questioned ourselves.
I'm praying you through,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Keep holding on to hope....................................., - Thursday, July 26, 2007 9:34 PM CDT
Thanks for sharing what you did... It really left me thinking so much. Your boys have touched many, they may have been babies but they touched more lives than most people touch in a lifetime. Love to you all..
Kristi
- Thursday, July 26, 2007 9:22 PM CDT
Carol,
Thank-you so much for sharing your feelings, your thoughts and your life. The videos you have shared with us are so touching. I cried through both of them. Carol, even though I don't post a lot, I do still come here to see how you and your family are doing. I can NEVER forget you guys and your precious little boys.
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, July 26, 2007 3:13 PM CDT
Carol,
As I sat in church last Sunday and listened to the sermon, I immediately thought of you. My family started going to church with you when Randon was in the hospital, and I have seen you many times in passing at church, but have never introduced myself, because I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. As a mother myself, I cannot imagine the pain you must go through each day! Just the fact that you can still pray at all amazes me. Know that there are people out there who think of your sons often and grieve because you do not get to be with them. Your entries have taught me so much about faith and to appreciate my many blessings, most especially my son. Know that I am thinking about you and praying for you daily.
Leigh Ann Edwards <APoohFan514321@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, July 26, 2007 12:58 AM CDT
Thank you for, once again, sharing your thoughts and feelings so openly with us. You are not alone in your questions, I think if all of us are honest we will admit that we have questioned our beliefs at some point for a variety of reasons. Please know that while I don't personally know you, I think of you often and pray that your healing can continue.
Your pastor's use of the word courage in sharing with those who are grieving was interesting as I happened upon a definition of courage on another CB site this morning. A young boy is facing a transplant to correct an immune deficiency and in a conversation with his mother he said that being brave did not mean you weren't scared, it just meant that you do the thing that scares you--that's courage, doing the things that scare you. Personally, I know I have let others down in the same way you feel let down because I didn't have the courage to just "be" in the ways you described. Thank you for opening my eyes to that again.
I will join you to pray for this special man you mentioned, that God's presence will be with the family through this difficult journey, and that those around them will have the courage they need.
Kristi Gerdon <kgerdon@widrick.com>
Croghan, NY - Thursday, July 26, 2007 9:16 AM CDT
All the 'I'm sorries' and the "I wish there was something I could says" don't even come close to comforting you, I am sure. I emailed you a more extensive 'entry'- not to be so widely publicized. You are so sweet to thank us and to make us feel included in your journey, Carol. I know you feel us, know that we are out there,yet I wish I could trade it all away for some answers for you. I wish innocent people like yourselves would not have to endure such losses. I so understand your questioning, because I wonder why God (if he has the power) makes these destinies. How or what is the benefit for those who suffer--both the loved ones who have to leave or struggle and the ones who are left?? You deserve answers and I am so so sorry that you are dealing with this. Be with Dale and the girlies and find some comfort in them. You are a family and no one knows you like they do. Thank you for being real.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 11:25 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I asked often in Zack's early years why God would choose this path for him and our family. Now I ask why would He allow such a hard life for Zack only to take it away. It's hard isnt' it? Many of my old friends don't acknowledge our loss. However, we have been blessed with a new group of friends who make sure we are always included. I don't know what to make of that.
A baby is just as great a loss as any other. I am sorry that others have made you feel that your losses might be easy to get over. I can relate to wanting more pictures and videos. I can't take enough of Meghan now.
Thank you for continuing to update. I gather a lot of strength from you. If we ever meet, I promise to come armed with chocolate!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 9:52 PM CDT
Carol, The last message left took all the words right out of my mouth. I could feel every bit of your pain as I read your entry with tears in my eyes. I know we are not supppose to question God's plan, but how can you not when your precious sons are no longer with you. You share your emotions and feelings just like I was sitting at your kitchen table sharing a cup of coffee with you. Your are so dearly loved and thought so much by all of us out here who may or may not know you. I am sorry your friends haave not shown you the support you are in need of. Just know I am here for you as well as so many others. A big hug to you from Rocky Mount, North Carolina. I had a lousy day today and then after reading your entry I feel that I have no right to be upset about such menial things in life. You continue to be such an inspiration to me and so many others. I wish for you that the pain and heartache may some day ease a little for you. You are so deserving of happiness and your girls ae such wonderful children as well as your sons.May you find some peace and happiness. God bless you and your family, Maria
Maria Newcomb <ganashman@aol.comn>
- Wednesday, July 25, 2007 9:43 PM CDT
Sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks....tears shed for your broken heart; tears shed that Reid and Randon aren't still in your arms, rather having their arms wrapped around you; tears that there are not any words to help......
I pray that for your heart, and mine, to accept God's will. You couldn't have written it any better.
Thank you for taking the time to share your beautiful soul with all of your "faithful friends" that have not met face to face; but love you like someone we have always known.
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 5:40 PM CDT
You are right the sermon at church was good. I really enjoyed it and learned a lot from it. I feel that sermons like that need to be preached everywhere more often so that more can take a glimpse of hurt. So many know it at different levels.
The video reminded me so much of sweet Randon's service. It truley brought back that day. It was a wonderful service for him, I know one you could have done without, but you honored him so.
I need to get back to Isaiah. He has Bernie off and his finger over the trach so he can blow spit at me!!!! He is such a mess. He said to tell you he misses seeing you :)
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Wednesday, July 25, 2007 5:25 PM CDT
Carol,
You don't know me but I have followed your family for some time. I received this e-mail today after reading your entry and just felt the need to share...
Sometimes we just need to be reminded!
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by:
holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and
WHOSE WE ARE.
You are special - Don't EVER forget it."
Kim Snyder <myboysnme@gmail.com>
Central California, - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 11:01 AM CDT
Carol-
I have been quietly reading your story for over a year now. I rejoiced with you when you found out you were expecting again and cried and hoped for you when Randon was diagnosed with the same illness as Reid. I am a young mother of one and while I don't have a lot of years experience, I cannot imagine a joy greater than that our babies bring to us nor a physical pain greater than their loss. It is completely unfathomable to me and I do not pretend to understand your double pain. I do think as women and especially christian women, we put an incredible amount of pressure on ourselves to seem okay in whatever our circumstance. For both our own sake and the sake of everyone else. The fact that you still see beauty and experience joy in the lives of your three living children and your husband, is all the proof there is that you believe in a God that gives you the courage and the hope to carry on. And I think that is more than anyone could ask of you.
Mary Beth Joseph <mbj@triad.rr.com>
- Wednesday, July 25, 2007 10:58 AM CDT
Thinking of you...
Tina & Angel Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Wednesday, July 25, 2007 10:55 AM CDT
Carol
I am sorry I missed Randon's birthday.
praying for you....
mrs pam
- Wednesday, July 25, 2007 10:23 AM CDT
Carol,
It was great to talk with you the other night. I just had to let you know that I was praying for you and your family. I don't think I'll ever attend another convention and not think of sweet Randon.
Sorry our conversation was cut off so abruptly, but I had to take care of an injury. Did Reagan have a good time? I know Jared and Anthony did, but they are exhausted. My kids are still sleeping in every morning. I guess they had better sleep now, because next week starts the early mornings again.
Well, I had better get busy -- company's coming.
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, July 25, 2007 8:48 AM CDT
Carol-thinking about your heart today...sending you some warm fuzzies.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, July 24, 2007 1:32 PM CDT
Hi Carol. I just wanted to let you know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY 42104 - Tuesday, July 24, 2007 1:07 PM CDT
Carol,
I have been thinking about you all last week. 7/19 was a hard day for me too (the last day I saw my mom alive). Every time I began to hurt, I thought about you. Wanted to write last week but could never muster up the courage or the words to do so. I really still can't find the words to express what I really want to say to you. I admire your ability to express yourself. But what I really want you to know is that I am praying for you all, I care about your family, and that I would be there if you needed someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on. Probably sounds strange to you because you don't know me. But, I feel like I know you through your site and have generated a connection and have enjoyed getting to know you. It was great meeting you, Dale, and Reagan at the lemonade stand. You all are such nice people. I was so impressed that you remembered my name after meeting me only once. Also, you are not alone in questioning your faith. Sometimes, I feel guilty for still hurting and grieving for my mother when I read yours and other caring bridge sites. No one can ever know what is in our own heart. But, you are right about not knowing compassion until you have experienced loss. May you find peace and comfort. May we all.
Laura Lee <lcml69@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, July 23, 2007 4:16 PM CDT
I had a dream about you last night that woke me up. So I stayed up a while and prayed for you. Maybe that was God's kick in the pants to me that you needed prayer at 3:30am!!! I wanted you to know that I'm still checking in and thinking of you lots. I would love to see you sometime when you're down this way. Amy
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Monday, July 23, 2007 10:39 AM CDT
Carol, Your entries never fail to make me really stop and think about all the blessings in life that we take for granted. My prayers are with you always but especially during what must be an unimaginable difficult time. I am so glad you have kept this site going. It seems in this busy life, we (I) never have enough time to speak to and spend time with all the people I want to. I do however have to tell you that you are terribly wrong about being a woman of great faith. I doubt any of us at one time or another have not questioned our faith or the love of our God. The fact that you continue to study His word and pray to Him, as well as share His love in your life (even if at times you don't feel it) only proves that you are a woman of GREAT faith. Don't ever doubt that. Our Lord understands and forgives us when we have doubts, especially when we have experienced the most painful trials of life. I say this with so much love for you, my dear friend. I am so proud of where you are in this journey,you continue to AMAZE me, don't sell yourself short. You have handled yourself beautifully, I doubt I could have done the same. Your girls are remarkable, such a great job with Alex's Lemonade. I hope to see you soon. Take care and remember to praise Him in this storm.
Love you, Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
- Saturday, July 21, 2007 3:14 PM CDT
Been out of town, the country in fact, and I just had to get on here as soon as we returned (1am pst) I am so proud of your honesty and your willingness to share your pain. You are such a strong person, Carol, believe it or not, you are. Your babies are proud of you-all 5 of them!! You can be whomever you want to, and feel whatever you want to and they will never feel anything less for you than pride and compassion. Dale is a saint as well. Try not to worry about the unknowns so much and just be in the moment---close to those who love you and whom you love.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Saturday, July 21, 2007 3:11 AM CDT
Carol, Just wanted you to know that I have had your family in my thoughts and prayers this week. My heart goes out to you all.
Michelle Roberts <michelle_roberts123@yahoo.com>
bowling gree, ky usa - Saturday, July 21, 2007 2:03 AM CDT
Keeping all of you so very close to my heart....
Kim Magnan <k_magnan@hotmail.com>
Plt Prairie, WI - Friday, July 20, 2007 9:05 PM CDT
Remembering Randon... Sending love and hugs to all of you... Surgery was a success and I am fixator free.
Kristi
- Friday, July 20, 2007 4:12 PM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted you to know you've been in my thoughts and prayers all week. Hope to see you soon.
Love,
Amy
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, July 20, 2007 11:46 AM CDT
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers,
Dorine McNary
WIlliston, ND - Friday, July 20, 2007 10:55 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I came to Reid and Randon's site today to check on you and see how you were. As always you write so truthfully and I feel as if I am reading the words from my own heart. Although I am not able to put them into type as eloquently as you. Please know that I think about you everyday and I find that although we share a similiar path in life, I still feel as though I am at a loss for words to say. It is an unspoken connection that I am very aware that no words could ever truly "help"
Please know that I think about you so often.
Kyla
Mother of an Angel
Kyla Byard/ky/logan <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 20, 2007 10:35 AM CDT
Thinking of you at this more difficult time. I check in regularly.
Love and prayers
Diane
Ajustralia, - Friday, July 20, 2007 7:13 AM CDT
Happy birthday sweet beautiful Randon! Carol, just want to let you know that y'all are in our hearts and prayers tonight. With love,God Bless.
Denise Riley <rileyd5@comcast.net>
Pittsburgh, PA - Friday, July 20, 2007 1:22 AM CDT
I know it's late and I meant to sign earlier, but time got away from me.
I just wanted you to know that you are in my prayers. My heart breaks for you and Dale. I am at a loss for words right now, but I wanted to let you know that I have thought about you today and prayed for peace & a joy that comes only from our Heavenly Father.
I love you Carol and want you to know that I am here for you.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thankful for you............... <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 9:39 PM CDT
To my dearest Carol,
Sorry I put "one year in heaven", I got the dates mixed up... sorry, you'll have to excuse me, I'm losing it.
Praying today you truly felt "held"...
Love you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying for you always................, - Thursday, July 19, 2007 9:06 PM CDT
Carol,
Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you today. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 8:23 PM CDT
Thinking of you on this tough day! I cannot imagine how hard this day is for you! Praying for peace.
Lori <the7rohrbachs@verizon.net>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 8:02 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
You are in my thoughts and prayers today more than ever. I know words do nothing to ease your pain, but I hope knowing how many lives your precious sons touched and continue to touch helps lighten the load a little.
Dear Randon,
Happy Birthday, sweetie! I am sure you and Reid are partying like only those in Heaven can. Thank God, we will all be celebrating one day together.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 7:09 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Randon... I know the Angels must be throwing you a fabulous party in heaven.
Carol, your post today touched me, as always. Every entry is so honest and I really admire that about you. I've been praying for you a lot today... I know it has to be hard.
I'll be checking in again soon.
Renee & Kennedy
Care Pages.com
site name: KennedyGarcia
Renee Garcia <CAmommy2KJ@aol.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 6:59 PM CDT
Carol,
Thinking of you & your family today.
Kelley Burton
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, July 19, 2007 6:01 PM CDT
Carol~ I have been thinking about you all so much this week. I know you have been through more than most of us could bare. And I know that it must be so difficult reliving all of the stress and emotional days that you endured. Your boys are so beautiful and I loved seeing little Randon's picture today. He is such a dumpling. I know he is having a fantastic party today with his big brother. And I bet it's a fun one!!! I am SURE that one day you all will be reunited in a wonderful heavenly moment!!!! It will be a great day. I contitue to think about you and your sweet family. Enjoy these final summer days. Love-Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Thursday, July 19, 2007 5:29 PM CDT
Happy Birthday Little Randon. You are loved by so many!
The England family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, ky - Thursday, July 19, 2007 5:12 PM CDT
Happy Birthday sweet Randon!! You are loved so much by so many! And you have the BEST MOM and DAD in the world and those sisters aren't too bad either!!!! It's hard to believe you are a year old!! We all miss you and love you! Carol, what a great tribute to Reid and Randon your writings are and I love it that you share exactly what you are feeling and you don't sugarcoat it. I think you do amazing and you shouldn't beat yourself up for the feelings you have of bitterness and envy, etc. For what you have been through, I think those feelings are normal and I know you want them to go away and I wish I could take them away for you, but we both know that those kinds of wounds are so hard to heal because we love our children so much!! They are our lives! I hope that July 19th can become a less heartbreaking day each year that passes with sweet memories of Randon always there!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 5:05 PM CDT
Thinking of you and your family today and always. You said it best when you said, you're not moving on, but carrying on. We will be here for you as long as you keep journaling. May you be blessed today and always.
Happy Birthday sweet Randon.
Praying & Believing-
Zhohn Dupont <z_dupont@hotmail.com>
Simmesport, LA USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 5:03 PM CDT
Dear Carol and family,
I have been reading your journal for just about a year now. I find your strengh and courage amazing. Happy Birthday to sweet Randon.
Aly
Spanish Fork, UT - Thursday, July 19, 2007 4:53 PM CDT
I can't believe it has been a year since you had sweet Randon. Happy Birthday sweet boy, you were an amazing baby. You were loved and are loved so.
Your entry said it all, thanks for sharing. I wish I had words of comfort but there are none. You have such a compassionate heart and you are right...your boys have helped you build that.
I am rambling now. I just wanted you to know that we have thought of you all week as today approached. I know everyday is such a challenge but today must be extra hard. We love all of you so much. Praying for your heart to be wrapped in comfort today.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Tell the girls Isaiah says he loves them!, - Thursday, July 19, 2007 2:00 PM CDT
Hi Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese!!
Happy Birthday to Random.Random i haven't met you yet.And i have heard a lot wonderful stories about you from your mommy.And i really hoping that everyone in the Miller Family have a wonderful day.And i am also thinking of you,Dale and the Miller Girls today too.And i just wish i could give you,Dale and the Miller Girls some hugs right now.And i will always be thinking of you Carol,Dale and the Miller Girls everyday.And i will always keeping my prayers on you Carol,Dale and The Miller Girls.Carol i am always here for you,Dale and the Miller Girls and the rest of the Miller Family and The Speakman Family if you need any thing from me.God Bless Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and The Miller Family,The Speakman Family.And I Love You Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the Miller Family and the Speakman family very much forever and always forever.
Love from your sweet,lovable friend forever and always forever
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A. - Thursday, July 19, 2007 1:33 PM CDT
Happy Birthday dear Randon!
Just had to sign in and let you all know that you are on my mind and in my heart.
So, I keep typing and deleting..so I will just leave it as is....please know that I think of you often and pray that God grants you peace and comfort!
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Thursday, July 19, 2007 1:16 PM CDT
Hey Carol, I don't really have words or comfort. I'm praying both for you and your beautiful family today. And wanted you to know we are remembering Randon today.
Amanda Montgomery <amanda.montgomery@wku.edu>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 1:14 PM CDT
Still praying for your family and remembering sweet Randon
Ann Kelly Parkhurst <prkhrjo6@aol.com>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 12:15 AM CDT
Thinking of you today!
Love and prayers,
Carol Stice
Carol Stice
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 12:05 AM CDT
Randon, sweet beautiful Randon...
Carol, I'm praying that today the sweetest memories of Randon fill your heart and mind.
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom
Megan Nielsen
USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 11:46 AM CDT
Praying for you today and everyday.
Jennifer <jenniferburgett@msn.com>
Rockfield, KY - Thursday, July 19, 2007 11:21 AM CDT
Happy Birthday to sweet baby Randon....thinking of you and praying for you today!
Susan/Angel_wings <amdg31@yahoo.com>
Mequon, WI USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 11:18 AM CDT
Hello Miller Family - Just wanted to say a big "Happy Birthday" to sweet Randon and let you all know that you are in our hearts and prayers. May the Lord shower you with His love and gentle comfort and may you rest in His hands! We love you all!
The Browns - Travis, Sherry, Chase and Cameron
Sherry Brown <sbrown@fruit.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 11:15 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
Happy Birthday to sweet Randon. Know that you, Dale and the girls are always in my prayers.
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, July 19, 2007 11:01 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I wish I had great words of wisdom that would take away your pain. There are none. I do know that a Mother's love is very special, second only to God's love for us. Just know that my thoughts and prayers are with you at all times and I feel your sadness today.
Remembering Randon
Shirley C, Smalling <shirley273@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 10:47 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Randon! While I don't know your family that well, they have certainly had a big impact on my life. I think about you and your brother often. You have taught me to be more thankful for my blessings, and to cherish each day that I am given. My thoughts and prayers are with your Mommy, Daddy and sisters today as they remember and celebrate your life.
Leigh Ann Edwards <APoohFan514321@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, July 19, 2007 10:02 AM CDT
Carol,
What a touching entry!! I know today will be very hard (to put it mildly), but then I know that every day is probably hard! Your words captured it all...you're so eloquent. I've already been praying for you today (as I still do most days), and praying for the peace that Mrs. Sams spoke of on Sunday at church. I hope God will give you some peace and consolation today in the midst of such sad reminders, and of a birthday that should have been celebrated today, not mourned. I do wish a very special birthday to Randon, up with the angels and precious big brother Reid. Randon, you impacted my life so much more than you ever got to know, and your family is incredible. I hope you're able to see down from heaven just how wonderful they are and how they love each other, how they love everyone, and how so very much they loved you and your brother.
Carol, I love you all and I'm here for you!
Love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, July 19, 2007 8:48 AM CDT
Praying for you and yours today.
Jenny Leger
North Richland Hills, TX - Thursday, July 19, 2007 8:32 AM CDT
Dear Carol, thinking of you today, with love. Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, July 19, 2007 7:56 AM CDT
Dear Miller Family,
We are thinking of you always but with special prayers today.
Sincerely,
The Frantz Family
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, July 19, 2007 7:37 AM CDT
I have visited your site many times but never signed. If I could put my feelings into words, it would read just like your entry. I too miss my angels more than I ever imagined possible. The pain, the hurt, the guilt, the devastation is at times unbearable. Knowing that this life that we live without our babies will go fast is what gets me through my days. I go to bed at night thinking, "one less day until I hold them again".
I wish for peace in your heart.
Shannon Olson
Mommy to Angels Drew&McKenna
www.caringbridge.org/mn/drewolson
Shannon Olson <shannonolson914@yahoo.com>
Lakeville, MN USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 7:28 AM CDT
Happy Birthday, little boy! We sure did love you while you were here, and we still love you and talk about you and your brother all the time. We all look forward to the day when we can hold you and give you all the love we want to right at this very moment.
Carol, my heart breaks for you and Dale today, and I don't have any words of wisdom to share. Please just know that we love you and are still praying. Take care,
Jamie, Paul, M, K, T, & T
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Thursday, July 19, 2007 7:09 AM CDT
Hey Sweet Carol.
My heart aches for you, as I cannot imagine what my first "June 23" will be for me. :( Like precious Randon's, Miller Grace's birth was traumatic and not a fun memory for me, really. I think I'll focus on June 28 more though, as that was the day my girl flew to Heaven. I'll be praying that you are able to focus on the TRUTH that Randon is in HEAVEN now. I know it doesn't change anything, doesn't make you all better, none of that. But let it give you hope for today. Give your mind the peace of knowing that ugly disease has lost its grip on your boys forever. I love your heart and I pray that it is protected fiercely today. Thank you for sharing sweet Randon with us and for telling us all about him. Any time that you want to talk about either of your boys, know I am here, and there is absolutely nothing that makes me uncomfortable about talking about your sweet sons. They're as real as your daughters and if you didn't talk about them, I'd be worried. ;) Know you are loved and bathed in prayer today... by a heart that is just beginning to understand.
Emily Cassetty www.caringbridge.org/visit/millergracecassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, July 19, 2007 1:52 AM CDT
What a beautiful and honest entry. I hope that you will always feel comfortable coming to these pages to talk about your boys. We are all here because we want to be here for you! I will be praying extra hard for you on the birthday of your beautiful son, and I will keep coming here to read your words. Thank you for sharing them with all of us.
www.caringbridge.org/visit/dianemarie
sarah <sarahr531@yahoo.com>
ma - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 9:23 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
You never cease to amaze me with your honesty and ability to express your heartfelt feelings so well. Only one who has walked in your shoes truly knows the heartache you endure every day. I'm so thankful for Randon's life because of the multitude of lessons so many have learned from him. Also, because his birth brought you into my life and wow have you ever taught me many lessons! I admire you so much. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow as I can only imagine how hard it will be. However, I'll be thanking God for Randon's life and for you. May God surround you with peace.
Much love,
Lisa Leachman
Lisa Leachman <LisaL43@aol.com>
Bowling Green , KY - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 9:19 PM CDT
I've never signed your guestbook before, but I have read it faithfully and followed your journey of pain the only way I possibly can. I have no great words of comfort, no profound wisdom. I only want you to know that the struggles of your heart have resonated with me. I pray for you, for your husband, for your daughters. For as long as you continue your journal, I will be reading and listening.
Sarah Lagermann <sarah.lagermann@warren.kyschools.us>
- Wednesday, July 18, 2007 8:37 PM CDT
To my dearest Carol,
Sitting over here on the other side of the couch today. Thanks for allowing us to "be there" for you.
First off, I want to wish Randon a great big "Happy One Year In Heaven" Birthday. Yes, it could not be any better for him, and for this I'm glad.
Now for you and your family, quite another story...
It's funny many of the things you shared today I read about in a great book my ladies Study is doing now. It's Called "Lies Women Believe", by Nancy De Moss. Great book. It's written like a journal Eve may have written about her life, her marriage and sons. Great.
The chapter I read this morning was on "Circumstances". Without even knowing it you said some of the same things expressed in this book.
You said, "How can we know compassion if we don't know suffering?" wow... Nancy wrote something like that:
"The truth is, your pain....be it physical, memories of abuse, loss of a child, etc, (she lists many) will go on for a LONG time. But it will not last "forever". It may go on for all of your life down here on earth, BUT EVEN A LIFETIME is not FOREVER! A moment or two from now, (in the light of eternity) when we are in the presence of the Lord, everything that has taken place in this life will be just a breath...
OK, I know this may not sound comforting for now, but Carol, I know deep down in your broken heart, you KNOW THIS. This is the hope that gets you out of bed each day.
I'm so sorry for all you have had to endure. I hate the evil that is in this world. But I know one day, this will all be made right.
I'd like to end with 3 promises. I know you know these, but I just want to put them out there for you to read again. I pray they bring some sort of comfort as you wake up tomorrow and remember the details of that day one year ago.
Randon was truly a "GIFT", and although his life was so short, it impacted so many. He had a purpose, and God had a plan.
Sending more love then words can express,
Susan
Rom.8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
PS 30:5 "For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning."
2 Corth. 4:16 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is ETERNAL..."
Praying for that "joy" that will come one morning,
Susan
PS Sorry if this feeble attempt to comfort you caused more pain.
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Someone who love you and your family...................................., - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 6:13 PM CDT
Many thoughts & prayers with you this week!! Your raw emotion is so touching. I wish there was something I could do or say to make things ok for you. Just know there are many out here that care about you even though we don't know you personally.
Lisa
Saginaw, MI - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 2:26 PM CDT
Happy Heavenly Birthday Randon!!!
Millie <matflorida@yahoo.com>
Ponce Inlet, FL - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 11:20 AM CDT
May hugs of support and comfort surround you this day and always.
Susan Watson <susanwatson1999@hotmail.com>
St. Paul, MN - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 10:45 AM CDT
Carol,
Once again your raw emotion and the honesty in your words bring tears to my eyes. I am in awe of a woman that has endured as much as you and can still be so candid with her feelings. I admire you for the honest woman that you are and for sharing your innermost feelings with us. Your family has been in my prayers today and will especially be tomorrow. Happy Birthday Randon!
Jenny Leger
North Richland Hills, TX - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 8:34 AM CDT
Thinking of you today and tomorrow.
Kate
Edmunston, New Brunswick Canada - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 7:10 AM CDT
Hi Miller Family, I will be thinking about you tomorrow. Thank you so much for continuing your journaling. I can't find the right things to say right now. I have typed and typed and erased and erased. Nothing seems right so I will just say, "Happy Birthday to you...Happy Birthday to you..Happy Birthday Dear Randon...Happy Birthday to you." I bet Lana is reading you a book right now! Love, Paula
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 4:53 AM CDT
Hi Carol! Just checking in to see how you and your family are doing these days. Hope all is well. I pray for you guys all the time. I haven't been on the site in a while. I am truely sorry to hear of your distress regarding Randon's birthday. My heart breaks for you. I pray for the utmost peace and comfort for you. I was looking through your past journal entries and saw the pics from Reese's Jojo birthday. That is so funny, my twins just had their 3rd birthday in June and had the same cake! I did the same thing you did and showed the people at the bakery the picture from the Birthday Express catalog. I cheaped out though and put some Jojo figurines they all ready had on top the cake. Anyway, please know and take heart that many people are thinking and praying for you every day! God Bless.
Denise Riley <rileyd5@comcast.net>
Pittsburgh, Pa - Wednesday, July 18, 2007 0:16 AM CDT
Love you dearly Carol and am so thankful for our friendship. I'm also very thankful for Randon's sweet life that has forever impacted mine.
Just wanted you to know that I am still here and think of you often. Sending you a big hug and much love right now.
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, July 17, 2007 11:59 PM CDT
I will be thinking of you this week.
I also have to congratulate you and your family on the lemonade stands. Mallory and I were very honored to participate in the Sutherland Farms stand. It was such a great experience. Thank you Riley for bringing this wonderful event to Bowling Green.
Caroline Hudson <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, July 17, 2007 10:14 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
Lifting you all up as you go through this week. May the Lord Bless and Keep You All.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, July 17, 2007 9:54 PM CDT
Sending up prayers for you and your family this week. Congratulations on the super success of the lemonade stands. A friend of mine from work was visiting his parents in Bowling Green that weekend--I showed him Riley's site and he said he'd stop by a stand. He said they saw lemonade stands everywhere they went that Saturday & that the lemonade was great! I know you're so proud of your daughter--what an outstanding job.
Amy
Amy Wood <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Tuesday, July 17, 2007 9:50 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
All I can say is a great big WOW!! You all have worked so HARD and it sure paid off!
I'm so blessed and honored to know you Carol and your family. I feel like we are relatives now.
I'll continue to keep you in prayer. When you hurt, I hurt.
Sending a big hug now...
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, La - Sunday, July 15, 2007 7:22 PM CDT
I'm so thankful for the success of the lemonade stands! How awesome to see your girls making such a difference. :) Thank you for signing our guestbook. I, too, think of you often and would love to do lunch soon. In fact, Jennifer Sweeney and I were talking about asking you to do that very soon. Thank you for your continued prayers. Though I wish none of you parents knew this awful pain, I cannot help but smile a little when I think of all our precious babies playing with Jesus. I cannot wait to see that firsthand. Until then, know I am lifting you up and am eager to meet the lady I feel like I know so well. (My husband Matt will likely smile and call you an "Internet friend" and shake his head in confusion... wonder if that still applies when you live in the same town?) Anyway, thanks again just for being you.
Emily Cassetty www.caringbridge.org/visit/millergracecassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, July 14, 2007 11:03 AM CDT
Carol,
Have I told you lately how wonderful you are?! It takes so much time and effort to take on the lemonade stand and you are amazing. You and Riley contributed so much and I know your heart was in it. I am so proud of Riley, she made me cry when I heard her on the Christian Radio Station. Love you lots!
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, July 10, 2007 8:20 AM CDT
Congrats on the amazing fundraising! You are all the best! I can't wait to see how next year's goes for you, Riley.
Kristi
- Tuesday, July 10, 2007 6:54 AM CDT
Riley--we are so amazed--your parents and friends must be so proud of you!!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Monday, July 9, 2007 9:28 PM CDT
Wow, congratulations on your amazing fundraising! I'd love to hear your secret, my daughter is holding her first Alex's Lemonade Stand this summer! Great work, you should be very proud!!!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/dianemarie
www.firstgiving.com/laurar
sarah <sarahr531@yahoo.com>
ma - Sunday, July 8, 2007 5:22 PM CDT
Carol & Riley & Reagan (and the rest of the clan)
Man o Man! hard work pays off. I'm so proud you of all you do. I know every dime goes a long way in finding THE CURE! All our love
The England family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Sunday, July 8, 2007 5:11 PM CDT
Carol,
I have you on my heart today and wanted to sign the guestbook to tell you that I am thinking of you. I hope Dale is feeling better and that all the stands were a HUGE succes this year but then again, just what Riley has raised, over $1000 is successful. Love to you all.
Kristi
- Sunday, July 8, 2007 9:20 AM CDT
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE DOING ALEX'S LEMONADE STANDS TODAY! I KNOW TWO SPECIAL BABY BOYS REID AND RANDON, ALEX, MY FRIEND RACHAEL, AND SO MANY OTHER SWEET ANGELS SMILING DOWN AT ALL YOU ARE DOING! Riley, you and your friends are all amazing sweetheart and I am so proud of you for doing all of this and you give your mom, dad, Reese, Reagan, Nicki, Timmy and Isaiah a glass of lemonade on me today, the donation will come later on. Just know that I am praying for a successful and wonderful day for you all who are doing it. I wish I could be there but I will do my best to be there next year as long as I don't have another fixator. I can't wait to read about it when your mommy updates.
Kristi
- Saturday, July 7, 2007 9:06 AM CDT
IT'S 07/07 SO I KNOW WHAT YOU WILL BE DOING! I was BEYOND thrilled Riley when I saw how much money you are up to now and have faith that you will hit beyond your goal but even if you don't, you still did an amazing job. Keep up the good work.
Kristi
- Saturday, July 7, 2007 2:06 AM CDT
WAY TO GO RILEY!!!
Carol,
You must be must be so PROUD of your daughter! She is just amazing, and has a heart of gold. I love the way she continues to honor her little brothers. Reid and Randon will forever be a part of all your girl's lives.
Hope this weekend is a total success.
I'll be back to check in,
Susan
(I'm busting at the seams about our little secret Carol...)
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, La - Friday, July 6, 2007 8:39 PM CDT
We will be thinking of you all this weekend. Hope everything goes well and that you surpass all goals. Next year, we are going to have to do a better job planning our vacation. We are missing out on so much this next week here in B.G. Can't wait to hear the report when we return.
Love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, July 5, 2007 11:24 PM CDT
Riley,
You sounded good on the radio this morning. I was walking on the treadmill not even really listening and then I heard a familiar voice. How neat. Needless to say I jumped off and turned it up a bit and finished my walk listening to you. You did a wonderful job!!!! Good luck this weekend!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, July 5, 2007 9:29 PM CDT
I support the lemonade stands and I even purchased the "lemonade bracelet" that was designed and inspired by Alex. They sell it on QVC and it's a beautiful expression of support for such a worthy cause. Congrats on your great effort!
Karen Patterson <Anchormom@comcast.net>
New Castle, DE - Wednesday, July 4, 2007 6:10 PM CDT
Happy 4th of July! Good luck with the Lemonade Stands! My daughter is getting ready to have her first stand this summer - www.firstgiving.com/laurar. Hope everyone is doing well and you have a wonderful holiday!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/dianemarie
sarah
ma - Wednesday, July 4, 2007 5:03 PM CDT
Isaiah says happy 4th to the Millers.
Love you guys!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Wednesday, July 4, 2007 5:02 PM CDT
Thanks for posting where we could listen to Riley's radio interview. That was awesome!
Riley, you are so eloquent. You are absolutely amazing!
Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, July 4, 2007 12:47 AM CDT
Riley - you did such a wonderful job on your TV spots... You go girl. The article in the DN was great too - loved the picture..
Enjoy your 4th.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, July 4, 2007 9:19 AM CDT
Hope you have a wonderful 4th of July with just plenty of time together at home!
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, July 3, 2007 10:40 PM CDT
Thinking of you...
and hoping you have a Happy 4th of July!
Janet DeRosier
Brooklyn Center, MN - Tuesday, July 3, 2007 1:40 PM CDT
OK I was just looking at the Daily News web page and what do I see but 3 amazing girls!!!! Way to go girls you all are amazing. Your brothers would be so proud and I know your mom and dad are.
Think of you daily.....oh and I could use an IV dose of mochas also!!!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
call when you have time. I was wanting to get together with you in the next few weeks. , - Saturday, June 30, 2007 4:22 PM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted to let you know that I think of you and the boys often.
Tina & Angel Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Saturday, June 30, 2007 8:57 AM CDT
Carol, we are so glad that Dale is doing well. Your Mom keeps us updated on the family. I just finished listening to Riley's interview on the radio, what a great young lady you have. It was great. We continue to keep you and yours in our prayers and maybe we will see each other at your folks house soon. What would we all do without them?
Love to you all, The Clifton Folks
Betty and DanSpoerl <bettyjane@tds.net>
Clifton, Tn - Thursday, June 28, 2007 8:20 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
I was so shocked to read about Dale...poor guy! I'm glad he's better now. Now you will have to take it easy with the man with one kidney! Ha Ha...
I'm just so proud of Riley, once again she's stepping up to the plate for such a good cause. One thing for sure, God has used her little brothers to help her reach out to others.
Really I believe this will affect all your girls for the rest of their lives, in a POSITIVE way, just watch and see.
Glad you are keeping busy. Can't wait to hear how things went with the Lemonade Stand!
Sending lots of hugs from a very hot and humid Louisiana,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, La - Wednesday, June 27, 2007 9:28 PM CDT
Hi Carol--- glad Dale is better--you know, it is ok for everything to center around YOU. YOU are the mama--the one no one else can identify with or experience first hand what growing and anticipating a baby is about. So do what you need to and don't feel shamed or guilty about it.
I LOVED the Waltons!! I always wanted to live on Walton's Mt. Maybe one day a baby will appear on your doorstep. Maybe one day you will foster a baby or adopt one. The family/site I found you from is doing that right now. Maybe, maybe, maybe.....Whatever you are doing right now is exactly what you should be doing (I am not talking dishes and laundry, either.) Good luck to Riley!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, June 27, 2007 11:04 AM CDT
Thinking of you all... Once again, your entry touched my heart especially when you talked about baby things and not wanting to pack them away. I think of you all so much and wonder how you are all doing. I know Reese isn't that far behind in age as Darien is and Darien will be four tomorrow and I had her this weekend and we went to the Newport Aquarium and it was a blast, yes, even with a fixator on crutches.
Riley, you are doing an amazing thing with the lemonade stands and I am glad you are doing so much to help kids with cancer. You are amazing and I hope you know that. Keep on battling on to raise awareness. There was a stand here not long ago.
Kristi
- Wednesday, June 27, 2007 11:03 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I just got caught up on your entries, and I made the mistake of looking at the 99 balloons video for Elliott while here at work. What a fool I was to think I could make it thru that without crying buckets!! How touching, and what a miracle his family was and is!! Yes we should treasure every day more, but the hard part is often doing that. We don't know how much time we have, but we should live it to the fullest. Thanks for passing this along!
I hope Dale is feeling much better. I hope to see you soon too. I guess Reagan had a great time at camp. We had a great time at Mother/Daughter Overnight Camp, and I wish you could have been with us. Other than the occasional Porter-Potty smell in our dorm, we made it great. Turns out that Jonathan Creek is really on a lake, wow, who knew?!! Beautiful view and lots of fun!
I miss you lots!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, June 26, 2007 9:22 AM CDT
sure hope dale is better by now...
mrs pam
- Monday, June 25, 2007 10:06 AM CDT
Hoping things have getting better with Hubby by now.
What precious babies you have
MOA--Mommy to an Angel
with Gods Prayers and Blessings
www.caringbridge.org/tn/kayla
www.caringbridge.org/tn/mimmie
Creative Spiritz
April & Angel Mikayla and Family <babymsmom04@yahoo.com>
TN USA - Sunday, June 24, 2007 7:01 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope everyone is well by now. Joe had a bout with Kidney stones back in the fall. It was not pretty and I hope Dale is much better. I hope your girls are doing well and Reagan should have all kinds of things to tell you when she returns. Have a great weekend and I pray there is no unexpected excitement. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, June 22, 2007 9:53 AM CDT
Just stopping by to let you know that your entire family remains in our prayers.
The Frieden Family <lmflaw@hotmail.com>
Carmel, In USA - Thursday, June 21, 2007 2:32 PM CDT
Carol, I hope Dale is feeling much better soon! I had a kidney stone when I was pregnant with Keeghan and let me tell you, I think I prefer child birth! LOL I do hope he had a good Father's Day.
I hope Reagan is enjoying camp, church camp was always the highlight of my summer! After I graduated I started going as a counselor for the little kids camp... man I miss it!
Anyway, I just wanted to check in. Glad you got your computer fixed! I'm with you, I don't like change. I stressed so much when we had to get a new computer a couple years ago... my husband just rolls his eyes at me because he always wants the newest stuff right off the line! Oh well! LOL
Take care,
Renee
(and Kassidy, Kameron, Kennedy & Keeghan)
Renee Garcia <CAmommy2KJ@aol.com>
Clarksville, TN Currently at Vandy - Thursday, June 21, 2007 0:09 AM CDT
Hope Dale is feeling better! We still think of you guys often! Your family is such an inspiration.
I thought I would let you know that we are getting an external hard drive to back up all our stuff on our computer. It was suggested to us and will make me feel safer to not have to worry if our computer crashed. Just an idea I thought I would pass along.
Have a great summer!!!
Kyna Petersen <daleandkyna@comcast.net>
Murfreesboro, TN - Wednesday, June 20, 2007 3:01 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
What excitement you have had! I hope Dale is feeling better. NYC was fabulous...you have to try and go!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Tuesday, June 19, 2007 7:05 PM CDT
I continue to check in on your family and pray daily for your strength and comfort. I am asking for prayers for another family today. They lost their sweet girl to the seizure monster last night but are donating her organs at 9pm tonight. Another family will receive the gift of life, through Jess's liver and kidneys. Please pray for their strength and comfort. www.caringbridge.org/nd/jessmarie
Maria Gibbons <riau2@aol.com / www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie>
MN - Tuesday, June 19, 2007 4:46 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I haven't written in awhile but I am still thinking about and praying for you. I hope Reagan has had a good time at camp. Madeline and I are going to the overnight camp this weekend and then Makenzie and I are going in July. The summer has flown by.
Take care and I hope to see you soon.
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, June 19, 2007 1:16 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Hope you guys had a nice Father's Day weekend. I wanted to write and tell you to buy your hubby a NEW COMPUTER for Father's Day for downstairs!!
OK, OK, men give women some crazy gifts too that THEY benefit from. Enough said...
I was so blessed you enjoyed that video. I knew you would be able to identify so much. Sorry for the tears, and yes, I shed many myself.
Just "thinking about, reading your journals, and watching my mom go through losing a child has truly affected my life."
I continue to pray for you each day.
Hope you are keeping cool,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, HOT LOUISIANA - Tuesday, June 19, 2007 1:03 PM CDT
Carol
thinking of you today
mrs pam
- Tuesday, June 19, 2007 10:11 AM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted you to know that your family is still very much in my prayers and I try to read your journal as often as possible; today, however, I took a moment to stop and go to the website: 99 Balloons; I guess I don't have to tell you that I now need to re-do my makeup. Thanks for sharing and also thank you for allowing everyone to share in your family's life. I pray that you can feel better and find some comfort. I can't say that I know how you feel but please know that prayers are always there for you. Your friend,
Sherri Cox-Doughty <blossomchicks@bellsouth.net>
- Tuesday, June 19, 2007 9:35 AM CDT
Carol,
You continue to be an inspriation to me. You write in a way so that I can see your raw emotions and the heartache you feel. I pray that those of us who have not experienced such pain could respond in a way that would make you feel better and not worse. I can only imagine that I would feel the exact same way. I still pray for you constantly, but I will also pray for those of us who can't even imagine what you are going through so that we may be even more understanding and accepting of what you have had to endure and even more so on how you will continue to deal. I would give anything to be able to ease your pain. Please know that so many of us will always be praying for you, even when it seems like it is too much for you to pray.
Penny <pennywarwick77@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, Ky - Tuesday, June 19, 2007 7:32 AM CDT
We just dropped by to check on you today.
Jodi and McKayla
Jodi Phelan <jodiphelan@hotmail.com>
Sherwood Park, AB Canada - Monday, June 18, 2007 1:30 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you all had a wonderful Father's day. Please know that my prayers and thoughts are with you. I pray today for your comfort. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, June 18, 2007 8:32 AM CDT
Hi Carol: I'm a frequent visitor but infrequent writer. I know that nobody can understand or help get to that awful emptiness you must feel -- I think that only prayer can even come close. So I just want you to know that I do pray for you and your family every day, and have been praying for you for a long time. You don't have to be more of a hero than you already are. I think, being a mother myself, that just getting through any given day would be a miracle for me if I had been through what you have been through. Just facing each day with courage and faith is something I don't know if I would be able to muster up in the midst of so much pain. You are a hero every single day. I'm sure you must feel isolated somehow, and for that I am so sorry -- I just pray and pray for you. I have a close friend that lost a baby boy at age 7 months. He had a liver disease and was on the transplant list and in the hospital for his whole life -- never went home -- and the day came that a donor organ was located -- and of course his parents thought their lifetime of dreams for him would come true. Well he died on the table while receiving his new liver. My friend describes how absolutely alone she felt for a long time (this was 5 years ago) -- and that she even found out that she and her husband grieved in entirely different ways, which she also resented a bit. I know from her that life goes on, but that you are never the same. I also know from her that sometimes she could not even pray -- too much anger -- I'm sure you can understand. So if you ever have one of those "I can't even pray" days, know that I am praying for you. You have been to a place that no other mother can even imagine. Twice. And have maintained a prayerful life and courage and faith. I know, we all do what we have to do. But for you -- well I just think you're a really really great mom. And what your girls are learning from you each day is absolutely priceless. Perserverance, faith, courage, love -- these are things you could talk about til you're blue -- but that they might not learn nearly as well as how they learn it now -- they see you living these principles daily and you know they are watching. They are very lucky to have you, Carol. Hold your head high and don't let anyone's expectations of you get in your way. Thank you for sharing your life in this journal. It has inspired me on a daily basis to be a better mom. I know nothing can comfort you -- but I just want you to know that I think you're fantastic. The world is a little brighter from having your two beautiful boys in it -- and from having you to share them with the rest of us.
Jane Jacobs <jane.jacobs@yahoo.com>
Sun Prairie, WI - Monday, June 18, 2007 8:24 AM CDT
Hello Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese!!
I just want to wish a very Happy Father's Day to Dale,Mr.Miller and Mr.Speakman.And i just hope that Dale,Mr.Miller and Mr.Speakman have a wonderful Father's Day.And i have been thinking of Dale,Mr.Miller and Mr.Speakman on this Father's Day weekend.And i just hope that everyone else doing great and staying healthy in 2007.And i have always been thinking all of you so much lately.And i am still praying to Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller Families and The Speakman family.Carol,Dale and the Miller Families and Speakman family please stay healthy in 2007.Take Care and God Bless you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller Families and The Speakman family.And all my love to the Miller families and the Speakman Family.
Love from sweet,lovable friend forever and always forever
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A. - Sunday, June 17, 2007 10:17 PM CDT
Happy Father's Day Dale. Thinking of you,Carol, Reese, Riley, Reagan, Reid and Randon.
Kate
- Sunday, June 17, 2007 11:36 AM CDT
Dale, wishing you a great day with your children. All 5 of them are with you--you know that.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, June 17, 2007 0:12 AM CDT
The Gift
For Grieving Fathers on Fathers Day
Here I sit and stare....
out the window of our home..,
On this Fathers day...
Feeling so very alone.
Oh, how I wish....
My child was still here....
Bringing me a Fathers day gift...
Even an ugly tie would be so nice this year.
But...my child has gone on to Heaven...
And is playing on streets of gold...
Listening to Jesus tell stories...
of so many years ago.
And today I find myself thinking...
about the meaning of a gift....
For a gift is something given to you...
that makes you smile and gives you a lift.
But...many times we receive a gift....
And then lose it or misplace it some day...
But we never forget the gift...
For the memories remain tucked away.
I think I have concluded...
On this Fathers day....
That since a gift is yours once given...
It can never be taken away.
And the most precious gift...that I was given....
To me ...so many years ago....
Was the day my child entered this world....
And touched my life, heart, and soul.
So on this Fathers day....
I thank the Lord for the most precious gift of mine....
My child in Heaven...treasured times and memories....
That will remain with me...my entire lifetime.
For a Gift is a gift...
And my most precious gift....remains in my heart...
And just then...a rainbow appears out my window....
reminding me....that my gift and heaven are not so far
Kristi
- Saturday, June 16, 2007 9:12 PM CDT
Thinking of you guys today. I was out and about and came across an Alex's Lemonade Stand and of course, stopped and was able to support the cause. I hope your planning for yours is going well, Riley.
Kristi
- Saturday, June 16, 2007 8:31 PM CDT
Thinking of you and your family. I can't imganie what you all went through. Hope you are having a great weekend and have wonderful fathers day. www.freewebs.com/scrfanatic
Kathy Brock's Mom <blueturtle511@aol.com>
Mifflintown, Pa Usa - Saturday, June 16, 2007 6:23 PM CDT
Carol,
It was so nice to get an update on you and your dear family. So many people write so eloquantly as well as you. I wish I had the words to make your pain cease. You truly are an amazing individual. Your gifts are many that you give to the rest of us who read your entries. The 99 balloons was very heart touching and I appreciate you sharing it with us. But as stated prior, your feelings about Randon's birth and all the pain and joy that was endured at the same time was even more heart wrenching. As always, thank you for finding it within you to share your most personal feelings with those you dont even know but who think so fondly of you. You are such a dear person. I hope your future brings brighter days for you. I am so glad you have your three girls who keep you busy. Please know you and your family are praid for daily. I read other journal entries but for some reason, you are the only one I ever comment to. You truly spread the word of God in all you do. May you have a wonderful summer and may God bless you and your family, Maria
Maria Newcomb <ganashman@aol.ciom>
Battleboro, NC - Friday, June 15, 2007 5:46 PM CDT
Carol,
Having a computer upstairs makes it less used than downstairs, eh? I learned that after I moved, I have mine upstairs because I figured it would keep me off as much and guess what? It worked, sometimes crawling up the stairs is just not appealing at all and I think of all I can do downstairs.
Writing about Randon and how you felt brought many tears to my eyes, I remember reading all you went through. The fact that I had surgery right before Randon's death and the fact that it didn't hit me until I was out of the drug induced fog. I say it often but you and your family touch and continue to touch my heart. Randon was a special part of my life in a sense, I know I never got to meet him, to even see him but that son of yours was a fighter that I can only dream of being. The courage that you, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese showed was that of a family determined to give one of two sweet boys one fair shot at life.
Not a moment goes by when I get in my little I can't do this phase with my fixator and what I am enduring that I realize it is NOTHING and that Randon fought a battle worse than I have ever faced and he will always be an inspiration to me.
Randon was celebrated, Randon was loved, Randon may not have lived 99 days but Randon lived and because of Randon MANY lives have been impacted and have been changed. Even now, I think many people celebrate Randon's memory as well as Reid's.
You may have endured a great deal and feel like you cheated the girls out of you because of being sick from the pregnancy and then being in the hospital with Randon but in reality, Carol, they understood. You did what you had to do to and they know that. You are an amazing person and an even more amazing mother to your girls and to your angel sons.
Kristi
- Thursday, June 14, 2007 10:58 PM CDT
So glad to read an update. I am glad you were able to share more about Randon's birth....I hope it helps you but also helps others understand.
Know that we think of you always. Love you guys,
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, June 14, 2007 8:22 AM CDT
Dear Carol-
I loved the link. Wow it was so powerful in how that sweet Dad was able to see all the good in everything. And how they managed to cope with such a devastating outlook?!?!?!?! You always continue to reveal good things to me, even if it's while digging up difficult feelings of my own. I think that you help us apprieciate all of the joy that comes our way. Because we certainly know that life is not perfect and we all have the bad. But there is a way that you present these issues that make me see things more clearly. Thank you for all that you share. You are amazing!! And to add you are the PERFECT MOM/WIFE/FRIEND for your family and friends! You are the best.
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Thursday, June 14, 2007 7:24 AM CDT
Carol--your update brought way more tears than 99 balloons. I so wish I could say something to numb your pain, and soothe your anger. I guess it is not the time and maybe getting it out is for the best. You do no wrong in reminiscing those days--they are your memories-- of a bittersweet time in your life.
~Know what it is like to have a travelling hubby--mine has been commuting to SF for 6 years!! Every Monday and back on Thursdays. Hopefully this is the last year he has to do it.
Enjoy each moment, as I know you do, and enjoy the summer--and all it brings. Remember the majority of the year the weather stinks!!
Take Care
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 3:55 PM CDT
I just wanted to thank you for sharing the link for "99 balloons". That was so touching and made me realize that everyday should be a celebration. Forget the laundry today... I'm taking my kids to do something fun! Thanks for sharing your heart.
Jennifer <lingerfeltfamily@yahoo.com>
Woodstock, GA - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 2:16 PM CDT
To my precious Carol,
As always, your updates touch me deeply, cause me to think, to be more grateful, and fill me with HOPE.
No matter what you share, I know in your heart you love God more then anything, it's just such a struggle. I will never be able to even "imagine", nor would I want to...
I'm so blessed you are keeping busy, that is a good thing. And you've got 3 beautiful girls to keep you that way. I've come to feel like they are my "nieces" now. (which I could borrow them!)
I love each one's personality, they are all so different and have so much to offer to this world. They are truly a reflection of YOU.
I hesitated to send you that video, but I was so deeply touched by it, I said, why not, Carol has been there, she knows...
Keep holing on to your HOPE, God will do the rest,
Sending more love then words can describe,
Susan
PS About your computer. There has got to be a way to save your stuff. I know a real computer geek, I could send you her number, well here is her blog, trust me, if anything can be redeemed SHE CAN DO IT!! Her name is Kathleen, hey you'll enjoy her writings, she's great!
http://stevenbell.blogspot.com/
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 10:41 AM CDT
Carol, so good to hear from you and as always, you remind me how precious each day is. It's hard to believe it's been almost a year since Randon was born! I can only imagine that each day is still so hard for you and I wish I could make it better! I'm so glad you are having some one-on-one time with Reese!! She has to be fun!! The summer is flying by and I have one about to turn 16!! Watch out on the roads!! Miss you guys and think about you every day!! Love always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 8:55 AM CDT
Hi Carol--just wanted to let you know that I continue to think of you every day and always keep you in my prayers! Of course my instinct is to want to fix how you feel and make everything better, but unfortunately, know I can't do that. You have taught me so much on how to live and how to treat each day and my family--I don't get to tell you often enough, but THANK YOU! I'm glad you're getting some extra time with Reese--sometimes those younger one's get shuffled around to the older one's activities, and finding one on one time is hard--Abbye and I spent the afternoon hanging out yesterday, and had so much fun--it reminded me to cherish every day and moment! Glad you're enjoying your summer with the girls, but I agree that it's going way too quickly! Love you always, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 8:46 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I know I always say this, but THANKS for your honesty. You never put any "fronts" on for these updates, and that is why we all love you. You are just so real!
Your pain, though, does break my heart. I don't know have any answers or words, so I won't even try. I will just say that you are always on my heart and in my prayers. As a mother, you have had a big influence on me...amazing since we have never "met." You remind me to make everyday with my family a special one. You have also taught me to be thankful for the ordinary, mundane, "normal" days.
I hope your beautiful girls are having a wonderful summer. Unfortunately, the summer is going by too fast for us, too. (Did they know teachers don't want to go back to school either?) =) I have been home since Thanksgiving but will be going back to school in August-it will be a bittersweet return. (Thankfully, I have my Granny to watch my girls!)
Well, I have turned this into a not-so-short story, so I'll end here. Have a wonderful day with Reese. I'm sure she will make it quite "interesting." =)
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, June 13, 2007 8:22 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
Just wanted you to know that I think of you often and am always wishing there was somthing more I could do. Thank you for sharing the link, what a beautiful tribute to a precious life. May we all do a better job of celebrating each day and cherishing the moments with our loved ones. I loved the reminder that we are only separated by the time we have here on earth. My continual prayer is that the time I have left will some how impact this world and be glorifying to our Father. You continue to help me be a better mother and I hope a better person.
Continue to relish this summer. How quickly it is passing. I hope our paths will cross before it is over.
Much love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, June 13, 2007 1:15 AM CDT
Praying for you...
Janet DeRosier
Brooklyn Center, MN - Tuesday, June 12, 2007 11:57 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope Riley made it back home safe and sound. I pray you are doing well. My Love to all
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, June 12, 2007 10:15 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope Riley has had a great time this week in Florida and I hope you have not worried yourself sick. The older they get, the more control we seem to lose and that is not a bad thing, but a growing thing, but it is still hard on Mom's. I hope you have a great weekend. thinking of you and praying for all of you.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, June 8, 2007 4:44 PM CDT
thinking of you
mrs pam
St Louis, - Friday, June 8, 2007 1:03 PM CDT
Hello Friend!!!!
It was sooooo good to see you on Saturday. I wish you could have gone to the receiption with us so we could have had more time to talk. I didn't feel like we got catch up at all with all of the people around. We are going to have to make time for that. Life will be a little calmer for us until the middle of July. Dad has surgery on the 16th and then Isaiah's is a week later. Needless to say we will be at Vandy a lot then.
Well this could get long with all I have to say and I don't need to write a book. I just didn't know if you had email back yet or not or I would have emailed! I hope that you and the girls are having a great week. It has been so hot. Maybe the girls can come and play one day with us. I will try to call you today or tomorrow, I just know you are busy and don't want to bug you. Talk to you soon, Love ya......
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Oh, Isaiah has been eating atleast a half of thing of yogurt a day. I told him that his Carol would be so proud of him!!!!!, - Friday, June 8, 2007 11:07 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I pray this has been a good week for you. I hope you, Dale and the girls are enjoying each day. Love to you
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, June 7, 2007 1:56 PM CDT
Carol,
Thinking of you this morning. I pray you are having a great summer with your girls. Are you surviving with Riley in Florida? I talked with a friend yesterday and her son was going to D.C. with grandparents -- for a month!!
We're doing great now that summer is here. It was a crazy last week of school -- Jared got a concussion at soccer practice so he missed 1/2 of his last week of school. Then the day he went back Alyssa shut her thumb in the van door requiring an ER visit. Our doctor said she hoped that we got our summer injuries taken care and that she wouldn't be seeing us again for awhile.
I've been thinking of journeying to B.G. to take the kids to Beach Bend. We've never been before. Do you think I could do it by myself with all three kids? If we head your way, I'll give you a call.
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, June 7, 2007 7:38 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
Yeah...for fixed computers!! I'm so glad you are up and running, and staying busy with all those beautiful GIRLS!
I hope Riley is having a great time, and she BETTER be missing mom, "BIG TIME". Hopefully you will get a few pictures out of this whole event!
Think of you daily Carol, and pray "one of these days" I'll have the honor of finally meeting you and your awesome family. Heck, I feel like family now.
Keep holding on to HOPE my friend, I'm always here,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Wednesday, June 6, 2007 7:51 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Thank you for taking the time to sign Zack's guest book. This morning I was getting ready to go play tennis (rain, rain go away, no tennis today!) and I thought about you. When I checked the guest book today, I found your note. Hmmm... I understand how hard it is to see babies, it is hard for me to see nine year old boys, and I teach third grade! Today I had to buy a birthday gift for my nephew,who will be nine. I had to go into the boy's section in Old Navy, not easy. Then I had to find a Cleveland Cavs shirt, again not easy. Two years ago for Christmas, we took Zack to a Cavs game and the organization treated him like a king. (10.00 nose bleed seats turned into floor seats where they come to you and take your order for food!) Do you think the people in Dick's Sporting Goods think I am crazy because I was crying when I went through the check-out? Oh well. Take care.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Tuesday, June 5, 2007 7:01 PM CDT
Dear Carol, glad to know that everything is going well so far this summer. Your girls will keep you busy. Have a good day. Love to all
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, June 5, 2007 1:11 PM CDT
Carol: Exactly why I have not turned into a techy. I still do my checkbook by hand. :)
Take Care.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, June 3, 2007 11:37 AM CDT
Carol: Exactly why I have not turned into a techy. I still do my checkbook by hand. :)
Take Care.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, June 3, 2007 11:37 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, June 1, 2007 4:41 PM CDT
hi Carol---WOW!! I just read the entry below me--wow. I am hoping you are enjoying the summertime, and forgetting about all of us here in cyberland while your computer is crashed. I think of you all the time.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, May 31, 2007 10:42 PM CDT
Carol,
I found Reid's and Randon's page from someone else's guestbook you signed... I don't even remember who's now. For the past 3 1/2 days I have been reading their story, your story, from beginning to end. I have been reading about your wonderful girls. Reagan just cracks me up! I found myself laughing at your stories about her all the time, but I felt SO bad for her when she threw up on the bus!! I know she and my oldest daughter, Kassidy, would get along so well. Riley is so beautiful and what a great heart she has! I wish I could come by in July and get some lemonade! It's people like her that will change our world. I have to say too, that I got my ears pierced when I was 3 and passed out cold. It happened again in 5th grade when we went to the hospital on a field trip and they were demonstrating how to insert an IV on a stuffed bear. I never stood a chance! LOL Reese is just adorable! I was excited to see she was born the day after Riley's birthday. My 2 oldest are a day apart as well. I also had tons of "R" names running through my head during both Reese and Randon's pregnancies, I love naming babies!!!
I have laughed and cried with each of your entries. I had to keep reminding myself that I wasn't reading a novel, that this happened, that these precious boys lived, and that the heartache was real. It REALLY hit me a few times though... when you mentioned Dr. Shankar and Dr. Kofer... they are my daughter's doctors too... and then I saw the pictures of your family with Randon so obviously taken in a room on 6A. Here we sit right now with the same rocking chair, the same crib... not quite the same heartache, but close.
After Randon's birth announcement I found myself anxiously reading, living his days with you and even though I already knew how his story ended, I just had this hope when he was doing so well. It's hard to explain. My heart broke for your entire family several times... but your entry about telling Riley and Reagan that it was the last time they would see Randon just left me devastated. It's so, so unfair that anyone has to go through losing someone this way... especially a child... especially a baby brother... especially TWO baby brothers.
I've talked to some nurses up here who remember you, Dr. Shankar is gone now as of last month, but there's another Bowling Green family up here who knows you too and can't say enough about what an amazing family you have.
*sigh* Anyway, after feeling like I've invaded your family for the last few days and feeling like I know you guys better than some of my own friends and family, I decided I had to write and let you know that your boys' story is not forgotten. They are not forgotten and their lives were precious. I can't wait to meet them in heaven someday.
Thank you for keeping this page going, for sharing your heart, for being real with your feelings. I know it helps you to journal, but I am sure it helps so many others who may be going through similar experiences.
I pray you all have a wonderful summer, and tell Riley to stop deleting pictures off your camera! She's going to want those someday! :o)
With all my heart and prayers,
Renee
Mommy to Kassidy, Kameron, Kennedy, and Keeghan
(yes we got stuck on one letter too! LOL)
Renee Garcia <CAmommy2KJ@aol.com>
Clarksville, TN (currently at Vandy) - Wednesday, May 30, 2007 12:41 AM CDT
Hi there, just checking in. Out of school already? Please enjoy every moment with the kids this summer. We are getting ready for our annual Alex's Lemonade Stand. www.caringbridge.org/nj/samigray. Wishing you the best with yours!
Sandy Gray <gray56@optonline.net>
Bridgewater, Nj USA - Tuesday, May 29, 2007 1:31 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I realized you probably haven't gotten any of my emails...sorry to hear of your computer catastrophy!! Why on earth do they always put foreigners with bad English in charge of "Customer Service/Support"??? I've often wondered that myself?! So oftentimes I want to say, "the first thing you can do for me is to put someone with good English on the line!"
In my emails, I tried to convey to you my sympathy and prayer for you last Thursday. I hope you made it thru the day alright. I'm sure it's hard to not let your mind go back to your huge loss five years ago. It seems like yesterday that I was in line to see you at Eastwood just uncontrollably sobbing and Pat Allen trying to help me pull it together before I got up to hug you and Dale. You actually comforted me, but then don't you always. I'll never forget the way Reid impacted my life! Sophie was only three weeks old when we grieved over Reid's passing, and I think I cherished her even more knowing that she was such an undeserved gift. While I felt guilty that I had a healthy baby so undeservedly, I still hugged her a bit more tightly knowing that she could be gone as quickly. You have helped make my days count more abundantly, and I love you all!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, May 29, 2007 1:28 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and I pray everything is going well. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, May 29, 2007 8:32 AM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted you to know I think of you often and say a little prayer for your day to have some peace.
I also wanted to know that the brownie troop Keena Smart and I lead are going to help with a lemonade stand. I'll be thinking of your beautiful boys.
Love and prayers,
Michelle Hull <thehullfamily@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Sunday, May 27, 2007 11:54 PM CDT
On Memorial Day weekend, I am remembering two sweet baby boys, Reid and Randon, who have forever changed my life and who's memory will always impact me. And remember a family so FULL of God's love with three amazing girls who continue to amaze me. You are all a blessing in my life.
Kristi
- Sunday, May 27, 2007 8:21 PM CDT
On Memorial Day weekend, I am remembering two sweet baby boys, Reid and Randon, who have forever changed my life and who's memory will always impact me. And remember a family so FULL of God's love with three amazing girls who continue to amaze me. You are all a blessing in my life.
Kristi
- Sunday, May 27, 2007 8:21 PM CDT
Hello Carol.Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese
Happy Memorial Day weekend to all of The Miller Family.And i really hope that Miller Family have a wonderful and a fun Memorial Day weekend.And i have been thinking all of you on this past week.I lit up candle for the Miller family yesterday at Church.And i said a little prayers to all of you the Miller Family,The Speakman Family on Memeorial Day weekend.And i am always thinking of you Carol,Dale and the Miller girls a lot during this past week.And i will always be thinking of all of you everyday and night.And i just had a Birthday this past week too.And i am really hoping and praying everyone in the Miller Family,The Speakman Family is healthy and well on Memorial Day weekend and everyday.And Carol,Dale and the Miller girls please stay well on Memorial Day weekend and everyday.Happy Memorial Day weekend To Miller Family,Speakman Family.And I Love You Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese very much.
Love from your friend forever and always forever
Peggy Shannon
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A. - Sunday, May 27, 2007 11:58 AM CDT
We have thought of you so much today. I hope today has gone as well as it could have. We love all of you!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:55 PM CDT
I have thought about the Miller family all day. You are in my prayers.
Bernadette Mullen <bernadette.mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:31 PM CDT
Dale & Carol,
I'm sitting here thinking of you again. Whew, I can't imagine the thoughts that go through your minds on days like today, and I know that anniversaries of any kind must be very excruciating. We are all so thrilled that Reid and Randon were here for a moment, and so sorry that they had to leave quickly. Just know that, although we don't post all the time, Paul and I (and March) check this site every day. We are always coming across things that make us think of you--especially on days like today & 9/23. Paul and March are gone to a guitar clinic, and Texas and Tallant are sleeping. So, I'm heading to bed with Kell to look at his yearbook and say prayers. We'll be sure and send up some special prayers for you & the girls. And those sweet boys. Love, J (& P, M, K, T, & T)
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 9:35 PM CDT
Praying for your family today and always. I'm sure it does not seem like it has been five years since Reid was physically here with you, but just know that you will be together again someday.
Many blessings-
Zhohn Dupont <z_dupont@hotmail.com>
simmesport, LA USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:52 PM CDT
Dear Millers,
It was quite by accident that I came to your site, and on this day. I read your ENTIRE journal, and feel that you are an AMAZING family, full of love and courage. As a mom and and RN, I sympathize with you in your journey, but know that I would not have done anything differently, either. God's Peace and Blessings.
Elaine <ejohns@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, Oh - Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:32 PM CDT
Dear Carol and Family,
You and Reid are on my mind. I am so very sorry about how hard the last 5 years have been for you. I know that for the rest of your life here on Earth, you will greatly miss your little boys. I pray that more and more blessings and joy will come your way to make your wait of being reunited with Reid and Randon easier. Though I don't post often, I do read your entries often. You seem like such a loving and awesome mom. God bless you!
Love,
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:16 PM CDT
My morning walk provided quiet time for prayer for you all today. It's hard to believe that it has been 5 years. Even as I type it, it doesn't feel right. Hoping you find some joy today knowing how many lives your sweet Reid touched in such a short time.
The England family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Thursday, May 24, 2007 6:04 PM CDT
Hi Carol--thinking of you all today and finding it hard to believe it's been 5 years already--I don't know where the time goes! Reese looked absolutely adorable dressed up as a princess the other day--she was so proud of her pink nails:) Hoping that today brings happy memories of sweet Reid and that you all have a fun weekend together--Love, The Good's
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 4:04 PM CDT
Praying for you and your sweet family today
Jennifer <jennimail3@juno.com>
Shreveport, La USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 3:22 PM CDT
Remembering Reid today and as always.
Dawn Pickens <dpickens_42@yahoo.com>
Beaumont, Tx - Thursday, May 24, 2007 2:30 PM CDT
Hey Carol and Miller family-
I'm thinking and praying for you all. And Carol I'm so sorry that I forgot to say bye at Polka Dot Parlor...I don't know what happened! Please give Reagan a big huge from me. Love you all, Amanda
Amanda Montgomery <amanda.montgomery@wku.edu>
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 2:29 PM CDT
Today, as is the case with most days, I pray for
all of you; as I know the memories are bittersweet.
God Bless You.
angela conklin a friend thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
Graham, NC - Thursday, May 24, 2007 11:42 AM CDT
Praying extra hard for you today.
Gena Gooding <kirbytax@bellsouth.net>
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 11:21 AM CDT
Hey Carol and family,
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you all today. I pray that as your think about your precious angel Reid that your hearts will be filled with joy and peace.
Praying for you,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thinking of you............................ <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 11:03 AM CDT
Thinking of you today and everyday. I hope you and the girls enjoy your summer.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:59 AM CDT
Dear Carol, and family,
Keeping you all and your two beautiful boys in our thoughts and prayers. May this day be filled with God's love and strength.
Your friends,
Keith, Gabby, Matthew, Jamie, and Samantha
Gabby Springs <gabbysprings@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, Ky usa - Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:58 AM CDT
Thinking of you on this day. May hugs of comfort surround you.
Susan Watson <susanwatson1999@hotmail.com>
St. Paul, MN - Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:30 AM CDT
Carol, Dale and all you little Millers...
Thinking of you all today and remembering precious Reid. Praying for continued comfort and God's blessings.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, May 24, 2007 10:29 AM CDT
Carol
I check your site often but do not post. I came in after Randon's birth. I wanted to let you know I will say a special prayer for Reid today, he was an angel here on earth even for a short time. Thinking of you and your family.
Liz S.
Rahway, NJ - Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:40 AM CDT
Thinking of you today and praying for each of you. : )
May you rest in His hands!
Love, The Browns
Sherry Brown <sbrown@fruit.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:18 AM CDT
Keeping all the Miller's in my thoughts and prayers on this difficult day. May those two special Angels, shine down on you today and all days.
Patty
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:00 AM CDT
Thinking of all of you.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, May 24, 2007 7:42 AM CDT
Thinking of you this morning and will be saying extra prayers for all of you today.
Love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, May 24, 2007 7:34 AM CDT
Carol,
I'm sending up some extra prayers for you today. Though I never met Reid, he will always have a special place in my heart. May God hold you close today and give you comfort.
Love and hugs,
Erika <jmannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, May 24, 2007 6:31 AM CDT
Dear Miller Family,
Please know we are all thinking of you and praying for you today. I never got to meet Reid but it seems like yesterday that you were writing about him and we were waiting day by day for updates. Thank you for continuing to share your stories with us and allowing us to be a part of their precious lives. Love, Paula
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, May 24, 2007 0:00 AM CDT
I will be thinking about you and your family tomorrow.
I remember receiving the call form Linda Pedigo that you were in labor with Reid and at the hospital. I was so excited! I am positive that December day was one of the happiest days of your life. I just wanted to share that happy memory I have of Reid's birth story.
Caroline <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 10:30 PM CDT
Thinking of your adorable sweetie and thankful that you "share" him with us!
You guys will be in my prayers tomorrow-even more than usual.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 9:30 PM CDT
Remembering Reid with love and thinking of you all.
Kristi
- Wednesday, May 23, 2007 8:52 PM CDT
To my dearest Carol,
You've been missed, greatly. Praying that computer will be fixed, S-O-O-N!
Well tomorrow is a day that was written in heaven long before the birth of your precious Reid. A day HE was set free, and his precious little body was made whole.
On this side of heaven...a day of mourning, shock and disbelief. One day I pray, and I truly BELIEVE you will understand.
Meanwhile, I'm just so grateful, although his time here was short, "according to our time", it had PURPOSE, it had MEANING, and this precious little boy captured the hearts of so many, mine included.
Love you Carol, sending so much love your way today,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 5:21 PM CDT
Dale, Carol, and family,
Just thought I would drop you a line and let you know that we are thinking about you all this week. Reid was such a blessing to everyone. Thank you for giving us the gift of knowing him. Just know you are all in our prayers. Take Care.
Love,
The Walkers
PS. You lucky people getting to be on summer break already. Our school does not end until May 31st.
The Walkers - Zola, Jeff, Logan and Landon <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 5:19 PM CDT
You don't know me, but I found your site through some other's. I check on you almost daily and pray for you every day.
I'll be praying specifically for your families strength and Peace that only our Father in Heaven can provide tomorrow.
I hope I never know what so many of the CaringBridge families have gone through in the loss of your sweet children, but I want you to know that your perserverance is a true testament. These families that I have come to "know" and pray for have honestly changed my life for the better. I am a much better wife, mom, friend, person etc.
May you rest in the knowledge that you have the opportunity to see your sons again someday.
Missy <missy_lou68@hotmail.com>
Branson, MO USA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 5:03 PM CDT
Hey Millers,
Just want you to know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you all the time--especially tomorrow!
Love,
Janet
Janet Best <best3sons@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 4:21 PM CDT
Carol-Just wanted to stop by and tell you that I was thinking about you. I hope that you have peace as you go through the rest of this week!
Mary-John Carmon <mjtbear568@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 4:12 PM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and your family, as I know this is a difficult week every year. I hope tomorrow you do not feel alone, as you will be lifted in prayer by many. Your precious angels are sooo lucky to have you, Dale, and the girls as their family.
With love,
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 12:13 AM CDT
Just thinking about you this week and how it seems you have way too many hard days, and it's not fair! but still praying God will give you peace tomorrow! Reid and Randon were special little boys and we will never forget them!!The pictures of Riley and Reese were adorable! The two princesses, one more mature and sophisticated, the other a little more dramatic and so hysterical!! And Reagan balances them out!! Hope you have a great summer! Hope we run into you!! Love always, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, May 23, 2007 10:01 AM CDT
I check every day to see if you have your computer working yet! Love you and praying for you every day.
Uncle Ed
Ed Clancy <edclancy297@comcast.net>
Hermitage, tn - Tuesday, May 22, 2007 7:19 PM CDT
Just thinking of you today as I was driving Meghan home from the dr. and realized this week could be dufficult. Take care.
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Tuesday, May 22, 2007 5:30 PM CDT
Thinking of you today.
Tina & Angel Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Tuesday, May 22, 2007 12:32 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
That Reese of yours is truly a jewel:) I love the creativity she has when she dresses up. I am sure the neighbors get a kick out of watching her helping Dale dressed like that.
Today when I came to the page, I couldn't help but to smile when I saw Reid's sweet face. I am thinking of the boys a great deal lately. I hope your Mother's Day had blessings to it. You are an amazing mother to 5 beautiful children and I hope you always remember that.
Kristi
- Monday, May 21, 2007 6:07 PM CDT
Hi Carol.
It has been a while since I've signed, but I still check on you guys often. I am sure the last couple of weeks of school are keeping you really busy!
I hope all is well. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers all of the time!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Monday, May 21, 2007 1:11 PM CDT
Carol,
I'm thinking of you and I'll be saying some extra prayers for you this week.
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, May 21, 2007 9:11 AM CDT
Thought of you when I read this and wanted to share with you.
Cuddled in Heaven
We had so little time to share,
Too soon, I had to leave.
I know how much you love me,
I know how much you grieve.
I know how sharp your pain is,
I feel the aching in your hearts.
My life so quickly ended
Before it barely had a start.
I remember how you held me,
And kissed my face and hands,
You cuddled me so gently;
But, God had other plans.
I was your perfect angel,
From God you knew I came,
Suddenly he called me home again,
And now God holds my hand.
I know you’ll always miss me,
I understand your pain is hard to bear.
Just remember that I’m in heaven
And we’ll see each other there.
So smile when you think of me
and wipe away all of your tears
I’m cuddled now in heaven
By our family members here.
I’m waiting here in heaven,
And on the day we meet again.
I’ll be the first to smile and greet you,
When God calls you home to him.
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Sunday, May 20, 2007 12:36 AM CDT
Hi Carol~
Hope all is well is B.G. And that you all are enjoying a wonderful weekend. It has been spectacular weather here so I am sure the same there. I know the girls are keeping you booked up with end of year activities and such. The new pictures of your girls are great! I can only imagine the lawn mower scene.....hystarical!! Have fun~~love,Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Saturday, May 19, 2007 2:06 PM CDT
Dear Carol, I pray you have had a good week. Love to you and everyone
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, May 18, 2007 8:15 AM CDT
Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you today!!
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, May 16, 2007 10:23 AM CDT
I have been keeping up with your guestbook since Randon was born. Your journal has offered me such support and comfort in knowing that my questions and feelings are legitimate. I, too am grieving. (Now almost 2 years since my mother died, but still hurts the same) I have attempted to contact you, but never know what to say. But then again, what do you say? There is nothing to say to offer real comfort. All I can say is that you and your family are always in my prayers and thoughts. I hope that maybe one day, I may offer you some sort of comfort like your journal has given to me. God Bless.
Laura Lee <LcmL69@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, May 15, 2007 4:23 PM CDT
I read this and thought of you. Happy Belated Mother's Day to you!
Paying tribute to heroines of motherhood
Published 5/12/02
The Indianapolis Star
Some Mothers Get Babies With Something More
written by: Lori Borgman, Columnist and Speaker
My friend is expecting her first child. People keep asking what she wants.
She smiles demurely, shakes her head and gives the answer mothers have
given throughout the pages of time. She says it doesn't matter whether it's
a boy or a girl. She just wants it to have ten fingers and ten toes.
Of course, that's what she says. That's what mothers have always said.
Mothers lie.
Truth be told, every mother wants a whole lot more. Every mother wants a
perfectly healthy baby with a round head, rosebud lips, button nose,
beautiful eyes and satin skin.
Every mother wants a baby so gorgeous that people will pity the Gerber baby
for being flat-out ugly.
Every mother wants a baby that will roll over, sit up and take those first
steps right on schedule (according to the baby development chart on page
57, column two). Every mother wants a baby that can see, hear, run, jump
and fire neurons by the billions. She wants a kid that can smack the ball
out of the park and do toe points that are the envy of the entire ballet
class.
Call it greed if you want, but we mothers want what we want.
Some mothers get babies with something more.
Some mothers get babies with conditions they can't pronounce, a spine that
didn't fuse, a missing chromosome or a palette that didn't close. Most of
those mothers can remember the time, the place, the shoes they were wearing
and the color of the walls in the small, suffocating room where the doctor
uttered the words that took their breath away. It felt like recess in the
fourth grade when you didn't see the kick ball coming and it knocked the
wind clean out of you.
Some mothers leave the hospital with a healthy bundle, then, months, even
years later, take him in for a routine visit, or schedule her for a well
check, and crash head first into a brick wall as they bear the brunt of
devastating news. It can't be possible! That doesn't run in our family. Can
this really be happening in our lifetime?
I am a woman who watches the Olympics for the sheer thrill of seeing finely
sculpted bodies. It's not a lust thing; it's a wondrous thing. The athletes
appear as specimens without flaw - rippling muscles with nary an ounce of
flab or fat, virtual powerhouses of strength with lungs and limbs working
in perfect harmony. Then the athlete walks over to a tote bag, rustles through the contents and pulls out an inhaler.
As I've told my own kids, be it on the way to physical therapy after a
third knee surgery, or on a trip home from an echo cardiogram, there's no
such thing as a perfect body. Everybody will bear something at some time or another. Maybe the affliction will be apparent to curious eyes, or maybe it will be unseen, quietly
treated with trips to the doctor, medication or surgery.
The health
problems our children have experienced have been minimal and manageable, so
I watch with keen interest and great admiration the mothers of children
with serious disabilities, and wonder how they do it.
Frankly, sometimes you mothers scare me. How you lift that child in and out
of a wheelchair 20 times a day. How you monitor tests, track medications,
regulate diet and serve as the gatekeeper to a hundred specialists
yammering in your ear. I wonder how you endure the cliches and the
platitudes, well-intentioned souls explaining how God is at work when
you've occasionally questioned if God is on strike. I even wonder how you
endure schmaltzy pieces like this one -- saluting you, painting you as hero
and saint, when you know you're ordinary.
You snap, you bark, you bite. You didn't volunteer for this. You didn't
jump up and down in the motherhood line yelling, "Choose me, God! Choose
me! I've got what it takes." You're a woman who doesn't have time to step
back and put things in perspective, so, please, let me do it for you.
From where I sit, you're way ahead of the pack. You've developed the
strength of a draft horse while holding onto the delicacy of a daffodil.
You have a heart that melts like chocolate in a glove box in July,
carefully counter-balanced against the stubbornness of an Ozark mule.
You can be warm and tender one minute, and when circumstances require intense
and aggressive the next. You are the mother, advocate and protector of a
child with a disability. You're a neighbor, a friend, a stranger I pass at
the mall. You're the woman I sit next to at church, my cousin and my
sister-in-law. You're a woman who wanted ten fingers and ten toes, and got
something more.
You're a wonder.
Emily Cassetty
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, May 14, 2007 4:14 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Just wanted you to know that you've been on my mind, especially yesterday. I have really missed seeing you! I know yesterday must have been tough, but I prayed that Dale and your girls could lift your spirits! You're one of the most special moms I know, so I wish you a belated, "Happy Mothers Day!" I know that no mom could love her 5 children more than you have and do!!
I thought that Bro. Steve did a great job honoring Randon and Campbell yesterday in our service and in explaining that all lives have value and significance, no matter how short-lived they might be. I was very glad they chose to let the congregation reflect in a moment of silence or prayer about those loved ones no longer with us. I know that while yesterday was a happy day for many, it was also a very sad day for many too. My heart always aches for those, and hurts for those who've always wanted children but been unable to have them or those who've lost children or their mothers. Just a sad day for many, and nothing I can do really but extend my heart-filled sympathy and love I guess.
I hope we can get together soon, and I like you, can't believe this school year is about over. Where does the time go?? I know I'll have to make more of an effort to get the girls together with Reagan since we will be going to Plano School in the fall. I'm still mourning that, but it's a small thing I know, and they'll make new friends.
Have a good day today, and know that you're never far from my thoughts and prayers!
Love always,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Monday, May 14, 2007 10:05 AM CDT
Carol,
I can't tell you how much I have thought of you today. This morning was a beautiful tribute to Randon and Cambell. While it was emotional I just kept thinking of what a wonderful mother you were to him and to Reid. You are a wonderful mother. All of your 5 children have been so blessed by your love, guidance, understanding, and devotion to them. Love you lots!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Isaiah says you have been a wonderful second mother to him!!!, - Sunday, May 13, 2007 10:03 PM CDT
Happy Mother's Day Carol! You are never more than a thought away. I'm sure the girls and Dale showered you with their love today, and I know the boys are boasting about you in Heaven. All 5 of your children know how extremely lucky they are!!
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Sunday, May 13, 2007 8:50 PM CDT
Carol,
Thinking of you today and praying that you had a good mother's day.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Sunday, May 13, 2007 7:42 PM CDT
Happy Mother's Day to one of the best mothers in the world! Carol, I hope you had a blessed day with the girls. Love you lots,
Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Sunday, May 13, 2007 7:31 PM CDT
Thinking of you today, Carol, and wishing you comfort in knowing you are a wonderful mother 5x over.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, May 13, 2007 6:49 PM CDT
Thinking of you today!
Love,
Carol S.
Carol Stice <carolstice@windstream.net>
- Sunday, May 13, 2007 5:47 PM CDT
Carol:
Happy Mother's Day. Thinking special thoughts and prayers for you today.
Love,
Susan
Susan Kalb <kalbsusan@yahoo.com>
Redwood City, CA USA - Sunday, May 13, 2007 2:42 PM CDT
Thinking of and praying for you this day.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Sunday, May 13, 2007 12:22 AM CDT
I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day.
Carolne Hudson <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Saturday, May 12, 2007 9:50 PM CDT
Happy Mother's Day, Carol!!!
With love,
Shaun, Austin, and Dominic Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody , GA - Saturday, May 12, 2007 9:38 PM CDT
Happy Mother's Day, Carol. I will be thinking of you.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Saturday, May 12, 2007 5:59 PM CDT
Millers, you all are in our hearts, minds and prayers this weekend. Carol, you are an amazing Mother to 5 amazing children!
Jill E <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, - Saturday, May 12, 2007 12:55 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
Just wanted to wish you a Great Mothers Day!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, May 12, 2007 9:14 AM CDT
PS
Get that camera away from RILEY!!! (she reminds me of my daughter-in-law...she is famous for doing this too, and she is absolutely gorgeous...)
Love you!
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Saturday, May 12, 2007 7:24 AM CDT
To my dearest Carol,
Well, when I think of Mother's Day, I think of all the love and sacrifices that are made for our children, and also for all the love our parents had for us.
My mom is with Reid and Randon now. She loved children, so I would like to believe she is holding, cuddling and taking GOOD care of them now! But I know they won't even need that in Heaven, these little boys are soaring around, healed and whole!
I'm so grateful for the promise we will be together again, yep, it's says "in the twinkling of the eye"...now, it can't get any quicker then that!
Meanwhile, I pray you enjoy your day. You are such a GREAT mom, and a inspiration to so MANY!! Still waiting for that BOOK. I know it will take "time"...
Love you girlfriend,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Sending EXTRA big hugs this weekend..........................................., - Saturday, May 12, 2007 7:22 AM CDT
Carol..
I hope you have a Great Mother's Day! I know this day will be very hard for you. I can't even image the pain you are going throw. I have a 17 year old daughter and she is a Type I diebetic and just dealing with her with her Diebeties at times is very hard. I grown to love you and your family your girls are beautiful just like u are. Keep your head up high and believe.
Teresa Miller <teresa@centuryinspection.com>
Lewisville, Tx Denton - Friday, May 11, 2007 2:12 PM CDT
Carol: As Mother's Day approaches remember how much those boys will be beaming down on you and smiling their proud smiles for their momma. I can understand how it can be a hard day, yet THEY are celebrating YOU, so relish in that feeling. All 5 of your children are so so proud to have you and the boys will be right there with the girls.
I come to your site daily, more than once daily, and just hope for my own sake that you are busy and enjoying some springtime weather. I would like to believe that that is where you are and so I will until we hear from you again.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, May 10, 2007 2:55 PM CDT
I have read your story from beginning to end and I want you to know you are an inspiration to many. On this Mother's day, may you know you have touched the lives of 5 special, beautiful children, and in doing so you have touched the lives of many strangers. Thank you for teaching us what it means to be a mother.
Patty
PA - Wednesday, May 9, 2007 9:35 PM CDT
I am a donor in memory of Reid and Randon and in honor of your family.
Kristi
- Wednesday, May 9, 2007 5:20 PM CDT
Carol,
Just wanted to let you know that you have been on my mind. I will pray that Mother's Day goes well for you.
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Wednesday, May 9, 2007 3:35 PM CDT
Because of your note in your journal, I have registered to be a marrow donor.
For your gorgeous boys
KS - Tuesday, May 8, 2007 3:06 PM CDT
Be sure to give us details on the Lemonade Stands. We want to do one in our neighborhood.
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, May 8, 2007 2:39 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Loved our day at the park! The girls were precious!
Love and prayers to you today and forever my dear dear friend.
catherine w <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
- Monday, May 7, 2007 11:43 PM CDT
Carol..
I just want you to know you'll be in my thoughts and prayers on Sunday. I admire you more than you know. I was so happy to read the lemonade stand is coming back. Count Brooke in--she's asked me three times to ask you about it and I keep forgetting.
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, May 7, 2007 9:51 PM CDT
Hi Carol--what an amazing new song--it certainly describes the journey you're on--almost as if it was written just for you! I feel like we've been two ships passing in the night--I also am feeling that end of the year craziness! I'm trying to enjoy every minute, but at times feel like the minutes just fly by way too quickly--I think I am ready for summer too--as soon as the pool is open, we'll have to get together for a barbeque--take care and I will be thinking of you this week with Mother's Day approaching as I know it can be bittersweet--Love always--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, May 7, 2007 9:49 AM CDT
Dear Carol, praying for you and that maybe you are finding just a little bit of comfort today
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, May 7, 2007 9:01 AM CDT
Hi Carol! I hope that you guys are having a wonderful Sunday in B.G. like we are in Lexington. I am sure you are. Too bad that Derby Day wasn't today. Thinking of you all and hoping for an excellent week ahead. Summer is almost here! Take care and know that I continue to think of you and your sweet family. You always inspire me - Megan
:) xxxx
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Sunday, May 6, 2007 2:20 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you today...especially during church service this morning. Take care.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Sunday, May 6, 2007 12:19 AM CDT
As this Mother's Day approaches I know it will be hard. You have been such a wonderful mother to 5 children. Your girls still get to be blessed with you and your boys had you by their sides with you giving them your whole self. I will be praying for peace as it approaches.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
call when you have time!!!!, - Saturday, May 5, 2007 9:09 PM CDT
Carol,
You are one AMAZING woman and more importantly MOTHER! I admire your courage, honesty, love and ability to express your feelings so well. There is no counting the endless mothers you have influenced with your story and honesty in dealing with all you have been faced with. You are my hero, and I aspire to be half the mother that you are! Thinking of you often and still looking forward to lunch in the future.
Lisa Leachman <LisaL43@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, May 5, 2007 9:02 PM CDT
Dandelions From Heaven
Mothers Day is coming...and I wanted to send you a sign...
Something you can tell others..."Is from an angel of mine".
So I searched the Heavens high and low for that perfect thing..
And low and behold I found it....and a smile I hope it will bring.
So when you look to the Heavens...and see the yellow stars in the sky...
Just think of me...your angel... in the Heavens way up high...
And just imagine those stars...are dandelions up above...
Yes! Dandelions are also in Heaven...,which you know how much I love.
So on this Mothers Day... when you awake and feel blue...
You will notice those yellow stars...are no longer in view...
So just look to the meadows and the dandelions you see....
Are the ones I've tossed down this Mothers Day from me!
And when you find a dandelion that has turned from yellow to white...
You're supposed to make a wish...and then blow with all your might.
For you will be blowing kisses... to me in Heaven above....
And I will be catching them and blowing them back...sent with all my love.
Please know that I am with you...on this Mothers Day...
And also in the days ahead...God and I will never stray...
We will be with you in the morning...when you wake and see the sun..
We will be with you when you say your prayers...when the day is done.
For God and I will never be...very far from your side...
For I can now be everywhere.. .and God will be your guide...
So...remember when you see dandelions.. .its your guarantee...
That I am alway close to you....
For dandelions are free to roam.....now just like me.
Remembering Reid and Randon...
- Saturday, May 5, 2007 6:33 PM CDT
Thinking of you today as I so often do!
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, May 5, 2007 11:39 AM CDT
Hi Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese!!
I am still thinking all of you a lot.And i just hope thay everything in the Miller family is doing okay.And i was wondering how was your fun vacation in Florida last month.And i just hope that everyone in the Miller family had a wonderful time on your vacation in Florida last month.Carol i loved all of your pictures from your vacation in Florida.And i thoughts the girls looked very cute in their photo shots in your pictures from your Florida trip last month.And i am still praying for you Carol,Dale and the Miller Girls and the Spreakman family everyday and night.And Carol can you please tell Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and your Family the Speakman Family that i said hello to them from me.Love from your friend forever and always forever Peggy Shannon.
Take Care and God Bless all of you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the Miller Families and The Speakman family.And I Love You,Carol.Dale and the Miller Girls and the Miller Family and the Speakman family very much forever
p.s. Carol and the Miller Family i will promise that i will keep in touch with all of you.
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A - Friday, May 4, 2007 11:41 PM CDT
(((((((((CAROL))))))))))
Kristi
- Friday, May 4, 2007 11:22 PM CDT
Carol:
So great to hear from you!!! Do NOT be strong for others on YOUR day to relish in your 5 children. Go get pedicures with your mom, all the girls and you, and then come home and have Dale make you dinner!!!! It is a day for YOU--no need to be a big girl every day.
Speech over.
congrats to Riley, and so la di do!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, May 4, 2007 10:12 AM CDT
Carol, Praying for you today
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, May 4, 2007 8:07 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I have visited your site and followed your story and prayed faithfully for your family but haven't posted before. Your message today touched my heart again and I wanted to just add myself to a growing list of caring people who ache for you. As Christians we all struggle with why our prayers aren't answered, especially when we truly had faith that they would be. I wanted to pass on to you a message from Billy Graham that helped me get through a time of loss: "I am reminded of the biblical man named Job who lost everything. He couldn't help but ask why, and yet he never really received an answer. God's answer was in effect to say 'Look at Me'. Someday in heaven we may understand, but for people facing unexplainable suffering today, Jesus offers not explanations but Himself. He offers love...comfort...and peace."
I hope you don't mind me, someone you don't even know, sharing that with you but I wanted to reach out in some way to soothe your broken heart. You have beautiful daughters and are an amazing mother, I have learned from your strength as have so many others who visit here. When my son battled cancer I learned more about myself than when everything was going smoothly. I had days that my faith was strong and others when it was severely tested. Allow yourself that but I pray that you feel the comfort of Jesus wash over you in the moments you yearn for strength. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and take comfort knowing that people who don't even know you are lifting you up to Him.
Joni Sichting <jsichting7@aol.com>
Minnetonka, MN USA - Thursday, May 3, 2007 11:37 PM CDT
I am so sorry you have to endure this in your life. I am so sorry for your loss. I pray God meets you right where you are in your grief and gives you all that you need. He loves you all and is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Take care of yourself right now and give yourself permission to feel at that you feel. It;s valid and OK. You are a testimony and are touching my life. God is using this tragedy to help others in their walk with Him. Thank you for sharing your heart.
A Sister in Christ
- Thursday, May 3, 2007 8:35 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I am here caring about you and hurting with you. I do understand your anger at the idea that if you just pray and believe enough everything will turn out the way you want it to. Unfortunately, that is not always the case. Only God knows why what we want so bad is not meant to be. You don't need to be consoled, but allowed to feel grief and joy when you are feeling them. And be assured that just because you are feeling joy at times, that it does not mean, in any way, that you are over your grief. This is a pain that will not ever fully go away. You got to hold two wonderful miracles in your arms for too short a time! But you did get to hold them, even though it hurt beyond belief to let them go. Thank God you have three miracles to watch grow!! I hope and pray that they find the gene and that you are allowed to be part of the study. That will be formost in my prayers for you, that and for the worry to fade in to the background for now, until there are answers to wash it away. I wish you peace my friend!! And more Joyous moments than not.
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, GA - Thursday, May 3, 2007 7:24 AM CDT
Wanted to say hi! It seems like forever since I have talked with you. I know things are busy for you guys right now. Anyways I just wanted you to know that we think of you all often. Hope things are as good as they can be.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Tell the grils Isaiah says hi!!!!, - Wednesday, May 2, 2007 2:36 PM CDT
Dear Carol, Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you today.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, May 1, 2007 11:03 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I still come by and check on you and your family from time to time. I certainly can understand why your pain and grief is so great. You have endured so much with losing your two precious boys. My prayers are with you as you continue on without them and I will also be praying that you do find out answers as to "why this happened". I very much understand your anger over the attitude of if you just ask, pray hard enough, be faithful enough, God will give you your hearts desire. It just isn't so. There are NO easy answers for so many of life's trials and tragedys. I am so sorry for your broken heart and my heart aches for you. Please know that you are in my prayers.
Love,
Debbie Nagy <nagyhome@sbcglobal.net>
St. Louis, - Monday, April 30, 2007 4:11 PM CDT
Carol---- I am thinking of you all the time, and hoping you doing ok. My heart is heavy for you. Your stories make me laugh--wishing and praying you are finding some inner peace.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Monday, April 30, 2007 10:41 AM CDT
Carol, as always your journal entry was straight from the heart and it breaks mine. I wish that I could ease your pain and comfort you but I think sometimes just knowing that we are here if you need us and us continuing to pray for you and your family without ceasing is all we can do right now. I cannot imagine the heartbreak of losing two children and I think the grief you are experiencing is part of the long-term healing process, if there is such a thing. We will continue to pray that you make it as part of this study so that hopefully they can give you some answers as to why this happened. Hang in there, girl. We love ya and continue to pray for peace and comfort for you and your family!!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, April 30, 2007 7:53 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I wish I knew what to say that could bring you comfort. I can't imagine the pain you endure, the heartache, the yearning to have Reid and Randon with you. You and your family, that includes two special angel boys, are always in my thoughts and prayers. Carol, your words have so much wisdom to them and you my dear, inspire many.
Love ya,
kmp
kristi
- Sunday, April 29, 2007 3:17 PM CDT
To my dear sweet Carol,
I wish more then ever one day I will have the HONOR of meeting you...in person.
If I could see you now, I'd love to wrap my arms around you and whisper to you, I care, and Jesus does too...
You have been through H-E-L-L...there is just no better words to describe it, sorry.
I saw the movie you talked about, and you know I felt the same way. I guess that is the message people continually are fed, and they thrive on it. ( I do love the story behind it more then the movie! That was the miracle to me...)
Now, there is nothing wrong with "HOPE", we need this to survive our journey on earth, but what is sad is we are not taught about pain and suffering, and how they can produce more in us then any successes can.
You will come out of this Carol with a deeper relationship with the Lord then you can ever imagine. The word says:
"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit." Ps 34:18
Paul's idea of knowing God is:
"I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death," Philippians 3:9-11
I don't think a sermon on this would go over big in America. We want to "feel good", we want to win, to conquer, and just be BLESSED!
OK, I'm sorry for this sermonette. I'll end on another scripture that I cling to daily. I know you know all of this already, but I pray you are blessed and encouraged in some small way. As you can see, your journal got me going.
Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
Yes, we have this hope, and this promise. Something so much greater is waiting out there for us. ( I know 2 precious little boys will be there for you...) Oh what a crown you will have to place at the feet of Jesus one day!
Keep holding on my friend, I care.
Susan
PS Oh, I'm so blessed you are enjoying the book, I knew you would!
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Friday, April 27, 2007 10:24 PM CDT
Your courage, faith and honesty help many people - I wish the place of peace and comfort comes soon and that you will be that happy person but know that you will never forget. Take care
Diane
Australia, - Friday, April 27, 2007 7:31 PM CDT
I loved the verse you shared. It really shows that all mothers FEEL the same when it comes to their children...today, and even 1000's of years ago.
Carol, Once again I can't understand your pain, but I can definitely hear it. You continue to be in my prayers, and I continue to love your honesty. Thank you for reminding me to appreciate those good moments. Sometimes, it seems that the devil tries to steal it with some worry or negative thought b/f you even get a chance to enjoy the moment.
I know there are never any words, so I hope, "We're thinking of you always" means something.
That picture is just priceless.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Friday, April 27, 2007 2:57 PM CDT
"Please God, I have my hand up. May I be excused for awhile from this huge classroom we live and learn the lessons of life?
I am finding the lessons of this world too hard to learn.
Can I step off for awhile in a quiet place?
As you know I have lost my child and I am very tired of this day that I'm in. The role is too hard, the words are false. My face is a mask and my smile is unreal. The only truth I know is love, so please God, may I be excused from traveling on this road for awhile?
I've had my hand up for a long time."
- Author Unknown
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, April 27, 2007 7:48 AM CDT
There are no words that I could say to provide you with the comfort and peace that you desire. I know that you have probably felt abandoned by God during the difficult times. We don't know each other (i.e. have never met each other), but I feel that God put me in your path for a reason. Just think of all of the people that sign into your site that you don't know personally. We all came to know you and your family and to care about you as the closest of friends. Maybe "we" are God's way of providing you with the comfort that you have been seeking. I hope we aren't doing a miserable job. I will always be here for you. I feel like we have a special friendship connection. Partners in speech!
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA - Thursday, April 26, 2007 3:50 PM CDT
Carol,
I too saw "Facing the Giants" and I thought of you. After praying so hard for your boys and knowing that people all over the world were praying for them, it just left me with an empty feeling wondering "what about when our prayers aren't answered the way we want."
You have been on my heart so much lately. I will pray that all will work out for NIH. I know you need some answers.
Keep holding on!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, April 26, 2007 3:18 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I just read your update and WOW! We recently watched Facing the Giants and I had the exact same reaction. I have to tell you reading what you wrote made me feel better about my own reaction. I completly and totally understand your feelings. I read another parent's words this week following his own daughter's death. He said, "I don't want to be sad all the time, but it doesn't feel right to not be sad." How true.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, April 26, 2007 9:27 AM CDT
Carol, still checking Reid and Randon's website at least two to three times a week. I work nights, as you know, so I check it sometimes when I am at work. I am waiting to hear your ER story. I know you will make it funny! A fellow nurse just had surgery where they wired her mouth shut. I had the same surgery years ago and told her it really wasn't that bad. Well, she emailed me the nastiest letter this morning telling me how bad it really was and she even sent a picture of herself. Now you really have to be comfortable with yourself to send a picture of your face twice its normal size and your hair messed up by the ice bags around it!! Loved the pictures. Riley, are the turkey legs really THAT good??
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, April 26, 2007 9:07 AM CDT
Carol, I do not "know" you other than through your website, however I check in on you almost every day to see if you have updated your site. I pray for you constantly. I do not know your sorrow or pain, but feel such heartache for you. I wish there was something I could do to help take away some of your pain & grief. You have had to endure so much the last few years. I guess I just want you to know, there are people out there that care for you & wish you much happiness even though we don't know you personally. Hope you have a wonderful weekend full of laughter & smiles!!
Lisa <micreative1@aol.com>
Saginaw, MI USA - Thursday, April 26, 2007 8:30 AM CDT
Hi Carol--just thinking about you and stopping by to let you know that I continue to pray for you and hope today that you can find moments of happiness and joy--love you--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, April 26, 2007 8:24 AM CDT
I haven't stopped by in a while but wanted you to know that I'm still thinking about all of you and praying for peace and comfort.
Believing-
Zhohn Dupont <z_dupont@hotmail.com>
Simmesport, LA USA - Wednesday, April 25, 2007 11:59 PM CDT
Carol,
Praying for you!!
Hugs, Erika <jmannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, April 25, 2007 7:33 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
The pictures just about tell us the whole story, they are precious! I just love the last one, with the girls soaked!
Now, what about the ER story???
Love you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Tuesday, April 24, 2007 5:48 PM CDT
Thank you, Carol. Few people can really understand.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Tuesday, April 24, 2007 7:28 AM CDT
So good to hear from you. Glad you all had a great time.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA USA - Monday, April 23, 2007 2:21 PM CDT
I love the new pictures!! It looks like you had the time I was wishing for you! Sending my prayers and love,
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
dunwoody, ga - Friday, April 20, 2007 7:26 PM CDT
Love the pictures! You girls are so beautiful!
kristi
- Thursday, April 19, 2007 11:39 AM CDT
What beautiful girls, Carol. I see you in all of them. Riley is getting so tall!! The church sign is correct--plus, I find from losing my dad suddenly, just plain ole time. It won't heal--but I became numb as time went on (and still does).
~Looks like we may see the sky today. It has rained here more in the last 3 weeks than it did all winter and I am so so tired if it!!!
Take Care---the weeds are calling me
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, April 19, 2007 9:24 AM CDT
Welcome Home Carol!
Now this was one big TEASE...I want to see those pictures and what brought you to the ER???
Love you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, - Wednesday, April 18, 2007 10:02 PM CDT
Glad you are home safely, and that you had a great time. Can't wait to see the pictures . . . no pressure of course though!! :)
Ryan Martin www.mixedupfilesofme.blogspot.com <ryna95815@yahoo.com>
Roseville, Ca - Wednesday, April 18, 2007 1:58 PM CDT
Welcome home.... I am glad the trip was well and that you are home safely... Take care of yourself.
Kristi
- Tuesday, April 17, 2007 9:08 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Welcome back home! Hope you got your jets refueled in Orlando last week. I thought of you several times. I'm anxious to hear all the stories that came from your trip. I heard you had some good roller coaster rides. Hope to see you soon, and hopefully Reagan got something in the mail from us.
Love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, April 17, 2007 1:18 PM CDT
Hope you all had a great time in Florida. Don't you have a birthday this month? Happy Birthday.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Tuesday, April 17, 2007 11:25 AM CDT
Checking in on you all to see
if your trip was all you wanted
it to be.
angela conklin a friend thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
Graham, nc - Tuesday, April 17, 2007 10:47 AM CDT
I hope you all had a good time on your vacation.
Just checking in,
Love and prayers, Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen
USA - Monday, April 16, 2007 7:05 PM CDT
Carol,
I can't wait to hear about your trip to sunny, warm Florida. I was hoping you would bring some warm weather back with you. I need spring to come and stay -- enough winter already!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, April 16, 2007 10:16 AM CDT
Thinking of you and hoping you all had a great time on your trip!
Sending hugs and prayers...
Kristin
Cure For Conner
Lafayette, IN <kristinsmith@insightbb.com>
- Monday, April 16, 2007 5:40 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I hope you all had a wonderful trip. I look forward to hearing about it and seeing pictures. It was definitely a good week to be somewhere warm. I'm hoping you brought back a little of the sunshine with you. The girls and I are definitely ready for spring! Hope to talk with you soon.
Love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, April 15, 2007 10:19 PM CDT
Carol~ Oh I hope you all having a wonderful time in sunny Florida! You are not missing a thing here in Kentucky except a lot of awful weather! You made the right choice for sure. Safe travels and an easy soft landing back to the real world. I know all the "girls" had a lovely week. Sometimes those are the best vacations! Just last minute spur of the moment!~love, Megan
Megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Saturday, April 14, 2007 6:11 PM CDT
Just wishing you a wonderful time in Florida. Your family continues to inspire me every day.
With love,
Liz
Liz Scott - Alex's Mom - www.alexslemonade.org <liz@alexslemonade.com>
- Friday, April 13, 2007 10:01 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
So blessed to read you decided to do this quick get a way! You truly needed this for sure.
I'll look forward to the pictures and stories.
Been thinking of you lately,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Friday, April 13, 2007 4:38 PM CDT
Hope you guys are having a great time! Happy Birthday???
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, April 12, 2007 8:06 PM CDT
I hope you are having a great time!! Wishing you a safe and blessed journey!
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, Ga - Thursday, April 12, 2007 3:27 PM CDT
Hey, just thinking of the "Miller Girls" and wanted to stop by and say I hope you are ALL having a grand time in good old Florida! I hope the theme parks were fun and that all the shows at Sea World were amazing. I am going once I am six weeks post op from getting the fixator off with my best friend but who knows when that will be. I am glad you were able to get away from the cold and enjoy the warmth of Florida. Lifting you up in prayers, as always and remembering two sweet boys, Reid and Randon.
Kristi
- Wednesday, April 11, 2007 7:48 PM CDT
Dear Miller Family,
I hope you are having a lovely week in Florida.
God bless you always.
Grace and peace,
Colette (from Connor Hunley's guest book)
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Wednesday, April 11, 2007 8:17 AM CDT
Hey guys,
Just had you on my mind and hope you're having a great time at Universal. I look forward to hearing all about it over lunch when you return, Carol.
Love you all,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, April 10, 2007 9:42 AM CDT
I have no words. I originally followed Reid's story five years ago, and then a few years later rejoiced to find out about Reese. Since my niece is a Jan. 18th baby, I thought she had the perfect birthday. I came again to your website today to ask for prayers for a little boy from my church. His name is Ryan Witt (www.caringbridge.org/visit/ryanwitt). He has been diagnoised with cancer. I had trouble finding your website. Even thought that maybe you didn't have it up anymore after all this time. When I found it, my heart broke. My prayers go up for you and your family in the loss of another son and brother. God's ways certainly don't make sense sometimes. I guess all we can do is remember He is God, He loves us, and hold on tight to our faith on a day to day basis knowing that someday we will get to see His face.
Martha Sue Gaffin
Glasgow, KY - Monday, April 9, 2007 7:29 PM CDT
Hope you all have a blast. You deserve it so much! We have had snow here since Thursday and Friday there was crazy ice and not fun. Saturday and Sunday I was in the hospital for my ankle. I hope you all have an amazing time.
Kristi
- Sunday, April 8, 2007 6:21 PM CDT
Happy Belated Birthday. Sorry I missed it. I knew it was close to Mason's but wasn't sure when. I hope you had a good day.
Have a wonderful spring break. Rest when you can and enjoy your time away.
I think of you often.
Holding on to hope,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thankful for you............... <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Sunday, April 8, 2007 3:26 PM CDT
YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!
have a blast!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, of - Sunday, April 8, 2007 9:34 AM CDT
Carol,
We will be in Orlando the same week as you and your family!! We are leaving tomorrow as well and will be going to Disney and Universal. Hope you all have a lovely time. Happy Easter to the whole Miller family plus your two precious angels above in heaven. Take care and you are always in my prayers. Maria
maria <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
BATTLEBORO, NC - Saturday, April 7, 2007 9:19 PM CDT
Carol,
I pray that you and the girls have a wonderful and safe trip to Orlando. Bottle up some sunshine and warmer weather and bring it back to Kentucky next weekend. I really enjoyed having Reese last Sunday in class. May the Lord bless you and your family on Easter. And may we always remember your two precious angels, Reid and Randon. We love you all.
Love the Brown's - Travis, Sherry, Chase, and Cameron
Sherry Brown <browntsc@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Saturday, April 7, 2007 7:37 PM CDT
Jo Hannah Rebecca and Rachel
England UK
- Saturday, April 7, 2007 7:36 PM CDT
BRENDA~**MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA/CANADA, - Saturday, April 7, 2007 7:27 PM CDT
Have a wonderful Easter and trip. Enjoy the sun for us here in Kentucky with this strange weather. Be safe!
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Saturday, April 7, 2007 7:26 PM CDT
Happy Easter to The Miller Family! I am sure this will be a special one with the help from two special angels from above!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, April 7, 2007 1:10 PM CDT
hey aunt carol, i can't wait to see yall this weekend. i just wish it would warm up. I heard you were going to Universal. I loved it there. That has been my favorite vacation so far!! I think yall should stay on the property though because you get to cut line and its awesome, well I just wanted say hi and just want to see when yall are coming down.
Happy Easter!
Caroline <Dcacats226@comcast.net>
- Friday, April 6, 2007 5:46 PM CDT
thinking of you this Eastertide
with prayers and love
mrs pam
- Thursday, April 5, 2007 6:05 PM CDT
I pray that you have a wonderful Easter Holiday. Just want to let you know that I am thinking of you.
Love and Prayers
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgoq, ky USA - Thursday, April 5, 2007 4:56 PM CDT
Hi Carol,Dale and The Miller Girls!!
I just want to wish Carol a Very Happy Birthday.And i really hope that you made some awesome plans for your special day on your Birthday.And Carol i am sorry that i miss your Birthday.And i was wondering how is everyone in the Miller Families lately.And i just hope that everyone in the Miller Families stays well for Easter Holiday.So i just want to wish you a very happy Birthday to you.And Carol enjoy your special with your beautiful family.And i am still praying and thinking for all of you.And Carol you and the Miller Family and Speakman family are always in my prayers and my thoughts everyday and night.Take Care and God BLess all of you The Miller Families and Speakman family.And I Love All Of You The Miller Families and the Speakman family and The Allen Family very much forever and always forever.Love from your Peggy Shannon,
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U,S.A. - Thursday, April 5, 2007 1:42 PM CDT
Carol,
Happy Birthday! It was almost belated wasn't it? I hope you had a good day and will get some good birthday rest tonight.
Prissy Martin <prissy0402@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, April 4, 2007 10:28 PM CDT
Reagan sounds like a very special young lady. You do such a great job teaching your children about the power of giving back to the community.
Caroline HUDSON <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Wednesday, April 4, 2007 7:57 PM CDT
Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you. Hope you're having a great day!
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, April 4, 2007 4:43 PM CDT
Happy, Happy Birthday
Happy, Happy Birthday
Happy, Happy Birthday
Happppppyyyyy Birrrrthday!
Jill <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Wednesday, April 4, 2007 11:07 AM CDT
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Carol! Happy birthday to you!!! And many more!" I hope you have a great day! Sorry again I'll miss tonight, but have fun for me! I'll give your best to Nicki.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, April 4, 2007 10:01 AM CDT
Happy Birthday! Do something for you! Enjoy your day!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, April 4, 2007 9:08 AM CDT
Happy Birthday!!! I hope you have a wonderful and fun day. Do something for yourself!
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, April 4, 2007 8:30 AM CDT
I check on you regularly since coming to your site - your courage and love are inspirational. May you continue to find healing and peace. Happy Easter to all
Diane
- Wednesday, April 4, 2007 7:48 AM CDT
Happy Birthday to you!!! Have a great day!!!
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, April 4, 2007 7:11 AM CDT
Happy Birthday Carol!!!!!
Michelle <behappy@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, April 4, 2007 6:43 AM CDT
Carol,
I am NOT too much of a real runner to not go with you! You are not getting out of that one easily!!! The offers are still on!!! I have to say I would be so thrilled to have you run with me. Go ahead and run to that mailbox for a start! Your tennis skirts will look just like the running ones!!
Michelle
- Monday, April 2, 2007 8:06 PM CDT
Hi Carol.
It really was my pleasure to help with Reagan this week. She is a very special young lady. She has so much love to give. She surprised me with several hugs over the last few days. I'll miss those hugs! It was fun hanging out with her. I think she has all the lines to the pageant memorized. Sometimes, when it was our time to sit during the pageant, she would be whispering everyone's lines. And she would nail everyone of them! And I found out how much she loves grapes and bread!!! Thank you for letting me help. If I can ever do anything else, let me know.
Marya <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, April 2, 2007 7:08 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
It was MY pleasure helping with Reagan this weekend, because she is the amazing girl you described her to be!! I don't know if I told you what she did for me. After one of the pageant's, the girls all went to "childcare" and did some kind of craft project. Reagan made me a card and the words on it read, "Mrs. Pemberton, I love you" and you opened the card up and it said, "Jesus loves us too." I thought that was one of the sweetest things a child has done for me. Reagan also gives the best bear hugs around!! She's one strong girl, ha ha! I've said this before to you, but I really can't wait to see what Reagan grows up to become, but I know she's destined for great things! She does have a zest and enthusiasm for life, that's for sure! She's amazingly bright,so motivated to learn and enjoy new experiences, and well on her way to being all sold-out to the Lord. Those are such winning combinations! I know you must be so proud of her, and I'm so glad that you did get that precious one-on-one time with her. I need to schedule more time like that for each one of my girls. I know that Sophie gets the majority of my time, and it's probably not fair to Sarah and Sydney, and they're each precious in their own right too.
Congratulations on all your successes this weekend with the race and the cause, and enjoy a breather!! Go pamper yourself or something...do something for YOU! You always have my love, prayers and admiration!
Love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Monday, April 2, 2007 4:47 PM CDT
Hey Carol. Thanks for the entry. And I agree you have a WONDERFUL daughter. I don't know the other two very well. But Reagan is truly amazing. Maybe we click well b/c I too am the middle of three girls. Anytime you need someone to pick the girls up, etc. feel free to call Nicki for my number. I remember Mom or Nicki trying to organize getting us places. Tell Reagan I can't wait to see her on Wednesday..she reads Scripture wonderfully!
Amanda Montgomery <amanda.montgomery@wku.edu>
- Monday, April 2, 2007 4:21 PM CDT
Carol--so glad you had a good weekend--what a beautiful day you had for the race!! Reagan is such a sweet girl-- glad that you two got to spend some quality time together--how different our kids are when we are with them one on one! We did order a DVD of the musical, so when it comes, we'll have to have a Beauty and the Beast party to watch it--my prayers continue to be with you each day as I know you miss your boys so much--take care--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, April 2, 2007 1:03 PM CDT
As always thanks for sharing from your heart. The Lord must be speaking through you because you touch a chord with so many people. Sharing special time with the kids is what spoke to my heart today. (And lamenting about running!! :)) I'm glad you had such a great weekend and I continue to pray for strength for you as you face the days ahead.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Monday, April 2, 2007 11:35 AM CDT
So glad the race went well. Let me know and we can train together....or when I get my balance back we can. I don't like running or speed walking but man I miss my treadmill right now.
That Reagan!!! She was actually the topic of discussion here at my house last night as Amanda couldn't talk enough about her!!!! She loves her so much!
I also wanted to say thank you for all the time and energy you have put into my family lately. I couldn't have asked for a better friend lately. Your dedication and love have helped all of us through this rough spot in our lives. You do it everyday of our lives and I never tell you thank you enough! My husband is convinced that we should grocery shop together!!!!
Get some rest!!! Love you!
Nicki
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Yes the duckie is still lighting......we thought about putting it in the bath with him to see what it would do but knew he would not be happy if it broke. So the duckie floats on the blanket!!!, - Monday, April 2, 2007 10:17 AM CDT
Carol,
What a very special weekend you had with Reagan. I am sure she enjoyed the time with you as much as you enjoyed it!!Glad to hear that you are staying busy. You and your family remain in my prayers. Take care, Maria Newcomb
Maria <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
- Monday, April 2, 2007 9:49 AM CDT
Carol,
I really think the Lord uses you to push me into action. I know how crazy it can be with 3 kids and there's never enough time to spend with each one of them. This has been on my heart lately that I need to take the time to spend with each one individually. After reading your Reagan story, I'm going to take the time with each of my kids -- especially my middle child. He too has a heart of gold, but I feel he gets lost in the middle of all that's going on in the family. He loves to play games, so today I'm going to ask him if he wants to play one instead of him asking me. That should put a smile on his face.
As always, you inspire me to be a better me. Thank you for taking the time to write this morning. I think it was just for me!!
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, - Monday, April 2, 2007 8:35 AM CDT
What a sweet sweet story about Reagan! I'm glad you got that one on one time with her! What a trooper she is! What a weekend! You must be exhausted! Love you all, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, April 2, 2007 8:23 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
I hope you have survived (and maybe even enjoyed) the weekend. Since I saw you and Dale at church this morning, I knew you hadn't completely fainted with exhaustion. I heard there was a wonderful turn out for the race.
It's late and I am heading to bed, but just wanted to know that I had thought about you this weekend. Talk to you soon.
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, April 1, 2007 11:23 PM CDT
Carol,
You did a fabulous job with the Family Enrichment Center Race! I know you worked so hard on it and it was wonderful and successful. GREAT JOB! Love you!
Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Sunday, April 1, 2007 8:41 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
So blessed to read you guys had a nice quick "get-a-way" in Nashville. We have a lot of interesting historical stuff down here too that you just take for granted.
I love when you are very busy with the girls. I know however inside you never stop missing your precious sons.
Thank God for your 3 beautiful daughters.
Sending lots of love and many hugs,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Been missing you.................................., - Saturday, March 31, 2007 8:50 PM CDT
How fitting that my quiet time this morning ended with me coming to your website and finding your words...what I read this morning is helpful for you and Nicki and ALL of us who find it so hard to ask for help...
We all need help from our fellow Christians, our friends, our families and even well-meaning strangers. Above all, we need the help of our Lord as we go about our daily tasks, especially when we struggle to attend to our responsibilities. Offers of help can be an expression of God's love. Dear God, remind us that living in your love means accepting help from those who offer to carry part of our load. "Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord." Psalm 121:1-2 This is my prayer for you as you continue to endure each moment.
Debra Gensheimer
- Friday, March 30, 2007 12:14 AM CDT
Its Mindy again. Just wanted to say I am thinking about your family! Have a great rest of the week.
Mindy Key
Bowling Green, Ky - Wednesday, March 28, 2007 10:23 PM CDT
Carol,
Just now finding the time to write you a note. We had a wonderful time in Gatlinburg, but I came home with quite a sinus infection. You were in one of my dreams while I was gone. I don't remember anything about the dream except seeing you and giving you the biggest hug. I woke with a smile on my face. I thank the Lord for bringing you into my life. I pray you will have a good week and will be able to get everything done.
Love and prayers,
Erika <jmannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, March 28, 2007 11:49 AM CDT
We just dropped by to check on you today.
Jodi and McKayla
Jodi Phelan <jodiphelan@hotmail.com>
Sherwood Park, AB Canada - Wednesday, March 28, 2007 1:33 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
Missed seeing you today at MDO. Thanks for a great day at the park!
LOVE YOU,
catherine w <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, March 27, 2007 9:48 PM CDT
Carol,
Oh I wish I had known you guys were in Nashville last week. Kendall was on spring break and we didn't get a trip planned so we just hung out around home. We took him and a friend's kids to Charlie Daniel's park on Thursday and they had a ball. Hope you're doing well and I think about you all the time. I was so surprised to hear about Isaiah's mom so I will keep her in my prayers as well.
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Tuesday, March 27, 2007 11:04 AM CDT
Thanks for keeping the updates coming. You are truly an amazing family and an inspiration to me everyday.
Best wishes and lots of love to you and your family.
Liz Scott _Alex's Mom - Alex's Lemonade Stand. <liz@alexslemonade.com>
Wynnewood, PA 19096 - Monday, March 26, 2007 2:39 PM CDT
Carol, Dale, Reese, Reagan and Riley,
I just wanted to sign in and let you know I am thinking of you all and remembering sweet Reid and Randon... Praying for you all
Kristi
- Sunday, March 25, 2007 6:47 PM CDT
I check in on you often and read your journal entries but have never signed ,I never knew the right words to write , but now I feel I want to tell you that I have been praying for you for a long time ,I live in Australia and have two sons one has a rare illness and is the eldest survivor in the world , Ihave been to the NIH with him and they have helped me to understand his illness and have increased the chances of his survival , please when you do get there ask them if it was possible if your children had TTD, that is what my son has and some of the symptoms that your baby experienced sounds the same ,I know it may not be , but sometimes having an answer helps with dealing with the grief , I hope that all goes well when you go to NIH and please know I am praying for you always
Maria
mum to Sammy-Joe
http://www.caringbridge.org/ok/sammyjoe
Maria Liistro <sammyjo2@bigpond.com.au>
Craigieburn , vic Australia - Saturday, March 24, 2007 6:14 PM CDT
Hi Carol. You dont know me but my friend Katrina Henderson linked me to your site. When I saw when your baby was born I realized that my son was born just 10 days after yours. My son was born on July 31st via c-section. I have been at my computer for a long time now trying to catch up on your story. I dont know where you had your baby, I had mine at The Medical Center in BG. My husband and I just moved back to BG. We have been living in White House TN for 5 years. I know you have passed that exit many times. I had my daughter at Baptist.
I feel like I have bonded with you. You look very familiar to me. You may resemble someone that I know. I'm not sure. I have cried and laughed at all the things you have typed. You are an inspiration to me. You are an awesome Mommy!!! By the way, your baby boys pictures are so precious. I know you miss him dearly! Thanks for sharing all the things you have so far. I am going to keep up with you along with keeping up with my friends baby girl Mya and VUMC.
Mindy Key <mindy.key@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, March 23, 2007 9:52 PM CDT
Carol, I was thinking of you today and thought maybe you could use a hug...sending virtual hugs...Megan (tannersmom)
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, March 22, 2007 11:44 PM CDT
Keeping you in my prayers!!
Dorine McNary
Williston, ND - Thursday, March 22, 2007 4:29 PM CDT
I have been following your story since right before Randon died. I have been wanting to sign the guestbook but could never find the right words. Through reading your journal I have come to realize that it isn't always saying the "right" thing but just saying something. Thank you for that, and thank you for sharing your story. I don't know the pain that you and your family are going through but I am praying for you. I just wanted you to know that even though time has passed your boys are still remembered. God Bless.
Candice Andersen <Caniks@hotmail.com>
Laurel, MT USA - Wednesday, March 21, 2007 9:20 PM CDT
Carol,
thinking of you and praying for you all.
Janet DeRosier <janet@derohero.com>
Brooklyn Center, MN - Tuesday, March 20, 2007 9:47 AM CDT
Hi Carol.
I check in on you so often. I pray for you all the time.
I guess our parents are getting/got together today or tuesday. I'm sure they will have fun catching up!
I was thrilled that the NIH contacted you guys. Bri goes back 2 times a year and stays for 4-5 days each time. They are doing research on his TRAPP's desease. Only 80 people in the united states have this ;( Bri wants to do everything possible so that others might be helped. Still dont know alot, but if he can help another person or family, he feels it was worth it!
They are all so kind @ the NIH. I pray that they will beable to find answers for you.
Thanks again for sharing with us!
Much love,
Cari
Cari Gruelle
Citrus Heights, CA - Monday, March 19, 2007 11:46 PM CDT
Carol...
It has been a while since I was on your site and even longer since I've written in. I had a lot of catching up to do! Your Dad's health, the autopsy results, NIH...etc. I feel like I learn so much and grow so much reading your journals. I know it must help to write them. (by the way, Brooke and I love What Not to Wear too!) I do hope we can get together soon. My prayers are always with you.
Amy
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
Bowling Green, - Monday, March 19, 2007 7:00 PM CDT
You guys and your Dad have been in our prayers. Your journal entries always inspire me to re-evaluate my life. Which I need pretty often. I admire how you and Dale have handled everything, both good and difficult in your lives. You are both so strong in your faith and outlook on life. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It does help us who normally awkwardly don't know what to say to people who are going through difficulties. I never say nothing because I am afraid of saying the wrong thing now--because you made me aware of the pain this causes. I still of course, try to be sensitive to people's feelings by trying to think about how certain things might make them feel, but you have been great insight on how to voice support for people I care about who are going through tough times. Unfortunately they have been way too numerous lately.
Your girl's photos get more beautiful everyday! Enjoy those hockey games. GO PREDS!
Kyna Petersen <daleandkyna@comcast.net>
Murfreesboro, TN - Monday, March 19, 2007 12:52 AM CDT
Well, I have never signed this guestbook and now I'm not even sure how I got directed to this page. However, I just want you to know that I am inspired every single time you journal and I think you are an amazing woman and mom.
Trisha Hobbs <thobbs@elwood.k12.in.us>
Elwood, IN - Monday, March 19, 2007 9:37 AM CDT
Still checking in on you and praying for you. Hope you enjoyed the Preds and visiting with your family.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Sunday, March 18, 2007 7:43 PM CDT
Thinking of you today.
Tina & Angel Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Sunday, March 18, 2007 10:49 AM CDT
Your strength and honesty are an inspiration to all. Check in regularly
Take care
Diane
Australia, - Saturday, March 17, 2007 7:27 AM CDT
Carol, once again, reading what you wrote after the day I had reminds me to realize that life is full of joy and that what I am feeling is not depression but grief for the difficulities I am facing. You are amazing and an inspirtation to many, so many and I hope you always know that... Take care of yourself and I am praying that you will get answers... Sometimes the answers aren't as easily found but I pray that you all will know what happened before the girls are old enough to be moms. Sending love and enjoy your weekend.
Kristi
- Friday, March 16, 2007 11:39 PM CDT
Have fun this weekend you guys deserve it!!!!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Friday, March 16, 2007 10:04 PM CDT
Carol, I wish you had gotten more answers last Friday but still praying that this study will provide your family with some answers. What a great outpouring of your heart today! You are so gifted in being able to share your feelings with us who care so deeply! I am so glad you and Dale have this hockey weekend planned! Hope you enjoy being together! Have a great time! Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, March 16, 2007 4:06 PM CDT
Thanks, yet again, for sharing your feelings and the events of your life with us. I've learned so much from following your story. I do have a question for you- I have a friend who was pregnant and found out (at about 26 weeks)that her son had a heart defect and would not survive. He was born about six weeks later, perfectly formed from outside appearances, but his heart was weak and he died almost immediately. I sent a note and memorial after his death, and have spoken to her about it once or twice since then. It will be the anniversary of his birth/death in a few days and I want to send her a card to acknowledge that. I just don't know what to say. I know you'd agree that she'll be thinking of him in a special way that day/week, and I want her to know that I will be, too. "Thinking of you as you remember baby Patrick"- seems too simple. I've had several thoughts of what to say, but nothing seems just right. Any suggestions?
Thanks, Carol
Megan <MEWohlwend@aol.com>
IL - Friday, March 16, 2007 2:21 PM CDT
Carol,
Just a note to say hi--I have been reading your journal--as usual you way with words is amazing. You have strenghts that are also amazing. I am thinking of you and your family, all of them--wishing you the best, wishing you peace and love..praying for you daily.
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgow, KY Barren - Friday, March 16, 2007 12:17 AM CDT
Carol---so glad you made it through!!! Listen dearie--we were camping one summer and my checkbook was stolen--our car broken into--and by the time we got home (hours later) although the police and everyone had been notified-- 15k were written form it--not even 10% was in there-- and we are still paying for it. I had to go through heck with the DMV so be careful. I do NOTHING ONLINE.......
Have fun in Nashville--keep your eyes open for A.J.!!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg , or - Friday, March 16, 2007 11:11 AM CDT
Hope you enjoy your weekend and the hockey game--what a good release for both of you--know that we are always here for you and continue to be amazed by your compassion and honesty--we all have times where we falter in our faith--I think God expects that from us because from those times we definitely come away with knowledge and a better understanding of others who have faced or are facing difficult times--take care--Love always--The Good's
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, March 16, 2007 10:11 AM CDT
I continue to stop by and check on you and your family. Thank you for being willing to open your heart up and share your pain...some people just clam up in such circumstances, and never let people who want to help them near them.
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I'm lifting you up in prayer for your appointment tomorrow.
Megan Dutill
- Thursday, March 15, 2007 8:16 PM CDT
Hey Carol,
Just wanted to say "hey" and hope everything went o.k. I haven't talked to you lately. Was looking forward to SKY to talk, but considering we moved Reagan up, I guess I won't see you much. Hope your Reagan is loving it and you and Dale are not too hard on her!!! (Like we aren't or at least Jason) Anyway, your words continue to impact me, although I need to remember them even when I am not reading it... You are a blessing and are missed dearly when you aren't around. It is funny, but you seem to have technical difficulties (like erasing your e-mails) that make you so human and your experiences so real to everyone. Not that you aren't of course, but sometimes your writing is so great that you forget that you also have silliness. Anyway I gotta go. Everyone was asleep, but someone is crying and I too know what it feels like to be a single parent a lot... Reese and Zoe need to play. Please call when you need a break or just want her to play.
Stay strong,
Ange Martin <angelamartin@insightbb.com>
bg, ky usa - Tuesday, March 13, 2007 9:42 PM CDT
Carol,
I think about you daily. I come here alot to look at sweet Reid and Randon's faces. I know that Logan knew them immediately as we came to this site daily together for the last few months of his life. I pray that the meeting will provide you with much needed answers and that God comforts you and helps you through such an excruciating experience.
Kyla Byard /ky/logan <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, March 13, 2007 8:35 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Again, great job on AMKY yesterday! You sounded like a pro! I just read your entry from last week, and I'm sorry for being so behind. I am finally getting myself out from under my Bowl For Kids' Sake fog! I am sorry that I didn't know about your appointment last Friday or I would have been specifically praying about that. I hope you got some beneficial information and that it wasn't too grueling for you. I know that it must have brought back overwhelming memories and sadness. I so often wish I could wipe away the pain and tears and replace them with sweet Randon in your arms. I was actually thinking about him in the shower this morning, and don't ask me why. I was thinking that he would be around 8-months old, such a precious age, not that every age isn't precious! I don't say this to make you sadder but only to remind you that he's not forgotten. When I'm laughing with you over a sandwich and some funny story you're sharing, I'm still the same friend who weeps with you behind this webpage and cries when I'm praying for you at night. Maybe that's what makes our joy sweeter, because we have also cried together. Just know that I care and am always here for you!
And Reagan, Laura Ingalls will always be one of my favorite book characters (as will Dorothy in her red ruby slippers)!! You did Laura proud in your costume...you looked really pretty!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, March 13, 2007 2:15 PM CDT
Dear Carol~ I hope it's beautiful in BG today. Feels like spring/summer is on it's way here. I know sometimes the change of seasons can stir up emotions for me...it always tells me that time is marching on and I'm not really ready for that. It's like what Reese says...."My Mommy does not want me to get big!" :) :)....thinking and praying for you and yours. Keeping on keeping on. Love~Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Tuesday, March 13, 2007 10:38 AM CDT
Carol,
We have never met, but my family started attending Richpond at the time when Randon was in the hospital. I started following your family from that time on via this site, and have been very blessed by each of your entries. I have a beautiful two-year-old son, and my heart aches for you when I look at the pictures of your two beautiful and perfect sons. I hope that the meeting with the team at Vandy gave your family some answers. Praying for you daily.
Leigh Ann Edwards <APoohFan514321@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, March 13, 2007 9:42 AM CDT
Hey Carol,
I've been thinking of you lately, missing you at church. I hope your appointment went like you wanted it to, your words on the site have to help so many people, you are such an encouragment to me, thank you for being so real. I wish so many times there was something I could say or do to help, but not sure what it is. We will continue to pray. I hope your week goes well, and I hope to see you Wed. night!
Love,
Terri Brogli
Terri Brogli <entbrogli@aol.com>
Bowling Green, ky warren - Tuesday, March 13, 2007 8:05 AM CDT
The Four Leaf Clover
A four leaf clover...
A treasure...priceless and rare,
Like my child in Heaven above...
Now in God's tender loving care.
Each leaf...a meaning....a part of my grief
One leaf for strength...one for memories so dear...
One leaf for peace...and one for my faith in God above...
Each represents a part of my life..
My child in heaven...forever missed and forever loved.
The first leaf on the clover....
Stands for strength....to make it through the day....
From morning to night....darkness to light...
With Gods help each step of the way.
The second leaf on the clover....
Stands for peace...that only God can bring...
A Peace that restores my mourning heart...
Smooths the edges of the pain...
and help me learn to begin to live again.
The third leaf on the clover...
Stands for Memories...that I will always hold dear...
Their spirit will shine on in the memories left behind...
Although time may pass...they will never disappear.
The fourth leaf on the clover...
Stands for my faith in God above....
Believing with all my heart in what I cannot see...
Knowing we will meet again...
By the golden gates....in Heaven above.
Until then I'll keep my memories...
Tucked deep inside with love...
Along with my 4 leaf clover...
My treasures from Heaven above.
A Clover? A Treasure?
Blessings from above?
Strength, peace, memories, and faith
All sent from Heaven....with Gods everlasting love.
**~
BRENDA~**MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>****Edmonton~Alberta~Canada****, - Monday, March 12, 2007 11:19 PM CDT
Dear Carol, Praying for you today. I hope you had a great weekend. Call me.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, March 12, 2007 4:04 PM CDT
Just wanted you to know that I thought about you all weekend. You are in my prayers.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, oh - Monday, March 12, 2007 7:44 AM CDT
I hope you did okay on Friday. I think you said it best when you said it's all different when it's YOUR child. I believe that with anything no matter what someone might say--this is rare, we don't see this often,etc. All you can focus on as the parent is well my child is enduring this and I'll do whatever I can. I continue praying for you.
Karen Patterson <Anchormom@comcast.net>
New Castle, DE - Sunday, March 11, 2007 1:09 PM CDT
Carol, I think of you often and hope today was not too bad on you and Dale. Sending hugs and kisses to all of you.
Dan and Betty Spoerl <bettyjane@tds.net>
Clifton, Tn - Friday, March 9, 2007 8:19 PM CST
Carol, thinking of you and hope the meeting was bearable. Both Reid and Randon were perfect babies... That is what I see when I look at their pictures. Laura Ingalls is awfully cute! Sending love.
Kristi
- Friday, March 9, 2007 6:03 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Praying today was better, (hmmmm, now how can that be?) well, I just pray God gave you HIS grace and HIS strength to sit through the meeting, and you were able to ask the questions you had on your heart, and got some answers!
Praying you are "OK" now, with the aftermath of this day.
Sending lots of love, and many, many hugs your way,
Susan
Jordan's page <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying, caring and always here for you....................................., - Friday, March 9, 2007 4:38 PM CST
Hey Carol, First I'm praying for you today. And thank you for your being open and honest on your site. It's so sanctifying to so many people (me included) to see true grief and yet the Lord's gentle grace as well. Please tell Reagan that she looks so cute in her costume!! And that Laura is one of my favorite characters!!
Amanda Montgomery <amanda.montgomery@wku.edu>
- Friday, March 9, 2007 10:18 AM CST
Carol, praying that today will bring some answers for you and that God will comfort you through what has to be a very hard and emotional day!! So good to see you guys the other night! Did Reese ever go see the cow? I'm sorry I didn't take the time to ask you how you were doing! And I have also been wondering about your dad. You all are in my prayers! Gotta get to work!! Love always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, March 9, 2007 8:54 AM CST
Dear Carol & Dale, praying for you all today, not any different than any other day, but just a little harder. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, March 9, 2007 8:38 AM CST
Carol--thinking of you today as I know it's tough to hear all of the info. from the doctors--Randon was a perfect baby in your eyes and God's--I'll be thinking of you and praying for extra strength that today won't be too unbearable--Love you--Gail P.S. You do look great for having 5 children:):):):)
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, March 9, 2007 8:37 AM CST
Carol,
Your words are always so powerful to me. I have never written before, but have been following you for awhile. You comment about the doctor being so true yet professional with tears streaming down her face brings back memories of our time in the NICU. We were standing there with many doctors and our older children waiting for my Mother to arrive so we could give Brady back to God, knowing we were blessed to have him for those four days. My daughter 5 at the time, tugged on the pant leg of one of the doctors, she knelt down by her and listened as my daughter asked "are you my baby brother's doctors?" A nod yes from the Doc was followed by "Is my baby brother going to die?" Most of the doctors were crying at this point and most of them walked away. That one doctor stayed at her level and said yes, and talked with her, hugged her, all with the tears streaming down her face. I have never trusted anyone with any of my children like I have trusted that woman and I know I was truly blessed to have her by my side through many hurdles and struggles with all my children.
Thank you for sharing your story and your feelings. I too lift you and your whole family in prayer everyday.
Stefanie Schnable <snacsmx2@hotmail.com>
St. Louis, MO - Friday, March 9, 2007 8:02 AM CST
You can do it!!! I can't imagine the anxiety of having to walk through those sliding doors. Just hold on to Dale and think that you can do it for your children and for yourself. Maybe they will have some kind of new information and if not you can drill them with questions. I will call you as we are leaving there and make sure you don't need me to grab the girls from you! Please know I have been praying for yours and Dales strength all week.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Tell Reese that Isaiah says hello!!!!, - Friday, March 9, 2007 7:06 AM CST
Hi Carol,
I really don't know what to say. Please know that I am holding your hand in thought and prayer today as you go through your meeting.
Sincerely,
Christa
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, oh - Friday, March 9, 2007 6:14 AM CST
Carol and Dale--Not fair to say 'good luck' tomorrow--because I really don't see nothing really GOOD about going there--other than a pow-wow of thoughts and reflections....but stay strong, and remember you are the parents--not patients, but the advocates, and the ones in charge of the questions and where you go from there... You are still those boys' parents!!!
OK--so--yep there are a lot of dummies out there--ones who evade the moment/questions/topics--know what, though?? There have been times when I have chosen to do that and I have then had the after thoughts of what I should had done, said, the guilt, the lousy feelings......so the dummies pay for being dumb. I have tried to get smart over the years.
Keeping you and your dad in my thoughts and hoping you feel validated and more at peace after tomorrow.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, March 8, 2007 10:10 PM CST
Carol,
WOW! What an entry! Your words are always so powerful. I will be lifting you and Dale up all day tomorrow as you meet with the doctors.
Sending you a big hug full of love.
Keep looking up,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, March 8, 2007 9:05 PM CST
Carol,
You always fill my heart and I just wish I could reach out and give you a BIG hug. I continue to keep you in my prayers and will definitely be praying for you and Dale tomorrow. Glad to hear that your dad is doing better.
Hugs,
Janet DeRosier <janet@derohero.com>
Brooklyn Center, MN - Thursday, March 8, 2007 6:19 PM CST
Thinking of you and sending all my love....
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, March 8, 2007 4:19 PM CST
You will be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow as you meet with the medical staff.
You have such a beautiful family. I can see a bit of you all in each other in the pictures, and find that so special.
Kristi Gerdon <kgerdon@widrick.com>
Croghan, NY - Thursday, March 8, 2007 3:47 PM CST
Carol,
Thinking of you this morning. Good news for Alicia -- her numbers are starting to go up. Looks like her brother's stem cells are doing their job. Thanks for your prayers. Have a wonderful day!
Love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, March 8, 2007 8:02 AM CST
Thinking of you Love from Karen www.caringbridge.org/visit/karenmelissa
karen
- Wednesday, March 7, 2007 9:51 PM CST
Hi Carol! I was just thinking of you today and wanted to drop by and let you know. I did see Oprah last week and couldn't help but think about you. You really are an inspiration to me and I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you! By the way, I love the new picture of Reese! She's precious! I really do think we should get her and Evan together. She looks like she could hold her own with him! :-) Anyway, have a great day!
Carol S.
Carol Stice
- Wednesday, March 7, 2007 5:58 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Just stopping by to say hi, and let you know I was thinking of you and your family today. GOOD THOUGHTS!! He He...
So blessed your dad has recouped well. WHEW...
I didn't see Oprah that day, I sure wish I did. I like the comment you shared from that lady. My mom said the same thing when she lost her son, he was 18, and was murdered after his last football game.
She said she "had to go on" for us, and she had to focus on all that she still had. And she also had to forgive and release, gosh, that's alot!
Really our attitude as someone said controls our altitude. OK, I may be misquoting that, but hey,it meant that!
Thanks for being real, and for always pointing us to Jesus through it all.
Praying for you each day, and wishing I lived alot closer.
Your friend from down south,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Wednesday, March 7, 2007 4:10 PM CST
Just thought I would stop by to say hi and that I am thinking of you all... WSU won the Horizon League last night:) Talk about exciting, first time in school's history!
Kristi
- Wednesday, March 7, 2007 8:04 AM CST
Hey Carol--just checkin' in before I go to bed....hope your dad is doing better, and that you and all your brood is happy for today. I think about you all the time.........
debbie <pf6@comcst.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, March 6, 2007 11:52 PM CST
Dear Carol, Reese is just beautiful and how Big she is getting. Hard to believe. They grow so fast. I hope everything is still going well and I am glad that your Dad is so much better. Take care, love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, March 6, 2007 8:10 AM CST
Hey guys!!! I was thinking of you this morning and since it is to early to call thought I would just post in the guestbook. I meant to sign the other day when I saw Reese's picture. She is just sooooo cute. I think long would be a good word to describe here being a little taller than everyone else!!!
I hope that things are still going good for your dad. He is such a special man and I know how much you love him. Things are going better around bere, not perfect but sooo much better. Oh, have you heard dressing changes are twice a day now :(
Well I will should go get our day started just wanted you to know you were on my mind this morning. Call me when you have time.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Tuesday, March 6, 2007 7:07 AM CST
Carol,
Thanks for sharing the story about grief from Oprahs show. I lost my baby girl and my husband, and even though its been awhile I feel stuck often. I try to move ahead but somedays the grief takes over. I have to be strong for my other children but it is hard at times. God Bless Sandy Heelan Colorado
Sandy Heelan
Centennial, co usa - Monday, March 5, 2007 11:09 AM CST
What a powerful and unselfish message for all of us. Bless you for sharing. You have a beautiful family. God didn't promise us easy did He? He just promised that He would be there with us. Thanks for the reminder. Glad to see that your dad has rallied. Continue counting the roses and not the thorns.
The Millers: Bob, DIane, Wesley,Matt and Ben
North East, MD - Sunday, March 4, 2007 8:12 PM CST
I'm so glad to hear the good news about your Dad! I have been praying for him since you first mentioned he wasn't well. It's hard to picture him as anything other than fit and on a tennis court :) My Mom is having surgery this week--so I'm feeling a little of your stress. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you today.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
Nashville, TN - Saturday, March 3, 2007 5:40 PM CST
I, too, watched Oprah on Thursday and was extremely uplifted! The woman who lost her son and husband was so inspiring - I have not been able to get her out of my mind. I think God and the angels definitely had a hand in leading you to watch this particular show. I also wished I had taped it! Wishing you peace,
Andrea
Andrea Fitzgerald <docmjfitz@aol.com>
Bogota, NJ USA - Saturday, March 3, 2007 9:22 AM CST
Hey Carol-- yes, I saw Oprah yesterday, for the first time in a few years. I cried about that little boy McAllen, and his poor mama who watched him slip away in the plane crash. Then, her husband right after that. Awful!! And the story about that NFL football player with all of the poverty and family problems, and on the day of the big playoffs his mom died that morning in a car crash. It was so sad, but so uplifting at the same time. They just had the best outlook on life. You have been on my mind a lot lately; you know how some thoughts just won't leave your head once they're there? I hope you are doing okay. We'll say more prayers for Ken--and it sounds like God is hearing them! That's great about him doing so much better. Miss y'all; March and Kell keep asking when they can go play with "the girls" again. They love their cousins to death! And I have to say this...Reese looks EXACTLY like Aunt Lana in that picture you posted! I wonder if you guys see that in her, or if you see other family members more. Man alive, she looks just like Lana Gail to me! Thanks for the updates, and we'd love to get together again really soon. Love, Jamie
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 11:06 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I am SO happy your dad is doing well. That is awesome and I am thrilled. I caught Oprah and it was touching and really insightful. Reese is getting big!!! I have Darien this weekend and after a day with her, I am ready for some MAJOR sleep...
Kristi
- Friday, March 2, 2007 9:56 PM CST
Carol,
Yet again I am left in tears after reading your entry. And yet such hopeful tears! I enjoy reading all you have to offer! I unfortunately am one of those moms who sometimes starts the day off, with my children, not so positively. And then they leave for school and I am left with such an empty feeling. Your point about the kids and the tornado really hit home. I hope the one thing I take away from that is to cherish the mornings. It won't always be smooth, but I do want my children always remembering how much I love them...NO MATTER WHAT!
I am very glad your dad is doing well. Your parents must be VERY proud of you and the way you have carried yourself through such adversity. If your mothers' life was not so easy, then it appears you have learned from an amazing women!
Thank you again for opening yourself up to all of us out here still thinking and praying for you!!
((((((HUGS))))))
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 4:25 PM CST
Dear Aunt Carol,
Me and my mom watched Oprah yesterday and it was really good, she cried!! I hope all is well up there. I love you all!!
caroline fry <Dcacats226@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, Tn 37138 - Friday, March 2, 2007 4:24 PM CST
CAROL AS USUAL WHEN I READ ONE OF YOUR ENTRIES, YOU PUT SO MANY THINGS INTO PERSPECTIVE! YOU HELP ME BE A BETTER PARENT! PRAYING HARD FOR YOU TO BECOME A LITTLE LESS STUCK!
SHERI FUSON
BAKERSFIELD , CA KERN - Friday, March 2, 2007 2:19 PM CST
Carol,
So glad to hear your Dad is doing better. It is hard to watch our parents age. I love the picture of Reese, she is growing so fast. I also can't get over how tall Reagan is, she seems to tower over all the other soccer players on our team (good for us when we play the Tn. teams). Anyway I was just checking in and when I read your story about heart ache and blessing, I again was reminded of the song Praise you in the storm by Casting Crowns. I have made that the motto for my life. God doesn't promise us all easy times, but He promises to see us through the hard times. That song reminds me to keep going and keep praying. I continue to pray for you all-Miller family. Take care and hope to see you soon.
Love, Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 2:14 PM CST
Hey Carol--sweet picture of Reese--she is getting so big! I also caught part of Oprah yesterday--it was a very touching show--yesterday afternoon was one of those days where all the kids were grumpy and one was sick, and no matter what I said or did, it was definitely the WRONG thing(life with teenagers!)--anyway, watching part of that show certainly made me realize how blessed I am even when it's one of those days--Rick and I were talking during dinner(8:30p.m.-:) and he said in a few years we will be wanting grumpy kids and chasing to be going on since they'll all be grown up--how true! Thank you once again for reminding us to relish every minute of each day and to never forget the I love you's--I think we're all given difficult situations while we're here on earth, but with God's grace and support, we can make it through; some people certainly seem to get more than their fair share, but I am a true believer that because of our difficult times, we are more compassionate and see the world in an entirely different light--thank you once again for your heartfelt honesty--Love always-Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 12:16 AM CST
Carol, It was so good to see you at the store yesterday. I only wish there had been time to chat with you! Yes, I did see Oprah, and thought to myself that it was a God thing that I saw you yesterday, and then saw Oprah. As my thoughts immediately went to you when I heard the beautiful woman sharing her story. You continue to be an inspiration to me, and I would love to visit and catch up sometime!
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
- Friday, March 2, 2007 11:13 AM CST
I was logging on to tell you about the Oprah show! I'm so glad that you saw it. I thought of your family. I still am in awe of how much we learn from complete strangers. Your family inspires me.
Many blessings....
Jill Nuebel <jillnuebel@hotmail.com>
Wyoming, M N USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 10:56 AM CST
Carol--- you bring me to tears with your honesty. If you want a transcript of yesterday's Oprah-or maybe to connect with that woman--go to Oprah.com. The episode is on there. You could offer each other so much.
I pray for your dad--as I lost mine suddenly 5.5 years ago.....Life is too short. Glad to hear you have a musical bed home too!! My husband works in CA (we are in Oregon)-- Mondays-Thursday nights and that is 3 nights and 3 kids, 12, 9 and 6. Each take a night...crazy, but I love it!!
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Friday, March 2, 2007 10:09 AM CST
Carol, good to hear from you. It always makes me feel better to hear from you and you help me put things in perspective. I don't always count my blessings enough. I think I do with my kids because I do know how fortunate I am to have two great healthy kids. They are my ray of sunshine and about the only thing that keeps me going. There are other areas of my life not going so great that I don't thank God for when I know they could be so much worse. I pray and pray for help and change and like you have said, when none comes, discouragement and disappointment follows. Enough of that, I'm so glad your dad is doing good and hope all test results continue to come back good. Glad you've had a good week and hope you have an even better weekend!! Love ya, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, March 2, 2007 9:43 AM CST
Carol,
So good to hear from you!! I am so glad to hear your dad is doing well. Yes, I watched Oprah yesterday and thought about you. I kept waiting for Oprah to say the lady wrote a book -- I was ready to buy it for you. :) I pray you will have a restful weekend -- no more basketball for us, so maybe we'll get to sleep in too. Doubt it, since all of our kids are early risers. So not like their mom!! I must say that as much as I hate them getting up at 6 on Saturdays, it sure does make school mornings a lot easier.
Take care of yourself.
Lots of love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, March 2, 2007 9:19 AM CST
Just stopping by to let you know I am thinking of you all. I am going to pick Darien up in a couple hours and will have her till Monday night, despite the fact I have ONE week of classes left, then finals week and a ton of stress from school. I can't wait to have her around.
I am continuing to pray for your dad, Carol, and hope when you post again, you can continue on with good news and him... Your family will always be in my prayers. Sending much love,.
Kristi
- Friday, March 2, 2007 6:56 AM CST
Hey Carol,
You've been heavy on my mind and in my heart these days...
How's your dad doing, how are YOU?
Please don't leave us hanging, I'm starting to worry!
Love you girlfriend,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Thursday, March 1, 2007 6:19 PM CST
Praying for your dad and your family. Love you.
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, March 1, 2007 3:20 PM CST
Carol---I sit here daily and check in on you, and am so sad to think you must be in that position to be 'the strong one' for you family. I am only thinking good thoughts for your dad and each day you do not update worries me. I hope I am over-reacting and that life is just crazy right now.
For the person wanting to know how to get kids to sleep in:
My theory is that they all have their body clocks. I have tried keeping mine up late--they seem to get up earlier!!! I think as they grow they sleep better--I think the little ones are easier to get startled in the night.
Anyway, please know we all are here and are sending the best we can your way!!
Miss you!!--even Reagan has not posted in a bit :(
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Thursday, March 1, 2007 1:17 PM CST
carol
thinking of you and praying for your dad
mrs pam
- Thursday, March 1, 2007 8:50 AM CST
Dear Carol, Thinking and praying for you today. I hope everyone is well. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, March 1, 2007 8:12 AM CST
Carol,
I was just thinking about your family and hoping that this has been a much better week for everyone.
Lots of prayers,
Astra
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 10:20 PM CST
Dear Millers,
I am praying that your dad is doing much better, and y'all are getting somewhat of a peaceful week. (Is that even possible with 3 girls...I know it is not possible over here, and I only have 2!) =)
Thinking of you and praying always.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 6:00 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I needed a break from all my BFKS planning, so I just had to check in on you since I've honestly not checked in a couple of weeks due to work, yuck!! I feel that I've been a lousy friend and parent lately!! I missed you at church Sunday but understand that church is difficult too. I appreciate you sharing your heart with me Friday night the way you did, and I understand (as much as I can without having gone thru what you have) how you feel. I hope to have more talks and visits with you after BFKS is over. And, we still have your raincheck to take care of, ha ha!
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 4:40 PM CST
Dear Carol, Praying that this week has been a good week and an uneventful week. I pray everyone is well. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 8:23 AM CST
Carol~ I am hoping that you and your Dad have had an improved week. Thinking about you and your sweet family.
On a not so important note......enjoyed watching your TN vols beat Fla. :) Take care and keep on the lookout for some more pics sometime soon.
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 7:43 AM CST
Carol:
I went to church and lit a candle for your dad. You are in my prayers as always. Love you much sweet lady!!!!
Bernadette Mullen <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Wednesday, February 28, 2007 6:11 AM CST
hello miller family this is my first time visiting your sight i got your site off of nikis sons caringbridge page my daughter has aperts like isaiah and i talk to her often over the computer.i just wanted to say that i was reading your journal i tried to read as far back as i could to learn a little about your family.wow what can i say i didnt have a dry eye the entire time.you are truely an inspiration to other mothers.by any means i cant imagine what you have been through you and your family it is so hard to understand why so many things happen in ones lifetime.when my daughter was born everyone told me everything happens for a reason and god wont give you more then you can handle and i tell you in the beginning i was so overwhelmed with consuming everything my daughter would have to go through but as time goes on i believe that is true.having access to this caring bridge sight and being able to talk to not only other families with children that have the same syndrome as my daughter but to also be able to learn so much about other families and what they have been through. as i read your journal in some of your updates i felt lke i was reading what i often think and or feel.anyhow i feel like im rambling on alls i wanted to say was you seem lke such an amazing person and mother to all your children.your boys pictures are so precious and will remain with me for a lifetime.i wish nothing but the best for your family.your girls are beautiful are well.and remember earth they say is only one phase of a persons journey .and in the end you will be with your whole family.much love to you and your family your story has touched me deeply.i hope your dad remains in good health.i will check in often to see how you are doing.much respect to you.stacey
stacey <s.babbitt@comcast.net>
brick, nj - Monday, February 26, 2007 9:19 PM CST
Im soooo sorry....I meant to say that you and your family are a blessing TO me...not "from" me....now you see why I rarely write...I get in a hurry and then don't proofread...oh well, maybe you smiled about it!!! Maybe it was the Lord's will, because I also wanted to tell you that I hope your dad gets better...he is also in my prayers! God bless! Kris
Kristi Metz <metzk@jackson.k12.al.us>
Scottsboro, AL - Monday, February 26, 2007 12:15 AM CST
I stop by and read your posts as often as I can....I am a pediatric Occupational Therapist with 3 children of my own. It is so inspiring to hear your comments and to pick up on the warmth and love of your family! I just wanted you to know that YOU and YOUR FAMILY are a blessing from me!!! Each time I read your words, I am reminded of just how precious life truly is!! Thank you!! May God richly bless you and your loved ones! You are in my prayers! Kristi *ROMANS 8:28*
Kristi Metz <metzk@jackson.k12.al.us>
Scottsboro, AL USA - Monday, February 26, 2007 11:58 AM CST
Carol, I am so thankful that your Dad is okay. I pray everything will be okay for him in the next few weeks. Please let me know if there is anything that I may do for you. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, February 26, 2007 8:32 AM CST
Carol, so thankful your dad is okay!! He has two precious angels up there looking out for him!!! Will continue to pray for you and your family!! You do not need any more stress!! Love you and always thinking about you!! Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, February 26, 2007 7:53 AM CST
Dear Carol and Family,
I haven't posted in your guest book recently (due to lack of time) but I have been reading your updates. I so appreciate the time you take to write in the journal. I am sorry about the scare with your dad but am so glad that he is now doing well. Please know that I think of you all frequently and will never forget your precious boys.
As always, you continue to be in my prayers.
Love,
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Saturday, February 24, 2007 11:01 PM CST
Carol and family,
I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you all and my prayers for your dad are storming the heavens... Hang in there and keep the faith. With love.
Kristi
- Saturday, February 24, 2007 9:10 PM CST
Carol,
Thank goodness your father is ok. I know what a feeling it is for a parent to have a stroke. I feel that we are still living with mom's everyday. There are times when she seems fine and others she gets confused on who I am. It is so hard to go through. Take care and know you and your family are being thought about.
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Saturday, February 24, 2007 8:13 AM CST
Dear Carol~ I am so glad that everything worked out ok for your Dad. I will keep him in my prayers. Hope you all have a restful and stress free weekend as possible.
Thinking of you all....Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Friday, February 23, 2007 11:51 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I am so glad your Dad is OK. What an anxious week this must have been. We will keep you in our prayers.
Sincerely,
Christa
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Friday, February 23, 2007 9:51 PM CST
Carol,
I was shocked to read your update. I know how much your parents mean to you and I will keep them in my prayers. It does sound like your Dad is on the road to recovery and I am happy to hear that.
Let me know if I can give you a hand this week!
With many prayers for your whole family,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, February 23, 2007 9:38 PM CST
Carol---- thank GOD your dad is ok--what more do you need??? I check here at least 3x per day--and am so sorry I was excited to hear from you--but saddened as to why.
Love you
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, February 23, 2007 9:38 PM CST
What a scary thing to happen! Hope your dad is feeling better. Let me know how things progress. I will be praying for him! LeeAnn
leeann crawley <crawley@insightbbl.com>
- Friday, February 23, 2007 8:13 PM CST
Oh Carol!
I'm just so blessed you dad is OK!!! Glad you felt all the love that was coming your way.
Lots of love to you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Baton Rouge, LA - Friday, February 23, 2007 7:35 PM CST
(((((((CAROL))))))
I am so THANKFUL that your dad is okay! I know Reid and Randon were watching over their grandpa. I am just thankful he recovered. God is amazing! He and your whole family will remain in my prayers. Sending lots of love down your way (and some snow for the girls! We still have a TON)
Kristi
- Friday, February 23, 2007 4:58 PM CST
Carol,
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad! I will definitely be praying for him. Let me know if there is anything I can do for your parents. I can't be much help this week since the flu has hit our home, but I'm hoping everyone will be well next week.
Lots of love and prayers and a giant hug,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, February 23, 2007 4:52 PM CST
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Karen
- Friday, February 23, 2007 4:37 PM CST
Carol, Just checking in. I am so glad to hear you all made the study. Hopefully, you'll at least get some answers and maybe a little closure. I am also greatful to hear that your Dad was ok. I hope he continues to do well.
We are looking forward to the first soccer game this weekend. Sam seems very nice and I hear he is a great coach. Hope to see you on the soccer field.
Take care. Love to all--\
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
BG, Ky USA - Friday, February 23, 2007 4:19 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Thanks for the update. I am so sorry to hear about your dad but thanking God that he is still here with you and sounds to be doing okay. Hang in there. You are dealing with alot! Sending big hugs!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, February 23, 2007 3:03 PM CST
Oh Carol - I am so sorry to hear about your Dad - Wow - what a blessing that he did not have a massive stroke. I pray that everything continues to go well - those arteries can sure cause havock... So - so glad it worked out like it did... Thinking of and praying for all of you.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowlling Green, KY - Friday, February 23, 2007 2:58 PM CST
Dear Carol, you are such an inspiration. I pray your week was a good one. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, February 23, 2007 9:26 AM CST
Carol,
Your most recent entry was especially insightful, inspiring, and encouraging. What wisdom you have given through your perspectives on pain in our lives as a fact of life, especially the comment about not wanting to be what you were before you lost Reid and Randon. Beauty from ashes! My prayers continue for you and your family.
Susan Breeding <susanbreeding@hotmail.com>
Plano, TX - Friday, February 23, 2007 0:22 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Sending a great big hug to you tonight...I'm so sorry you are in such pain.
I know there is nothing anyone can say to make it better, but I do care, and I'm here.
Thanks for being so real,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying for God's grace.........................................., - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 8:14 PM CST
CAROL, YOU MAY NOT THINK THAT YOUR AMAZING, BUT I DO! READING YOU ENTRIES AND HOW YOU HAVE HANDLED ALL THE BAD WITH THE GOOD INSPIRES ME TO 1. HAVE A BETTER REALTIONSHIP WITH GOD AND 2. HAVE A BETTER REALTIONSHIP WITH MY DAUGHTERS. THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR FAMILY!
SHERI FUSON
BAKERSFIELD , CA KERN - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 6:54 PM CST
Carol,
I just wanted you to know that you saved me last night!!! I never knew just how helpful it would be not to have to stop by the grocery on my way home. This is the first time we have not had to do that and wow what a difference you made. Timmy's comment was "wow she gets good stuff!". Thought you would find that humerous!
I also really enjoyed my time with you and the girls. Reese and Isaiah were so funny, I thought they were going to bring out boxing gloves over your lap!!!! We really did enjoy the company though. It made me stop cleaning things and take a break with some of the most wonderful friends ever.
Again you will never know how much last night meant, thank you.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
I will call you tonight when I get Isaiah to sleep....by the way do you think Reese could teach him to sleep in, he got up at 5 this morning!, - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 5:48 PM CST
Hi-I often stop by to check on you and today I found your entry to be just what I needed to hear. I too have lost a son (1 day before his 4th birthday) but I cannot begin to imagine your pain. It was 2 years ago last week that Stanton earned his wings and I was a little frustrated with myself because so many said that the pain would get better. Last week I made the same comment, about it was never going to get easier and that I really didn't even want it to and believe me I got some strange looks. I tried to explain that my new goal is going to be to put the pain into a manageable part of my life. Thank you for being so honest. It does help those of us who are struggling in our own ways.
Jeff, Tina, Hayden and Forever Angel Stanton www,caringbridge.org/la/stanton <stantonhaynes@yahoo.com>
Minden, La - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 3:24 PM CST
Hi Carol--just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you--I enjoyed your latest entry--your honesty and as always the inspiration I receive from it--I know you may think your family is not exciting, but oh what wonderful things we have learned from you all and continue to learn from your entries. I'm off to Cincinnati for an appointment with Abbye--we're hoping this is the one where they say come back in 6 months!!!! Continuing to think of you all and always keeping you in my prayers--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 7:23 AM CST
Hello Miller Family,
I haven't posted in a while, but I still think about you all of the time, and hope that you are finding lots of love and laughter at you home. Carol, one of the first times that I e-mailed to you, we talked about the Heaven Band-ade, and that neither of us found all of the comfort that we need in that theory--although we certainly both do believe in Heaven. I told you that I always feel like I have to have an answerer for everything, and their must be a reason for everything that happens in the world. Although I am constantly reminding myself of "Blind Faith", Sometimes I just get frustrated and wonder why God doesn't show us the purpose of everything. Well I ran across this poem, and it at least gives me something to hold on to until I'm able to meet HIM face to face. As wonderful as you family is, and so full of love and caring, I can picture two little boys(Reid and Randon) that wanted to be together forever, and both wanted to be heros in the eyes of God. I do find comfort in thinking that they made this decision and this plan with God and with each other, so many many years ago. I hope you enjoy this story.
The Brave Little Soul
By: John Alessi
Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. She especially enjoyed the love she saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day she saw suffering in the world. She approached God and sadly asked, “Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?” God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people’s hearts.” The little soul was confused. “What do you mean,” she asked.” God replied, “Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone.” The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, “The suffering soul unlocks the love in people’s hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this - it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer - to unlock this love – to create this miracle - for the good of all humanity."
Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain herself. With her wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people’s hearts! I want to create that miracle!" God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you. God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced.
In parting, God said, “Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.” Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through her suffering and God’s strength, she unlocked the goodness and love in people’s hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys – some regained lost faith – many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Tuesday, February 20, 2007 3:55 PM CST
Thinking of you today.
Tina & Angel Lance
- Monday, February 19, 2007 4:04 PM CST
Hi Carol,
I just finished reading your website and want to thank you for sharing your story and continuing to share your story--your feelings, your reactions, etc. I have thyroid cancer and I have similar feelings to yours because of it. I lost quintuplets 25 years ago this upcoming Easter and although their time here was very brief, my heart is still empty. I had a daughter before them and a daughter and son after them who I thank God for on a daily basis but still...that longing for the quints is there.
I want to thank you also for being willing to say it how it is concerning your thoughts and feelings. Everyone else(books/groups/people) want to pretty it up, and not call a spade a spade. You keep it real and I'm so appreciative.
I've come to embrace your family and do enjoy your updates. It embodies the theory that life goes on but it also remembers what was and what is.
Just wanted to let you know how your site has affected me. Bless you and your family.
Ness
Belleville, IL - Monday, February 19, 2007 10:51 AM CST
Hi Carol~ I hope you all had a great weekend is this winter wonderland of KY. Thank you for your wonderful thoughts and wisdom that you shared on your last update. I appreciate all of your insight to this life. YOU are awesome and write with such honesty and truthfulness that so many of us can relate to in our own lives. Hope Dale and the girls are well and were able to get a little fun/sledding out of the snow. Have a wonderful week. Megan
meganmg@alltel.net <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Monday, February 19, 2007 9:17 AM CST
Thoughts & prayers from Georgia.
love, Susan
Susanmvt@aol.com <Susanmvt@aol.com>
Peachtree City, GA - Monday, February 19, 2007 4:30 AM CST
Carol---have you PONDERED the glue question yet......
SAG--you're it!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, February 18, 2007 1:05 PM CST
Carol---have you PONDERED the glue question yet......
SAG--you're it!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, February 18, 2007 1:04 PM CST
But you are extraordinary - never forget that!!
Love,
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
- Sunday, February 18, 2007 11:30 AM CST
Carol,
I have been one of your avid readers for months now. Your mundane life brings with it the truth of how life is in a family that has had to deal with more than its share of pain and grief. Your girls on the other hand bring with your stories laughter of how funny life can be. Reese and the wedding episode and Riley and her ear piercings. I guess you could saya your life is like a an ongoing book with an author who is one heck of a writer.Like someone else wrote, we are so hoping for some closure to be found with the study you have begun regarding your sons. Each entry is like another chapter in your book of life. We all get something different out of it, but mostly we all pray it helps you to heal in some way or another. You are a wonderful person with so much to offer to your family and friends even those of us out here in "cyberville" I am sure you will know when the time is right to close your sons site. You are forever in my prayers. As I have said before your entries make me feel closer to God and make me cherish my girls more so than ever. You are truly ministering God's word through your journaling. You are so deserving to be blessed by God and may you find peace and comfort in your daily routine of life. My prayers are with you and your family.
maria newcomb <ganashman@aol.com>
- Sunday, February 18, 2007 8:46 AM CST
I think I have only signed the guestbook once but I check your site a couple of times a week. I am in awe at what an awesome woman and mother you are. Even though I lost both my parents within four months this past year and the pain still dwells within me, I can't imagine loosing two of my children. The love of a child is so deep it is hard to explain to those who don't have children. I am a mother who has birthed two sons and adopted a daughter and the love is the same. This past week God blessed me with my second grandaughter and I thought of you and your boys while looking at her moments after her birth. Your right, it is not suppose to be the way it was for you and your sons but God must have a plan and we are yet to see it. You give me strength and such courage with your deep and honest entries. You continue to post as long as you feel the need and I personally will continue to lift you up in prayer that you may find some kind of peace for what has been laid upon you. Again I must say that you are one incrediable lady and I know that your sons and the rest of your family must be extremely proud of who you are.
In Christ Love
Natalie Berry <gracie60@yahoo.com>
Scottsville, KY USA - Saturday, February 17, 2007 9:48 PM CST
Carol,
Thank you for your honest updates. I appreciate them so much because I always come away with more wisdom and it helps me be a better person and friend. You are doing very well, in my opinion, after all that you've been through. I pray for God's grace to be upon you and His healing hand upon your heart. Your girls are blessed to have you as their mom and your boys were, too.
Janet DeRosier <janet @derohero.com>
Brooklyn Center, MN - Saturday, February 17, 2007 6:59 PM CST
Hi Carol,
I come to Reid and Radon's site three or four times a week. I don't think I have ever signed. I enjoy reading about your family and the hope that you will have answers to your questions about the boys. I understand if you feel that you want to shut the site down. It will be sad not hearing about your family, it would be like loosing a good friend. Always thinking about you and you family.
Beth DaCunha <betha228@yahoo.com>
Londonderry, NH - Saturday, February 17, 2007 5:33 PM CST
I am not good about responding to your comments, but reading them always makes me re-think my own life and priorites. I continue to pray for all of you and for continued healing. Your boys were asssured of your love. You have an incredible blessing waiting for you in heaven!! give your girls a hug from the crawley clan.
leeann crawley <crawley@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky - Saturday, February 17, 2007 12:16 AM CST
Hey you----- You stay on here until the story has some sort of a happy ending--with the study and all. We want to know that somehow you get some answers and some prayers answered. We love reading about your mundane life--makes us feel like we are (either) just like you or insanely overbusy and not appreciating what we have in our lives.
I will personally come out there and razz you if you leave us hanging. Even the soaps come back after the weekends!!
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Saturday, February 17, 2007 11:58 AM CST
((((((((CAROL))))))) Your entries are an inspiration to so many and so many of us, because of Reid and Randon, have came to love your family and those two angels. I know I am normally a guest book "book" writer but my dear, I will leave it at this, you are an amazing woman and your inspiration has changed my life. For the better...
Kristi
- Friday, February 16, 2007 9:36 PM CST
Carol, I just want you to know I hold you close in my heart and pray for your peace. I don't hope you get over this, I just don't want you to be in so much pain, I want you to feel the love that so many of us have for you and your whole family. Just know that I understand, really. I agree with you that you are doing a good job of handling what has happened to you! I don't think I could do the same. So I do look to you for comfort and guidance, in a sense, that we can survive with God's grace. If you've ever heard the song by Mariah Carey--"Hero", then you'll understand what you do for me when I feel things in my world are too much. You may be normal, but mostly you are just real and that is so cool!! You don't make the rest of us feel like we are not right. By sharing your feelings and getting it out, you make us feel normal, too. I hope that makes sense. I definitely do not think that what happened to your sweet baby boys is normal in any way, and you must be right, there must have been a purpose we just cannot see yet. I'm hanging with you as long as you'll let me. :) your friend,
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, Ga - Friday, February 16, 2007 8:13 PM CST
Carol,
I was reading a book the other day and came across a quote I wanted to share with you. After reading your update it just seems to fit. It's from Elisabeth Elliot, the wife of Jim Elliot, the murdered missionary. "Sometimes, life is so hard you can only do the next thing. Whatever that is, just do the next thing. God will meet you there."
I pray that you will continue to take one step at a time, and that you will feel God's presence with you every step of the way -- whether it's forward or back.
Lots of love and prayers,
Erika <jmannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, February 16, 2007 4:18 PM CST
Carol,
As I sit at my computer with tears rolling down my face, I continue to be amazed at how you have the strength to even write the words you do, and the hope and encouragement you share with all of us that check this site daily.
I don’t have any idea of how much your hurt, grieve, and mourn. I wanted to sign in today you just to tell you how much you help me as I parent my little Harrison and I can’t image how much your words have to help other parents that have lost a child or who are looking the possibility in the face.
Every night when Harrison begins to cry and my selfish body wants to complain about getting up every 2 or 3 hours, I immediately think of you and how you would love to get up with your boys. So while I feed Harrison, I pray and thank God for him, and then I pray for you and your family that you will continue to have the strength to live day to day. So know that prayers are coming your way even while your sleep.
Ann Kelly Parkhurst <prkhrjo6@aol.com>
- Friday, February 16, 2007 3:20 PM CST
Thanks for continuing to update your site. I've learned so much from you about grief. Your observations are so true- mostly that we should never make assumptions about how "easy" or "great" someone else's life is. You just never know what battles they are facing and what has happened in their lives. Thank you for writing, and please continue to honor your sons' memories by sharing your experience with all of us. I believe you don't feel like a hero, and it's impossible to know why you've been dealt so much pain.........however, you are inspirational in how you've made a choice to continue really LIVING and cherishing life.
Megan <MEWohlwend@aol.com>
IL - Friday, February 16, 2007 3:09 PM CST
Hi Carol!
What a touching update! Thanks for all of the encouragement (that you always give).
I must admit that I am now one of those who are very jealous of you...HOW DO YOU GET YOUR CHILD TO SLEEP UNTIL 9:00??? Please, send me some advice. =) We have very early risers over here.
Please don't ever shut this site down, but if you do, I will understand...I will just have to e-mail you daily!
Have a great weekend!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Friday, February 16, 2007 3:06 PM CST
Dear Carol, what a great entry!! I hope you continue to keep the site going! I so enjoy keeping up with my old neighbors!! I'm so glad you guys made the study!! I hope you get some of the answers I know you must so want to know!! All joking aside, you have to decide for yourself when the website is no longer beneficial for you. I think you have a ton of readers who still love to read about your family and your feelings because you are such a great writer and you inspire us all!! But if the time comes when this is not good for you anymore, then you have to do what's best for Carol and her family! I love you and miss you guys!! Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, February 16, 2007 1:38 PM CST
Dear Carol, I love you. Pat
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
bowling Green, ky - Friday, February 16, 2007 12:10 AM CST
Carol,
I don't sign very often, but I check your page daily for updates. I too, as others do, look to your updates for wisdom. I have been one of those that say, God knows that I couldn't handle it. Now I know that was selfish because...who could or even would say that they could handle that. I think as an outsider that there could be nothing worse then losing a child, but as long as you have God in your life, I believe that you could go on, despite the pain you would feel the rest of your life. I would hate to think what would happen to those that didn't have God in their lives after a tragedy. I hope you choose to keep writing for as long as you feel the need. I know since I have started reading, I feel like I have a better understanding of how I should act and feel towards those that have gone through such tragic situations. I don't want to be the person who speaks out of turn, or says something that is insensitive. I know I will never comphrehend the pain, but I am so thankful that you are able to share your feelings so that we can learn from you...so we know how we should be react around others that have gone through similar tragedies. Thank you again for being so open and sharing your life with strangers.
Penny <pennywarwick77@hotmail.com>
BG, Ky - Friday, February 16, 2007 11:37 AM CST
I don't sign very often, but I do read all your entries. I'm praying for you, that God would give you his grace, peace,and comfort. I don't know why your precious boys lived such a short life, but I do know that God gave them to you because you were the best mother they could ever have. I wish that somehow, words could make everything all right and take away your pain, but if there are such words, I don't have them. So just know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!
Megan Dutill
- Friday, February 16, 2007 11:33 AM CST
Thank you so much for your honesty. As painful as it is to go through, I think it does help to be able to open up about your feelings. I appreciate you thinking of us, mainly Connor, on Valentine's Day.
You are forever in my prayers, I hope to be able to meet up one day, maybe meet half way for lunch?
With love, hugs and prayers,
Rhonda Hunley, Forever Connor's Mommy
<rshunley@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Friday, February 16, 2007 11:32 AM CST
You are so articulate and are an inspiration. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers
tricia <triciabxny@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 16, 2007 10:43 AM CST
Dearest Carol,
It has been a crazy morning around here and as I sat down to send a couple of emails and check on Isaiah...I thought to myself, "Boy, could I use a dose of wisdom and hope from Carol." I don't know how long you will continue to update, but what I do know is that God continues to use your postings to minister to me. I just wish there was some way that I could express to you how different I see things now. As you said, I am not always successful in living as I preach, but how I do try to cherish each and every moment not only with my girls, but just every moment. There are days when I still sweat the small stuff entirely too much, but how freeing it has been to quit worrying about the little things like a clean house, the right this or that, and especially what other people think.
I wish I was as good with words as you are because I am really struggling here in expressing what I want to say. I guess I just really wanted to sign in and once again say thank you for what you have taught me and most of all for your friendship. It truly is an honor to know you and to continue on this journey of life with you. My prayer is that God will continue to use us to sharpen each other and that all of us will learn to walk closer to Him. May we get better each day in living lives that truly bring glory to Him.
Hoping you have a wonderful weekend filled with laughter!
Much love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Friday, February 16, 2007 10:41 AM CST
I have visited your site daily for sometime now and find great support from reading your posts. I lost my son February 20, 2006 after living 59 minutes after birth. I too struggle daily and somewhat find it helpful to read about other people's feelings who are grieving also. Thanks for sharing your feelings and story for all of us. Also, can you tell me the song you have playing on your page? I love it and would like to find the artist.
Nichole Galloway <collee24@hotmail.com>
IL - Friday, February 16, 2007 10:07 AM CST
Hi,
I have visited your site many times but I don't sign. I lost my son at 8 years old to mitochondrial disease on 12/29/06. I am walking this path with you. I just found a great book called Holding Onto Hope by Nancy Guthrie. She lost her daughter at 7 months and then later her son at 6 months to a genetic disorder. Her book was very inspirational to me.
Praying that you continue to have the strength to face each day. Know that you are not alone in this.
Donna and Angel^Kyle^ Noble www.caringbridge.org/oh/kyle <donnanoble2001@yahoo.com>
Grove City, Oh USA - Friday, February 16, 2007 9:47 AM CST
Carol, thank you for checking in on Tanner.
I want you to know that I think of you every day.
Love, and prayers, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, February 15, 2007 7:58 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Hope you and hubby have a wonderful day today. You have a lot of love to celebrate, it's carried you through so much. Be blessed my friend, and enjoy!
Sending lots of love your way today and everyday,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
So blessed to call you my friend............................, - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 9:17 AM CST
Dear Carol,
I am so glad to hear about the study. I hope it is producitve. I am a person who likes answers so I know that not having any would have to be gut wrenching.
Thank you for your kind words. I am sure Zack's birthday will be difficult but you are right the anticipation is worse. Reese's birthday party looked like so much fun. I miss those "simple" birthday parties where everyone goes home after a few hours....instead of at 10:00am the next day. My sister-in-law also is one who has EVERYTHING match. Napkins, plates, cups, balloons, you name it. I, on the other hand, usually forget to buy those essential things and have to end up using whatever is on hand! Have a great day...we are digging out of the snow.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, February 14, 2007 8:17 AM CST
That is great about you being accepted to the study! I really hope that you get some answers! What a blessing that would be!
I think about you often and miss seeing you since soccer has been over. Whitney (our oldest) is playing soccer again for Harding University in Arkansas. She is loving it!! So I guess we will get to go to Arkansas to see some games. Hope to see you sometime soon!
Glenda Babcock <gcbabcock@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, February 13, 2007 10:47 PM CST
Hey Carol--that's great about the study--so happy that you are eligible and can maybe find some answers--thinking of you all each and every day and keeping you and your parents in our prayers! Love, Gail p.s. Great ear piercing and cake stories:):):)
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, February 12, 2007 8:43 AM CST
Wonderful news on the study. I'm praying much needed answers come your way. Also praying for Isaiha.
Peace, love, and happiness,
Gabby
Gabby Springs <gabbysprings@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, Ky usa - Sunday, February 11, 2007 10:41 PM CST
GREAT NEWS!!!!! So glad about the study!! We'll be praying for some answers. Love y'all!
JPMKT & ???
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Saturday, February 10, 2007 10:22 PM CST
WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mom.
Author © Unknown
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Saturday, February 10, 2007 7:39 PM CST
mommy,
happy valentines day! GOD and JESUS will help you have a good one and are with you!
a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Saturday, February 10, 2007 4:43 PM CST
Carol,
I am so happy about the study! I pray that everything works out for you guys! Okay, the earring story had me laughing out loud...literally! That sounds like something that would happen to me! The cake looked great in the pictures...no harm done!
Have a great, wonderful week!
Carol S.
Carol Stice
- Saturday, February 10, 2007 3:51 PM CST
Valentines...... To Heaven
This Valentine is not of the ordinary kind,
Its still filled with love...and blessings inside;
But mine has to be sent on the wings of love...
You see its destination is the Heavens above.
Its not being sent to my parents so dear,
For they are still with me each day of the year;
Its being sent to my child...who left earth so soon,
Who's now in the Heavens with the stars and the moon.
The message is the same as your valentine,
"I love you...my sweet precious child of mine;
My love is still deeper than the ocean is blue,
And its sent with hugs and kisses...from me to you."
"I know you are with me each and every day,
You listen as I talk to you...and hear what I say;
For that is one thing that disease cannot do...
...you'll always be apart of me...and me a part of you."
"I know God did not give you the awful disease,
Thank Him for His comfort He gives me...would you please?
I dont know what I would do without His undying love...
Sent to bereaved parents from the Heavens above."
"I know you are in the best of care,
But it's so hard for us left on earth to bear;
Could you put in a request from us left behind...
For God to send the knowledge..so a cure we can find."
"So that no other family has to go through this pain,
Our lives without you will never be the same;
When I get lonely I will look to the sky at night...
And see you shining down your big bright light."
**~
BRENDA~**MY LOVING DAD'S SITE WITH A NEW YEAR ANOTHER ANGEL <brurka@shaw.ca>****Edmonton~Alberta~Canada****, - Friday, February 9, 2007 9:35 PM CST
Congrats on the great news! You so deserve a break right now with everything you have had to endured. I am so happy the ear piercing ended up okay and that the JoJo cake was able to be mended. That totally sounds like something that would happen to me!
I still think you should give the writing of a book a chance, it would have everyone in tears and smiling at the same time! It would be great!
Lots of prayers,
Astra
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, February 9, 2007 4:40 PM CST
i love you so much!
a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST!!!!!!111!
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Friday, February 9, 2007 3:53 PM CST
THANK YOU GOD! I AM THRILLED ABOUT THE STUDY! I want to write more but it will be at a later date.
Kristi
- Friday, February 9, 2007 1:44 PM CST
Carol,
First of all, what wonderful updates! I was feeling a little gloomy today having just spent my first birthday yesterday without Larry when all the sudden I felt so much better. In your first update, I'm still inspired by your faith, courage and overall attitude towards things when I read something that really seemed to help me. You wrote "I try to no longer ask for a life without grief, but for a heart that can endure." That seemed to sum up my thoughts here lately and I thank for you sharing your feelings. On to the next update....I laughed so hard about the ear piercing story and the cake that my co-worker asked what all the fun was about. So for today, I appreciate your friendship and words of wisdom that always seem to help me realize life does go on even after heartache.
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Friday, February 9, 2007 1:16 PM CST
RILEY and Carol: I had to be 13 to get my ears pierced and they did not do both at one time 'back then'. The sound of the gun made me pierce my mother's arm with my fingernails as I clutched onto her arm. I hadn't thought about the pain until I was done freaking about the noise. I can still hear it. Needless to say--freshman year in college--I went and had the left one done again (as in two holes on that side) It was a thing everyone in the dorm was doing on day. Well, as I 'matured' I thought that was stupid to be uneven, so I went and had the right one done to match. Sooooooooooooo--I meet my second (now) husband and he had a 5 year old daughter. I was showing off with her one day and now have 3 holes on the left side!!! None of them are even sweetie--- but neither is your head!!! No one is going to look at you straight on and say--"oh my, your earrings are not even'.. If they do--give them my number
anyway--glad you are all being proactive and positive about getting answers--be it for your family or someone elses'. You are admirable beyond words.
The cake--at least it wasn't your wedding cake--or one of the girls'-------- gotta go--enjoy the weekend
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, February 9, 2007 10:11 AM CST
Carol,
I'm so excited for you to be in the study!! I pray that many questions will be answered for you. The Lord answered another big prayer this week -- Alicia got the official letter from insurance, so the transplant will be on Feb. 20th! Praise the Lord!! Alyssa is quite sad because Alicia's daughter, Bethany will have to be taken out of MDO. It's hard when your best friend won't be with you at school anymore -- I've promised as many playdates as possible.
Have a wonderful, healthy weekend with your family. So glad to hear that all are well. I will definitely be praying for your dad and mom!
Love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, February 9, 2007 8:40 AM CST
Short entry... I love you guys... And NOPE Reagan won't let anything go without prayer! I see her going to a Christian college:) I promise I will write more...
Krist
- Thursday, February 8, 2007 9:56 PM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Oh...times like this I wish more then ever I could just jump in my car and come over and just sit with you, cry with you, and then hopefully find something funny to laugh at after!
I'm so sorry you are missing your boys so much.
I was blessed to read Holly let you know about the study at NIH, I sure hope that works out for you.
About prayer, gosh...I know after my mom died, I went through a long period of time I couldn't pray either. I was definetly angry with God. She believed with all her heart she would be healed. I asked God many times, "what was so difficult for you?"
Many months later some one gave me this scripture and it was the beginning of a healing for me:
PS 40:2 "He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
3 He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord."
Grief is such HARD work. Reid and Randon are a part of you that is missing, how could it not be difficult?
I'll continue to pray for you Carol.
Lots of love and many, many hugs are coming your way,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
So blessed to call you my friend............................, - Thursday, February 8, 2007 8:30 PM CST
Dear Carol,
What a lovely heartfelt update. You put into words something I have felt, too, in this last year. The part about praying and whether I was doing it right. I bet there are others that have had these feelings at one time or another and just feel wrong about talking about it. In case others wouldn't understand. I do believe in the power of prayer, yet it was hard to accept that my fervent, heartfelt prayers were not enough to save a child, when they seemed to work so many times before.
I never even thought about the worry you must have for the girls in the future. You should have never had to go through losing two sons, no one should. You are so blessed with your girls and they are beautiful!! I wish I could do more to make you feel better, but I will pray for you and about this and hopefully there will be some answers for you with this research. For now, just know that I am here caring about you, and your family, and those beautiful babies, Reid and Randon. You will never be considered a big complainer by me. Because I think I can feel your pain and it just doesn't go away, we just get better at handling it I suppose.
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Atlanta, GA - Thursday, February 8, 2007 5:14 PM CST
I can't even imagine the fear and feelings of loss that you deal with on a daily basis. You sound like you have a great support system - hopefully, they know that your normal is very different from their's. I hope that the study helps and that you get some answers. You had 2 beautiful little boys - my heart breaks that they were taken from you. I know that they are very precious angels up in Heaven...
Wishing you some peace in your heart....
Kim Magnan <k_magnan@hotmail.com>
WI - Thursday, February 8, 2007 3:00 PM CST
I've got a great looking princess chair here , I hope to deliver it today to a special three year See ya Tim
Tim <tshultz@diamondequipment.com>
- Thursday, February 8, 2007 2:46 PM CST
I meant to say In depth . ooops! That is what I get for not proof reading what I wrote !
Lori
- Thursday, February 8, 2007 10:26 AM CST
what I love about your writings is that you are so honest! You say it as you feel it. Do you know what comfort that is to others who feel the same way ? TONS! Makes you feel not so out there ya know ? I totally understand the prayer thing! Your words are what I think at times. I have a friend who me and her have such in deth conversations and it is just so hard to understand why God seems to give one person so much to bear and then others not. Any wyas for fear or rambling I will stop now. But thank you for being so honest!
Lori
- Thursday, February 8, 2007 10:23 AM CST
I stop in here often and read your journals but I rarely leave a message -- sorry for that. Today I felt like I needed to respond for two reasons.
First, I can completely understand your hesitations about prayer. It seems sometimes that we pour ourselves into praying about something and it turns out completely different than we had hoped. That disappointment is not something that is casually put away or forgotten. It comforts me, and I hope it will you too, to know that when I seem unable to pray that there are still people who do on my behalf.
Second, I know that I am a carrier of a hereditary disease that both my brother and sister have been diagnosed with. I encourage you to do all that you can, and take advantage of any opportunities that may be available, to find out what details you can. While I wanted to have children, and my parents wanted grandchildren it was difficult knowing that I could pass this on to my children. My prayer will be that you will receive answers and the peace that you need for your daughters' futures.
Kristi Gerdon <kgerdon@widrick.com>
Croghan, NY - Thursday, February 8, 2007 9:47 AM CST
Carol,
I have read your site for awhile and know what you mean about the struggles with prayer. Our son was born with a combination of severe heart defects. He is doing well, but has had two surgeries and has one coming up on Feb. 23. He is two and a half. My husband is a Lutheran pastor. Even he struggles with the whys and prayer and God. It is so hard to hear people say, "God wouldn't give you more than you can handle." or "there is always a reason." or any other comments like that. Ok, then make me weak, let my son be ok. That's all we can handle.
I hope you are able to find a ray of light in each day through all the darkness. That sounds corny. It's ok to feel what you are feeling. I know I have some of the same feelings and I still have my son. Hang in there.
Susan Watson <susanwatson1999@hotmail.com>
Saint Paul, MN - Thursday, February 8, 2007 9:06 AM CST
Carol, so glad everyone is feeling better. Once again your writing was so touching and straight from the heart. I so hope you all are a candidate for the study because the unknown is the worst and sometimes knowing why, even though it might not change things, gives us a tiny sense of relief in knowing why things happened for both Reid and Randon the way they did and might provide you some answers for the girls' futures. Can't wait to hear your other stories! Mallory and I love to watch "What Not to Wear" also!! Gotta get back to work!! Love always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, February 8, 2007 8:36 AM CST
Dear Carol,
Thank you so much for continuing to be so open and honest while sharing your heart with us. I just know that God is using you to help others who are grieving right now, also. Although grief is different for everyone, you seem to explain the feelings of it so perfectly. I say all of that to say, you are helping me, and I know you are helping others as well.
I really can't wait to hear those 2 stories. Your family is a lot like ours...quite entertaining! =)
We love you guys and always keep you in our prayers.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, February 8, 2007 8:26 AM CST
Poor Reese.... Tell her Isaiah can still be her brother. He really needs a big sister to watch over him and since Reese has adopted him she is it....tell her not to drop him now!!!!! That is the saddest thing I have heard though...I wonder what made her come up with that out of the blue....I just love her!
I will call you tomorrow either on our way to Vandy or on our way home. Things got crazy this afternoon and I wasn't sure what time you would be up until.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Yes, Riley is sooooo funny, such the personality!!!! Like I have said before I love them all!, - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 10:22 PM CST
Carol:
Hoping that you find answers on your little boys. I can't image what you have gone through. I have 2 grown kids and now a 19 month old grandson and a granddaughter on the way - they are our life!! I lost my first husband when my kids were 18 months and 5 years old. It was tough; somehow God gave me the strength to go on..
Praying for you and your family.
Love,
Susan
Susan Kalb <kalbsusan@yahoo.com>
Redwood City, CA USA - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 10:01 PM CST
Carol,
Oh how I wish I lived close by. There is something about the way you write your journal entries. I feel as though we have met and are sitting across from each other in the living room! Thank you so much for opening your heart to us! I teach Religious Education to middle schoolers. Tonights lesson was on prayer! Prayers, no matter how they are said, are answered. Unfortunately they are not always answered the way we'd like them to be! We will remember you all in prayer, and we will pray that the study works out. I am grateful for the opportunity to pray for you and with you!
PS I love my cuddle moments with my girls also. When my oldest daughter crawls in by me I cherish that moment as long as I can. I know she won't always think its cool to cuddle...or maybe she will!!! My boys love to cuddle, too. Although its not always cool for a 14 year old boy to cuddle!! (Unless he's sick and then moms the best!)
Sending you many paryers and ((((HUGS))))!
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI US - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 8:51 PM CST
I'm waiting to hear about the cake and ear rings.
Sami starts at surviovor long term clinic Feb 28th. Check in for updates www.caringbridge.org/nj/samigray
Best Wishes
Sandy Gray <gray56@optonline.net>
Bridgewater, Nj USA - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 8:46 PM CST
Hi Carol,
My Mom buried two children (young adults) that were lost to cancer. The cancer was the result of a genetic disease. I know my mom worried for me. But luckily for us a talented doctor found the gene. I was tested and found out that I was a carrier. I was not going to have kids b/c of it but God had another plan and blessed me with two healthy girls, wonderful doctors, and an amazing genetic councellor. I now worry for my girls but I do know that it will be possible for them to have families if the wish.
I truly hope that this study finds answers to your questions. I know how much it meant to my family when it was all figured out and all of us girls were tested (young and old alike). I know this will give you some peace and I know from my own personal experience that it will help your girls.
Tracey <T.reed@shaw.ca>
Edmonton, AB Canada - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 4:41 PM CST
WHAT!!*#+#&---This is not Friday on the soap opera!! You cannot leave us hanging here with the stories!!! No no no!!!
Come back---encore, encore......
Carol--you have all the prayers you ask for and then some. Whether or not they directly answer your questions they will help someone, somewhere--and that is good. Your family has the ability to answer a lot of questions---let Reagan lead the way..........glad they are on the mend but I am really hoping you get back to us soon on the ear piercing thing and the cake thing........
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 4:13 PM CST
Carol,
As always, you touch me with your words! Thinking of you and hoping that the study turns out to be something you can participate in. So glad that everyone is well again!
Have a great day!
Carol Stice
Carol Stice
- Wednesday, February 7, 2007 3:35 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Once again, you are able to put into words everything that I am not. I so long to just sit with Zack on the couch and watch Leave It To Beaver (His all time favorite). Thank you.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Phildelphia, OH - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 3:19 PM CST
Hi Carol, I am praying that you guys will be picked for the study! Just a thought! I truly believe that even if we are not praying GOD knows your heart and hears you!
Sheri Fuson
Bakersfield, CA USA - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 3:07 PM CST
Carol,
Oh how I hope your family will be a canidate for this study. Answers won't bring the boys back but atleast it would help you understand more. Then you could know and I know that is what you need so much.
I am glad that everyone is feeling better. Tell Riley to enjoy herself during her break. I am sure that all of you are enjoying it as it makes for less running. Reese's party looked like a blast. I wish we could have come but surgery is just to close and with the flu going around. I was just nervous to bring him, now I kind of wish I had anyways.
I better go as Isaiah's therapist will be here soon. The days seem to be closing in on us as we prepare for Monday and NO I am not ready for Monday. I don't think I ever will be, to much change for me. Just hope it helps him some like they promise. Love you guys bunches.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
I will call you soon!, - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 2:09 PM CST
Carol, I pray for you and your family every day. I can't imagine how you get out of the bed each day. You're amazing, but I realize you do it for your daughters. You are teaching them life lessons they will never forget! Many prayers are being sent that NIH is the answer you're looking for. One of my favorite sayings is, "facts are friendly". If we know the facts, it makes it easier to deal with whatever it is. Much love, Sandy Stewart
Sandy Stewart <sassys458@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 1:45 PM CST
Our local radio station (KTIS) plays what I call "the Miller family song". They play it often and prayers go up for you every time I hear it. Praise the Lord for the hope we have that even Grandma Shirley from MN will see "the Miller boys" when we all get to heaven. "One day at a time, sweet Jesus, that's all we're asking" and sometimes it is just one hour or one minute. I just talked to my mother-in-law this morning and she told me the story from 1917 through 1920. Her Mother and Father buried 3 little boys, the oldest was 9 months old. She was born in 1916 so does not remember clearly, only vague memories. God be with you as you face each day and bless your family. Love in Jesus, Grandma Shirley in MN
Shirley A. Rick <sarick@meekercoop.net>
Litchfield, MN USA - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 11:49 AM CST
Ohhhhhh I am hoping no news is just busyiness and not sickness. Are you at the point of having the house fumagated?? Orkin does a great job!!
Hope you are getting by---miss hearing from you
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, February 7, 2007 10:26 AM CST
Carol, So sorry to hear all three girls have the flu. Ali has had strep but luckily no one else got it. Let me know if I can help in anyway. Hope this week had been better. Take care and check on you soon
Love to all,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, February 6, 2007 5:16 PM CST
Hi Millers!
I was thinking of you guys, as I often do, so I wanted to drop by. I hope your week has started off good. You guys are always busy, so I am sure that fun plans are in store for you this week, as well. (Girls, you are so blessed to have such a fun mom!) =)
Praying for you always,
Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Tuesday, February 6, 2007 8:55 AM CST
Hope everyone is feeling better soon. Mom you are an amazing mom! I check your site often but have never written, you amaze me! My husband is gone for a night and my youngest boy ends up with a viral infection. Lovely! Three boys under three in the Urgent Care! Lovely! I beg you to give me some of your strength! How do you do it? I pray everyone is better soon!
Katie Olson <bisongolfer@hotmail.com>
Moorhead , MN - Monday, February 5, 2007 10:39 PM CST
I hope your crew is feeling better.
Caroline <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, February 5, 2007 8:16 PM CST
Hey there Miller family,
You are all constantly in my thoughts. The girls look so great. Reese's smiles during her party are just precious! I love to read the guestbook entries from Reagan...she sure loves her mommy! And Riley, what a fine young person. I have a 15 year old and almost 13 year old girl, wow what interesting times there are ahead! it is amazing the maturity children can show, when you least expect it. Carol, you are always amazing me, thank you for continuing to journal. I look frequently to see how you are doing! I hope all are feeling better in your house. We are out of school today because of the cold...-30 windchill! The kids were thrilled to be home!!!!
Have a good day! You are always in my prayers! (((HUGS)))
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI US - Monday, February 5, 2007 1:08 PM CST
I hope everyone is feeling better. I ran into Aunt Mindy last Friday. She said everyone was sickly! :o( I just wanted you all to know I have been thinking about you... I know it's been 3 years since Lana passed. We (me, mom and Laura) think about and talk about Lana all the time. We miss her terribly, so I can't imagine how much you all do. You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
With much love,
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, February 5, 2007 9:29 AM CST
Carol
Just a thought for Riley's birthday party.....A neighbor of ours has a son who is now 23 and born in the month of December. After the first few years of having snow on his birthday (therefore cancelling the parties), they decided to have his birthday party on his half birthday, 6 months later during the summer. Maybe just an idea for Riley to consider. The weather is warmer and there is so much you can do.
Carolein Bennett
Long Island, NY USA - Saturday, February 3, 2007 9:42 PM CST
Hi Carol,
I don't know you and I don't remember exactly how I found your caringbridge site, but I have read your journal for quite some time now. I just want you to know how I have been blessed by your words...God's words. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I'm praying for your entire family.
Abby
Spring, TX - Saturday, February 3, 2007 9:00 PM CST
Hi Carol,Dale and The Miller Girls!!!
I am so sorry to hear Riley got the flu this past week.And i just hope that Riley and the rest of the Miller Family are getting well very soon.Carol i really love all the pictures of Reese's Birthday party.And Carol it looks like Reese was having a wonderful time at her Birthday party last Friday.And Carol i was wondering if Reese and Riley their Birthday package from me.Because i was thinking of Reese and Riley on their Birthdays in Jan 2007.Carol would you please let know if Reese and Riley got your Birthday gifts from me.And Carol i just hope that everyone stays well for good.Take Care and God Bless you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller families,Speakman Family and The Allen Family.And I Love you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of The Miller Families,Speakman Family and The Allen Family sooo very much forever and always forever.Love from your friend forever always forever Peggy Shannon
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chciago,, IL. U.S.A. - Friday, February 2, 2007 11:06 PM CST
Hi Carol - sorry that all have come down with the flu... Praying they are all feeling better and get through this crud quickly. Thinking of you as you minister to the "sickies" - wash your hands - wash your hands - wash your hands. Hopefully the extra day and the weekend will help stop the spread at school.
Hang in there.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, February 2, 2007 6:54 PM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Oh....I'm so sorry to hear the girls are all sick! I hope and pray YOU stay well, and dad does not come down with the flu either. NO FUN. What a welcome home!
The pictures of Reese's party were just precious. She makes the cutest expressions! What a cutie!
You know I've been thinking, I've decided Reagan reminds me of Laura Ingalls. Yep, she has that "Little House on the Prairie" innocence. And the little notes she leaves in this guest book, just MELT MY HEART!!! Is she a doll or what?
God sure knew how to send his love to you through those 3 beautiful daughters, and 2 precious sons.
Praying for better days,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Sending lots of love to the Miller Family............................., - Friday, February 2, 2007 5:55 PM CST
EEWWWW...I hate that darn flu! We have it in Minnesota too....I don't know which we have more of right now...Flu or Strep! Both are icky! Sending healing wishes! I think of you often!!!!!!! OFTEN!!!!
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Friday, February 2, 2007 5:45 PM CST
Carol,
Our district is out due to illness also. I was just giving the Lord a prayer of thanksgiving this morning that we are well. I am so sorry to hear how sick all your precious girls are. I will pray for a quick recovery. Take care of yourself!!
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, February 2, 2007 5:08 PM CST
So sorry everyone is sick. It is the same way here. They were dropping like flies today in my classroom-I sent 4 kids home. Thank goodness it is the weekend. I hope that everyone feels better soon.
Christa
www.caringbridge.org/visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Friday, February 2, 2007 4:20 PM CST
The flu...YUCK! Carol, I hope you're not sick too. Everybody Get Well Soon.
I love the new pictures. What cute girls. I'm sure I'm said it before, but Carol, you are absolutely GORGEOUS!
Anyways, just checking in and always thinking of you...
Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
- Friday, February 2, 2007 4:00 PM CST
Stopped in to check on you and find out about the flu! Well, I will pray that the flu bug is kicked out of your home ASAP! I think of you all often and love to see the beautiful pictures of the girls! I am sorry that they got the flu, tell them to get well and you stay healthy!
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, GA - Friday, February 2, 2007 3:12 PM CST
Hope everyone recovers quickly...Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Friday, February 2, 2007 3:05 PM CST
The birthday party looks like it was lots of fun. What a wonderful cake!! Are you a baker also? Hope you get your crew well again soon. We're fighting that in our house too. Praying for a smile for you today.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Friday, February 2, 2007 2:34 PM CST
The birthday party looks like it was lots of fun. What a wonderful cake!! Are you a baker also? Hope you get your crew well again soon. We're fighting that in our house too. Praying for a smile for you today.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
- Friday, February 2, 2007 2:33 PM CST
GET WELL SOON WISHES TO THE SICKIES IN THE MILLER HOUSE! Riley, just keep on resting and letting your mommy take care of you. Not a good thing to have a school canceled because of the flu but it will get better.
I loved Reese' birthday pictures and the cake, wow, oh wow, was it beautiful. And so was the special birthday girl.
Kristi
- Friday, February 2, 2007 2:16 PM CST
Hi Carol
Just stopping in tonight to pray for you and listen to HELD. So Sorry for all the sickness. Take care of your sweet girls this weekend and I hope Kate and Reese stay strong! LOVE,
catherine w
Bowling Green, - Thursday, February 1, 2007 9:15 PM CST
I just wanted to let you know we are still here and thinking and praying for you and your family. You are truly an inspiration. We love you and your family very much.
Allendale Baptist Church <ABCprayerchain@aol.com>
Conroe, TX. USA - Thursday, February 1, 2007 6:03 PM CST
Hey Carol it was so good to see you on Tuesday.
Lorie Taylor <my2kdz@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, Tn - Thursday, February 1, 2007 5:23 PM CST
dear mommy,
i hope that you are doing good.
a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST1!!!!!1!!!
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Thursday, February 1, 2007 4:47 PM CST
Dear Carol, I heard that schools were closed tomorrow due to sickness. I know you have had your house full of sick girls and I hope you and Dale are staying well. Take care and hope to see you soon. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, February 1, 2007 4:35 PM CST
I often checked in on Randon. I was so sad when he died but I was unable to find the words to write. Now I know how important just a I am praying for you is as I lost my son on December 29, 2006. I can't imagine the pain of losing 2 children as the pain from losing one is unbearable at times. Know that I continue to pray for your family.
I agree that church is the hardest place to be. I had discussed this just this evening with our priest.
Donna and Angel^Kyle^ Noble www.caringbridge.org/oh/kyle <donnanoble2001@yahoo.com>
Grove City, OH USA - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 8:48 PM CST
Carol.............where are you??????????????? Hope all is o.k.---or are you recouperating from the party????????????? What did she decide to do??????
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 12:15 AM CST
I'm so impressed with Riley!
Although I've been teaching for 42 years (!!!!),
I am still not comfortable doing public speaking.
Am also impressed that Reese doesn't want to
hurt anyone's feelings for being excluded in her
b-day party.
prayers and love from Missouri
mrs pam
St Louis, - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 8:01 AM CST
Dear Carol,
Sorry I haven't been by in a while. We are staying very busy over here, as well, but you guys are always in my thoughts and prayers.
I know I don't have to say this, but you should be so proud of Riley (as I know you are!). She is a beautiful young lady, both inside and out.
I hope you guys have a wonderful week.
Love, Kristin
P.S. I can't wait to hear the ear piercing story. =)
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, January 31, 2007 7:46 AM CST
Carol and family. Just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. Also hope your "co-ed" party plans are going well!!
Take care
Mary Buckler <amandakmaryb@bellsouth.net>
Louisville, Ky USA - Tuesday, January 30, 2007 5:00 PM CST
Dearest Carol,
Riley looked great in the photo. I'm proud of her and she's not even mine! I just feel like with all you've been thru, there's got to be some greater purpose that will come from your pain. Maybe part of that purpose will be lived out in the lives of Riley, Reagan and Reese, and who knows what they will grow up to become and what lives they will impact. Maybe if Riley isn't the doctor who gets to find the cure for cancer, she will be the first news anchor to report its discovery and rock the world with this news. I think Reagan will continue the Billy Graham Crusades or some kind of big outreach efforts. Perhaps she will become the modern-day Mother Teresa of sorts. And Reese, well, there's just no telling what she might become. She may one day run Disney World. Tell her I'd like a job there in my retirement years, ha ha. Any park would be just fine by me!! If they need someone to portray the Fairy Godmother, I'm her "girl." With you and Dale as their parents, the sky's the limit as to what they will become.
Sophie loved her picture of Reese in the mail, and showed it first thing to my mom when she arrived this morning. Mama knows all about Reese and her party! It was the cutest thank you notecard...great job again Michelle H!
In all seriousness, you continually remain in my thoughts and daily prayers, love you!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, January 30, 2007 4:03 PM CST
Happy Belated Birthday to Riley and Reese!!!!!!
Riley you looked stunning as emcee! I believe ED may have some competition! Still keeping you all in prayer,
your friend,
Sherri
Sherri Cox- Doughty <blossomchicks@bellsouth.net>
- Tuesday, January 30, 2007 9:08 AM CST
Carol,
Hey! I haven't signed your guestbook before although I did send you an email (I hope you received it) last week. You and family have just been on my heart today so I wanted to tell you so --- I've said a special prayer for all of ya'll since finding your site. Like you, it's after 3 and I have a three rowdy children who are hungry, impatient w/ each other and are 'ill' b/c it's almost homework time.-- my second job has started!
I hope you have a happy Monday night!
Robin Lowry <rglowry12@yahoo.com>
Columbus, MS 39705 - Monday, January 29, 2007 5:00 PM CST
Carol,
I saw your mom and sister at Upwards on Saturday. Your niece is cheering and my boys are both playing basketball. I hadn't seen your mom in such a long time. It was nice to get a hug from her. I pray you will have a wonderful week. Enjoy the cold weather -- my kids are praying for snow!
Erika Mannen <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, January 29, 2007 10:46 AM CST
Carol and family: I haven't signed in for a while, but I still include you in my daily prayers. You continue to be an inspiration to so many. May God bless you and grant you a joyful 2007.
Frank M. Lowrey <flowrey4@bellsouth.net>
Americus, GA - Monday, January 29, 2007 8:42 AM CST
Carol and family: I haven't signed in for a while, but I still include you in my daily prayers. You continue to be an inspiration to so many. May God bless you and grant you a joyful 2007.
Frank M. Lowrey <flowrey4@bellsouth.net>
Americus, GA - Monday, January 29, 2007 8:40 AM CST
Carol,Just checking in. Co-ed eek!!!!! I am so not ready for any of that yet. It's hard enough letting them go to the dances. I am glad Riley got her ears pierced. I can't wait to hear that story. I am so proud of her. It takes a lot of courage to get up and speak in front of all those people on a big stage. I am sure Gene made it easier for her. I have known him many years, took care of his wife for many months. He is precious. Don't let the business overcome you. Remember Carol time-it's ok to pamper yourself every once in a while.
Sounds like soccer is getting ready to kick off (no pun intended) Hope this season is a good one, I hear a lot of our girls are returning. Have a great rest of the weekend.
Talk to you soon. Love to all.
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Saturday, January 27, 2007 7:05 PM CST
I have been a silent follower for a long time and I thought I might share an idea or two. If you have a Rollerskating rink or ice skating. My 13 was co-ed, but in a public place. Large groups are easy to accomodate at a place like that. Another idea is a good old fashion slumber party. Movies, make-up... you could find plenty of game ideas and things to do on the internet. Sacvenger hunt around the neighborhood...I put in a search for slumber party ideas and there are a few sites. One is http://www.boardmanweb.com/party/slumber.html It seemed to have a good list of things to do. Good Luck.
Your famly is an inspiration to everyone who reads your site and I am glad you put that song back on. What is the title/artist? It is beautiful!
Danielle Dress <dinghyd@aol.com>
Frisco, TX - Friday, January 26, 2007 8:35 PM CST
I have been reading your journal for a few months. You and your family are truly an inspiration. I hope and pray you all find the peace and comfort you so deserve -
Andrea Fitzgerald <docmjfitz@aol.com>
Bogota, NJ USA - Friday, January 26, 2007 4:51 PM CST
Hi guys. Even though I haven't written in awhile, please know that I pray for you everyday! Ours paths haven't crossed in a couple of weeks. By reading your website, it sounds like you have been extremely busy! Just wanted to let you know that I think of you often!
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, January 26, 2007 12:13 AM CST
Good Morning sweet Carol,
My computer will be shutting down sometime this morning,so just wanted to squeeze one last message before I'm up and running next week.
OH MY..........Riley looks "angelic" standing there. She is so BEAUTIFUL. OK, I need to start praying alot harder for you, with those looks and her age, hmmmmm, the phones should start ringing, if it hasn't already. Here's my advice, change your number!! (Ha Ha!)
I'm glad you're busy, but I know the heartache is always "right there". I'll continue to pray for the Lord of all comfort to be there for you.
Thanks for being so real.
Keep holding on my friend,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
So blessed to call you my friend............................, - Friday, January 26, 2007 7:57 AM CST
I am not sure if I have ever signed your guest book in the past, but have been reading for several months now. Your family is so beautiful!! I truly hope you are able to find a day where happiness present more than your sadness. I can't imagine the pain you have experienced but pray that in time, the pain will lessen & joy will prevail.
My daughter's birthday is Jan 2nd (she is only 8) but we had a b-day party at the movie theater. She picked a movie to see, then we bought everyone snacks & enjoyed the movie together. Good luck!!!
Lisa <madamelisa69@aol.com>
Saginaw, MI USA - Friday, January 26, 2007 7:44 AM CST
My Dear Carol, How proud you must be. Your heart is probably ready to explode from the joy this child and all of your children bring to you. I know I don't have to tell you to relish every moment as they are fleeting and so very fast as we do not know what tomorrow holds and our world can be yanked out from under us so fast, as you can attest to. I realize how quick life on earth can be taken by visiting you and other Caringbridge websites. Our earthly mortality is just a moment, but our life with Jesus is an eternity. I am so blessed by you and your family and I enjoy knowing about their lives. Thank you so very much for sharing. Love to you all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, January 25, 2007 3:06 PM CST
Wow Riley looks amazing. She's going to be giving you and Dale a run for your money soon. Good luck with the birthday party planning, I am a June baby and that kind of helped my parents.
Well, I am kind of with Riley on working with the news. I had an interview this morning and another March 2nd. I love it but I don't know when to get quiet when I get going. As long as I ignore the red light on the camera, I am okay. Once I am able to get it from a VCR tape to a DVD, I will send it to you all. But it may be a while.
Know I am here and thinking of you... Things are incredbly busy and seriously, I am overwhelmed with what my college considers pre-med classes as a health and physical education major. Don't ask, I don't know... I just know I am getting a run for my money.
kristi
- Thursday, January 25, 2007 2:27 PM CST
Winter Birthday parties....the WKU duc center, with bowling and table games etc. or the ROC at First Baptist Church, eating area, big gym for whatever, table games and big screen tv for videos. We've had birthday parties at both.
Valerie Greene <val.greene@hotmail.com>
Leander, TX USA - Thursday, January 25, 2007 2:18 PM CST
Riley looks so great in that picture, I'm sure she did a great job!
Always thinking of you,
Megan
www.carepages.com tannernielsen
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, January 25, 2007 12:16 AM CST
I was at the Capital the other night and I just wanted to let you know that Riley did an excellent job at the Bowling Green Youth Recognition Ceremony. I'm sure she will do a great job in whatever she choses with her life.
Kim Hill <khill3182@windstream.net>
Smiths Grove, Ky USA - Thursday, January 25, 2007 10:36 AM CST
OK Carol--so now my kids will be late to school, but I rather talk to you:
That girl (Riley) is going to be great at anything she chooses in life. I am with her in the medical dept.--- I become Linda Blair from the Exorcist---
You are busier than the day is long, and that is a good thing for now. Rmemeber that the ugly and sad IS there and please do not stay busy on purpose to avoid it. If you don't let it show-leak- and such a little at a time, it will build and build instead of diffuse. I know you are not doing that on purpose--just an FYI.
January birthdays: CO-ED--I don't think so!! That is for summer bonfires and fairs and amusement parks. A huge trip to the mall--dinner and a movie--I know a mom that had ALL the girls over, had a couple of mom friends help, but had them all dress up, made a really nice dinner and had them grouped at different tables there were so many; then they all went into the city to a show. 13 is a biggie--but definitely a GIRL thing.
Well, gotta go--take care, let us know what she ends up doing
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, January 25, 2007 9:20 AM CST
Hi Carol--I know what you mean about the mad rush at 3 o'clock--I can be so organized(or so I think) and well-rested and once the clock hits 2:47 and that bus arrives everything seems to fall apart!! Someone once told me that they save up all of their energy during the day because once the kids get home until bedtime takes it all away--funny how that works! I have all I can do to get everyone where they need to be figure out when and what to feed people and maybe just maybe get kids in bed before 10--yikes:) I try to remind myself to enjoy these days because they go all too quickly--hope your week slows down a bit and thanks for being a great friend--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, January 25, 2007 8:29 AM CST
Look out Katie Couric!
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY 42103 - Thursday, January 25, 2007 8:04 AM CST
SWEET Pictures!!! (Pete & Peshul! Wayyyuuul!--D&C know what I'm talking about!)
J
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Thursday, January 25, 2007 6:38 AM CST
Carol,
The slideshows are beautiful! I just wanted you to know I still pray for you and Dale and the girls. Thank you for sharing your heart.
They are turning into teenagers! Drew will be in high school this fall!! I guess it's a good thing we have no choice, or we would never send them, at least I wouldn't!
Love and prayers,
Michelle
Michelle Hull <thehullfamily@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 25, 2007 1:36 AM CST
Hey Carol,
Love the music!!!!! I can finally play it here on my PC at work, must be because I just got Quicktime downloaded, who knows?! But I love it! Isn't she lovely...I'm singing with Stevie!!
Hope you're having a good week and hope Reagan is better. We're battling strep throat again, but we still hope to make it to Reese's party Friday if everyone can just get well.
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, January 24, 2007 4:56 PM CST
It was great to see you last night. I enjoy every opportunity to be around your beautiful family.
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, January 24, 2007 11:08 AM CST
Carol and Dale, thinking of you! just wanted to say HELLO & LOVE TO EACH OF YOU! Laura
Laura Shreve <shreve2002@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Tuesday, January 23, 2007 9:47 PM CST
Dear Carol, I hope your day is peaceful and full of joy. Love to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, January 23, 2007 2:54 PM CST
Those slideshows are adorable! Thanks for sharing. Happy belated birthday to your beautiful girls! I think I see the "twinkle" in Reese's eye when she was a baby....good luck! You have wonderful children. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers....
Jill Nuebel <jillnuebel@hotmail.com>
Wyoming, MN USA - Tuesday, January 23, 2007 10:41 AM CST
Good morning, Carol!
I pray you have a wonderful day.
Love and prayers, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, January 23, 2007 7:02 AM CST
Happy Belated Birthday Reese,
Hey, why not keep celebrating how SPECIAL, CUTE and PRECIOUS you are??? Sorry I'm so late, but well, just crazy over here.
Carol, I just love the video and song, HOW PERFECT! Hope you are having a good week.
Missing you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying for you all..........................., - Tuesday, January 23, 2007 6:16 AM CST
Dear Carol, I pray your weekend was good. I hope you all have been able to recoup from all of the birthdays and maybe everything is getting back to what normal is suppose to be. Hard to believe that the month of January is almost gone. Hope to see you soon. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, January 22, 2007 3:06 PM CST
Good morning Carol,
I am up but off of work...snow. I hope that your week goes well.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Monday, January 22, 2007 6:08 AM CST
Thinking of you all... H
Kristi
- Saturday, January 20, 2007 9:18 PM CST
Happy Birthday to 2 of your 3 beautiful girls! I hope you had a wonderful week.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Friday, January 19, 2007 9:45 PM CST
Hi there! Happy (late) Birthday to both girls!! Tell Riley I have a handsome 14 year old boy for her to meet. Its ok, dad! He's a good boy. :) Still praying for your beautiful family and your two beautiful angels. Still caring!
Shaun Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody , Ga - Friday, January 19, 2007 8:42 PM CST
Happy Birthday Sweet Reese!! You are simply adorable. Some of the pictures (well really all of them) have a picture of you, and then your personality just dripping from the photo! Oh what I would give to have three beautiful little girls like the Miller girls (I guess I shouldn't call Riley "little" anymore) Reagan, you don't fall into the "middle child syndrome" you shine like the brightest sun that I have ever seen--and hearing about you lets me know that you have a heart as big as the sun. Hope you girls are eating alot of birthday cake!!!
Love to all of you!
Beth Austin TEAM 365
bethaustin <beth@bradd.org>
- Friday, January 19, 2007 4:06 PM CST
YOur family is beautiful!!! I will keep you and your sons in my prayers!!
CAthy <catandkevin@hotmail.com>
St Louis, MO USA - Friday, January 19, 2007 2:27 PM CST
What fun! It sounds like you all had a great time. It was so nice to hear the happiness in your message. It brings joy to my heart to know that you all are doing well. Thanks for sharing with the rest of us. Continually thinking of you.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA - Friday, January 19, 2007 2:00 PM CST
Happy belated birthday Riley and Reese!!!!!
Carol, I can't believe Riley is a teenager. I better start, however, Lauren is only a few months behinde her (April 27). My how the time flies when you are getting older!!! Oops, your not nearly as old as I am. I really enjoyed the pictures of both girls. Great idea. I just want to tell you, you are NOT crazy, although you may feel like it most of the time. God made us all very complex, so we CAN feel love, anger, distrust, hope, happiness and even sadness all at the same time. People do the best they can and that is all we can expect. Hold on to the good days, hopefully they will become more and more. Thank you for continuing to let us know how you are doing. I think of you often, but as you know, life is crazy. Take care and give me a call sometime. Oh, by the way Kudos on the earpiercing!!!!
Love to all,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Friday, January 19, 2007 1:27 PM CST
Happy Belated Birthday Reese & Riley!!!! You have BEAUTIFUL girls!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, January 19, 2007 12:25 AM CST
So now I envision your house like a sorority house after a major event!! Wrapping paper everywhere, pink, and cake stuck to plates, clothes strewn on the furniture...............oh, what memeories of younger days. ( I was never in a sorority, but got the gist of them--)
Riley--you have pierced ears, how did it go???? I actually got the gumption up in college to get them double pierced, and then one is triple!! My brains leak out once in awhile, but other than that, it can be fun!! Take care of them though, the first year can be quite sensitive---
I want to see pictures!!
love
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, January 19, 2007 9:44 AM CST
It's 12:41 and the birthday madness is over;) No clue why I am even still up. I am sure the girls are keeping you busy. I want to hear about this ear piercing adventure:)
I LOVE Reese's pictures, she was such a BEAUTIFUL baby and is equally as beautiful now. Riley and Reagan, you two are as well.
I am glad Reese is here and healthy and that God had a purpose to bring her into everyone's life. She is a true bright spot in many lives, even when she is in weddings;) All three girls are.
Sending love.
Kristi
- Thursday, January 18, 2007 11:48 PM CST
Happy Birthday Riley and Reese. Reese, your birthday is my birthday too! I am 19 years older than you are though. My name is Tiffany and I am Kristi's sister in law and I have heard so much about you all and thought I would stop by to wish you two a very special birthday.
Tiffany Robertson Patzman <TiffanyRPatzman@aol.com>
Palm Bay, Fl - Thursday, January 18, 2007 7:27 PM CST
Happy Happy Birthday sweet girls! You guys are THE best!! Have fun celebrating and can't wait to hear about all of the festivities. Riley did you get to have a "make up" slumber party after Reese joined the family? Anyway have a wonderful week. Love the tunes....sooo fitting for such lovley girls. Carol, I was visiting a friend yesterday and saw her shutterfly book. Have you seen these? I am sure you have seen shutterfly pictures and Christmas cards etc. Well this was an actual story book that you can do with all of your family photos. I thought of you and your precious 5 children that you could make into books for each of your girls. They really are great and easy to do with digital pictures. With all of your expertise with the camera/computer it shouldn't be difficult. Check it out at shutterfly. Have a great one . ~Love,megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Thursday, January 18, 2007 7:16 PM CST
Happy Birthday Riley and Reese! We love the slide shows. Carol and Dale I can not believe Riley is the Big 1-3! Logan just turned 12 and middle school has been an adjustment to say the least. They grow up so fast. We hope you all enjoy your family time celebrating.
P.S. Yes we do remember the ice storm. We are beginning to wonder where winter is now.
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 5:52 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reese and Happy Belated Birthday Riley!
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 5:51 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reese! Katie really wants you to come over and play some time soon...tell mommy just to drop you off any day. We hope the last couple of days have been filled with many wonderful memories for all of you.
Love,
Susan, Katie, and Abbie
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 5:48 PM CST
Happy 3rd birthday, Reese. What an answer to prayer you have been for your mommy and daddy! You are such a sweetie! We need to get Reese and Alyssa together to play. They would have so much fun being princesses together. I think Alyssa would like me to get rid of all her regular clothes so she can just be a princess everyday! I try to tell her she's still a princess in jeans -- she doesn't buy it!
Have a wonderful weekend!!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, January 18, 2007 4:26 PM CST
Happy Birthday to two sweet Miller girls (and the other 2 are just as sweet themselves)
Hope all the Millers has a grand time celebrating...
All our love
the england family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky - Thursday, January 18, 2007 3:15 PM CST
Hi Reese!
I know you can't read yet, but maybe mommy will tell you that I said, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY REESE!!!" We all love you and can't wait to see you soon. Sophie is still doing the countdown to your party...she asks me about it every day! Have a great day with your family!
Carol, happy birthday again today and hope you bask in the joy of what a special day 3 years ago today was! Hope yesterday was special, and hope today is wonderful too!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, January 18, 2007 2:50 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reese! Kate has the same sweater that you had on in the picture with you and Isaiah. She said "Reese looks beautiful in my sweater just like me". Kate is right you are a beautiful little girl! We hope you have a happy birthday:)
Astra and Kate
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 1:53 PM CST
Reese--you are such a cutie pie (stinker) Hope you mellow as you age!! You better listen to your big teenage sister!! You definitely are giving your family a run for their money!!ha[ppy Birthday little one!!
Reagan--you are so sweet--you must be the one with 'the heart'--as I say--as is my middle child, Emily. I get a lump in my throat every time I read your words to your mom.
Carol and Dale:
You couldn't ask for anything better in these girls!!! You need the stinker in Reese to balance out the gorgeousness and brains, and well, everything positive about the older ones!! Job well done!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, January 18, 2007 10:54 AM CST
Yes, I remember the ice storm. Natalie was three months old, Matt 2 and Kiesha 7 all home and Dan calls from work and tells me to get in the car and drive around because the ice hanging on the trees was really awesome!!!! Like I was going to even consider that one!!! Anyway I am sorry that I did not write yesterday and wish Riley a Happy 13th Birthday---I heard that she got her ears pierced--with alittle trouble. Anyway HAPPY BITHDAY RILEY!!! I have two teenagers in house right now 15 and 13 so if you ever want a taste come on over. Knock on wood hasn't been to bad.
O.k. Now for the little one--HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY REESE!!! Hope you both enjoy your birthdays.
Janice <dgjgx4@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, January 18, 2007 9:54 AM CST
Happy Birthday Reese!! I love your pictures too. What a doll you are. I hope you have a good day today.
I can understand your mommy not wanting you to get big. I feel the same way about Mason.
Love you all,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thinking of you all............................. <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Thursday, January 18, 2007 9:48 AM CST
Happy Birthday Reeses Pieces - your little face brighten's all our days... Happy # 3..
God Bless all you little Millers.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 9:20 AM CST
Happy 3rd Birthday Miss Reese. Yes it is hard to believe that it has been 3 years. A lot has happened in those 3 years and what a blessing some times to not have the knowledge about certain things. God knows what is best in spite of ourselves. Have a great day today and PARTY ON!!!!! Love to all, Pat
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, January 18, 2007 9:13 AM CST
Happy #3 Miss Reese! Your mommy is getting good with all these pictures. Please tell her thank you for sharing all the beautiful memories of you! You stay your mommy and daddy's baby forever. Have a the happiest birthday today!! God bless you!
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 18, 2007 8:52 AM CST
OK we are getting ready to go to Vandy this morning but I had to get on before we leave, when we come back this afternoon it will also be crazy and I couldn't miss her B-day.
Carol,
I am so glad you didn't know about Reid's condition being genetic because what a joy you would have missed with Reese. I love the picture of her and her brother (Isaiah)!!!!!
Reese,
We hope you have a wonderful birthday. You are such a miracle to everyone who knows you. I can't believe you are three you are getting to be a big girl (but you will always be your mommy's baby!). Isaiah says to have a wonderful birthday and eat lots of cake! We love you little one!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, January 18, 2007 7:28 AM CST
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REESE!!!! Wow--three already--don't grow up too fast--we enjoy having a toddler around too:) Hope you have a great day--Love, The Good's
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY YSA - Thursday, January 18, 2007 7:04 AM CST
Yeah, I am officially, unless someone beats me to sending this, the first to wish Miss Reese a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, DEAR REESE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
I look forward to the years to come of reading about all the trouble you get into;) And the impact you make in society. You may only be three, kiddo, but you have a LOT to offer this world.
Riley, hope you have a good first real day as a teen and enjoy it.
Reagan, hope you are enjoying loving those sisters of yours and keeping them in line, as the second oldest, you have to be sure to keep an eye on them;)
Now, I am off to take three tests:(
Kristi
- Thursday, January 18, 2007 5:59 AM CST
Happy Birthday Riley,
Oh yes, you are sooooooooooo lovely, so beautiful!! And you are such a GREAT big sister.
Thanks for making your mom smile, and keeping her real busy. So it's official, you are a teenager, YES!!!
Hope your day was as special as you are to so many.
God bless you Riley!!
Love,
Mrs. Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear Riley...............Happy Birthday to you!, - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 10:47 PM CST
BEAUTIFUL IS ALL I CAN SAY! WHAT A BEAUTIFUL YOUNG LADY!!
btw, Carol, what I couldn't remember to tell you was that we were at Disney at the same time you were and we even visited the Animal Kingdom Lodge one night!
Julie Swack <sewjuliesew@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 8:32 PM CST
dear mom.
how are you. me fine.. lo0ve this music also
reagan miller <artgirrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ekntucky america - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 8:17 PM CST
Happy Birthday Riley! The pictures are just beautiful! I hope yesterday was everything you hoped for! Give Reese a birthday hug from me, I am pretty sure today is her big day! Hi to your Mom!!
Love,
Cathy Schmalberger
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, January 17, 2007 6:26 PM CST
What a beautiful teenager! I love the last picture from the wedding. Meghan has the same Cancun shirt!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 3:11 PM CST
Carol, once again, you have just outdone yourself with your picture show!!! What an amazing family you and Dale have. Your girls are so close to perfection, that it is almost unbelievable. Riley is such a good person, and good role model for her sisters-her beauty is as much on the inside as on the outside. Thank you for sharing with us---you lift up my spirits daily!!!
And once again "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU RILEY" you are so lucky to have such a family, and they are so very lucky for having you!!!!!!!
Love, Beth Austin TEAM 365
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Wednesday, January 17, 2007 2:58 PM CST
Hi Riley,
I'm singing this to you as I type, "Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear, sweet, precious Riley, happy birthday to you!!!" I can't believe you have grown into a 13-year-old. Take it easy on your mom and dad, because it's hard on us parents to see you grow up. While it's a miracle and joy to see you grow older, it's also sad because your time with us is slipping away...soon you'll be off on your own. It's hard for us to let go, because we love you so much!! You are a treasure, and I know how proud you must make your parents. Have a wonderful and very special day to commemorate the day you brightened your parents' world 13 years ago today! You are very loved and prayed for, Riley. God's blessings to you always!
Love,
Robin
P.S. Carol, hope you enjoy celebrating Riley's birthday today. I know you must have precious memories floating thru your head today of what occurred 13 years ago today. Happy birthday to you, Mommy, for without you and Dale, there would be no sweet Riley for all of us to love and admire! I loved these photos of Riley with her family too! Enjoy your day!!
Love you both,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 12:50 AM CST
Happy Birthday Riley. What a beautiful young lady you are. I know that your mom and dad are so proud of you.
I love the pictures...thanks for sharing.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thanking God for you all.............. <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Wednesday, January 17, 2007 12:19 AM CST
Happy 13th Birthday Riley! I am 13 today too!!! Hope you have a great day!
Mallerie Fuson <sfuson@bak.rr.com>
BAKERSFIELD , CA KERN - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 11:15 AM CST
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO from the frozen northwest!!!
2 snow days and I am climbing the walls!!! Riley, you are so beautiful, and have no idea how proud your parents are of you. Being the oldest like you are, we are the trailblazers and you are just doing a wonderful job--your sisters have a tough act to follow, but I know they will follow it to the tee.
Happy 13th kiddo---I had to be 13 to get my ears pierced-- (yikes, 31 years ago) and it is worth the wait!! Enjoy your day--this is the ONLY one of its kind!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 11:15 AM CST
Happy Birthday Riley!!!! Riley, I want you to know what we love you so much. Since the first day you walked into our Sunday School class I knew there was something extra special about you. Your love and compassion amaze me everytime I am around you. As everyone else has said and I must agree you are beautiful inside and out. I hope today is everything a 13 year old girl could want!!! We love you so much and can't wait to see you again!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Wednesday, January 17, 2007 11:05 AM CST
ALL of your kids are beautiful. We shared birthday chaos with you because Ethan turned 5 on the 16th. He is 1 month younger almost to the day than your Reid. Maybe that's why he made you smile!! Thinking of you and praying for you today.
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
Nashville, TN - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 10:59 AM CST
Happy Birthday Riley! The pictures of you and your siblings were wonderful:)I hope you have a great 13th birthday.
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 9:36 AM CST
Happy Birthday Riley - WOW 13 - your Mom is right - you are so lovely, inside and out.... (As are your Mom and sisters) Hope you had a great Birthday.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 9:13 AM CST
Happy BIG 1-3 Riley! I love the pictures and the song. The picture of you and your great-granddaddy almost made me cry. You are so blessed with a family that loves you, and a whole other world of people who think you're wonderful. God bless you!
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 8:50 AM CST
Carol--great song and pictures! HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY RILEY!!! Welcome to the teenage years:):) Wow--where do the years go?? It seems like only yesterday that I met you Carol at a Christmas cookie party and Reagan and Abbye were just one!!! I sure don't feel any older, but guess we must be since our kids are growing so quickly. Thanks for your friendship--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 8:49 AM CST
Happy 13th Birthday Riley!!! What a wonderful song to go along with all the awesome pictures your mom has of you and your sisters!! Hope you had a great day. My best wishes to you. You are a lovely young lady, Maria
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
Battleboro, NC - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 8:47 AM CST
HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY RILEY!!!! Hard to believe you are 13. You are beautiful, You are wonderful and yes You are Lovely. What a ray of sunshine You are. Have a great day. Love to everyone. Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 7:57 AM CST
Happy 13th Riley! You are such a beautiful special young lady and what a wonderful role model you are for your sisters!! I miss you as a neighbor! I am so proud of you for what all you have accomplished and what I know you are going to accomplish!! You are one special lady and we hope you have a very wonderful 13th birthday!! Love always, Kim, Mallory, Cody and Dale Harmon
The Harmons <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, Ky USA - Wednesday, January 17, 2007 7:51 AM CST
Awhhhh... I loved the song and photos of Riley. I can NOT believe she is 13!!!! That is scary, Carol!! We can not be old enough to have a 13 year old, right?! Oh, yeah, I remember you had Riley when you were 16...Yes, yes, that is it. Ha! Carol, I know you know this, but you should be SO PROUD of the beautiful, caring, loving, giving, sweet, honest and amazing daughter that you and Dale have raised!! (Well, actually, make that 3 daughters, but I will focus on Riley now since it is her birthday). Riley is truly a role model for her sisters and for anyone that watches her behavoir in the midst of all the beginnings to entering the teenage years. Love you all! Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 11:04 PM CST
Happy 13th birthday, Riley!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 9:09 PM CST
How special. Riley, I never realized how much you have grown up and changed since I began to follow your family and now I saw it. You're an amazing big sister and an amazing daughter to your parents. Now that you have entered the teen years, try not to give them too much of a hard time. It's truly a special day, celebrate, laugh, love and enjoy the time with you parents, Reagan, Reese and the memories of Reid and Randon. Riley, just have a special day.
kristi
- Tuesday, January 16, 2007 9:09 PM CST
How sweet, what a great song to go with the pics....
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, La - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 8:59 PM CST
Thinking of you Carol and remembering Reid and Randon...
Kristi
- Tuesday, January 16, 2007 7:50 PM CST
Carol , the pictures are great , putting them in a slide show was a wonderful idea . Hope to see you and the B-day girls soon , Your friend Tim
T Shultz <tshultz@diamondequipment.com>
- Tuesday, January 16, 2007 4:49 PM CST
I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed meeting you. I could have talked to you all night...I feel like I could learn so much from you. You have had to endure more then any person should and yet you have so much wisdom resulting from that. As you know I am Nicki's friend, and I went to school with Kyla and have several more friends that have caringbridge pages for either themselves or their children. Often I find myself wanting to say or write things, but I am so afraid of saying the wrong thing. I don't want to offend anyone but then again sometimes I feel like if I don't say anything then they won't know how much I care. Reading your entries gives me insight to what the person who has lost loved ones feels and it makes me realize how important it is to be there for someone, not only during their loss, but being there always. You and your girls are even more beautiful in person. With Gods love,
Penny Warwick <pennywarwick77@hotmail.com>
BG, KY - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 2:36 PM CST
Dear Carol, Praying your day today is a good day. I pray you were able to rest last night. Thank you so very much for your friendship. You mean so very much to me. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 11:25 AM CST
HI, CAROL JUST WANTED TO HI AND I HOPE YOU ARE DOING GOOD, YOUR COUSIN TERRY
TERRY BURNETT <ovenbird119@BELLSOUTH.NET>
nashville, tn USA - Tuesday, January 16, 2007 4:17 AM CST
Dear Carol,
Just discovered your website through Asher and Jacob's links. You've gone through multiple losses, but apparently are gaining a heart full of wisdom. Thank you for sharing some of the things you've been learning through the pain, and for looking up, and reminding the rest of us to look up and be grateful to God for the many blessings He does indeed grant us each day. Many times we take those daily things for granted, but even their dailyness is a blessing!
I've been reading Job lately, too, and been reminded that even though we go through trials down here, the joys and rewards will be that much brighter and greater over there...in heaven. May God help us each to be faithful in our own little corners of the world and to share the light He gives us. Thanks for sharing yours! May God richly bless and comfort you and your family this year.
Happy Birthday to your two special birthday girls this week, too! :) (and to your sister).
Take care!
Chris
Christine Nieuwsma <chrisnieuws@yahoo.com>
Strasburg , ND USA - Monday, January 15, 2007 8:15 PM CST
Carol, it was so good to see you and the girls on Sunday! Im sorry we didnt get to talk more, it was a little hectic in there! I am continuing to pray for you all!
jennifer thompson <jennifer.thompson@vanderbilt.edu>
- Monday, January 15, 2007 5:31 PM CST
I hope all are enjoying your three day weekend if you get one. I got one and am enjoying it but um, I am always off Monday. I just want to let you know I am thinking of you all especially you three with birthdays. Happy birthday to your sister, Carol!
Kristi
- Monday, January 15, 2007 3:20 PM CST
Carol, sorry I haven't written in a while, but work has me going on overtime and overdrive at this time of year. I'm in the office today although we are not open and I finally got to catch up on your entries. As always, I am so touched. The pictures are awesome. Your girls are so beautiful! You continue to be in my prayers and thoughts! I met another mom this weekend that had three daughters and guess what their names were, you guessed it--Riley, Reagan and Reese! I could not believe it! I told her all about you and your girls and Reid and Randon! Having a 13 year-old is nothing, it's just a number! Besides, she will always be your baby and what a sweet one she is! She's a great kid!! Gotta get to work, girl! Hang in there!! Love ya, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, January 15, 2007 11:02 AM CST
Carol,
I just wanted to say thank you for coming to Isaiah's party and bringing all the girls. It meant more to use than you will ever know.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Monday, January 15, 2007 9:42 AM CST
Carol,
Stopping by to offer prayers and love from NJ. You have an incredible insight to offer so many - I am so glad you are sharing it with the world. Through your writing, may you find healing and peace - you truly have a perfect way of putting things - I hope this brings as much comfort to your life as it does to others who will read your words. I have printed out the words from Mother Theresa. What a great way to live...Thank you.
You have a beautiful family and you are a beautiful soul. Happy Birthday to your girls :) May you find joy in all they do and may you always feel the love of your boys in your very core. May God pour down his healing upon you each and every day.
God Bless you Miller Family,
Laurie - Angel Wings
Belford, NJ USA - Sunday, January 14, 2007 4:24 AM CST
Dear Carol,
I was just thinking about you this morning and I hope you are well.
Sincerely,
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Saturday, January 13, 2007 10:21 AM CST
Four more days and you will have a teenager in your house;) Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you all... Riley, have fun getting those ears pierced and enjoy your day.
Kristi
- Friday, January 12, 2007 11:36 PM CST
hi mommy,
glad you are my mommy. you are a good one at it, too. thanks for taking care of me.GOD and JESUS are with you.a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Friday, January 12, 2007 10:05 PM CST
INCREDIBLE~INCREDIBLE~INCREDIBLE!!!
Thanks Carol...as always you have a way of explaining things. Oh, I really liked what that author said:
"But the author makes the point that without pain and without suffering…the joy wouldn’t be so good." Gosh that is so "painfully true".
I was reminded of the scripture Paul wrote in
2 Corinthians 4:17
"For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory..."
One day this will all make sense, and oh that "eternal weight of glory", it awaits you Carol!
Thanks for being so honest, and so real. Love you!
Susan
PS Oh, this is for Reagan:
Hi Reagan,
Can I please adopt you? You are just the sweetest daughter ever. You are so beautiful, "inside out". I love the way you love Jesus, and love your mom so much. God is using you in a mighty way! Thanks for all those beautiful messages you leave in your brother's guestbook. Hey, I know they would be so proud of you sweetie. Keep looking to Jesus, and making Him so happy.
Love,
Mrs. Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
God is good, all of the time...................................., - Friday, January 12, 2007 9:07 PM CST
hey mom! how are you. thanks for showing me the lyrics to that song. GOD is great and so is JESUS.awholelotoflovein,throughandwithCHRIST!!!!!!!!!!
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Friday, January 12, 2007 3:24 PM CST
CAROL, YOU DON'T KNOW ME, BUT I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING YOUR WEBSITE FOR QUITE SOME TIME. DURING THAT TIME I KEEP ASKING MYSELF, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THESE PEOPLE WHY ARE YOU SO INTRESTED IN THEIR LIVES? I THINK NOW AFTER READING TODAYS ENTRY THAT I KNOW WHY I HAVE FELT SUCH A CONNECTION TO YOUR FAMILY. IF I HAD TO TAKE A GUESS I WOULD THINK WE ARE ABOUT THE SAME AGE(35), BUT THE THING THAT GOT ME TODAY IS THAT OUR DAUGHTERS, YOUR RILEY AND MY DAUGHTER MALLERIE WERE BORN ON THE EXACT SAME DAY! JANUARY 17, 1994! I KNOW HOW SILLY TO THINK ITS SIGNFICANT BUT I FEEL THAT IT IS! SO MANY TIMES I WONDER HOW I WILL MAKE IT THRU THESE CRAZY TEENAGE YEARS THAT ARE COMING AND THEN I LOOK AT YOUR WEBSITE AND REMINDED THAT THERE ARE SO MANY WORSE THINGS TO HAVE TO MAKE IT THRU! I WELCOME THE TEENAGE YEARS NO MATTER HOW HARD THEY WILL BE AND I KNOW THAT YOU DO TOO! THANK YOU FOR POURING YOUR HEART AND SOUL INTO THIS WEBSITE AND SHARING IT WITH ALL OF US.
PS. MY OTHER DAUGHTER SHELBIE WAS ALSO BORN JANUARY 21, 2000. SO MUCH FUN TRYING TO PLAN BIRTHDAY PARTIES WITH SO MANY YEARS BETWEEN THEM. BUT IT IS A FUN CHALLENGE.
SHERI FUSON <SHERI.FUSON.JDDM@STATEFARM.COM>
BAKERSFIELD , CA USA - Friday, January 12, 2007 2:37 PM CST
Dear Carol~ LOVE the Martina!! Have a wonderful weekend with your precious crew in B.G. ~love,megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Friday, January 12, 2007 1:21 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I have got to find a computer that will play these songs for me that everyone raves about...why won't mine work?!!
Reagan, you too have the gift of words just like your mommy. Maybe you can co-auther a book together one day, and I'd be first in line for autographs and pictures! You're a precious, precious girl!!!
Riley, you too are a precious gift to your parents and all those who know and love you! I can't believe you are turning 13 next week!!! You have grown into such a beauty, not only on the outside, but assuredly on the inside as well! I hope you always keep that inner beauty! Happy early birthday!
Reece, you are so full of life and a precious gem too! How I enjoy being around you!! Your excitement is contagious! Sophie adores you! WE all do!
Carol, your gift of words never ceases to astound me! Your insight into Job and his number of children gave me chills! I think you must have hit the nail on the head. He did have double the children, and it gave me renewed hope all over again that those who have passed on are just away from us temporarily if we have life in Christ, and one day, oh one day, we will all be together again!! I know that has to bring comfort even in the midst of such heartache! I believe that Randon and Reid will be there one day with open arms, and what a reunion that will be! They will hold you like you held them, with all the love they can muster!
With your entries and living example, you make my joy fuller with your constant reminders of treasuring the simple, the ordinary, the "moments." I do treasure those better because of you, because of where you've been, because of the person you are! You are my very dear friend, and I love you!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Friday, January 12, 2007 9:21 AM CST
Hi Carol. I don't think Reagan will ever be embarrased to be seen with you. You don't look like an "old" mom. You are young, have pretty hair, and don't dress like a grandma. You have it going on! She won't walk 10 steps behind you in the mall. haha. I haven't signed the guestbook in forever, I just assume you know I am here. I still check the website every few days. Take care and thank you for the wonderful update. I printed the saying from Mother Theresa. I am going to put it in my planner. I need to be more like that! Love, Paula
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 11, 2007 10:37 PM CST
mommy, i just can't get over how much i love the music!!1
11111!!
GOD and JESUS CHRIST THE LORD are with you.a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@nisightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Thursday, January 11, 2007 9:02 PM CST
Dear Carol,
You sure know how to touch my heart! Your posts always make me feel so grateful for what I have been blessed with. Thank-you so much for sharing your life.
Bless you!
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, January 11, 2007 3:00 PM CST
Carol,
As usual, I'm so very touched by your eloquently written words. Thanks so much for sharing them, especially that we should all appreciate--and take joy in--the normalcy of day-to-day life. I respect and admire you so much--I hope you know that by now. If there is ever anything you need, please let me know. By the way, I agree with the person that posted that you should write a book. You have so much love, understanding, knowledge, reflection, and compassion to give. Thank you for giving; you have NO idea how much others are touched by your words. On a lighter note, I loved the opening scissors scene. Could picture it and hear both of you so well. :)
Penny White <penny.white@warren.kyschools.us>
Scottsville, KY USA - Thursday, January 11, 2007 1:46 PM CST
I know you don't want to hear it, but you always amaze me. You've said it before, you're just trying to get through, but the ease at which you put the "getting through" into words, takes my breath away. Can't beleive birthdays are rolling around again! Happy Birthday to all the girls (small & big). Welcome to life with a teenager! Although Shelby isn't quite there yet, Tanner and his excess testosterone run rampant through our home. The best advice I ever received I'll give to you...Just remember to breathe. Most of the time my reactions jump out first, then I remember to stop and breathe. I think Tan & I always do better when I stop and breathe first. I love you all with all my heart and am always just a call away. Just so you know that the teenage years aren't all bad, here's a funny. Tanner didn't mean to be funny, but it's something I remember often and laugh at always... I was being my normal self (goofy to a fault if you ask the men in my family) and Tanner rolled his eyes with a look of evident disgust. I hugged him and said "someday Tanner you will look back and think, I had a cool mom". He pulled away and very seriously said, as he walked away, "Well, this is not that day!". You give your girls an amazing gift every day. When you feel like you just can't face another "have a good day" you get up out of bed and go about taking care of business. Your girls are learning to take whatever this world gives them, and to keep on going. They are learning lessons of compassion by not only enduring the pain, but watching you and the grace with which you survive.
For that matter, I receive that gift as well. Thank you.
Remember to breathe
Jill E. <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, Ky - Thursday, January 11, 2007 12:16 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Just want to say hi! Your latest entry is so meaningful and so beautifully written. You always make me appreciate what I have been blessed with and I thank you for that. I continue to keep your family in my prayers.
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, January 11, 2007 12:10 AM CST
First and foremost, Reagan's comments on this website cut to the very core of me---I cannont read one without tears just streaming down my face. (and Regan, those aren't tears of saddness--they are tears of pure joy, because you are such a special young lady!) You are able to comfort your mother in so many ways that no one else is able to---and that takes a very special person--you put a lot of thought into your messages, and that is so very sweet!
Riley is certainly a beautiful young lady ready to hit 13 face on!!!! She will be they type of girl that glides through the teenage years--she will make it look as if it just comes with ease--and nothing is a big deal. And with what she has experienced in her first 13 years of life, nothing will be like a typical teeneager---she knows about the really important things is life, and that's not someting that she is liable to "forget" during these next 5 years. (But if she does, it will only be temporary--she is human after alll) I can't wait to see Riley play soccer this year! And that means that I will get to see Reece during the games!
Again Carol, your thoughts and ways that you express them are like poetry.
praying for the Miller Family everyday!!
Beth Austin TEAM 365
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Thursday, January 11, 2007 11:38 AM CST
Wow! Yet another incredible journal entry. You are such a great writer and express yourself so well. I do think you could write a book, and your journal entries are a great start. And the revelations you've been having--just incredible. You are an incredible person and mother. Yes, I've used "incredible" here three times, but I don't think there is a better word. Thinking of you guys and hoping you have an uneventful 2007 like I'm hoping for for myself!
Danielle and Jordan <twxee@aol.com>
Norristown, PA - Thursday, January 11, 2007 10:41 AM CST
I LOVE that song. It is wonderful and when I heard it I instantly thought of you, Jake's mom, myself, and several other moms that have lost a child. I also loved Kent Keith's version. I shared it with all of my co-workers today and have gotten lots of good responses. Thanks for sharing.
Being the baby sister of three girls, I have to smile at what you are getting ready to go through with your girls. Of course, Riley seems to be so sincere and smart so I believe that you and Dale will survive.
Thanks for sharing your heart and being so real on here Carol. I check your site daily looking for encouragement and I never leave disappointed. (Thanks!!)
I pray that 2007 is a year filled with healing and God's grace and mercy. You are in my thoughts and prayers often.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Thanking God for you all.............. <DawnPierce@BankPlus.net>
- Thursday, January 11, 2007 9:12 AM CST
Good morning dear Carol,
Just checking in to read your lovely post. I think you have another budding author in the family... Come on Clark - give in on the ears!!
God's Blessings to you all.
Love,
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, January 11, 2007 8:59 AM CST
PS I am GLAD Riley is getting her ears pierced... I was her age as well due to an overprotective father and when my mom took me, I was like but won't daddy be upset and she was like nope, he is running out of things to buy you so this will help but I am happy for more than one reason on that one.
Kristi
- Thursday, January 11, 2007 8:55 AM CST
Glad to read the update and keep those scissors from Reese... I can't really reply, it's almost class time and then I am shut off until Tuesday or when I get my laptop back... Take care of yourselfs and I love you all and will write soon.
Kristi
- Thursday, January 11, 2007 8:52 AM CST
I have been following your site for quite a while and have been praying for you and your family, and think of you every day but never written any comments. I just read your latest journal 1-10-07, about your children's birthdays next week. It is so ironic and funny that we also in our family have 2 birthdays next week, Brian will be 21 on the 17th and Rachael will be 11 on the 18th--10 years apart! I was in labor with Rachael on Brian's birthday-didnt go to the hospital until 2 a.m. on the 18th!!! You have truely blessed me with all your journals you have written especially this last one about pain & sorrow bringing joy! The book about Queenbees & Wannabees, I am going to find that book, it really sounds like a good one--Rach will soon be a teenager!
Our love & prayers go out to you and your family!
Love,
Kathy Stafki <rkstafki@frontiernet.net>
Canby, MN USA - Thursday, January 11, 2007 8:28 AM CST
Thinking about you, and praying for you.
Hugs,
Ann Watts/Angel Wings <bubbasoldlady@cebridge.net>
Jacksonville, AR USA - Thursday, January 11, 2007 2:07 AM CST
Dear Carol - Thanks for the song, your post and the way they both touched my heart. I continue to pray for you, Dale and the girls. I will always remember your sons, Reid and Randon.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Thursday, January 11, 2007 0:42 AM CST
HAD TO STOP BY AND LET YOU KNOW THAT I'M THINKING OF YOU.
LOVE BRENDAMY LOVING ANGELS FOREVER FOR THERE HAVE BEEN TO MANY <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA/CANADA, - Thursday, January 11, 2007 0:38 AM CST
Getting her ears pierced! fun!
I remember getting mine pierced in elementary school, I don't remember what age...but, my mom had told me that I could get them pierced when I could pay for it. Of course she thought I wouldn't be able to afford it for years to come. Shortly after, I won $10 in the reflections contest at school...so, I got them pierced!
I always enjoy reading your entries. It makes me both happy and sad at the same time!
I think of you often, Megan
www.carepages.com tannernielsen
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 11:40 PM CST
Hello Carol,Dale and The Miller Girls!!!
I am finally got back on the website.Because i can't lose this website.And because i love to check on you and the website everyday.And Carol i want to tell you how much i love your pictures from someone's wedding.And i think all of you look great in your pictures from a wedding last week.And Carol i just hope that everyone had fun and wonderful time at the Wedding last year.And the girls look so grown up in their pretty dresses.And i just can't beleive that Riley going to be a teenage on Jan 17,2007.And i just hope that Riley have a wonderful and fun Birthday on Jan 17,2007.And Carol you have very beautiful family.Take Care and God Bless you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller families.And I Love You Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller families very much forever and always forever.Love from your from friend Peggy Shannon from Chicago,IL.
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 10:58 PM CST
Carol,
You're still my hero! :-) Today's entry really struck a cord with me. So often I take for granted paying the bills and cooking supper and all the "normal" stuff that I do when I should just be thankful that I have the opportunity to be doing those things. As for Reese...she sounds like a quite a character. I'm sure she and my Evan would make quite a pair. He'll be 3 in a few weeks!
Here's hoping that your "how I'm doing now" meter goes off the charts this week! You deserve it! :-)
P.S. LOVE the song!
Carol Stice
- Wednesday, January 10, 2007 9:56 PM CST
oh mommy, i love the music! thank you for sending me an email with the website on it. the music really is wonderful, great and very good. i like all the songs you do. can i learn this song. please teach me. GOD and JESUS are with you.
love,
reagan
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 9:48 PM CST
OK you found the song I have been searching for over a month for. She sang this on the CMA awards and the instant I heard it I fell in love. I have been searching for it for Isaiah's page, although you would have to show me how to put it on. Timmy even looked for the CD for me and couldn't find it, maybe it isn't out yet (I still look for it). I think the words of the song ring so true. No matter what is thrown at us we do it anyways. Everytime I listen to it I just cry and think of all we have done that we just do anyways. Enough about the song but if you didn't notice it is my latest favorite song!
Your journal really hit home with me today. I feel that your happiness comes from the wonderful person you are and the other things enhance it. You are right your boys brought you lots of happiness and how they showed you true compassion. I saw that happiness in your face so many times when Randon would wake up, when he would look at you, and the wonderful times you got to hold him. No, most people don't realize that those little things would make one so happy. How you could find such joy in holding a child even though you had to us a pillow and have a nurse with you. But Carol the look I remember on your face during these times would light the room. I know you would have perfered to have had him at home rocking him but you made the best of the situation you were handed. Your happiness and joy for the moment gave little Randon such peace as I am sure it also did the same for Reid.
Sorry to ramble, just wanted to share a few thoughts. I haven't written in a while so I had to make up for it. Can't wait to see you Sunday, oh Nurse Jennifer is coming for the party.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
Promise I won't write another book for awhile!!!, - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 9:39 PM CST
Carol,
I was thinking about what to write when I was waiting for the guestbook to open. It's the same thoughts as many others...You are a phenominal writer! I am grateful you let us all into your heart! Thank you! I again can only send you my thoughts, prayers, and HUGS!
Jackie
PS Love Reagan's entries!!!
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
WI - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 9:15 PM CST
Dear Carol,
Again, you say/write exactly what I am feeling. Thank you.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 8:31 PM CST
Carol,
Love the new entry! You are so very gifted with your writing. I agree that you definately have your work cut out for you with Reece just like I do with Kate. Madison just got her first pair of heely's, yes I know total TOMBOY, so last night Dylan was demonstrating how to use these things for all of us. So then Madison tries to do what he is doing with no luck at all, while Kate and I are watching. So today Madison gets in from school and puts them on to show her Dad and he states "How Cool". Well then Miss Kate(3 yrs old) says, "YA there cool but she can't work them". "Just watch she can't even do it". So I know all to well how difficult my life is going to be because she states whatever she thinks no mater where we are!
I think it will be really neat for Riley to finally have her ears pierced. She is such a smart and compasionate girl. I think she will do okay in her teenage years. You and Dale should be really proud of her not many girls her age work so hard to do such wonderful things like the lemonade stands. It says alot for her, but also for you and Dale as parents.
Keep up the good work with your three beautiful girls. I know their brothers are looking down at them with great big smiles. :)
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 7:07 PM CST
Carol, Welcome to the world of teenagers and there emotional ups and downs of hormones!!! I have a 17 year old daughter who is a senior this year and a 4 year old daughter. My youngest is my constant reminder of why I wanted to be a mommy, although I am very proud of my oldest, we certainly have our days. Our photographer who does my children's pictures told me that she and her daughter became the best of friends after her daughter graduated from college, Hopefully, my daughter will see me for all my wisdom and knowledge after 4 more years! Ha ha. Anyways, I just updated my oldest on your family and read your latest entry to her. All she could do was laugh regarding Reese. She said it reminded her of something she would do. My youngest and oldest are like night and day. My little one is very quiet and my oldest is the loudest. How different they are but loved the same none the less. I can barely manage one book much less 3. You have certainly come across some very insightful points while reading. I told my oldest that I would love to see you write a book. I would certainly buy it!! Your words just flow so smoothly together. You have so much knowledge of the Bible. I wish I had that much. Your words are what inspire me to become closer to God. You deliver God's word whether you know it or not. You are truly doing what all Christians should be doing. You tell your story with all the ups and downs and yet you still have your faith because you choose to find a better good in mankind. I do not want to steal your show by trying to write my own book so I will close for now. May you continue to find the peace, hope, courage and happiness that you are so deserving of. As for your girl's, Happy Birthday to both of them!! Best of luck with the ear peircing!!Take care and may God bless you, Maria
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
Battleboro, NC - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 6:51 PM CST
Carol---oh...Carol....you are so 'all over the map'--and that is a good thing because you are not just stuck in a dark hole 24/7. I am glad that the simple things are what you find peace and joy in, as I am learning that from you and others I follow.
I am not so sure about that pain/suffering--highlighting the good-- I think we can be shown and taught to appreciate the good without having to go through the kind of agony you and others have to go through--for our losses are with us forever. I have to say that I still don't get it, and that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all--why those babies (all of them) had such a short time here on earth. I AM a WHY child, and I guess god had to give them a family who would cherish every short moment with them, comfort and support them while they were here--and found you.
As far as Reese goes, I think the boys are in her!!! The devilness boys bring, they are in that precious looking, sweet baby girl!!! They must have joy sticks up there in Heaven, and are directing her--laughing all the way!!! OH--do you have your work cut out for you with her!! Get a GPS on her--
Hope you enjoy celebrating Riley's 13th. It is a rite of passage into that dark, dark, tunnel called teenagehood. This is when you want anxiety meds. Although, your girls seem so grounded and focused on life. Out here in the west--well, it is a different story. I wonder how Alan's are doing?? He has one, maybe two teenagers now. HMmmmmm......
Keep plugging away, one day at a time. And as far as this lack of compassion goes--(my dad told me this once, and he is no longer here) "NO ONE, I repeat, NO ONE can make you feel inferior, insecure, inept.... 'in' anything without your consent. So just blow them off". For whatever that is worth!!
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 5:55 PM CST
Hi Carol--thinking of you this week and keeping you always in prayer! Glad Reagan is feeling better:) Talk to you soon--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 12:40 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Just wanted to say hello and thanks for always updating the website. I just love all the pictures of the girls and truly enjoy how you bring strength to all of us. Sending you some love and prayers to get through another day.
Thinking of you,
Kristy
Kristy Morton <Kristy.morton@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 9:38 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Just checking on you and hoping you're having a good day. You are always in our prayers and always only a phone call away if you need me.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, January 10, 2007 8:36 AM CST
I just now remembered to go do what we talked about and I am cracking up! See you on Thursday! Love you!
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, January 9, 2007 10:40 PM CST
hi mommy. how are you? GOD and JESUS are with you.
a whole lot of love in, through, and with CHRIST! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Tuesday, January 9, 2007 3:54 PM CST
Just saying "Hey". Hang in there and just take it a day at at a time. The girls look beautiful. We had ball with them with Santa. They're such sweethearts. You done good!
Jill E. <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Tuesday, January 9, 2007 11:51 AM CST
Hi Carol,
I hope your week is starting out okay. I missed seeing you this weekend. It looks like tomorrow is going to be a cold one...wouldn't it be nice if we got at least one snow this winter. Don't think it is going to happen this time, but I am still hoping for some white flakes before spring.
Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you and continue to pray for you daily. We are also anxiously awaiting a date for when Reese can come play! I hope to talk to or see you soon.
Much love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Monday, January 8, 2007 8:51 PM CST
GOD and JESUS are with you mommy.
a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST! ! 1 1 1 1 ! ! 1 !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Monday, January 8, 2007 5:40 PM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Sorry it's been a while...
Gosh, where do I start. OK, Reese!!! Now, I just think she is the most beautiful shoe slinger, spitting and raspberry maker ever!! Yep, when you are as cute as she is, gosh, you can do what you want to do!!! LOL, that was just so cute...sorry for the embarrassment, I know she was the "talk" of the day!!
The pictures of the girls were absolutely GORGEOUS!! Thanks so much for sharing them with us.
Carol...for the rest of your journal, I sure hope you are saving these entries. Yes, I see that book getting closer and closer.
Thanks so much for sharing your heart, your pain, your grief, and always your great HOPE, and your faith! You are walking where most mothers have never dreamed...or would want to imagine. Yet, you still purpose to find joy, and celebrate the good things in life.
I've gleaned so much from your journey, and continue to do so. Keep being "real", God has such a work for you to do.
With lots of love in my heart for you,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
So blessed to call you my friend............................, - Monday, January 8, 2007 5:35 PM CST
hi mom.
i like signing this guest book.
a whole lot of love in, through and with CHRIST1 ! !! ?1 1 1 ! 1 !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Monday, January 8, 2007 5:35 PM CST
Hi there,
I’m just stopping by to let you know I’m thinking of you today and everyday.
Love Karen
www.carepages.com
Carepage name is Karenmelissa
Karen
- Monday, January 8, 2007 5:10 PM CST
Carol,
First of all I have to say--I'm sure Reece's behavior during the wedding was adorable to everyone (except maybe you and your family). When you have a little girl in your wedding that is the age of Reece, you have to expect a little side show. First of all she is not used to sharing the spotlight, and second of all that's what 2 and 3 year olds do!!! If she had not acted silly, and had not been comical at all, THEN I would worry about her---what she did was perfectly normal!!(and I for one wish that I had been there to see!!!!) All 3 of your girls are as sweet as they are pretty---they have been through two devastating situations, and seem to have coping mechanisms better than any grown ups that I know (and that is 100% due to how you and Don have nurtured them and helped them through these hard times--all while grieving yourselves). The two of you are truly awesome parents! I hope that 2007 will be a happy and fun year for the Millers, even though I know your hearts are so very heavy. Please know that you have friends praying for you every day.
Love Beth
Beth Austin TEAM 365 <beth@bradd.org>
- Monday, January 8, 2007 1:27 PM CST
Carol,
Thank you for such an honest, heartfelt, well-written journal entry. I can relate to SO MUCH of what you wrote. No one can unless they've "been there".
The pictures are beautiful, as are the Christmas pictures. Thanks for sharing them. And thanks for the funny wedding story.
May God bless you all in 2007 in ways that you could have never imagined!
Love and hugs,
Rhonda Hunley, Forever Connor's Mommy
<rshunley@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Sunday, January 7, 2007 8:36 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Just want to say hi and let you know that I am thinking of you. The pictures of the girls at the wedding are beautiful! They looked so pretty, I love the dresses! The story about Reese is so funny---I still have her dancing around as an elf on my computer, I laugh every time I see it! Looking forward to seeing you sometime soon!
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Saturday, January 6, 2007 10:41 AM CST
God bless --have a great weekend--thinking of you.
With prayers,
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgow, KY u - Friday, January 5, 2007 5:20 PM CST
We just dropped by to check on you today.
Jodi and McKayla
Jodi Phelan <jodiphelan@hotmail.com>
Sherwood Park, AB Canada - Friday, January 5, 2007 4:10 PM CST
It is not surprising that such a beautiful person has such beautiful daughters! I know you don't "know" me, but thanks so much for making such a difference in my life. I only hope that one day I can make some sort of positive impact on yours! :-)
Carol Stice
Brownsville, KY - Thursday, January 4, 2007 6:03 PM CST
Ihave been thinking about you for days, and need to let you know that we are still thinking, praying and loving all of you! Your Christmas pictures were beautiful,and your girls are adorable! Talk to you soon! love, leeann
leeann crawley <crawley@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, January 4, 2007 4:32 PM CST
Dear Carol, The girls pictures are breath taking. They are so beautiful, as is the whole family. Every child you have had is beautiful. But then, look at you and Dale, you couldn't help but have beautiful babies. I am sure the church was georgeous and at this time of year, it saves on having to do a lot of decorating because the Church has already done it. Your entry is so hearfelt and as I said in an earlier entry, your FAITH is evident. That is all we have and all we need. Church is just a building, but relationship with our Lord is what is personal. Take care, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, January 4, 2007 4:16 PM CST
HEYYYYYYYYYYYYY there-- happy new year and wow!! what an entry!! I am not involved in church so I cannot identify with what you are feeling, but I do know that you should never feel uncomfortable with your feelings...........or ashamed of them. They are YOURS---and you own them!!! In time, you may, or may not find the answers, but you will grow just from having felt the way you do--and dealing with them the way you chose to.
Enough of that. Reese......you need to have pictures, better yet, a clip of their wedding video and save them for her bridal shower. I think it would be such a pay back to play that for her 25 years from now. I also think you need to get some country folk out on your porch with pipes and shotguns when those girls start dating!!! You know, the ones with plaid shirts and missing teeth???? Sitting in a rocking chair just polishing their rifles when their dates show up to take them out. YOU AND DALE ARE IN FOR IT!!!
We are freezing our fannies off here in the NW--I wish we could have snow or something to justify it. Being a native Californian, everytime I see a patch of blue sky, I run outside to work in the yard. Everyone thinks I am psycho. My husband says in time they will KNOW I am.
Keep up the good work you are doing for yourself, and in turn, your family. Take your time, go to meetings, clubs, groups, bed, take a bath, just do what you have to do for youself. Everyone supports you.
Stay warm
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, or - Thursday, January 4, 2007 2:58 PM CST
Carol-
Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you. I was home with the stomach bug yesterday so I missed the meeting. Glad to hear you made it through the holidays...the family pictures were great! I thought about you and your family often during the holidays. Good Luck Tonight at Riley's game!!
Love, Donna
donna wills <wills330@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Thursday, January 4, 2007 2:27 PM CST
Carol, The pictures of your girls are absolutely beautiful. Your Reese is certainly going to keep you and Dale busy! As another journal entry read, your writing is so beautiful. You speak from your heart and you can believe no judgement is passed down as to how you feel. I am sure the majority of us would feel the same as you if we had lost two sons. I am glad 2006 is over as well. I knew two families who each lost a son. One was 16 and killed in a car wreck in Feb. and the other was 8 and was killed while crossing the road to go to his house with his father right behind him in March. I have heard the grief the parents have endured and have read all of you entries and the pain exists in all of these families as well as yours. The questions of why me? The questions of faith in God? Everything you feel is so "normal" if you want to call it normal. You are such an amazing woman. I know you must ask yourself why would people think this. You are so genuine in your entries. You are who you are and nothing more or less. Some people are pretentious in their actions but you just tell it like you see it and nothing is wrong with being truthful. Meeting your two sons through Caringbridge has given me a golden opportunity to meet you and your family. Your love for all of your children is so obvious. All five are lucky to have you as their mommy as well as Dale as their daddy.May 2007 find you much happiness and some ease of the pain you feel. Take care and God bless you and your family. Happy New Year!
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
Battleboro, NC - Thursday, January 4, 2007 8:12 AM CST
Carol,
Over this holiday I was standing in the kitchen of my friend (whom I have not know that long but however it feels like forever) and we were talking about how overwhelming the whole holiday season is! I explain to her that last year at this time I was so miserable and this year life is so much better but I still felt like the grinch! I asked how is this so? So she proceeded to tell me about the story of her being pregnant, several years back everything was going great and then she slipped and feel on a patch of ice! She went to the hospital only to receive really bad care and everyone just kind of blowing her off although she knew in her heart things were wrong. After a few hours she found herself strapped to the bed and being wheeled down the hall to only find herself in the worst nightmare ever! I think this has been a little over 6 years now and she says that the pain dulls but never goes away and all the feelings you stated in your journal she had said all the same. She said she has found herself wanting to scream at people and also wanting to go to church and scream out WHY ME? She is alot like you, the sweetest and most caring person you would ever want to know. So I guess what I am trying to say is I have no clue how hard the pain is (and shelfishly pray I never know) but I think you are very normal. I think it will just take so much time and yet that will not help everything but know that you are not alone. Distance yourself from the ones that do not understand and comfort you because there are so many out there that will. I pray that this new year will ease some of your pain. :)
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green , KY - Thursday, January 4, 2007 7:36 AM CST
Dear Carol - I continue to pray for you, Dale and your sweet family (girls, boys and so much more!). From your past several posts, your words loudly speak to my heart. I pray that you will continue to find your voice through this site to help you feel heard as well as to reach others who need to hear you. Bless you, Carol!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Thursday, January 4, 2007 0:22 AM CST
*Sorry that I haven't been around lately, I have started school again, like I am actually in school, in desks around people and a teacher instead of from the luxury of my couch, lol. I had two services to attend for a sweet boy I followed and have known and then to top it off, I am sick.*
Reagan, hey kiddo, I know from what your mommy wrote that Reese was something else and I have to say if Darien and Reese ever get to meet, we better run, well, you push and run and I ride, lol;) because Darien did the same thing at our uncles wedding, stripped her shoes off, pulled things out of her hair and then laid in the aisle and ended up falling asleep there and forget pictures, she was cranky after that so don't worry, little ones, they just are that, little ones, you never know what to expect out of them and I am sure everyone will remember Reese for years to come and they will chuckle about it even though right now, you don't think it is now. Carol and Dale, she's going to be the one who gives you the run for your money. All three of the girls were beautiful and the dresses were beautiful. When and if I ever get married I want my wedding in black and silver with white roses. At least for now.:) I think pictures will show you Darien's little spill better
My girl and I
So precious
In the middle of the isle having a "party"
Glad Clark got everything down safely and that it's all ready for next year, lol. My Charlie Brown Christmas tree is still sitting up and my nativity scene.
You're not alone, never forget that Carol. We all grieve, some of us grieve for children we had, children we watched, children we loved, family, friends, etc. Grief is this complicated thing, it hurts at one time but at a sudden moment you completely have this loss of pain and then it slams you and you are left sucker punched wondering what happened and why.... Nothing you feel, think or do is ever crazy. You're grieving and you are trying to find this new life where it fits together and that alone is hard.
I don't think you are alone with church. I struggle, not for the same reason but others. I know I saw my doctor today and she told me she missed seeing me at church and it was like, um, yeah, I'll be back every week soon, I promise, I love God, I love the connection with my Lord and his Word but Church is where I struggle and having my doctor and I at the same church makes it different for me. Know you did NOTHING to ever deserve to lose your sons, your Reid and your Randon, you were everything to them and they were that to you. Maybe it shouldn't matter but Carol, I struggle not to acknowledge the boys. They are just as important to me as the girls are.
Looking back, I just started thinking this with a death of a sweet boy I met in real life on caringbridge and attended his services this week and realized that with your family that I never knew the range of emotions that would arise from such a sweet and beautiful family but the worst of it all was watching the pain and the pain I felt as you all suffered through the lose of Reid and then the birth, life and death of Randon and I think of the song by Garth Brooke's and I realize all the pain in the world could have been missed but then I would have missed the most amazing dance in life with your family and that dance with your family was a dance to last me a lifetime. Full of so many amazing things but the pain is still there. I hope that made sense.
I love you all and thank God, I have been blessed to know you. Hang in there Carol, you are an inspiration to many as are your girls and Dale, I know your second child knows how to brighten my days with her amazing ability to write much like her mothers.
People may come and go, some may understand, some may not but no matter what, you are who you are and people will accept you.
Kristi
- Wednesday, January 3, 2007 8:38 PM CST
The girls look beautiful in the pictures. I am sure that Reese was precious. I just want you to know how often I think of you and your boys. Hope 2007 is filled with happy events for you and your family.
Caroline <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 8:37 PM CST
The girls looked lovely. I am sorry I forgot to mention that before!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 6:26 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Once again your journal entry hits home. We had over 1,400 people visit us at the funeral home. I really didn't think we even knew that many people. However, as you pointed out, it is the ones who you don't see that tend to make the most impact. Zack's primary doctor here in town did not come to the visitation, the funeral, hasn't even sent a card. For some reason, this has bothered me more than I can explain. This doctor delivered
Zack. I had three of his four children in school. His office and he always treated Zack so well and went out of the way to make sure he had everything he needed. I guess this is why I was surprised and hurt that Zack's death hasn't really even been acknowledged. Then I get upset with myself for even worrying about it when Zack was acknowledged and loved by so many other people. His two primary doctors from Akron Children's drove over an hour to attend the calling hours. We have managed to stay busy over the last week but I am sure the times will become harder as the routine of everyday sets in. Thanks for listening.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 6:24 PM CST
You have a beautiful family!!! Have a great New Year!
Cathy Schwartz <catandkevin@hotmail.com>
St Louis, MO USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 3:58 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I don't think we are supposed to "rate" your entries, but this one sure is the best. I hope that came out right???
I just continue to be in awe of how well you share your feelings. Although I have never experienced your pain (nor claim to know one tenth of how raw that pain must feel), I still find myself understanding every thing you say about parenting, marriage, friendships, etc. I want to say "Amen" after every sentence you write. I truly continue to learn so much from you. Man, I wished you lived closer! You are such a role model to me as a mother, wife, and Christian.
You are always in my prayers. I am praying that 2007 is a year of nothing but blessing after blessing for your precious family.
Story about Reese...adorable. I have a strong feeling that her and Kayla would get along GREAT!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 2:06 PM CST
Oh my, as sick as I am, (and always get after sitting in the hospital with Kylie for a week)I was just gettin this niggling to check on ya'll...the pictures...whew...looking at them is proof that God is good! I love ya girl, CHarlie needs me to go get his Diego telescope that somehow made it over the fence and into the front yard...grrrrr...im just gonna call you tomorrow...
Heather <tenkids2dogs@aol.com>
Toms River, NJ - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 1:01 PM CST
Carole,
Reading your journal today has really struck a cord with me. The pain you are suffering with you loss is so very evident. One thing I do know however-is that bad things do not happen to people based on their goodness --or for that matter because they are bad. If that were the case --only bad things would happen to bad people. But the bible does say that God does not love us based on our goodness, just like we do not love our children based on their goodness. Sometimes I think I loved my children most when they had been bad or made mistakes--because that is when I felt they needed me the most. God loves us in spite of what we do or do not do--nothing we do can make him love us more or less--his love is the same all the time. I know from reading your journal that you really know that what has happened to you is not some kind of punishment for something you did or did not do. However, there are many people who like to see things that way, some poeple enjoy seeing others suffer because it makes them feel superior, that they are better people and that is why they enjoy judging others, why they cannot reach out to you in your time of trial--they have no concept of what true Christian love and faith is. Just becasue people go to church --does not make them good people, some people go to church just to be seen and to have people think they are good. None of us are good enought to get into heaven!!! If God had not sent HIS SON to die for us--none of us would have a chance at Heaven. I pray that you will be able to continue to take comfort from those who show you love and compassion--and realize that the best thing you can do for the others as well as yourself, is pray that they will eventually find their place in God's plan. We are all on our own journey, sometimes we do not realize that others are suffering in ways that we do not see, and that their suffering is very deep and real and that they need our prayers just as we need the prayers of those we love and who love us.
I pray that time will ease your pain --and I believe that it will. I know it will never be completely gone, but know that I will always be thinking of you and praying for you and your family. There is not one day that goes by that I do not have you in my thoughts and prayers.
In God's Love,
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
glasgow, KY USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 12:00 AM CST
What a beautiful family...so sorry there is so much heartache...Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 11:34 AM CST
Carol,
Praying for your heart and for healing. I hope the Lord showers you with a tremendous amount of joy and happiness in 2007. Thank you for sharing your family and your heart with us all. You are such an inspiration!
Janet DeRosier <janet@derohero.com>
Brooklyn Center, MN - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 10:48 AM CST
Sweet Carol,
I know that I sound like a broken record, but your girls are so beautiful. Your pictures from the wedding were so pretty of everyone, and Reese looked just like a little angel. If anyone could pull off shoe-tossing and noises, it would be that cutie!! Everyone will only remember the most precious little flower girl, not all those other things!
While I cannot understand like you do, I can still see why church would be difficult. I fully remember when I was in college, a middle-aged woman in our church congregation lost a son on prom night due to a car accident. I remember feeling so heartbroken for her as she would most often rush out during the music portion of every church service thereafter for many months. I think I now understand a little better from your eloquent words why she was so overcome with emotion and grief. I hope she didn't feel forsaken, and I hope you never feel forsaken! You are loved by so very many, and most of all you are loved by God, even though we will never understand how He could allow you to have such loss. You are a beautiful person, and beautiful people sometimes have tragedies. I will never understand, and it's kind of like that song you posted (which was beautiful...I'd like to hear that song--is it on this website?). (The music never plays on the website for me, unless I open it at home.) I do believe that someday we will know more answers, but I have just given up trying to understand and making sense of it all right now. I know that after your experiences, I feel guilty and even errant to ever say, "my family is so blessed." Because it does have an air to it that we must have somehow deserved this blessing. But I know that is definitely not the case. If I got what I deserved, I would be sitting in a mud puddle all alone with no hope of anything. I am so very thankful God doesn't give us what we deserve. He didn't give you what you deserve either, Carol. We don't know why He chooses to answer some prayers with a "yes" and some with a "no" and I have to remind myself of that quite often, especially after praying so fervently for both of your boys. I have to believe too that prayer is not so much of whether we'll get the answer we want, but that we are drawn closer to Him by asking. I want my children to come to me with their requests, and I really believe He wants to know our big and little requests. But I know that sometimes He says "no", and we don't know why. I am of no help at all really , am I? I don't know what God has in store for you all, but I trust and hope that it's something glorious.
I am always here for you, and if church is hard, I'll stick it out with you. I just wish that church was more of a place of comfort and consolation for you, and I wish that more of those many who do care would be able to express that concern for you verbally. Just know that I'm always available to "play hookie" with you if you need a break from anything at church. We'll find a private corner, and I will listen or I'll just sit, it's all ok to feel the ways you feel.
I must get busy. I am praying for you, and I love you my friend!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 9:38 AM CST
Hi Carol--great song--one of my favorites from such a tear jerker movie!! Happy New Year--I hope that 2007 brings happiness, healing and hope for you all. The pictures of the girls at the wedding are just beautiful--I can hardly believe sweet Reese would actually do those things:) Reagan and Riley look so grown up and pretty. I'm in awe of how you express your feelings,frustrations and questions in your entry--it is very healthy to question our faith--I think it keeps us looking for what God truly wants from us--thank you for once again reminding me to always appreciate each day and to hug our kids a little more and not to let the little things bog us down--love you--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 9:02 AM CST
Carol, I don't think I have ever signed Randon's guestbook but I have been following your family ever since that precious baby was born, your journal today hits home so bad, it's always those we think that should be helping us that we think about in our times of need. Like you I havent' stepped inside a church since last year and can't even type the word pray in my son's journals without wondering about that word. You have a beautiful family!
Laurie <lmilnes@comcast.net www.caringbridge.com/visit/tim>
- Wednesday, January 3, 2007 8:36 AM CST
Carol,
I wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts. Even though our experiences are different, we have experienced the indifference of others through our own journey, especially from those who mean the most to us. A friend once told me that this is part of the brutality of having a sick child. All I know is that it hurts tremendously! However I can say that the Lord has sent plenty of others to support us more than I could have ever dreamt. Complete strangers have come into our lives and have made a huge difference and we are so thankful for that, but I'll never understand why some of the closest people in our lives have turned away when we needed them the most.
Sending hugs and prayers...
Kristin
Mom to Hayden, Evan, Conner and Kelsey
Lafayette, IN <kristinsmith@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, January 3, 2007 6:48 AM CST
Thank you for sharing such beautiful pictures of the girls and your family. Mostly, thank you for sharing your heart with so many! God knows our hearts and that is what matters! Please know I am sending HUGS to you.
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI - Wednesday, January 3, 2007 2:46 AM CST
Dear Carol and family,
Just wanted to say that I love the pictures and that I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
LeAnn
Leann Crowe <mikecrowe@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, January 2, 2007 10:25 PM CST
Happy New Year! Still checking in and praying for you all!!
Amy <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
Nashville, TN - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 9:01 PM CST
Dear Carol~ How are you? And Happy New Year! Just wanted to stop by and say "Hi and I hope all is well". I hope that you have a nice week. Have fun with those sweet girls. I know there is no need to say it, I can tell from all of the Christmas pictures that EVERYONE is having fun!! They are too cute!! Type to you soon. Love~Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, Ky - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 8:37 PM CST
Hi Carol,
It was good to get caught up on your activities! You have some precious Christmas pictures of the girls, and the touching slide show with Reid brought tears to my eyes. It was nice to remember what a beautiful baby he was, and it's still hard to believe he was so sick by how happy he looked. While we've been gone the last week, you were on my mind a lot (hence the call from Liberty Square while waiting for my funnel cake). I hope you didn't think I was insane calling, but I just wanted you to know that you were being thought of and prayed for. We had a wonderful time at Disney as I told you, but in my ignorance I forgot to see how you really were. Please forgive my insensitivy and overeagerness to share my excitement! You have been my Disney guru and mentor, and I wanted you to know how much you helped me be prepared. But much more importantly, you have been a mentor to me for how to make the best of things when things are at their worst. I know I've said it before, but I admire you and Dale so much for carrying on and for the inspiration that you are daily. I know that God can never replace those two sweet boys, but I sure hope and pray He blesses you with life's sweetest joys to help you through each day, and that's what I'll continue to pray for. You've got three of the most precious daughters known to mankind also!
I hope to see you soon and give you a new year's hug!
Much love,
Robin (can I still be known as "Princess" after returning to Bowling Green?)
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 3:40 PM CST
Dear Carol, Happy New Year to you. I hope today is a good day for you. I was reading an article and the following statement "Faith transforms character. You may not always be aware of another person’s absence of faith, but you will quickly be aware of another person’s presence of faith!" jumped out at me and it reminded me of you. Your faith is so evident in everything that you have written in your journal and I just wanted you to know that your evidence of faith has impacted me. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 3:24 PM CST
Hello Miller gang. I'm just checking in. I've certainly thought of you often over the past few weeks. I'm happy to see that everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I knew that the girls were on some kind of scavenger hunt Christmas morning, but I had no idea it was a doll house and basketball goal. How cool.
Cristi Freese <cfreese@f-schamber.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 2:34 PM CST
Hi Millers,
I like to check in on your site and see how you are doing. I love your updates. Thank you for sharing stories of your children. I think you are an amazing family. Happy 2007!
Jill Nuebel <jillnuebel@hotmail.com>
Wyoming, MN USA - Tuesday, January 2, 2007 9:27 AM CST
Carol--happy New Year--and I hope this one is a lot less hectic and a year of calm healing for all of you!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Monday, January 1, 2007 3:33 PM CST
thinking of you
Robyn mom to Nicole and angel PJ
www.caringbridge.org/visit/nicole
rw
ottawa, on - Monday, January 1, 2007 2:17 PM CST
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Wishing you and the family a very fufilling 2007!
Hi Reid & Randon -- You are missed more then you will ever know! Keep sending your mommy the strength she needs from heaven to battle each day here without you!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Monday, January 1, 2007 1:32 PM CST
Carol, hello to you all! It is New Year's Eve and I am happy say that Audrey and Evan are asleep! Audrey and I were looking at a catalog today. I read a poem and thought of you. You may have read it before but I hadn't.
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to Heaven
and bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you-
No one can ever know.
But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.
I wish for each of you a happy, healthy and healing new year! love, Laura
Laura Shreve <shreve2002@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Sunday, December 31, 2006 11:21 PM CST
AUGH! I have strep now... REAGAN! Kiddo, you have more energy with it than I do...
Kristi
- Sunday, December 31, 2006 10:55 PM CST
I have been off caringbridge for a few months and just returned online yesterday. Somehow I was led to your site. All I can say is "Thank you for your family's glowing testimony. Your faith is being lived out in your actions. May our heavenly Father continue to keep you and guide you throughout this next year".
ky/jacindagore
Sherry <cherryfudge1@yahoo.com>
Sarasota, Fl - Sunday, December 31, 2006 9:03 PM CST
sending prayers your way.. and happy new years.
melissa and hailee
http://www.caringbridge.org/az/hailee
melissa <angels4hailee@nc.rr.com>
west end, nc usa - Sunday, December 31, 2006 4:05 PM CST
To my dearest Carol and family,
First off, OH MY......the PICTURES!!!! They were incredible, yes, no needing to try and explain all the joy and love that was shown in each one. I just LOVE when you dress the girls alike. The PJ's were precious. I did this with my boys too, so cute.
And I'm with Reagan, I just love the music you have playing on her beautiful brothers' page. How sweet. I get so touched each time I see the girls sign Reid's page. Carol, they will grow to be as loving and sensitive as their mom, just watch and see.
I'm so glad you are keeping super busy. The wedding could of not came at a better time. Looking forward to all those picture too. This is so much fun.
Finally, Carol, I'm still praying for you over here. Praying the Lord will pour out his healing balm on your broken heart.
I'm also praying this scripture for your family as you begin the new year. Yes, this is the word for ALL of us:
Numbers 6: 24 & 25 ‘May the Lord bless you
and protect you. May the Lord smile on you
and be gracious to you!
Sending lots of love, and many hugs your way,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Behold I do a NEW thing. Isaiah 43:19, - Sunday, December 31, 2006 12:45 AM CST
Just thinking of you all and hoping the wedding was amazing... I've been doing okay... I have an ear infection so if I am not around much, it's because of that and a couple other things going on in life. Love you all and hope all is well...
kristi
- Saturday, December 30, 2006 7:45 PM CST
Love that individuality about her!!
Somehow didn't get to finish my last
post!
angela conklin a friend thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
graham, nc - Saturday, December 30, 2006 7:19 PM CST
Love how everyone is *perfect* and Reese
has no tights or shoes on! :)
angela conklin a friend through your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
graham, nc - Saturday, December 30, 2006 6:09 PM CST
I have thought of all of you a lot during the last few weeks. I am glad to hear that your Christmas was nice. I've asked the Lord to pour out His blessings on your family to overflowing in the coming year. Remembering your sweet angel boys and praying for all of you.
Lis Geoghegan <liveinspirit@aol.com>
Cabot, AR - Saturday, December 30, 2006 11:58 AM CST
I love the new photos. You are a GORGEOUS family!
Always thinking of you. Wishing you a happy new year...
Megan
www.carepages.com tannernielsen
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Friday, December 29, 2006 11:19 PM CST
Such beautiful pictures!!!
Thank-you so much for sharing them!
May God bless your new year with much joy and peace.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Friday, December 29, 2006 9:47 PM CST
Dear Carol, The pictures are great and it is hard to believe that Riley is as tall as you. You have such a beautiful family. I know they will be georgous in the wedding and I can't wait to see the pictures. Have a great weekend and a wonderful New Year. Love to you all in this New Year, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, December 29, 2006 3:03 PM CST
Miller family,
The pictures were great! We too had a good Christmas even though Jeff and I both have been sick the entire time we have been out for school. Mom and I both were thrilled to run into Mindy at Target. We all hope your family has a wonderful New Year! God bless!
Zola Walker <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Friday, December 29, 2006 12:04 AM CST
i love you mom. GOD and Jesus are with you! ! ! 1 ! ! 1 1 ! 1
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Friday, December 29, 2006 11:30 AM CST
Carol , the pictures brought a big smile to my face , have a good day,,, Tim
Tim <tshultz@diamondequipment.com>
b g , ky - Friday, December 29, 2006 9:12 AM CST
Carol,
The pictures are just great....I hope that you guys have a wonderful New Year. Take Care. Kelley Merritt Hansert
Kelley (Merritt) Hansert <kelleyhansert@hotmail.com>
Manchester, TN US - Friday, December 29, 2006 8:12 AM CST
Many hugs and blessings to your dear family during this Christmas season. Thanks for sharing your holiday photos - full of laughter and love. I'm so glad that happiness surrounded your family.
Thinking of you and your girls, while always remembering your precious boys. May hope and joy carry you into the new year!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Friday, December 29, 2006 0:06 AM CST
I was so glad to hear you had a wonderful Christmas. The pictures of the girls were great as were the family pictures. I bet they are enjoying all of their gifts. I know my kids are! Hope yo have a Happy New Year!!
God bless
PS. I don't think Clark will have as much fun taking down the lights as he had putting them up!!
Rachelle Sparks <rsparks5@marykay.com>
Sidney, MT - Thursday, December 28, 2006 11:44 PM CST
Carol,
Thanks for the pictures, I see Reese went from Reese to Ariel to Snow White, no matter who she wants to be, she is always a princess;) And I see Reagan got her Doodle Bear. I LOVE the dollhouse, I had one growing up and it was so much fun.
You all will have so much fun with the basketball net. My brother always seemed to have one growing up and we could play a mean game at times and it was so much fun.
I am sorry about Zach. His family will be in my prayers. I know two sweet boys who welcomed him to heaven with open arms but even still, it doesn't seem fair...
I am glad Christmas went well and I can't wait to hear about Clark's adventures on taking everything down. LOL.
Sending love to all of you and hoping you had a good time tonight.
Kristi
- Thursday, December 28, 2006 8:51 PM CST
Beautiful - beautiful girls... Enjoy the Rockettes... Thinking of you all..
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 28, 2006 6:45 PM CST
Carol,
Enjoy the Rockettes!! We went last Thursday and had a wonderful time. Anthony wasn't too excited about being there and was acting like he was bored beyond belief until they portrayed the Nativity. Then he was on the edge of his seat. When all was said and done, even he said it was good.
I'm glad to hear you had a good Christmas. You were on my mind all weekend. I'm going to email you soon and give you an update on Alicia. She asked about you when I talked with her yesterday. She wanted me to let you know that she is praying for you.
Love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, December 28, 2006 4:34 PM CST
P.S.--want to go to Zachary's page--can't get there with that address. Says the page cannot be found. do you have his exact caringbridge address??? You may email it to me if his mother doesn't want it publicized.
Thanks
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, December 28, 2006 12:47 AM CST
Carol---I am SOOOOOOOOOOO happy to see you enjoyed the holiday. My grandma just saw the Rockettes in NY. Nashville must not be that far away for you to go see them. Keep your eyes out for 'you-know-who' :D
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, ore - Thursday, December 28, 2006 12:42 AM CST
Just wanted to stop by and say HI to you all and that I hope you are doing well. Sending hope, love and faith to you.
Kristi
- Wednesday, December 27, 2006 9:00 PM CST
Dear Carol,
Thank you very much for your donation to caringbridge in Zack's memory. Thank you also for thinking enough of our friendship to want to be with us during the next few days. I hope someday we can meet in person.
Sincerely,
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 5:38 PM CST
Carol I hope you had a good Christmas I've been hesitate to write but I read you journal often. Ryan's baby was born last week. They have to take him to the doctor every day he has jaundice. Come to see us when you can.
Shelia Stroud <shelia.stroud@pnfp.com>
Goodlettsville, Tn USA - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 2:51 PM CST
God and Jesus are with you
reagan milleey <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowloing greemnn, kentuky americvQA - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 2:41 PM CST
dear mommy,
i love the music on the home page of reid and randon miller
reagan millre <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentuck america - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 2:38 PM CST
Dear Millers, I have been gone for several days and have not had access to a computer to check in on everyone. I pray your Christmas was good. I pray that everyone received all the blessings Christmas can bring. It can also be a very sad time of year, when some of your loved ones are not here to share the time with, but I pray that the happiness was somehow able to out weigh the sadness. My love to all of you and may the last few days of 2006 bring much joy to you. Today is a beautiful day, yesterday a memory and only God knows what Tomorrow holds. I lover you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, December 27, 2006 10:22 AM CST
Merry Christmas, Millers!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, December 26, 2006 0:36 AM CST
Thinking of you today, Merry Christmas!
Love, the Nielsens
www.carepages.com tannernielsen
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Monday, December 25, 2006 10:21 PM CST
Merry Christmas dear Miller family! I am thinking of you and your precious boys this Christmas Day.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Monday, December 25, 2006 6:20 PM CST
Sending thoughts and prayers to your family today. As families gather this day, I want you to know your 2 ANGEL BABIES will be remembered and celebrated. Your boys only knew of your devotion and LOVE and not every child has that gift. Sending HUGS from Ohio on this CHRISTmas day. Tina
Tina <cthomas21@neo.rr.com>
Oh usa - Monday, December 25, 2006 9:08 AM CST
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THE AMAZING MILLER FIVE AND TWO ANGELS!!! I am up early, yes, but the crisis line doesn't stop... I want to wish you a Merr Christmas and hopes that three girls let you sleep in...
Love in Christ,
Kristi
kristi
- Monday, December 25, 2006 6:48 AM CST
To the Millers,
I've been reading your site for a while and have meant to sign the guest book on many occasions. Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of all of you this Christmas and keeping you in my prayers.
Lots of love and Merry Christmas.
Brooke McKenzie <skippy24@hotmail.com>
Cambridge Bay, Nunavut Canada - Sunday, December 24, 2006 11:18 PM CST
Miller family,
I'm thinking of you as I get ready to head to bed. I have to get there soon as we all know that Santa won't come 'til we are all asleep. I just wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas. I loved your Christmas card! What beautiful girls!!! Have a great time visiting with your family. Give your mom and dad a hug for me.
Love and prayers,
Erika <jmannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Sunday, December 24, 2006 10:59 PM CST
Dear Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese,
I am thinking of you all this CHRISTmas Eve which is soon to be Christmas day in about 30 minutes. I was planning on going to bed before now but my heart lead me to the site to write you five. The below peom is one I found and thought you would like. I thank God each and every day for the blessings you are to me and pray you have a Christmas with peace. Sending love...
Love,
Kristi
Christmas Without You
The lights are blinking merrily
The tinsel’s on the tree
It sits there in the window
For all the world to see.
The house is filled with holly
And pinecone scents the air
The Christmas cards keep coming
Each one is hung with care.
The gifts are tied with ribbons red
And topped with pretty bows
I’m done with all the details
As far as Christmas goes.
The fire is softly glowing
I think about your touch
But Christmas isn’t Christmas
I miss you oh, so much.
If I could have just anything
My Christmas wish would be
To wake up in the morning
And find you here with me.
Staring at your picture
I long to be set free
Tonight the tears are streaming
As I hold it next to me.
Flakes of snow swirl through the air
I’m braced for stormy weather
I wait for brighter days ahead
When we can be together.
So hold a place in heaven
Someday when life is through
I’ll be the Christmas angel
Who shares this day with you.
Kristi
- Sunday, December 24, 2006 10:23 PM CST
Dear Miller Family - I pray that the joy and wonder of Christmas will surround you. I think of you often and hope that God grants you encouragement for the new year. Peace be with you. Love, Lynne
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Sunday, December 24, 2006 9:18 PM CST
Merry Christmas to the Millers. I hope you are finding yourselves surrounded by the love we all send your way. Know that you have taught me never to take my children for granted and that is a gift I thank you for!!
Girls: Stay up late and maybe you will see mommy kissing Santa Claus!!! :)))
Merry Christmas!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Sunday, December 24, 2006 8:42 PM CST
Thinking of your family. Merry Christmas. Thank you for sharing with us. Many blessings for 2007.
Donita Monroe <barry.monroe@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, December 24, 2006 6:34 PM CST
Just checking in to say wishing you the best Christmas and Happy New Year.
Susan Kalb <kalbsusan@yahoo.com>
Redwood City, CA USA - Sunday, December 24, 2006 5:51 PM CST
Merry Christmas.I'm praying for you.
Kate Suther
- Sunday, December 24, 2006 3:11 PM CST
The Stockings Were Hung:
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care
But one special stocking was no longer there
All that was left were the memories bittersweet
Of a life that had ended so incomplete
The family had pictures all gathered around
That sometimes made all of them tear up and frown
For the sorrow and sadness without their sweet child
Made it difficult for the whole family to smile
Although there were times when they felt him(her) so close
As if they were feeling some kind of a ghost
The signs that were sent were so special and clear
That they felt that he(she) truly was so very near
They often would talk to him(her) as if he(she) was there
Sometimes they would smile but also shed tears
For each Christmas that came brought with it such pain
That they felt in their hearts would always remain
Then one special moment on one special day
He(She) came to them and simply took them away
To fly through the heavens and up to the stars
A beautiful place that was not very far
He(She) showed them where they would all join once again
A place full of beauty no sorrow or pain
A place where he(she) is happy with heavenly friends
A place where we too will also ascend
After their amazing visit was through
This family was no longer terribly blue
For they finally realized one day not to far
They would all be together on a heavenly star
LOVE BRENDAMY CHRISTMAS ANGEL <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta/Canada, - Sunday, December 24, 2006 2:41 AM CST
The Gap
The gap between those who have lost children and those who have not is profoundly difficult to bridge. No one, whose children are well and intact can be expected to understand what parents who have lost children have absorbed and what they bear. Our children come to us through every blade of grass, every crack in the sidewalk, every bowl of breakfast cereal. We seek contact with their atoms, their hairbrush, their toothbrush, their clothing. We reach for what was integrally woven into the fabric of our lives, now torn and shredded.
A black hole has been blown through our souls and, indeed, it often does not allow the light to escape. It is a difficult place. For us to enter there is to be cut deeply, and torn anew, each time we go there, by the jagged edges of our loss. Yet we return, again and again, for that is where our children now reside. This will be so for years to come and it will change us profoundly. At some point in the distant future, the edges of that hole will have tempered and softened but the empty space will remain - a life sentence.
Our friends will change through this. There is no avoiding it. We grieve for our children, in part, through talking about them and our feelings for having lost them. Some go there with us, others cannot and through their denial and a further measure, however unwittingly, to an already heavy burden. Assuming that we may be feeling "better" six months later is simply "to not get it." The excruciating and isolating reality that bereaved parents feel is hermetically sealed from the nature of any other human experience. Thus it is a trap - those whose compassion and insight we most need are those for whom we abhor the experience that would allow them that sensitivity and capacity. And yet, somehow there are those, each in their own fashion, who have found a way to reach us and stay, to our comfort. They have understood, again each in their own way, that our children remain our children through our memory of them. Their memory is sustained through speaking about them and our feelings about their death. Deny this and you deny their life. Deny their life and you no longer have a place in ours.
We recognize that we have moved to an emotional place where it is often very difficult to reach us. Our attempts to be normal are painful and the day to day carries a silent, screaming anguish that accompanies us, sometimes from moment to moment. Were we to give it its own voice we fear we would become truly unreachable, and so we remain "strong" for a host of reasons even as the strength saps our energy and drains our will. Were we to act out our true feelings we would be impossible to be with. We resent having to act normal, yet we dare not do otherwise. People who understand this dynamic are our gold standard. Working our way through this over the years will change us as does every experience - and extreme experience changes one extremely. We know we will have recovered when, as we have read, it is no longer so painful to be normal. We do not know who we will be at that point or who will still be with us.
We have read that the gap is so difficult that, often, bereaved parents must attempt to reach out to friends and relatives or risk losing them. This is our attempt. For those untarnished by such events, who wish to know in some way what they, thankfully, do not know, read this. It may provide a window that is helpful for both sides of the gap.
By
Michael Crenlinsten
LOVE BRENDAMY CHRISTMAS ANGEL <brurka@shaw.ca>
Edmonton,Alberta/Canada, - Saturday, December 23, 2006 6:38 PM CST
Carol,
Don't worry about the books you write, I love reading your updates. I always am in awe of how strong and loving you are. You speak of so many things that I think, but don't say out loud. I don't sign in often, but read almost daily what is going on in the Miller household. Thinking of you this season of miracles,
Kyla byard/ky/logan
Kyla Byard <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
BG, KY USA - Saturday, December 23, 2006 3:01 PM CST
Carol,
Glad you got to see Isaiah and family last night! I bet you all had a blast and it seems Mr. Isaiah is content with you:)
Just wanted to stop by and let you know I am thinking of you all and praying that you feel the peace of the season and are filled with the memories of two sweet boys.
I *think* I may be getting a kitten for Christmas, uh oh:) My best friend wanted to know what I wanted and I said a kitten so we will see.
Sending love to you, Dale, Riley, Reagan, and Reese...
Love always in Christ,
Kristi
Kristi
- Saturday, December 23, 2006 12:53 AM CST
Carol,
We had a blast visiting with you. Hope it wasn't to late and we didn't just take over!!!! I think Isaiah would have slept on you all night, he was so comfy! It was wonderful just being able to sit and talk. Well the bread will be done really soon and I need to sew my dad a thing and seperate a few starters.
Oh, Isaiah is out. He slept the whole way home and woke long enough when we got home to give us a big smile then he cuddled down in his bed and he was gone!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Saturday, December 23, 2006 0:44 AM CST
Carol, Dale and the girls---thanks for remembering me--and please--put the word out to A.J. that I can't wait to come visit!!!
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Friday, December 22, 2006 8:38 PM CST
Carol,
When I read your update, I had a stream of tears flowing down my cheeks. Then I realized that it was not just because of your endless care for all children---but for the looks on the faces of the Children with the toy cars!
What a great gift--the gift of love and happiness that you gave them-----All of my love to the sweet Miller Family.
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Friday, December 22, 2006 2:15 PM CST
Merry Christmas to all of you.
Danielle and Jordan <twxee@aol.com>
Norristown, PA - Friday, December 22, 2006 1:47 PM CST
Carol & Family,
I was just thinking of you all and wanted to stop by to wish you a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year. I have been reading your updates and have enjoyed all the pictures of your girls - they are beautiful! I pray that you find peace this Christmas as I know that it is so hard celebrating without the ones we love so much. But know that your boys are always with you - and their spirit lives on in all that you do!
Much love to all of you,
Heather
Duckworth Family <dhkduck@aol.com>
Lithia, FL - Friday, December 22, 2006 12:13 AM CST
Carol and Dale,
Merry Christmas to all the Millers! Sloane and Caroline are with us this week and I wanted to send a warm hello and say that you all are always in our hearts and prayers.
You have such a beautiful family. I wish I could see you and Dale some time soon. Love to all and Merry Christmas!
Frank, Trey and Maggie Lashlee
Manchester, TN
Frank Lashlee <franklashleejr@hotmail.com>
Manchester, TN - Friday, December 22, 2006 8:32 AM CST
Carol,
Merry Christmas! Loved the "book" and the new Song. Thank you for your friendship and sharing your heart with all of us!
catherine w
Bowling Green, - Thursday, December 21, 2006 11:21 PM CST
Carol,
I know we don't really know each other but I always check your website when I check Isaiah's page and just wanted to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with your family this holiday season. I can't imagine what difficult times you face but I pray for some peace and comfort. You and Nikki are strong people and I am glad you have a friendship that helps during these times.
Have a Merry Christmas and tell Reese that Jax loved his book. See you at school.
Karen Buchanon <kbuchanon@bellsouth.net>
Bowling Green, Ky - Thursday, December 21, 2006 10:26 PM CST
Love the new song......Isaiah also liked it he started dancing!!!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, December 21, 2006 7:45 PM CST
Wow, the theme song change caught me offguard but nonetheless, it is awesome... Thinking of you all and Reagan, go eat a brownie! :) They are good for you if you eat them in moderation;)
Kristi
- Thursday, December 21, 2006 6:39 PM CST
Carol, thank you so much for sending me a Christmas card. When I looked at my e-mail and saw you there, I couldn't wait to open it. Your pictures really did look fun, and your darling girls are just beautiful!
I am praying for you today, that you will be full of smiles and joy as you enjoy time with them. You have made me so aware of my blessings and how important it is to appreciate every minute, every breath. As always, thank you for sharing so much. I wish you all a Merry Christmas!
Tammy Bergamini <Fourpaws@ethixs.com>
- Thursday, December 21, 2006 2:24 PM CST
Happy Belated Birthday to sweet Reid. I am thinking about you all. You still keep a very special place in my heart. When I look at this page, I always share Reid's story to the ones around me and what an amazing impact he and his wonderful family had on my life and the little ones I still take care of. Its hard to believe that he's 5years old. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. ps. I love the new pictures! Give my love to Dale and the girls.
Mollie
- Thursday, December 21, 2006 12:44 AM CST
Carol, I am so touched that you would share the "cars" story here. It meant a lot for me to be able to do it. You have been a real inspiration to me, and I am a better person for knowing you! I believe the world is a better place because of you and your sons (and daughters too!)
with Love, Megan
Megan Nielsen <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Thursday, December 21, 2006 11:41 AM CST
DALE AND CAROL,
YOU HAVE WALKED WHERE VERY FEW HAVE WALKED, YOU HAVE FELT WHAT VERY FEW HAVE FELT, GOD HAS BROUGHT YOU THROUGH THE FIRE WITH HIS GRACE AND GIVEN YOU INSIGHT BEYOND YOUR YEARS.
THE APOSTLE PETER WALKED WHERE NOBODY WALKED. HE EXPERICENCED FEAR, HE EXPERIENCED A LACK OF FAITH, HE EXPERIENCED DOUBT, BUT HE HAD GREAT FAITH WHEN HE STEPPED
OUT OF THE BOAT TO WALK ON THE WATER, BECAUSE MAN CANNOT
WALK ON WATER. MATTHEW 14:24-33 GOD HAS CHOSEN YOU AND DALE
TO WALK THROUGH THIS VALLEY OF DEATH AS HE CHOSE PETER TO WALK ON WATER. TEACH US, WRITE A BOOK ABOUT WALKING THROUGH THE VALLEY. PETER WROTE TWO BOOKS AND IN I PETER 3:8-18 HE SPOKE GREAT TRUTH FOR ALL OF US TO FOLLOW.
MERRY CHRISTMAS DALE AND CAROL. WE LOVE YOU.
LEWIS & BOBBIE
LEWIS C. PRICE AND BOBBIE PRICE <lcprice@consolidated.net>
CONROE, Tx. USA - Thursday, December 21, 2006 11:40 AM CST
Dear mommy,
I just LOVE signing this guest book. Those brownies we made last night looked yummy, but I didn't eat any of them.I make healthier choices now,remember?
much love throgh CHRIST,
reagan
p.s.there is three more days until CHRISTmas! ! ! ! ! ! !
reagan miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
bowling green, kentucky america - Thursday, December 21, 2006 10:36 AM CST
Carol,
I am Tanner's grandma Shirley. I read your update this morning and my heart goes out to you!
I don't believe there is any right way to grieve. So you just go ahead and do whatever it takes...and don't apologize one minute for it!
I was happy to read your post on Tanner's carepage. I was so happy to hear that my dear Megan's thoughtfulness was so helpful to you. I love her and her family so much. I know that the gift Meg gave was good for HER, and her little boys, too.
I will be keeping you in my prayers and hoping that you and your family (you have such beautiful girls!) have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
LOVE
Grandma Shirley
Shirley Larsen <dslarsen290@hotmail.com>
Kaysville, UT - Thursday, December 21, 2006 10:24 AM CST
Carol,
You journal entry was great. I think you encourage us all to enjoy every minute with our family as we never know what is ahead of us.
The note along with the cars that were sent to Vandi was beautiful. I had several tears along with smiles:) I know it must be such an overwhelming feeling to know that you boys (and girls) have touched so many. Keep up the good work. Merry Christmas!
Astra <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 21, 2006 9:10 AM CST
Carol,
I totally agree with what you put in the guestbook. The words to that song are ones that we should tape to the mirror or the computer...somewhere to remind us of them! Great new theme song for you. I am also glad that we talked and had the chance to vent about some things. Yes, we have to forget about the other situations. I was up until after midnight thinking about it! I have come to the conclusion that for the ones that don't understand and can't deal with it then that will have to be ok. We have way to many other caring people that love us. I didn't take you as being negative at all just honest. Don't mean to be writing so much but I just wanted you to know that I agree and we will have to pick up on the rest of it in our next phone discussion.
I am planning on Friday night. We are really excited, Isaiah is ready to see his big sister. I told Timmy about the candle and he thought it was so sweet but agrees she really needs to see him so that she understands he is still on this earth with us. Tell the girls I can't wait to visit for a few minutes! I will call when we leave Timmy's families.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
hope you got things done...I am up again tonight making candy this time to take to the hospital with us, - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 10:59 PM CST
Miller Family, May God be with you during this time of the year. Carol, to you, I feel close to you, even though, I don't know you. What you write about your feelings touch me so very much. May God be closer to you and your family through this Christmas season. May His healing hand rest upon you and your family. Hilda Allen
Hilda Allen <joelandhilda@yahoo.com>
Tompkinsville, Ky USA - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 9:35 PM CST
Carol & family,
I am thinking of your family even more than ever during this Holiday Season. I was out of town on Reid's birthday and away from the internet, but you ALL were in my thoughts. Your entries continue to make me hug my kids a little longer and appreciate what God has blessed us with. I am so sorry that you have had to endure so much in your life, and I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. It is so touching to see how many people you and your boys have influenced over the past several years. (The Cars donation to Vanderbilt was proof of how many lives have been touched). Merry Christmas to you all.
Gena Gooding <Kirbytax@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, December 20, 2006 1:28 PM CST
Love and prayers to your family.
Kristin <mandtjsmom@yahoo.com>
Seattle, WA - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 1:22 PM CST
Carole, I continue to keep up with your journal--I have not signed in a while--but that does not mean I am not thinking of you all each day--and I do have you all in my prayers. I still wish there was some way I could help to lessen the pain you go through...but simply cannot come up with a way. Just know that I am thinking of you, I hold all my loved ones closer in my heart as a result of reading about your journey. I pray that your family will have a beautiful Christmas and I will continue to keep you in my heart and my prayers.
With love and hugs,
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgow, KY Barren - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 11:35 AM CST
Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese,
Still thinking of you everyday, praying for you, holding you in my heart and loving you.
Merry Christmas.
Much, much love,
Janet
Janet Best <best3sons@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 8:47 AM CST
Dear Carol,
We have never met but I am so inspired by you. Thank you for sharing the story of your beautiful family. Christmas blessings to you & all those you love. Remembering your two adorable angels in heaven.
Susan <Susanmvt@aol.com>
PTC, - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 7:15 AM CST
Dear Carol,
In the midst of your heartache, you are such an encouragement and an encourager to so many. I feel blessed to be able to follow your journey and pray for you and your family. Thank you for sharing God's journey for your family with us.
Susan <susanbreeding@hotmail.com>
Plano, TX - Wednesday, December 20, 2006 0:36 AM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Oh my, this would have to be the BEST book I've read in a very long time...keep writing, I'm reading.
Thanks so much for sharing these awesome blessings with us, especially now as we celebrate the greatest gift ever given.
The cars donation by Tanner's mom, was so beautiful, I could not think of a better way to honor Reid and Randon's lives. She is one amazing person.
And then the story of Kaylen's Foundation! I totally lost it on that one. I'm so blessed you shared this, and I pray the Lord will work out for you two to finally met! Can you imagine how BLESSED she will be to know how her act of kindness touched your life, at "just the right moment"?
Stories like this give me hope for the human race!
Carol, I'm still praying for you. I know your arms must ache each time you do see a baby. And I also know you could not be more happy at the very same time to see a healthy baby. I'm so sorry people have avoided you. What a blessing they have missed out.
Well sweetie, looks like I'm trying to write a book in your guestbook! Hmmmm, we both may be authors one day!
Love you Carol, and I'm wishing you and your beautiful family a wonderful Christmas.
With lots of hope, love and peace,
Susan
PS OH MY, did I forget to tell you I received the cutest Christmas photo EVER????? It just MADE MY DAY! I was so honored. Yes, you did it, it was the "perfect" picture!
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Sending lots of love to the Miller Family............................., - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 9:04 PM CST
Carol & Dale,
Great to hear that they finally found out something in regards to Reid and Randon's conditions. I know it doesn't change the outcome, but I guess maybe now they can make an even bigger push in researching the field of Leukemia, and maybe they will know even more toward finding a cure and--better yet--a prevention. I know how that must have been so unacceptable and excruciating to just "not know anything," as was the story up until now. I want to cry every time I hear "Held," by the way. Not sure who sings it, but it sad and beautiful at the same time. We all know my love for babies, and I loved your boys so much--without even getting to be with them. I get the biggest lump in my throat when I think about Reid being 5 years old; whew, that's unbelieveable. Our boys ask questions about them a lot, and we continue to keep them, you, and the girls in our prayers. We love you guys and can't wait to spend some time together again this year at Christmas. It means so much to all of us! Thanks for continuing to update; I know it can't be easy. I know you seem to put new posts in on Mondays or Tuesdays, but I have a habit of checking out this website every single morning! It is a blessing for us all. And, one thing you should think about that would really help others is to assemble all of your journal entries into a book. You may or may not have thought of that, but it is something that you could contribute that would give so many people comfort--just like reading about Carissa & the reasons for the Kaylen Foundation helped you during one of those long days at Vandy. Something to think about, anyway; I know you could do it and be great. Love y'all; see you this week. Jamie
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 5:15 PM CST
Carol,
You continue to amaze me! Thank you for your updates. I still check daily just to make sure I don't miss any of your phenominal words. I wish I knew you...in person I mean! I am blessed to have 4 healthy children and sometimes I do not value them as I should. Then I log onto your sight and I read what you have shared and I know that I need to count my blessings, my own children, more! Thank you for that reminder! I send you HUGS as this is the one way I am able to show people how much I care for them! Thank you for being the person you are! You make a difference!!! Merry Christmas!
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI US - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 4:12 PM CST
Still here thinking and praying for you and your family. I saw this story and immediately thought of you. Wanted to share. God Bless you!!!~
The Blessing of Thorns
Sandra felt as low as the heels of her shoes as she pushed against a November gust and the florist shop door. Her life had been easy, like a spring breeze. Then in the fourth month of her second pregnancy, a minor automobile accident stole her ease.
During this Thanksgiving week she would have delivered a son. She grieved over her loss. As if that weren't enough, her husband's company threatened a transfer. Then her sister, whose annual holiday visit she coveted, called saying she could not come.
What's worse, Sandra's friend infuriated her by suggesting her grief was a God-given path to maturity that would allow her to empathize with others who suffer. "She has no idea what I'm feeling," thought Sandra with a shudder.
"Thanksgiving? Thankful for what?" she wondered aloud. For a careless driver whose truck was hardly scratched when he rear-ended her? For an airbag that saved her life but took that of her child?
"Good afternoon, can I help you?"
The shop clerk's approach startled her.
"I... I need an arrangement, "stammered Sandra. "For Thanksgiving?"
"Do you want beautiful but ordinary, or would you like to challenge the day with a customer favorite I call the Thanksgiving Special?" asked the shop clerk.
"I'm convinced that flowers tell stories," she continued. "Are you looking for something that conveys 'gratitude' this Thanksgiving?"
"Not exactly!" Sandra blurted out. "In the last five months, everything that could go wrong has gone wrong. " Sandra regretted her outburst, and was surprised when the shop clerk said, "I have the perfect arrangement for you."
Then the door's small bell rang, and the shop clerk said, "Hi Barbara...let me get your order." She politely excused herself and walked toward a small workroom, then quickly reappeared, carrying an arrangement of greenery, bows, and long-stemmed thorny roses. Except the ends of the rose stems were neatly snipped...there were no flowers. "Want this in a box?" asked the clerk.
Sandra watched for the customer's response. Was this a joke? Who would want rose stems with no flowers!?! She waited for laughter, but neither woman laughed.
"Yes, please," Barbara replied with an appreciative smile. "You'd think after three years of getting the special, I wouldn't be so moved by its significance, but I can feel it right here, all over again," she said as she gently tapped her chest.
"Uhh," stammered Sandra, "that lady just left with, uhh... she just left with no flowers!"
"Right... I cut off the flowers. That's the Special... I call it the Thanksgiving Thorns Bouquet."
"Oh, come on, you can't tell me someone is willing to pay for that?" exclaimed Sandra.
"Barbara came into the shop three years ago feeling very much like you feel today," explained the clerk. "She thought she had very little to be thankful for. She had lost her father to cancer, the family business was failing, her son was into drugs, and she was facing major surgery."
"That same year I had lost my husband, "continued the clerk," and for the first time in my life, I had to spend the holidays alone. I had no children, no husband, no family nearby, and too great a debt to allow any travel.""So what did you do?" asked Sandra.
"I learned to be thankful for thorns," answered the clerk quietly. "I've always thanked God for good things in life and never thought to ask Him why those good things happened to me, but when bad stuff hit, did I ever ask! It took time for me to learn that dark times are important. I always enjoyed the 'flowers' of life, but it took thorns to show me the beauty of God's comfort. You know, the Bible says that God comforts us when we're afflicted, and from His consolation we learn to comfort others."
Sandra sucked in her breath as she thought about the very thing her friend had tried to tell her. "I guess the truth is I don't want comfort. I've lost a baby and I'm angry with God." Just then someone else walked in the shop.
"Hey, Phil!" shouted the clerk to the balding, rotund man.
"My wife sent me in to get our usual Thanksgiving arrangement... twelve thorny, long-stemmed stems!" laughed Phil as the clerk handed him a tissue-wrapped arrangement from the refrigerator.
"Those are for your wife?" asked Sandra incredulously. "Do you mind me asking why she wants something that looks like that?"
"No...I'm glad you asked," Phil replied. "Four years ago my wife and I nearly divorced. After forty years, we were in a real mess, but with the Lord's grace and guidance, we slogged through problem after problem. He rescued our marriage. Jenny here (the clerk) told me she kept a vase of rose stems to remind her of what she learned from "thorny" times, and that was good enough for me. I took home some of those stems. My wife and I decided to label each one for a specific "problem" and give thanks to Him for what that problem taught us."
As Phil paid the clerk, he said to Sandra, "I highly recommend the Special!"
"I don't know if I can be thankful for the thorns in my life." Sandra said to the clerk. "It's all too... fresh."
"Well," the clerk replied carefully, "my experience has shown me that thorns make roses more precious. We treasure God's providential care more during trouble than at any other time. Remember, it was a crown of thorns that Jesus wore so we might know His love. Don't resent the thorns."
Tears rolled down Sandra's cheeks. For the first time since the accident, she loosened her grip on resentment. "I'll take those twelve long-stemmed thorns, please," she managed to choke out.
"I hoped you would," said the clerk gently. "I'll have them ready in a minute."
"Thank you. What do I owe you?" asked Sandra.
"Nothing." said the clerk. "Nothing but a promise to allow God to heal your heart. The first year's arrangement is always on me." The clerk smiled and handed a card to Sandra. "I'll attach this card to your arrangement, but maybe you'd like to read it first."
It read:
"Dear God, I have never thanked you for my thorns. I have thanked you a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to you along the path of pain. Show me that, through my tears, the colors of your rainbow look much more brilliant." ~
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- Tuesday, December 19, 2006 4:10 PM CST
Merry Christmas Miller Family! Carol, I can't tell you (as I'm sure there are so many of us) what your updates mean to us. Your pure honesty is so refreshing in a world of "I'm Fine, thank you" answers. You and Dale will always be precious to me! For many of us, it just seems to natural to talk about your children as the 5 "R's". Have a wonderful Christmas and let everybody near you love on you! Hugs to everyone!
Peggy Parrott <peggy@keenlawky.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 2:35 PM CST
Praying for the entire Miller family in this bittersweet time. I hope you can find some solitude during this holy time. I think of you every single day. I have a picture of three of the most gorgeous girls in Warren County on my refrigerator door. Kaity said they were too pretty to put into a drawer-- You have very beautiful children both your boys and girls. Your sharing of your faith, happiness,sadness and disappointments have been an eye-opener for me.
Love you much!
Bernadette <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 1:37 PM CST
Carol - I have been looking into the possibility of volunteering at Vanderbilt, but I didn't know what the first step should be. I will definitely be contacting the Kaylen Foundation. I have often felt that I wasn't there for you as much as I should have been when Reid and Randon were at Vandy. I pray that God will use me to be a "hands-on" encourager to other families. Knowing you has changed me more than you can imagine.
I pray your family has a wonderful Christmas. Enjoy your time with your family. I can't wait for my boys to get home from school today so that I can have them home for 2 weeks. I truly treasure my time with them. You have helped to teach me that there is no guarantee for tomorrow, so I need to hold onto each today. Thank you for your friendship. Give your mom and dad a hug for me.
Love, Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 11:06 AM CST
Hi Carol--thank you for the beautiful update--Reid and Randon have touched us all immensely! Thank you for letting Reagan spend Abbye's birthday with her--the girls were getting ready to watch a movie and I was tucking them in and Reagan asked to say a prayer--it was so sweet and brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it--you are doing such a wonderful job raising that sweet girl! I pray that you will have a good Christmas--I know it's a bittersweet one, but I pray for happiness each day--we'll miss you over the break--take care--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, December 19, 2006 10:21 AM CST
Tears are streaming down my face as I read your entry. The Cars donation, the support, Carol, I am so thankful that there are so many of us around who are supporting you and your family. Not just in your hometown but in so many different states and that you are able to tell who is there for you and who isn't. Your strenght is amazing.
I remember you saying you knew Christmas Day you were pregnant and I can only imagine what this Christmas will bring to you.
I will have to check that foundation out and I am so glad that they had socks that you needed so much at the time in there.
I am glad you got news back from Randon's autopsy. Hopefully, there will be more information that will shed light on Reid and Randon's condition.
When you get done cleaning, you want to come clean my house;) That's something I never seem to be able to keep up with.
Merry Christmas Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese and Merry Christmas in Heaven, Reid and Randon! Sending well wishes, love and prayers to you all as you celebrate the joy of Chistmas and remember two sweet boys. Take care and enjoy the family time.
Kristi
- Tuesday, December 19, 2006 10:04 AM CST
Thinking of you all and wishing you a very Merry Christmas!
Sending hugs and prayers...
Kristin
Mom to Hayden, Evan, Conner and Kelsey
Lafayette, IN <kristinsmith@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, December 19, 2006 6:12 AM CST
HI Carol,
I loved seeing you and all three of your beautiful girls today. Hope someone got a nap on the way to the dentist and it was not you... I have thought so much about Reid this week. I celebrate his life in my heart always and remember his wonderful smile and big bright eyes. I love you.
catherine w
- Tuesday, December 19, 2006 0:24 AM CST
Thinking of you and your family. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Caroline <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, December 18, 2006 10:01 PM CST
Happy Birthday Precious Reid!
Carol and Dale, I wish you and your entire family a very Merry Christmas and a Happy and Healthy New Year.
Christie G. <clove@optonline.net>
Lynbrook, NY USA - Monday, December 18, 2006 9:13 AM CST
Hello Carol, Dale and Girls - I want you to know that I think of you often. No one else can comprehend the pain that engulfs you. At what may seem to others to be random times, you may be suddenly consumed by tears, sadness and longing for your precious boys. You are living a very unfair time, when you should have one boy "stirring things up" in your home and another to be "loved on and changed".
I am sending huge "cyber hugs" to you. I pray that the mighty God we serve will provide strength, healing and comfort to each of your family members. If I can ever do anything for you, please let me know. Much love!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Monday, December 18, 2006 0:34 AM CST
Hello to you all! You have been on my mind...Christmas always reminds me of Lana! She loved Christmas more than anyone I know. Sending our love to you...Laura and Mimi
Laura Shreve <shreve2002@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky usa - Saturday, December 16, 2006 10:22 PM CST
Hey guys! I was just thinking of you and wanted to let you know! Have a great weekend!
Jennifer Thompson <jennifer.thompson@vanderbilt.edu>
- Saturday, December 16, 2006 6:36 PM CST
Thinking of you all and hoping this weekend proves to be a blessing and a weekend of wonderful family time. Sending prayers and love your way.
kristi
- Saturday, December 16, 2006 9:30 AM CST
Dear Carol, I hope your day was as good as possible yesterday. Your website is just beautiful and everyone of your children are a sight to behold as well as you and Dale. I pray for a good weekend. You are such a blessing and your children are, have been and continue to be a true inspiration to me. I love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, December 15, 2006 4:43 PM CST
Happy Belated Birthday Reid! I'm sorry I missed your actual birthday! But I think of you and your family everyday and I know you and your brother are watching over them everyday!!You are two special boys who are loved very much!!Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, December 15, 2006 9:37 AM CST
Happy Belated Birthday Reid!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Friday, December 15, 2006 6:06 AM CST
Happy birthday, precious Reid! :)
Emily Cassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 14, 2006 10:43 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reid!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 and hugs.
Dear Carol and Dale, I prayed for you today. My love and thoughts are with you ALL.
Love,
Cari
Cari Gruelle <care4@mac.com>
Citrus Heights, CA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 10:35 PM CST
Happy Birthday to a precious boy who touched so many people in such a short time. His memory is not only carved into your hearts, but to those of us who think about and pray for you. The slide show is beautiful. May you be extra "held" on this special day. Much love.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Thursday, December 14, 2006 10:30 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reid! Carol I have thought about you and prayed for you all day. You have a very special son who has touched so many. The pictures were beautiful. Your children are so very lucky to have you!
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green , KY - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:47 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I wanted to let you know I was thinking about you and your family today. I am sure you found a special way to remember that included everyone. Thank you for sharing the pictures of Reid. I enjoyed them.
Take Care-
Christa Frantz
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:57 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reid!!! Carol, Dale and the Girls, we have all been thinking about you all all day. What a wonderful slide show. Everytime I see the picture of him laughing I can see Dale in him. Take care and God bless you all.
The Walkers - Zola, Jeff, Logan and Landon <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY 42743 - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:15 PM CST
Happy Birthday Reid. Hope you're having a special celebration with your brother.
Gabby Springs <gabbysprings@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, Ky usa - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:12 PM CST
Thinking of you on Reids birthday. Loved the slideshow of Reid and while I smiled I cried too. Take care
Diane
Australia, - Thursday, December 14, 2006 7:52 PM CST
I am sending up an extra prayer for you and your family tonight. Remember the joy he brought while you held him in your arms.
Thinking of you on Reid's birthday.
Kristina <hecks319@aol.com>
Brookville, Oh - Thursday, December 14, 2006 7:51 PM CST
Ask My Mom How She Is
My Mom, she tells a lot of lies
she never did before.
From now until she dies,
she'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is
and because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how is she,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how is she,
she seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see
nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For Gods sake Mom, just tell the truth
just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how is she
she'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
we'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mom
with all the lies you told!"
-unknown
Holding and lifting you up in prayers
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 7:46 PM CST
You are in my thoughts and prayers today. I am sure this is always a hard day for your family. What a beautiful baby ! Thanks for sharing the pictures.
Diane Cole
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 6:41 PM CST
Happy 5th Birthday Reid. I hope that you and Random are having a wonderful birthday party in heaven.
Anne Marie Palmateer
Wake Forest, NC USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 6:31 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I just wanted you to know that Reid has been on my mind today. I can't ever forget his birthday because it is my son's birthday too. He turned 17 today. Every year since Reid went to Heaven, I think of him as we celebrate Danny's birthday. Thank-you for posting his pictures. What a beautiful, precious baby! As always, I am praying for you.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 5:36 PM CST
Thinking of you on Reid's birthday.
prayers and love from Missouri
mrs pam
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 4:04 PM CST
Stopping by to say Happy Birthday to Reid. It's hard to believe that 5 years have already flown by...Millers you continue to be on our hearts and in our prayers
The England family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Thursday, December 14, 2006 3:56 PM CST
Hey Miller family,
Just wanted to stop by and let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers today.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Praying for comfort... <dawnpierce@bankplus.net>
Hernando, MS - Thursday, December 14, 2006 3:42 PM CST
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REID!
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 14, 2006 3:16 PM CST
Happy Heavenly Birthday Reid!
Lori <the7rohrbachs@verizon.net>
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 3:14 PM CST
Dearest Carol,
As I care for two ill little ones today, my thoughts and prayers have been filled of you. I so wish I could have met and known Reid. I give praise for the five months he was a part of your life and I know what a blessing he was not only in yours, but so many others. Your two precious sons have impacted the lives of hundreds probably thousands, I pray that we all might make such a difference in this world. As today must bring such a range of emotions, I pray that you are able to cherish the time you did have with sweet Reid and that all of you can spend good quality time together just loving, laughing, and holding each other. Hope you continue to know how much you are loved and prayed for...Thank you for continuing to share and for being such a good friend.
Happy Birthday Reid!
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 2:54 PM CST
My heart goes out to you and your family. My prayers will be with you always. Happy 5th birthday big guy. Have a safe and pleasent holiday and New year.
Brian <botanybrian82@aol.com>
FL - Thursday, December 14, 2006 2:52 PM CST
Happy 5th Birthday Reid!! The time has flown by--we are thinking of you all today and thank sweet Reid for touching our lives--we're keeping you all in our prayers:) Love, The Good's
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 2:31 PM CST
My daughter whose little 2 year old has been fighting a severe stage 4 cancer all year showed me your webpage. I am so touched. May God bless you with peace and his infinite love! May you find joy in this Christmas season as we celebrate the birth of the Savior of the World! It is my firm belief that "Families Can Be Together Forever".
Shirley Larsen <dslarsen290@hotmail.com>
Ut - Thursday, December 14, 2006 12:54 AM CST
Praying for your family as you celebrate Reid's birthday!
Rachel
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 11:10 AM CST
I forgot to mention that today is also our oldest granddaughters birthday. We were so excited to have our first granddaughter and first grandson born on the same day. This makes for a bittersweet day. Happy 17th Birthday Sloane. We love you.
My Mama
Reba Speakman <rlspeakman@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:44 AM CST
Happy Birthday sweet, precious Reid!
I know you are so missed on this Earth, but I also know that no one can make us feel more special or loved than Jesus. With that said, I know your birthday party in heaven will be a great one, and you will be partying until that amazing day when we will all get to meet you and your precious little brother!
Until then, I am praying that your family feels lots of love and comfort during these hard times. May the good memories always outshine the hard ones.
Praying and praying!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:36 AM CST
Carol, Dale and girls,
Five years ago today was perfect. I was worried because Caroline had her etiquette luncheon and I was afraid something would happen and I wouldn't make it. It is hard to believe Caroline was 4th grade only five years ago. Anyway, Reid had perfect timing and waited until we were finished and we made it there in time. He even chose his oldest cousin's birthday to share! I got to cut his cord!!! I was so proud of that. I had planned on taking him from you anyway and raising him as mine. None of us will ever forget his precious life and how much he meant to all of us. I miss him and Randon so much and I am comforted to know we will see them both again someday. I truely believe that. I love all of you so much and, like Caroline wrote, look forward to having fun this special time of the year.
Shannon Fry <frysd@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, TN USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:19 AM CST
Happy Birthday Reid!
Thinking of you all.
Shawn Schlueter <schluetersm@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:13 AM CST
Happy Birthday Sweet Reid!!
Oh, I just love seeing the pictures of you with that big beautiful smile! I never get tired of looking at you Reid.
One day I will have the honor of getting to met you, and oh what a day that will be!
Carol, I pray you are "being held" today by God's loving arms.
I'm sending so much love your way, thanks for sharing your journey of HOPE with us, your faith inspires and challenges me each day.
Keep holding on tightly,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Remembering sweet Reid today.................................., - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:09 AM CST
What can I say. It just doesn't seem possible that it has been five years since the birth of our precious first grandson, Reid. Oh how our hearts are aching today and what a void. I never realized just how beautiful that picture is that Kristi posted of you and Reid. I love it. Just know how proud I am of you and how much I love you, you are one of the greatest daughters any mother could have and you are a wonderful mother. Dale I love you also and thinking of you today as well as you try to work. Just enjoy the girls today and know our precious Reid and Randon are looking down on us today. Happy Birthday, Reid you are loved.
Mom (My Mama)
Reba Speakman <rlspeakman@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, December 14, 2006 9:01 AM CST
Carol,
Thank you for sharing such a wonderful, beautiful and precious display of Reid. Five years later and he still continues to touch lives. Relish in the love, hope and joy he brought you. My thoughts and prayers are with you always.
With much love to you and your family.
Kristi
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:47 AM CST
Happy Birthday, Reid!
Praying for each of you today.
Love, The Browns - Travis, Sherry, Chase, and Cameron
Sherry Brown <sbrown@fruit.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:45 AM CST
Just to tell you I am thinking of you today and praying for your strength today. What a beautiful little boy you gave birth to 5 years ago today. The pictures show the love he must have felt and the joy he gave all of you. ...Happy Birthday precious Reid.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:35 AM CST
Sending my hugs to you! All of you!!! Precious-Precious pictures!!!! Happy Birthday Reid...I hope you are enjoying your day with Randon!
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI USA - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:13 AM CST
Carol - thinking of you all and praying for peace today as we celebrate baby Reid's 5th birthday. We all remember.
Love,
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, December 14, 2006 8:04 AM CST
Those pictures of sweet Reid are just wonderful. He brought so much joy and happiness to the world!!! You can see it all over all of your faces! I will be thinking about you and sending prayers.
Love~Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lex, ky 40502 - Thursday, December 14, 2006 7:50 AM CST
Happy Birthday, Reid!!!
Love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, December 14, 2006 6:45 AM CST
Dear Carol and Dale - While I don't know you, I have prayed for you and your precious family for quite awhile. I share with you the date of December 14, the birth of my daughter in 1993 and the birth of your son, Reid in 2001. My heart is so very full for you and your family. I experienced several miscarriages before my daughter was placed in my arms and survived - a blessing, but still a reminder of all that came before.
As I type this message, I so wish to reach out and hug each and every one of your family. The struggles that you and your family face are so overwhelming. Even the closest of friends lose track of dates that are engrained on your heart and soul. Please know, that as you move on with your life (and you should), there will always be people who hold on to the memories of your children because of our own memories. Just like a tiny baby, so many years ago, your sons have carved out a place in the hearts of many people. May peace be with you during this blessed season.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Thursday, December 14, 2006 0:31 AM CST
Happy Birthday Reid!!! OK--Carol--hard as it may be.......celebrate the joy he gave you, the pride you have for him, the hero he is.....your life would not be complete, and Randon would have never been a part of it if it were not for Reid--so.........although his time on earth was short, thank him.
What I started when my dad passed away 5 years ago, was that on every birthday, holiday, anniversary....I get a balloon or two, sometimes a polluting mylar one with something funny on it, or in the shape of a Turkey as we do for Thanksgiving...and pull out some sharpie pens--everyone writes something it, a word, a sentence, an essay (my mom) and we go out front and let it go to Pop Pop. It is the best way of keeping the little ones connected. My daughter was turning 4, and my son was 7 months--today, they are 9 and 6 and I think they know him as well as my 12 year old does. They draw pictures on them....whatever. Since this happens 4-5 times a year, they really think he is up there collecting balloons!!! One year, my neice announced she was going to tie cake to them because he must be missing his cake!! She never met him. I really suggest you try this because it is very warming to feel like you are sending something up.
That being said, I am sure Reid is having a blast with his Angel friends, and of course, my dad--who is spoiling them like he would my own.
Take Care--remember the good
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 11:27 PM CST
I know I am a couple of hours early but I wanted to wish you a peaceful day tomorrow as you remember the son you brought into this world five years ago.
Happy 5th birthday in heaven, Reid...
Kristi
- Wednesday, December 13, 2006 8:25 PM CST
Thinking of your family during this holiday season. Happy Birthday Reid. War Eagle Riley ;)
Love and Prayers!
Kym Little <kymlittle@comcast.net>
Mobile, AL - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 12:43 AM CST
Carol,
I've been following your precious family for a while now. I read this and thought of you. I hope it speaks to you like it did me.
REMEMBERING
by Elizabeth Dent
Go ahead and mention my child.
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I would rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.
Jenny Leger
North Richland Hills, TX USA - Wednesday, December 13, 2006 12:21 AM CST
Carol,
I just want you to know that you all are in our hearts and prayers this holiday season! I continue to think of you each day. My heart goes out to you.
Michelle Roberts
Michelle Roberts <michelle_roberts123@yahoo.com>
bowling green, ky usa - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 9:31 PM CST
Hello, I don't personally know you but have found you thru a friend of mine who lives in Bowling Green. She gave me the link to this site and I just wanted to let you know my heart has been touched by your lives. I, also, am a mother and I cannot imagine but I know it is only thru God who can give us strength, peace, hope and comfort during a time as this. May God richly bless you folks.
Leesa Grigson
Kentucky - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 6:46 PM CST
Sweet Carol,
Still thinking of your boys and your family, and always will. I'll be praying for you especially on Thursday. I know it will be an even tougher day, but I'll pray for something special to take some of the pain away and that maybe you'll think of Reid as having sent some sunshine your way. I know that he would be so proud of his mommy!
All my love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 4:34 PM CST
Love the new pictures. Silly girls making funny faces. I remember being young and wanting to be cool. Everytime I look at the pictures of your beautiful family, I just smile. I know that two precious little guys are missing in each photo, but they are never far from our hearts too. I'll be thinking about you this week and the days ahead.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Praying for you... <dawnpierce@bankplus.net>
Hernando, MS - Tuesday, December 12, 2006 10:36 AM CST
Thinking so much of you tonight and saying extra prayers for all of you. What precious pictures of you and the girls.
Love,
Susan
P.S. Your right, the pictures of your house (and neighbor's) really don't do it justice. Anyone who lives in Bowling Green really should try to swing by!
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
- Monday, December 11, 2006 10:47 PM CST
Dear Carol, you,Dale,the boys and the girls are never far from my heart. Please know that I pray for you daily and love you so very much. Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, December 11, 2006 4:51 PM CST
Dear Aunt Carol,
My mom says the same thing with the pictures. She, and you just don't understand, like Riley said. Its just fun and we really only do it because everyone else does!! but it is fun. I hope we are coming up to your house this Christmans, that was fun last year. And i hope you have a great rest of the week, send my love to the family.
I love you
Caroline Fry <Dcacats226@comcast.net>
Old Hickory, TN USA - Monday, December 11, 2006 4:21 PM CST
Carol, Hi! I still stop by your site daily to see how you and your crew are doing. The pictures of you and your girls are just GREAT!! You look absolutley beautiful! You just shine with radiance and your eyes just look so happy,would never know the hurt behind what you see. I am so sorry for the loss of your dearest friends husband. I can not imagine the pain Joni and her family are enduring much less another loss for you to have to deal with. I think it was so special as well as appropriate for the candles lit for your two sons.I wish you and your family a peaceful and Merry Christmas!! I know your boys are looking down at you and are so very proud of their mommy for all the good things in life you do. Take care and may you continue to find peace, strength and hope.
Maria Newcomb <ganashman@aol.com>
Battleboro, NC - Monday, December 11, 2006 3:55 PM CST
Carol,
You are more than welcome to display our lights on your website--gives more people the opportunity to enjoy the beauty, not as good as if you drive by, but they can get the idea, plus they don't have to wear subglasses:) Your pictures came out as good as what we can take--after all these years we still don't know how to take pictures of the house. When you find out let us know--Dan is getting his new camera from Santa this year. Thanks for the advice. I also lit candles last night in honor of Reid and Randon.
Janice <scorpio22mom@insightbb.com>
- Monday, December 11, 2006 12:50 AM CST
((((((((((Carol))))))), I am sending you some hugs. I have to admit those pictures of the girls and you are adorable, especially the one with Reagan's FOOT in the air. She is truly a spitting image of you. Reese is acting like herself and Riley, well, Carol, what can I say other than WELCOME TO THE TEENAGE YEARS! Not much longer and you will be the mom of a teen.
Thank you for sharing the pictures, how special the moment was but bittersweet. The boys continue to shine on in so many lives and will always continue, their memory will NEVER burn out... I am glad you each lit one in rememberance of the boys.
Joni and Kendall continue to be in my prayers. I pray that Joni is able to find the strenght and courage she will need as she adjusts and know if she is anything like you, she will have it. Just having you as a friend is enough for anyone to be blessed.
I am thinking of Reid especially this week. It is a wonderful tradition and so many will benefit from it. You are right, he would probably wish his birthday were not so close to Christmas.
I am praying hard that the tests show something and that you will have the answers soon and that NONE of the girls carry it.
Those pictures make me wish I lived closer so I could drive through and see all the lights. It looks so wonderful there. There is NOTHING like that here compared to there. Dale, you did a great job on it.
Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese, you are in my thoughts and prayers as always but more for the upcoming week and holidays.
Love to you all
Kristi
Yes, I write you a book when you write an entry..., - Monday, December 11, 2006 10:46 AM CST
Carol---what a bittersweet/rollercoaster season you are having!! So much joy mixed with pain and emotions. I think perhaps, this is what this season is about--reflecting on ourselves and our lives.....acknowledging what we no longer control, what we wished we did, and accepting that we really only have today.
You have been a great friend, and a true inspiration to us all. I hope you start getting some (genetic) answers that you so need down the road. Without pointing fingers, have they looked at the Y chromosome???--the common link??? The girls would not carry that. I know I am not the rocket scientist but that seems to be the logical place to start.
Your home and your neighbor's look just beautiful. We were the Griswolds last year, as that was our first year in this house. This year we went for the more 'tasteful' affect: White lights and colored icicles--colorful decorations about, and to me, it is quite boring. Give my imagination more to work with for NEXT year!!
Take Care, have a calming week, get a pedicure, massage, take a cooking class, just chill and let yourself go.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Monday, December 11, 2006 10:39 AM CST
Carol,
I lit a candle last night in memory of Reid and Randon. My heart is full of love for your two sweet baby boys.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, December 11, 2006 6:48 AM CST
I'm sorry I didn't read this entry until late Sunday night! I completely missed the candles. ;/ I hope there was a beautiful glow around the world for our precious children.
I will keep Joni and her family in my prayers. So often as I read these caringbridge sites, all I want to say is just what you did - "stop! Make this madness stop!" But life seems to keep going whether we want it to or not, even if all we want is one little moment to collect ourselves and prepare to move on.
You and your family are in my prayers and thoughts.
Megan Dutill
- Sunday, December 10, 2006 10:53 PM CST
Hey guys!
Just thinking about ya'll! I hope that you have a wonderful holiday!
Love,
Kelley Henson
Kelley Henson <kelleyhenson82@yahoo.com>
Nashville, TN USA - Sunday, December 10, 2006 7:55 PM CST
Know that in our home are three candles burning and a special prayer said. One for Reid, one for Randon, and one for the other children at Vanderbilt. May you remember the light of your boys face as you light your candles. May you not be sad as the candle is blown out for your boys lights will shine in your heart always.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
With prayers of comfort..., - Sunday, December 10, 2006 7:14 PM CST
Two candles burning for two sweet baby boys who touched so many lives in their short lives. The candles will burn until I go to bed... Thinking of you Dale, Carol, Riley, Reagan and Reese... With love.
Kristi
- Sunday, December 10, 2006 6:27 PM CST
Lighting a candle in memory of two precious little boys Reid and Randon Miller!
Your life made such an impact on so many, I'm so grateful for you.
With hope,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Always Hoping........................, - Sunday, December 10, 2006 8:38 AM CST
Tomorrow two candles will burn at my house from 7-8 in memory of sweet Reid and Randon... In memory of them...
Sending love.
Kristi
- Saturday, December 9, 2006 10:19 PM CST
We are so sorry to hear about Joni's husband; he was so young, and my heart just cries for her and her baby. I know this was an extremely hard week for you, Carol, and we are praying for you guys.
Love, Jamie, Paul & kids
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Saturday, December 9, 2006 8:47 PM CST
Carol,
I saw Tim and Diane leaving for the funeral today and I said a prayer for all of you. I pray that you were able to give Joni some comfort this weekend.
Love you and I'm praying for you daily,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Saturday, December 9, 2006 8:46 PM CST
Remember when you wrote you wanted to be 'that friend'?? Well,now you are, and you are doing a great job of it. This is the season of giving, and although tough to do--kinda puts things in perspective.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Saturday, December 9, 2006 12:27 AM CST
Carol, praying and hoping your trip to Nashville went well and that you got there safely. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as is Joni and her family, especially her son who turns three today. My love to you...
Kristi
- Saturday, December 9, 2006 9:36 AM CST
Carol
I am so sorry!
prayers for you and Joni's family.
mrs pam
St Louis, - Saturday, December 9, 2006 8:37 AM CST
Thinking of you today. I will keep your friend and her family in my prayers.
Tina and Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Saturday, December 9, 2006 4:51 AM CST
Just checking in to see how things are going, I'm sorry about your friends husband. Your always in my thoughts and prayers.
Rachelle Sparks <rsparks5@marykay.com>
Sidney, MT - Friday, December 8, 2006 11:07 PM CST
I don't know if I have ever signed your guestbook, but I check your site regularly.
I am sorry about your friend's husband. I know EXACTLY what kind of friend you are talking about! I had one of those growing up...she was pretty, no matter what clothes she wore, she was athletic, but yet graceful...we could catch up in five minutes, even if we hadn't seen each other for a year. I loved her dearly! Unfortunately, my friend was shot by her ex-husband on Oct. 18, and she died instantly. The last thing she saw was her ex-husband's face...and that makes me sad that she wasn't surrounded by her children, her friends, her mother, SOMEBODY besides the man that murdered her. I came to your site tonight, because I needed to hear "Held". I am so glad that I did, because reading your update makes me feel like I'm not the only one saying, "Oh, no...this just isn't happening." Now that I've had a good cry, I will wish you well as you travel for a funeral. Be sure and tell that childhood friend what she means to you, because you never know what tomorrow brings. I have to talk to my sweet friend through my prayers. Take care and have a Blessed Christmas with your beautiful family!!
Being Held...
Minden, LA 71055 - Friday, December 8, 2006 10:11 PM CST
Praying for you as you face the weekend. As you know I am always here if you need to talk.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Friday, December 8, 2006 6:54 PM CST
I check in regularly since I first came to your site but usually don't post. Have been thinking of you in the lead up to Reids birthday (its the same day as mine) and am devestated to find that your sorrow is now made larger,if thats possible - just deeper I suppose. Continue with the one foot in front of the other routine. Your faith is an inspiration and encouragment to me.
Diane
- Friday, December 8, 2006 6:07 PM CST
I am so sorry to hear about your friend's husband. And I am so sorry that you are enduring another tragedy. I am praying for you and Joni.
Marya allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, December 8, 2006 4:21 PM CST
Carol, it was so hard to read your entry on the 6th as it made me sick to learn that you are enduring something else painful and so very unfair. I hate it that they, as of now don't know anything about the cause of Randon's condition...I'm sure answers are sometimes your only brief comfort. I PRAY you and Dale quickly learn how this happened to your little boys.
I will be praying for you as you help your friend deal with her tragic loss.
You are a wonderfully real, honest, beautiful human being. I, like so many others, want desperately for you to find peace. Always praying for you and your family, Leslie
Leslie Priest <Leslie.Priest@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, December 8, 2006 11:05 AM CST
Carol, I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you today, and keeping your family and Joni's family in my prayers
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Friday, December 8, 2006 10:13 AM CST
Carol,
Just waned to you to know that you and your family continue to be in our prayers, as will your friend Joni and her family. We hope you all can have a wonderful Christmas.
Sherri Cox Doughty & family <truebluegal66@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Friday, December 8, 2006 8:53 AM CST
Hi Carol!
Just wanted to stop by to let you know that you are on my mind. I am so sorry about your friend. I will continue to pray for you.
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, December 7, 2006 8:11 PM CST
Carol, I'm still thinking of you and praying for your whole family. I wish you the best each day.
Tammy Bergamini <fourpaws@ethixs.com>
Alvaton, KY usa - Thursday, December 7, 2006 2:31 PM CST
Carol,
I don't know what to say except I am here for you always, I know you know that, but I feel like telling you again. I know every day is hard, difficult and rocky...even when you appear to be doing good to the outside world. This month has always been hard for you since Reid died and now it only seems enhanced, I realize. Sweet Reid and sweet Randon. They are playing together and having fun. (Can't imagine what would be more fun than playing with Mommy, but we know that with God it must be pretty darn incredible). I loved that entry about "the Gap", that was so wonderfully written. You know I am here if you need to VENT... as always. Love you lots.
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, December 7, 2006 12:36 AM CST
Hey guys, just a quick word before tucking in the boys.
You are on my mind often. It is good to read that life is going on (even with the ups and downs). We are great and God continues to bless us each day. I still want you to come over and eat. We are going to have to set a time or it will never happen.
The boys are wanting to be tucked in (even at 13 and 11), it's my chance to spoil them.
Call me when you can... or I'll call you.
God bless, DC,RC,SC
Dewayne Carter
bg, - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 10:30 PM CST
Christmas In Heaven
'Tis Christmas in heaven what a beautiful sight!
I want you to know everything is all right.
The crib is adorned with the brilliance of the star;
Wisemen have come from near and far.
I've met all our dear ones who preceded us here,
The reunion was lovely, an event full of cheer.
And tonight we'll all gather in reverence we'll kneel,
For the babe in the cradle, up in heaven is real!
I think of my family that I left behind,
And I pray that your Christmas is as blessed as mine.
Please shed no more tears for my soul is at rest,
Just love one another and live life to its best.
Yes, it's Christmas in heaven, so I've heard them say.
Yet, Christmas in heaven - happens every day!
Kristi
- Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:43 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I just read your update. I am so sorry for your friend. You are right when you say things just need to stop so you can catch your breath. I also read "The Gap". It certainly brings to light the daily struggles of a parent who has suffered the greatest of all losses. Please know that I still think of you and your family daily. As I have said before you are my inspriation to be better. Have a safe trip.
Sincerely,
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:10 PM CST
WOW!!! What a 'quick' update. There is a book out there: When bad things happen to good people--you and Joni should be in it. I too question my faith, as I often find myself asking for you to find some peace, and it does not seem like I am being heard. I will tell you one thing, being there for your friend will make you feel so good, Carol. You will really do both of you a lot of good. You will. I have a very sick friend, she has Chron's disease--and I am the one going with her in and out of tests and hospitals, and trying to be the one who makes her laugh, yes, I feel good doing it, but she appreciates it and if I can give her some joy, then I will never stop. Just yesterday, strapped to a table, having a MRI done on her brain, she was telling me that after reading your story and Jacob's and Kylie's--how she is so blessed. Not because you all have major losses, or that you are in severe severe sucky situations, just that she is blessed to have been able to visit your sites, see she is not alone, see that people out there (including herself) get dealt crap--and yet seem to find each other through it. Is that His work???? Connecting us all??? I really don't see the point, and it is ok for you to wonder. It is ok for you to be frustrated, and ok for you to NOT put on your poker face and be all happy because you are at your destination. Your destination is with your family and your boys at the end of your time on earth, honey. THAT is your destination. YOUR work here is not done, and as far as those tests go, It is a good thing they are normal because that helps the girls have less to worry about. There is an answer for you and it will get here--but how great it is that you don't have some awful thing to worry about the girls either getting or passing on.
Well, enough of my quick post. I love your strengh, and I love your heart. When in Nashville, if you see my pal, Alan Jackson, give him a hug and a kiss for me!!! Now that would be heaven on earth!!
Take Care
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 7:55 PM CST
Lord, I lift this family to you. Please give them strength to face each day. Please show them Your presence during the Holiday season, and please give them the answers that they so desparately need. Let them know why those two precious little boys died. If it brings any solace, please give it to them. I lift Joni and her family to you. People aren't supposed to pass away in the prime of their life, but we know this is a world of imperfections and none of us know how many days we have on this earth. Lord comfort Carol.....give her peace and let her see you in no uncertain terms today!
Ginny Streeter <gstreeter@hookercreek.net>
Bend, OR - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 4:30 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I am so sorry they say the blood tests were normal. Did they check the genetic aspect of the Y chromosome? It may be a recessive gene that is carried by the Y chromosome... I don't know but I was thinking of that from a biology class I took after going through the book again.
I am devastated at the news of your dear friend husband. You have all been through so much so soon and it's completely unfair. My heart dropped when I saw that you had lost yet another person in your life. I am sure he has Reid on one knee and Randon on the other. I cried reading your entry. It's not fair..
It makes me realize that while I am struggling with my own issues that I am not alone and we are all facing our own battles at our own pace and so many different things. I guess it goes to say that God didn't promise us an easy life but he would see us through.
My prayers are with you as you travel to support Joni and her son, they are with Joni and her son as they learn a new life without the man of their lives but most of all, I pray that peace finds everyone who is suffering from the recent death of Joni's husband.
Sending love to all of you...
Kristi
- Wednesday, December 6, 2006 4:12 PM CST
Hi Carol,
I felt SOOOOOOOO blessed today when I read your entry about "The Gap"! It so sums up what most want to say but just cannot find the words. You are one incredible woman and I feel totally honored to be addressed in your entry! Thanks! Know that you are only human & we feel pain, weakness, greif & etc...we were desgined that way! We can not get around it. We have to work through it. I have been to your site many many many times but never signed but I read "The Gap" and it had your name written all over it! Thanks for being the kinda role model most of us only dream of!
Charity <csumm75@hotmail.com>
Little Elm, TX - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 3:14 PM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Oh my...I'm just so, so sorry to read about Joni's husband! You are right, it all seems so UNFAIR! There are so many questions we all will have one day when we face the Lord.
Please know I will be covering Joni and her son and their whole family in prayer now.
I know you must feel like you don't have a whole lot to give, but your presence will bring so much comfort to Joni.
Carol, I'm praying for you too. Don't feel like you have to be "OK", grief is hard work. Be gentle with your self.
I read this quote on grace, I'd like to share it with you:
"I do not understand the mystery of grace- only that it meets us where we are, but does not leave us where it found us."
Keep holding on to your hope,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying for God's grace.........................................., - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 2:33 PM CST
Carol - I am so sorry to hear of Joni's husband. Will be praying for her and her family and for you all too. You are an amazing friend and I am sure Joni knows that already.
In my thoughts and prayers.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 12:45 AM CST
Dear sweet Carol,
It was hard reading your entry today, bringing back afresh all the pain still there, and that I know will be there for the rest of your life. It was hard hearing of Joni's loss too. I met Joni at Randon's service, and she seemed like the very sweet person you described in your entry today. I will be praying for her and her family. Honestly with all the horrible things that seemed to have happened of late, I sometimes think my prayers may no difference whatsoever though. Forgive me Lord for saying that, but honestly, it just seems that the bad news goes on and on. I'm sure you sometimes want to throw up your hands and say, "what's the use?" I can understand how you would feel that way. I'll never understand God's will or timing or why bad things happen to such good people. I just have to remind myself that it's not for me to know, hard as that seems! I have to believe that God is bigger than all our pain, and for us to go thru such horrific tragedies, there has to be this wonderful purpose to come from it. I hurt for you, I hurt for Joni, I hurt for that 3-year-old little boy who will barely be able to remember his daddy. So very, very sad! Seem to be so many sad things at Christmas, or maybe we just notice them more then.
I've told you before, and I'll remind you again, that you don't have to ever put on pretend faces with me, and if it would help you to vent, cry or rant, I am fine with that. I'd rather know how you really are. I know that we talk and carry on, but I know you well enough to know that behind all your smiles and laughter there's a broken heart. I am always here for you, Carol.
If you need me to watch Reese for you tomorrow or Friday so that you can go to Joni's husband's service, just let me know. Sophie would always welcome her company, and so would I! I'll be thinking of you as I do every day.
Much love and prayers always,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Bowling Green, KY Warren - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 12:43 AM CST
Dear sweet Carol,
It was hard reading your entry today, bringing back afresh all the pain still there, and that I know will be there for the rest of your life. It was hard hearing of Joni's loss too. I met Joni at Randon's service, and she seemed like the very sweet person you described in your entry today. I will be praying for her and her family. Honestly with all the horrible things that seemed to have happened of late, I sometimes think my prayers may no difference whatsoever though. Forgive me Lord for saying that, but honestly, it just seems that the bad news goes on and on. I'm sure you sometimes want to throw up your hands and say, "what's the use?" I can understand how you would feel that way. I'll never understand God's will or timing or why bad things happen to such good people. I just have to remind myself that it's not for me to know, hard as that seems! I have to believe that God is bigger than all our pain, and for us to go thru such horrific tragedies, there has to be this wonderful purpose to come from it. I hurt for you, I hurt for Joni, I hurt for that 3-year-old little boy who will barely be able to remember his daddy. So very, very sad! Seem to be so many sad things at Christmas, or maybe we just notice them more then.
I've told you before, and I'll remind you again, that you don't have to ever put on pretend faces with me, and if it would help you to vent, cry or rant, I am fine with that. I'd rather know how you really are. I know that we talk and carry on, but I know you well enough to know that behind all your smiles and laughter there's a broken heart. I am always here for you, Carol.
If you need me to watch Reese for you tomorrow or Friday so that you can go to Joni's husband's service, just let me know. Sophie would always welcome her company, and so would I! I'll be thinking of you as I do every day.
Much love and prayers always,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Bowling Green, KY Warren - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 12:32 AM CST
Carol,
It was good to see your post today. It worries me when you don't post for 3 or 4 days--I know it must be extremely hard for to write in your journal many days, but I have to believe that it is therapeutic for you to do so, people deal with pain in so many different ways, and I think that the anger you express is perfectly normal, and that you must address these feelings before you can continue your grieving. I read what was written about being "easier" to accept 6 months down the road, and I still stick with my original statement that I don't believe it becomes easier in 6 months, 6 years, or 60 years. I think the severity of the pain will not ever leave your heart, but that you will find some different coping methods that keep you from losing your sanity. I may be wrong about that, but I had a long discussion with my sister in law last night (the one who lost her son when he was a freshman at Furman University). She said that the pain is still as fresh and intense as it was the night they got the phone call. I hope that I am not out of line in saying this to you, but I think that it can be very helpful if you know what lies ahead of you, and don't expect the pain to get easier--I'm not trying to be a negative person, just realistic.
I continue to pray for your family daily, and hope that you don't try to "push" yourself into feeling better--you have to take time to deal with your pain-your friends will understand that there will be days that you just can't smile no matter how much you want to.
Beth Austin (TEAM 365) <beth@bradd.org>
- Wednesday, December 6, 2006 10:32 AM CST
My prayers are with you,your friend, and your families.
Emily Cassetty <newhope03@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 10:32 AM CST
God love ya! I was just telling Mom that you amaze me with your strength. Your friend Joni is lucky to have you Carol. You will be her rock no doubt, although I know that at times you do not feel like one. We continue to pray for you and your sweet family through these difficult times.
Many prayers :)
Astra Daugherty <astra@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 10:30 AM CST
Carol, Praying for your grief to ease and now for your friend. I don't have any other words for you except to let God carry you through all this...Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 9:54 AM CST
Just got through reading your update. So sorry to hear about Joni's husband. They are in my prayers.
You are in my prayers too. I wish I lived closer to just sit down and talk with you.
Trusting Him,
Dawn - mom to Angel Shae & Mason
Glad to call you friend.... <dawnpierce@bankplus.net>
Hernando, MS - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:39 AM CST
Carol, so sorry to hear about your friend Joni's husband. Will definitely keep them in our prayers. The Gap reading brings insight for all of us! I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers and think of you so often! Hope the girls are doing okay! Your family is so precious and so loved! You remind me to count every moment as a blessing, something I have not been very good at in the past! Thanks for this reminder!! Love always, Kim
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:24 AM CST
Carol--just read your update--I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's husband--we'll keep them all in our prayers! Please know that we are always here to help out with anything, or just to listen, or talk--please call if you need any help over the next few days--you continue to be in my prayers daily--I pray for courage, strength, and most of all faith for you--take care--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:22 AM CST
I'm so sad to hear about Joni's husband. I'll definitely be praying for the whole family. We actually live next door to Tim, Diane and Mckinley. I just talked with Diane and let her know that we are praying for the whole family. My heart is breaking for so many people right now.
Praying for you daily,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, December 6, 2006 8:18 AM CST
Sending love to you all and praying today was a day full of blessings in the Miller home:) My thoughts and prayers are with you always.
Kristi
- Tuesday, December 5, 2006 9:29 PM CST
I thought I would share this. I found it on a site. It brought to life MANY of your post.
The Gap
The gap between those who have lost children and those who have not is profoundly difficult to bridge. No one, whose children are well and intact can be expected to understand what parents who have lost children have absorbed and what they bear. Our children come to us through every blade of grass, every crack in the sidewalk, every bowl of breakfast cereal. We seek contact with their atoms, their hairbrush, their toothbrush, their clothing. We reach for what was integrally woven into the fabric of our lives, now torn and shredded.
A black hole has been blown through our souls and, indeed, it often does not allow the light to escape. It is a difficult place. For us to enter there is to be cut deeply, and torn anew, each time we go there, by the jagged edges of our loss. Yet we return, again and again, for that is where our children now reside. This will be so for years to come and it will change us profoundly. At some point in the distant future, the edges of that hole will have tempered and softened but the empty space will remain - a life sentence.
Our friends will change through this. There is no avoiding it. We grieve for our children, in part, through talking about them and our feelings for having lost them. Some go there with us, others cannot and through their denial and a further measure, however unwittingly, to an already heavy burden. Assuming that we may be feeling "better" six months later is simply "to not get it." The excruciating and isolating reality that bereaved parents feel is hermetically sealed from the nature of any other human experience. Thus it is a trap - those whose compassion and insight we most need are those for whom we abhor the experience that would allow them that sensitivity and capacity. And yet, somehow there are those, each in their own fashion, who have found a way to reach us and stay, to our comfort. They have understood, again each in their own way, that our children remain our children through our memory of them. Their memory is sustained through speaking about them and our feelings about their death. Deny this and you deny their life. Deny their life and you no longer have a place in ours.
We recognize that we have moved to an emotional place where it is often very difficult to reach us. Our attempts to be normal are painful and the day to day carries a silent, screaming anguish that accompanies us, sometimes from moment to moment. Were we to give it its own voice we fear we would become truly unreachable, and so we remain "strong" for a host of reasons even as the strength saps our energy and drains our will. Were we to act out our true feelings we would be impossible to be with. We resent having to act normal, yet we dare not do otherwise. People who understand this dynamic are our gold standard. Working our way through this over the years will change us as does every experience - and extreme experience changes one extremely. We know we will have recovered when, as we have read, it is no longer so painful to be normal. We do not know who we will be at that point or who will still be with us.
We have read that the gap is so difficult that, often, bereaved parents must attempt to reach out to friends and relatives or risk losing them. This is our attempt. For those untarnished by such events, who wish to know in some way what they, thankfully, do not know, read this. It may provide a window that is helpful for both sides of the gap.
By
Michael Crenlinsten
Charity
Little Elm, TX - Tuesday, December 5, 2006 10:00 AM CST
Carol--just stopping by to say Hi--I feel like we're always passing each other carting the kids somewhere:), but guess that's just part of our days right now, something that I'm thankful for though, because I know it won't last forever--thank you again for reminding me to enjoy each and every moment--even the things like driving the kids to activities, doing homework etc. After our trip to Cincinnati Children's last week, Abbye and I realize that once again, we are so blessed:) Hope you have a good week--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, December 5, 2006 8:11 AM CST
Carol I enjoyed our lunch a few weeks ago. I haven't been on line in a while. We got a new computer, and not really being a computer person, it has taken me a while to attempt. I was thrilled to see the pictures of Ariel and Cinderella, what little dolls they are. Lauren is looking forward to Christmas break, she has been working so hard. Ali, well what can I say, she finds joy in everything. I can't wait to tour the Cul-de-Sac. We always have our night to drive around and check out the lights and Claiborne Farms is always a favorite stop. Our Cul-de-Sac looks like a winter wonderland. The four houses in the circle have icicle lights and it is truly beautiful. I hope the joy and peace of the season are yours. I would love to get together again. Take care and tell everyone hello.
Praising Him always,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Monday, December 4, 2006 9:12 PM CST
It is so good to hear hope and a smile in your note. No one can imagine what you have been through, but you always make me stop and give my girls one more hug and tell them I love them again. You are so right, the moment we have now cannot be replaced. I am still praying for all of you! Lee Ann
lee ann crawley <crawley@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky - Monday, December 4, 2006 3:53 PM CST
Happy Monday Morning! Girls, I hope you have an awesome day at school. I am thinking of you all. Reagan, we have snow flurries and it's 16 degrees but NO wind:) so it's not that bad. Carol, I am thinking of you today and praying you find beauty in the day and are overwhelmed with special moments with each one of your beautiful sons and daughters.
Kristi
- Monday, December 4, 2006 8:58 AM CST
You and your family are very much in my prayers! I only wish that something could take away your pain, or that I had the words of comfort and courage. But, the best thing I can say is, I am praying for you, especially during these holidays! And your little Ariel and Cinderella are adorable. ;)
Megan Dutill
- Sunday, December 3, 2006 7:00 PM CST
Just stopping by to let you know I'm thinking about you and your family. You and your family touch my life in many ways.
I pray that a sense of calm and a renewal of joy will soon surround you. I send very sincere, warm hugs your way!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Sunday, December 3, 2006 0:29 AM CST
Hi Carol,
I was brought to your boys' site through another--and I'm just so sorry and so sad for you. I lost my second son to infantile ALL 6 months post BMT, different (obviously) but similar, too. I guess I sort of know where you are, what you have been through, and I know there are no words. It's been just over a year for us, but I'm not sure that time has any real meaning. It's so hard to understand how these things happen. It's so unfair.
Thanks for sharing your boys. They are both beautiful, and I know how much you miss them. I hope you and your family are finding peace.
Love,
Catherine
www.caringbridge.org/ny/everettscottwillard
Catherine Willard <catherine_willard@yahoo.com>
Brooklyn, NY - Saturday, December 2, 2006 9:38 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I was just dropping by to let you know I was thinking of you and your family today. I hope all is going well. I have to say I am very jealous that you got to play tennis on Thanksgiving! I hope it was fun.
Sincerely,
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Saturday, December 2, 2006 8:16 PM CST
Did you find a new page with borders....I like it!!! I'll have to email Kristi and tell her you are the queen of these pages, I still can't figure out music or multiple pictures!!!! Hope to see you soon.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
don't know if we will be at church or not, I am a little nervous with it being so cold and he has an appointment first thing Monday morning, it's the big one so be praying, - Saturday, December 2, 2006 2:21 PM CST
I can tell you learned a lot from Nicki on designing the pages. The Christmas theme is nice. Just thinking of you all and hoping all is going well.
Kristi
- Saturday, December 2, 2006 9:21 AM CST
I'm checking in on your family. I join you in remembrance of your precious baby boys. I pray that peace, joy, and laughter surround your family as you prepare for the holidays. Much love.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Friday, December 1, 2006 11:17 PM CST
I just wanted to let you know you were in my thoughts today.
Tina & Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Friday, December 1, 2006 3:14 PM CST
To my sweet Carol,
Oh, it was so good to hear from you! I'm so blessed you got to enjoy your Thanksgiving and anniversary with you wonderful husband.
I'd love to see your house, it sounds "delightful", I'm just too lazy to go through all that hard work. You are blessed with a great hubby.
I know this season will be bittersweet, I'm so encouraged when you say "find those moments", make those moments, and cherish them. Life is just too short.
I pray you have a nice weekend, I'll be back to check up on you and your beautiful family.
With hope,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Sending lots of love and prayers to Vermont...................., - Friday, December 1, 2006 12:15 AM CST
That is about the cutest thing I have ever heard. Tell Reese, Isaiah is honored to be his little sister!!! Actually he really needs a big sister to help him out and I couldn't think of anyone more perfect than any of your girls!!
Maybe he could be Sebastien during dress up time!!! Reese is great! Hope you guys are staying warm and have a great weekend. Maybe Isaiah will be well enough to come to church on Sunday and we will get to see his sister!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
As soon as he feels well enough we will be over with shades on!!!, - Friday, December 1, 2006 8:54 AM CST
Hi Carol~ Have a wonderful weekend. You're girls are so adorable. I will send you a Christmas card with some pics and a little history. I feel like you're such a good friend but I am not reciprocating. I hope you're not blowing away this morning it feels like I'm at the beach it's sooo windy here. Type to you soon.
Love~Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Friday, December 1, 2006 7:38 AM CST
Carol,
Good morning! Whew, can you believe the temperature change? The kids were hoping a great snow would fall so we could stay home all weekend. I've got too much to do, so I guess I'll be running around in the cold today. It's hard to believe, but Anthony is 7 today. How quickly our kids are growing up. I just pray I'm doing 1/2 as good a job as you are at raising them.
You are in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I still have people at church asking how you are doing. Your family has touched the hearts of so many people. I feel blest to know you. I pray that this Christmas season, though not at all how you planned it to be, will be filled with God's presence.
Love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, December 1, 2006 6:58 AM CST
Just stopping by to let you know that I've been thinking of you all. I truly appreciate how you open your heart and share your journey here, you've taught me so much!
Sending hugs and prayers...
Kristin
Mom to Hayden, Evan, Conner and Kelsey
Lafayette, IN
- Friday, December 1, 2006 6:36 AM CST
Jacob's Mum Our Aussie^i^Jacob
Australia - Thursday, November 30, 2006 11:46 PM CST
Hello Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese
I just want to tell all of you that i am still thinking of you and praying for you guys everyday and night.And i want to make sure that the Miller Families have a wonderful Christmas this year.And Carol i just love all the pictures of the girls sooo very much.And Carol the pictures of the girls are sooo cute too.And i just love all of you guys sooo very much.Take Care and God Bless you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan,Reese and the rest of the Miller Families,The Speakman Family and the Allen Family.And i love You Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan,Reese and the rest of the Miller Families,The Speakman Family and The Allen Family sooo very much forever and always forever.Love from your friend forever and always forever Peggy Shannon.
p.s. Carol would you please tell the Allen Family and your mom,dad and Speakmna Family that i said hello to them from me Peggy Shannon.
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A. - Thursday, November 30, 2006 9:39 PM CST
Glad to see an update and I am glad that you are still continuing to receive much needed support, help and love. I am sure those meals will keep on coming as well as the cards. Carol, know that it is because of you that many of us find strenght in things that we struggle with. You are amazing and an inspiration... Take care and hi to everyone!
Kristi
- Thursday, November 30, 2006 5:03 PM CST
Thanks for posting---I check your site daily..maybe you can offer your shoulder to the parents in the NICU at your hospital--or a child hospice center. You would feel so good being able to give something to some mom that is struggling.
You sound like such a solid family. You will all be fine one day because you have those angels above keeping you all together in their honor. You are a real inspiration.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Thursday, November 30, 2006 2:40 PM CST
Carol, glad to hear you had a good Thanksgiving and anniversary. I think your idea for a group of some sorts to help others who have had infant loss would be a wonderful idea for this area! You would be so good at helping others and at the same time hopefully you would be helping yourself also!! I think other Moms need other Moms so much! No matter what we are going through, but especially in a situation where you have lost a child, I can't think of another time you would need another Mom more. I am so glad Clark Griswold got all his work done! I bet he's tired now! I think your idea of being a princess for a day is a great idea, so go for it girl, treat yourself! You deserve it! I am glad you sound better and I hope you continue to have more and more good days!! Love ya always, Kim Harmon
KIm Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, November 30, 2006 8:38 AM CST
Hi Carol!
I dropped by this morning to see if you had posted an update. I was happy to see that you had. Thank-you so much.
I am so glad that you had a nice Thanksgiving and anniversary. What day is your anniversary? Our is the 25th.
I can't imagine you needing a treadmill! from all the pictures I have seen of you, you look great!
I think you and your friend's idea is awesome! Maybe you could even write a book or become a speaker! ;) I will pray for God's guidance for you.
I know that this time of year must be especially difficult for you. Not only is Reid's birthday coming up but there are two precious little boys that you would love to be celebrating Christmas with. I will be praying for the Prince of Peace to put and keep peace and comfort in your hearts.
Isn't it precious how little girls love to dress up like princesses? My little girls do the same thing all the time. I tell them that they truley are princesses because they belong to the King of Kings!
Thank-you so much for your honest, down to earth updates. I always look forward to them. They do more than you will ever know. Let me know if there is anything I can do besides pray for you. Of course, you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, November 30, 2006 8:27 AM CST
Dear Carol, Much love, prayer, hugs to all. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, November 30, 2006 8:16 AM CST
Carol and the family, just checking to say hello! I completely understand the 2's...Reese with ariel reminds me of Audrey. Last week she was a pink ballerina for 2 days and then she wore her bathingsuit for 2 days! Always an adventure with a girl in her 2's!! Glad to see all 3 girls in the pics! Tell your wonderful "Clark" I said hello.
love, Laura
Laura Shreve <shreve2002@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Wednesday, November 29, 2006 11:49 PM CST
Just wanted to stop by to say hi and I am thinking of you all.
Kristi
- Wednesday, November 29, 2006 5:36 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I was just thinking of you and your precious family. I hope "Mr. Griswold" is keeping you guys very busy with all of the festivities of Christmas.
Always in my prayers,
Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, November 29, 2006 4:19 PM CST
Hi Carol,
It was really good to see you today. I have thought much about you since and just want you to know that I care very much about all of you and continue to pray for you daily. I know there isn't anything I can do, but I hope it helps to know that there isn't anything I wouldn't do if I could.
Much love and continued prayers,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 10:31 PM CST
What a beautiful entry. You don't know me but I just had to tell you how much I have been blessed by your honest words. I'm the mom of two, and also lost two in pregnancy losses. I know what you've been through is very different, but your words have brought up some of those buried feelings in a good bittersweet way. I am not very good with words, but your entry was really just beautiful.
Lauren
- Tuesday, November 28, 2006 8:57 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Just stopping by to check up on you. I pray you are doing "OK"... I know the holidays will be bittersweet. I pray you had a nice time for your anniversary.
Waiting for your next update! Sending lots of love to you Carol,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Missing you.........................., - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 6:14 PM CST
Dear Carol, sending my love and hugs. Pat
Pat allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 4:47 PM CST
I LOVE you sooooooo much, mother!!!!!!!
Reagan Miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky America - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 3:07 PM CST
We continue to think of you and your family. You have many supporters in Monroe, LA, even though you don't know any of us. We are here praying for you.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 2:07 PM CST
I'm thinking about and praying for comfort for your sweet family. I send much love from my family to yours!
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Tuesday, November 28, 2006 0:01 AM CST
The angels are so fitting and perfect. Hope all is well this Monday morning at the Miller house. Sending love.
Kristi
- Monday, November 27, 2006 10:21 AM CST
Know you are in our thoughts and prayers.
www.caringbridge.org/visit/alexysfields
elizabeth fields
terre haute, in - Monday, November 27, 2006 10:16 AM CST
Congrats on your 15th Anniversary! We celebrated our 15th this year too. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one that had to get "special" permission to marry so young!!! :) Just wanted you to know that I too am changed by your journal entries. I can't imagine anyone reading them and going away unchanged. You have strengthened the prayer life of countless people. What a wonderful thing in the midst of such heartache and tragedy. I'm praying for you and your family and hoping for much happiness in this sometimes stressful season.
Amy
Amy H. Wood <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
Nashville, - Monday, November 27, 2006 9:59 AM CST
Looks good!!!!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Monday, November 27, 2006 8:53 AM CST
Oops... Jill told me it was your anniversary - Happy Anniversary (late :( ) Praying for a good week for all of you.
Love,
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, November 27, 2006 7:52 AM CST
Thinking of you all and send warm wishes and love. I am glad all your decorating is done and that you can sit back and relax while everyone else is rushing around decorating.
Kristi
- Sunday, November 26, 2006 6:33 PM CST
Carol,
Check your email...I put the information you needed in it!!! Hope this weekend has been good and you all have enjoyed this weather. Talk to you soon, and yes we will bring Isaiah by when he gets better. I would love to have outside lights but out in the boonies we for some reason seem to not have outside plugs so TImmy got by easy on that (plus he says there are only about 5 cars down the road to see them)!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
it's never to early for Christmas stuff...I wish I could leave it up all the time, - Sunday, November 26, 2006 5:47 PM CST
The picture of the girls are adorable! You have a beautiful family. I am checking on you often,and praying for you daily. I miss not seeing you, but we will chat soon. Hope your weekend is good,and healing for you. Love in Christ, Lee Ann
leeanncrawley <crawley@insightbb.com>
bowling, ky - Saturday, November 25, 2006 3:19 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I hope you had a peaceful Thanksgiving and were able to find some time to enjoy your anniversary as well. I love the picture of the girls....and I am quite jealous you have your decorating finished! That is what I am off to do now. Have a great week!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Saturday, November 25, 2006 11:51 AM CST
Hope you have a good Saturday. I got up this morning thinking it was time to go to church. You have to love the weeks that throw you off. I am thinking of you all and hoping all is well.
Kristi
- Saturday, November 25, 2006 10:37 AM CST
Hope y'all had a wonderful and peaceful Thanksgiving! I hate to bug you with this, but I was just wondering if you recieved my little gift that I sent. I hope so! With much hope and prayer for you and yours, Denise :-)
Denise Riley <rileyd5@comcast.net>
Pittsburgh, PA - Friday, November 24, 2006 5:41 PM CST
HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL THANKSGIVING WITH YOUR FAMILY. WE ALSO SEND OUR WISHES ON YOUR 15TH ANNIVERSARY.
LOVE THE PICTURES OF THE GIRLS
LOVE, YOUR CLIFTON FRIENDS
Dan and Betty Spoerl <bettyjane@tds.net>
cLIFTON, - Thursday, November 23, 2006 9:49 PM CST
Thinking of Randon as he earned his angel wings two months ago along with hoping your Thanksgiving and anniversary went well.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 23, 2006 9:08 PM CST
Dear Carol and all the Millers~ Happy Thanksgiving and 15th!!! You all are the BEST. Hoping that this day is fun and filled with lots of laughter and good family time. Enjoy the Holiday. I am so jealous that you all are so ahead on Christmas decor. I better get busy.....
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Thursday, November 23, 2006 5:44 PM CST
Carol and Dale--what a special day to have as your anniversary---thank you for sharing so much of yourselves. Randon and Reid have given me reason to really appreciate life as a mother, and to honor this day even more. They give so much to people you have no idea-doesn't take the place of them being here phyically, I know that, but they are in no way 'not here'. My dad is up there teaching them all sorts of tricks---
enjoy the holiday as you can
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newbwerg, or - Thursday, November 23, 2006 1:21 PM CST
Just stopping by to wish you both a very Happy Anniversary and to wish your family a blessed and happy Thanksgiving. Your family has truly weathered many storms and come through it all the stronger. I know that there are still times ahead that will no doubt be difficult, but you all seem to pull together and work with each other, in faith and with hope, and that is indeed a blessing.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.>
Winnipeg, Canada - Thursday, November 23, 2006 1:16 PM CST
Happy Anniversary and Thanksgiving!!! Cherish every moment! I know you know that all too well. Thinking of and praying for you!
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, November 23, 2006 10:41 AM CST
Happy Thanksgiving and Happy 15th Anniversary! I pray you will have a blessed day.
Lots of love,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, November 23, 2006 8:52 AM CST
Happy 15th Anniversary Carol & Dale!! Hope you have at least 60 more!!! I remember when you got married and it is amazing that you look as young as you did 15 years ago. Do something special for yourselves--
Bernadette Mullen <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Thursday, November 23, 2006 8:37 AM CST
Happy Thanksgiving Miller family.
Zola Walker & family <zjwalker1@alltel.net>
Greensburg, KY USA - Thursday, November 23, 2006 7:55 AM CST
Thinking of all of you this morning and just wanted to wish you a very Happy Thanksgiving. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for helping me to cherish this Thanksgiving Season even more this year. I hope you and Dale are able to have some special times together this weekend too. Wow! Fifteen years! I'm sure you both are wondering where the time has gone.
Much love,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, November 23, 2006 7:05 AM CST
Dear Carol,
Those pictures are just priceless! And...6 trees! Wow!
I just wanted to wish you and your family a Happy Thanksgiving. You are such a special person and are always searching for the God/the good in everything! I always learn so much when I stop by to "visit" you. You challenge my faith and encourage me in so many ways.
Praying you receive the peace that passes all understanding during this holiday season.
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 9:48 PM CST
Hi Dale, Carol, Riley, Reagan and Reese:
You are in my thoughts and on my heart during this Thanksgiving holiday. I will continue to lift you up in prayer. I join you in thanking God for Randon and Reid. Their lives (although way too short) have deeply affected my life, as well as countless others. Thank you for sharing them with us.
p.s. I love the Christmas pictures. Where did you get that Ariel wig?
With Love,
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 8:31 PM CST
Dear Dale, Carol, Riley, Reagan and "Ariel",
I wanted to stop by to wish you all a special Thanksgiving. I hope you have a good day and that you are all healthy and able to enjoy the day.
Carol and Dale- Happy 15th Anniversary! I hope you two have a good one. You truly deserve it.
Kristi
- Wednesday, November 22, 2006 7:09 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Hope you are having a good day today with your girls home from school. Wow!!! You and Dale have managed to get not only 3 of the sweetest, caring girls in the world, but they just happen to be extremely beautiful also!!!! Reagan's notes to you on the website are so so sweet, and I just want to hold that darling little Ariel aka Reese, and I certainly hope that you and Dale are ready for what you have in store for you with Riley, she is so pretty!
It looks like ya'll had a good time putting up Christmas decorations. My husband has always been like Harvey Griswald--the neighbors used to say that they didn't have to turn their lights on INSIDE their houses, because we lit up the whole block!!! However, for the last two years, we had new next door neighbor that TOTALLY outlit us!! He has moved since last Christmas, so it will be interesting to see if my husband takes back his title for the most lights in the neighborhood. Last year and the year before, the neighbor's decorations look like the ones out at Basil Griffin Park. I'm serious, we had a line going around our neighborhood that was a constant stream of cars for about 3 hours everynight. He would spend about 5 days gettting everything set up--you probably saw it --I think everyone in town did--we live on Chenoweth Circle. We haven't put inside or outside up this year yet. I guess we will be doing that over the weekend. Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers,
Beth Austin (TEAM 365 Bible Study)
Beth Austin <beth@bradd.org>
- Wednesday, November 22, 2006 3:00 PM CST
Wishing you all a very Happy Thanksgiving! Thank you so much for sharing this site with all of us. I love the song that plays. I can't wait to start decorating this weekend, much to my husbands dismay. Happy Holidays!
Christie <clove@optonline.net>
Lynbrook, NY USA - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 1:08 PM CST
How funny that we watched Christmas Vacation 1 and 2 last week!v Its our favorite! Gotta love Clark, Cousin Eddie nd Snots the dog! I thought I was nuts with two trees inside, my neighbors call me Mrs. Griswold! But 5? Hey, the more the merrier! I was near tears to see you(read you) feeling better. I could almost see your smile. Grief is such a process. Like a roller coaster at WallyWorld. Up and down, fast and slow...(too bad grief is a ride that you never get off of though) I have been MIA and for that I am sorry. I am recovering from major surgery but feeling perky. A little ticked that I cannot decorate yet. (can't lift the boxes..grrrr) I suspect Joe is thrilled! I decorate for Halloween on Oct 1st but like to do Christmas before Thanksgiving. NOT HITS YEAR! I'm on Joes schedule this year!
Hell drag out the trees Dec 26th and say " OH WELL! Don't need em' now!!" Scrooge! LOL Not really, bet you get me drift! I miss ya, give me a call when you are up to my insane ramblings. Got lots of crazy stuff to share! Not tom mention I want to send out the packages to Vandy in Reid and Randons name as Christmas blessings, so I need that contact info!!!
Love ya!
Heather
Kylies Journey
Heather Monica <tenkids2dogs@aol.com>
Toms River, NJ - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 11:52 AM CST
Miller Family !!
The song that plays on your website is played often on our Christian radio station. When I hear it, I am immediately brought to this wonderful family in KY. Celebrate your #15 and have a Happy Thanksgiving! Your pictures make me feel as if I know each and every one of you. You are an inspiration to us all with your words and pictures as you share your feelings and thoughts. God Bless you and may you continue to "keep on keeping on". As this Grandmother in MN prepares for the season, I am touched every day by your story and your life. Love and prayers to you. Shirley Rick
Shirley Rick <sarick@meekercoop.net>
Litchfield, MN USA - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 10:50 AM CST
Happy Thanksgiving, and Happy Anniversary!To my dearest Carol,
Once again I come to check up on you, hoping to leave a word of encouragement and comfort, and I AM THE ONE who gets both! I always leave your journals changed.
Thanks for being so real and so honest, and for taking all that has happened in your life to teach us all what truly "matters".
Ariel is precious, as all of your girls. And Reagan, hmmmm, she would be have a very Merry Christmas after I read those words! (He He...)
Your children are such a reflection of you Carol, you should be so proud. I can only imagine how much Reid and Randon would of adored their mom!
So, you have a double reason to celebrate this Thanksgiving. Congratulations for 15 well lived years together! You've been there for each other in ways many none us will never experience. When I think of you guys, this scripture comes to mind:
Ecc. 4:12
"A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken."
Yes, I see you, Dale and the Lord standing stronger and stronger each day!
Love you Carol, and yes, I'm so thankful for Reid and Randon too, our friendship was born because of these special little guys. I can't wait till I get the honor of meeting them one day!
With hope always,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Glad to call you my friend.............................., - Wednesday, November 22, 2006 7:08 AM CST
I went to the Mercy Me concert in Nashville last week and fell in love with a song off their newest album. I purchased the album and have listened to it over and over again. The words make me think of you and I wanted to share them.
Bring the Rain by Mercy Me
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray
Holy, holy, holy
is the Lord God Almighty
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, November 21, 2006 9:00 PM CST
I see Reagan is an author like her mom. It is so sweet. Hope you all have a very Happy Thanksgiving. Your little Ariel is beautiful. I am thinking that she loved the Little Mermaid show at Disney. Just wanted you to know how often I think of your sons. They have made such an impact on my life and so many other peoples' lives.
P.S. Congratulations on 15 years!
Caroline Hudson <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 8:35 PM CST
I just was leeting you know that I will and always have loved you, Mommy!!!!!!!
Love,
Reagan Miller
Reagan Miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY America - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 8:03 PM CST
Dear Mommie,
I love you and care about you alot!!!!!!!
God is, has, and will always be with you!!!!!!!
Your'e so, so, so, so, so, so, so great to me!!!!!!!
love,
Reagan!!!!!!!
P.S.Always remember to SMILE!!!!!!!
Reagan Miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green , kentucky America - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 7:54 PM CST
Thank you a thousand times over Carol!
Your entries are so heartfelt and seem to always teach me how to be a better mother, friend, person. I hope that you know that you are never far from my thoughts and always in my prayers. I feel blessed to have met you through this site! Have a very Happy Thanksgiving!
Forever touched....
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 6:36 PM CST
Just checking up on you all. I hope all is well and you are all feeling better. I truly love that picture of Reese, er, Ariel;) There she goes, throwing off the R sisters and being an A.
Kristi
- Tuesday, November 21, 2006 5:50 PM CST
Carol,
I'm so glad I read your latest entry today. I really felt like I could see a smile on your face and it made me feel good. I can relate to sometimes sweating at the small stuff when Kendall is driving me crazy at times, but it's also wonderful when he sometimes says to me "I need a hug momma" I wish we were closer in distance to be able to hug you more and to let you know you are constantly on my mind. I hope the holidays will bring you some happiness and joy.
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 1:39 PM CST
Dear Carol,
You are such an amazing mother and person! Your insight is so deep and I hope you know how much your words teach us all to be better parents, spouses, friends, and people. I love how you talked about letting your two-year-old be in her costume all day, not worrying about the germs, and not sweating the small stuff. It's too easy to get caught up in the small stuff and lose sight of what's truly important-the people around us, and especially our little ones, who grow up way too fast. Thank you for sharing your wonderful family with us and for reminding us to cherish every second that we have together! I'm praying for a peaceful Holiday season for you and your family!
*May I ask who the song is by on your website and what the title is? You chose such a beautiful and meaningful song!
Jodi Sterud <sjsterud@hometownsolutions.net>
Morris, MN - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 12:19 AM CST
Hi Carol,
That is one beautiful Ariel you have there! Reese has the cutest looks anyways....I just love the age of 2! That was my favorite age of my girls! I hope Reagan/Cinderella is all better today!
You made me cry again, but not so much tears of sadness this time as much as tears of being touched by your's and Dale's love for one another and the bond you share. You have shared much joy, and you have shared much sadness. Both of these emotions will follow you all your days, and you'll experience these emotions together. I'm thankful you have one another to share this journey together. I'm thankful this season for all you've taught me, and what you continue to teach me (even when you don't know you're teaching us). I will be praying for you and thinking of you over Thanksgiving, as I do each day, and will be counting you in my blessings. "Thank you, Lord, for the Millers, all seven of them, and what they've meant to me, what they've taught me, and how they've encouraged me. Amen."
Have a blessed Thanksgiving and time together with your family, and happy 15th anniversary!! (Tell Clark you deserve a trip to Wally World!) I'm open to watching the girls for you Friday night if you want a night out with Clark! Just bring the costumes over and we'll combine in ours and have a Disney Princess Fashion Show.
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 11:41 AM CST
Today is my first visit to your family's caringbridge webpage. A friend of mine recommended that I read your insightful messages. You are truly a remarkable woman, and you have a wonderful way with words. I have never met you, and yet I truly admire your courage, honesty and love for your family. Your family will be in my prayers thoughout this holiday season, and I thank you for reminding me how precious life is. Thanks to your journal entry from yesterday, I will not be thinking of housework or meal preparation for the next couple of days, but instead will savor every moment with my children over this Thanksgiving weekend. Thanks for reminding me about the important things in life, Carol.
Shelly Schirm <roshelle.schirm.ioes@statefarm. com>
Correll, MN 56227 - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 11:37 AM CST
Carol, what a wonderful entry! Hope you guys are feeling better real soon! I bet if Ariel has anything to do with it you will be up and at it in no time! She is adorable and I love her new name and wardrobe!! And you know how beautiful Reagan and Riley already are!! They are growing so fast!! I can't imagine 6 trees already up!! Clark can come to my house and help decorate because my Dale does not get into it!I am so glad you went to Abby's service and were blessed. I wondered if you were going and if it would be too hard on you but I heard the message on the internet and it was very uplifting and made you want to make the most out of every day! Hope you guys have a wonderful Thanksgiving and hope everyone is feeling better! I'm thankful to call you friend! Love ya always, Kim Harmon
PS Happy Anniversary Too!!
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, Ky USA - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 9:45 AM CST
What a beautiful entry...hoping you have a great Thanksgiving...
Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 9:22 AM CST
Hi Carol--hope you and Reagan are feeling better soon! So glad that last week was better for you and that you felt so much love and comfort! Please know that we continue to pray and keep you all close in our hearts--Happy Thanksgiving and Happy Anniversary!! Prayers for a wonderful, long weekend together--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 9:07 AM CST
Carol--I think you may be a little "clarkie" too--6 trees up BEFORE Thanksgiving????? NO no no.....that is so not Kosher.
Glad to hear you felt some comfort--it is hard to get it there from Oregon in this rain and wind. Appreciate the Holiday.
Love you
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, or - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 9:02 AM CST
Dear Carol, What a beautiful entry. So so Selfless. You always seem to have a heart for someone else. You may say to me, no that is not true, but I believe that it is. It may not be true on a minute to minute basis, but in the whole scheme of things, your heart is for others. I am thankful that your past week has been a good week and I know that your Thanksgiving will be wonderful. Your whole family is beautiful and I am sure there is never a dull moment. Happy 15th Anniversary to You and Clark. My love to you and my prayers continue. Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 8:03 AM CST
Carol,
Forget the Opryland lights, we are coming to Bowling Green for the great Miller display!! Have a great Thanksgiving and anniversary.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 6:45 AM CST
Hey Carol,
Woke up in the middle of the night to hear the song held playing in my head. I prayed myself back to sleep for you and your family... then to read your update this morning. Tears are flowing. When you described compassion and being saved by love, your heart, words and walk inspire and overwhelm me daily.
I love you
catherine w
- Tuesday, November 21, 2006 6:40 AM CST
Dear Millers - thinking of any praying for you this morning, please remember you are all loved. WOW - such beautiful princesses you have - how precious!
So glad you had a better week.
Happy Thanksgiving - we are all thankful for you!
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, November 21, 2006 6:18 AM CST
Your entry touched me so much today. I think I sweated the small stuff too much today and your words hopefully snapped me out of my rut for the rest of this holiday season. I do know to enjoy every minute, but it is sometimes easier said than done, and you are such an inspiration to make me jerk my head back on straight. You have done that numerous times by the way!
I didn't realize you were just married almost five months to the day before me. WE WERE BABIES!!! Ha! I hope you and Clark (I mean Dale--Ha!) have the best anniversary. Your love shows so much in your writing and I think it is so wonderful.
The girls look so adorable! I can't believe how tall, thin and beautiful Riley looks in the recent pictures. They all three are such beautiful girls.
Hope you have a great Thanksgiving.
Kyna <daleandkyna@comcast.net>
Murfreesboro , TN - Monday, November 20, 2006 10:32 PM CST
Hi Carol,
You and Dale really must have been babes, you surely do not look as if you are old enough to be celebrating 15 years. What an appropriate day to celebrate your 15th wedding anniversary! I have to believe that it is one of the things you are most thankful for.
We can't wait to drive by and see all of your Christmas decorations. If I am remembering right, your cul-de-sac is one not to be missed. I know Katie will enjoy driving by it several times over this Holiday season. By the way, she LOVED the picture of Reese...kept wanting to see it over and over again. She calls it Reese's silly picture.
I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your family. Thank you for helping me remember what truly matters and learning to cherish each moment. I just can't tell you how my life has changed over these past few months.
Much love,
Susan
P.S. My invitation still stands. Katie and I would LOVE to have Reese over any time. There aren't many days that we can't change our plans especially if it means Katie getting to play with a friend. PLEASE, PLEASE don't ever hesitate to call...even if it is short notice. I truly mean this!
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, November 20, 2006 10:20 PM CST
Carol,
Reese is just adorable, the looks she can give are so cute! It looks like you all had a great time putting everything up. We will do ours Friday if Dale didn't get enough of it, I do live with Scrooge you know! I wish you guys felt better. We went and got Isaiah's Christmas pictures done today, Scrooge protested until the end :). I was glad to hear that things have been a little better this week. If you and Dale want a night out to celebrate 15 years I would be happy to let the girls come visit....and I mean that from the bottom of my heart, Isaiah would love it!!!! Have a great Thanksgiving and anniversary.
Nicki Buchanon (Isaiah's page) <nicki@logantele.com>
I sure hope this isn't blue......I am trying again at your request!!!! :), - Monday, November 20, 2006 7:43 PM CST
hey aunt carol!!
when are ya'll coming down? HURRY UP..I HOPE ITS SOON!!!
It does seem that someone is always sick in our family, most my mom at thanksgiving. Those pictures are adorable!!
Much love,
Caroline
Caroline Fry <Dcacats226@comcast.net>
Old Hickory , TN USA - Monday, November 20, 2006 7:01 PM CST
First off, I have to say, you have one BEAUTIFUL Ariel especially in that picture!
I hope you and Reagan feel better soon. Hopefully, you won't have anyone sick at Thanksgiving. Or Christmas for that matter.
I am glad that you had a better week emotionally. I am with you, this time of the year is the best EXCEPT for puppies who have never seen snow and have to go out all the time just to eat it. Yes, we got snow today. Okay, where are all there trees at. What good pictures of Ariel and Cinderella but I miss Reese and Reagan so I hope they are back soon;)
I am glad you attended Abby's funeral last week and that Reagan was able to go. I can't even comment on what you wrote but Carol, your words of wisdom continue to touch me and impact my life in so many more ways than you will know.
What a way to celebrate Thanksgiving. Yes, I believe you were just babies but saying that I believe one of your older two girls will argue that point;)
Hang in there, Carol, you inspire so many. I always seem to write books in here and I need to brave the cold and walk the dog and when she gets cold feet she gets in my lap so I have to wheel her back in the house, um, spoiled?
Take care and have a good Thanksgiving.
With much love,
Kristi
- Monday, November 20, 2006 6:04 PM CST
Carol, I had been checking on your journal entries and had seen no change and was going to leave you a brief message but just read what you had written. I am so glad that you found some peace this week, may it have been from Abby's service or from just God above.You seemed to have found another means of coping through what you had written and for that I am so pleased for you. I am very much the same way with letting the little things bother me such as a mess or a few broken ornaments, I am glad you are not letting the small things in life bother you. You really seem much more up beat today, although I realize there is still so much pain from the loss of your two sons. We do 3 trees here in North Carolina at our home. WOW, you have your hands full with 6!! It is so wonderful to know that you and your husband have been such a comfort to each other through all of your trials and tribulations. I love to hear when a wife is so fond of their husband. My husband is my rock as well and makes being married a pleasure. Your two Disney children were absolutely precious!!Riley is a beautiful young girl. I know you must be so ever proud of those three girls and your two sons. God bless you and your family and I wish you all a peaceful Thanksgiving. You all remain in my prayers daily.
Maria Newcomb <GANASHMAN@AOL.COM>
- Monday, November 20, 2006 5:50 PM CST
Dear Carol, Thinking of you today. Praying for you today. Praying for special blessing today. Love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, November 20, 2006 10:22 AM CST
Carol,
Praying for you this morning! As Thanksgiving approaches, I want to thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. Your life, whether you want it to be or not, is an inspiration to everyone who "meets" you. My life has definitely been changed because I know you. Thank you for teaching me that the Lord is to be praised because of who He is -- not for what He does or doesn't do. I treasure your friendship. I pray that even though your heart is broken, the Lord will give you a wonderful Thanksgiving with your family. I pray that you will feel the Lord upholding you from deep within. He is with you every step of the way!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, November 20, 2006 7:12 AM CST
Dear Carol,
I just wanted you to know we are thinking about you and your family. Thank you for being an inspiration.
Sincerely,
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Sunday, November 19, 2006 7:01 PM CST
Randon Speakman Miller, you are on my mind so much today. Happy four month old birthday in heaven. You are on the minds of so many and are so missed. Fly high.
Kristi
- Sunday, November 19, 2006 6:45 PM CST
Hi Miller Family,
Reid and Randon, even though i never knew them, from their pictures i could tell they were very sweet. Just remember that God is going to take care of them and they will be greatly loved.
Love always.
Grace Dickson
grace dickson <grace.dickson@insightbb.com>
bowling green, ky united states - Sunday, November 19, 2006 4:56 PM CST
Carol,
I think about you and your precious boys at least once a day. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Saturday, November 18, 2006 11:06 PM CST
I came by to visit your beautiful Angels
with Love Jacob's Mum
Jacob's Mum ^i^Jacob
Australia - Saturday, November 18, 2006 3:35 PM CST
Dear Carol:
You never cease to amaze me! Even in the midst of your pain, you give so much of yourself. Your kind words to BJ will mean the world to her. Hardships and pain forge bridges and strengthens friendships. I think of you both all the time-- you are very special people.
Love you much!
Bernadette Mullen <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Saturday, November 18, 2006 9:22 AM CST
Happy Saturday Moning! I woke up thinking of you all (and how much my foot is a pain) and wanted to stop by to say hi and that I hope today provides lots of family time and lots of adventures for Miss Reese because at her age, I am sure she keeps you all on your toys. With much love.
Kristi
- Saturday, November 18, 2006 9:20 AM CST
I've never written in a guest book before, but I saw yours through Abby Cummings. I've been friends with B.J. and Dwight since we were in our teens. I went to you site and read your story about your two baby boys. I lost my baby boy (Jordan) on September 15, 1990. He was born premature (2 lbs) on August 27 and was doing really good until he got an infection and died at 3 weeks old. He was my third child. I had a 6 year old daughter and 4 year old son at the time (they are now 22 and 20). I never could really put into words the grief, but you did it so well in your entry when you said you felt cheated, and how you have to live in a normal world when you don't feel normal. I didn't even want to get out of the house or go anywhere, but with other children, you have to go on and try to appear normal. I wasn't ever angry with God, but I did a lot of questioning as to why. And each day is so hard when you continue to hurt so much, yet everyone else seems to forget. I know when Jordan died, part of me died also because, as mothers, the babys are a part of us. Jordan would have been 16 years old this year, and I don't guess a day goes by that I don't think about him and what he would have been like. And I hurt just like it was yesterday. At his funeral, I had a lady from my church that was in her 80's come by and tell me that she knew my pain because she had also lost a baby. She said you never get over it. I agree. Each day would get a little easier, and I kept telling myself he is in a place better than this earth. I still find myself feeling cheated because of my loss after all these years, and it is hard for me to talk about Jordan and his death. About the only person I feel free to talk to about him is my daughter. She was so hurt when he died and still talks about how she never got to hold her little brother. I came across an entry she put on Abby's site to B.J. telling her that Abby could be Jordan's big sister until she got to heaven to take over. It meant so much to me that she thought of him and put that entry.
My daughter had her first son on August 21 of this year. We were discussing who he looked like, whether he looked like her or her husband, and I said, "I think he looks like Jordan," and my daughter said, "I was thinking the same thing." God blessed us with her son, Mason.
I will keep you in my prayers, as well as B.J., Dwight, Dustin, and Amy. I know the days will get harder before they get better, and the only way to make it through is by holding onto God.
P.S. I love the song HELD also. My daughter sings, and that is one of the songs she has gotten and is working on to sing at Church. I can't wait to hear her sing it.
Denise Rush
Bowling Green, KY Warren - Saturday, November 18, 2006 1:22 AM CST
..."I truly and honestly am having to love Him not for what He does but for who He is. Knowing that in that journey, I'm having to learn who He is."
To my dearest Carol,
Wow, what a great aspiration, what a beautiful heartfelt desire. As always I'm just blown away by the things you write Carol. I believe this is what Paul was saying when he penned these words:
“That I may…become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him.” Philippians 3:10 AMP
It seems like we get to know the heart of God when we draw from it the most. I will pray God will give you that desire as you become more and more like Him. Thank you for leading the way for me Carol.
I was just sorry to read about little Abby, but know she is whole, she is full and in no need of anything. She is at the feet of Jesus now.
I love when Paul said in Rom. 8:18:
"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
Oh, what a day that will be!
Keep sounding off Carol, we are here for you. Let us be anything you need. We love you and your precious family.
With Hope,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying Hard..............................., - Friday, November 17, 2006 6:19 PM CST
Carol,
It has been too long since I sent you a note! I have kept you and your precious family in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to daily. I an so sorry for your losses and can not imagine the pain that you have gone thru as a mother. Each time I read your web site you encourage me to enjoy each day as we never know what life has in store for us. If there is anything I can do please let me know.
Love and prayers,
Astra and family
Astra Daugherty <astra@ insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, November 17, 2006 3:12 PM CST
Carol,
I was glad to see on Abby's page that you went to the service. I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and hope that the sunshine has given you and Reese a chance to get out and enjoy yourselves! Hope you all can have a great weekend and I will see you on Sunday as long as Isaiah still feels ok.
Nicki Buchanon- not going to put the link scared it will turn blue :) <nicki@logantele.com>
- Friday, November 17, 2006 2:46 PM CST
Hi Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese,
Just wanted to let you all know I am thinking and praying for you all. I hope it is a nice day down in Bowling Green, here in Ohio, it's sunny and nice and people are preparing for the Ohio vs. Michigan game.
I also have good news, I took 14 steps with crutches and my cam walker just two minutes ago. Not all my weight, just some enough to get the cam walker to move but I am doing it. SLOWLY but surely.
Thinking of Reid and Randon and remembering your sweet boys today.
Hugs to you all and girls enjoy school, before you know it, you will be off for Thanksgiving.
*Reagan, hope your glasses are helping you see better. I just got a new pair, er, ordered my new pair, 3-4 weeks till I get them and mailed my other pair to Florida to be fixed so I am not seeing well today or for a couple of days until they get back in the mail*
Oh, I like the new picture show. The cube was cute and this is neat as well.
With God's amazing love,
Kristi
- Friday, November 17, 2006 10:39 AM CST
Dear Carol, I pray that your week has somehow been okay. I know that there has been so much sorrow with so many families. Unexpected losses and yet we who are still here must continue to live and life continues on. Knowing the the love of family, friends and the love of our Lord and Savior is about all that keeps us going. I pray for you and your families peace and comfort. I love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, November 17, 2006 10:02 AM CST
Thinking of you this morning and hoping that today's sunshine will be a blessing in your life. I hope that the Miller clan is able to have some wonderful family moments this weekend.
Love you much,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky - Friday, November 17, 2006 9:48 AM CST
Hey guys, checking in to say hi and that I am thinking of you.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 16, 2006 5:58 PM CST
Dear Carol, Just checking in today. I continue to pray for your peace of mind and for your comfort. Sending all of my love to you, Dale and your precious girls.
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, November 16, 2006 9:10 AM CST
Carol, sorry I haven't written in a few days but just because I haven't written doesn't mean that I have stopped thinking about you several times a day! I still check your web site daily and am still amazed at your ability to put feelings into words! I continue to pray for you and your family as I can only imagine the pain you continue to battle each and every day. My heart goes out to the Cummings family as well who I do not know but I have followed Abby's story for a long time. Hang in there, friend. I love ya, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, November 16, 2006 9:06 AM CST
Just wanted you to know you are still in our thoughts and prayers. With love
Charles, Valerie, Crystal, Matthew and Rebekah Greene <vjgreene@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 11:23 PM CST
Hello Carol,Dale And The Miller Girls!!!
I just want to drop by to say hello to all of you The Miller Family.And i am still thinking all of you everyday and night.And Carol i just love all the new pictures of your kids together in your website.And i am still praying for you Carol,Dale and all the Miller Girls and the rest of the Miller Family.And i was wondering if the girls got their Halloween cards and Reagan's Birthday card to from me.Because i really don't want to forget Reagan Birthday few weeks ago.And i was wondering if the girls enjoy their cheese popcorn from me.And let me know if you want me to send some more for Christmas.And i also want to wish all of you The Miller Families a very Happy Thanksgiving.And i just hope you and the Miller Family have a wonderful Thanksgiving next week.And so i just want to check in on the Miller Family lately.And i am also very sorry about your friend passing away today.And thoughts and my prayers are with you and all of the Miller Family and your very special friend and her family.Take Care and God Bless you Carol,Dale,Riley,Reagan and Reese and the rest of the Miller Family,Speakmen Family.And i love you guys sooo very much forever and always forever.
Peggy Shannon <OakRidgeGal@aol.com>
Chicago,, IL. U.S.A. - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 11:10 PM CST
Thank you Carol, (you know what for)I appreciate your help in that little matter more than you know!!!!!
Kyla Byard
Kyla Byard/ky/logan <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 15, 2006 9:54 PM CST
I used to wonder what Heaven is like. We are told how beautiful it is, how there is no pain or sadness there, how we will live with Jesus forever. But that doesn't really tell me how it will feel to be there. Now I know that I will be re-united with my little girl, and I can imagine that very well.
In the meantime, our children have that perfect happiness that is beyond our understanding.
www.caringbridge.org/al/mamieadams
Mamie's Daddy <george.f.adams@us.army.mil>
Huntsville, AL USA - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 9:43 PM CST
Hi Carol--thinking of you this rainy morning and sending hugs and prayers your way. I continue to ache for you and with you on this journey--I'm thankful for the lessons your family has taught so many--because of Reid and Randon, I look at each day as such a blessing and have learned once again to enjoy each and every moment of life to its fullest--good or bad, because each moment truly molds us as individuals. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend! Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 8:39 AM CST
Dear Carol - I continue to think about your sweet boys and the way they touch so many of us in a very powerful way! I pray for you, your husband and your girls as you redirect your plans as a family. As frustration and doubt understandably surround you, I pray that God will provide comfort and direction to you. Much love.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Wednesday, November 15, 2006 0:04 AM CST
Carol,
I learned of your site a couple of months ago through Isaiah's. Your feelings of grief mirror my own right now. I went into sudden, premature labor at 21.5 weeks, and gave birth to a sweet little baby girl on 09/28/06. She lived for only an hour. Some days I feel like I am drowning in sorrow. Reading your words as you deal with your pain, and hearing your feelings as you cope with trying to get back to a "normal" life is such an inspiration to me. You and your sweet family are often in my thoughts and prayers.
Tekla <Tekla.Beeskow@webtrails.com>
Gallatin, TN - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 9:27 PM CST
Carol,
Okay, between your entry and Reagan's sweet guestbook entry, you've got me boohooing (if that's even a word). Love you lots and I'm praying daily for your whole family.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 6:16 PM CST
I love you more than any mommy, mommy! you are great!
love'
Rea Rea
Reagan Miller <artgirlrea@insightbb.com>
Bowling Greeen, KY America - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 4:41 PM CST
Carol, As I got the news of sweet Abby this morning, I immediately thought of you! I know there isn't a moment for you that goes by that you don't think of your babies but I am sure this brought a flood of memories rushing back. Abby was an absolute inspiration to us all. You knew the minute she was present in church because her smile was so contagious. I immediately smiled thinking of Randon & Reid meeting her to take her meet our God! I think they will be great together and knowing how she cared about others she will take on a roll of big sister to your boys! Please know I continue to think and pray for you! Love, Donna
Donna Basham <Donna.Basham@ky.gov>
Bowling Green, KY United States - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 4:20 PM CST
Carol--you amaze me--the ability you have to try to find some good in all of this pain. It would be awesome for the girls to know that information, yet they are a ways off on becomming mommies. DO concentrate on yourself--your head--you so deserve explanations and answers--fight for them!!!
I wish and wish I could meet you, or say something or give something that would help ease just a tinsy weensy bit of your agony. I don't even have words, because I have lost my dad and that is something we are taught will happen. The pain never goes away, I became numb as time went on, and your boys now have a huge playmate in Abby--- I hope that just for today, you find some sort of peace.
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 1:53 PM CST
Carol,
I am sorry your morning started off with the sad news of Abby's death. I am sure your boys have taken them under their wings and they are taking care of her.
Life is hard but God is there for us and he sends us people into our lives to remind us that there is goodness in life and people who love you and will be there for you no matter how much you hurt and no matter how much you need alone time, we know and are here.
You become blessed... You were blessed with Reid and Randon for only a short time but you were blessed to be there mommy, to love them, to hold them, to dedicate your life to them. They didn't live as long as they should have, as long as we wanted them, I should say, but you were so blessed, you miss your babies but look at their faces and the blessings they brought to everyone especially your family. Yes, with those blessings came pain that was unbearable but you were and always will be blessed to be their mother.
You are right, when you experience a loss, you understand better and you ache more.
I pray when the autopsy results come back that it brings answers and not more pain and that God helps them identify the gene that lead to their bone marrow failure for the girl's sake and yours and Dale's when they go to have babies of their own.
Hang in there Carol... You are an inspiration to many because you are open and you are honest. I will, for the rest of my life, remember two boys who touched my life so much as well as you and Dale and the girls.
Now, I have to go get ready to go to the hospital. Take care of yourself.
Kristi
- Tuesday, November 14, 2006 10:50 AM CST
Carol,
I read about Abby at 6:00 this morning and how I also ache for them. Not in the same way as you for you know the heartache, I can only imagine and pray to never know.
I like the way you put it about being bitter or blessed and your feeling is to be blessed. I am just a friend but feel blessed to have just known Randon, how I wish I could also have known Reid. I am so glad I got to see you at church. Isaiah enjoyed you holding him, he was so tired. We didn't get a smile from him until we got all the way home! We are getting ready to head for check-ups at Vandy (our weekly trip!). Talk with you soon.
P.S. Maybe this won't be blue :)
Nicki Buchanon (Isaiah's page) <nicki@logantele.com>
- Tuesday, November 14, 2006 9:53 AM CST
Hi Carol,
I got that sad, sad news when I got to work this morning about Abby's passing. I know how deeply you can relate to the Cummings' pain, and I can't imagine their grief anymore than I can imagine your grief, but I do grieve with both of your families, because I'm a mama, and I don't think there could be anything worse than losing your baby, regardless of your baby's age. Since I'm also a mother of twin girls, and I know just how close twins can be, I'll be praying extra hard for Abby's twin sister too. She must feel so strange and lonely to be here without her sister now...it's all so sad beyond words. I hate the suffering on this earth, especially the suffering of innocent, precious children.
I continue praying for you daily, and while I don't need to pray for Abby anymore since she's well and with your boys and the Lord, I will pray for those who loved Abby and are left behind to continue living in "the normal world" when I can only imagine that you feel anything but normal. My heart just breaks and extends out to all of you who grieve for your children who've passed on. You all will remain in my heart and prayers.
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 8:59 AM CST
Dear Carol, So many families have been touched by you, by the Cummings, by the Buchanons, by the Byards. To know that Abby lost the battle on earth is so sad. No more night, no more pain, no more tears, never crying again. That song was sung Saturday for my Mother In Law and it is so true. Love and prayers to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling green, ky - Tuesday, November 14, 2006 8:17 AM CST
Carol-
I come to your site from Asher and Jacob's site. I've been reading updates and praying for you all since Randon's birth. I just wanted to let you know that you're realness is amazing. It inspires me on a regular basis to be honest and real with myself and others. Life is not always easy, and there are very real aches and pains... the big stuff as opposed to the small stuff. You have brought me to be more compassionate and empathetic to/for those in my life who are going through really hard times.
I just wanted to let you know how much you have affected my life... someone you don't even know through your writing.
Laura K.
Shoreline, WA - Monday, November 13, 2006 7:22 PM CST
You are that friend Carol, without a flying doubt. That goes back a few entries but you are.
Reagan and Riley, just think, next week, you can a break from school.
Love to you all.
Kristi
- Monday, November 13, 2006 5:02 PM CST
Dear Carol, I pray your weekend was good. I am exhausted this morning. It was a long weekend for us. Just wanted you to know that you are in my prayers and thoughts today as always. Love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, November 13, 2006 8:24 AM CST
To my dearest Carol,
Just stopping by tonight to let you know how often I think of you, Reid, Randon, and your whole beautiful family.
My heart aches with you, there are just so many things we don't understand.
I'll continue to pray that you feel God's arms and hands uphold you and give you the strength to face each new day.
I'm here, I care, and I'll continue to pray...
Keep holding on Carol,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Praying Hard..............................., - Sunday, November 12, 2006 9:18 PM CST
Love and hugs to you all!!! Thinking of you all and hoping this weekend gave you some much needed family and healing time. Girls, it's only
Kristi
- Sunday, November 12, 2006 4:30 PM CST
Dear Carol and Family,
I just wanted to let you know that you guys and of course, your two beautiful angels, continue to be in my thoughts and my prayers all of the time.
Reagan...I love the new look! You are gorgeous, sweetie!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Sunday, November 12, 2006 9:58 AM CST
My Halloween picture with Jewel, yes, I was having some trouble getting settled for that picture but the funny part was me trying to get back up and in my wheelchair.
Kristi
- Saturday, November 11, 2006 11:29 PM CST
Thank you for continuing to update us on your family. I think of you so often and hug my children a little tighter, as I know how lucky I am to have them with me each day.
Your faith is inspirational.
Megan Wohlwend <mewohlwend@aol.com>
IL - Saturday, November 11, 2006 8:41 PM CST
Just stopping by to say hi... I have a paper to finish and had to get online so of course, I had to stop by to say hi and I am thinking of you all. I *think* I am over the cold so here comes the surgery... I may be AWOL for a bit afterwards but know you will be in my thoughts.
Kristi
- Saturday, November 11, 2006 7:54 PM CST
I found your site through another Caring Bridge site. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is amazing how much heartbreak I feel for a family I have never met....your story..your life is amazing. I thought about what word to choose, but amazing is how I feel. You have brave (and beautiful) girls and your boys will live on through everyone who knew them and who know about their lives. Thank you for this website. I am inspired by the courage of your family.
Jill Nuebel (a fellow speechie, I deduct) <jillnuebel@hotmail.com>
Wyoming, MN USA - Saturday, November 11, 2006 7:34 PM CST
I would never expect a speech-pathologist to be "speechless". Thanks for sharing your thoughts and pain with us. Just wish I could lift it off your shoulders--if just for one day. Love you much!!!
Bernadette Mullen <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Saturday, November 11, 2006 4:09 PM CST
My thoughts and prayers are still with you. I'm sure you all enjoyed Disney. Truly a wonderful place! I can certainly understand you stating you were hoping people would not mention your loss--yet at the same time, afraid they would not. I lost my older brother 2 weeks ago to sudden heart attack and I find myself having the exact same emotion--hoping nobody mentions him--yet almost offended if nobody does. Thank you for sharing your trials, joys and family with us. I feel I'm growing and changing myself through reading. God be with you and yours.
Shawne Kelly <shawne_kelly@yahoo.com>
Lewisville, Texas USA - Saturday, November 11, 2006 12:48 AM CST
Carol,
I found my way to your caringbridge site through a online friend. It is hard to imagine what pain you must be feeling right now. Your baby boys were beautiful and I know you mourn for them. May I present a different image of losing Randon to replace the one that is causing so much pain? In the midst of the activity of the doctors and nurses working to save him, quite suddenly the pain is gone and a wonderful pure white light fills the room. Randon feels his precious little body rising and he experiences joy and happiness too indescribably pleasurable to be articulated in words. He looks down on the activity below him as images of his loving family appear to him. Even though he knows they will miss him dearly, he feels no remorse because the feelings of peace and happiness are drawing him upward and he rejoices as he enters God's loving kingdom. That is the experience of a family member who was brought back from death after a massive heart attack. He lived almost ten additional years and always said he no longer feared dying. It has profoundly changed my feelings about death and I hope it brings you some measure of comfort.
Take care,
Terri <tcolcl1027@aol.com>
Prairieville, LA - Saturday, November 11, 2006 10:18 AM CST
Carol,
Thinking of you tonight. Didn't know if it was to late to call so I thought I would just sign in. Just wanted you to know you were in my thoughts.
Nicki Buchanon (Isaiah's page) <nicki@logantele.com>
- Friday, November 10, 2006 9:53 PM CST
Thinking of you tonight...
Tina & Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Friday, November 10, 2006 7:39 PM CST
Carol,
Your words are perfect and so it seems is your faith. Who amomg us would not fall or run the risk of becoming bitter and hard in light of such tremendous loss. Having three beautiful and healthy daughters in no way deminishes the pain. You are allowed to feel as you do and you are all the more human to aknowledge and share these feelings. What lessons you provide for us all. Seems like your precious boys learned so much from their mommy in their short little lives.
Mindi <melinda_chouinard@hotmail.com>
Tacoma, WA - Friday, November 10, 2006 7:15 PM CST
Carol-
I am so sorry for your pain. I think about you every day. Look forward to seeing you soon. Please call if you need anything OR nothing at all!
Love and prayers, Donna
Donna Wills <wills330@insightbb.com>
Bowling green, ky usa - Friday, November 10, 2006 7:05 PM CST
I can't even imagine the loss you feel, praying Jesus covers you in love...Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Friday, November 10, 2006 11:46 AM CST
Remembering Randon.
David melton angel wings <DMelton321@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 10, 2006 9:54 AM CST
I was checking in on you this morning. Your words are very powerful. I continue to think if you and pray daily...still feeling bitter and asking why myself. I look forward to moving closer so we can spend some time together.
I love Reagan's glasses!
Tara Huss <hussfamily@mac.com>
Sanford, NC - Friday, November 10, 2006 9:19 AM CST
Hi Millers,
Just checking in this morning, as I do every morning, thinking of you all as you go about your day and praying for peace and comfort.
ps. love love all the new pictures... WOW - Carol - the cube!!!!
Love,
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, November 10, 2006 8:43 AM CST
Dear Carol - I'm praying for you and your family. May you find peace and comfort and a bit of happiness this weekend. Much love.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Friday, November 10, 2006 0:22 AM CST
Hey guys,
Still checking in on the boys' website every day. I know you don't have time for daily entries, but I still look for one. March knows when he hears that piano music of "Held" that I'm reading an update, and he always comes running, too. Still thinking of and praying for you all the time, and we are all looking forward to spending more time together with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up. Love Reagan's new glasses--much better than the giant, lavender plastic frames with the purple heart etched in the front corner of the lens that I had as my first pair! (That was 5th grade, around 1982...what do you expect? haha) Love y'all--J, P, M, K, T, & ???
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Thursday, November 9, 2006 11:37 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I am so sorry for what you are having to endure. I don't understand why your sweet boys were taken from you so early. I truly wish there was something I could do to help comfort you. But I know that all I can do is pray. If there is anything else I can do, please let me know.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Thursday, November 9, 2006 9:53 PM CST
Carol, I have been checking your site daily to see how you are doing. Was so glad to read your entry but at the same time so touched by all you have endured. You are such an amazing woman, wife and mom!!! I can not even begin to imagine what your delivery has left impressioned in your brain. We as moms go through childbirth with the anticipation of hearing that first cry just like you described.Both of your sons have left an everlasting impression on this world. So many people live their lives and never to have made the impression that your two sons did with their short time on this earth. We all serve a purpose here and your sons did just that!! If anything, your journals have brought so may of us closer to our own children and to God. No one knows how long we have here and I guess that is a good thing and I can only say I am soo sorry that your sons were taken so early but they have time and time agaim made such an impact in so many peoples lives and that I am sure you are very proud of. Your daughters all are so beautiful. I can not imagine the void you must feel and if there was any way to take your pain away, I am sure that many of us around the world would find it for you and fed ex it immediately to you!!!! I may not know you but through your journals you are a very brave woman. I have never gone through the pain you are feeling and I hope that through time and your faith that you will find peace, strength and hope to continue to move on. You and your family are in my prayers daily. May God bless you, Maria
Maria Newcomb <ganashman@aol.com>
Battleboro, NC - Thursday, November 9, 2006 8:18 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I did not know there were new pictures in the photo album as well. Randon is so sweet. I love how his hands are folded. In your last entry you talked about what kind of friend you want to be. I know that I don't know you personally, but I consider you my friend. Your words are a scource of inspiration to me. Thank you for sharing your family.
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Thursday, November 9, 2006 8:18 PM CST
Carol,
I saw Reba last week, and she told me about the death of your son and gave me the website. I've read your journal and my heart goes out to you and your family. You are a strong and courageous person, and your words reflect your strong love for and faith in our Heavenly Father. May He continue to bless you and your family with the healing and peace that only He can give. Your daughters are beautiful. My prayers are with you and your family.
Ruth Ann Howard <howard@netease.net>
Clifton, Tn. USA - Thursday, November 9, 2006 7:39 PM CST
Carol~ I wanted to share a little something with you that reminded me a little bit about the loss of your precious boys. My dear Grandfather passed away Aug. 26th whom the entire family loved and admired tremendously. He was married to my Grandmother for 70 years and they had a wonderful marriage. They were so much in love and truly enjoyed being married. Their years together were fun filled and quality years. Well my Grandmother has cried every day since he passed away on Aug. 26th. I tried to tell her that she was "lucky". That she had such a great,long romance for 70 years. And she said to me, "just because I have something wonderful it doesn't take the pain away or make the loss any less". And for you, just because you have 3 beautiful, smart, fantastic girls, it does not take away the pain that you have lossed 2 precious little boys that you will always miss. Carol, I truly hope that you know that your words are so inspirational and insightful. You are a great person who has taught us all so much about life and living. Hoping that your week will be filled with fun and some smiles.
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Thursday, November 9, 2006 5:43 PM CST
You are on my mind so much. I couldn't help but notice Riley wiping away tears Sunday morning while Paul Washer was preaching. That was such a reminder to me of what all your girls have been through the last several years. They have had to deal with so much. They have experienced such loss and grief. I'm sure they have also experienced great love. I know that they saw the love and devotion you and Dale showed for Reid and Randon. They saw how much you loved your boys and you would have done anything to save them. And I'm sure that this has shown them that you love them just as much and that there is not anything you wouldn't do to save them as well. What a great example of love you have been for your sons and daughters, as well as to me. I continue to pray for you and your family.
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, November 9, 2006 4:31 PM CST
Hey, Carol, I've been checking everyday for your update. I know it's hard being in the place where you are. I'm so sorry, I wish there was something I do, I wish I could ease the pain for you. Anyway, I wanted you to know that I'm still thinking about you. The link to this website is on my toolbar. Also, Reagan looks sooooo cute in her glasses and Molly just got glasses, too! Her Rx wasn't real strong, just like, -1.25 or something. ttyl,
Julie
Julie Swack <sewjuliesew@aol.com>
Bowling Green, KY United States - Thursday, November 9, 2006 2:56 PM CST
Carol,
My prayes are with you and your family.
Regan,
Courtney loves your glasses and hopes to get together soon to play.
Love,
Carla
Carla Starling <thestarlings@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky Warren - Thursday, November 9, 2006 12:10 AM CST
Dear Carol,
As always, checking on you my friend. Again, a day does not go by that I don't reflect on you and your boys, and the impact you've all had on me. I'm not worthy of even being called your friend, but I do love you. You have such a heart! I too need more of a heart for others. While you revisit your darkest places journeyed, you teach us so deeply about sacrifice, loss, what God can work from it, and so importantly to cherish each and every moment. I hope I'm doing that, but I know I can do it more fully! I hope you know what you and your family mean to me and so many others. It seems that while we try to encourage you, you only end up encouraging us. What a true friend you are...how could ANYONE not want to speak to you??
Much love and prayers,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Thursday, November 9, 2006 11:05 AM CST
Praying for you!
Love and Prayers,
Kym Little <kymlittle@comcast.net>
Mobile, AL - Thursday, November 9, 2006 10:03 AM CST
Carol, it was good to see an update. Thank you for sharing a little of Randon's birth, I hate that you went through that, that there was more nightmares to his birth than joy. You are enduring another heartbreaking loss and sometimes I find myself trying to figure out why... Why they died? I am sorry for the pain that came when people say at least you have your amazing girls. I know you have them but you had Reid and Randon as well and they are a part of your lives and always will be. You will ALWAYS be a family of seven, three AMAZING daughters and two SPECIAL boys who spent too short of time on earth but touched hundreds.
You are so correct on being aware that others are going through things in their lives. Reading this made me realize that I should realize people are going through so much. When someone gets snappy or just has that smile like everything is alright when they are hurting inside.
Randon's life has changed me, I wasn't blessed enough to have known you all when you had Reid but Randon has changed me. Two months old and he did more than I will ever do in my life. He is a special baby, his life has changed me. I am closer to my family now and to God. I have found an amazing friend in you and your family. I know it's through the internet but it still has a profound impact in my life.
To Reagan, kiddo, those glasses are nice. You look so grown up and adorable...
Always praying for you and sending so much love to you all.... And remembering Randon and Reid...
I am sorry my entry is so long, my mind isn't focused and I am not sure how to word it so it is shorter.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 9, 2006 9:44 AM CST
Carol, As I just read your entry, I was really thinking about what you were saying and you are so accurate. As a mother I mourn so deeply for you. I check in every day to see if you have wrote perhaps just to get a glimpse of how you are doing, hoping somehow you have found some comfort. It is hard to see that you could but I am praying that it is possible. I too have been at a loss for words, searching for the perfect thing to say to bring you comfort, realizing there is no perfect word to say. I learned from a loss I had several years ago people say the craziest things in time of loss I guess because they don't know what to say. I agree, it was easier for me for people to say something than nothing. I keep coming back and want you to know Reid and Randon are not forgotten. Your boys mean so much to so many people, I am one that has looked at every aspect of my life because I do not want to take anything forgranted. I want to cherrish my faith, my spouse and especially the blessing of my 2 girls! Who would have thought a Mary Kay party would have had SUCH an impact on my life but meeting you and sharing in this event has forever changed me. We continue to pray and think of you & your family!
Donna Basham <Donna.Basham@Ky.gov>
Bowling Green, KY usa - Thursday, November 9, 2006 9:22 AM CST
Praying for you all. Love, Shelley in Indiana
Shelley Klein
Floyds Knobs, IN USA - Thursday, November 9, 2006 9:14 AM CST
Dear Carol, I came to check in and I have not been able to let your update sink in, I will have to re-read, but I am going to be gone for the next few days without access to a computer and I wanted to let you know that my prayers continue and that I love you so very very much
Pat <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, November 9, 2006 8:30 AM CST
Carol, your pain is so real and so understandable and so what any mother in your shoes would be going through! Don't deny yourself that pain and continue to express it. It does me good to read how you are feeling and think what she is saying makes so much sense to me and I know I would feel the same way. It makes me feel that maybe other things I get upset over aren't so important and that the thought processes and emotions I go through that maybe I'm not so abnormal afterall. I wish I could express my thoughts and feelings as well as you do! Just continue to pray as well as I know many others including myself are praying for you that God will guide you through this time and reveal His glory in your life and provide you with peace and comfort. Love you always, Kim Harmon-
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, November 9, 2006 8:01 AM CST
Love the glasses!!!!!! Beautiful!!!
Carol, Again as I sit here in Green Bay Wisconsin I wish I could give you hugs! Please know you are a constant thought in my prayers!
Jacqcueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI - Thursday, November 9, 2006 7:56 AM CST
Good Morning Carol,
Just want to say hi and thank you for the update, it was so good to hear from you. I know I have never experienced what you have been through, but as a mother I can only imagine the pain you feel. Your boys were beautiful babies, I look at their pictures and think how precious they were. My heart aches for you when I think how much you miss both Reid and Randon, the disappointment and loss that you feel must be so deep. Know that I think of you everyday, and pray that God gives you the strength to keep moving forward.
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Thursday, November 9, 2006 7:15 AM CST
Carol,
As I sit here with tears in my eyes, I'm searching for something to say. I guess I just want you to know that I'm praying for you.
Continuing to believe that our Lord will carry you step by step,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, November 9, 2006 6:56 AM CST
Carol,
How did I get to be so blessed to have a friend like you??? I love you lots and cried (again) when I read your update. ( I am becoming a basket case these days...) You are such a great friend and I want you to know how much I appreciate you in my life!!! Thanks for everything. I am truly blessed because of you. Michelle
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY United States - Thursday, November 9, 2006 6:44 AM CST
Oh Carol.....I sit here and can feel your pain. My heart aches for you. I am one of many that have truly been changed because of your sweet sweet Reid and Randon. Please know that I am here in MN wishing that I could help in anyway.
Forever Touched......
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Thursday, November 9, 2006 1:28 AM CST
HI Carol,
Just checking in to pray and to listen to "Held". I pray you felt held today. Looking forward to seeing you at MDO on Thursday.
LOVE
Catherine Warren <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 10:09 PM CST
HI Carol,
Just checking in to pray and to listen to "Held". I pray you feel held today. Looking forward to seeing you at MDO on Thursday.
LOVE
Catherine Warren <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 9:56 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you. The Halloween pictures are adorable!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz
Christa Frantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 7:09 PM CST
To the Miller clan, hope all is well! Just wanted to remind you how important and loved you all are!!! Enjoy this fall weather and your precious girls! love, laura
Laura Shreve <shreve2002@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 3:22 PM CST
Hi Carol--thinking of you and praying for you today and every day!! The new pictures are wonderful--especially the one of you holding Randon--so sweet. Hope your week is going well--thanks again for letting Abbye hang out last week while I was gone--I had a great visit with my family and feel refreshed:) Take care--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 9:08 AM CST
Good Morning Carol, Just letting you know that you are on my heart and my prayers continue for you. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, November 8, 2006 8:02 AM CST
Thank you for sharing a new picture of Randon. He truly was a beautiful baby boy. Been thinking of you all, six days of school left and I am home free until January 2nd. Praying peace is in all of your hearts.
REAGAN- I see my doctor tomorrow, it may be time for this thing to come off my foot. Pray that he says its time but if not, then I will continue another two weeks with it until I see him again.
Kristi
- Tuesday, November 7, 2006 9:36 PM CST
Hi Carol,
Just a quick note to say hi and tell you I think of you often. You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Hope to see you soon!
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 9:25 PM CST
Hello Carol, I hope your day is okay today. Love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 11:44 AM CST
Love the Halloween pictures! You are in my thoughts daily and I continue to pray to God that he will give you strength, courage and anything else you need while you continue to grieve the loss of 2 sweet boys. I'm so glad you continue to write and share your feelings...I've learned so much about love, faith and really trusting in the Lord to get us through rough times.
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 8:19 AM CST
Praying for you today.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 7:10 AM CST
~Checking in from Disneyland (LA)---wishing you some happiness tonight.
debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
newwberg, or - Tuesday, November 7, 2006 0:14 AM CST
Randon and Reid were remembered
at church yesterday for All Saints Day.
mrs pam
St Louis, MO - Monday, November 6, 2006 2:39 PM CST
Hey Carol! Nicki told me that you got some sun the other day! I was cracking up! I hope that things are going alright. Just thinking of you and your family and wanted to let you know! When I come visit Isaiah we will all have to go to lunch!
Jennifer Thompson <jennifer.thompson@vanderbilt.edu>
- Monday, November 6, 2006 1:59 PM CST
Carol, Hope you had a good weekend. I continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, November 6, 2006 11:07 AM CST
Just wanted to let you know that I was still thinking about and praying for you and your family!
Donna Basham
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, November 6, 2006 8:31 AM CST
Prayers for you & your beautiful family as you struggle with every mother's worst nightmare. Thank you for your honesty & for sharing with your caringbridge family. You are an inspiration to me. I will be praying for you to be srrounded by the love & kindness of those who are there with you & for you to feel all the prayers of all of us who know you through caringbridge. May you feel the peace of God. Blessings, Susan
Susan <Susanmvt@aol.com>
PTC, - Monday, November 6, 2006 7:56 AM CST
Carol, the picture cube is adorable. I enjoyed seeing the pictures and yes, the girls do have a LOT of trade pins. Even Reese:)
Kristi
- Sunday, November 5, 2006 6:06 PM CST
It was with tears streaming down my face that I read your story,you are a truly brave and wonderful person to endure what you have been through.
My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers.
I also lost my daughter last year at age 5 and 1 day and understand your pain. She has a web page too so feel free to visit. Take care. Michelle..
www.caringbridge.org/ky/ebony
Michelle kelly <nedshell@dodo.com.au>
Perth, w Australia - Sunday, November 5, 2006 8:23 AM CST
Praying for you every day.
Love you all
Uncle Ed
Ed Clancy <edclancy@comcast.net>
Hermitage, TN - Saturday, November 4, 2006 9:25 PM CST
Carol,
Oh my the girls are to cute. Love the Disney characters, the looks on their faces let me know how much fun they were having. Please tell Riley that she can stop growing and looking so cute any time now!!!!...not to mention she looks like she is in college:) Love all of you and hope that todays sunshine is brightening your day a little.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Saturday, November 4, 2006 3:16 PM CST
Carol,
I'm so sorry that you're hurting so bad right now. I wish I could take away the pain for you. No mother deserves to lose one child, let alone two. I think what you're feeling is only natural. I'm not sure I could keep my sanity after going through what you have had to. I know words don't make the pain hurt any less, but I still want you to know that I care. I have been following this site for a few months and was totally heartbroken when I read of Randon's passing. I just sat and stared at the picture of your husband nuzzling his cheek and cried and cried. The song just made it worse. The song is beautiful but it really got the tears flowing. I cannot imagine the pain in your heart right now. I live in fear of losing my Jayden every day so I have had to adjust to staying home and being very isolated to try to keep him as well as possible. There are days that I feel so sorry for myself and just cry and ask God, why me? Then I wake up and say why not me? Though I would have loved it for Jayden to be born healthy, I have accepted the fact that he is not and I am grateful for even the smallest things he does. I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world. He has taught me the true meaning of unconditional love and I have definitely become a better person because of all he has had to endure. I can tell from the pictures and your past journal entries what a loving and dedicated mother you are. I think it's great that you vent and state all of your raw emotions in the journal. It is a very healthy thing to do. I know, because I do it too. You are an amazing woman and I'm sure that Reid and Randon both knew what a wonderful mother they had. You gave them the greatest gift of all, your undying love and that is the best medicine there is. If you ever want to talk, or vent, or anything at all you can email me. I would be more than happy to lend an ear.
Love,
Vicki Fields (Jayden's Mommy)
www.caringbridge.org/visit/jayden
Vicki Fields <jarjaysmom@aol.com>
Louisville, KY US - Saturday, November 4, 2006 3:08 AM CST
Carol, praying for you as you go through each day. I can't really begin to know how you fel having never walked in your shoes but I am a mom and can imagine that I would have similar feeling as you are having. I know you need to take time to heal and you will have to do that in your own time. Just know that there are people here who are praying for you and your precious family. Wish I were there to give you a big hug!
Vicki Bougan <vicki.bougan@comcast.net>
Castle Rock, CO USA - Friday, November 3, 2006 9:56 PM CST
"An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. Then whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth".
Fly High Sweet Reid and Randon
- Friday, November 3, 2006 8:49 PM CST
I love the Halloween pictures! And don't worry about Riley! I have an 11 year old who would have LOVED that costume! Kids are funny! I also just wanted you to know that I am praying for your family everyday! I hope today was a good day for you. God bless!
Michelle Lunders
Blaine, MN USA - Friday, November 3, 2006 6:56 PM CST
Revelation 21:4 - "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
To my dearest Carol,
Oh, I'm just so sorry to see you have to go through this, again. I know there are no words that can take away the pain you are experiencing. I can only pray that the God of all Comfort would be there for you, and continually send people in your life to uphold you during these dark nights.
Thanks for being so real and so open. It is only natural to struggle, and to question. In the end I pray you are able to come closer to the Lord then ever before. He is there, always.
Praying you through,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Weeping with you................., - Friday, November 3, 2006 5:28 PM CST
Carol,
Be glad Riley's "mean girls" costume is just that . . .a costume! :)
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Friday, November 3, 2006 5:21 PM CST
Carol--- as I pack up for our trip to Disneyland and San Diego, I cannot stop thinking of you. We are getting out of the rain, and into some sunny weather which always lifts my spirits up. Please remember that this is November--the month of giving Thanks, and you may not feel very thankful at the moment but remember the positives. I know you are intelligent enough to do so, and I don't know what else to say. I am just as angry and confused and just plain numb as to why you had to let them go. I know I came to a place when my dad passes of thinking that had he been saved here on earth (had a sudden head injury 5 yrs. ago and died after a week in a coma) his life would had been full of agony and frustration...pain and helplessness. Perhaps the boys would had to have gone that route--so I became thankful in a way that dad did not have to endure any of that. Doesn't make it easier, doesn't hurt any less, just puts some perspective on a tinsy weensy corner of the mess.(ooh, a rhyme)
Take Care, thinking of you always
Debbie <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, or - Friday, November 3, 2006 10:21 AM CST
Dear Carol, praying for peace and comfort. The pictures are great. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, November 3, 2006 10:17 AM CST
You don't know me, but I have recently learned about your page from the links from Isaiah's page. Nicki and I are good friends and I have learned much from Isaiah's page about your family. I don't even know you but I sat at work yesterday and cried and cried and cried. I wish there was something I could say or do to make your pain go away, but all I can do is pray for you and your family's comfort and peace of mind. I am only a mother of one, what a great blessing to be a mother of five. I hope to have more. I can not tell you I know how you feel. I do know that after reading your Oct 30 journal entry I am amazed at your wisdom and strength after everything you have been through. I can only imagine that what you feel are things you have to feel. You have the most beautiful children...all five of them. I will continue to pray and lift you and your family up to God so that you may find peace and comfort in your life.
Penny <pennywarwick77@hotmail.com>
BowlingGreen, KY - Friday, November 3, 2006 7:56 AM CST
Carol and Dale,
I have met several of the women in your family over the past couple of years and I just want to know, where does Riley get those legs? Wow!!
Love ya,
Angie
Angie Meredith <pjm-adm@insightbb.com>
Alvaton, KY - Thursday, November 2, 2006 11:24 PM CST
TOO CUTE! I LOVE REESE EXPRESSION! She gives the cutest ones. Reagan, you made an awesome Snow White. That picture of you and Reese was so cute. And Miss Riley, I am sure you heard it from your mom but you are too young to dress like that;) Carol and Dale, you continue to be in my thoughts.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 2, 2006 9:18 PM CST
Carol,
You do not know me nor does Nicki (Isaiah's page). I have never posted there either. I read and follow Isaiah's progress and pray for him and his family daily, on his webste is were I found Reid and Randon's page.
I am a mother and my heart aches for you and your precious family. I can relate to your feelings in a way. You see I am an only child and I have cared for my parents the last two years (they stayed at their home with hired help). On May 8th this year I lost my mother and I had always thought that I could never let her go, but after watching her suffer I knew that she was going to a better place where she would be free of pain forever and it was selfish of me to want her to stay here when she really wasn;t moma anymore. It was hard but I tried to be strong. My father had early signs of Alzheimers and his short term memory was gone and it was so hard to see him because I could tell by the look in his eyes that he missed moma more than he could ever tell me (he was too proud for that). He had the usual health issues for a man of 83, high blood pressure, arthrits etc. The lady that stayed with him and took care of him could see that he was just not himself. The first of Sept. he was admitted to the hospital in B.G. and stayed two weeks. He had some issues with his white blood count due to medication he was taking for gout, we got that figured out and then he went into atrial fribralation. He came home on Friday the 15th of Sept. and went back in on Tuesday the 19th with congestive heart failure, renal failure and pneumonia. He was put in ICU in the same room my mother passed away in. On Thursday morning the 21st he too passed away. De Je Vu
I was fornuate enough to be by both their sides when they left this earth..they always feared I wouldn't be there with them. I have a wonderful husband and a 10 yr. old daughter we adopted from China when she was 6 months old. I have two grown sons and daughter-in-laws, a granddaughter and another granddaughter on the way....a wonderful family but I HAVE NEVER FELT SO ALONE IN MY LIFE!!! I could not believe this was happening to me again in just less than 5 months. I too, have been in shock, bitter, mad, depressed, confused, faithless and all the other things you are feeling. I know losing a child is different than parents but when I read your enteries I knew exacting those feeling that you were describing. I want you to know that I will be praying for you and for God to lift you up in an abudance of strength.
Natalie Berry <gracie60@yahoo.com>
Scottsville, KY USA - Thursday, November 2, 2006 4:13 PM CST
Carol, You are on my heart today. Love, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, November 2, 2006 11:42 AM CST
I went to bed last night with the eloquent words of your journal entries running through my mind. All of the feelings you describe I have felt, but not to the obvious extent of how you feel them. I have been on your site many times, but never knew the words to say to let you know we cared. I went back and forth last night trying to think of what to say I finally decided to go to bed and think about it. When I opened Logan's website this morning and saw that you had signed in I knew that was no coincidence. I have thought of your family often after the day we met in the children’s café and I just wanted you to know.
To answer your question about Dr Moore, it is the cardiologist, but I too think both of them are great! Thanks for thinking of us.
Kyla, Brandon and Logan Byard
Kyla Byard/ky/logan <kmbyard@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, November 2, 2006 7:32 AM CST
Hey Miller Family, yes, it's never sleep Kristi here, anyway, I found this, changed it around and thought it was something that would mean a lot.
A GRIEVING MOTHER'S WISH LIST
I wish you would not be afraid to speak Reid and Randon's names. They lived and were important and I need to hear their names, and I need to share memories of them.
If I cry and get emotional if we talk about Reid and Randon, I wish you knew that it isn't because you hurt me: the fact that they died causes my tears. You have
allowed me to cry and I thank you. Crying and emotional outbursts are healing.
I will have emotional highs and lows, ups and downs. I wish you wouldn't think that if I have a good cry my grief is all over.
Being bereaved is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't stay away from me.
I wish you knew all the "crazy" grief reactions that I am having are in fact very normal. Depression, anger, fear, hopelessness, short term memory loss, and questioning of values and beliefs are to be expected following a death.
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over in 6 months or even a year.
The first few years are going to be exceedingly traumatic for me. As with alcoholics, I will never be "cured" or a "formerly bereaved", but forevermore be recovering from my bereavement.
I wish you wouldn't expect my family's grief to be over in 6 months or even a year. The first year will be full of firsts without Randon and filled with memories of Reid as well, they were a loving part of our family. They too may cry and have emotional outbursts.
There is no right or wrong way to grieve or any specific length of time to
grieve the tragic loss of a beloved family member.
I wish you understood the physical reaction to grief. I may gain weight, lose weight, sleep all the time or not at all, develop a host of illnesses and be accident prone, all of which are related to my grief.
Reid and Randon's birthdays, the anniversary of their deaths and the holidays can be terrible times for my family and me. I wish you could tell us that you are thinking of us and Reid and Randon on these days. And if we get quiet and withdrawn, just know that we are thinking about Reid and Randon and don't try to coerce us into being cheerful.
I wish you would understand that I have to hurt before I can heal.
I wish you wouldn't tell me you understand how I feel, because unless you have lost a child, you couldn't possibly understand my pain.
I wish you understood that grief changes people. I am not the same person I was before my beloved Reid and Randon died and I will never be that person again. If
you keep waiting for me to "get back to my old self" you will stay frustrated. I am a new creature trying to redefine myself with new thoughts, dreams, aspirations, values and beliefs. Please try to get to know this
different me -- I'm the one who'll be here from now on.
I wish you knew how much the loving support I receive from my family and special friends means to me. I don't think I would have made it this far without them.
--Author to Original Poem Unknown --
I think it says a lot... Sending love... Tons of love... Reagan, my puppy stepped on my glasses:( Be careful with yours.
Kristi
- Thursday, November 2, 2006 0:42 AM CST
The song is Held by Natalie Grant. I got the CD in June and it's still in my car CD player on that same song and it's been eight weeks since I drove.
Carol and family, just wanted to stop by to let you know I am thinking of you and praying so much.
kristi
- Wednesday, November 1, 2006 10:08 PM CST
Good Evening Carol. Your entry's are so meaningful to me. I read them and think. Could you please tell us what the song is that plays on the home page. I love it. Have to admit it brings tears to my eyes as I listen and read. Please keep updating for us. You may think this is good for you but it is so much more for us.
Thank You.
Kathie
Walla Walla, Wa. - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 9:44 PM CST
Carol-
You have no idea how much seeing you makes an impact on my life. Thank you for sharing such raw emotions. I am a better mother and "friend" because of Randon Miller and his wonderful family!
Love and Prayers
Donna
Donna Wills <wills330@insightbb.com>
Bowling green, ky usa - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 7:38 PM CST
Carol, Our mutual friend Robin directed me to your websight today. I don't know if you remember me, but we were in graduate school together. I want you to know how deeply touched I was by reading your journal. I can't imagine the bravery it took for you over this time, especially at this time, to share such raw, real emotion as I have read in your words. My prayers are with you and your entire family. God Bless you all.
Beckie McReynolds <ricreb04@msn.com>
Simpsonville, KY - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 6:32 PM CST
I can't begin to imagine all that you are going through. You have every right to your bad moments/days and I don't think that anyone could possibly expect that you are truly OK. I am glad that you have people in your life who let you know that it's OK...
Sending you {{{HUGS}}} from Wisconsin...
Kim Magnan <k_magnan@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, November 1, 2006 5:36 PM CST
Carol,
You are on my mind and in my prayers.
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 3:15 PM CST
We are still thinking of you and saying lots of prayers. I know no words will bring any comfort, but I am hoping our prayers will!
Love, Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 1:53 PM CST
You are in my prayers. I have been following your story for a little bit now, and I only wish there was something we could all do for you that would make this a little bit better.
Prayers for God's blessing, comfort, and peace,
Megan Dutill
- Wednesday, November 1, 2006 12:31 AM CST
Praying for your family. Vent girl, if you need to...that is sometimes the only way to make the day. Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 11:33 AM CST
Hi Carol,
Just want to say hi and let you know that I am thinking of you---you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Hope Halloween was fun! Talk to you soon!
Love, Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 11:21 AM CST
Thinking of you all. Reagan, today is eight weeks post op for me and I feel great and your first week of being nine is over and I hope it was an awesome one! Take care.
kristi
- Wednesday, November 1, 2006 10:48 AM CST
You are never far from my thoughts. I pray that your heart will heal a little bit each day. Just know that there are people out there praying for you.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, La - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 10:16 AM CST
Carol,
I wrote to you before and gave you this quote, "The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time." I'm praying for you as you face one day . . . one moment at a time. When you feel you can't make it another moment, please know that you have someone praying for you. It's amazing to see how many people love you and have been so touched by you and your two sweet boys. You have prayer warriors all over the world lifting you up. I'm holding onto hope with you that you'll make it through this journey day by day.
Much love and prayers,
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, November 1, 2006 8:37 AM CST
HUGS
It’s wonderful what a hug can do.
A hug can cheer you when you’re blue.
A hug can say “I love you so”
Or “Gee I hate to see you go”
A hug is “Welcome back again”
And “Great to see you”or
“Where have you been?”
A hug can soothe a small child’s pain
And bring a rainbow after the rain.
A hug – there’s just no doubt,
We scarcely could survive without it.
A hug delights and warms and charms
It must be why God gave us arms.
Hugs are great for fathers and mothers
Sweet for sisters, and swell for brothers
And chances are some favorite Aunts
Love them more than potted plants.
Kittens crave them; puppies love them;
Heads of state are not above them.
A hug can break the language barrier
And make your travels so much merrier.
No need to fret about the store of ‘em
The more you give, the more there are of ‘em.
So stretch those arms, without delay
And give someone a hug today!
Dale, Carol, Riley, Reagan and Reese, consider yourself all hugged tonight....
Kristi
- Wednesday, November 1, 2006 0:00 AM CST
Carol,
I tried to call today but didn't get you. Hope all of you have had a great Halloween. Tell Reese to look at Jisaiah's photo album there are his Halloween pictures! We are coming home tomorrow and I will call you on the way home. Everyone here in the PCCU has asked about you. They all send there love! Talk to you tomorrow.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Tuesday, October 31, 2006 9:31 PM CST
Dearest Carol,
Wishing so much that there was something I could do or say, but knowing there is not. You are in my thoughts continually and I pray each day for your strength. I always hope to run into you....it lets me know that you had the strength to get out of bed that day. I'm sure it is always a challenge to face another day. You continue to teach me so much. I'm finding myself more and more saying "So, What". Randon's sweet life and your family have helped me learn to cherish and value the really important things and not sweat the small stuff. I can't seem to find the right words to express how my heart aches for you, but I hope that while the words may not flow, you know what is in my heart. Love you so much and want to be here if there is ever anything I can do. I just can't tell you how much you have been on my heart this rainy Tuesday.
Much love and continued prayers,
Susan
P.S. I know that you are probably not ready yet, but when you are I really hope you will consider writing a book. I know that it would minister to thousands and be a best seller! I would love to be your editor and work on getting it published. I'm not sure you realize how well you write and how it goes straight to the heart of everyone that reads it. When your ready...
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 3:43 PM CST
Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you
Cristi Freese <cfreese@f-schamber.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 2:44 PM CST
I am so sorry that you have such a heavy burden to bear in this lifetime. I've followed your site since just after Randon was born. I wish you strenght and love and peace and hope that each tomorrow is easier than each today.
Christina <clr01@venable.com>
Baltimore, MD - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 12:45 AM CST
Carol,
Thanks for sharing your feelings so honestly. When I read them, I sit at my computer and cry because I wish there was a way to take your pain away. I can only imagine how difficult each day must be with constant reminders of your sweet boys. You're never far from my thoughts and I wanted today to wish you love and a small measure of peace. May God wrap his arms around you so tightly when you read this that you can almost feel them. Love you!
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Tuesday, October 31, 2006 10:37 AM CST
Dear, sweet Carol,
I would assume that all the emotions you are feeling are very normal, however, I know that I can never fully grasp your pain. I can tell you that I hurt with you though. It grieves me so much to see and feel your losses! I think it's very healthy to share and vent your emotions rather than to bottle them up. I remember just a portion of what you're feeling when my grandmother died who was very close to me. (I know this doesn't at all compare to losing a child, but the feelings were similiar to yours, but not the depth understandably). I remember feeling sort of empty right after she had passed away, and I remember telling someone that I didn't understand how the world could just keep on revolving and everyone could continue doing their normal, busy activities. Didn't everyone understand that MY GRANNY whom I loved so very much had just died!! She was so important and precious to me...why wasn't everyone affected by her death as I was?! Why didn't the world declare a day of mourning and subside with all normal activities so that I could just be? I know again, it's not at all the same, but if I could feel that way about my granny, I can only imagine how you must feel grieving your two boys! It is just heartbreaking for me, and to know that I can do nothing to ease your pain, just hurts even more. I just pray for the healing to come and for God's reminders that He loves you and cries with you as you go through this.
This past Sunday in Bible Study, we were studying Acts. We were talking about Stephen and when he was being stoned. The scripture said that Stephen saw Jesus STANDING at the right hand of the throne (usually scripture references Jesus SEATED at the right hand of the Father's throne), but in this instance, He was STANDING. While I don't know why Jesus was standing, I can only imagine that He might have been standing because He was encouraging Stephen to be strong in his persecution. But more than that, I feel like Jesus was standing because He was anxious for him (like you know how you can't sit still when you're troubled by something). I feel like Jesus himself was moved to the point of standing "alongside" Stephen and hurting for him. I really believe that He hurts with us, and that has always comforted me. He's not some distant almighty being who "zaps" us with misfortunes and leaves us to our own designs to cope. He allows us to go thru the valleys of the shadow of death, but He is with us and comforts us. I pray for His touch and His comfort for you, because I know I cannot give it like He can. I love you!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 10:31 AM CST
Carol,
Just wanted you to know how much I love you and your family.
All my love in Christ,
Angie
Angie Meredith <pjm-adm@insightbb.com>
Alvaton, KY - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 10:05 AM CST
Carol--thank you once again for sharing such true, honest feelings! I love the fact that you so vivdly put into words how any grieving parent would feel upon losing a child--you have every right to be angry, sad, mad or anything else--I think that's healthy and for you to share those feelings with all of us is truly heartwarming:) I still ache for you and with you in the fact that I didn't get to know your precious boys like I do your three girls--but oh how they've impacted my life--they've helped me to appreciate life in a different way and also remind me every day to never take anything for granted--thank you Reid and Randon for reminding us that life is full of wonderful,caring,compassionate peolpe like your Mom! Take care Carol and know that I'm here for anything--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 9:07 AM CST
Carol--- You ARE a friend like that!!!!!
debbie price <pf6@comcast.net>
newberg, or - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 8:54 AM CST
Dear Carol, I tried to sign several times yesterday and again this morning. As everyone else who reads your updates, I am amazed at your words, your ability to share your heart and let me know where you are for that moment and where you have been. I wish I had words to help you. I don't, I have my heart to offer, an ear to listen and a prayer to pray. This is your journey and thank you for allowing me to follow. Sending my love and prayers to you, always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 8:34 AM CST
Carol, my heart hurts for you as I know you hurt so much and we can't make it stop hurting. I can't imagine that people would see you out and ignore you. I wish I could see you more! Once again your journal entry was so good and I'm glad to see you share your emotions! It's healthy to get them out! I need to do that but instead I bury mine hoping they will go away! Tell Reagan happy birthday! I can't believe she's nine either! I can remember that little girl coming over "Can Cody play?" Oh, how fast they grow! My prayers continue for you and your family! Love always, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 8:17 AM CST
My heart breaks for you, that some ignore you & pretend you don't exist. I applaud you for stating you are mad. Many people hide that emotion when grieving. I pray for you, pray you start to receive more bread & not so many stones. I agree, when someone asks how many children you have, state with pride "5". If they inquire further give them more information. I pray for your family every night. Your grief may always be with you, but with your beautiful daughters you will also have joy.
Lisa
Saginaw, MI USA - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 7:26 AM CST
Hi Carol,
I think about you so much and only sign the guestbook about 2% of the time that I check for an update. I hardly ever read what others write but today I saw where Kristi had written. I don't know Kristi. Don't know if she is a relative, friend, or if you have even met her. All I know is she wrote what everyone else is thinking. I just kept staring at her words and thinking "YES, YES". Read everything she wrote over and over because it is all true. Even the part about wearing your retainer after braces, Riley! Thinking of you, Paula
Paula DeVore <PaulaRVP@aol.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 1:46 AM CST
KEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AND IN MY PRAYER'S ALWAYS.
MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU.I'M SORRY YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS PAIN AGAIN.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON ,ALBERTA
, - Tuesday, October 31, 2006 0:33 AM CST
HAPPY HALLOWEEN GIRLS! I hope you all have a good day and give your mommy extra hugs from me and your dad as well...
Kristi
- Tuesday, October 31, 2006 0:05 AM CST
I'm back....FINALLY! My house is finally quiet. My Minnesota Viking's didn't give this household much to cheer about tonight!
Thank you so much for the journal entry Carol. I pray that God will continue to guide you and surround you with what you need....only He knows what that is! I also wish that words could help heal, well, I wish I had words to even help....please know that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you and your sweet sweet baby boys! Reid and Randon were blessed with an angel, just like you were blessed with them. I will continue to hold you close in my thoughts.
Forever touched....
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Monday, October 30, 2006 11:22 PM CST
Carol,
Fighting mad is good, it means that you are still a living, breathing mother. Keep fighting each day to make it through to the other side. But remember that none of us can ever go "go back to how it used to be" because this journey changes everyone. Find your new normal. Keep remembering to breath and keep putting one foot in front of the other. Your pain from losing two beautiful boys will always be there, and your friends will always be here to help soothe the pain. Not to make it go away, but to help you get through each day. All our love
Jill England & family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Monday, October 30, 2006 10:12 PM CST
Carol, I'm so sorry you have to feel so much pain and heartache. I can't imagine going through what you have been through. I will continue to pray for your entire family. I will ask God to be with you, give you the strength and courage to get through each and everyday. Thank you for sharing your sweet family with us.
In Christ-
Zhohn Dupont <z_dupont@hotmail.com>
Simmesport, LA USA - Monday, October 30, 2006 9:25 PM CST
Carol, your words are so eloquent, yet so real. I know that one of the blessings in my life is having met you while in college. Then, losing contact with you for awhile, and regaining that contact through Reid. One of the things that meant the most to me was that even though you and Dale were dealing with the loss of Reid and counting the blessings of having him in your life, you were able to offer assurance to me as I was beginning my own medical journey. I pray for each of you daily, and thank God for having people like you in my life. I will continue to pray for you and your family, while also praying that you are able to see the bread more often. However, knowing that because of the stones in your life, you are a real person and are able to appreciate the blessings better than some. And just for the fun of it, go find a dirt pile and throw until you can't throw anymore! Thanks again for sharing ALL parts of your journey with us. I know it is hard, but not masking the true steps is worth a mile!
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 30, 2006 9:18 PM CST
I was refered to this site by a friend of mine. I have gotta say that just reading the story and the information shows how strong a person you are. Most families would not be able to handle all the difficulties that your family has. There is no shame in grieving, even if it is for the rest of your lives. God has great things in store for you and remember that when the time is the roughest that is when he is closer than ever.
Heather
Melbourne, Fl USA - Monday, October 30, 2006 8:45 PM CST
Sweet Carol, I just want to drive down to Kentucky to give you the biggest hug possible. I was just going to email you but I realized the email isn't what you need, it's the entries and the love that we all give you when we sign. The pain will always be there, I know sometimes if you do things, you tend to have this sense of being pain free, for me, up until two weeks ago, pain killers altered my state of mind to make me think the pain was gone but it was still there but in an altered state of mind but still there. My pain is physical, yours is emotional, it is so different but in the same sense, we do things to alter our sense our pain so we can survive the hurt and the pain that is there.
Randon was born to be loved and he was yours (Dales and the girls as well), he shouldn't have died but God took him WAY too soon. He IS your son even though he is in heaven, him being on your mind is okay, hun, it really is, he is your son and so is Reid. It's okay, you can cry, be out of control, laugh, love, any emotion that hits you, yes, it may be stronger than you want it to be or more intense but Carol you have suffered one of the cruelest fates that anyone can endure and it wasn't just once but it was twice and you are going to hurt. I would do anything to take some of your pain from you so it wouldn't be as intense but those are your emotions, your feelings and you are strong and you have an amazing mother, friend, person and you will have days where nothing but pain is there but days where you will have joy.
Your feelings on leaving your family alone even the dog, that's okay, those girls are your life and they are yours to have. Anyone who messes with you, needs to back off, you are not lying in your bed, having your girls care for themselves EVERY day, you get up, you care for them, you have your moments but you are living with the worst pain possible two times now.
Hearing the dirt story makes me realize how things in life I make a big deal about that are so mild that I should stop and think about what I should be doing instead. Who cares if Reese is throwing dirt on a toy (I know she wasn't), she's a kid, she's going to do it and she will learn through it more about how she should be.
Get it out, Carol, let that anger out, kick, scream, cry, you have EVERY right to be mad at the world and when you are ready you will get it out. I want to say just get it out but Carol, I can't tell you how to get it out, only you know when you can do it. But it's okay to be mad.
YOU DID NOT DESERVE THIS EVER! NOT WITH REID, NOT WITH RANDON! NEVER THINK, EVEN FOR A SECOND THAT YOU DESERVED THIS BECAUSE YOU DID NOT, NONE OF YOU DID! God brought Reid and Randon into this world to touch people and that is what they BOTH DID but it has left many of us grieving for them. Two special boys.
You wrote this "I can fill it with bitterness, or I can work really hard to not let my life’s hardship stand in the way of God’s blessing and the life that’s ahead for me and my family," those words are powerful. Many people have their own issues and some are nothing compared to the death of two sons but they are not there. You bring so much to people when you write and when you share.
Yes, the world needs to slow down (except for the surgery date for my foot, it needs to hurry) to give you time but life doesn't do that. You need time to grieve, to heal, to learn life again. You gave so much to make sure Randon had his mommy with him and now you are home and I can't imagine what you feel.
You get asked how many children you have, it's easy, Carol, you have FIVE, two angels and three daughters. SOME people will be uncomfortable, some will back away, others will think what they want but you have two angels in heaven. You carried, gave birth and held five children, you will ALWAYS be a mother of five. If someone says you need a boy, tell them that you do, you have two special sons and if the enquire more, tell them that you spent every moment you could with two sons who fought everyday to survive. How your daughter saved your sons life, only to have a heart problem take him. How your other daughter was ready to help her brother but he wasn't strong enough. If they give you that how sad look, just stare them in the eyes and say, "I wouldn't change the children I have been blessed with for the world".
I am sorry people won't come up to you. Sometimes they think they will hurt you by talking to you but in reality ignoring you hurts you more or avoiding the names Randon and Reid only cause you pain.
Carol, your words bring me so much wisdom especially on emotions. I tend to shove them under a rug and I end up blowing up and crying because I didn't deal with it. Yes, God is good.
I am glad you had your friend to talk to while Riley was at the orthodontist, I know those appointments can be long especially if they are changing wires, etc. RILEY WHEN THEY COME OFF, WEAR YOUR RETAINER!,
You wrote you want to be a friend like that, to the person who sent you a Starbucks gift card. You are a friend like that but it isn't gifts that are bought that you bring, it's the gift of understanding, a gift a hope but most of all, a gift of wisdom. You are an amazing friend to me, to all your friends, those you have talked to, those you haven't, so many kinds of friendships but I am sure people will tell you that you are an AMAZING friend.
I am glad Reagan had a good birthday. I can't believe she is nine either. She is growing up so quickly. Take up stock in glasses, if she is anything like me when I was in sports, she will be needing them replaced every month.
I have shared a lot today Carol, never forget, you are an INSPIRATION to so many. Yes, you will say you have your faults but we ALL do. Thank you for sharing your feelings with all of us. I can only speak for myself but I will always follow you and your family. I am forever touched...
Love to you all.
Kristi
- Monday, October 30, 2006 8:26 PM CST
Carol,
You're my hero! I love it that you're fighting mad! What has happened to you really stinks. But...you always look at your days with your eyes wide open. You're an amazing person and if there was a book on how to deal with the death of a child, your picture would be right there showing us how it is done. I think you're a very emotionally healthy Mom. I'm proud of you! God blessed you with 5 beautiful children. You were ready to take on that job 100% Your maternal instincts are on overdrive and all you want is to love and take care of those 5 gorgeous kids! I applaude your attitude and fortitude! Thanks for the awesome pep talk!
I hope everyone out there appreciates the long lines at the grocery store, the backed up traffic, the rainy cold days and all the other awesome things in life that slow us down!
I pray that your heart can heal but never forget the love you have for your boys.
God Bless You,
Jody Poolman caringbridge.com/ia/elijahpoolman <jodypoolman@hotmail.com>
Charles City, Ia - Monday, October 30, 2006 7:04 PM CST
Dear Carol~I truly hope that as the days continue to go by so will the pain and hurt. I can only imagine how YOU must feel and when you get asked those (unknowingly) horrible questions!?!?!? My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for YEARS and people always ask, "How many kids do you have?" Usually my brain is spinning, like this really isn't happening , is it? And sometimes it is impossible for the tears not to roll. But, there is the hope, love, and courage that gets me through......especially HOPE! I continue to think of you throughout this difficult time. Love~ Megan
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
Lexington, Ky - Monday, October 30, 2006 5:59 PM CST
Carol,
Because of you, today I did not avoid
a hurting mother. Only because of you.
Thank you.
angela conklin a friend through your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
graham, nc - Monday, October 30, 2006 5:17 PM CST
Carol- I really think you need to print all your entries and get someone to publish a book. You could help so many others who are in the same boat as you & Dale. Thank you again for baring your heart and soul; and sharing your life with everyone who visits this site. I will forever be touched by Reid's and Randon's lives, and their mother who loves them so much. Love to all!
Lenora Carter <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 30, 2006 4:58 PM CST
Carol,
I just read your latest entry. I just want to wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug. I have no true way of understanding what you are going thru on a daily basis. I try to put my feet in your shoes and see just a small glimpse of your daily trials. But I know that I don't and can't even get close to understanding your pain and heartache. Sometimes on my way to work, I wonder how you have the strength to get up and fix breakfast for the girls, do a load of laundry or wonder how Dale is able to go to work. I pray that God carries you thru the days and the nights. Please know that I am continuing to pray for you and your precious family!
I missed you all at church yesterday. I saw a beautiful Snow White (Reagan) on Friday at the Fall Festival.
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 30, 2006 4:27 PM CST
Carol,
Again wishing I could give a hug!!! Please know that many are sent to you!!!
Still praying for all of you!
Jacqueline trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI US - Monday, October 30, 2006 4:02 PM CST
I'll be back to sign later...my kids are coming home from school already....where does the day go....
Forever touched...
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN11 - Monday, October 30, 2006 3:36 PM CST
Dear Miller's,
Just checking in this afternoon to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers today. Took a few minutes to read your update and as had to stop a couple of times for my eyes to clear up. You are such an amazing woman-for you to be able to articulate your feelings like you do just blows me away. You are such a communicator and a continued blessing to each and every one of us.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other and remember we all love you all and continue to cover you all in prayers.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 30, 2006 3:23 PM CST
Hi Carol and family,
Missed you at church yesterday. I will continue to pray for you during this difficult and painful time. As a mother, I can so relate to your tattle tale scene. . .I applaud your strength and courage and admire you for being mature (and not throwing dirt because I probably would have) and for sharing it with the rest of us. Take care.
Penny White <penny.white@warren.kyschools.us>
Scottsville, KY USA - Monday, October 30, 2006 2:59 PM CST
Hi Carol and family,
Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you today, as I do every day. I hope Reagan had a nice birthday. I missed seeing you at the Fall Festival, but we ran into Reagan and the Good's. It was good seeing them all! Please know I'm here for you anytime you might need me!
Love you,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Monday, October 30, 2006 1:59 PM CST
I found your site through another child. I can't imagine what you are going through. I have 2 small boys myself. To lose one child is unbearable, but two! I don't have words to tell you to comfort you except that God will be with you and comfort you in your time of need. Be strong. Your girls are absolutely beautiful. I will be praying for you.
Tracy White <mamatracy08@yahoo.com>
Monroe, LA - Monday, October 30, 2006 11:21 AM CST
Morning Carol and family. I hope this finds you in a place of healing. I know you will always have Reid and Randon in your mind, so many will continue to remember them. Sending loves.
Kristi
- Monday, October 30, 2006 10:28 AM CST
Good Morning Carol, I hope you had a good weekend. Just wanted you to know that you are on my mind and heart. Continue to pray for comfort and peace. Love you much, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 30, 2006 9:45 AM CST
I have been reading your web page and notes since I heard about little Randon. I am Megan Foster's Nana. She is the little girl you heard of at Vanderbilt who shared some of the symptoms that Randon had, only she was not so terribly sick. Megan had already had the stem cell transplant when you all came there and her worst times were at the end of June through July. We came very close to joining you in that valley of the shadow of death. Noe she continues to do well and has been at home for a little while but will go back to Vanderbilt to have a stomach tube put in and the NJ tube taken out. The doctors will also put a band around her esophagus to cut back on the acid reflux and upchucking she has.
My heart goes out to you when I read your journal and imagine the journey you and your family are going through. I know it is hard for some people to say the "right" thing, but you are right, when someone just takes the time to listen and cry with you. May the Lord give you a good day today. That is all we have is one day at a time.
Beverly (Megan's Nana)
Beverly Mayfield <cowboymay@worldnet.att.net>
Chattanooga, T Hamilton - Monday, October 30, 2006 9:29 AM CST
Praying for you today.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Monday, October 30, 2006 8:37 AM CST
Carol, I rolled over this morning and comforted my sick son, fed him and just looked at him while he tried to breath through a very stuffed nose and rest between coughing jags. I was feeling sorry that my son was sick. I then read your entry and those feelings became pain. I can NOT imagine the greif you feel right now. There are no words of comfort for me to offer, yet I want to comfort. You have put today into perspective for me. Though little comfort to you. . . thank you.
You and the family are in my thoughts and prayers,
Renee
www.caringbridge.com/ny/my2angels <rcurk@aol.com>
Liverpool, ny - Monday, October 30, 2006 7:48 AM CST
Carol, I have been thinking about you and your family alot this weekend and hoping it has been a good weekend. I will try to call you tomorrow morning.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Sunday, October 29, 2006 9:33 PM CST
Dear Carol,
I was just thinking of you and your family today-epecially during church services this morning. Hope your weekend was restful!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Sunday, October 29, 2006 6:33 PM CST
Thinking of you all. I have been confused today, um, yeah, guess who forgot it was time to change the clocks! That would be the one and only me;) I just wanted to stop by and say hi to you all and that I am thinking of you. Feeling better as the hours going on... Thinking of Randon and Reid. Reagan, hope you are enjoying being nine. Reese and Riley, hope you two are doing well and enjoying sharing Reagan's birthday gifts. Carol and Dale, thinking of you two with compassion and tons of prayers. Prayers for all of you actually.
Kristi
- Sunday, October 29, 2006 11:17 AM CST
thinking of you
mrs pam
- Saturday, October 28, 2006 10:03 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I don't have magic words to say, as much as I wish I did. Please know that I think of you often and I continue to lift you up to the Lord. I pray you will feel His arms around you every day.
Tammy Bergamini <FourPaws@ethixs.com>
Alvaton, KY USA - Saturday, October 28, 2006 9:33 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I don't have magic words to say, as much as I wish I did. Please know that I think of you often and I continue to lift you up to the Lord. I pray you will feel His arms around you every day.
Tammy Bergamini <FourPaws@ethixs.com>
Alvaton, KY USA - Saturday, October 28, 2006 9:33 PM CDT
Hi Guys,
Just wanted to sign and say hi and I am thinking of you all. Sending tons of love, hugs, hope and courage to you all and remembering Reid and Randon...
Kristi
- Saturday, October 28, 2006 5:55 PM CDT
I find myself thinking of your family often. I was reading your page yesterday with my 2 year old son, Tanner, sitting on my lap. He is just recently in remission from Hepatoblastoma, and recovering from his last chemo. From the very day that Tanner was diagnosed with cancer, blankets have brought him so much comfort. In a way, they protect him. Well, the reason I'm telling you this...On your home page, Tanner saw the picture of Dale and Randon. (It is Randon, isn't it?) He said "blanket." He wanted the baby to be protected. I thought it was so sweet.
I pray that you can continue to find comfort while living life dealing with the loss of your precious babies.
Thank you for opening your hearts and sharing your experiences.
Love, Megan
www.carepages.com TANNERNIELSEN
megannielson@msn.com <megannielson@msn.com>
Layton, UT USA - Friday, October 27, 2006 11:44 PM CDT
Carole,
I ready your journal the first of this week and I want you to know that I have been thinking of you and your family. You are all in my prayers and thoughts daily..many times. I want you to know that I truly appreciate your journal and the fact that you can share youself so much with others. I do believe that this helps you --but I know for a fact that so many, incuding me --are touched so deeply by what you write and what you share with us. I know that I have changed so much since sharing this time of trial with you--and I do mean that I have been sharing this with you. I wake in the middle of the night with you all and those precious boys on my mind. I want you to know that what you have been through has definately had an impact on my life. I have two new grandchildren--a little girl- Julia who just turned 10 months old--and a little boy- Noah--who will be 1 year old the 10th of next month. Each time I hold them I think of you. It is a mixture of happiness and sadness that I feel, because I know of your loss. However, it makes me not take these two precious babies for granted like I might have done before. So I want to thank you --for sharing so many of your emotions and thoughts with me. I truly believe that I understand your need to feel the sorrow --that will help with the healing. The one thing I do know is that you will always feel pain from the loss of these precious boys--that will never completely go away. That does not sound very encouraging--but it is the truth. I know also that with time you will be ok..because of the girls and Dale and the support of all your friends and family. It is ok to take whatever time you need to mourn, you should never feel bad about that. Keep writing, and sharing because in doing this you are helping so many people who are unable to voice the things you do, but when they read what you write it helps them to relate the things you have been through to things they are going throug as well. Thank you again..GOD BLESS YOU ..GOD'S PEACE TO YOU..AND GOD'S STRENGTH..
WITH LOVE,
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgoq, KY USA - Friday, October 27, 2006 4:09 PM CDT
Carol I know your told many times many ways how much the readers on Caringbridge appreciate you and other families who have shared the loss of their loved one with us. First off I want to tell you I would never have believed I could love and feel for a person or family I have never met. I truely believe I know the families I follow, write to and pray for more than some people we call friends at home. I have learned so much from reading your journals. I very much enjoyed today entry sharing your feeling. You are telling us how your feeling, how it feels to go somewhere, how you are afraid to go, afraid to see people you know and not have them mention Reid or Randon. It is much easier (I am guilty of this) to see someone and go down the other aisle, act as if we did not see then and talk to others rather than talk to them and have them be sad and in my case I end up crying more than the grieving family when we do speak. That I see is selfish of me. You are helping us to be aware of your needs. I know the next time I see a grieving person I know, I will go up to them and tell them how sorry I am for the loss of _____. I also have to tell you I love the music you have on this site even tho it does make me cry when I read your journal. Guess that is not a bad thing is it. I will continue to follow your site and continue to learn from you. God Bless you and the family.
Kathie
Walla Walla, Wa. - Friday, October 27, 2006 2:23 PM CDT
Carol..
I know it wasn't easy to come to the board meeting Wednesday. I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciated you being there. It's always great to see you. I know we haven't had a chance to visit other than small talk but I want you to know that I'm still hurting for you. Your entry makes perfect sense.......everything you said. As I said in my note, if there is ever anything I can do for you, don't hesitate to ask. I know you are putting on a brave face. Bless you all. Amy
Amy DeCesare <amy.bingham@wbko.com>
BG, KY USA - Friday, October 27, 2006 11:55 AM CDT
Carol & family,
We are still praying and checking in on you guys on a daily basis. My heart hurts every time I read your entries and I sense the pain that lingers and will continue to linger in your heart for your two boys. I know you hate to have people tell you how strong you are, so I won't. But just know that I so admire you for being able to get yourself up and going each day. Your family is very lucky to have you as their mom & wife. Reading about Reagan's birthday brings back memories of us being in the hospital together, as Jackson just turned 9 on Tuesday too. Hope she had a great birthday!
Gena Gooding <gsquared@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Friday, October 27, 2006 9:55 AM CDT
Carol, I am sorry I haven't checked in until now. With soccer, gymnastics and dance, life is totally hectic around here. I am sure you can relate!!! I hope on this rainy day you feel some comfort in the coming sunshine. You are in my thoughts daily. My prayers continue for healing of hearts for you. I know the pain will never be totally gone, but I hope it is easing a little each day. I look for you at practice and at games. I think I passed you the other day in the car. Hope to see you soon. I would love to take you to lunch one Friday. (my day off from my paying job). I can't even imagine the loss you feel. I have had loss in my life, but nothing that I believe would even compare to this. I am so glad you have the desire to share your story. Hopefully, sharing helps with the healing. Please know we continue to lift you up.
Praising Him always,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Friday, October 27, 2006 8:41 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I pray your week has been okay. I just wanted to say good morning. I will check on you Monday. Love and prayers, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, October 27, 2006 8:36 AM CDT
A Baby asks GOD
A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"
God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."
The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."
God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."
Again the child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"
God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak."
"And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"
God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."
"Who will protect me?"
God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking it's life."
"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."
God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."
At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."
"You will simply call her, "Mom."
A friend...
- Thursday, October 26, 2006 10:40 PM CDT
Still thinking of your family constantly.
Meg McCullough <meaghaneliz@hotmail.com>
Wilbraham, MA - Thursday, October 26, 2006 9:09 PM CDT
Carol,
Thinking of you and praying for you today. I sure hope Reagan had a wonderful birthday yesterday!
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Thursday, October 26, 2006 5:40 PM CDT
Dear Miller family,
I found your site through Sami Gray's and have looked at it from time to time for nearly a year. Know that you are in my prayers ... I ask Him to give you the strength to bear what's been thrust upon you and the courage to grab even a small piece of joy each day. Be safe and keep well.
Ros Bruno
Ros Bruno <hockeymom_brhs@yahoo.com>
Bridgewater, NJ USA - Thursday, October 26, 2006 4:14 PM CDT
Hey, trying this out!!!!:) Hope Reagan had a great B-Day. I thought about her several times yesterday and wondered what kind of fun things you all would be doing...as I know the day was made very special. Oh, I just did preview and it worked.....I am so excited!!!
Nicki Buchanon(Isaiah's page) <nicki@logantele.com>
- Thursday, October 26, 2006 12:32 AM CDT
Thinking of you all. My prayers are with you always.
Kristi
- Thursday, October 26, 2006 11:38 AM CDT
Dear Carol, praying for a good day today. Love to you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, October 26, 2006 11:16 AM CDT
Carol,
I'm an old friend of your Dad's. We grew up together and attended Ewing Baptist Church together. Your family has been in our prayers and also the prayers of my church; Providence Community Church in Mt. Juliet, TN.
May the Lord bless you and strenghten you daily.
Sandra Sanders Jenkins
Old Hickory, TN United States - Thursday, October 26, 2006 10:50 AM CDT
Praying for you today
Amy H. Wood <amy.wood@vanderbilt.edu>
- Thursday, October 26, 2006 9:49 AM CDT
You don't know me but I have heard about your family from Donna Basham and Gayla McCoy. They have asked for prayer for your family from our church (Woodburn Baptist) and from a personal friend group. I have only recently read your update and was deeply touched. You have an enormous amount of strength and faith. You expressed your grief and it touched my heart so intensely. I will continue to keep you in my prayers and hope to meet you someday just to put my arms around you so that you don't feel alone.
Sherri Brown
Woodburn, KY - Thursday, October 26, 2006 7:57 AM CDT
Thank you for sharing your innermost heartache with all of us. My prayers are with you as you continue going through your journey of grief.
Susan <susanbreeding@hotmail.com>
Plano, TX - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 10:59 PM CDT
Carol,
I just wanted you to know that I think about you often and continue to keep you in my prayers. Thank you for being so open and honest about your feelings. I'm sorry that I have not seen you in person during this time to at least give you a hug; I hope to be able to in the very near future. My heart goes out to you.
Love,
LeAnn
LeAnn Crowe <mikecrowe@insightbb.com>
- Wednesday, October 25, 2006 9:25 PM CDT
Carol,
You do not even know me and I am new to the Bowling Green area but have been asked to pray for you and your family. I hope to meet you someday and will continue to pray for your family and their healing. May God Bless all of you....Julie Key
Julie Key <cjkey@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 2:21 PM CDT
Your writing is just beautiful. You wrote that your entry was long and you don't know why people would read it, but you are so expressive in your writing, and you truly capture all the conflicting emotions you are going through. I hope you are all having a good week; it must be hard being home after your wonderful trip.
Danielle <twxee@aol.com>
Norristown, PA - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 1:05 PM CDT
Thinking of all of you.....
Thanks Carol for the wonderful journal entry! I pray that God will grant you peace!
Forever touched!
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 12:13 AM CDT
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Reagan, happy birthday to you!" (I'm humming this as I type the words.) I hope you have a very special day, Reagan, as you turn 9! Would you and Sarah and Sydney please slow down for us parents who would like to keep you little a good while longer?? My, how you girls are growing into such beautiful young ladies! I know that you make your parents so proud! I wish you the happiest of birthdays, and I look forward to seeing your smiling face soon!
Love,
Ms. Robin
Robin Pemberton <bbbsrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 11:53 AM CDT
Good Morning to all, Happy Birthday Reagan. It is hard to believe that she is 9. Time, in some ways it flies and then at other times, it just seems to stand still. Hope today is a good day and that the birthday celebration is great. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 10:26 AM CDT
Happy birthday to you Miss Reagan! I meant to get you a card in the mail! I hope you will have a blessed day!
You all are in my thoughts and prayers every day.
love & God bless,
Lenora <lenora@forevercomm.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 9:55 AM CDT
Praying for all of you... for comfort and peace..
I loved the Disney pictures!
michele(nurse in ny)
- Wednesday, October 25, 2006 9:54 AM CDT
Hi Miller's--Happy Birthday to sweet Reagan--wow--9 already! Can't believe Abbye is right behind you turning nine:) Hope you have a terrific day Reagan--you are a wonderful girl and such a great friend to Abbye! Carol--my thoughts continue to be with you and I pray for you daily. I hope in each new day, you can find things that make you smile even though your heart is so broken right now--your entire family has touched so many and for that the world is certainly a better place--take your time with all that you're going through--healing is done on your terms and on your timeline--love you always--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Wednesday, October 25, 2006 9:19 AM CDT
First off, Reagan, check out my smile and how happy I am looking. Your prayers are working wonders on my pain. You are a blessing.
Okay, this is going to say that it is 11 but it is now midnight and I know someone special who is turning nine! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, REAGAN! Kiddo, you may only be nine but you know you are wise beyond your years. Have a good one and remember, this is YOUR day. Love to you kiddo. God bless.
Carol and Dale, I know nine years ago, your hearts beamed with pride as you held little Miss Reagan LeighAnn for the first time. I just wonder if you two had to debate for so long to come up with her name;) You have a truly special daughter, three for that matter. I know she will probably read this but the baby you brought into the world nine years ago has touched so many lives and impacted so many. I know she has touched and impacted mine. Riley, you were barely four but I am sure nine years ago, you were thrilled to have a sister.
Carol and Dale, your family touches so many. You two have brought five beautiful and SPECIAL children into this world and they have all impacted lives in many ways. I can't wait till Little Reese gets older so we can see what her passion is and what she will find desires in. You have much to be proud of.
On this day, I also remember sweet Reid and Randon as I know your hearts ache as you celebrate without your sons and brothers. But they are there with you, in your hearts, memories and pictures.
Okay, now that I am crying, I am ending this. Reagan, have a good day and give your mommy and sisters a hug from me and your dad a high five. Enjoy your birthday okay, kiddo, next year, you will be in the double digits so enjoy your last year as someone with only one number in your age and know that in fifteen years, you will be ready to cut off some of those years;)
Kristi
- Tuesday, October 24, 2006 11:09 PM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are with you today and always. My best friend just lost her baby boy on Aug. 22nd to infant leukemia. He would have been 1 year old tomorrow. She is feeling the same feelings as you and I just ache for you both. Please know that there are those out there that know of your sadness and understand- you are doing the best you can. Your boys are proud of their mama! God Bless... www.caringbridge.org/visit/curranpace
Julie Sivley <pamperedjules@msn.com>
Frisco, TX - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 11:06 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
Thank-you so much for updating again. You are daily in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 10:00 PM CDT
Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan, Reese
You are in my prayers always.
Reagan, Happy Birthday
Uncle Ed
Ed Clancy <edclancy@comcast.net>
Hermitage, TN - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 7:33 PM CDT
Holding you up before the Lord, still and always. May you feel His strength to get you through each minute.
Debra Gensheimer <dlgensh@juno.com>
- Tuesday, October 24, 2006 6:20 PM CDT
dear aunt carol,
HAPPY BiRTHDAY
and
i LOVE YOU
♥
Caroline
caroline Fry <Dcacats226@comcast.net>
Old Hickory , TN US - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 5:20 PM CDT
You don't know me but through your words I feel like I know you. I can only imagine how much your heart must hurt with your loss, I only know that someday you will see your beautiful children again and rejoice with them. You are entitled to morn and feel the loss of your boys and I appreciate your being candid about your feelings. Please know that your family is constantly in my thought and prayers. Hugs to you and your family and may God continue to bless your beautiful family.
Debbie Roth <debbie.roth@comcast.net>
Brentwood, TN USA - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 4:16 PM CDT
Just letting you know that I think of you often and pray for you.
LeAnn Holloway <Hollowaydaddyo@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 24, 2006 4:14 PM CDT
Afternoon, Carol, Dale and girls... I didn't think I would be on much but I am. I came to see pictures and have to agree the one of Dale and Randon brings tears to my eyes, a beautiful picture of the love between a father and son. I think of you often. I am sure your mailbox was somewhat full today or will be tomorrow;)
Praying for you.
Reid, Randon and Andrew (my friend) may you enjoy the joys of heaven but know you are all missed so much.
Kristi
- Tuesday, October 24, 2006 1:54 PM CDT
Carol, The poingancy of your words is actually PHYSICAL...the goosebumps are real, the lump in my throaght is palpable, the tears are salty on my lips. You, your husband, daughters and sons have had a REAL impact on my entire familys life. I will never try to cheer you up, I WILL call you from the grocery store as I stand in the spaghetti isle, crying for you and Randon, because "Held" is playijg over the speakers. I WILL express to you my concern that if I hurt THIS much to loose YOUR son, what tremendous pain you must be going through..TWICE..I am worried about you. I WILL tell you I feel guilty...Kylie is cured...I so desparately wanted her miracle to be Randons...I wanted Kylies regimine to give you the same gift I was given...I will cry with you, for you, for me...I WILL not stop being sad too. And if in fact, while we are talking, and I tell you yet another hysterical Monica Moment and you laugh out loud, then I'll know you are ok. And if you dont laugh, then I'll know I need to work on my material. You are fine, you are perfect. You need to work out the process as it suits you. We are all different and I for one, am just sitting beside you on this journey, not telling you how to drive, only reminding you to buckle your seatbelt!
I love you...
Kylie's Journey
Heather <tenkids2dogs@aol.com>
Toms RIver, NJ - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 1:52 PM CDT
Good Morning Carol. I pray that the beautiful sunshine and blue sky outside may in some small way put a little glimmer of sunshine in you today. I pray for your peace and comfort. Wishing there was something that could be said or done and knowing that there is not. Love and prayers to you always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 9:39 AM CDT
Sending love and prayers your way! Please don't feel the need to justify your feelings - you just do what you need to do and know that the rest of us are here to support you in any way we can! Since I've never met you and don't really know you, all I can do is pray for you. So that is what I'll do. Please know that you and your family are being prayed for by many every day!
Michelle Lunders <mlunders@comcast.net>
Blaine, MN USA - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 0:32 AM CDT
Carol and Dale,
You are loved...
Praying for sleep and a little joy in the morning.
love you,
Catherine Warren <catherine.warren@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, - Tuesday, October 24, 2006 0:20 AM CDT
You and yours are prayed for.
Mindi <melinda_chouinard@hotmail.com>
Tacoma, WA - Monday, October 23, 2006 11:34 PM CDT
Carol,
I once again find myself shedding tears with you while reading about your grieving process. You always seem to be able to put your feelings into words that allow others to understand you and your feelings. While reading your entry through my own tears, I came to the realization of how completely normal you are, even if you don't feel that way right now. Of course you can be both extremely happy and extremely sad - if you didn't feel that way, I might be worried! Please know that while I haven't been there for you physically, I have shared many of your emotions with you - from the laughter to the tears - and I have ALWAYS been with you spiritually. You and your family continue to remain in our prayers, as you have touched us in ways you may never know.
With much love,
Staci Nash (www.caringbridge.org/ky/presleynash) <ladybugmom@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 10:36 PM CDT
We send a hug and our love to each of you. Take your time and do what Carol wants to do.
Your Clifton Friends
Betty and DanSpoerl <bettyjane@tds.net>
cLIFTON, TN - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:28 PM CDT
You have such a way with putting your feelings down on paper---thank you, thank you! I have lost an infant nephew and you really shed some light on the grieving process. Praying for your hearts to heal!
Janelle Tupy <janelle@integra.net>
Elko, MN - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:18 PM CDT
Hello i have been visiting your site for somtime now and have never signed the guestbook but i feel the need to now so here it goes, my name is Bailee Motter I am 16 years old and i often come on the computer several times a day just to check the caring bridge pages i was 1st introduced to them when my little cousin was very sick after she was born at the time she was not given a great prognosis she was given like a 10% chance of survival so we were all very depressed about that now she is a happy 4.5 year old anyways enough about her I basically want to tell you to grieve all you want and that you have that right to do whatever it takes to try to be normal again.
i am praying for your family all the time and for little Randon in heaven i am sure he is having a blast up there with his big brother Reid. much love and prayers being said
Bailee Motter
Bailee Motter <shortcake6376@msn.com>
Anoka, MN USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 8:23 PM CDT
Randon's song makes me cry everytime. It's not fair. You are all forever in my prayers. Miss you. -tara
Tara <hussfamily@mac.com>
Sanford, NC United States - Monday, October 23, 2006 8:13 PM CDT
Carol--I must get on your site 5 times a day--just looking at you and your family in complete numbness--cannot feel what you feel, but having 3 children, can only imagine. That picture of Dale leaning over Randon chokes me every time--as does the beautiful song..I have mentioned in past entries I wish I could meet you, you sound like you could be a best friend. I lost my dad unexpectedly 5 years ago, and you are so right that people try to rush you through your grief--and take that sadness away--and they cannot--you have to go through it (again, which stinks) and not over or around it, and you know in time that there can be a light at the end of the tunnel. The whole faith thing sometimes gets me because God may help you heal, but he shouldn't have you in this spot to begin with. I can't help but be angry for you because after going down this path with Reid--I feel no one should have to go down that again.
I was so angry about my dad--and now I am numb. It has been 5 years, and you have almost reached that with Reid. You know what I mean about NUMB---you want to forget but feel if you do you are doing an injustice to him--and that the longer time passes you feel guilty for forgetting the little things, but that only means they are engrained in your heart forever and that you are healing and that is what both those babies want their mommy to do. They are watching you, girlfriend, and wanting mommy to laugh and be pretty, and smell good, and be as happy as you can be. They are still being served by you from here--you are still an example to them on what good people do and how a family should be.
Take it an hour at a time--and if you EVER think of coming for a visit to the west coast--I will meet you somewhere---you are my hero!!!
Debbie Price <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Monday, October 23, 2006 6:53 PM CDT
My Dear Sweet Friend--I cry for you every single day--and often, several times a day. It happened in church yesterday-I know people think I am crazy--but I just tell them I am hurting a lot for a very special family. I also light candles in church for you, Dale, and the girls praying for you in these incredibly sad days. What we must understand is that no one is exempt from this type of pain.
Cry and be sad as long as it takes----
Bernadette <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 6:25 PM CDT
P.S-
What is the song called that is playing on here? It's Beautiful!!
Hilary Mosher <funkeemonkee2000@aol.com>
- Monday, October 23, 2006 4:59 PM CDT
Hi, I've been following your website since shortly before Randon's new life in Heaven began. I'm sorry that I'm just now commenting.... something about this post shouted out for a comment from me. Somehow I have so many words I want to say to you, but I can't get them out right now. I've never had a tragedy of this magnitude occur in my life, but my heart has experienced despair like you describe. I want to write more, but I will wait until my mind figures out what I want to say. Just know that if I were there, I would hug you and want to hear all about your boys. I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this as a family. I can only imagine how hard it must be to endure.... especially as a mama with three other precious kiddos to care for and love.
Calissa <caliss01@yahoo.com>
Catonsville, MD USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 4:57 PM CDT
Even though I don't know you, I wish I could reach out and give you a BIG HUG!! Thinking of you all and praying for you, too.
Janet DeRosier <janet@derohero.com>
Brooklyn Center, MN - Monday, October 23, 2006 4:40 PM CDT
Carol,
Just wanted you to know that you and your family are still in my thoughts and prayers. Your entries leave me breathless and crying each time. You have such a gift to share your story with others. Thank you for that. Praying for God's love to embrace and keep you.
A friend from CaringBridge
Carol Stice <carolstice@alltel.net>
Brownsville, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 4:26 PM CDT
Thinking of you today.
Tina & Lance <lancejrmommy@comcast.net>
- Monday, October 23, 2006 4:20 PM CDT
Hello-
I'm Hilary- first time writing here. I got your link from another website- to be honest I remember who it was who i got it from. But this is my first time going on your page. I just want to say I am so saddend and for me just reading for the first time, I had a lot of tears. Your in my prayers, and I hope God can make things alittle easier, losing 2 children has to be extreamly hard. Many prayers!!
♥ and Hugs- Hilary
Hilary Mosher <funkeemonkee2000@aol.com>
IA - Monday, October 23, 2006 4:14 PM CDT
Carol,
I, too, am one who checks in daily. While I don't "know" you, I am really wishing that I lived close to you so that I could just give you a hug! I am a hugger! I have cried tears over Randons death and reading the journal entries from Reid! You are an incredible woman with an incredible family. No one should have to endure the sadness you have. And yet you do! Please remember that many of us are still praying! I pray for strength...for all of you! I pray for those moments you can feel happiness! As you have said its ok to smile (and yet have a broken heart on the inside.)
Please know that I am sending hugs! And prayers!!! And love!!!!
Jacqueline Trochil <jtrochil@tds.net>
Green Bay, WI USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 4:00 PM CDT
Carol-
I sit here in tears as I read your pain and sadness. You dont know me and I dont think I have ever signed here, but I have read your story for a year now and just feel that I can no longer not let you know how much I appreciate your honesty and emotions....how you are able to be real in a world where no one really wants to be real anymore for fear of what others may think. Carol, I admire you more than you know and have said a 1000 prayers for you and your sweet family. May the comforting arms of Jesus wrap you up today and let you rest, just rest. Trust Him Carol, He some how has a plan... brighter days for you all and I will never ever forget the courage and strength I have seen displayed in you through this site. God Bless You.
Heather Boda <heatheraboda@hotmail.com>
Newport News, VA - Monday, October 23, 2006 3:45 PM CDT
Carol, Like so many others that read your journal and sign you guestbook, I've never met you, but I feel like I know you. We do have many mutual friends and I learned about your family when Reagan and Riley spearheaded the "Alex's Lemonade" stands in Bowling Green--Abby Cummings is a dear friend of mine, and when I heard that the money raised was in honor of her--that's when I started to learn more about you and your family. Well, the pictures alone on your website are enough to make anyone fall in love with your family instantly--your girls are not only extremely beautiful, but you can look at the pictures and almost "see" their hearts. What amazing children they are--and I'm so sure that Reid and Randon have the same amazing little hearts and souls. I don't know how you do get out of bed every morning, but you describe so vividly how you can be happy and sad all at the same time. I agree with you about the heaven "Band-Aid"--with the losses that you have suffered, it is so untrue that the pain gets easier as time goes by--it NEVER gets easier or less painful, it's just that you learn how to deal with the pain a little better as time goes by. I know that you are probably not nearly ready for this, but we have a Bible Study group (Tim Babcock leads our studies)and a lot of the group comes from Living Hope Baptist Church, but we have all added friends as time goes by, and we have quite a few Catholic families, Church of Christ, Methodist etc. There are about 30 or so families, and we take turns meeting at different homes on Sunday nights. We have a potluck, all of the children come-even our High School and College age kids look forward to Sunday nights. Sometimes we read books and discuss them, sometimes we do a series of Bible Study, Tim chooses different things for us to do. But we always have good food, good Christian Fellowship and time to share things in our lives that we are concerned about. We have named ourselves TEAM 365. We usually do some sort of community project about once a month--we have done some rehab on a home for a family in need, we raise money for the Foster Grandparent Program, we rake leaves in the fall for elderly people, we have organized the warehouse of the Salvation Army....one of us always has a project idea----and we will meet and do our community service projects--putting together our skills, resources, and our tremendous love of helping other people. We would love to have your family come and join us--I think that your girls would love it, and I think that you and Dale would have a lot to offer the group, and hopefully we would have a lot to offer to you. It is by far one of the best things that our family has ever done, as Tim says "It gets us charged up for the week--by Thursday we often feel ourselves straying, then another Sunday comes just in time to charge us up again!"
Our prayer list is often quite long, but you can bet that we have never missed a Sunday without remembering the Miller Family in our prayers.
Beth Austin TEAM 365 <beth@bradd.org>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 3:41 PM CDT
To my dear friend Carol..... I have thought about you lots today. Through your journal I feel your grief and my heart aches and cries with you. It doesn't seem like a month since that sweet litle hand waved at me but I guess the realization is that it is. Please know you are always in my thoughts. As I see you smile that smile I never have any doubt the feeling of two empty arms that you must smile through. Please know that I am a phone call away as I try not to bother you the million of times I think of calling you in the day! I pray for comfort for all of you today and that although today marks a month tomorrow will mark a month and 1 day and that shall be hard also. Tell the girls Jisaiah says hello and sorry we didn't see you yesterday. We went to late service. Love you bunches as I leave this page today with you in my heart!
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Monday, October 23, 2006 3:28 PM CDT
Carol and family, there is no way I can ever begin to say how much I thank you for sharing you feelings and lives with us. Those of us that you don't see often and yet you still continue to share your deepest feelings about your children. It makes us realize how real life is and how much we can do for each other even if it is only to lift you up in prayer. Know that we are doing that even as we type our words to you. The Father knows what you are feeling and it has to be wonderful therapy to write your thoughts out in the way you are doing. Hug the girls and blow kisses to the boys! Know you are loved even if we don't see you often.
Peggy and Jimmy Parrott <peggy@keenlawky.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 3:21 PM CDT
It really is so hard to know what to write, but know that you are in my prayers.
Blessings,
Debbie Eubanks <debbieeubanks@bellsouth.net>
Peachtree City, GA - Monday, October 23, 2006 2:52 PM CDT
Carol,
You keep writing, I'll keep praying.
There is no right or wrong way to
feel or to be. I will support how
you feel and pray for you all the way.
angela conklin a friend thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
Graham, nc - Monday, October 23, 2006 2:31 PM CDT
My sweet friend,you cannot know that you are an inspiration to many of us who can't imagine how you cope with your loss. I hope we can connect soon and share our girls. You are always in our prayers. We love all of you. The Crawley's
leeanncrawley <crawley@insightbb.com>
bowinggreen, ky - Monday, October 23, 2006 1:26 PM CDT
Carol,
We at Allendale Baptist Church, like so many others don't sign the book very often, but I hope you know you are still in our prayers. We are glad the week at Disney was so enjoyable. You are an amazing person. Thank you for keeping up with the website. We enjoy your writings very much. We love you and the family.
Allendale Prayer Chain <ABCprayerchain@aol.com>
Conroe, TX USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 1:06 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I'm so sad after reading your entry. I know I'll never completely understand how deep your grief must be, but I think I understand by how eloquently you describe it. I think it makes perfect sense to be so sad by your loss and happy at what you still have at the same time. You do have much to be happy about, but you have SO much to be sad about. No one should ever have to endure losing a child, much less two children.
I'm also sorry if I ever seem like I am trying to "cheer you up", because I know that you need to grieve and it's always ok to be sad, especially around me. I do think you look great, as I told you Sunday, but I know you don't feel great, and I don't expect you to be great. Of course, you're sad, you have to be honest how you feel. You don't make me uncomfortable no matter how you feel. I would never expect a Christian to grieve less (while maybe grieve differently), nor would I expect you to grieve less just because your babies are in a wonderful place with God. Bottom line, they're not with you, and that would make me grieve like I cannot imagine!!! Of course you miss them! I will never be able to adequately express how sorry I am for your loss. It fills me with sorrow, so I know it must seem suffocating to you. A former coworker brought in her newborn last week, and I fought back tears just thinking of Randon. For a mother, there's not much anything more precious than holding that baby and feeling them all snuggled up to you...their heart beating against yours. To be deprived of that must leave any grieving mother with a loss so deep that it is palpable. I love you, Carol, and I will be grieving with you for a long time! I will continue to pray for joy and hope even in the midst of such pain!
Robin
Robin Pemberton <BBBSrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Monday, October 23, 2006 12:58 AM CDT
I am so sorry for your loss of you 2 beautiful baby boys, but we as mothers (for some reason) have to keep the rest of the family moving. That's why GOD made us so STRONG (will and mind)! That is why we are the BOMB. I totally love reading your entries and read them everyday you make one. I do thank Dale for agreeing with you about letting the public feel the families pain. I hope that reading our words of hope will help you in sort of way.
In My Prayers
Kasey Nelson
Kasey Nelson <kaseynelson@aol.com>
Salem, AL USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 12:53 AM CDT
Hi Carol,
Just a quick note to say hi! It was so nice to see you this weekend. Your latest entry is so touching, you write so beautifully. I think all of us who have children understand how your heart must ache for your little boys. Know that I think of you so often and I continue to keep Reid and Randon in my prayers.
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 11:43 AM CDT
Carol,
I had to get on for school work and of course I had to check in to see if you updated. What wonderful words of wisdom you have. You miss your babies, beautiful Reid and Randon and it leaves you sad but you have three beautiful girls, Riley, Reagan and Reese and that keeps you happy and you do what you have to do. Your words make so much sense. You are loved beyond words, your whole family is. So many support and care about you ALL. Some may not sign as they are scared to say something that will upset or hurt you but others know just reading words of encouragement, of your sons names is something you need. Hey and I knew my Dopey character;) Sending much love to you all.
Kristi
- Monday, October 23, 2006 11:39 AM CDT
Carol, I have never signed the guestbook, but I have been following your site for sometime now. I felt compelled today to sign and let you know that I am praying for you and truly can't imagine your pain. I hope in some small way journaling on this sight helps and I know that from your words you have helped me.
Julie Brown
West Monroe, LA USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 11:34 AM CDT
Carol, just checked in to see if you had updated and what a beautiful update! You amaze me at how you can put words to your emotions! I know each day continues to be a trial for you but know we are continuing to pray for you and love you and your family dearly! Kim Harmon and family
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 11:25 AM CDT
Dear Millers,
Just stopped by to check on you today - you are in my thoughts and prayers and in my heart. Thinking of you.
Joan Pendley <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 23, 2006 10:58 AM CDT
Thinking of you and your family today.
Maria Gibbons <riau2@aol.com / www.caringbridge.org/mn/kylie>
Falcon Heights, MN - Monday, October 23, 2006 10:52 AM CDT
Still here...thinking and praying for you all everyday!
God Bless!
Yvonne, Nick, Isabella, and Nicholas Orefice
BOWLING GREEN, KY United States - Monday, October 23, 2006 10:30 AM CDT
Carol,
I'm not sure I have the right words to say to try and uplift your heavy heart, but I continue to pray for you, Dale and the girls. I hope that each day gets a little better and that the happy days will start to increase and the sad days will slowly decrease. I think about Randon all the time and really can't imagine the pain you suffer even though Jimmy died 12 years ago. Today would have been his 50th birthday. I hope things will get easier for you in the days to come.
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Monday, October 23, 2006 10:01 AM CDT
Carol--I just want you to know that your pain is shared by me and so many others--it truly does make me ache and hurt right along with you when I read your entries. My heart just wants to make everything alright for you, but my brain knows that grief takes time and it is a process necessary for healing. My prayers are with you always, but especially today as I know it has been one month since Randon joined Reid in heaven--my arms ache right along with yours for missing out on snuggling with your sweet boy. Please know that I'm here for you anytime--love you--Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:39 AM CDT
God Bless of all of you. I learned of your family through Jacob's site. You have a beautiful family. Don't worry about what anyone thinks. You have the right to grieve for as long as you need. Who can really say what normal is? We are all different and grieve in our own way. I am happy to hear that you had a good time at Disney, and I did get the Dopey/Dale reference. I did the same thing to my husband on my daughters website - only with Goofy.
Christie <clove@optonline.net>
Lynbrook, NY USA - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:33 AM CDT
Carol,
Love you lots! Even though I already knew most of the things you said in your update, it still breaks my heart for you. Makes me cry sitting here reading it. Randon and Reid were both such sweet babies and so precious and you were such the wonderful caring compassionate loving Mom to them. They knew you and knew your voice and knew when you were there and I know you comforted them when they didn't feel good. My heart is heavy for you and I know you know that. Love you so much.
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY United States - Monday, October 23, 2006 9:25 AM CDT
My thoughts and prayers are with you today as you face another "milestone" along this journey. May you feel Randon close to you today and know that he is near. I can't imagine how you must feel- I can only offer my support and prayers to our Lord who is with Reid and Randon at this very moment! What a blessing!
Julie Sivley <pamperedjules@msn.com>
Frisco, TX - Monday, October 23, 2006 8:19 AM CDT
Thinking of you especially today and sending up prayers for your continued strength.
Amy
Amy H. Wood <wood3471@bellsouth.net>
Nashville, TN - Monday, October 23, 2006 7:47 AM CDT
Sweet Reid and Randon, my friend is with you now, Andrew Polakowski, he was an OSU student who died in an accidental elevator accident on Friday. He was special young man who I met through a friend at WSU, I just learned today. My heart is heavy with grief once again. I know you two were there with open arms to greet him. Tomorrow is a month since you earned your angel wings Randon and I am thinking of you a lot today and will be tomorrow as well.
Thinking of you all, Carol, Dale, Riley, Reagan and Reese. You are a special family, never forget it.
Kristi
- Sunday, October 22, 2006 10:26 PM CDT
Just wanted to let you know I'm still thinking about you and holding you close. I'm glad you had a good time at Disney World. What a treat to be Grand Marshalls at the parade! We'll have to share Disney stories sometime. It's a subject I can talk a lot about. Hang in there. Thank you for reminding me to treasure my blessings. I think I'll go do that a little bit right now. God bless you today.
Dana <danagibbs@insightbb.com>
- Sunday, October 22, 2006 3:21 PM CDT
Hello!
Just stopping by to let you know that you are in my thoughts! I hope that you are finding your way to a new "normal"....I can't even imagine.
Forever Touched....
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Sunday, October 22, 2006 1:11 PM CDT
Thinkin of you all. Yeah, two entries from me at once but hey, I have to let you all know you are in my prayers and also to say to Miss Reagan, kiddo, three more days till Wednesday. I think. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. Then at 12:01am on Wednesday, run into your mommy's room and get her up;) No, you better not unless she is already awake. Love to you all.
Kristi
- Saturday, October 21, 2006 11:32 PM CDT
REID DALE MILLER REID DALE MILLER
RANDON SPEAKMAN MILLER RANDON SPEAKMAN MILLER
I am saying your names and remembering you so much today. I think of you two so much and your family. I know that it brings joy to your mommy, daddy and sisters to "hear" see your names in rememberence. You two continue to make an impact in lives of so many. You are so loved.
Dale, I am thinking of you and hoping that things are well.
Carol, what can I say, I admire you, your words of wisdom are amazing.
Riley, hope school is going well for you kiddo and that they aren't making you do too much work for school but do well because you will go far in life.
REAGAN!, I CAN'T WAIT TILL WEDNESDAY! I can't wait to hear about your birthday and I can't wait to tell you about my doctor's appointment!
Reese, hey kiddo, I hope you are giving your family a run for their money!
Kristi
- Saturday, October 21, 2006 3:01 PM CDT
Hey Guys!
I had all of you on my mind and was wondering how vacation went, It looks like you all had a wonderful time. I hope all is well, you all are still in my thoughts and prayers!
Love,
Hope
Hope Stock <kathryn.stock@vanderbilt.edu>
Portland, TN USA - Saturday, October 21, 2006 1:34 AM CDT
Hi Carol and Dale.
Sorry I haven't posted anything the last week or so. You and your family are still in my thoughts and prayers. It sounds like you had a great time at Disney. Hope to see you Sunday!
Marya Allen <allemj@chc.net>
Bowling Green, KY 42104 - Friday, October 20, 2006 4:11 PM CDT
Just wanted to let you know that you are all in my prayers.
Zhohn Dupont <z_dupont@hotmail.com>
Simmesport, LA USA - Friday, October 20, 2006 3:45 PM CDT
Carol, Dale and Girls,
Am thinking of you today--wanted you to know. I am go glad you had a great time at DisneyWorld. Such a wonderful place to go. Am praying for you all --and will continue to do so--you are never far from my thoughts--always in my heart. God bless you, give you comfort and healing is my prayer for you all.
Love,
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgow, KY USA - Friday, October 20, 2006 3:40 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
Ok, this is the third try, maybe it will go through. I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you and hopin gyou were doing alright. Have a great weekend!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Friday, October 20, 2006 3:06 PM CDT
Carol, The pictures are awesome!!So glad you had a great time at Disney and together. It is the most magical place on earth, it puts smiles on faces and I was so glad to see the smiles on all of yours'. We too stayed at Animal Kingdom Lodge last year, isn't that pool amazing?! I hope your week has been a good one, busy and full of laughter from Miss Reese. I think of you so often. I really want to get by the house soon. It has been crazy at work. Dr. Heltsley was out 2 weeks ago, I was out last week and one of our medical assistants was out part of this week. That makes for a lot of catching up. Know we love you and pray for peace and healing. Take care and see you soon. Oh, by the way, Congratulations on being the Grand Marshalls, that must have been way cool for the girls and you and Dale as well. Love to all!!!
Praising Him always,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Friday, October 20, 2006 8:12 AM CDT
Just wanting to let you all know I am thinking of you. Reagan, five more days to go! I know, I know, I count down everything. I have been thinking of Randon and of course, Reid today along with you all and they continue to touch my heart.
Kristi
- Thursday, October 19, 2006 11:13 PM CDT
Thinking of you all... Carol, hope you and Reese are having days where she keeps you hopping. Reagan, SIX more days.
Kristi
- Thursday, October 19, 2006 11:05 AM CDT
Dear Carol, I hope you have been able to reduce the Mountain of Laundry to just a hill. I hope your days since returning are okay. I continue to pray for you daily. I pray for comfort. I have tried to sign in several times today and my computer keeps kicking me out, I hope this goes through. Love and prayers, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, October 19, 2006 10:54 AM CDT
Carol, so glad you all had a great week! Dale is a great sport to put those Mickey ears on!! I know this week will be hard to come home after such a great week but we all continue to pray and think of you constantly! I hope Reese will keep you occcupied so this week won't be too terribly tough! I'm sure she definitely thinks she is a princess now, which of course, she is! Thinking of you constantly and praying continuously, Love always, Kim Harmon
Kim Harmon <kharmon@citizensfirstbank.com>
BG, KY USA - Thursday, October 19, 2006 7:54 AM CDT
Hi Carol--hope your week is going okay--I'm sure it's been tough after such a great week at Disney--I think about you every day and continue to pray that with each new day you can find courage, love and strength from those around you--take care of yourself--Love, Gail
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY USA - Thursday, October 19, 2006 7:14 AM CDT
Thinking of you all... Hoping you had sunny weather and the day was full of precious memories.
REAGAN- ONE WEEK TILL YOUR BIRTHDAY!!! I bet you are getting excited. Hey, I wanted to tell you, I am now able to use crutches, I did ten feet today THREE times, first time since my surgery:)
Kristi <Kristimarie2007@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 18, 2006 6:50 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
You were on my mind, as always. Those Disney pics were so precious. I loved the last one. =)
You are just one amazing mom. I so admire the way you keep on keeping on for those beautiful girls of yours. I know you hate hearing about how strong you are, so I won't go there...I'll just think it. =) You are such a great woman of God and awesome mother and wife.
In my prayers,
Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 4:48 PM CDT
Glad you had a good week with your family. Still praying for ya;ll...Lisa
caringbridge.org/la/huntershealing
Lisa Leger <lisamarieleger@yahoo.com>
Eunice, LA - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 2:58 PM CDT
GREETINGS DEAR CHRISTIAN FAMILY.
WE LOVE YOU AND IT WAS TIME FOR SOME FUN IN THE SUN. I ENJOYED THE PICTURES AND GLAD YOU HAD A GREAT VACATION AND A GREAT BIRTHDAY PARTY. LOVE, LEWIS AND BOBBIE
LEWIS C. PRICE AND BOBBIE PRICE <lcprice@consolidated.net>
CONROE, TX USA - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 2:50 PM CDT
ahhhh..I have been patiently waiting to hear some joyful things about your week of fun, sun, and turkey legs!
As always, praying and thinking of you all. So happy to see smiles!
www.caringbridge.org/nj/kyliejae
Heather Moncia <tenkids2dogs@aol.com>
Toms River, NJ - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 9:04 AM CDT
Carol,
So glad to hear you had such a great time at Disney. It looks like the girls had a great time and I've never seen Dale looking better. (:
You continue to be in my prayers daily.
Erika <jemannen@tds.net>
Old Hickory, TN - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 8:36 AM CDT
Good Morning Carol, looks like you brought the warm weather back with you from Florida, warm for around here that is. Hope you have a good day today. I pray for your peace of mind and comfort. Love to you all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, October 18, 2006 8:26 AM CDT
I love the pictures!!!! Wow, it looks like you had so much fun. We are home but go back today for them to look at him again. Call when you get a chance and know we think about you all the time.
Nicki Buchanon <nicki@logantele.com>
- Wednesday, October 18, 2006 8:11 AM CDT
I am so glad that Disney was a great vacation for you guys. The pictures are great. The girls are all so beautiful.
Caroline Hudson <tandchudson@insightbb.com>
BG, KY USA - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 7:39 PM CDT
Way to Go Miller Family!!Dear Carol and family,
Oh my, the pictures were great! Just seeing you all together with smiles on your face brought so much joy to me.
I know the road ahead will be very difficult. Grief is work. I will continue to pray each day for you Carol.
Here is a promise for you:
Lam.3:22 "The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. 23 Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies begin afresh each morning.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance;
therefore, I will hope in him!”
I pray you feel God's faithful, steadfast love each day Carol, and he will give you His mercies afresh each morning.
Praying you through,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
God is our refuge................................, - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 7:11 PM CDT
Dear Carol,
I LOVE the pictures! Thanks for posting them. I am so glad that you all had a great time! You are still in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Toni
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 6:59 PM CDT
Dear Carol, The pictures are beautiful. I am glad you had a good trip and that you had safe travel. I am also glad that your week was filled with something every minute, no down time. I continue to pray for you and everyone. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 4:46 PM CDT
Lamentations 3: 31-33
The Lord doesn't turn his back on people forever. He might bring suffering. But he will also show loving concern. How great his faithful love is! He doesn't want to bring pain or suffering to people.
To MOM AND DAD
Don't cry away your life for me, for I am with you - you just can't see.
You may not feel my presence from above
But I'm constantly around, embracing you with love.
When you're awake I'm always there - when bedtime comes, your pillow I share.
I know you want me back with you - but, I'm always there, if only you know.
I hear you talking to me each day, oh, I, too, have so much to say.
My Mom and Dad, you'll always be - you're just a thought away from me.
Your love went with me - I'm not alone.
I can feel your heartbeat, which is now my home.
I know I was loved during my life there with you
And all that you gave continues to see me through.
We were so close, both you and I - Please remember that - not, the good-bye.
Hold on to these thoughts, keep them close at heart
For like you've said, we're never far apart.
There's one last think I have to say - I feel your love and I'm okay.
So please don't cry away your life for me,
For I am with you - one day, you'll see.
My Mom Is A Survivor
My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom, who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise.
But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom...through Heaven's open door.
I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more.
But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...no matter what she feels.
My surviving mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal~!
If Tomorrow Begins Without Me
By Martha White ©1996
My Dad is a Survivor
My dad is a survivor too...
which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.
But, I walk with my dad each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others.
He cries when no one's around.
I watch him sit up late at night,
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.
My dad is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all~!
But there's times when he needs to cry...
Please be there when he falls.
Hold his hand or pat his shoulder...
and tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad,
Help him mourn in his own way.
Now, as I watch over my precious dad
from the Heaven's up above...
I'm so proud that he's a survivor...
And, I can still feel his love~!
When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not there to see..
If the sun should rise
and find your eyes..
all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry..
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand..
an angel came and called my name
and took me by the hand
He said my place was ready..
in heaven far above,
but said I would have to leave behind..
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all my life, I'd always thought..
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for..
and so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays..
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
I thought, just for awhile..
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized..
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories..
would take the place of me.
And when I think of worldly things,
that I would miss tomorrow..
I think of you, and when I do,
my heart is filled with sorrow.
But as I walked through heaven's gates..
I felt so much at home,
as God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great, golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity
and all I've promised you",
Today life on earth is past..
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
so trusting, and so true.
There were those times..
you did some things..
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you’re free.
So won't you take my hand..
and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me..
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me..
I'm right here in your heart.
A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven
By Jody Seilheimer
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she’s cried.
I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I’ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
A friend who has followed for some time
- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 4:45 PM CDT
Hey Carol! Just thinking of yall. Looks like you all had a great trip! Hope you got to work on your tan! hahaha!!! Have a good week...
jennifer thompson <jennifer.thompson@vanderbilt.edu>
- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 4:01 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
I am so glad that you all were able to go to Disney last week. It looks like there were many good times to cherish. I look forward to hearing more stories and seeing more pictures. I haven't been since I was about three, so I am really looking forward to the day when the girls are big enough for all of us to go. From what I have heard though, I needed to have been saving since I was three :)
I hope this week has been running as smooth as possible as everyone adjust to being back home. I know that there are many rough days still ahead. I hope that you can rely on all of us in your times of need. Please don't ever hesitate in asking for anything. I continue to think of you often and always lift each of you in prayer when I do. I hope to have a chance to see you soon and have much I want to share with you.
Much love and continued prayers,
Susan
Susan May <ksmay1@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 2:35 PM CDT
Hello Carol and family,
Glad to see you're all home safe and sound. Sounds like your trip was one for the record books, and NO ONE deserves it more!!! You all looked so good and happy in your photos and that gave me great joy too (I love that Reagan was "Queen for a Day" at her Cinderella Birthday Party). Sarah and Sydney are already expecting that when we go (ha ha, dream on)! I can't believe how great you all look for all that you've been through either! You are such an amazing family! I know that with that being said there's a lot you can't see from a photo. I know that your hearts are still broken, but I pray that bit by bit they will be healed, even though forever scarred. Scars help us tell a story to others who are suffering. I can't imagine the many, many people you will be able to help (and have already helped) by sharing in their pains and sorrows, while also giving them such a personal story of faith and hope!
I look forward to seeing you soon, and hey, while I'm not the best ironer, I can come over and iron or do laundry with you if you need any help! I hope to catch up with you soon!
By the way, Sydney was telling me last night that she was so bummed yesterday because her class couldn't go outside for recess because of the rain, and I asked if it was that upsetting because she couldn't play on the playground, and she said that had nothing to do with it, it was because she couldn't get to see Reagan when they didn't go outside for recess! You would have thought that Reagan WAS Cinderella the way that Sydney said that. It was so cute and funny!
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <bbbsrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 1:38 PM CDT
So glad you're home and that you had a good vacation. Love and prayers are with you, Shelley in Indiana
Shelley Klein
Floyds Knobs, IN USA - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 12:53 AM CDT
glad to know your disney trip was a good one.
grand marshalls: super!
prayers and love
mrs pam
- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:50 AM CDT
Thinking of you all today... I am sure Reagan and Riley are back to school so hopefully they are settling down into the routine of it. I am thinking of you all so much. But I think that's everyday. I remember Reagan was five when I began to follow you all and now she is going to be nine soon. Time has flown by. I pray that you feel Reid and Randon's presence and that the pain of missing them is replaced with some peace. Sending love.
Kristi
- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:29 AM CDT
We're thinking about you often! I hope you had enough good memories at Disney to fill some of the huge voids!
With much love,
The Menetrey's
lisa anne menetrey <l.menetrey@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY Warren - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:28 AM CDT
Carol,
Thinking of you daily and I was so glad to hear of such a wonderful trip. Hope the vacation made everyone feel special and even Dale in his mouse ears!
Joni Smith <joni.smith@crumpins.com>
Nashville, TN - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 10:48 AM CDT
I've been thinking about you guys this week. I'm glad to hear that you had a wonderful time.
Cristi Freese <cfreese@f-schamber.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 9:45 AM CDT
I missed you so much!! Glad you are back!!! Love you!
Michelle Humphrey <behappy@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY United States - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 9:13 AM CDT
Carol, so glad you all had a wonderful time at Disney. It truly is a magical place. Continuing to pray for you.
Vicki Bougan <vicki.bougan@comcast.net>
Castle Rock, CO USA - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 9:09 AM CDT
Too funny! Poor Dale. :) Love, Tara
Tara <hussfamily@mac.com>
Sanford, NC United States - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 7:08 AM CDT
I'm so glad you all had such a wonderful time together and had so many neat experiences--meeting Cinderella and being in the parade. It looks like you had great weather while you were there as well. My prayers for your family continue, and I hope you have a peaceful transition back into the reality of daily life.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.>
Winnipeg, Canada - Tuesday, October 17, 2006 1:41 AM CDT
you are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
tricia <triciabxny@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 17, 2006 0:52 AM CDT
Carol,Dale and family,
We are thinking of you often. Our love to you and the girls. Sounds like the trip was fantastic! Hayden is doing better, please keep us in your prayers.
We got to see Tim, Nikki and Isaiah today, they looked great!!
Love you guys,
David, Christy, Hayden and Mason Johnson
PS Let's get together soon!!
Christy Johnson <johnson6447@bellsouth.net>
Lewisburg, Tn us - Monday, October 16, 2006 10:45 PM CDT
Okay, Reagan, this entry is for you. Your mommy said when your birthday is and I looked at it and looked at my follow up appointment for my ankle to find out if I am healed up enough to schedule my surgery to remove this or if I need to do a two week follow up. So kiddo, at 1:15pm, I will be at the doctors but we know he won't be on time;) But I just thought it was a God thing that my appointment is on your birthday. So heres prayers for an AMAZING BIRTHDAY FOR YOU and a SET SURGERY DATE FOR ME! Love to you all...
Kristi
- Monday, October 16, 2006 10:34 PM CDT
Carol: Your humor amazes me. I wish I could meet you sometime, we would hit it off great!! So, which dwarf were you with????
I hope you find some time to relish in your home, and enjoy what is going on right here and now. Try to hold onto the happy memories when things turn.
Debbie Dwyer-Price <pf6@comcast.net>
Newberg, Or - Monday, October 16, 2006 9:10 PM CDT
Looks like Miss Reese was trying to run in that picture with Dopey:) I love the picture of you all on the surprise! You all deserved that! How awesome you all had an amazing time and had much deserved family time together. I loved all the pictures and can't wait to see new ones. Reagan, I am so glad you got your surprise, that had to have been so special. Have fun with that laundry, I haven't done it for six weeks! That's ONE advantage of this foot thing.
Yes, the upcoming weeks will be rough but you all have so much courage, faith and strength to make it through them. I am always praying for you all and I think of Reid and Randon often.
Take care!
Kristi
- Monday, October 16, 2006 8:13 PM CDT
I am so glad you had a wonderful trip! What a great surprise for the girls! Happy birthday to Reagan-mine is the 24th!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Monday, October 16, 2006 7:00 PM CDT
So I just kept sitting here waiting for Dales cute little face - duh - I finally got it.... LOL
So glad you had a wonderful time and oh my Grand Marshall's - can we touch your rings? What a gorgeous photo in the surry car... What a surprise.
Good luck with the laundry - I don't like laundry - I would rather just go out and buy new LOL (can you tell there is just me?)
Love you all-May God continue to Bless you this week and always.
Joan <joan@joanpendley.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 16, 2006 6:13 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Welcome home! It sounds like you guys had a great time in Disney, can't wait to hear all about it! Thought about you often, and you continue to be in my prayers. Talk to you soon,
Love,
Cathy
Cathy Schmalberger <cas6102@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, KY - Monday, October 16, 2006 5:24 PM CDT
Welcome back to Bowling Green Miller Family. I bet there
wasn't another family better looking in the whole Kingdom!!!
Glad you had a wonderful time.
Bernadette Mullen <Bernadette.Mullen@wku.edu>
Russellville, KY - Monday, October 16, 2006 5:09 PM CDT
So happy to hear your vacation was wonderful! I can't wait to hear more about it! Enjoy your piles of laundry!!! ICK! You and your family continue to be in my thoughts!
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Monday, October 16, 2006 4:27 PM CDT
Checking on you and your family.
angela conklin a friend thru your entries <conoil@yahoo.com>
Graham, nc - Monday, October 16, 2006 1:06 PM CDT
Good Morning Carol, I hope you made it home safely. I hope everyone is well and at least a little bit rested. It Is Monday, raining and cool. I will pray today for peace and comfort is some small way. I hope you had a wonderful time. Love you, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 16, 2006 7:49 AM CDT
Are you home yet???? I hope you have many many new sunny memories to help you through the rainy days ahead! You are in my thoughts!
Forever touched....
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Sunday, October 15, 2006 9:25 PM CDT
Hi Carol,
Just coming by to let you know I've thought about you all this past week.
I pray you made some special memories as a family. I know the whole trip was difficult, but so NEEDED. I pray you got rest.
Sending lots of love to you tonight,
Susan
Jordan <Susan2956@yahoo.com>
Always Hoping........................, - Sunday, October 15, 2006 8:43 PM CDT
Hi there.
I've thought of you so often this week. I hope it was a wonderful week of being together.
Love, Holly
Holly <hhoxeng@att.net>
Denver, - Sunday, October 15, 2006 8:22 PM CDT
Hoping you are all home safe and getting the rest caught up on. I can't wait to hear about the girls surprise. I am thinking of you all lately. I know you are all away but I am finding myself checking once a day for an update.
Kristi
- Sunday, October 15, 2006 7:52 PM CDT
Dear Miller Family~ I hope that you all had a worry- free, fun-filled, family vacation. I imagine that it was a bittersweet week away for all. But I know just being together as a family was a huge blessing. The absence of those precious ones you love is not easy where ever you are. I will keep you all in my thoughts. Hoping that rentry to the "real world" will be as simple and quiet as possible. Take care and know that you have a lots of us praying for you.
megan <meganmg@alltel.net>
lexington, ky - Sunday, October 15, 2006 8:05 AM CDT
Hey Millers,
I hope you had a great time at Disney. We got back from Destin about 12 am today. We had a great time and great weather. I thought about you guys several times as we were on the beach. It was peaceful and sunny and I just felt God everywhere. I hope you had the same experience. I am so glad you could get away and have alone family time. Carol your entry on Friday was so heartfelt. I can't imagine the feelings you experienced and continue to experience. Have a safe trip home. I will catch up with you soon.
Take care and God bless.
Praise Him in the storm,
Teresa
Teresa Gregory <4salt@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky USA - Saturday, October 14, 2006 7:56 PM CDT
Hope your journey back to KY is going well. Hopefully you girls are behaving and enjoying your DVD's. I just pray that this trip gave you much needed family time and a chance for the healing to begin. Thinking of you all.
Kristi <patzman.2@wright.edu>
- Saturday, October 14, 2006 1:25 PM CDT
Hi Miller's--hope you've had a wonderful week and safe travel home--we're anxious to hear all of your stories:) Our prayers continue to be with you all especially now as you return home and once again face the routine of everyday life--we're here for anything and are so glad that you've had some much needed fun family time together--love you all--The Good's
Gail Good <ggood@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, KY 42104 - Saturday, October 14, 2006 10:49 AM CDT
We just wanted to drop by and say hi
and let you know we are thinking about you.
Jodi and McKayla
Jodi Phelan <jodiphelan@hotmail.com>
Sherwood Park, AB Canada - Friday, October 13, 2006 10:58 PM CDT
My prayers continue as always for all of you. I am go glad you were able to get away for some quality family time. I pray that your trip has been entirely blessed and that you are having a wonderful time. Please know that even when I do not post to the guestbook--you all are always in my heart an prayers. I will leave you with this verse:
'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" (Jeremiah 29:11)
God bless you!!
LOL
Debbie
Debbie Byrd <debbiejbyrd@aim.com>
Glasgoq, KY USA - Friday, October 13, 2006 10:17 AM CDT
Dear Millers, I pray for a safe journey back home. I hope your week has been as expected and even more. I continue to pray for peace and comfort. Love and prayers to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Friday, October 13, 2006 9:40 AM CDT
Just thinking about you today. Hope you had a wonderful trip, filled with lots of memories. Always praying for your family.
Rachelle <rml281@yahoo.com>
Sidney, MT - Friday, October 13, 2006 9:26 AM CDT
Keeping you all in our continued thoughts and prayers and hoping that your trip is absolutely wonderful and a safe one!
Sherri Cox Doughty and family <truebluegal66@insightbb.com>
- Friday, October 13, 2006 9:04 AM CDT
Praying for safe travel for you and
a wonderful time in Florida.Holding you
always close in our thoughts and our prayers.
Trish/Angel_Wings(http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Angel_Wings) <Kngboyer@aol.com>
Kingston, TN USA - Thursday, October 12, 2006 4:36 PM CDT
RachelJoy and I just returned from WDW, and I'm so sad to read that Randon is now at home with the Lord. Your love for him, as a family, will leave an imprint on my heart.
We have many good friends in resort management at WDW, so please let me know where you are staying. I know that where ever you stay, they will treat you well.
May the Lord sustain all of you in the weeks and months ahead.
Stephanie and RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Thursday, October 12, 2006 3:21 PM CDT
Thinking of you guys...I hope all of your princesses are enjoying all of the Disney princesses!
Praying always,
Kristin
Kristin Amato <kma0405@bellsouth.net>
Covington, LA - Thursday, October 12, 2006 2:27 PM CDT
sooo sorry for your loss.....may the Lord give you strenght at these hard times.....you are in my prayers....
God bless
Ozzie <ovieira@hartz.com>
harrison, NJ - Thursday, October 12, 2006 12:52 AM CDT
Good Morning Carol and everyone, Fall is definitly here today. It is cool outside today and I actually had to put on shoes today and take off the sandals. I pray that the week is going well and that you all are getting some much needed rest as well as some much needed fun. Take care, love always, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Thursday, October 12, 2006 7:56 AM CDT
You are nothing short of an amazing mother.
May god hold you in your deepest moments of grief.
Praying for you daily in Arizona
Jean
Gilbert, AZ - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 3:26 PM CDT
Hoping that you all are having a WONDERFUL time in Florida! You are in my thoughts!
Racqel
Racqel Barthel <rbarthel@izoom.net>
Becker, MN - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 12:52 AM CDT
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. May God Bless all of you. I hope that you have a terrific time at Disney.
Christie <clove@optonline.net>
Lynbrook, NY USA - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 8:11 AM CDT
Good Morning all, it is raining here today and I hope the sun is shining in Orlando. I pray everyone is having a wonderful time. I also pray that some how you are finding some peace and rest. Have a great day today. Love and prayers to all, Pat
Pat allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Wednesday, October 11, 2006 7:53 AM CDT
Dear Miller Family - I hope all of you are having a fabulous time at Disney World. I pray that peace and relief will be with you as you and your girls enjoy time together. May peace from our Lord and the wonderful magic of Disney surround you during your stay. My prayers are with you. Much love.
Lynne <L.Beard@sbcglobal.net>
Dallas, TX - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 11:08 PM CDT
Thinking of the AMAZING MILLER family and MISSING you all and the updates. I am hoping you are all well.
Kristi
- Tuesday, October 10, 2006 10:34 PM CDT
Miller Family,
Yesterday I found your CaringBridge site through Jacob's website. I have read and reread your story today. My heart is broken as I ponder the happenings in your life the last few weeks. Just know there is a Grandmother in MN that will be praying for you all. Please have a wonderful time in FL and safe travels to your family. God will have to carry you through this grief. I know that I could not walk and I know that He would carry me. A praying Grandmother in MN. Shirley Rick
Shirley A. Rick <sarick@meekercoop.net>
Litchfield, MN USA - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 5:15 PM CDT
I am sitting here at work bawling my eyes out, after reading your update. My heart aches for your entire family. I can't imagine the scene you described in having to tell your girls it would be the last time they saw Randon. You truly have such amazing and caring girls and I know you are so proud of them.
I sure hope you have a magical trip to Disney! If anywhere can bring a smile to your face it would be Disney World! You remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Kyna Petersen <daleandkyna@comcast.net>
Murfreesboro, TN - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 11:05 AM CDT
Dear Millers, I hope you all are having the best time possible. I hope the girls are so amazed and that the giggles are all over the area, same for you and Dale, I hope you all are able to giggle as well. I pray for your safe keeping while you are gone. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 10:22 AM CDT
Dear Carol,
I heard the weather in Orlando today was sunny and 85! I hope you and your family are having a fabulous time!
Christa Frantz visit/zacharyfrantz <dcfrantz@adelphia.net>
New Philadelphia, OH - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 8:12 AM CDT
Hi Millers,
Praying for strength and joy for you all daily and for a safe and enjoyable trip to Disney World! I can't wait to hear about the girls wonderful surprise. That heartwrenching entry of yours about killed me knowing how the girls suffered thru their last visit with Randon. Still, I think it's good they got to tell their baby brother goodbye. It might have been something they regretted not getting to do. Your girls will be filled with compassion for others for the rest of their lives I believe, and I can't wait to see what fruits they end up bearing and what wonderful women they will become. I know that their baby brothers will always be so very proud of them!!
Look forward to seeing you all upon your return and hearing your Disney stories! I'm here for anything you might need.
Much love,
Robin
Robin Pemberton <bbbsrobin@bellsouth.net>
Alvaton, KY Warren - Tuesday, October 10, 2006 0:19 AM CDT
May God Bless your trip to Disney! I hope you enjoy some family together time and that the magic can help you, somehow, in your unimaginable grief. Our hearts go out to you! Praying and F.R.O.G.ging for you all!
Shaun, Austin, and Dominic Rogers <shaunr@bellsouth.net>
Dunwoody, GA - Monday, October 9, 2006 10:58 PM CDT
Thinking of you all. It's Monday night at 11, I am wondering if you have three sleeping princess or three hyper princesses ready for tomorrow? I find myself here every morning and evening to check up on you all even though I know you are gone, I have been doing it so long that it's hard to get out of a habit but I won't be stopping anytime soon.
Riley, you have to have your mom keep me posted on when you do Alex's Lemonade Stand. I may be able to go down to Nashville to visit a friend and make a pit stop for a glass of lemonade so keep me posted. I know you will do well if you do it this year, you are successful at whatever you put your mind to, we all know that.
Reagan, hope you are keeping Riley and Reese in line while you are there;) I am in the process of growing my hair out to donate to Locks of Love, I have been trying for years but it just gets hot and I cut it off but this year I MADE it through the summer so HOPEFULLY by June, it will be time to cut it to donate.
Reese! I hope you gave EVERYONE a run for their money at Disney. I am sure you saw so many people like princesses, Buzz Lightyear. I am sure the trip home will be all about what you saw and you will talk everyone's ear off. It's hard to believe in January, you will be three.
Carol and Dale, my thoughts and prayers are with you and I heard something I thought I would share. You should keep FROGing. FROG means Fully Rely On God.
Kristi
- Monday, October 9, 2006 9:53 PM CDT
Hello to all! We just wanted you all to know what we continue to think of you and pray for you daily! We hope you all have a wonderful trip at Disney and enjoy your much-needed family time together.
Sincerely,
Jerry and Michelle Roberts
Michelle Roberts <michelle_roberts123@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, ky usa - Monday, October 9, 2006 4:01 PM CDT
Hi-
My son Kohlman was diagnosed with a rare type of childhood cancer called Neuroblastoma in April of 2004...at just 11 days old. I found your webpage through Jacob Duckworths page. Your children are gorgeous!! And i am truly very sorry that your little ones had to have such a time on earth...but you were chosen to be there parents for a reason. May God Bless you and your family during this hard time in your lives.
Wade Brandy Berkleigh Tanner and Kohlman Eldeen
www.caringbridge.org/sd/kohlman
Brandy Youngbluth <byoungbluth@yahoo.com>
Mitchell, SD USA - Monday, October 9, 2006 10:55 AM CDT
I have been following along for several weeks now. I have never signed as I just couldnt find the words. I am struck at how strong you are and what amazing children you have. I cannott begin to imagine your pain but I am uplifted at your faith, hope and endurance. It's amazing the things we can adjust to even when our hearts are so broken we don't want to keep going. Your girls are amazing and you can see even at their young ages they are selfless and compassionate. They learned that from you and their Daddy.
I will be praying for your family.
www.caringbridge.com/fl/makilyangel
Trish <patyrish237@aol.com>
Ocala, FL USA - Monday, October 9, 2006 9:19 AM CDT
Good Morning Millers, I pray you had a safe and quiet trip to Orlando. I just wanted to check in and let you all know that I continue to pray for peace and I pray for a wonderful week at Disney. Love to all, Pat
Pat Allen <pallen@cmmoore.com>
Bowling Green, ky - Monday, October 9, 2006 7:54 AM CDT
I ran across your site through Jacob's. I have 4 children starting with R! My son was diagnosed with cancer in Florida while in school at age 24. He is still in the fight. Our hearts ache for you. We will keep your family in our prayers.
Missy www.caringbridge.org/ne/ryan <dm4rs@cox.net>
omaha, ne usa - Monday, October 9, 2006 7:47 AM CDT
Miller family,
Hope that you are enjoying your trip to Disney and your time together! Hope this can renew and refresh your spirits! You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers!
Glenda Babcock <gcbabcock@insightbb.com>
Bowling Green, Ky - Monday, October 9, 2006 1:20 AM CDT
Just thinking about you all. I know you are in sunny Florida and so far my brother and sister in law have said that Hurricane Riley, Tropical Storm Reagan and Tropical Depression Reese haven't made themselves known.:) Girls, I hope this trip is amazing for you, you three deserve it. I can't wait to hear about it.
Dale, hope you got your quiet drive but I am sure you only got about an hour of quietness before the real fun began;) Just kidding with you.
Carol, I often find myself thinking of you and saying prayers for you and your family.
I am glad you are all in Florida and I pray you are having a good time and seeing so much and just having a special bonding time together. You all deserve it so much.
Sweet Angel Reid and Randon, I think of you two so much, I am sure my Angel Pete (the little one I babysat) and you two are three buddies. I think of you all so much.
Kristi
- Sunday, October 8, 2006 11:58 PM CDT
I am so so sorry for the loss of your son. I am praying for all of you. Those precious girls sound so amazing and I'm so sorry you all have had to go through this. ((hugs))
Melody
Corona, CA - Sunday, October 8, 2006 8:23 PM CDT
Millers, I still find myself checking on you frequently through the website. Yesterday, as 2 weeks had passed, I thought of you often and prayed for travel mercies for your LLLOONNGGG driving trip to Disney. Praying for good weather, restful nights, busy days and many surprises. Enjoy your time together.
The England family <rjtsengland@insightbb.com>
BG, KY - Sunday, October 8, 2006 10:40 AM CDT
I pray for you and your family. May God be with all of you and let you all enjoy this vacation in great pleasure. Just take each day one at a time and let things fall in their place. You all have been through so much so maybe just getting away can let some of your stress an etc pass with ease. Again stay strong and may wisdom,courage and faith and hope carry all of your family with loving hands. God Bless all of you!!!
Peggy <leigh_peggy@yahoo.com>
Sailor Springs, IL USA - Saturday, October 7, 2006 10:23 PM CDT
Happy late b'day, Dale. Hope it was a good one. And I can't wait to hear about the girls' surprise when you get back. We are still holding all of you in our thoughts and prayers, and we know you are still going through the most horrible pain one day at a time. We wish we could take the pain away. Know we love you, and we'll hopefully get to talk with you in a week or so after your trip. Love J, P, M, K, T, and baby girl
Jamie & Paul Martin <clubhouserecording@comcast.net>
Hendersonville, TN USA - Friday, October 6, 2006 10:54 PM CDT
Dear Carol and Dale,
Thanks again for updating. I am so sorry about what your girls went through. It must have been so terribly heartbreaking for you to see them grieving on top of your own grief. You all are still in my prayers and thoughts.
I hope you have a nice time in Florida. If you happen to drive through the Jacksonville area and need anything,just give me a call.
Toni Harris <Dtharriss@aol.com>
Orange Park, FL USA - Friday, October 6, 2006 8:32 PM CDT
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