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Just checked out the photo's! All I can say is Yeah, Yeah, Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enjoy each other. Love to you all.

Nadine (Troy's mommy forever)
Nadine Paulmeno <Spitter24@aol.com www.caringbridge.org/ny/troy>
Hoover, AL USA - Thursday, September 21, 2006 5:44 PM CDT

WELCOME HOME !!!

So glad you are home with your family!!!
You were definetly missed.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 21, 2006 7:43 AM CDT

Welcome home Phillip, and thank you for serving our great country. What great photos! We are always thinking about your family. "Hi" Nana Sherry.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Broomfield, CO - Thursday, September 21, 2006 0:10 AM CDT

Yippee!!
What wonderful news!!!
Welcome home, Dad!
mrs pam
- Wednesday, September 20, 2006 7:06 AM CDT

Wow! What a great way to start the day by seeing Andrea's smiling face as I viewed the photos. I knew Phiilip was home but did not think to look at the photo section. Welcome Home Phillip!!! We are so proud of you and appreciate all the sacrifices you made for your country. Scooter was thrilled when I told her you were home. Of course she wants to come right over, but we will give you all a little time to be together before we come for a visit. May God bless you as you adjust to having your family back together. Love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <sharon.jackson@am.dodea.edu>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, September 20, 2006 6:43 AM CDT

Welcome home Phillip. Andrea thanks for the wonderful pictures. Can't wait to see all of you.
Annette Campbell
Saint Charles, MO - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 8:43 PM CDT

WELCOME HOME!!!
The Cosby's <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Tuesday, September 19, 2006 8:41 AM CDT

Welcome home Phillip!!! We are all so proud of you and appreciate all that you sacrifice for our country!!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Monday, September 18, 2006 11:17 PM CDT

The photos are awesome. Welcome home Phillip! Your wife is a hottie!! :o)
Rachel <rachel.mclamb@us.army.mil>
Ft Campbell, KY - Monday, September 18, 2006 10:05 PM CDT

We are so glad to hear the great news, Welcome Home Phillip and thank you and your unit for your service.
The Contreras's <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Monday, September 18, 2006 10:00 PM CDT

Andrea~You look absolutly(sp) AMAZINGLY happy in that pic!!
Phillip~Thank you so much for being away from your family to fight for mine!!
Ryan~Keep watching over your family buddy
Elizabeth~What a beautiful little lady you are turning into
Lucas~You are so blessed with your own special angel watching over you! You are blessed to have such a loving family!
Nana Sherry~Thank you for all the updates on this family.Your love pours from the words you write!!
Lots of love from Kansas,Sunshine <kssandman@hotmail.com>
- Monday, September 18, 2006 7:26 PM CDT

Welcome home!!!!! Thanks for serviing our great country. Enjoy the time with your family.
Lori Tripp <grallygripper@yahoo.com>
Fountian Inn, SC - Monday, September 18, 2006 6:16 PM CDT

That's great that Phillip has gotten home safely! I can't wait to see you all at the Relay!
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Monday, September 18, 2006 5:32 PM CDT

WELCOME HOME!!!!! So glad you're back.

Phyllis <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Monday, September 18, 2006 4:07 PM CDT

So glad that Phillip is home. Elizabeth and Lucas are beautiful children!!! We continue to pray for you all.
Anderson Family
St. Charles, MO - Monday, September 18, 2006 1:56 PM CDT

Welcome Home, Philip!!!!!!!!!!! This is the best news I have heard today. I know there is one HAPPY family there today. I know Ryan is with you in spirit and is happy also.
Brenda
Eastanollee, GA - Monday, September 18, 2006 1:10 PM CDT

That's the happiest news I've heard in a long time and an answer to many prayers that Phillip has returned home safely. Try to relax and ENJOY!

Janet Couch <l-f-f@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Monday, September 18, 2006 12:18 AM CDT

WELCOME HOME PHILLIP!!!! We are so happy that you are home and I am sure that Andrea and those beautiful babies are glad to see you. Love to you all and will see you in a couple of weeks.
Garry, Jody and Emily
- Monday, September 18, 2006 11:09 AM CDT

Welcome home Phillip! So glad to hear you are home safely and are all together again.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Monday, September 18, 2006 11:07 AM CDT

WELCOME HOME PHILLIP!!!!

I am so happy to hear that you are back home, safe and sound. Enjoy every minute of catching up with your beautiful family. Many hugs to all of you!
Hugs & love from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Monday, September 18, 2006 10:48 AM CDT

Welcome Home Phillip. I'm glad to hear that you made it home safely. Congratulations to you Andrea for making it through the past year.
Mary Dicus <arcticcat_27@yahoo.com>
Tulsa, Ok - Monday, September 18, 2006 10:34 AM CDT

BROWN FAMILY,
IT'S SO GOOD TO HERE THAT PHILLIP HAS RETURNED. I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU ALL. THE PICTURES YOU POSTED ARE SO HEARTWARMING. GOD BLESS YOU ALL, ENJOY THIS TIME TOGETHER!
LOVE YOU ALL
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Monday, September 18, 2006 9:26 AM CDT

Welcome Home Phillip
Dina Trentacosta <CMcrop02@bellsouth.net>
Fort Campbell, Ky - Monday, September 18, 2006 7:46 AM CDT

What a true blessing.
TJ
Severn, MD - Monday, September 18, 2006 7:13 AM CDT

Hope everyone is doing well......
how's the puppy training coming along??
Any news on when dad will be home?
Hopefully soon........I know you guys
miss him like crazy!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 17, 2006 9:40 PM CDT

Stopping by to say hi and to tell you that a day doesn't go by that I talk to Ryan and ask our Lord to shower you with blessings.

Keep Believing
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, va - Sunday, September 17, 2006 5:44 PM CDT

I think about you guys all the time!!!!

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Saturday, September 16, 2006 8:42 PM CDT

Brown Family,
Hello to all just stopping by to let you know we miss you all and keep you in our thoughts everyday. Hope all is going well in preparing for Phillip to be home. Love to all and see you soon.
Garry, Jody, and Emily
- Friday, September 15, 2006 1:29 PM CDT

Hey guys, just stopping in to say hello and i love you!!! Phillip, we miss you and can't wait for you to come home safe. We Love You!!!

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!!!
AUNT MEME <mkymse10@hotmail.com>
ST PETERS, MO USA - Thursday, September 14, 2006 4:10 PM CDT

Andrea, I just love the new pictures. Elizabeth's eyes are just beautiful! And Lucas is just a cutie! I'm glad to hear that everyone is doing well. I haven't updated in a while, but sure think about your family a lot. Can't wait to hear that Phillip is home again. I pray that you can remain strong during this time. God bless!
Anissa
florissant, mo - Tuesday, September 12, 2006 9:29 PM CDT

"Hi" to your family from the Walsdorf's. We so enjoyed meeting "Nana" Sherry in St. Louis last Sunday. And sharing pictures and stories of our Angels Ryan and Sam was so heart warming. It's healing to connect with others gong through this pain, because no one else can really understand. Thanks for driving in to meet us Sherry!

Andrea, loved the new pictures. We are thinking of your family and Phillip's safe return home.

www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Broomfield, CO - Tuesday, September 12, 2006 1:58 PM CDT

Just stopping by with a hug and a smile to let you know that you're on my mind this morning.
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Tuesday, September 12, 2006 7:41 AM CDT

Thinking of you, and can't wait to hear Phillip is home safely. Adam has a bunch of tabs to give to the Ronald McDonald house. Everyday we think of Ryan several times as we put our tabs in the jar.

We Love you, take care
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew Riley <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Monday, September 11, 2006 8:06 PM CDT

Hi Browns,

Just thinking of you all.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 11, 2006 11:58 AM CDT

Missing you...as always!!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, Nc USA - Monday, September 11, 2006 11:35 AM CDT

I have a special request this week. Generally I do not do this but our maintenance man at work named Keith just found out that he has cancer of the esophagus. It is not known what stage but they have already made plans to put in his chemo port and a feeding tube. I would just like to ask that prayers be sent up for him as he has three children one of which is still at home. Hope all is going well at the Brown household I know you have to be getting excited that soon Phillip will be home and I bet he can not wait to get here. Praying for his safe return. Love to all.
Jody
- Monday, September 11, 2006 10:31 AM CDT

love prayers the cosbys
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, mo - Sunday, September 10, 2006 10:12 PM CDT

hugs and kisses
shaw family <tjdbcshaw@yahoo.com>
clarksville, tn U.S. - Sunday, September 10, 2006 9:29 AM CDT

Hi Andrea just thinking about ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ashley Hill
Mesa, AZ - Saturday, September 9, 2006 2:28 PM CDT

Dear Andrea & Family,
Thank you for the pictures. They are beautiful, Elizabeth and Lucas are adorable. I think about you all the time and continually pray for your family. I tell my little angel that I miss him and love him everyday as I walk out the door to go to work when I see his cute lil picture on my end table. I pray for Daddy Phillips safe return and that God gies Mommy Andrea strength everyday... Our little hero is always in my prayers and 4ever in my heart...

Angel Hugs 4 ever,
Angel Darla
Darla <greeneyes4luvin@aol.com>
Deland, Fl USA - Saturday, September 9, 2006 9:56 AM CDT

Hooray for you Andrea!

I'm praying for Phillips safe return, and can't wait to read the news he is home safely. Wow everyone is growing up so fast. Brian still has his soccer bear *remember he picked a stuffed monkey and dressed them alike in soccer gear for Ryan?* He calls that bear Ryan, and says a prayer to him. He says that God tells Ryan what he says for him. I thought that was so sweet and you would really like to know that. He is not gone from any of our thoughts!
We love you and pray for you!
Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN - Wednesday, September 6, 2006 8:50 PM CDT

Hey guys!!! I'm so glad I got to see you all this weekend. I miss you guys so much!!!! I had fun down there and am trying to figure out when I can come down again!!!! Love you all soo much!
STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!!!!!
AUNT MEME <mkymse10@hotmail.com>
st peters, mo usa - Wednesday, September 6, 2006 6:20 PM CDT

Hey Brown family,
Just stopping by to let you know that we are thinking about you all.I heard Elizabeth was suprised this weekend hope she enjoyed her time with Nana Sherry and Meme. I enjoyed my time with Meme and wished I could have came with her. Can't wait to see you guys at the Relay for Life at the end of the month. Hope Phillip gets home safe and can't wait to give him trouble when we see him. Miss you all greatly. Love to all.
Jody <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 6, 2006 8:11 AM CDT

Andrea,
Thank you for the update! I miss you all terribly and appreciate you taking the time to share a bit of your life with us! Both Elizabeth and Lucas are absolutely beautiful! I am praying for a swift and safe return for Phillip and know Ryan is watching over him.
Debbie <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Sunday, September 3, 2006 8:10 PM CDT

Just stopping by to say Hi!!

Love and prayers from Illinois,

Laurie
Laurie Wilkey
Urbana, IL USA - Sunday, September 3, 2006 12:42 AM CDT

Thinking of all of you today. Hugs!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, September 3, 2006 7:00 AM CDT

Thanks for your great update. I keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers always. Good to hear things are going well. Hope to meet up with Nana Sherry soon.
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Broomfield, CO - Friday, September 1, 2006 0:19 AM CDT

It was so good to see your update, Andrea...it sure sounds like you have your hands full around there! I hope Phillip gets to come home quickly so he can join in on the fun:) I hope you've been showing his picture to Nala so she lets him thru the door!! lol

I'm sending you all hugs and good wishes tonight.
Many blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, August 31, 2006 9:05 PM CDT

Andrea,
It has been a while since I have written but believe it or not I check your webpage every other day. I often wonder how you are and if you are finding a way to cope with your loss. Ryan was not just your hero, he was(and always will be) the hero of thousands. I am happy to see that your children are doing well and I hope your husband comes home to you soon. I pray for you so you are able to use the strength from Ryans presence to build happy memories.
May God bless you and yours!!
Trina(cousin to Leah James
Trina <slatinsky@talkamerica.net>
LaSalle, MI USA - Thursday, August 31, 2006 6:14 PM CDT

Andrea,
You sound like you are doing really well, that is so good to hear! You sound so good in your entry! Sorry I never sign the guest book, but had to today! Elizabeth is a doll, too bad she looks like meme:), lets just hope she doesn't have her attitude (but it sounds like she might)! I think it is the age, Rian who is 3 1/2 months older tries the same stuff. They are at such a fun age!
Angie Timm <timm1@cox.net>
Bennington, NE - Thursday, August 31, 2006 3:09 PM CDT

Andrea
thankful that you got a clean bill of health.
cute pictures of the kids.
prayers and love
mrs pam
- Thursday, August 31, 2006 7:19 AM CDT

Hi Andrea and family! It's been a while since I have signed the guestbook, but I check on ya'll often. I am sooooo glad to hear that you loved the quilts that I made. My mom really did most of the work on them and she keeps asking me about you guys. We were so tickled to death to find just the right material. I am going to have to get Amy's address again before she kills me about still having Ryan's pics. LOL She was my cohort in crime getting me his pictures.
I am glad to hear that your family is doing well. I KNOW first hand that you have your hands FULL! I had 3 in diapers for 2 years straight! Hang in there, it DOES get easier. Now I just have my precious Amber and she is doing very well after a very rough surgery.
I will keep ya'll in my prayers and hope for a quick and safe return of Phillip.
God bless.
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ambergant
Jacklyn Gant----Circle of Six <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Savannah, GA USA - Tuesday, August 29, 2006 9:22 PM CDT

Hi all! The kids are such cuties!! I think of you all everyday and hope that Phillip gets home quickly and safely. Talk to you later.
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Tuesday, August 29, 2006 3:49 PM CDT

Hi Brown Family,
Glad to hear the upbeat updates. I'm sure it is pretty entertaining around there sometimes. As far as Elizabeth's performances I can't imagine which family member she could have gotten that from. (The list is quite long). Most of us have grown out of that stage and it has only taken 20 years. I can't wait to see you guys at Relay for Life and I hope Phillip is safety home soon.
Tiffaney <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Monday, August 28, 2006 12:48 AM CDT

BROWN FAMILY,
JUST STOPPED BY TO SAY HELLO. IM GLAD TO HEAR YOU ARE ALL DOING WELL, EXEPT FOR MISSING DADDY. IT WONT BE LONG NOW AND HE WILL BE HOME. WE HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY DAILY. TALK TO YOU LATER!
LOVE
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Monday, August 28, 2006 11:19 AM CDT

Brown Clan,
Elizabeth and Lucas are growing so much, he looks like he is going to be tall. Elizabeth is soo gorgeous. I can not believe she is getting so big. Can't wait until Phillip gets home and we get to see you all at the Relay for Life. We think of Ryan daily and are so grateful for the lessons he taught us. We miss you all and are keeping you in our prayers. Love to all!
Jody
- Monday, August 28, 2006 9:19 AM CDT

Andrea, I'm so glad I checked the website today. I have had you on my mind so much lately. Daily I pop in and just look at Ryan. i love his pic. you have on the first page. The kids are getting SO big! We pray for you all every day and especialy for Phillip to be able to return to you soon. I totally understand the "two-year-old " girl things you are going though. My daughter is going though the same things Elizabeth is going though. She has the poor boys at daycare terrified of her. Wonderful news on you health. We'll say extra prayers for Lucus' reflux to get better!Take care.
Ann Marie <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Monday, August 28, 2006 8:59 AM CDT

Hi Browns,

So nice to read an update on everyone.
The new pictures are great, of course.
Yes, I am sure Phillip will be surprised
by Sissy's new found 'attitude'....but
if its anything like it is at our house
daddy just exaggerates it!!!!

Hope you have a good week,

Alisa

<tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 28, 2006 8:08 AM CDT

Hey Brown Gang! We missed you guys last week. Lindsie really missed you. I want to thank you for choosing her to watch your little ones. I watch her with them and realize that I no longer have a little one myself. We had a flight yesterday and man was it hard watching all of the soldiers deplane and know that mine wasn't within that sea of green. Not much longer for either of us though. I am excited to hear that your appointments went well last week. You and I need to go to eat before the guys come home. Perry should be home in a few weeks! YEAH! I am so ready. I was watching Elizabeth last time she was here at the house and she made a "Ryan face". She kept watching Logan and I know that she misses her big brother. You have a wonderful family and I am so glad that God blessed Ryan with you, Phillip, and Lizzybug! I called her that and she just laughed and gave me a big hug. See you tomorrow!!!! Love you lots! Thanks for letting us be a part of your family. Phillip be safe!!!!!!
Roscella <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
Ft Campbell, - Monday, August 28, 2006 6:43 AM CDT

The other writer was right...toddler, new baby, puppy. You are brave but I bet it is so much fun and it keeps you busy. Now you need to get a tattoo! :) I think of Ryan a lot like when there is a new season, or a new event at my home with my kids...I often find my self stopping and thinking of Ryan, of Leah and of other children turned angels. Hugs to you and your family!!!!!!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, August 27, 2006 8:44 AM CDT

We just got home from a week of camping so I wanted to come by to check on you guys and to say hello. Congrats on the new addition to the family! Nala is just adorable...she looks like she could be a boxer/shepherd mix? If so, prepare to buy LOTS of dog food! LOL Hugs to all of you!!
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Saturday, August 26, 2006 5:18 PM CDT

Hi Browns...
How are all the babies?
Hope all is well.

Think of you all daily.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 25, 2006 2:39 PM CDT

Toddler, baby and new puppy...you are a braver woman than me!!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St Peters, MO - Wednesday, August 23, 2006 2:12 PM CDT

Nala is one cute....and lucky.....puppy:) She is adorable. Hope that you are enjoying her.....puppies are sooooo wonderful....and she is very cute. I check on you all daily even though I dont sign very much. Take care....Dena
Dena Olsen <Olsen7945@wi.rr.com>
Oak Creek , Wi USA - Monday, August 21, 2006 8:06 AM CDT

Who is rough? Nala or Elizabeth?Cute puppy, either way.
mrs pam
- Sunday, August 20, 2006 9:01 PM CDT

Awwwww,such a cute puppy! Does she sleep well at night? I remember when ours were little they were like babies, up alot at night. I bet the kids love her! Hi to Nana Sherry. Thinking of everyone in the Brown household and always, always, Ryan. His picture really captures his beautiful smile and gorgeous blue eyes. Sending hugs from Florida,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton becah, fl usa - Sunday, August 20, 2006 4:13 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and your family! We got a new puppy too, kind of looks like your puppy. Our puppy is a Pug named Cocoa. My daughter is very rough with her too?! :) I hope everyone is doing well. I think of Ryan all the time. I love the picture you have of Ryan on this web site. Take Care. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Saturday, August 19, 2006 6:52 AM CDT

What a cute puppy!!! I am sure Elizabeth will whip her into shape in no time!!!
Debbie <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Friday, August 18, 2006 8:54 PM CDT

She's a cutie...
I had to laugh at that last
picture when you said she's
still kinda rough....did you
mean sissy or the puppy??? LOL

Kara is 8 1/2 now and she is
still a bit too rough for my
taste with 'her' little dog.

Hope you enjoy your weekend.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 18, 2006 8:48 PM CDT

Yeah, a new puppy! Lots of fun in your house now!!
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, mo USA - Thursday, August 17, 2006 6:13 PM CDT

A new puppy!!!!
How exciting.....I"ll
be anxious to hear what
she is....I hope to
see some new pictures
soon........

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 17, 2006 10:07 AM CDT

I hear you have a new puppy.
what fun!
mrs pam
- Thursday, August 17, 2006 9:58 AM CDT

Just had to stop by and see those
cutie kids again.

Hope you are having a good week,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 15, 2006 1:45 PM CDT

cute new pictures!
I like that handsome like daddy t-shirt!
mrs pam
- Monday, August 14, 2006 10:18 AM CDT

Love the new pictures! Hi Andrea! Hi Sherry! I was going through some pictures and came across the one of Ryan in his soccer picture. He just is adorable. Think of you guys alot. Praying for Phillips speedy return and that dear Lucas feels better! Elizabeth looks like a spirited thing! Love her smile!! Hugs to all,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Saturday, August 12, 2006 7:47 PM CDT

What cute new pictures.
Looks like sissy might just
be more than a handful...lol...

I got the email about the luminaries...are
you collecting donations too?? I'm a bit
scatter brained these days...too much running
around trying to get something done I guess.

Hope everyone is feeling good.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, August 12, 2006 12:48 AM CDT

Wow-Elizabeth is getting so big! and when I look at Lucas I totally see Ryan! Beautiful pictures! God Bless all of you..
Kim <kas412@sbcglobal.net>
Bartlett, iL - Saturday, August 12, 2006 7:18 AM CDT

Andrea, Did I thank you for the beautiful picture of the kids? If not, thanks so much for sending it to me! Elizabeth has grown so much...she is such a little doll. (You can certainly see the twinkle of mischief in her eyes though!) And Lucas is absolutely adorable but I had to double-check to see when exactly he was born because he looks so big in that picture. I was expecting him to still look newbornish. LOL They are both too cute...you and Phillip do good work:) Have a wonderful weekend!!

Hugs from Michigan,
Candy

PS: Hello to Phillip too...we're thinking about you always (even though I've been terrible in the mail dept!)
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, August 11, 2006 3:30 PM CDT

Just checking in to remind you all that I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!
FOREVER AUNT MEME <MKYMSE10@HOTMAIL.COM>
ST PETERS, MO USA - Thursday, August 10, 2006 4:03 PM CDT

Sending lots of love your way! The new pics are adorable! Elizabeth is getting so big! Hope you have a joyful day filled with lots of smiles and giggles and happy memories. We still Beelieve!!!
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St. Charles, MO USA - Thursday, August 10, 2006 8:30 AM CDT

What cuties!!! Hope Lucus's reflex gets better.
xoxo
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, August 9, 2006 10:58 PM CDT

Hey it was great seeing all u guys at the poker run. Plus little elizabeth she is such a doll when big man comes back ya going to have to come up to the eagles one friday nite for steak nite Hope all is well Glad to see you guys again hope all is well see ya soon.
wes <wesdaman05@charter.net>
hoptown, ky - Monday, August 7, 2006 11:32 PM CDT

Thanks for the update! Sounds like you all have been busy. Miss you all and love you. Hope Nate and Todd get better and can't wait for Phillip to return home. Hugs and kisses to all.
Jody
- Monday, August 7, 2006 10:49 AM CDT

I don't know your family personally but have heard your story from my sister. My heart aches for you and your family as well as my sister. I can't imagine losing a child. Bless you all for having the strength to move on.
Mary Moore
Wellington, OH USA - Sunday, August 6, 2006 6:13 PM CDT

Just stopping by to say howdy and to wish you all a wonderful week. Big hugs!!
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, August 6, 2006 12:35 AM CDT

Just thinking of the Brown family this morning and wanted to read an update on how everyone was doing. And...I just want to let you know that I think of Ryan every day. I hope all of you are doing well and I will continue to pray for you. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, August 6, 2006 8:28 AM CDT

Hi guys-
Just thinking of you ALL, and thought I'd stop by to tell you...

With love,
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie

Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN - Saturday, August 5, 2006 8:12 PM CDT

Aunt Sherry,
Thanks for the update! I am glad to hear that you were able to take a trip down with the boys. Sounds like all of the grandkids kept you busy! I think of you all and pray for you daily! Love and kisses...
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Saturday, August 5, 2006 11:05 AM CDT

Thinking of Ryan today. Hugs to you!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, August 3, 2006 2:38 PM CDT

Missing you all alot and can't wait until we can get together again. Kisses and hugs to sister and Lucas. Praying Phillip and the rest of the troops stay safe until they get home. Hope you have a good day. Love you all.
Jody
- Thursday, August 3, 2006 8:45 AM CDT

Missing you lots...just like always!! I hope today is good to you.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Wednesday, August 2, 2006 8:57 AM CDT

Thinking of you all and hoping for light-hearted days and happy memories to fill your minds. The love that Ryan poured into you continues to spill over as you share that love with others...may your cup continue to overflow.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, August 2, 2006 8:50 AM CDT

thinking of you
mrs pam
- Monday, July 31, 2006 8:10 AM CDT

Hey guys!!! I've just been missing you all extra bunches the last couple of days. Sorry I couldn't be at the Poker Run with you. Phillip, we miss you very much and can't wait to see you again. It's no fun not having anyone to aggrivate all the time!! Can't wait to see you guys again. I'll try to get down there soon.
Love You All,
STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!
Forever Aunt Meme <mkymse10@hotmail.com>
St Peters, mo usa - Sunday, July 30, 2006 9:05 AM CDT

Know we still think of you all often, and pray for strength on days, or moments of sadness. We pray for encouragement from friends, family and even strangers to help you though. For you guys to feel the love and constant support of friends and family.
Chad & Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN - Saturday, July 29, 2006 11:30 AM CDT

Sorry to hear about Zachary. Hope you
get the little man's feeding problems
figured out soon. Sissy sounds like our
sissy at that age...(well, still actually)
everything is done on HER terms.

Thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, July 28, 2006 8:56 PM CDT

just dropping in to remind you that I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
Aunt MEME <mkymse@hotmail.com>
ST PETERS, MO USA - Wednesday, July 26, 2006 2:20 PM CDT

So very sorry for the loss of little Zachary.....thinking of all of you and keeping the prayers coming for all of you and especially Phillip! God Bless
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, July 25, 2006 6:15 PM CDT

Lucas was right...we are having a girl!
Doskal family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St Peters, MO - Tuesday, July 25, 2006 8:28 AM CDT

I am very sorry to read about Zachary.
Prayers for his family
and yours, too.
mrs pam
- Saturday, July 22, 2006 5:34 PM CDT

Brown Family,
I am so sorry to hear of the Tomlinson family's loss. I will keep them in my prayers. I know this time is hard for you, just know that you are surrounded by the love, thoughts and prayers of hundreds of people who love and support you.
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Friday, July 21, 2006 8:40 AM CDT

you guys were on my mind today so I just wanted to stop in and send some love. We are dodging tornadic weather and just might have our power on tonight! Don't want to get too hopeful but some a/c sure would be nice!
lots of love and prayers going out to you guys tonight and every night.
WE STILL BEELIEVE!!!
The Cosby Clan <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Thursday, July 20, 2006 9:14 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan today. Hugs to you and your family
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, July 20, 2006 5:36 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Lucas and our Angel Ryan,
Thank you so much for sharing Lucas and Elizabeth with us last night. Ray was still talking about how happy Lucas was and the expressions on his face. He truly is a beautiful baby. Elizabeth acted really shy at first but she came around too and was a joy to have at the house. I hope you will let us keep them again sometime soon. It was great to hold Lucas and just remember when the girls were that little. I think Scooter enjoyed having them around too. She continues to get after me about having another baby although she knows it isn't possible. I know it was difficult for you to go to the funeral home last night, but all the things we do make us stonger people. You were there for Tina in her time of need like she was for you last year. Thanks for helping me out the other night when I was having such a hard time dealing with all the things from the past few days. I love you so much. Phillip I hope you contniue to stay safe. We can't wait for you to get home. Love you all!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, July 19, 2006 7:04 PM CDT

BROWN FAMILY,
SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT THE Tomlinson family. WE WILL BE PRAYING FOR THEIR FAMILY AND THEIR LOSS. WE ARE ALSO PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AS YOU GO THROUGH THIS TOUGH TIME. REMEMBER TO ALWAYS CENTER YOUR LIFE AROUND GOD AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT THINK SO AT THE TIME. HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN HELP US THROUGH EVERY AND ANY SITUATION WE COME TO. ANDREA, YOU ARE THE STRONGEST PERSON I KNOW, I LOOK UP TO YOU AS A WIFE AND MOTHER. CONTINUE TO STAY STRONG.

LOVE YA
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Wednesday, July 19, 2006 9:02 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Lucas and Nanna,
We would like to express our deepest sympathies for the Tomlinson Family we will keep them in our thoughts and prayers. You all have been in our thoughts lately so much and we keep you in our prayers daily that you find comfort. I hope Lucas feels better soon. Sunday dad, Tiff and Elijah came down to swim and when we all got in the pool a bumble bee came and flew right by us and stayed there for just a few seconds, and of course we all know how that Ryan loved the water. We love you all and continue to pray for Phillip and his fellow soldiers safe return.
Garry, Jody and Emily <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, July 19, 2006 8:45 AM CDT

Andrea (and everyone!),
I love the picture of Ryan on the homepage! His eyes are so full of love and life! I know the past year has been a difficult one. I want you to know how proud of you we all are! We all mention how much of an inspiration Ryan is to us..yes, this is undoubtedly true...but both you (Andrea and Phillip) are also an amazing inspiration. I am amazed and in awe of your strength and compassion! We will continue, as always, to keep you all and Angel Ryan in our thoughts and prayers!
Debbie <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Sunday, July 16, 2006 7:49 PM CDT

Hi Sherri and Andrea,
Thinking about you all and keeping Phillip in my prayers...you've all been through so much...and you're right Sherri, grief isn't something you 'get over'....Ryan taught so much about love...and that is something that will be with you all and the lives around Ryan that he touched, forever. Sending you prayers of peace and love.....hoping Phillip comes home soon! God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Thursday, July 13, 2006 2:50 PM CDT

I'm sure this past year has felt like an eternity without your little guy. I'm thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, July 13, 2006 10:03 AM CDT

Been thinking about you a lot lately, remembering your little hero.... God bless you today and always.

Roy
Cheyenne's Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo,, Tx - Wednesday, July 12, 2006 6:51 PM CDT

I'm sure the past few days and year have been awful for you. We think of and pray for you always. Hugs, Angelique and Harlei
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Wednesday, July 12, 2006 1:03 PM CDT

Brown Family, I wanted to come on here on monday and leave a message but couldn't get my computer to work. I just wanted to let you know that our thoughts and prayers were with you all day monday and everday. I hope that God is a help during this terrible time. May you feel Ryan's love and spirit around you always. God bless you and keep you.
The Landry Family
Stacie Landry <sumahslee@yahoo.com>
Maryland Heights, MO USA - Wednesday, July 12, 2006 12:00 AM CDT

I just wanted to jot a note to let you know that I was thinking of you all yesterday as I do everyday. I can't imagine the pain you feel, but I hope you also feel his presence as his angel wings fly around you. God Bless you all
Katy Hammond <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, Tn - Tuesday, July 11, 2006 2:20 PM CDT

I just wantd to let you know how bless I feel to have you all in my life,and also wanted to thank you for letting my family be involved in special days and events. And no matter what you go through, you are always thinking of other people to share your lives with. God has truley blessed you with Ryan, but God has blessed me with you. Thanks for everything that you all have taught me. I could only wish to be half of the mother that you have become. I think not only was Ryan here to save you, but I think he was here to save us all in one way or another. I am sorry that we were not in your lives before Ryan got sick, but things do happen for a reason. Love to all of the Brown family, but extra hugs and kisses for Ann........You are an AWSOME mom and a wonderful person. Dont think any different. Keep BEELIEVING.....
Jen Shaw <tjdbcshaw@yahoo.com>
clarksville, tn US - Tuesday, July 11, 2006 10:29 AM CDT

Love you guy's. Don't get here very often but think about my little buddy and his family everyday. The 4th just wasn't the same without the gang all together. love ya and tell the LAD I said hello
uncle POP bill <bcourtneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, July 11, 2006 6:20 AM CDT

Thinking of Ryan alot today. His smile, his laugh, his spirit. How wonderfully we were blessed to have met him and to get to share in his life. It's now been a year since the Lord called him home, and I see more and more the changes he has had on my life. I am a better mom and a better person because of Ryan Douglas Brown. I pray that Ryan has let you feel his presence today. That though you may feel sorrow, the joy of his life will forever be a source of comfort to you. Know that he loves you now just as he loved you then. And even though time may have passed, Ryan changes lives today just as he did then. A year, a lifetime, I still Beelieve.....
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 11:05 PM CDT

Thinking of you all today.
I cannot believe he has been
gone a year. We know you
miss him like crazy.....

Hugs,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 10, 2006 10:51 PM CDT

I saw this on another cb site today and I believe it to be so true...What would one want to say to a loved one that they lost when they were finally reunited? "Oh, I lived in misery and pain and closed my heart to all of the wonders of life since you left . . .", or, "I missed you and I cried/felt your absence and yes, I was in pain, but I also forced myself to LIVE and to LAUGH and to FIND JOY!" What would your loved one want you to say?
Ryan lived, laughed and not only found joy, but spread it to those near and far. I know he would be proud at how you all continue to celebrate those qualities and the gift of his life.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Monday, July 10, 2006 2:29 PM CDT

Hey guys,
Just wanted to tell you guys how much I LOVE YOU and just reminding you that I'm always here for both of you.
We miss you Phillip, come home safe.

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forever Ryan's Aunt Meme <mkymse19@hotmail.com>
st peters, mo usa - Monday, July 10, 2006 2:17 PM CDT

To all the Browns,
I dont often sign the guestbook, but have been reading Ryans site for about 2 years now. I wanted you to know that I am thinking and praying for you every day, but especially today.
Tracy Grant <davendos@iafrica.com>
Durban, South Africa - Monday, July 10, 2006 2:12 PM CDT

Thinking and praying for your family today
Wanda Pursifull <wpursifull@pcmhmo.org>
Louisiana, MO USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 1:34 PM CDT

Thinking of you and praying for you today.
Mendy Christensen
Pardeeville, WI USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 1:21 PM CDT

Thinking of you all, especially today. Sending prayers and hugs your way.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew Riley <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 1:17 PM CDT

Sending Hugs and prayers to you! And Thanking God for the wonderful little boy who has touched my heart and his beautiful family. I never know what to say but I want you to know that I pray for you and your family daily and even though we have never met you have touched my life and I know today you need lots of love and extra prayers sent up for you all.
AM Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 12:58 AM CDT

I wanted you to know that your family is still in my thoughts and prayers especially today.
Mary Dicus <arcticcat_27@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 10, 2006 10:47 AM CDT

Andrea and Phillip, I am thinking of you today as always and keeping you in my heart and prayers. We love you!!!
Christie <Christiesitton@aol.com>
Fort Carson, CO USA - Monday, July 10, 2006 10:36 AM CDT

Andrea and Phillip,
Thinking of you all today and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Love you.
Jody
- Monday, July 10, 2006 8:16 AM CDT

Hi Andrea and Phillip,

Just wanted to let you know how much I love you and that I'm thinking about you today and everyday. You are always in my heart and in my prayers.

Love,
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, July 10, 2006 7:18 AM CDT

Receive a warm, tearful and wordless hug tonight, the eve of Ryan's Homegoing anniversary. Praise God who has touched our sorrow with His blessed hope!
Yolanda Rogers
Alt Spgs, FL USA - Sunday, July 9, 2006 3:28 PM CDT

Hey Brown Family,
Just thinking about you guys lately. I sure hope to see Elizabeth and Lucas soon. Hope all is going well.

Love, Tiffaney <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Friday, July 7, 2006 7:27 PM CDT

Thinking of you and sending hugs your way today.
Hugs & blessings from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, July 7, 2006 3:46 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Nana, Meme, Uncle Cory and Mema,
Just thinking of you all and keeping you all in our prayers. Love to all
Jody and Emily
- Friday, July 7, 2006 12:56 AM CDT

DEAR BROWN FAMILY,
THINKING OF YOU TODAY. PRAYING THAT EVERYONE IS IN GOOD HEALTH AND DOING GREAT. ALSO THINKING OF PHILLIP AND ALL THE MEN AND WOMEN SERVING OUR COUNTRY. WE SURE DO APPRECIATE THE SACRIFICES YOU HAVE MADE WITH YOUR FAMILY, IN ORDER TO KEEP US SAFE HERE IN THE USA. THANK YOU!!!! GOD BLESS YOU AND COME HOME SOON!

LOVE,
STEVEN AND BRYCA

BRYCA AND STEVEN INCE <bryca10@hotmail.com>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Friday, July 7, 2006 9:52 AM CDT

Just thinking of you guys.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 6, 2006 6:20 PM CDT

As I watched all the fireworks going off last night I thought of Ryan and his love for the Fourth, then I thought, "Wow, what a view he must have from up there!" Then a firework went off that had a red heart in a blue circle! I thought it so fitting! I had sent Ryan a red heart mylar balloon for his birthday, I had asked for yellow latex, but somehow ended up with some blue ones, too. When I released them for him to play with in the sky, the heart one floated all by itself for awhile and then went up and got right in the middle of a group of blue ones! How perfect to see fireworks matching Ryan's birthday balloons! Sending love, prayers and lots of thoughts to you guys!

The Cosby's!
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles , MO USA - Wednesday, July 5, 2006 10:37 AM CDT

We sent LOTS of balloons up for not only Ryan's birthday but also for the 4th of July in memory of him! You are all in my daily thoughts and prayers!
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Wednesday, July 5, 2006 6:43 AM CDT

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, July 5, 2006 0:12 AM CDT

A balloon was found in Freeburg, IL today. We've read the story and we send prayers to your family and friends.
Stacy Dahm <sjd2fd78@yahoo.com>
Belleville, IL USA - Tuesday, July 4, 2006 8:47 PM CDT

Thinking of Phillip today!
With love and thanks for serving
America.
mrs pam
- Tuesday, July 4, 2006 10:22 AM CDT

I sure was thinking of you on the 29th. Glad to hear the balloon release was special.
Forever Cameron�s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, July 2, 2006 11:28 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan this morning. Hugs to all of you!
Colleen Farmer <colleen.brehm@gmail.com>
Dearborn, Mi - Sunday, July 2, 2006 8:13 AM CDT

Glad the party went so well.
I bet the sky looked beautiful
with so many balloons released
at once.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, July 1, 2006 6:47 PM CDT

It sounds like a wonderful birthday celebration for Ryan. I'm sure he was enjoying it as much as everyone else. I was thinking about your family yesterday, as I always am.
Take care, and "Hi" to Nana Sherry.
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Broomfield, CO - Friday, June 30, 2006 2:43 PM CDT

Cole has already asked this morning if we can go back to Ryan's birthday party and the restaurant. We had such a great time being part of the celebration and really enjoyed being able to visit with everyone.
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Friday, June 30, 2006 10:03 AM CDT

LOVE YOU GUY'S. I SENT ONE UP FOR THE LITTLE GUY'S BDAY.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 30, 2006 5:21 AM CDT

Happy Birthday in Heaven Ryan!!
Ashlee <SSillyAsh@aol.com>
Newington, CT - Thursday, June 29, 2006 10:48 PM CDT

Thinking of and praying for you today and always. I took Lexus outside to light some sparklers for Ryan. Hugs,thoughts,and prayers, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:47 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan, we miss you very much.
Phyllis, MIke, Adam, & Matthew <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:23 PM CDT

Thinking of you all today.
Happy Birthday Ryan!!
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Thursday, June 29, 2006 8:51 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan..I bet you are having an awesome party in Heaven! Ballons have been sent to you from NY!
Barbara (Audrey's Umbrella)
Barbara Klein
Armonk, NY USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 8:22 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan!!!!!
I hope you are celebrating in grand fashion- I know if my daughter has anything to do with it, your party will be absolutely amazing!!!
Andrea and Phillip,
I am thinking of you both, and sending my love to you, Elizabeth, Lucas, Grandma Sherry... and all. Your friendship means so very much. I keep your family photos on the fridge, so I look at you all WAAAAAAAAY too much-lol.
Hope today brings many wonderful memories, heartfelt laughter, and gentle smiles. I know there will be tears, too. As I often say- our sadness and grief is an exact mirror of our love- and I know how great your love is for Ryan...
With love,
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie
Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN - Thursday, June 29, 2006 7:38 PM CDT

I just sent Ryan his birthday balloon.
I tried to send it with a postcard, so that
whoever found it could let us know when
and where. But it was too heavy, so I wrote
the cb address on the back of the balloon.
love and prayers
mrs pam
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 6:21 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan............Hope you enjoy all your balloons today:) I think all the balloons coming to heaven will make the most BEAUTIFUL rainbow. Praying for your whole family today.
Dena Olsen <Olsen7945@wi.rr.com>
Oak Creek, Wi USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 6:16 PM CDT

Happy Birthday little man!! We miss you and wish we could squeeze you. I would love to play a little soccer with you too!! Ryan please watch over your mom, dad, sister and new brother. They need your smiles everyday. We love you!!!

Travis & Heather Mazzanti <t_mazzanti@yahoo.com>
Elk Grove, Ca USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 6:01 PM CDT

Happy Birthday to you Ryan!!!! I can't even imagine the birthday party you must be having in heaven right now with all of your new friends. It must be great! Please know we will be sending you balloons with special messages from Savannah, Georgia!!!!
Prayers to mom and dad and sissy for today as always. I really wish I could've met Ryan, I know he was quite a special kid.
Jacklyn Gant <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Savannah, GA USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 2:55 PM CDT

Lots of love and hugs sent your way from your friends at Pennyroyal Hospice. I remember Ryan's birthday last year so well. His smile and personality lit up the room! WE love you and we are praying for you this day. I emailed you too.. Happy Birthday Ryan!
Tina Tomlinson
Hopkinsville, KY - Thursday, June 29, 2006 2:19 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan! My children and I will be sending balloons your way tonight! Stay close to your mommy today, I know she needs it! You are truly a wonderful little boy!
Katy Hammond <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Thursday, June 29, 2006 2:10 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan. We love and miss you so much!!!!!
Christie, anson and Tristyn Sitton <christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Carson, CO USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 1:44 PM CDT

Andrea & Phillip~
Six years ago today your world as you knew it changed,you two became so much more than husband and wife.You got the title that most wear the proudest.Mommy & Daddy.
Though I have never met the two of you,through your unselfishness and willingness to share your little man with the world I do feel as we are connected.My heart is with your entire family today as you celebrate Ryan's birthday.My 4 children & I are sending him balloons tonight as well.
Lots of love from Kansas,Sunshine <kssandman@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 1:25 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Ryan!!!!!
We love you and miss you sooo much. We love your mom and dad and brother and sissy so much. We will be sending you balloons to heaven with lots of hugs and kisses tonight.
Love
Jody, Garry and Jody <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 12:40 AM CDT

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!!
Happy Birthday Dear Ryan!!!!
Happy Birthday to you!!

Remember you are always in our hearts minds. and toughts and prayers. My sons and I are going o send balloons as well. I hope you get them...

We love you!!
Always believing that will get to meet someday..
Alma <tetetoo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 10:21 AM CDT

Happy Birthday, Ryan!! We miss you buddy.
Crystal Trower <crystalt22@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 10:00 AM CDT

I'll be looking heavenward at 6 o'clock
as I send Ryan red and yellow balloons,
hoping they'll join the balloons launched
from Louisiana.
prayers and love from St. Louis
mrs pam
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:51 AM CDT

I never had the great priviledge of meeting Ryan but I heard so many wonderful stories. I did however have the great pleasure of walking in the Breast Cancer walk in STL with his aunt and grandma. My mother was diagnosed with a brain tumor 7 months ago and is still going through her chemo. Everyday I am reminded of the strength that beautiful little boy had. My son and I will release ballons tonight for Ryan in Springfield. God Bless your entire family on the day that amazing boy came into your lives.
Jody Hackley <jody.hackley@ago.mo.gov>
Springfield, MO - Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:45 AM CDT

Just letting you know that our prayers our with on this day and always. My son and I will be releasing balloons for Ryan's birthday this evening. May God Bless You and keep you. God Bless, The Landry Family
Stacie Landry <sumahslee@yahoo.com>
Maryland Heights, MO 63043 - Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:27 AM CDT

Andrea, thinking of you with love. 6 years ago today you became a Mommy. You have been an example of strength for all the rest of us mommies. Where we knew we would collapse, you have stood up strong, when your pain has overwhelmed us, you have smiled and said you were doing ok. While your heart has been broken, your strength has not. I pray that you celebrate today for everything it is. The day that the world was blessed with Ryan Douglas Brown, and the day that the world recieved a hero he called 'Mommy'.
While our schedules will not allow us to be joining you, we will be releasing balloons tonight for Ryan and his friends to catch in Heaven. I can't wait to see how he makes the balloons dance with the wind so we all know he is there.
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 9:11 AM CDT

Happy birthday, Ryan!
Kelly <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Thursday, June 29, 2006 8:23 AM CDT

We'll be releasing our own balloons for Ryan this afternoon.

Thinking of you all!!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 29, 2006 8:01 AM CDT

hey buddy i miss you so very much we all are kinda lost with out you. Happy birthdy i love you i miss you see you later. love you forever and ever daddy
dad
ft cambell, ky USA!! - Thursday, June 29, 2006 4:14 AM CDT

Andrea and Brown Family,
Unfortunately, we will not be able to attend Ryan's balloon release. However, the girls and I will be releasing balloons at the park with messages for Ryan. Six years ago, God blessed us all with Ryan's birth. While we miss him dearly, his love and amazing way of life still continues to touch us all!!!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 8:45 PM CDT

You are in my prayers as you celebrate the priceless memory of Ryan's birth. May our Lord hold you close. May you know the peace and comfort of His embrace. No matter that we think about them all day, every day, these special days will always fall upon us with a deeper sorrow and an even keener pain. We know this pain and we thank God we are able to share not only your grief but also His faithful and precious promise of Heaven.

In His Love,
Yolanda Rogers
http://www.galatians5.com
Mom to Anna <weloveanna@earthlink.net>
Alt Spgs, FL USA - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 5:34 PM CDT

I read this quote by Dr. Ryamond Edman earlier this week regarding facing trials...
First, He brought me here, it is by His will I am in this strait place; in that fact I will rest.
Next, He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace to behave as His child.
Then, He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons He intends me to learn and working in me the grace He means to bestow.
Last, in His time He can bring me out again - how and when He knows.

I hope that the pain you now feel continues to motivate and inspire you to share the joy that Ryan brought to your lives and the lives of many others. Carry your candle and go light your world.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 3:43 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, and Lucas,
Just a note to let you know we love you all and are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.
Love
Jody, Garry and Emily
- Wednesday, June 28, 2006 8:57 AM CDT

Hi Brown Family! We just got home from camping and had a nice trip. I wanted to let you know that Ryan was very much on my mind while I was gone. I was thinking of him while I was sitting on the beach of Lake Michigan, watching the sunset. I took a smooth rock and wrote Ryan's name on it with permanent marker, then I said a prayer for him (and for you) and tossed the rock into the water. Now Ryan will always be part of my favorite place in the world:)

I will be thinking about you on Thursday and plan to join you in sending red and yellow balloons up to your little guy. If I can get my digital camera working before then, I'll be sure to send you a picture.
Hugs & prayers from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Wednesday, June 28, 2006 1:40 AM CDT

Just stopping in to say we love you. We'll be thinking of you on Thursday, just like we do every day. Love you guys...
Kelly <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 3:35 PM CDT

Ryan, Happy Birthday Buddy!(a little early) We are leaving for vacation tonight. But we are going to be sending up red and yellow baloons from Leroy, MI. Andrea, Phillip,Angel Ryan, Elizabeth and baby Lucus,you are all in our prayers everyday.
A M Ranschaert
So. Bend, IN USA - Tuesday, June 27, 2006 8:34 AM CDT

Brown Family,
Just wanted to stop in and let you know that your family is in our thoughts and prayers daily. We know that the next few weeks are going to be extremely hard for you family to get through, just know there are lots a people with you in their prayers.

Wanda Pursifull <wpursifull@pcmhmo.org>
Louisiana, MO USA - Monday, June 26, 2006 2:11 PM CDT

Hi Andrea and Phillip,

I just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I wish I could make the next few days, weeks, months, easier, but all I can do is tell you I love you and keep praying for God to continue giving you strength and guidance in your daily walk.

Love you very much. Here's a bunch of hugs to share with all your children,

Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, June 26, 2006 10:13 AM CDT

Andrea,

Can you please tell us what airport is close and the exact address if you don't mind.

Thank you always thinking of you..
Alma <latin69va@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, June 26, 2006 7:23 AM CDT

Thinking of you all!!!! Love you!!!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
- Saturday, June 24, 2006 9:17 PM CDT

Andrea,

There are so many happy memories of Ryan, its hard to choose my favorite one. I remember him with a smile every time! I pray for you and Phillip often. Keep putting up pictures! We will be thinking of you next week for the balloon release.
Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN USA - Friday, June 23, 2006 8:44 PM CDT

Hi Andrea, There's not a day that goes by when I don't think about Ryan. He touched our lives in many ways. Aiyana still talks about her best friend and I don't ever want her to forget.
On June 29th, the girls and I will send off our own baloons here in Hawaii at 1pm which will be the same time you will be releasing your baloons in Mo.. He will always be in our hearts and minds.
I hope that you and your family are doing fine. Please tell Phillip "ALOHA" for us.
Your ohana is always in our prayers. Love, Christy and family
Christy Ramirez <ChristyRamirez@msn.com>
kaneohe, Hi USA - Thursday, June 22, 2006 4:07 PM CDT

The balloon release sounds great. I'm pretty sure I'll get to be there. I still think of him everyday and more now since it's getting close to his b-day. Thinking of you,
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Wednesday, June 21, 2006 3:53 PM CDT

Andrea,
I think about you and Ryan so often. I think about Phillip over there with my brother and Cameron with Ryan. I wonder if they are watching them proudly, saying, "That's my daddy" or "That's my Uncle Danny" and all the other kids surrounding them and watching over them.

These months have been so hard. Life just keeps on going without them. I feel so quilty sometimes.
Please know that I think of you guys and I know you can't come to Vegas, but you will be in our thoughts.

Cameron�s mom forever!
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, June 21, 2006 8:10 AM CDT

Just thinking of you.
Hope Phillip had a good Fathers Day.

Alisa

www.caringbridge.com/ut/devinross <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, June 19, 2006 2:37 PM CDT

I made a note on my calendar for
red and yellow balloons for Ryan.
(and it is a good thing I looked at
my calendar because I noticed that
my sister in law's plane is due in a
half an hour before I thought it was!)
prayers and love
mrs pam
- Monday, June 19, 2006 10:16 AM CDT

Phillip, If you have a chance to read this, I want you to know how proud I am of you and what you are doing. I know I have told you this before but you are the best Dad a child could ask for!! Don't look back with any regrets. HAPPY FATHER"S DAY!!!!! I love you Son!!!

MIL
- Sunday, June 18, 2006 3:01 PM CDT

Hey Guys Their not a day that goes by that i dont think bout my favorite little buddy in the world Ryan. I miss his smile and i miss those hug he used to give me when he come out to the Eagles. Hopefully we get to see u and the kids this year poker run July 29 we really want ya to be there. Love ya Give the Two kids a kiss from me.
wes ricks <wesdaman05@charter.net>
Hopkinsville, Ky - Sunday, June 18, 2006 2:27 AM CDT

THinking of you and your Angel boy lots this week.
Hope you're ok. I know you miss him terribly.
We do too. He's still the cutest kid in Kentucky!!

Miss you Ryan,

The Ross Family
www.caringbridge.com/ut/devinross <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, June 16, 2006 9:26 PM CDT

Oh Andrea, I cannot imagine your pain and how vfery much all of you miss your sweet Ryan. Being so far away I will do what I do for all our CB angels...let a ballon go with a note attached from our backyard here in Florida. You are in my thoughts and prayers....Please give Sherry a hug from me. God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Friday, June 16, 2006 6:49 PM CDT

Cole got stuck in his room today after he shut the door and couldn't get it open. When I finally got back there to see why he was screaming, Drew was laying on Cole's bed, holding him and telling him not to be scared. He told me that he reassured Cole he didn't have to be afraid and he said he also told him that when we go to heaven, we will all be there together and never have to be sad or afraid again...a nice reminder for us all.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO USA - Friday, June 16, 2006 5:43 PM CDT

I remember the balloon picture from last year.
Ryan must have set a record for # of b-day balloons.
Mema has a great idea of having a 100 luminaries
for Ryan,
Praying for you, Andrea.

mrs pam
- Wednesday, June 14, 2006 6:20 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,
I can't imagine the pain and sadness you are experiencing right now. I can only tell you that I am forever grateful to Ryan for helping me see what life is really about. May God bring happy, beautiful memories of Ryan to you! I can see him riding four wheelers and catching a whopper up in heaven with our other special angels. Love and prayers to all!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Monday, June 12, 2006 3:22 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan this moring. I think of Ryan everyday and I think of you and your family all the time. I'm still praying for you and sending you hugs everyday. Love Love.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, June 11, 2006 7:15 AM CDT

Andrea and Phillip,
I sit at the computer and I read the journal and the guestbook and somedays I laugh, some days I cry, and everyday I get lost in thoughts and memories. I get to the guestbook to make an entry and I find myself sitting here at a complete loss of words. I try to think of encouraging and upbeat things to say to you guys to cheer you up or help you through the day. Instead I find myself sitting here crying and all I want to say is how much I miss Ryan. But you don't need to always hear that. You are going through the same type of feelings, just more intense.
Today we did the Race for the Cure. Before the race we were going to all the sponsor tents and there in front of me was a huge bumble bee!!! And I gave a sad little smile and had some wonderful thoughts cross my mind and went about the day. A little later Nana and I had gotten balloons. We gave them a hug and a kiss and sent them to Ryan. Once we were on the walk (race), a group of Army men and women in complete uniform and with their sacks on their backs came running by carrying an American Flag. The thought came to both of us several times that one day we'll be doing this race for Ryan. It was an emotional day. The days and weeks approaching are going to be tough. Know that I am here if either one of you need anything at all. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I'M SO PROUD OF YOU BOTH FOR THE STRENGTH AND COURAGE YOU HAVE SHOWN.

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!
FOREVER AUNT MEME
ST PETERS, MO USA - Saturday, June 10, 2006 11:04 PM CDT

Lots of love and prayers for strength for you today, Andrea. I know that your heart is broken, know that even though our pain could never equal yours, we cry with you. We cry for you. Not a day goes by that Ryan isn't in our thoughts and prayers. And while we know that his pain is over, yours is not. I pray that this day you feel our prayers, our love, and our arms reaching out to hold you up. Eleven months hasn't changed the fact that we still beelieve. That we still hope for a cure for all the other children stopped to young. I pray that our voices will be heard that enough children have suffered, enough needles, enough treatments, enough families left with holes that can never be filled, but not enough money focused on a cure.
All our love and prayers for you today... The Cosby's
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Saturday, June 10, 2006 0:19 AM CDT

Wednesday evening when I left the cemetery, I thought to myself does this ever get any easier. I stop at the cemetery every morning and if I am running late I just speed up a little faster to make up the time to be sure I have the time to stop. There are very few times I haven't stopped. In the vening, it is the same routine. Every time it seems like it was just yesterday that we left him there, not months. His lot is so pretty with the bumblebee decorations that have been added and the flowers. The grass has grown in nice and green.

I have gotten over the bitterness of God taking our Ryan but I still can't help but to ask why.

Everyday I talk to Ryan because he is standing right next to me there. I can feel him there and he is such a good listener. I say happy things to him and tell him what is going on and then I stop myself and say, "Hey, Ryan, I bet you already knew about that didn't you?" When Lucas was about to be born, I told him that "Saturday your baby brother will be born" and then again, I say, "But, Ryan, I know you already know about that don't you?" We have talked about Daddy coming home from Iraq and Elizabeth going to daycare. We talk about Mommy and her heart problem. I told him what a wonderful little brother he has. I tell him what a good boy he is for helping to watch over all of us because I feel that could be why God took him so soon is because he needed Ryan's help in Heaven. Each one of us that goes to Heaven will have a special thing to do for God and I know that this is Ryan's special job. Ryan definietly has an unfair advantage over me when it comes to the news because he is in a position to know things before we learn about them here on earth. I tell him how much I love him and miss him, but there again, I know he already knows that too.

I know he is proud of the way we have honored him with our tributes at his gravesit, the love we express in our thoughts and prayers and the special things we do to remember him. He will never be forgotten. He has touched so many lives. He has changed so many lives. With just the mention of his name, people immediately become more softer, gentler, more caring. He has brought thousands together with his website.

I look at the picture you have posted, Andrea, with all his balloons. This picture expresses the very great pain and suffering he was going through. His eyes tell it all. But I am most thankful that he has to never feel that pain and suffering again. He was so brave through all of his suffering. I think about all the pictures that were taken of him throughout his ordeal and then I think about the day he passed away. The smile that came upon his face when the Angel of the Lord came down to escort his spirit to Heaven. That smile!!!! That one memory will stick with me
forever. I will never forget the sadness I felt that day, but I know in my heart of hearts that I will someday see that smile again when that same Angel of the Lord comes down to escort me to Heaven. I just pray that I will be as brave as Ryan was on that day and I plan to wear that same smile because I know besides my Jesus I will see Ryan as well as other family members that have gone on before. We all have many that we have lost that we know we will see again.

I thank God that we had Ryan five years. I thank God for the ability he gave us as humans to be able to store memories so that we can think back on the good times and remember them like they happened only yesterday. I hope that everyone who knew Ryan not only thinks about the fact that he is no longer with us but the joy and the pleasure we had while he was with us and how different our hearts and lives would have been had he not lived at all.

I play to celebrate his birthday by sharing with him my thoughts for the day and by praying that Andrea and Phil will have peace on this day remembering the birthdays that have past and the great fun he had in celebrating.

I believe it was year before last that Ryan celebrated two birthdays. One was supposed to be a coming home party from the hospital, but he thought it was a birthday party and so we celebrated like it was a birthday party. We made him happy and he made us happy. This year I would like to have two parties for him again. One on the 29th of June by releasing balloons with special messages of love and admiration and the second one would be when our County takes part in the American Cancer Society Relay for Life drive. Last year Ryan came in second, although this was not a race, in having the most luminaries at the event. This year I would like for us to remember Ryan and his life by contributing to this organization. I would like to see at least 100 donations made in his memory. The luminaries are $5.00 each and I know he would be so proud to know that we have remembered him in this way as well as giving someone else the chance to live through the finding of a cure for this horrible disease. This event is held at the Pike County Fair Grounds in Bowling Green, Missouri. Each year one family donates their time to prepare luminaries which are used to line the track at the fair grounds. The luminaries are paper bags with sand in the bottom. Each bag containes a candle and as the names of honorees are read the candles are lit. Last year Nana and I lit the candles as Ryan's name was read over and over again. Of course, if we get 100 luminaries, we will need help from family and friends to light them. The name is read for each individual luminary which means that Ryan's name will be read over and over again and I think that would be a good to celebrate a second birthday. I have forgotten the date for this event but I believe it is in August. If there is any interest in helping to celebrate a second time please let me know and we will get started on this. I will be there with my luminaries and welcome all who want to participate.

Please pray daily for Phil and the other enlisted men and women we have in the Armed Forces.

Mema <pattycapp44@sbcglobal.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Friday, June 9, 2006 9:30 PM CDT

We will definitley be releasing ballons for Ryan. My heart breaks and cries for you. Ryan will have one heck of a rockin' party w/ his friends with all the balloons he is going to get. Harlei and Lexus are going to draw a four wheeler on the ballons. :)Hugs to you, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Friday, June 9, 2006 12:21 AM CDT

Ryan was such a trooper, with a great fighting spirit. That must come from his mommy and daddy and I know that strength will carry you through. You can count on a balloon release in St. Peters, MO!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Friday, June 9, 2006 12:07 AM CDT

I can't even imagine what you've been through or going through now. My situation isn't the same, but my Amber getting a feeding tube recently was very scary to me. The hospital was full of sick children and it was heart wrenching to me. I cannot tell you how many times I just sobbed for Amber and for the children there. We had some scary times the week we were in, and 2 children lost their battle while we were there.
Somehow as moms we learn to cope with what we've been handed, especially when there are other children involved. God has given us this ability to overcome and push on. Amber is my oldest of 4 of our children, just like Ryan was with yours. We survive because our other children need us.With saying that you also need to make sure you find time to be by yourself sometimes to, even if it is just to weep. I spend time in prayer when in the shower (I know, weird place to remember to pray), but it works. When my little ones are down for a nap I sit on the porch and just sit in thought. I just want you to know that you are an inspiration to me and I think of you often. I am going to be organizing a ballon launch here in Savannah GA with the neighborhood children for Ryan's birthday. Ryan will be getting balloons from all over the country letting him know how much he's loved and what a big 6 year old he is. Ryan truly is a hero to all of us, even those of us whom never had the oppurtunity to know him.
God bless your family!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ambergant
Jacklyn Gant <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill, GA - Friday, June 9, 2006 10:51 AM CDT

I can't even imagine what you've been through or going through now. My situation isn't the same, but my Amber getting a feeding tube recently was very scary to me. The hospital was full of sick children and it was heart wrenching to me. I cannot tell you how many times I just sobbed for Amber and for the children there. We had some scary times the week we were in, and 2 children lost their battle while we were there.
Somehow as moms we learn to cope with what we've been handed, especially when there are other children involved. God has given us this ability to overcome and push on. Amber is my oldest of 4 of our children, just like Ryan was with yours. We survive because our other children need us.With saying that you also need to make sure you find time to be by yourself sometimes to, even if it is just to weep. I spend time in prayer when in the shower (I know, weird place to remember to pray), but it works. When my little ones are down for a nap I sit on the porch and just sit in thought. I just want you to know that you are an inspiration to me and I think of you often. I am going to be organizing a ballon launch here in Savannah GA with the neighborhood children for Ryan's birthday. Ryan will be getting balloons from all over the country letting him know how much he's loved and what a big 6 year old he is. Ryan truly is a hero to all of us, even those of us whom never had the oppurtunity to know him.
God bless your family!
Jacklyn Gant <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill, GA - Friday, June 9, 2006 10:51 AM CDT

Hi Andrea,

Thinking about you today, thinking about your beautiful Ryan with Cheyenne. Smiled a little, cried alot.

We would love to have a balloon release here on the 29th at the same time as you...

God Bless

Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Thursday, June 8, 2006 10:22 PM CDT

Andrea, so much has happened and changed in our lives over the past year. One thing that will never change or be forgotten is how Ryan brought our family closer. I can't say if the pain will ever go away, but I know that the love won't. My thoughts and prays will be with you and Phillip.
Tiffaney <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, June 8, 2006 8:44 PM CDT

Andrea,
I read the journals from this time last year earlier today and when I would read them the memories were so fresh in my mind and it did not feel like it happened a year ago but yesterday. I can not even imagine what you are going through right now, but know that we all love you and loved him so very much and continue to love and miss him everyday. When people go back and read the history they will see that Ryan never stopped living while he was here because he had parents who helped him make every second count. We love and miss you all and are keeping you in our prayers.
Jody <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, June 8, 2006 4:30 PM CDT

There will be ballons released in New York for Ryan. And they will carry messages of love up to Ryan. Ryan has touched so many people in his life, that I am sure they will have to cancel all flights on that day!!

Barbara (Audrey's Umbrella)
Barbara Klein <dirnursery@aol.com>
- Thursday, June 8, 2006 3:47 PM CDT

Andrea, I was just thinking of you and wanted to let you know how much we wish we could be there for the balloon release on Ryan's birthday. We will be releasing some here in Colorado. We love you and will be with you in spirit.
Christie Sitton <christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Carson, CO 80913 - Thursday, June 8, 2006 2:32 PM CDT

Words can not express how deeply touched I am by you and your family. I think and pray for you all daily. I would love to be a part of the balloon release. Ryan changed so many lives for the better. How blessed you are to have had him.
Katy Hammond <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Thursday, June 8, 2006 2:08 PM CDT

Red and Yellow baloons will be released here in Indiana for Ryan! Andrea, I am the mother of four and for the past year I have checked Ryan's site daily you are such a strong woman. I pray for the Lord to give you peace and comfort. Ryan has made me realize that I needed to slow down and take time out for my four sweethearts. So now if the house is messy and one of them wants to snuggle. We snuggle. If I am late for work in the morning and one of them wants to pick up a worm on the sidewalk.. well we play with the worm. I need to thank you and your family for sharing Ryan and your lives. He and you have touched my heart and helped me to become a better mother to my kids. You are a very special family. As always we will keep you all in our prayers!
Ann Marie Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Thursday, June 8, 2006 1:40 PM CDT

I think a balloon release sounds great! You know you've always had a lot of support from this area. I bet Ryan would love to see all those people holding his favorite color balloons on his birthday! Thinking of you always!
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Thursday, June 8, 2006 9:07 AM CDT

Rest assured that red and yellow balloons will be floating up from Michigan!!
Hugs & love from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, June 8, 2006 8:53 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, and Brown Babies,
Wanted to let you all know that we are thinking of you and praying for you all the time! Lucas is getting soooo big! I pray Elizabeth is enjoying her summer and will continue to pray that God, with the help of Angel Ryan, will wrap you in his arms and give you peace over the next coming weeks!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Thursday, June 8, 2006 7:32 AM CDT

I am actually a charleville and have been followig the entries on ryan from his family and i followed his progress until he passed.
Ashley Heinold <ashley.riggle@radioshack.com>
Festus, MO US - Wednesday, June 7, 2006 3:27 PM CDT

Hi Guys,

Hope things are going well in Kentucky.
We think about Ryan and all of you
every day.

Alisa

www.caringbridge.com/ut/devinross <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, June 6, 2006 11:08 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm thinking of you today and everyday!
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO USA - Tuesday, June 6, 2006 10:46 AM CDT

thinking of you
mrs pam
- Tuesday, June 6, 2006 9:58 AM CDT

Hi there, I haven't been able to check in for some time now. I don't have the internet and I never get on the computer anymore. I continue to pray and think of you all daily. I hope all is well. I will be there on June 29th without a doubt. With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Skirvin (minor) <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
nebo, il - Monday, June 5, 2006 8:12 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Lucas,
Just wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you all and keeping you in our prayers. Hoping all is safe with Phillip. Miss you all and hope to see you soon. Love you all.
Jody, Garry and Emily
- Monday, June 5, 2006 1:09 PM CDT

Loving you guys...and missing our buddy.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Monday, June 5, 2006 9:02 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I am sorry I missed Elizabeth's birthday. I hope she had a happy day. She is so cute in her pictures.

I do think of Ryan. He taught beautiful lessons to many people.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, June 3, 2006 0:18 AM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and send some love and maybe a little bit of strength to you today. You have been on my mind a lot lately. Kiss those kids for me and take care of yourself.
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Monday, May 29, 2006 9:12 PM CDT

As our thoughts and prayers go out today to the countless families who have lost a service member, our gratitude also goes out to the men and women who are currently serving our country in the military. My family and I just wanted to say thank you, Phillip.
Hugs and prayers from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Monday, May 29, 2006 3:35 PM CDT

Never in my life has a family ever impacted my life and made me change like you and your family has...Ryan certainly is an angel and a Gift from God. I think of that little guy every day. I think about Ryan and Leah when I'm having a tough time with knowing what the right thing to do or say when I'm with my own children. Thinking of them both, thinking of you and Karen makes me slow down, think and try to do the right thing, to be a better person, a better mom. One day we may be able to meet in person. I would like that very much. I would like to help you in any way possible with any type of event or action you want to coordinate on behalf of Ryan for brain tumor research, helping families and children who are going through the same journey that you, your family and Ryan have gone through and are going through. I am on the Board of Directors for the non-profit organization Karen is creating on behalf of her daughter Leah - called Leah's Happy Hearts and I am sure both Karen and are willing to share any of our ideas and thoughts with you on what we are doing. Maybe just spreading the word is all you can do right now, but that is huge. I don't sign Ryan's guestbook as often as I used to or as often as I should but don't think for one moment that I have forgotten Ryan. I think of him every day. I think of you everyday and I will never forget...I will never forget Ryan!

Hugs!

Colleen Farmemr
Dearborn, MI - Saturday, May 27, 2006 7:33 AM CDT

Andrea and family,

Happy birthday Elizabeth! Two is such a special age. And what a blessing for Elizabeth to have such a beautiful baby brother.

I'll be thinking about you during the coming days, as the painfull memories return.

"Hi" to Nana Sherry...that was such a nice journal entry.
Mary Walsdorf (www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf) <walsdorf@msn.com>
- Friday, May 26, 2006 0:40 AM CDT

Happy Belated Birthday, Elizabeth!!!

I've been visiting the site often, but haven't ever signed in before because I didn't know what to say. After reading the last entry, I felt I needed to say something. I'm just so sorry for everything that you have had to go through. My heart goes out to you. . .

Also, I can't thank enough what your dad/husband is doing for this country and the sacrifices he has made for us all. A big thanks to all of our troops in this country and those who are serving abroad. You are all true heroes!

PS: I'm not sure how I found your site, but I'm assuming it was through another one that I frequent. Just so you know how I got here. :0)

Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Becky L. Harbarth <peanutpie3879@netscape.net>
Gaylord, MN USA - Thursday, May 25, 2006 3:31 PM CDT

Miss Elizabeth
You share a birthday with one
of my Goddaughters. Sending
belated wishes to you, two year old!
mrs pam
- Thursday, May 25, 2006 12:25 AM CDT

Nana, thank you so much for bringing the service to the rest of us that still love and miss Ryan, too. We are praying for all of you to feel God's loving arms around you.

We still Beelieve...

Colleen,Michael, Conner and your B-nut
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 8:17 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!!!!!!
Hope you had a great day. :)
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles999@yahoo.com>
Grand Blanc , mi - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 3:28 PM CDT

Happy Birthday, Elizabeth!!! Noah and Natalie ran around our house singing to you all day yesterday. Too bad we are too far away for you to hear it. I hope you are being spoiled... :) We miss you so much.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 3:05 PM CDT

Dear Andrea, Elizabeth, Lucas, ad Phillip
I was so glad I stopped by last week to see you all. I loved holding Lucas and seeing Elizabeth. She has grown so much over these past few months. Of course as I told you Andrea I had Ryan on my mind a lot lately and NaNa summed it all up on the website. Of course this is the time of the year that I also think of my Angel because she would have been celebrating her 12th birthday in a few weeks. I hope Elizabeth had a great birhtday. From talking with you on the phone it sounds like she did. I'm glad you could be around family for her special day. Scooter and I will try to get by the house before she has her surgery and it's too hard for me to carry her places. She wants to see Lucas too. Phillip, thank you for all you have done and continue to do for our freedom. We love you and miss you. You all take care and I'll see you soon. Love you guys.
Ms. Sharon:-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 2:31 PM CDT

Hey Andrea it's me Tabitha just wanted to say hi and wish Elizabeth a Happy B-day. Oh yeah tell Uncl Phillip I said hi. LOVE ALWAYS,
TABITHA
Tabitha <navyblue2006@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 10:51 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Cutie!!

Hope you had a great day.

The Ross Family
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 24, 2006 10:51 AM CDT

Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday, dear Elizabeth...
Happy Birthday to you!!!!
Sorry I'm a day late - I hope the birthday girl had a fun day:)

What you wrote brought back so many memories of following Ryan's journey last summer. For some reason, the thing I remember most when I think about Ryan is him ambushing the big guys with his space blaster:)
Healing hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 9:48 AM CDT

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday, dear Elizabeth!
Happy Birthday to you!
And MANY more!
CHA, CHA, CHA!!!!
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, May 24, 2006 9:13 AM CDT

Happy Birthday beautiful! WOW! I can't believe you are 2 already! What a magical age to be! Lots of love from the Cosby's!
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 10:12 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth, love and miss you!!!
The Contreras's <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, May 23, 2006 8:54 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!! Have a fun day w/ many sweet hugs from your guardian angel Ryan. Hugs,thoughts,and prayers, Angelique and Harlei
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 8:47 PM CDT

Happy Birthday, Elizabeth! I hope Mommy and Daddy will bring you and Lucas to visit us in Florida!
Love,
Ellen
Ellen Harpin <ellens12@yahoo.com>
Casselberry, Florida USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 7:38 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!!! Hope your day is special. Know that we are all thinking about you and your family.

Rita
Velva, ND USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 6:13 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH! I hope your day has been filled with sunshine and kisses.

The Hardin's
Covington, GA USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 3:45 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth! I hope that you had a wonderful day. Birthdays are so much fun

Barbara (Audrey's Umbrella)
Barbara Klein
- Tuesday, May 23, 2006 3:33 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!! Hope you have the best birthday ever!

Melissa <mah0375@yahoo.com>
Burleson, TX US - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 3:00 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!! WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY! I HOPE YOU CAN FEEL OUR HUGS AND KISSES FROM MISSOURI.
Garry, Jody, and Emily
Boss, MO USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 1:18 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth! You are all in our thoughts and prayers, as always!
Katy Hammond
Clarksville, TN - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 1:07 PM CDT

HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH.... HOPE THIS DAY IS A MAGICAL ONE.
Chuck E Cheese
Clarksville, TN USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 12:54 AM CDT

Happy 2nd Birthday, Elizabeth!
Cindy Wright
Tennessee, - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 12:42 AM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH, HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!

LOVE,
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 11:14 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday.Lots of hugs and kisses heading your way!!
Christie <christiesitton@aol.com>
Fort Carson, CO USA - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 9:52 AM CDT

Just stopping by with a hug and a smile to wish you all a beautiful day:)
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Tuesday, May 23, 2006 8:46 AM CDT

Thinking about you and hoping that you're all doing well. After nearly two weeks of rain, we're enjoying blue skies and sunshine here in Michigan. My boys will be happy for baseball season to get back on track:) I hope the sun is shining for you too. Big hugs!!
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Saturday, May 20, 2006 9:13 AM CDT

Andrea, Elizabeth and Lucas,
I hate that it seems the time we get to spend with you goes by so quickly. We love being with you all and Meme and the boys and Nana. Lucas and Elizabeth are such beautiful and lucky children to have such a strong wonderful mother.I hope you all had a good trip back home. Thinking about you and keeping you all in our prayers. Glad to see Phillip got to leave you a message. Love to you all.
Jody and Emily <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 16, 2006 2:17 PM CDT

Happy belated Mother's Day! I hope you got some SLEEP, which is a great present any day!
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St Peters, MO - Tuesday, May 16, 2006 12:34 AM CDT

Hi Andrea,

Hope you had a good day yesterday.
Thinking of you,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 15, 2006 8:29 PM CDT

Andrea - Happy Mother's day. Thinking of you a lot today and sending you hugs.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, May 14, 2006 3:31 PM CDT

Andrea,
remembering Ryan, and thinking of you and Phillip
and, of course, Elizabeth and Lucas, too,
on Mother's Day.
mrs pam
- Sunday, May 14, 2006 2:46 PM CDT

Hello everyone I was just wanting to my beautiful wife that she is one of the greatest mothers of all time. You salone have overcome so many obsticles that some would have just gave up. I am so proud of you and i am sure ryan will let you know he is with you today. Have a good day with the other two brown babies, just remeber i love you and i miss you. I will see you soon.

love phillip
phillip
- Sunday, May 14, 2006 10:53 AM CDT

Happy Mothers Day Andrea,

We are thinking of you in Utah,

Alisa

Devin <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, May 14, 2006 3:09 AM CDT

Andrea, I know that tomorrow will be bittersweet for you so please know that I will be keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers. I so wish that you could be holding all three of your babies in your arms instead of having to hold one in your heart. I hope that Miss Elizabeth spoils you rotten with lots of hugs and kisses and that you enjoy your first Mother's Day with little Lucas:) May God bless you all and keep you close in His care.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Saturday, May 13, 2006 10:27 PM CDT

Thinkinking of you, as always. You are one of the most amazing Mothers that I've ever met. Thanks for the inspiration. Praying for all of the moms who are missing their little ones.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA - Saturday, May 13, 2006 9:29 PM CDT

Happy Mother's Day Andrea.Someone who cares in hemet.Sherry
Sherry <cowpies5@aol.com>
Hemet, ca - Saturday, May 13, 2006 2:07 PM CDT

LETTING YOU KNOW THAT YOUR THOUGHT OF ON MOTHER'S DAY.KEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS AND IN MY PRAYER'S ALWAYS.

A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she�s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you�ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I�ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca~~THE PRAYER BEARS~~>
EDMONTON ,ALBERTA

, - Friday, May 12, 2006 11:29 PM CDT

Thanks for the updates and new pictures.
The kids are adorable.

Hope you are feeling stronger each day,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, May 11, 2006 7:20 PM CDT

A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother, as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought, every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card, from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too, no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands, but oh the tears she�s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you, that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now, I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me; we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now, would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart, her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored, and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you�ll do your best
I have done all I can do; to you I�ll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her, how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.

Megan Barrett-Martin <mbarrett@mcgough.com>
- Wednesday, May 10, 2006 7:26 PM CDT

Thinking of you all with extra love and prayers. Phillip, be good, be safe!
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Wednesday, May 10, 2006 8:11 AM CDT

Hey gang,
Isn't he just such a cutie and that sister of his looks so much like her mommy. I can't wait to see you all. I am glad you are feeling well enough to update. Missing you all and praying for you. See you soon.
Parker Family <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, May 9, 2006 11:29 AM CDT

The pictures are adorable! Always remember that you and every one are in my thoughts and prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Tuesday, May 9, 2006 7:34 AM CDT

Lucus is so cute! I love the pictures and I really love the picture of big sister holding him.

angel Rachel's Mommy
Jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Monday, May 8, 2006 8:14 AM CDT

Hi Brown's, Just checking in for the updates.
Elizabeth is looking more like her mommy all the time. Hope things get better with Lucas's acid reflex, I'm sure that can be a messing situation.
Love, The Contreras's <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, May 7, 2006 3:09 PM CDT

Thanks for the cute pictures!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, May 5, 2006 11:29 PM CDT

Wow!! It has been about a month since I checked in and I sure missed alot! Lucas looks beautiful and I am so glad to hear that everyone is healthy. Congratulations on your little guy! I keep you in my prayers!
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Thursday, May 4, 2006 4:33 PM CDT

Hope today is a good day.

Thinking of you in UT

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, May 3, 2006 11:38 AM CDT

Looking forward to seeing
my cute pictures of those cute kids!
glad dad was able to get home.
praying for you, andrea...
mrs pam
- Tuesday, May 2, 2006 10:42 AM CDT

My Dear Friends,
It has been several days since I've added a message to the guestbook, but I think of you every day. I tried to come by the house last Wednesday to see you all, but no one was home. I have really been busy with the end of the year assessements and getting records ready for the end of the year. I still want to come by one afternoon and see Lucas and of course you and Elizabeth. I'm glad Phillip was able to come in for a few days and see his new son before he was too old. I continue to keep you all in my prayers. Love you guys.
Ms. Sharon:-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Tuesday, May 2, 2006 7:09 AM CDT

Hi Andrea,
I just wanted to let you know I saw Lucas' picture today and you are absolutely right. He is precious and adorable!!! I'm glad Phillip got to come in and spend some time with you all. Take care! With love and prayers
Leslie Morris, RN <lesliemorris1968@yahoo.com>
Hopkinsville, KY USA - Monday, May 1, 2006 3:03 PM CDT

Luke is quite a cutie! Congratulations! Hope all continues to go well! Your family is my thoughts and prayers everyday!
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO USA - Monday, May 1, 2006 12:18 AM CDT

Phillip, Andrea, Elizabeth and Lucas,
We are so glad Phillip got to be with you although it was way to short of a time. His safety is in our prayers. Glad to hear you are doing better, you are in our minds constantly and we keep you in our prayers that you get well soon. Glad sister is doing better, miss her like crazy. Can't wait until we can all see each other again. Love you all.
Jody, Garry and Emily <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Monday, May 1, 2006 10:33 AM CDT

Glad you are feeling better Andrea.
I'm sure its just going to take some
time to get you back to 100%...if there
is such a thing. So glad that Phillip
was able to come home. I know everyone
misses him like crazy. Can't wait to
see new pictures. I'm sure he is getting
cuter each and every day....if that's possible.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 30, 2006 9:29 AM CDT

Still thinking of Ryan everyday. I'm glad you are doing well and that Phillip was able to visit. I'll continue to pray for you and send you hugs.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, April 30, 2006 8:51 AM CDT

I was so happy to see your update this morning and even more happy to read that Phillip was able to come home for awhile to hold his new baby boy...and his two favorite girls:) I hope Lucas' tummy issues are resolved quickly. I still remember the days when burpcloths were part of my everyday attire and my perfume was Eau de Puke:)

Wishing you a safe trip back tomorrow, Phillip. I hope it's not long before you are home again for good. My prayers are with all of you.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, April 28, 2006 12:18 AM CDT

It's me again! This message is just for Elizabeth and Lucas :)
I sent out your special package today and they expect it to be there on Monday!!! It has a delivery confirmation so I hope someone can be home. (sorry Andrea, I didnt even think when I did that) So BEE on the lookout for your box from the Circle of Six!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ambergant
Jacklyn Gant <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill, ga usa - Friday, April 28, 2006 12:10 AM CDT

~Thinking of all of you!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Friday, April 28, 2006 11:13 AM CDT

It was wonderful to see you guys Friday night. I kept your secret as long as I could, but then I had to tell Ms. Sharon and Ms. Chrystal. Lucas is precious. Philip be careful going back. I wished that you and Perry could have been on the same flight. Yesterday was an extremely hard day for us and last night was even harder. Andrea if you want to chat give me a call. Ms. Lizzie Bug your hat was just toooooo cute. Be good for Mommy and Daddy. Love you all!
Roscella <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
Ft. Campbell, KY - Thursday, April 27, 2006 8:07 PM CDT

I found this on Sam Walsdorf's website. Sam's Nana Mary posted it for everyone to read. It says so much.

"Death is nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Call me by my old familiar name; speak to me in the easy way which you always used to; put no diffence in your tone; wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow; laugh, as we laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together; pray, smile, think of me, pray for me; let my name be ever the household word that it always was; let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow in it.

Life means all that it ever meant; it is the same as it ever was; there is unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near - Just around the corner. All is well."

Thank you Mary.
Nana Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, April 27, 2006 4:49 PM CDT

BROWN FAMILY,
THANKS FOR THE UPDATE. IM SO GLAD PHILLIP GOT TO COME HOME FOR A WHILE. HOPE YOU ALL GET TO FEELING BETTER.

LOVE
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Thursday, April 27, 2006 1:28 PM CDT

Hi there Elizabeth and Lucas. The "Circle of Six" has a package for you that is going out in the mail Saturday morning. BEE watching for it next week, we just know you'll love it! Have fun with Daddy. Big hugs from the east coast!
www.caringbridge.org/visit/ambergant
Jacklyn (Colleen and Amy's friend) <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill, GA USA - Thursday, April 27, 2006 11:29 AM CDT

We are still praying that everyone is staying healthy, getting some rest and enjoying getting to know Lucas.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 10:46 PM CDT

Just checking in for an update...hint hint!
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 2:59 PM CDT

Thinking of you and hoping Andrea is feeling better!!!
Christie <christiesitton@aol.com>
Colorado Springs, CO USA - Wednesday, April 26, 2006 10:44 AM CDT

Always thinking of you.

Congratulation Ryan!!

Keep Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, April 25, 2006 1:31 PM CDT

Wow, your kids were all beautiful newborns! Hope everything is going well!!
Love and prayers from a friend of Maddies,
♥ Liz
Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Monday, April 24, 2006 10:11 PM CDT

Hope you are feeling better.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 24, 2006 6:37 PM CDT

I just wanted to let you all know I am thinking about you all always and have been praying for you:) Miss ya!
Jennifer Henry <jennmichelle2004@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Monday, April 24, 2006 3:33 PM CDT

Thinking of you and hoping that all is well.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, April 23, 2006 1:24 PM CDT

Hi Browns,

Hope all is well and Andrea is feeling better
and stronger each day.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 22, 2006 9:41 AM CDT

Always keeping your family in my prayers. What a beautiful baby Lucas is. I'm sure Ryan is smiling down on all of you

Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Friday, April 21, 2006 10:24 PM CDT

thinking of you with love and prayers
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 21, 2006 6:23 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

You are in my thoughts during these last hours of Easter week. I am so glad Baby Lucas is healthy and that his daddy can be home, at least for a short time, from Iraq. God bless him and all of our American troops!

I am also glad that Andrea is better. May she have no further medical difficulties.

Grandma Sherry, you are wonderful, and I hope you are enjoying the little ones.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Collect For The Friday In Easter Week:

Almighty Father, who gave your only Son to die for our sins and to rise for our justification: Give us grace so to put away the leaven of malice and wickedness, that we may always serve you in pureness of living and truth; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer, Page 224
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Friday, April 21, 2006 12:08 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Lucas,
Just thinking about you all and hoping all is going well. Love you all and hope the big guy is enjoying himself while he is home getting all those great hugs and loves from Elizabeth and Lucas. Can't wait to see you all. Love you.
Jody
- Friday, April 21, 2006 8:45 AM CDT

Welcome home Phillip - even if only for a short time. Praying that Andrea continues to regain her strength. GIve those two little ones kisses and hugs from me to. Hope to get down to see them very soon. Stay safe, stay strong and remember that you are loved by many.

By the way, we are getting another granddaughter in August
Much love,
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Wednesday, April 19, 2006 8:11 PM CDT

Very excited to hear you are home safe and sound! Boy does Lucas look like Ryan. Best wishes
Chris, Cindy Stark & Family <alissa06@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO 63353 - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 5:37 PM CDT

Glad to hear you guys get to spend some time together, take care of yourselves.
Our thoughts are with you.
The Contreras's <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Wednesday, April 19, 2006 9:51 AM CDT

Andrea,
I'm glad you are home. I hope that Ryan and Cameron weren't too busy playing when he was supposed to be watching out for you. You know when boys play they forget all the things they are supposed to do.

Please take care of yourself and keep adding pictures of that beautiful baby!!!

Cameron's mom (www.caringbridge.com/ct/cameron)
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:53 PM CDT

What a blessing to be with your beautiful children and suurounded by those you love! Praying that the Lord's healing arms will surround you as you regain your strength! Bring that baby up to Missouri so we can all love on him and Sissy too!

Still Beelieving....
Colleen Cosby <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:10 PM CDT

Dearest Andrea,
Thank heaven's you are home. My prayers are with you for continued healing and wellness......prayers to Phillip and all the troops and for Elizabeth and baby Lucas and of course for Nana Sherry.....hugs
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl USA - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 7:15 PM CDT

Dear Andrea,

This is just a short note to send encouragement and well wishes. God bless you, Phillip, Elizabeth, Lucas, and the memory of sweet Ryan.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Today's Collect (For The Tuesday In Easter Week):

O God, who by the glorious resurrection of your Son Jesus Christ destroyed death and brought life and immortality to light: Grant that we, who have been raised with him, may abide in his presence and rejoice in the hope of eternal glory; through Jesus Christ our Lord, to whom, with you and the Holy Spirit, be dominion and praise for ever and ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer, Page 223
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, April 18, 2006 6:19 PM CDT

Hope that you are feeling better
and stronger each day. Hugs and
kisses to your cutie kids!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 18, 2006 4:04 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Lucas,
You are all in our thoughts and prayers. We love you all.

Jody
- Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:11 AM CDT

Was good to hear Phillips voice yesterday evening. I am glad things are going better for you Andrea and hope Lucas and the "Miss Elisabeth" are doing ok. Take care and let me know if you need anything. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, April 17, 2006 5:36 AM CDT

Wishing the Brown's Family a wonderful Easter.

You all are always in my heart, prayers, and thoughts.

Congratulations Ryan and family Lucas looks wonderful..

Keep Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Sunday, April 16, 2006 9:20 PM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Lucas, and All,

May the joy of this blessed Eastertide be with you.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Sunday, April 16, 2006 8:10 PM CDT

What a beautiful baby boy...you guys sure do good work:)
Wishing you all a blessed and HAPPY EASTER!!!!
Easter hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, April 16, 2006 2:23 PM CDT

I'm so glad your home and ok.Keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.What adorable babies if only they could stay that small forever.They grow so fast.I know Easter is going to be hard on you without Ryan with you all but he is with you in spirit in your memories and always and forever in you hearts.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca~~THE PRAYER BEARS~~>
EDMONTON

, - Sunday, April 16, 2006 0:46 AM CDT

Glad you're home.
Hope you have a wonderful day with those babies.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 15, 2006 11:32 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

God bless you all on Easter! My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

O God, who for our redemption gave your only-begotten Son to the death of the cross, and by his glorious resurrection delivered us from the power of our enemy: Grant us so to die daily to sin, that we may evermore live with him in the joy of his resurrection; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer, Page 222
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, April 15, 2006 10:48 PM CDT

Sherry, Thanks for the update. Andrea, so glad you're home. The pictures are beautiful, thank you for letting us all share in your new joy. Have a blessed Easter. Love you.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew Riley <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Saturday, April 15, 2006 7:41 PM CDT

Thinking of you and sending prayers....saw the pictures - beautiful babies!!!! Love the chubby cheeks :-) You guys have a very blessed Easter. God Bless.
Millie <matflorida@yahoo.com>
Ponce Inlet, FL - Saturday, April 15, 2006 3:39 PM CDT

Thanks Nana Sherry for the update!
Prayers continue for Andrea, Babies and Philip!
Happy Easter to all!
Carrie
Calgary, AB Canada - Saturday, April 15, 2006 2:20 PM CDT

So glad you are home where you belong!!!

Continued prayers for your healing,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 15, 2006 1:36 PM CDT

So happy you are home and doing better! Take care. Happy Easter to all!
Amy <athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
- Saturday, April 15, 2006 12:11 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

Reading about Andrea, in the Fiveash guest book, I was here earlier in the week. I was going to sign a note of concern, but I sent out a prayer request for your family, and forgot to leave the note. I am glad things are better and Andrea is home.

Rest today, as Jesus rested in the tomb, and enjoy Easter tomorrow and for the next 50 days.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, April 15, 2006 12:06 AM CDT

So happy you are home, Andrea!!!
continued prayers and love.

http://www.GlitterMaker.com/ - Glitter Graphics
mrs pam <pam@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 15, 2006 9:17 AM CDT

God really is good, all the time - no matter how he answers our prayers. So glad to hear you are home with your babies and hope to hear that Phillip will be there soon too. Have a very happy Easter...enjoy the new life, the restored life and the love of Jesus in your family!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Saturday, April 15, 2006 9:06 AM CDT

The universe is smiling...you are home with your babies. Hopefully your husband will join you soon and then everything will be alright in your world.Best wishes from Audrey and Bonnie's Aunt Ingrid
(Audrey's Umbrella)
Ingrid Hartmann <wwwingrid@webtv.net>
White Plains, NY USA - Saturday, April 15, 2006 7:12 AM CDT

So happy to see that you are home and enjoying those little ones. Missing you!! Happy Easter!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Saturday, April 15, 2006 5:40 AM CDT

So relieved to read the news, and I pray all continues to go well, and that Phillip can be home with you soon. Your family is always in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, co - Saturday, April 15, 2006 0:52 AM CDT

I am sooo happy to read the last update!!!!!!!!!! Prayers are continuing. Hug the little ones for us.

God Bless

Roy and Donna
Cheyenne's Proud Mommy and Daddy
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo,, Tx - Friday, April 14, 2006 11:01 PM CDT

Andrea and family,
Be encouraged. Draw strength from your multitude of friends and family which are at HIS throne praying for you. May the Lord give you strength and lift you up on wings of eagles....
My prayer is for a sense of peace to come upon you and know that God is in control. He will bring you through this. Easter is a time of reflection and rememberance. He is Risen! He is in control, praise GOD HE is in control! Thanks for keeping the website up. This has been a blessing to many of us. Thank you for letting us into your lives so we know how to pray specifically. Keep the updates coming! May the Lord bless and keep you.
Chad, Brenda, Cory & Brian Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN US - Friday, April 14, 2006 8:40 PM CDT

Praying that Andrea is doing better and she will be back home with her "little ones" soon. Praying that Phillip will be able to come home soon to be with his family. I hope you have a wonderful Easter and God's Love shines on your family.
Brenda <carlellis@alltel.net>
Eastanollee, GA - Friday, April 14, 2006 8:04 PM CDT

Glad to hear there is some improvement in Andrea's
condition. Please let her know that we are all
praying for her. Hoping that Phillip can come
home soon to alleviate some of the stress she
must be feeling.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 14, 2006 7:15 PM CDT

I am praying for Andrea!!! Alisa called me to tell me the news. Glad to hear that she is now improving, I will keep praying hard that she is home soon with the babies!!! God Bless!!!

Love,
Mary Templeton
www.caringbridge.org/fl/caitlin
Mary Templeton <mary.templeton@gmail.com>
Citrus Springs, FL - Friday, April 14, 2006 6:58 PM CDT

Sending lots of love and prayers from Oklahoma.

Devin's GG
Gwen Woods <gwenfromok@yahoo.com>
Shawnee, OK - Friday, April 14, 2006 6:18 PM CDT

Storming Heaven for prayers!!! Andrea you are in our thoughts and prayers....so very sorry you are going through this!! So happy to hear you are improving!!!!! Sending hugs and positive thoughts from Florida......you have a very special gaurdian Angel in Ryan.
Kathy
caringbridge.org
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Friday, April 14, 2006 5:34 PM CDT

Hi,

Just found out about Andrea via Mrs. Pam.
Praying, praying, praying for your well-being.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 14, 2006 2:02 PM CDT

Just checking in. Please take care and know that many people have you in their thoughts and prayers. Hopefully by now the news on Andrea is much-much better.
Doris <dorisvbrooks@yahoo.com>
- Friday, April 14, 2006 1:58 PM CDT

Saying lots of prayers for your family. Hugs, Angelique and Harlei
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Friday, April 14, 2006 11:05 AM CDT

Andrea and family,

Mom thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

Crissy Hoskins <jckhoskins@aol.com>
Louisiana, MO usa - Friday, April 14, 2006 9:32 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Bonnie - Audrey's Umbrella www.braintrust.org/audrey <bonnie@braintrust.org>
Rye, NY - Friday, April 14, 2006 8:34 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, I am praying for you! Sending you love and many hugs across the miles. Love, Linda
linda champa <lachampa@mintz.com (Audrey's Umbrella, www.braintrust.org/Audrey)>
boston, ma usa - Friday, April 14, 2006 8:22 AM CDT

Andrea
praying for you!!!!
mrs pam
- Friday, April 14, 2006 8:04 AM CDT

Just know that I am praying...for all of you. Andrea, I hope you improve more and more each day so you can hurry up and get home to Luke and Elizabeth. (Whom I bet are being spoiled rotten by their aunties!) I'm praying for God to heal your heart and make you well.
Hugs & love from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, April 14, 2006 7:22 AM CDT

Andrea,
My thoughts and prayers are with you right now. I am asking for your total healing and for all the questions surrrounding your heart condition to be answered. Just know that your guardian angel is up above watching out for you; keeping you safe and seeing that you are brought home to your babies very soon. I also pray that Phillip will be able to come home to be with you very soon.

Your family sounds like they've got things covered with caring for everyone. You are very lucky to have such loving, caring people in your life. It's very clear that those same traits were passed on to you too.
Tonight, I am also praying for your new sweet baby Lucas. One can only begin to imagine what you are going through being away from Lucas and Elizabeth. It must be so very hard. But first you need to get better, so you are able to care for your sweet little ones. Take care...and know that so many people are praying for you tonight. Be well. Love
<athomas@hansoncomputer.com>
- Friday, April 14, 2006 0:09 AM CDT

Sounds like everyone is doing a great job keeping that special guardian angel of yours busy. Sending lots of love and prayers your way for good health for all and Phillip's speedy return.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Thursday, April 13, 2006 9:22 PM CDT

Keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca~~THE PRAYER BEARS~~>
EDMONTON

, - Thursday, April 13, 2006 9:21 PM CDT

THinking of your family, and praying for healing!
♥ Liz Shay
liz <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Thursday, April 13, 2006 6:03 PM CDT

Thinking of you always, and sending you love, and prayers.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 5:47 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,
Sending love and prayers to your family as always. Hoping Philip can come home.
Carrie
Calgary, AB Canada - Thursday, April 13, 2006 3:44 PM CDT

My prayers are with you and your family...
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles999@yahoo.com>
Grand Blanc , mi - Thursday, April 13, 2006 1:49 PM CDT

Andrea,

Our prayers are with you and your family. We also pray the Red Cross brings Phillip home where he belongs very soon.

The Hardin's
Covington, GA USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:58 AM CDT

Praying for you all. Praying the Red Cross will send Phillip home to be with the family.

April Larkin <alarkin@vzavenue.net <> caringbridge.org/visit/billyjohnson>
Seaside, CA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:53 AM CDT

I am praying for all of you, and especially Andrea. We love you.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:26 AM CDT

To the Brown family..Just to let you know I'am thinking of you all and praying for Andrea and hoping everything goes well.Someone who cares in hemet.Sherry
Sherry <cowpies5@aol.com>
Hemet, ca - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:24 AM CDT

BROWN FAMILY,
OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU, ANDREA YOU ARE A VERY STRONG PERSON, AND I KNOW YOU'LL BE ALRIGHT.

LOVE,
BRYCA & STEVEN
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:19 AM CDT

I'm praying for Andrea and family!
Erin <erin.foster@sungard.com>
Grapevine, TX USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:17 AM CDT

Our thoughts and prayers are with your family. Praying for Andrea's fast recovery.

Wanda Pursifull <wpursifull@pcmhmo.org>
Louisiana, MO USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 12:09 AM CDT

I am praying and Believing! God is wrapping Andrea in his embrace.
A M Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 11:42 AM CDT

Congratulations Andrea. I am so happy for you and Phillip and that everyone is fine now. What a blessing. I wish you all the best. I wish you peace. Always remembering Ryan, Colleen HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, April 13, 2006 9:29 AM CDT

thank goodness that Lucas is all right now!!

Elizabeth's being in the corner reminded
me of a picture of a little girl standing in the corner
with her dog that was in my Goddaughter's
room when she was a toddler. I thought
the artist was Jessie Wilcox Smith, but when I
just did a "search", I didn't find it. But, I did find
a picture that she did called "Fairy Godmother
and Doves". (The fairy godmother looks like an
angel to me.)
mrs pam
- Thursday, April 13, 2006 8:22 AM CDT

Praying, praying, praying....Bee-Lieving...
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Thursday, April 13, 2006 8:15 AM CDT

Phillip, thank you so much for defending our country. I think of men and women often who are away from family to defend us. Thank you seems so small for what you have been through. From your precious son's death to the birth of another son without you there. I cried as I read the journal about the baby having trouble and you having to call. That must have been so hard for you. Again, congratulations on the birth of your son and thank you from the bottom of my heart for what sacrifices you are making for our country.
Kris <grannykris@hotmail.com>
Sunnyside, WA - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 3:56 PM CDT

Congratulations Brown family and welcome little Luke! I continue to follow your family and I too beelieve Ryan is there watching over his baby sister and baby brother. Phillip will be home before you know it and you can start this new chapter in your lives. My prayers are always with your family.
Katy Hammond <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 2:11 PM CDT

Congratulations on the birth of baby Lucas!!! Can't wait to see pictures! Sherry, thank-you so much for letting me know! I couldn't be happier for you all!! Lucas will always have a gaurdian Angel in his big brother Ryan. Hope Andrea is doing well and feeling good. Continuing to keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, April 12, 2006 5:20 AM CDT

Thanks!!

Just beautiful,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 11, 2006 11:04 PM CDT

Just looking for pictures.........

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 11, 2006 6:22 PM CDT

I AM SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU ARE HOME, AND SAFE.
THINKING OF YOU!

LOVE
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 3:43 PM CDT

Glad you're home. Hope everyone is
feeling good. How is sissy liking
being a BIG sister?? Can't wait to
see pictures of little Lucas.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, April 11, 2006 3:14 PM CDT

Andrea & Philip,
I just wanted to say Congratulations on your new arrival, Lucas. You all are two wonderful people and make great parents. All of my best wishes to you and your family. You two are not only blessed to have him, he is blessed to have you for his parents. Give that beautiful Elizabeth a hug for me, too!!!! Leslie
Leslie Morris, RN <lesliemorris1968@yahoo.com>
Hopkinsville, KY US - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 2:16 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I am continuing to think of you all. How wonderful that Lucas came in April, when we are all enjoying spring!

In my own family, my cousin received two grandchildren, in February, as I mentioned in my last entry. Both Keagan and Alyssa are very tiny babies, still in the hospital several weeks after their emergency births. Yesterday, a third grandchild was born for her. His name is Alexander, and he is of a healthy weight of a little over eight pounds. Someday, those three cousins will be playng together, as Elizabeth and Lucas will play, while Angel Ryan hovers nearby.

God bless you all, during this, Holy Week!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 11:24 AM CDT

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! WHAT A BLESSING!
TINA TOMLINSON
HERNDON, ky USA - Tuesday, April 11, 2006 9:21 AM CDT

wow!!! Congratulations!!! And a nice size baby. How are you feeling? Lucas is a perfect name and I am soooo happy for you and your family.

Angel Rachel's mommy
Jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Monday, April 10, 2006 6:00 PM CDT

Congratulations on your beautiful new baby boy! I know his big brother is smiling down on him with love and pride.
Kristen B. <kristenb@rfsnc.com>
Raleigh, NC - Monday, April 10, 2006 2:36 PM CDT

Congratulations!! We are all so excited. I am really feeling out of it now, but I am sure that we'll find a way to see you all soon. Give our love to Lucas and Elizabeth.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA - Monday, April 10, 2006 2:31 PM CDT

Yeah!! I have been waiting and waiting to hear that he had arrived safely!! What a joy! I bet Phillip is beaming ear to ear! What could make a daddy prouder than 3 beautiful children and a wonderful wife! Can't wait to see pictures! Andrea, get some rest, if Lucas is anything like the other two you're gonna be on you toes!
Praying that you will feel the blessings and all the love showered down on you!
Bee-Lieving!!Always!!
Colleen, Michael, Conner and B-nut! <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles , MO USA - Monday, April 10, 2006 9:49 AM CDT

Congratulations! What a beautiful name. Welcome Baby Lucas. Can't wait to see you.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Monday, April 10, 2006 9:14 AM CDT

Brown Family,
Congrats on Baby Lucas, can't wait to see his picture posted so we can see how adorable Ryan and Elizabeth's little brother is. Glad you are both doing well. Can't wait to see you all. Love and prayers.
Garry, Jody and Emily <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
Boss, MO - Monday, April 10, 2006 8:38 AM CDT

Brown family,
Congrats, I love the name Lucas. What a wonderful blessing!!
love,
Bryca
Bryca Ince <bryca10@hotmail.com>
Bowling Green, MO USA - Monday, April 10, 2006 8:00 AM CDT

Congratulations!
A M Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Monday, April 10, 2006 7:28 AM CDT

Congratulations on the new addition.
Love the name Lucas Matthew.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles999@yahoo.com>
Grand Blanc , mi - Monday, April 10, 2006 7:20 AM CDT

What wonderful news! And what a beautiful name, Lucas Mathew. Congratulations to all of you. I'm sure Angel Ryan is rejoicing with you.

Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Sunday, April 9, 2006 11:15 PM CDT

Congratulations! I�m so happy for you guys. Your always in my thoughts.
Toni Brooks <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
Abingdon, MD - Sunday, April 9, 2006 10:32 PM CDT

Congratulations on your new little boy! He has his own little guardian angel whom I am sure was there making sure all went well! God Bless your family-
Kim <kas412@sbcglobal.net>
Bartlett, IL - Sunday, April 9, 2006 8:58 PM CDT

Welcome to the world baby Lucas!! Congrats Philip, Andrea, Ryan, and Elizabeth!! I know Ryan is smiling down on you from Heaven and that he is very proud of his baby brother, just as I am sure you are!
Angie Rachels <angierachels@hotmail.com>
Sycamore, GA USA - Sunday, April 9, 2006 8:49 PM CDT

hey congration on the new baby boy cant wait for the photos online. I hate that i havent wrote in a long time i still check the the board every now and then i miss my favorite little guy ryan a whole lot their not a day that goes by that i dont think of him. When Phillp comes home u guys goign to have to bring the baby up to the Eagles we have another poker run in July i let u know more when i get all the detials
wes <wesdaman05@charter.net>
hoptown, ky - Sunday, April 9, 2006 8:11 PM CDT

AWWW, how sweet! Lucas has a beautiful special Angel to protect him. Enjoy your new addition. Hugs, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Sunday, April 9, 2006 7:32 PM CDT

Just checking for any new news or pictures (hint, hint)
of that adorable baby boy!! We are soooo excited
for you guys. Give him lots of kisses from us!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 9, 2006 6:12 PM CDT

Congratulations on the birth of Lucas Matthew....what a beautiful name.
Brenda <carlellis@alltel.net>
Eastanollee, GA - Sunday, April 9, 2006 5:17 PM CDT

Brown Family, we are so excited Lucas made it here safe. We hope the best for you guys.
Chris, Cindy, Alissa, Alexa, Collin and Caden Stark
Louisiana, MO - Sunday, April 9, 2006 3:56 PM CDT

Welcome, Lucas!
Did you get to hear your
Daddy's voice on the phone?
prayers and love to you from me
in Missouri
mrs pam
- Sunday, April 9, 2006 2:08 PM CDT

Congratulations and welcome to the
world Lucas Matthew!!!! We're glad
you are here safe and sound.

The Ross Family
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 9, 2006 9:01 AM CDT

Congratulations to all of you and a big welcome to little Lucas!!
I bet he's beautiful...just like his big brother and sister:)
Hug & smiles from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, April 9, 2006 8:45 AM CDT

We are rejoicing with you and so happy to hear of Lucas' safe arrival! Welcome home, baby boy...I bet you didn't even know you are an on-line celebrity before you were even born!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO USA - Sunday, April 9, 2006 7:54 AM CDT

Welcome to the World, Baby Lucas Matthew Brown!

Dear Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Nana Sherry, and All,

Congratulations on the safe birth of a healthy baby boy. Eight pounds, thirteen ounces, is certainly a healthy weight! May God bless Lucas and all of you.

During February, my cousin became a grandmother twice. Both children, a boy, Keagan, born to her son, Patrick, and his wife, and a girl, Alyssa, born to her daughter, Jessica, were premature. The boy, now two months and six days old, has just achieved the weight of three pounds. The girl, born at the end of February, is now up to almost half of Lucas's weight (four pounds, four ounces). Both are miracles to be alive, but both have weeks in specialized hospital nurseries before they can come home. I am certainly glad for Andrea and Phillip that their son has a healthy birth weight.

God bless you all on Palm Sunday! I can hardly wait to see pictures of Lucas.

Beneath my signature, I will add the collect of the day.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Almighty and everliving God, in your tender love for the human race you sent your Son our Savior Jesus Christ to take upon him our nature, and to suffer death upon the cross, giving us the example of his great humility: Mercifully grant that we may walk in the way of his suffering, and also share in his resurrection; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.

~The Collect For Palm Sunday (Passion Sunday)
The Book Of Common Prayer, Page 219
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Sunday, April 9, 2006 1:49 AM CDT

Congratulations!!!
Blackston Family <blackstonfamily@hotmail.com>
Fort Campbell, KY USA - Sunday, April 9, 2006 0:26 AM CDT

Hi all,

I just wanted to drop by to see if there was any news yet. Thinking about you all and keeping you in our prayers.

Roy and Donna
Cheyenne's Proud Mommy and Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5
Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo,, Tx - Saturday, April 8, 2006 8:56 PM CDT

Just checking on you guys.
We'll check back later for
baby, mommy and BIG sister news!!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 8, 2006 8:01 PM CDT

We are thinking of all the Brown family today, in your various locations...hoping the delivery is easy, baby is healthy and recovery is quick for all!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Saturday, April 8, 2006 11:58 AM CDT

Andrea
My prayers are with you today. May God bless you and your family today with the birth of your new baby. I know Ryan is happy about his new brother and will always be a big brother to him by watching over him. I will be checking in throughout the day to get the GOOD news.
Brenda <carlellis@alltel.net>
Eastanollee, GA - Saturday, April 8, 2006 8:39 AM CDT

Andrea,
Thinking of you ALL today- can't wait to hear the "official" news!!! I love the fortunes- how absolutely perfect! Be well- praying for a fast delivery and the healthiest of babies and mommies!
Love you all-
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie
Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Palm City , FL - Saturday, April 8, 2006 7:53 AM CDT

Dear Andrea,

My prayers are with you on what will probably be the birth morning of Ryan's little brother. May God bless you both! I am eager to hear the name and stats of the new little guy. I am sure it won't be too long before I read some good news here.

Here beneath my signature, is the collect for today.

God bless all of the Brown family!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

O Lord, in your goodness you bestow abundant graces on your elect: Look with favor, we entreat you, upon those who in these Lenten days are being prepared for Holy Baptism, and grant them the help of your protection; through Jesus Christ your Son our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.

~The Collect For The Saturday In The Fifth Week Of Lent
The Book Of Occasional Services, Page 61
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, April 8, 2006 4:57 AM CDT

Best of luck tomorrow, Andrea...I'll be thinking of you!!! For some reason I've had a specific "A" name in my head all day today so I'm anxious to hear what your little guy's name will be:) Phillip, extra prayers are going out to you tonight. It must be so very difficult to be so far away right now. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow as well.

Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, April 7, 2006 11:38 PM CDT

Thank you for stopping by Rachel's site. I couldn't believe it when you said that our due dates are the same. That is incredible! Good luck tomorrow!

Angel Rachel's Mommy
Jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Friday, April 7, 2006 8:21 PM CDT

Andrea
prayers today
for you tomorrow!
xxoo
mrs pam
- Friday, April 7, 2006 6:13 AM CDT

I guess the countdown is on!!
Excited to hear that the new
baby boy is here safe and sound.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, April 6, 2006 3:57 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I love the pictures you have added to the photo album. I especially like the one of the nine month old Ryan all dressed for prom night.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Thursday, April 6, 2006 3:15 PM CDT

Thinking of you today and praying that everyone is staying healthy as the new baby comes. Love the pictures you posted...you and Ryan look so beautiful!
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, mo - Thursday, April 6, 2006 10:33 AM CDT

What to say, what to say???
We miss Ryan Brown today!
We heard he has the sweetest little sister and a baby brother on the way!
For your peace and happiness, we will always pray!
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 6:11 PM CDT

Still keeping all of you in my prayers. I check Ryan's website regularly and love to see new updates. I know your new son will be so proud of his big brother and the courage and strength he possessed. Thanks for posting the new pictures, Ryan is a beautiful child. (And so much hair as an infant, so cute!) I will be praying for a safe arrival of your newest little sweetie pie next week, and checking for updates! Blessings to your whole family from Richardson, Texas.
Kathy Sanders <kathy_sanders@comcast.net>
Richardson, TX - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 6:06 PM CDT

Hey Guys,
I love the pictures especially the one of Ryan and Dad! Just a few more days! I know you all are getting very excited. You are in my thougths and prayers!
Ms. Sharon <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, April 5, 2006 10:43 AM CDT

Dear Brown family,

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. And especially in the coming week, as new Baby Brown comes into the world. "HI" to Nana Sherry too.

Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 11:22 PM CDT

The pictures are just precious. Ryan looked like a little man in that baby tuxedo...I didn't even know they made 'em that small:) Thanks for sharing more of your memories with all of us. It's through these photos and the stories you've written that I feel I really knew Ryan. What a special little boy...I miss him.
Big hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 8:41 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of Ryan today. Hugs to you!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI 48124 - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 4:55 PM CDT

DEAR BROWN FAMILY,

I REALLY LOVED THE NEW PICTURES. THINKING OF YOU ALL!
LOVE
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <bryca10@hotmail.com>
bowling green, mo usa - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 2:32 PM CDT

Thinking of you. Remembering Ryan.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, Mn - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 11:21 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, and All,

You must be so excited about the coming arrival of the new baby boy! I have never met any of you, and I am excited.

In my own family, we had two babies, grandchildren for an older cousin, born in February. Both babies were born about 10-12 weeks early, by emergency Caesarian, as their mothers were in distress. The boy, Keagan, is the older, and he is in a neonatal unit in Syracuse, NY. The girl, Allyssa, is in Albany Medical Center, also in New York State.

What a relief it must be to all of you, to know that Andrea's pregnancy is going well and that this little boy will be fully developed. I am sure that Ryan Douglas Brown is with the angels protecting his little brother.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 10:24 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,
As I walked into school this morning and said Good Morning to Ryan, I thought it will only be a few more days until the arrival of the newest member of the family. I know everyone is anxiously awaiting the arrival and waiting to find out what the baby will be named. My thougths and prayers are with you during these last few days as you prepare for our new friend.
Ms. Sharon <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 8:51 AM CDT

Wow only a few more days! We will be Praying for all of you. Don't worry sometimes you just have to meet the little one before you know his name. Praying for an easy delivery!
Ann Marie Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
So. Bend, IN USA - Tuesday, April 4, 2006 8:06 AM CDT

Andrea-
Thinking of you here in Florida- left your #s at home- call my cell if you have time- 612 770-0334- if not, know that I am thinking of you all, and anxiously awaiting news of the little guy's arrival...
With lots of love,
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie
Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN - Monday, April 3, 2006 7:47 PM CDT

Andrea
looking forward to seeing those
baby pictures.
prayers for you and his arrival....
mrs pam
- Monday, April 3, 2006 6:39 AM CDT

I still come by and think of you guys often. I'll be praying as always for your family and that new baby boy on it's way!
Forever Cameron�s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, April 2, 2006 10:22 PM CDT

I'm sure that Ryan and his baby brother already know what his name is ... they just haven't whispered it to you yet:) I'm keeping you close in thought as your due date approaches, Andrea...I will pray for an easy and speedy delivery too! I can't wait to see pictures of the little guy!!
Hugs and blessings from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com (Audrey's Umbrella)>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Sunday, April 2, 2006 5:06 PM CDT

Thinking of you. Thanks for the baby update. Looking forward to the new pictures, can't wait to see them.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew <pamperedphyl@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Saturday, April 1, 2006 10:25 PM CST

Thank you for updating us. I have been checking on you every day. I am due to have my baby ten days after you. A name will come to you and it will feel so right. Good luck.

Angel Rachel's Mommy
Jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Saturday, April 1, 2006 8:53 PM CST

Just checking for any baby news. Thanks for
keeping us updated.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, April 1, 2006 8:50 PM CST

Sending lots of love and prayers! Very anxious to see the new little one!
Still Bee-Lieving....always...
Collen <Colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Saturday, April 1, 2006 4:17 PM CST

Andrea,

Just wanted to let you know that I visit Ryan's web site daily and ALWAYS say a little prayer for him and for all of you, including the newest addition awaiting his arrival into your family. I truly believe that he has already met his big brother Ryan and that he will always have one very special angel looking out for him and his sister. Good luck and many prayers for a safe delivery. Can't wait to see pictures!
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Philadelphia , PA - Saturday, April 1, 2006 2:47 PM CST

Just popping in to give you all a hug:)
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, March 31, 2006 2:34 PM CST

Thinking of you all, LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
PaPaD <djw101046@sbcglobal.net>
Eldon, Mo USA - Friday, March 31, 2006 12:05 AM CST

Hi there, I was looking through some old pictures the other day and found the cutest picture of Ally and Ryan riding a ride at the Bowling Green Fair. Jen Jen had taken them one year and took pictures of them. I will send it to you first chance I get, I'm sure you will love it. I hope things are going ok, and I can't wait to hear of the new arival when he gets here. Take care, Love, Ashley Minor
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Nebo, Il - Thursday, March 30, 2006 5:32 PM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I hope things are continuing to go well for you and for the baby. It will be good to know he is here, well, and handsome, and to hear his name and statistics.

As always, I am remembering Ryan Douglas Brown.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Thursday, March 30, 2006 10:10 AM CST

Thinking about that baby boy,
and praying for his happy arrival!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 30, 2006 8:43 AM CST

Just checking in, waiting for the big baby update. Hope everyone is as comfortable as can be expected at this stage of the game!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 9:19 PM CST

Just thinking about u guys and hope everything is going ok..
Samantha Elliott <monkeygirl0888@hotmail.com>
louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 8:03 PM CST

Hi!!

Just wondering if you had anyone new at your
house yet??

Thinking of you,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, March 29, 2006 11:04 AM CST

Hello everyone! Just wanted to say how great it was to see everyone, with the exception of Phillip , last Saturday. Andrea, you have really blossomed. I still think you are having twins. Wouldn't that be a riot if there was a little girl hiding behind her brother. Elizabeth looks so beauitful! She has grown so much since the last time I saw her. Can't wait for the next few days to pass, as I'm sure you are ready to have the little one ,too. Take care. Love you guys!! Of course I think of Ryan daily and wish he were here to meet his new brother.
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 8:41 AM CST

So excited for you all!! Count down time! This baby boy will have his big brother Ryan to look after him now! I think of you all often and especially dear Ryan. That little hero left footprints on so many hearts as he continues to do so. Sending love and prayers.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Wednesday, March 29, 2006 5:09 AM CST

Hi, Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
I am ashamed to admit how long it's been since I have signed this book. I think of all of you every day and say a prayer for your health, happiness, safety, and peace of heart.

Now, what name have you decided on for Ryan and Elizabeth's brother. I think Lucas sounds good, and it's not a name that's been used a lot, and I didn't talk to Nana first!

I hear your surprise was wonderful Saturday. I am sorry I missed it.

Love to all,

Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, March 28, 2006 3:14 PM CST

Just popping in to see if Ryan has blessed us with his baby yet!?!?! Getting very anxious to see the new little guy!! Miss Elizabeth is going to be THE best big sister any baby could ever ask for.Afterall look at who her role model is for her new "position"Ryan is/was the greastest big brother!!!
Always BEEleiving
Sunshine <kssandman@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, March 28, 2006 8:36 AM CST

Keeping you in my thoughts and in my prayer's always.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDAMY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON

, - Tuesday, March 28, 2006 0:14 AM CST

Just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking of you and I'm sending you hugs today! HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Monday, March 27, 2006 4:43 PM CST

You've been on my mind quite a bit lately so I thought I'd pop in to send a hug your way. I hope all is well in waiting-for-baby land:)
Big ((((((hugs)))))) from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Monday, March 27, 2006 3:51 PM CST

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
Just thinking about you all and hoping you had a wonderful suprise this weekend. Hoping Phillip is staying safe in the big sandbox and praying for his safe return. Love you all and keeping you in our prayers.
Jody <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 27, 2006 8:19 AM CST

Although I don't sign often, I do check in often and I have Ryan on my mind daily. Ryan, Leah, Rachel....so many of these beautiful angels will be in my heart forever. Sending hugs to you and your family, from Michigan.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Monday, March 27, 2006 8:15 AM CST

Dear Andrea,

I am thinking of you today. It is the fourth Sunday in Lent, the day that the apprentice boys of England were sent home to mother, and to mother church. I wish, on this Mothering Sunday, that God had a similar day, so Ryan could be with you.

I remembered Ryan, yesterday, at Holy Eucharist, beneath the Jesus and the Children stained glass window, as I often do, when in the nave. He is not forgotten.

Beneath my signature, I will add the collect for the day. It is one of my favorites.

God bless you always, and God bless your entire family, too!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Gracious Father, whose blessed Son Jesus Christ came down from heaven to be the true bread which gives life to the world: Evermore give us this bread, that he may live in us, and we in him; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer, Page 219

Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Sunday, March 26, 2006 11:31 AM CST

What a remarkable story and BOY!!
Thanks for sharing with us your beautiful son.
God bless you from Calif.
Guinane Family
(caringbridge.org/ca/samguinane)
guinane family <guinane@cox.net>
Aliso Viejo, CA usa - Saturday, March 25, 2006 1:04 PM CST

Andrea,
Just checking in on you. Things must be getting very exciting around there with the impending arrival. My prayers are for a safe and easy delivery for you. I'm sure Ryan already knows this newest member of your family and will keep watch over all of you.
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Philadelphia , PA - Saturday, March 25, 2006 7:47 AM CST

HELLO EVERYONE
IT WAS NICE TO SEE THE MESSAGE FROM PHILLIP. HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL
LOVE,
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO 63334 - Friday, March 24, 2006 2:53 PM CST

A big hello to Phillip!! It was great to see your message when I popped in for a visit! Glad to hear that things are going as well as they can be. Our pastor is home on a two-week leave from Iraq right now so he celebrated all of the masses at church last weekend. He reminded all of us that for every bad thing we hear about on the news, try to remember that a hundred more good things have also happened over there each day. I don't know why the news chooses to report only the bad stuff but I want you to know that we realize and admire all of the good things you are all accomplishing over there. May God continue to watch over you and keep you safe!

Big hugs to all of you!!
Hugs & prayers from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com www.braintrust.org/Audrey>
Livonia, MI ~Audrey's Umbrella~ - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 2:57 PM CST

hello everyone i was just cheacking in and reading all the beautiful words from everyone and thought i would let everyone know that things are going good over here (well as good as expected). Just wanted to say think you to everyone and i love you all.

Phillip
phillip <phillip.ryn.brown@us.army.mil>
- Wednesday, March 22, 2006 10:37 AM CST

Dear Andrea and All,

I thought of Ryan, when I attended a special service for Lent last night. I remembered him beneath the Jesus and the Children stained glass window.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Wednesday, March 22, 2006 6:25 AM CST

Always thinking of you , and specially Ryan. You all are always in my heart, thought and prayers..

Keep Believing,
Alma <teteogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 5:47 PM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I hope the remaining days in the baby countdown go well and that the Browns soon have a happy, healthy baby. Sissy will be so pleased!

However, no one, who met Ryan, or who knew his story, will ever forget your sweet little man, Ryan Douglas Brown.

God bless you always!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, March 21, 2006 11:15 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth.
Thinking of you guys and keeping you in our prayers. Ryan was the best example of a miracle that I have ever experienced. Ryan taught us to truly believe that there is something greater than all of us. Ryan lives in all our hearts and thoughts everyday. We miss him very much. I am so glad sister is doing well, I will have to teach her how to call my number now that she is carrying on conversations. Hope you and the baby are feeling well. Can't wait to see you all. Love you all.
Jody <one_chesney_fan@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, March 21, 2006 11:10 AM CST

Three weeks!
can't wait to meet Ryan's little brother!
prayers and love
mrs pam
- Tuesday, March 21, 2006 7:51 AM CST

Hello,
I don't sign as often as I should butI do check everyday for an update. I pray you through as often as I can and I know in my heart that Ryan is in heaven with Leah. I will be so happy when the new little tyke gets here, what a joy!!
Praying for the cure for the beast.
Trina (niece of Karen James)
P.S. Hoping for a wonderful and safe return for your hubby.
Trina from michigan <slatinsky@talkamerica.net>
- Sunday, March 19, 2006 6:23 AM CST

Hi All,

Just thinking about you and thought I'd
drop by and say HI.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, March 18, 2006 2:35 PM CST

May you always have...
A sunbeam to warm you,
Good luck to charm you,
And a sheltering angel
So nothing can harm you,
Laughter to cheer you,
Faithful friends near you,
And whenever you pray,
Heaven to hear you.

Thinking of you as always and wishing you peace in your hearts. Thank you for updating, Nana Sherry. Andrea, I will be thinking of you quite a bit in these next few weeks. Hang in there!! =0)
Big ((((((hugs)))))) from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Friday, March 17, 2006 9:37 PM CST

Thank you for your writings. Prayers for all of your family.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Friday, March 17, 2006 3:46 PM CST

THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY TODAY AND EVERYDAY.

LOVE,
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO - Friday, March 17, 2006 3:07 PM CST

Dear Friends,
Just wanted to sign in and say you are in my thoughts and prayers. I was so excited when I saw a new entry today. Yes, we all were blessed to have Ryan in our lives. He has made us all better individuals. I said hello to him this morning as I entered school. He is still very much apart of our classroom. My prayers go out to all of you today during this emaotional and memorable time. I love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, March 17, 2006 7:20 AM CST

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!!
Thinking about you all...
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles999@yahoo.com>
flint, Mi - Friday, March 17, 2006 7:10 AM CST

He was such a special little guy, but his courage was so big. Love ya's and hope to see ya soon.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, March 17, 2006 6:06 AM CST

Thinking of you! Hugs!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, March 16, 2006 8:28 PM CST

prayers and love from St. Louis
mrs pam
- Thursday, March 16, 2006 8:36 AM CST

Thinking of you today and every day...
We love you so much.

Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA - Thursday, March 16, 2006 6:53 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Angel Ryan,
Just wanted to let you know you were in my thoughtsand prayers. Scooter was asking when the baby was due and said we needed to come see you all. I told her as soon as she gets her cast off and I can transport her easier we would come by. She goes back on Monday, 20 March. We all will celebrate that day. She has been walking with the cast on so hopefully her transition will not be to difficult. Please know that even though I don't sign the guestbook as often as I would like I think of you every day. Love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, March 15, 2006 7:29 AM CST

A friend sent me this and I'm passing it around:
This is God. Today I will be handling All of your problems for you. I do
Not need your help. So, have a nice day.

I love you.

with love, <Deirdre40@frontiernet.net>
- Wednesday, March 15, 2006 6:58 AM CST

Thinking about you all..
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles999@yahoo.com>
flint, Mi - Wednesday, March 15, 2006 5:46 AM CST

Amazing where 12 short months can take you...I was looking back at the old journal entries and decided to pull from your own words to hopefully bring some encouragement to you today...
"I sometimes think our world was shattered, but I don't think like that right now. It was the day our eyes were opened. I certainly wouldn't have chosen this path for son, family, or myself. But obviously GOD has a plan and we are fitting into that plan. Ryan was chosen for a reason. We may never know that reason, but we have seen people turn to GOD and pray for Ryan and go to church, turn their faith around once they have heard his story. He along with so many children have touched lives."

This was true in March 2005 and is still true in March 2006. Ryan continues to touch lives and change hearts.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO USA - Tuesday, March 14, 2006 12:34 AM CST

Andrea,
Sending our love and prayers. And praying all is well with you and your family.
AM Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Tuesday, March 14, 2006 6:57 AM CST

Dear Andrea and All,

I am continuing to think of you all. Ryan was in my thoughts beneath the Jesus and the Children window, during Eucharist this week.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY - Sunday, March 12, 2006 4:45 AM CST

Just want you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers, as always. Hope all is well with Sissy and baby! Praying for Phillip while he's in the big sandbox! So you know,now and always, we still bee-lieve..
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Friday, March 10, 2006 11:58 PM CST

Thinking of you!!
Hugs & love from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/audrey - Thursday, March 9, 2006 3:17 PM CST

Missing and thinking about you guy's. Miss our little buddy but I am sure he has everyone up there marching to his tune. Was really glad to hear the big guy got home for a few day's, just wish it would have been to stay instead of having to go back. Glad to hear Scooter is doing better too. Give Sissy and Bull a hug for me and even Nana I guess. Love Ya Uncle Bill. ( ps) Nana I got Two, not just one but Two really pretty bday cards from North Carolina.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 9, 2006 5:23 AM CST

Thinking about all of you...
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles04@comcast.net>
flint, mi - Wednesday, March 8, 2006 5:38 PM CST

Dear Andrea and Family,

I thought of Ryan tonight, when I attended a special extra weekly Eucharist that we are having during the six weeks of Lent. God bless his sweet spirit!

I hope the pregnancy is going along well.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Wednesday, March 8, 2006 0:41 AM CST

Hey Guys,
Just wanted to check in to see how you were doing? I know you are all getting excited about the new arrival. I don't know if you saw last weeks Courier, but the letter Scooter wrote to Phillip was on the back page of the front section. I was so excited about seeing it. Just wanted you to know we love you and think of you all the time.
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Tuesday, March 7, 2006 2:40 PM CST

Hi Elizabeth
We prayed for you in Preschool this morning.
Our new theme for the month is
March in Missouri. We have a dogwood
tree (our state tree) as our Pen Pal Prayer Tree.
Each day the leader chooses 3 tags to hang on our
tree. I wrote the names of our Pen Pals according to
the states (and Canada, Scotland, and Australia). Then
we find the states on our map and I write the Pen Pals'
names on the states, too.
SOOOOO...today Ohio and Kentucky
and Canada were the chosen tags.
We also prayed for your mommy and daddy
and new baby brother and, of course, for Ryan.
xxoo
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Monday, March 6, 2006 4:19 PM CST

Hello Andrea,

I learned of your website through another child's site. We also lost our son, Ryan, on July 1st, 2005 (to cancer). I'm sure our children are good pals in Heaven.

God Bless!

Linda, Pat & Angel Ryan (www.caringbridge.org/mi/ryanc) <padwik@yahoo.com>
Fenton, MI USA - Monday, March 6, 2006 10:16 AM CST

Sending you hugs from Oregon. Thank you for signing Ray's page.
Crystal Copeland mommy to Angel Ray-Anne (www.caringbridge.org/ca/rayanne) <crystal2175@yahoo.com>
Portland, OR USA - Monday, March 6, 2006 10:11 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth,
Just have you guys on my mind today especially Ryan. Just wanted to let you know that we are thinking and praying for you. Love you all.
Garry, Jody and Emily
- Monday, March 6, 2006 9:33 AM CST

I miss you Buddy!!
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, March 5, 2006 11:55 PM CST

I was just thinking about Ryan and of course thoughts of you guys immediately followed.
Hoping all is well where you are today. Big hugs!!
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com www.braintrust.org/Audrey >
Livonia , MI ~Audrey's Umbrella~ - Saturday, March 4, 2006 3:16 PM CST

Sending you lots of hugs today! Hugs Hugs Hugs Hugs and lots more hugs!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Saturday, March 4, 2006 7:16 AM CST

Andrea,
I know it's been a long time since I've actually signed the book, but I'm reading it and think of you often. I'm so glad you got to spend the time you did with Phillip, just sorry he had to leave again.
Take Care
We Love You
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 3:22 PM CST

I still bee-lieve!
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 3:02 PM CST

Hey Guys, I've had you on my mind for a few days now and decided to take a few minutes to let you know that I love you. I was sooo happy to see Phillip when he came in. I too wish he was home for good. He really looks great. Andrea you look great too. Pregnancy seems to agree with you. Elizabeth has grown so much. I see a lot of Ryan in her. Scooter has really been doing great since they took the plate out of her leg. Her foot is moving more even in the cast and she seems to feel better. She is anxious for 20 March to arrive so she can get out of the cast and get back on her four wheeler. You all take care. Remember to call if you need anything. Love ya!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 10:35 AM CST

Andrea and Elizabeth
praying for you two!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, March 2, 2006 9:01 AM CST

Always thinking fo you all and Ryan.

Keep Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 7:40 AM CST

Hi Andrea,
You signed my daughter Dani's Caringbridge website a long while ago and I just wanted to say thank you. She had been so well for the last year and a half that I'd stopped writing in it and never responded to you. I'm so so sorry to hear about your beautiful son. I can't imagine the pain you've gone through or continue to have each and every day. Your website is an inspiration to us - the way you've kept your faith and your smile!!
Darla and Dani Kos <danikos@sbcglobal.net www3.caringbridge.org/mo/danikos>
St. Louis, MO USA - Thursday, March 2, 2006 0:10 AM CST

Thinking of Ryan and your family everyday. May the Lord continue to be at your side and shower you with blessings, hugs and love.

Ryan sweety always loving and thanking you. Miss you a lot,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, March 1, 2006 7:50 AM CST

Andrea,Phillip, and Elizabeth,
Glad to hear you all had a good visit with each other. I am glad the big guy got to come home and see his girls. We love you all and are keeping you in our prayers.
Jody, Garry, Emily
- Monday, February 27, 2006 2:38 PM CST

I am praying for strength for you! It's just so sad. I'm so sorry. I'm sure your little girl helps you get through each and every day, which I'm sure aren't easy. I think of Ryan often. It just breaks my heart.
Lynn
TN - Monday, February 27, 2006 12:51 AM CST

Dear Andrea and Family,

I am so glad that Phillip could be home with you for a short while. May God bless and protect him as he serves!

I remembered Ryan on Saturday afternoon, at Eucharist, beneath the Jesus and the Children window, as I often do. I am sorry you all miss him so much.

God bless you always!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Monday, February 27, 2006 10:58 AM CST

I'm so glad that Phillip got to spent some time at home. I bet it was the best medicine for all of you.
I'll pray that time passes quickly until he's home again. Big hugs to all of you!!
Hugs & prayers from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, February 27, 2006 7:52 AM CST

sending lots of love and prayers with Phillip!!!
Michael,colleen, Conner and B-nut... <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles , Mo USA - Sunday, February 26, 2006 10:30 PM CST

I know this was a tough weekend. I hope you have a good week. We love all of you!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft.Bragg, NC USA - Sunday, February 26, 2006 3:48 PM CST

Thinking of you today.
Colleen Farmer
- Sunday, February 26, 2006 2:05 PM CST

Thinking of you Andrea. You have been on my mind and know how hard it is to send them back over there. I will be thinking of you all and hoping the time goes fast for you!
Christie <christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Campbell, KY 42223 - Sunday, February 26, 2006 1:31 PM CST

What a terrific surprise!!!!!
Enjoy your time together!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 25, 2006 9:04 PM CST

Thank you for your kindness in writing. Prayers for your family. Remembering Ryan.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Saturday, February 25, 2006 11:06 AM CST

Thinking of you all always..

Missing you Buddy, and because of you..
ALways Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, February 24, 2006 8:08 AM CST

What a wonderful surprise. I admire your strength but I know you are just doing what you have to do. I think about Ryan often! I think about you, your daughter, your husband, your new baby on the way, and the rest of your family. I pray for you all. Hugs!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, February 23, 2006 8:27 PM CST

what a lovely secret!!
praying for sissy, too.....
how difficult for her to have so many
drastic changes
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, February 23, 2006 8:38 AM CST

Andrea, that is so great to hear. I sure can't blame you for keeping it a secret. Hope you guys get to enjoy every minute of time together.
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 10:20 AM CST

Always Thinking of you..Remembering Ryan.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, February 22, 2006 8:05 AM CST

Just thinking of you guys...
Hope everyone is staying well.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 22, 2006 0:39 AM CST

Checking in on the Brown household hoping that everything is going good! I sure hope to see an update soon!
Sunshine <kssandman@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, February 21, 2006 6:43 PM CST

I showed Andrew some newly developed pictures of Elizabeth and him this morning, and of course he got all misty-eyed. We are missing all of you so very much. Hope you are having a good week.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Tuesday, February 21, 2006 12:50 AM CST

Hope things are going okay for all of you. Think of you often. Hope you feel God's peace today.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
- Monday, February 20, 2006 10:24 PM CST

Hey there, I haven't gotten a chance to get online for awhile so I havent been able to check the website. I hope all is well and that you are doing ok. Talk to you soon.
Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Nebo, IL - Sunday, February 19, 2006 5:04 PM CST

Hugs and oodles of prayers!
Love

Mary, Mike Slade and the kids <mar-e@rogers.com>
Guelph, Ontario, Canada - Sunday, February 19, 2006 3:33 PM CST

praying for you
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 18, 2006 9:42 AM CST

Still remembering. Stil thinking of Ryan. Still thinking of you and your family. Still praying. {{{{{{Hugs, Hugs, Hugs, and more Hugs}}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Friday, February 17, 2006 9:13 PM CST

This Valentine is not of the ordinary kind,
It�s still filled with love... and blessings inside;
But mine has to be sent on the wings of love...
You see its destination is the Heavens above.
It�s not being sent to my parents so dear,
For they are still with me each day of the year;
It�s being sent to my child... who left earth so soon,
Who�s now in the Heavens with the stars and the moon.
The message is the same as your valentine,
�I love you... my sweet precious child of mine;
My love is still deeper than the ocean is blue,
And it�s sent with hugs and kisses...from me to you.�
�I know you are with me each and every day,
You listen as I talk to you...and hear what I say;
For that is one thing that disease cannot do...
you�ll always be apart of me...and me a part of you.�
�I know God did not give you the awful disease,
Thank Him for His comfort He gives me...would you please?
I dont know what I would do without His undying love...
Sent to bereaved parents from the Heavens above.�
�I know you are in the best of care,
But it�s so hard for us left on earth to bear;
Could you put in a request from us left behind...
For God to send the knowledge..so a cure we can find.�
�So that no other family has to go through this pain,
Our lives without you will never be the same;
When I get lonely I will look to the sky at night...
And see you shining down your big bright light.�
�Happy Valentines day sunshine...I miss you so much,
I know you know how many lives you have touched;
You�ll always be mine...I love you with all my heart,
I know we�ll be together again...and then we�ll never part.�
So you see the meaning is still the same...
The method of delivery is the only change;
Mine must be sent by a little white dove...
On the wings of Love.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
STerling, VA - Thursday, February 16, 2006 8:35 AM CST

A VALENTINE SENT TO HEAVEN

Angels come swiftly, hurry to our side
Carry our hearts back with you, to our children in heaven now reside.
Carry them gently, handle them with care
And take them to their sides, and gently lay them there.
Whisper to them of our love, and our longing hearts
All our lonely aching while we are apart.
Hold them gently to you, and let them see our love
Let them see this, our valentine to them above.
Reassure them of our love, that it is still the same
And gently hold us when we cry, when we hear them whisper our names.
Let this exchange of love be our valentine
And whisper to them that our love will stand the test of time.
Show them the memories are safely held inside
And with us they will always abide.
Let them see this day, a day filled with our love
As we shed our tears, and whisper their names, to our Valentines above.

Sheila Simmons

Always thinking of you...
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, February 16, 2006 8:31 AM CST

I know I'm a day late but want you to know that I was thinking of you.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA/CANADA, - Wednesday, February 15, 2006 2:20 PM CST

I pray you had a wonderful VAlentine's Day. Always thinking of you all.

Happy Valentine's Day Buddy, ALways missing you.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, February 15, 2006 7:45 AM CST

Crystal Copeland mommy to Angel Ray-Anne (www.caringbridge.org/ca/rayanne) <crystal2175@yahoo.com>
Portland, OR USA - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:54 AM CST

Dear Andrea, I hope you have a wonderful Valentine's day...that you get the chance to give Elizabeth big hugs and kisses, that you get to "see" Phillip on-line, that you get to feel your baby boy giving you some loving kicks, and that you know without a doubt that Ryan's love for you is all around and in your heart forever.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, February 14, 2006 10:20 AM CST

thinking of you today and praying for
you, knowing that holidays aren't easy.
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 14, 2006 9:40 AM CST

Hey girls, hope you are both doing fine. I sure miss you two and even the big lad across the pond. Was thinking about Biscuit the other day and how funny it was the first time I heard my little buddy talking to him. You know I think he really did see biscuit sometimes, and I think biscuit is one of his new friends where he is at now. Tell Phillip and Bull I said hi and give sissy a kiss and hug for me.
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 14, 2006 5:32 AM CST

((((((Andrea)))))) I just wanted to stop by and say I have been thinking about you and precious little Ryan lately. I am so glad I have gotten to know you the last few months, I feel as though I've known you forever, I wish I'd of gotten the chance to meet little Ryan also, but I feel as if I have met him thru the words written in your journal and the online conversations we have had on the group. I just wanted you to know I am here for you anytime you need me and that although it has been nearly a year little Ryan is not forgotten at all, he is still touching lives, how amazing that is to me, he has touched the lives of people he has never met from across the country.
I am thinking of you and your family and sending you all my hugs and prayers, Love, Jennifer ( from ftckyspouses2 )
Jennifer Erwin <graciebaby28@yahoo.com>
Fort Campbell, KY U.S.A. - Saturday, February 11, 2006 11:22 PM CST

Phillip, Andrea, Elizabeth and My Little Buddy,
It's been awhile since I've signed the guest book although I check it daily. Ms. Chrystal and I keep each other informed as to whether anything new has been added. I'm sorry to say I never saw the pictures Nana Sherry put on the web site about the bench. For some strange reason they would not show up. I still say hello to my little buddy everyday when I get to school. I can't wait until the weather gets warmer so we can plant some flowers in the garden. Ryan still is in our thoughts. Phillip, Scooter wrote you a letter to be a part of the Home Front page published on the Courier website. I hope you get time to read it. She came home with a writing assignment and said she wanted to write to you. Looks like we are headed back to Children's Hospital next week for another surgery. Scooter has been having problems with her right leg since she started baring weight on it again. The doctor will take out the plate they put in her leg and put a cast on it for a month while the holes from the screws heal. Hopefully after that we will be on the right track. I continue to keep you in my thougths and prayers. Andrea I hope all is going well. The offer still holds to take you part of the way home if you decide you need to get away. I love the poem you have on the website. It is so true!!!. Love you guys. Kisses and Hugs to Elizabeth. Phillip save safe!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, February 10, 2006 6:09 PM CST

Thinking of you today and always. Its been 7 months, and I think of you everyday. You are always in my heart, toughs and prayers along with your family..

Always Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, February 10, 2006 6:08 PM CST

Hi Andrea,

Hope today is a good day for you
and sis!!

Alisa

Hippie bus kid <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, February 10, 2006 10:46 AM CST

Sending hugssssssss and kissesssssss your way. Thinking of you always Buddy.

Always Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, February 9, 2006 8:25 AM CST

Just thinking of you guys.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, February 8, 2006 4:06 PM CST

Thinking about you today. Just wanted to let you know. Hugs
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 3:51 PM CST

Thinking of you all and Ryan always..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
sterling, VA - Wednesday, February 8, 2006 8:00 AM CST

The Prayer Bears
Hailee
sending prayers your way
melissa <angels4hailee@Cox.net>
cavecreek, az usa - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 10:03 PM CST

Ryan,

Thank you so much for coming to my dreams last night. It was awesome to give you hugs, and kisses. Your smile is wonderful and the special hand shake you show me was awesome. Thank you for bringing my daughter with you and showing me your there taking care of her it meant so much to see her again after 11 years, hugging her and you felt so good. I wish I remember all my dream, but unfortunately I can only remember bits and pieces, but I going to write it down so I will never forget. You were here in my dreams with my daughter its sometimes hard to believe but I know miracles happen, I can't thank you enough with tears in my eyes I tell you thank you, thank you for allowing me to see you and my daughter to get to hug you it felt so good. The feeling of happiness that I feel knowing that I got to meet you and hug you and my daughter is so overwhelming I am fill with joy, thank you. I can't believe how gorgous my daughter looks for 11 years I haven't dream about her and you brought her to me. Thank you, Ryan you change and touch my life in so many ways its a never ending list and for you to bring my daughter so I can get to meet you and see her again just shows how wonderful and amazing little guy you are. I know you were wearing a beige shirt w/stripes accross your chest with beige like shorts and my daughter was wearing a red dress, see I remember and also are special hand shake I will never forget and I will show it to my kids I promise. Thank you so much Buddy, for your visit I hope you can get to visit again in the near future. Sending You and Sissy lots of hugs and kisses. Love you both and miss you with all my heart.

Ryan's family,

Your little guys is so amazing his still touching my life from up in heaven. I felt so warm inside having him next to me and hugging him. Thank you so much for allowing to be a part of Ryan's and your life and journey, by knowing Ryan I was able to find the true me and he help me do it. For that I thank you.

Miss you Buddy,
Keep Believing,
ALma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, February 7, 2006 8:06 AM CST

Hey I can read again, I know it doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I am about colored blind. Miss you guy's bad. Sorry to hear about the other families that have had to make that journey. hope you and sissy and the little guy are doing ok. Seen pictures from the shower and sissy just looks more and more like me everyday the lucky kid. tell phillip I haven't forgotten him but don't have the ground deer to make it with yet. Love you guy's
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, February 7, 2006 5:29 AM CST

I'm thinking about you...just wish I could be doing more. Miss you guys.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Monday, February 6, 2006 3:47 PM CST

I'm so sorry to hear that two more little guys have been taken from their families:( I will be sure to stop by and leave them a message of support.

Sending you all hugs!!
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, February 6, 2006 1:04 PM CST

I still Bee-lieve.....
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbankc.om>
St Charles, MO USA - Monday, February 6, 2006 8:59 AM CST

Andrea,Phillip,and Elizabeth,
Miss you all and love you all. Keeping you in our prayers.
Miss and love you Ryan.

Jody, Emily and Garry.
- Monday, February 6, 2006 8:57 AM CST

Always thinking of you and your family. Ryan I miss you sweety sending you a lot of hugs and kisses..

Keep Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, February 6, 2006 7:43 AM CST

I Love You!!!! that's all I can say right now.
aunt meme <mkymse10@hotmail.com>
st peters, mo usa - Sunday, February 5, 2006 7:19 PM CST

Andrea
deeply sorry that Cameron and Sam's
families will now know the new normal, too.
God be with all of you in your sorrows and joys.
mrs pam <preschoolpenpal@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, February 5, 2006 4:22 PM CST

Thinking of you all.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, February 5, 2006 11:03 AM CST

Sending you love and hugs today!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, February 5, 2006 7:55 AM CST

Hi guy's. Sorry I haven't written sooner but I can't read the journal entries because of the background. I sure was hoping that it would of changed by now, but I still had to let you know I am thinking of you and love ya all.
upb <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, February 4, 2006 4:54 PM CST

Hugs and oodles of prayers!
Love

Mary, Mike Slade and the kids <mar-e@rogers.com>
Guelph, Ontario, Canada - Friday, February 3, 2006 6:46 AM CST

Andrea,

Words cannot express how I felt this morning when I checked my e-mail. I remember the day you took that picture of Ryan, Ms. Chrystal, and me. He wanted me right by his side. He didn't want me to mover. I think I did all the coloring well with specific instructions. It brought back a memory of right before Sharon, Chrystal and I left for Colorado. Ryan looked at me with this serious look and he said "I can fit in your suitcase". I thank God that he allowed me to be a part of Ryan's life. Ryan blessed me in so many ways. As a speech pathologist I work with many children that are very special to me, but there will never be another one like Ryan. I hope that you know I consider your family my family. You, Phillip, Elizabeth, and Nana are so special to me. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your lives! Phillip stay safe! Love you all!
Ms. Roscella <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
Ft. Campbell, KY 42223 - Thursday, February 2, 2006 7:44 PM CST

Thinking of you. Remembering Ryan.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Thursday, February 2, 2006 12:51 AM CST

Ryan I miss you so much and think of you everyday, you are always in my heart and thoughts. I always pray for your family . for our Lord to shower them with blessings. Please help Sam as he is going through a rough time right now. Buddy sending you a lot of hugs and kisses..

ALways Believing...
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, February 2, 2006 8:31 AM CST

We cross the paths of people in our lives that are brought to us for some unknown reason. Last summer, Mary Walsdorf signed Ryan's guestbook and relayed that her grandson had just been diagnosed with the monster. Now, Sam is struggling to hang on. He is a fighter just like our little hero. We have an idea of what his family is going through and how they are feeling, but each one of these battles is different. Over the months Sam's Nana Mary and I have become good friends and we talked on the phone the other night. I hope it helped Mary as much as it helped me. I was definitely having a Ryan day. So, please pray for little Sam and my friend Mary. A grandparent not only loses a grandchild, we lose our child for they will never be the same again. Visit www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf and let the Walsdorf family know that the same love and support you showed for Ryan is there for Sam.

Nana Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:55 PM CST

What great pictures...thanks for continuing to share Ryan's smile with us!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 9:05 PM CST

Andrea - I'm always thinking of you and your family. I hope things are going well with your pregnancy. May God bring you peace today.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 10:23 AM CST

Always Thinking of you and your family Buddy.

Miss you a lot...

Always Believing,
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, February 1, 2006 7:55 AM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I continue to remember Ryan and to think of you all. I know life is not easy for those in bereavement. May God bless you all!

Today, the first of February, is the Feast of St. Bridget of Kildare, one of the most beloved of the Irish saints. In her honor, I will add a traditional Irish prayer beneath my signature.

God bless you always!

Grace and peace,

Colette

This morning, as I kindle the fire upon my hearth, I pray that the flame of God's love may burn in my heart, and the hearts of all I meet today.

I pray that no envy and malice, no hatred or fear, may smother the flame.

I pray that indifference and apathy, contempt and pride, may not pour like cold water on the fire.

Instead, may the spark of God's love light the love in my heart, that it may burn brightly through the day.

And may I warm those that are lonely, whose hearts are cold and lifeless, so that all may know the comfort of God's love.

~A Traditional Celtic Prayer
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 11:57 PM CST

Andrea...just want to say that your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I had a nice chat with your Mom yesterday, and enjoyed hearing all about Ryan. Hope you are doing OK, even though Normal is not the same anymore.

Mary Walsdorf (www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf) <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 11:11 PM CST

I really appreciated your new journal. It kind of makes you stop to think about how many times you took "normal" life for granted. For a long time I used to get angry when people would ask me how many kids we have. Some people don't realize what a loaded question that can be. I often want to remind people to appreciate what they have.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 1:32 PM CST

Just wanted to stop in and let you know you are still in our thoughts, our prayers, and our hearts. Phillip, you be careful over there!

Still Bee-lieving.... the Cosby's
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Tuesday, January 31, 2006 8:14 AM CST

I just stooped by to see how you are doing. The bench and Angel is beautiful.

Take care

Angel Rachel's Mommy
jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Monday, January 30, 2006 8:21 PM CST

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, January 30, 2006 7:08 PM CST

Andy came home last night for his visit. He hugged us, and then asked about you and Elizabeth!! By the way, he loved the bubble wrap. Hope you are feeling better. Praying for all of you.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Sunday, January 29, 2006 8:15 AM CST

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today. Hugs!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, January 29, 2006 7:31 AM CST

Just stopping by to let you know that I'm thinking about you. Have a great weekend!
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Saturday, January 28, 2006 7:46 AM CST

Always thinking of you...

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, January 26, 2006 8:25 PM CST

Thinking of you and sending you hugs and saying a prayer for you and your family. Always thinking of Ryan!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, January 26, 2006 5:35 PM CST

Thank you for the strength you give to others. Remembering Ryan.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Thursday, January 26, 2006 10:08 AM CST

I can't remember if I have posted these lyrics out here before, but I heard this song today and wanted to remind you that we still beelieve even though we know how hard it is sometimes to find faith or hope. This song is called Borrow Mine by Bebo Norman...

Take my hand and walk with me a while
Cause it seems your smile has left you
And don't give in, when you fall apart
And your broken heart has failed you
I'll set a light up
On a hilltop
To show you my love
For this world to see

You can borrow mine
When your hope is gone
Borrow mine
When you can't go on
'Cause the world will not defeat you
When we're side by side
When your faith is hard to find
You can borrow mine

Take my love when all that you can see
Is the raging sea all around us
And don't give up 'cause I'm not letting go
And the God we know will not fail us
We'll lay it all down
As we call out
Sweet Savior
help our unbelief

You can borrow mine
When your hope is gone
Borrow mine
When you can't go on
'Cause the world will not defeat you
When we're side by side
When your faith is hard to find
You can borrow mine

When you are weak
Unable to speak
You are not alone
The God who has saved us
Will never forsake us
he's coming to take us
Take us to our home

You can borrow mine
When your hope is gone
Borrow mine
When you can't go on
'Cause the world will not defeat you
When we're side by side
When your faith is hard to find
You can borrow mine

Take my hand
Take my love
Don't give in
Don't give up

With Love, Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 9:33 AM CST

Always thinking fo you..
ALma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
STerling, VA - Wednesday, January 25, 2006 7:58 AM CST

Andrea,
I don't write often but I check your site everyday. I pray that someday you are able to feel joy and happiness again. I think that somehow Ryan is giving you your new baby to help lighten your heart. He will be with you forever and always. Just remember that when a soul crosses over it never goes alone. There is alway someone waiting to hold his hand into paridise. Sometimes, although they are missed so much, I think they are the lucky ones. They feel a constant inner peace that we cannot even begin to explain. Love to your family. As alway I will pray for your husbands safe return.
Trina from michigan(leahsjourney.com)
Trina <slatinsky@talkamerica.net>
La Salle, MI USA - Tuesday, January 24, 2006 4:17 PM CST

Andrea the bench and angel are so nice. It's wonderful that these teachers got together to make a tribute for Ryan. I cannot imagine the pain you face each day....all I can say is I think of Ryan and his precious face....he'll never be forgotten. Hope you and Lady Elizabeth start to feel better real soon. God Bless you, Elizabeth, Phillip and Nana Sherry too! And the baby!!!
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton becah, fl usa - Tuesday, January 24, 2006 2:31 PM CST

The beautiful bench and angel
are certainly a fantastic tribute
to Ryan!!!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, January 24, 2006 8:27 AM CST

Always thinking of you specially Ryan we miss you. Phillip take care come home safe..

Always Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Monday, January 23, 2006 9:23 PM CST

The bench and angel are beautiful, absolutely beautiful.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, January 23, 2006 6:15 PM CST

Andrea and Elizabeth,
I was so good to see you guys this weekend. I'm glad you got to make the trip up.
Phillip, take care of yourself.

Tiffaney
- Monday, January 23, 2006 8:18 AM CST

What a nice thing for Ryan's school to do in his memory! I don't have the internet at home yet so I haven't gotten to get on line as much as I did before. We should be getting it soon. I hope you and Elizabeth get to feeling better soon. How is Phillip doing? I saw his mom in church today, it was good to see them. I will write more later. Thinking of you always!
Ashley Minor (soon to be Mrs. Skirvin) <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Nebo, IL - Sunday, January 22, 2006 6:28 PM CST

The bench looks so amazing, I know Ryan is jumping of joy. Please know that we always have you in our prayers and thoughts. Ryan we miss you everyday and a day doesn't go by that we don't think of you. We love you..

Keep Believing
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, January 20, 2006 8:10 PM CST

Thinking of you today. Thinking of Ryan all the time. Hugs to all of you.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Friday, January 20, 2006 6:43 PM CST

Thinking of you,
Can't wait to see that bench
surrounded by flowers and
bumblebees!!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, January 20, 2006 11:34 AM CST

Still Bee-lieving....
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Friday, January 20, 2006 8:45 AM CST

Your site has touched my heart. I send you my condolences.
I am inviting you to visit my website.
http://pinkribbons3.tripod.com
I found this video that is very touching, if you would like to see it.
http://www.inspiringthots.net/movie/4-all-parents.php
Alisha <mommy_of_2@bellsouth.net>
Newport, TN United States - Thursday, January 19, 2006 10:19 PM CST

It was so nice to see Ryan's bench and Ms. Sharon. I just wish we were still there to see it. I hope that you are feeling better today. Give Elizabeth a hug for me. Uncle Andy will be really happy with the card!!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Thursday, January 19, 2006 7:04 PM CST

That sure is a beautiful bench and garden, what a wonderful memorial honoring your angel. I hope your pregnancy is going well.

Happy New Year!
Chari Warner <millymango40@yahoo.com>
Alpharetta, GA USA - Thursday, January 19, 2006 3:27 PM CST

What a sweet bench and garden for a sweet boy. I can imagine Ryan wanting to tear up the dirt. HAHA!!:) Hope Elizabeth is feeling better. Hugs,thoughts,and prayers, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Thursday, January 19, 2006 11:29 AM CST

I can't wait to see pictures of the bench...what a special and beautiful tribute to Ryan! It's just another example of how your little guy touched so many lives...and now he'll touch even more as people ask about him when they see his bench.

Good luck naming the baby...I'm sure you've had LOTS of suggestions by now! Don't feel bad that the right name hasn't come to you yet...my cousin's 5th child was named by the nurse who helped deliver him:)
Big hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Thursday, January 19, 2006 8:11 AM CST

I'm sorry you had such a difficult week. How nice the school dedicated a bench! What a special group of people. I'm sure it's beautiful and helped get you through a tough time. God bless.

with love <Deirdre40@frontiernet.net>
- Wednesday, January 18, 2006 7:24 AM CST

Andrea - just here to say that I thinking of your family during this hard week.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 3:55 PM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I hope Andrea continues to have a good pregnancy. As I said previously, I know Ryan will help you with the name for the newcomer.

God bless you all in this good year of 2006!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, January 17, 2006 5:01 AM CST

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, January 16, 2006 7:08 PM CST

Liked Mema's story.
thinking of you all with love
mrs pam
St Louis, - Monday, January 16, 2006 5:43 PM CST

The Brave Little Soul
By: John Alessi

Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however, the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked, "Why do bad things happen, why is there suffering in the world?".

God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in peoples hearts". The little soul was confused. "What do you mean", he asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences, and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone.

The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this-it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer-to unlock this love-to create this miracle-for the good of all humanity.

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With his wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into this world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's hearts! I want to create that miracle!

God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you.

God and the brave little soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed.

Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God's strength he unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys-some regained lost faith-many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives were changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased."

AM Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Monday, January 16, 2006 10:52 AM CST

Thinking of you. Hugs!!!!!!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, January 15, 2006 8:46 PM CST

Thinking of you and missing all of you. My kids are in awe of you right now. Don't worry, I'll return the favor! Kiss Elizabeth for me.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC God bless the USA!!! - Sunday, January 15, 2006 8:18 PM CST

Always thinking of you guys!!
How's Miss Elizabeth and baby doing?

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, January 15, 2006 3:36 PM CST

You were on my mind so I thought I'd stop by to say hello.
I hope that you are all doing well!
Hugs & love from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , Mi www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Sunday, January 15, 2006 1:57 PM CST

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth:

It's been a while since I have written in Ryan's Guestbook but my boss gave this to me on Friday and I thought I would share this with you and all the special friends that visit this website. Maybe some have read or seen this before, but it was a first for me and I found it to be first class advice.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day is not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes".

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filing the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now", said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things, God, family, children, health, friends and favorite passions -- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.

If you put the sand into the jar first, there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So -- pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

1. Play with your children.
2. Take time to get medical checkups.
3. Take your partner out to dinner.
4. Play another 18 holes.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired about what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there is always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Even though we have lost one of our precious golf balls (I should say goof balls because at times our Ryan could be pretty goofy), but we still have each other. We should all look around us and thank God for the wonderful families we have, our great country, our freedom and most of all the ability he has given each of us to have memories of Ryan that we will cherish for eternity.

Phillip, if you get a chance to sign on and read this, I want you to know how proud I am of you, how very much I love you and I miss you more than words can say. Maybe I should have changed the story a little bit and picked a different type of jar since I know you don't like mayonnaise.

Andrea, there's not much I can say except keep up the good work. It is amazing to me how you have been able to maintain your sanity with Phillip being gone, dealing with your pregnancy, and that sweet, sweet little Elizabeth. What an angel she is. I have enjoyed our visits and look forward to seeing you each time you come to Missouri.

Elizabeth, love you, Busy Bee. Stay sweet. Keep working on Mema, I know you will get it yet.

Ryan, I miss you soooooo much.

Mema
Patricia Capps <pattycapp44@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO - Saturday, January 14, 2006 1:44 PM CST

Always thinking of you and Ryann.. GOD bless!! sending a lot of hugs your way and Heaven..

Keep Believing...
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, January 13, 2006 8:04 AM CST

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today. Hugs.
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
- Thursday, January 12, 2006 9:03 PM CST

You may never know how many times I think of you all and how you must be struggling still just to face another day without your sweet baby boy. I wish that your story would have played itself out more like ours, I hope for your faith to remain unshaken, I pray for Phillips safety and for the health of the new baby....most of all I pray for Andrea, as I cannot fathom the depth of her pain. Just know, that someone who you never met has been touched by your story and by your email to our website - and know that you remain forever in our hearts and our prayers.
George ann Ewald -- Ryne's Mommie www.caringbridge.org/in/ryry <GeorgeEwald@comcast.net>
Granger, IN USA - Thursday, January 12, 2006 7:25 PM CST

Hi there, I haven't gotten to check in like usual. I am not working at Homecare any more since there is no longer a Best Buy Homecare. I don't have internet access so it is difficult for me to get a chance to check things. I've been thinking of you all a lot and continue to pray for you daily. I hope things are going well and keep in touch. Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Nebo, IL - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 10:09 AM CST

Always thinking of you all.

Always Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 7:52 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
It was so good the see Andrea and Nana on Friday. I was disappointed that Elizabeth was not here too. Since the bench has been placed in a better location I am able to say good morning to our little buddy every day that I come to school. I look forward to placing some beauitful flowers in the garden once the weather decides what it is going to do. We hope to get some students from the afternoon Pre-K class that Ryan was in to help us plant some bulbs in the spring. Andrea you looked wonderful. The pregancy seems to agree with you. I enjoyed coming over to the house and talking with you and Nana. I kept expecting our little buddy to come from behind the furniture and give me a big hug. Phillip I pray for you constantly. I hope God brings you home safe and that you stay out of harms way. Thank you for the scarifices you are making for our country and freedoms that we take for granted. Hope to see you all soon. Love ya!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, January 11, 2006 7:07 AM CST

Friday was a very special day. Every morning when I walk into the school I will forever be reminded of our little angel! Andrea, you are a very special person to me. I hope that you know that. You need to listen to you mom though and no solo trips to Missouri. Understand? I will drive you part way and meet your mom. We need to go to the movies when you get back to Kentucky! Phillip take care of yourself. We missed you Ms. Elizabeth. Lindsie is waiting to get babysit you and your lil brother when he gets here. LOVE YOU GUYS! Be careful coming home!
Roscella Meeks <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
Ft. Campbell, KY - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 7:32 PM CST

For the first time in a long time I am out of words. It seems so hard to believe that it has been 6 months now. Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday when Meme called me to tell me that they found a mass and we needed to start praying. Yet it seems like a lifetime has passed since I saw that sweet baby smile. I think of Ryan and all the joy and love he brought out in people. How I see the world so different now that I have known him and his strength. What a wonderful view of the world he gave us. I hope that you can see what an incredible impact your little boy had on so many people.
Praying that the new little one will be healthy, Phillip will return home safe, and that our Saviour will grant you peace and happy memories.

I Still Bee-lieve.......

Colleen
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 12:07 AM CST

Sending hugs and smiles your way today.
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 11:38 AM CST

Thinking of you today and every day. Noah likes the new picture and background. He has a thing for snowmen this year. He was desperate to build one at my mom's, but the snow was too hard. He's been asking for Uncle Bill. And Nana Sherry. No fighting!!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 9:22 AM CST

Hi Ryan hi Buddy you know I been thinking of you I actually think of you daily I talk to you everyday or think of you. You know I saw you on Friday afternoon with your 4 wheeler is hard to understand it or explain it, but I knew it was you you were so clear to me. Its been six months that anyone has seen your smile, hear your laugh smell that sweet baby smell or get to hold you. It hurts, its not fair, but our Lord knows why. You know I always have your family in my prayers for the Lord to always show them the way and hold their hands in this lifetime journey of been without you physically here. I know that spiritual you are all around them. You know you remind me so much of my son that is here with me and our 7 yr old brother in heaven. You have the same cute smile can you please give my brother a hug for me and tell him I love him to all of them. Ryan you will always be in my heart and mind. You have change my life in so many ways and for that I thank you. I never met you in person, but I feel like I have known you an eternity. It hurts to know that it has been six months since you left us, but I also know its six months closer to seen you and meeting you in Heaven. Always in my heart my sweet Heavenly Angel.

To family, please know you are always in our hearts and prayers. May the Lord always shower you with blessings from head to toe...
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, January 10, 2006 8:12 AM CST

Hi there! I was just thinking about you guys so I thought I'd pop in to say hello. We're having a stretch of decent weather here so we're enjoying it immensely. It's supposed to get up to 50 degrees by the end of the week. Woo Hoo! (Unfortunately here in Michigan the forecast can change in the next hour so we'll enjoy it while it lasts!)
I hope you're all doing well!!
Hugs & prayers from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, January 9, 2006 8:48 PM CST

Thinking of you always as I walk with you on this difficult path.

Hugs,
Karen (Kylie and Angel Leah's mommy)
www.leahsjourney.com
Karen James <pkkl916@hotmail.com>
- Monday, January 9, 2006 1:07 PM CST

Hope you had a good weekend. Always thinking about you guys.
Tiffaney
Rolla, MO - Monday, January 9, 2006 8:35 AM CST

~Thinking of all of you!

Grace and peace,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Monday, January 9, 2006 0:07 AM CST

We're missing you bad this week. Daddy's gone again, and I wish we could be back home--at Ft. Campbell. Love you guys...
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Friday, January 6, 2006 7:59 PM CST

Many times I visit this web site to read your words and see pictures of Ryan. Many times I don't know what to say but want to say something...the previous entry says it well, 'Always thinking of you...!'
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, January 5, 2006 6:11 PM CST

Always thinking of you guys.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, January 5, 2006 3:42 PM CST

Thinking of you all...remembering Ryan and his precious smile and all the wonderful antics you would post about that wonderful little man.....holding you in my prayers and heart and wishing you peace....
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 6:51 PM CST

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Nana,
I am glad that you got to spend the holidays with the Shaw's they are such kind people. I can't wait to see you all in a few weeks. I hope you enjoyed New Years. Praying for all of you and for all our soldiers. Love you all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, January 3, 2006 3:20 PM CST

I think of your family often and visit this site to see how you are all doing. I hope 2006 is the beginning of a happier future for you and that in the months ahead you find peace and continued good health. Although the sadness of losing Ryan will forever be in your hearts, I hope you find contentment knowing Ryan watches over your family and that you remember more the fun things he did that make you smile. Many hugs to you.
Christine Peay <chrispeay@frontiernet.net>
Brooklyn, MI USA - Monday, January 2, 2006 9:38 PM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I hope you enjoyed New Year's Day and are enjoying the legal holiday today. May this new year bring you new faith, new courage, and many blessings!

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Monday, January 2, 2006 12:25 AM CST

Glad to hear you enjoyed Christmas with the Shaw's. Hope your trip to MO was safe and just as much fun. Happy New Year!!
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Sunday, January 1, 2006 12:04 AM CST

Just popping in before I drag myself to bed to wish all of you a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!
May 2006 bring you many, many blessings.

Hugs & prayers from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Saturday, December 31, 2005 11:51 PM CST

Thinking of you and praying for you. Hugs.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Saturday, December 31, 2005 3:15 PM CST

thinking of you
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, December 31, 2005 10:23 AM CST

Dear Brown Family,

I am thinking of Ryan, and of you all, on the last day of the calendar year. I will be serving as lector this afternoon, at St. George's, and I will pray for you, in the beauty of holiness. God bless you all!

May the upcoming baby give you all joy! I KNOW Ryan will help you with that name.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Prayer for the Coming Year:

Oh Thou, who art ever the same,
Grant us so to pass through
the coming year with faithful hearts,
that we may be able in all things
to please Thy loving eyes. Amen.

~Mozarabic, 700 A.D.
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, December 31, 2005 5:42 AM CST

HI,

I, again, have been a little remiss in signing like I should, but I probaly come to your site everyday to see how you all are and to see Ryan's smiling photo.

A couple of days ago while researching the internet for "signs from Heaven" I found a website from a mom that lost her beautiful little girl to a tragic accident. She has dedicated her website to all the signs that our loved ones send us so others can read and recognize the signs.

What surprised me was in the first 2 or 3 entries that I read there were toys that would come on all by themselves, just like the one here. There was a firetruck, a keyboard, and a cell phone, all that would just come on and play when they were talking to their babies. Of course I immediately thought of you all also.

Wondering what our babies are up to these days. Bet it is fun, whatever it is.

God Bless
Roy
Cheyenne's Proud Daddy, Forever
www.caringbridge.org/tx/cheyenne5

Roy Fiveash <rfiveash@wcc.net>
San Angelo, tx - Friday, December 30, 2005 11:55 AM CST

Just stopping by with a hug and a smile to let you know that I was thinkin' about you:)
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Wednesday, December 28, 2005 11:36 AM CST

Keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers. We wear your "Keep Beelieving" bracelets every day. It's a great tribute to Ryan. Hi to "Nana Sherry".

Mary Walsdorf (www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf)
Mary Walsdorf
- Tuesday, December 27, 2005 10:09 PM CST

Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas! We weren't online this weekend but you were in our thoughts and prayers. We finally watched the movie Polar Express yesterday...one of the lines is "Seeing is believing but sometimes the most real things in the world are those you can't see at all." We know God is holding you all close and Ryan is always watching over you all.
Roy, Jen, Drew & Cole Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, December 27, 2005 9:15 AM CST

Missing you all so much. I just got done with a batch of muffins for one of our favorite soldiers. I hope they don't take too long to get there. I know they won't be around for long when they do! Merry Christmas. We love you!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Portersville, PA USA!!! - Monday, December 26, 2005 7:34 PM CST

Merry Christmas Brown family! You have been in my thoughts and prayers all weekend. I love the new picture of Elizabeth. Very cute!
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Monday, December 26, 2005 3:44 PM CST

Merry Christmas Andrea, Elizabeth and Phillip ... my thoughts and prayers are with you today as you hold tight to your memories of your precious Ryan. He is a beautiful boy and I have enjoyed following him for many months. Thank you for sharing him with us here in "cyberland" and for the privilege of praying for him and for your sweet family. May God bless you all.
Kathy Sanders *A Ryan Fan from Texas* <kathy_sanders@comcast.net>
Richardson , TX - Sunday, December 25, 2005 10:36 PM CST

Just wanted to drop in and let you know we are praying for you. I know that this Christmas must have been so hard on you guys, and I have no words to make it better. But when I think of Ryan's shinning grin and the twinkle in his eye I know he never wanted you guys to be sad. My prayer for you this season is that your memories will be happy enough to lighten the heaviness of your heart, that each tear will be followed by a smile Ryan has given you, and that the Lord grants you a little more peace in your soul.

Always bee-lieving......

The Cosby's, Colleen, Michael, Conner, and Bennet
Colleen <mrscosby@charter.net>
St Charles, MO USA - Sunday, December 25, 2005 9:53 PM CST

Thinking of you all this Christmas Day. Praying the memories Ryan has left you with bring a smile through your tears. Love, Hope, Peace and Strength to you all. God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Sunday, December 25, 2005 5:37 PM CST

Thinking of Ryan and crying for you this Christmas day.
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 25, 2005 12:16 AM CST

Wishing you a Christmas filled with peace and many happy moments.
I'll be thinking of you guys all day today.
Warm hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Sunday, December 25, 2005 11:08 AM CST

I am thinking of you all today! I hope that you have a wonderful Christmas! Andrea, if you need anything, please call. Philip take care. Ms. Elizabeth your Christmas Picture was just too cute that you put in my card! Merry Christmas!
Roscella Meeks <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
Ft. Campbell, KY - Sunday, December 25, 2005 9:59 AM CST

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

www.caringbridge.org/al/brock <tinleynbrock@yahoo.com>
Odenville, AL - Sunday, December 25, 2005 9:58 AM CST

Thinking of you and your family today. I pray God gives you some joy today. Ryan will forever be in our hearts! Hugs
Colleen Farmer
- Sunday, December 25, 2005 6:08 AM CST

My thoughts and Prayers are with you this Holiday Season! I am sure Ryan was riding along with you while seeing Christmas lights!
Andrea- how are you feeling? Is the pregnancy going ok? When are you due again? thanks!
HUGS!
In His Grip-
Kim <kas412@sbcglobal.net>
Bartlett, IL - Saturday, December 24, 2005 11:13 PM CST

Merry Christmas Ryan Brown!
You are missed and loved very much.
Jody, Garry, and Emily
- Saturday, December 24, 2005 9:54 PM CST

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees,
Around the world below,
With tiny lights like Heaven�s stars
Reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular,
Please wipe away that tear,
For I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs,
That people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music don�t compare,
With the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you,
The joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description,
To hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart,
But I am not so far away,
We really aren�t apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones,
You know I hold you dear
And be glad I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift,
From the heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory,
Of my undying love.
After all �Love� is a gift,
More precious than pure gold,
It was always most important,
In the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other,
As my heavenly father said to do,
For I can�t count the blessings of love,
He has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas,
And wipe away that tear,
Remember, I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.

tracey,,,,www.caringbridge.org/pa/meghandougherty <traceydocx2@aol.com>
collingdale, pa - Saturday, December 24, 2005 10:50 AM CST

Wishing you and your family a happy holiday season with many happy funny Ryan filled stories. Hugs, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Saturday, December 24, 2005 10:30 AM CST

Thinking of you and your family today. HUGS
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
- Saturday, December 24, 2005 8:30 AM CST

Remembering your family in our prayers. Thanks again for sharing Ryan with us, he was such a special boy and has left his mark on my heart. I pray that there will be many special memories made and remembered this year to bring you joy in the midst of missing Ryan.
Shelly <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, NV - Friday, December 23, 2005 5:20 PM CST

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees,
Around the world below,
With tiny lights like Heaven�s stars
Reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular,
Please wipe away that tear,
For I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs,
That people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music don�t compare,
With the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you,
The joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description,
To hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart,
But I am not so far away,
We really aren�t apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones,
You know I hold you dear
And be glad I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift,
From the heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory,
Of my undying love.
After all �Love� is a gift,
More precious than pure gold,
It was always most important,
In the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other,
As my heavenly father said to do,
For I can�t count the blessings of love,
He has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas,
And wipe away that tear,
Remember, I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.

Always Thinking fo you all..

Have a Mery Christmas, Ryan we know you will have the best one always thinking of you and missing you..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, December 23, 2005 12:46 AM CST

Dear Andrea and Elizabeth,

Thank you for posting the wonderful picture of Ryan with Santa peeking in on him. It is just beautiful!

I know this has to be a difficult time for you, Andrea. However, try to be open to the spiritual things of this Advent/Christmas/Epipany season. It often helps those in bereavement to do things differently. One thought I have that may be helpful is to take a hymnal and read prayerfully a carol, or hymn, you do not know, or verses from one you do know, but which are not familiar. Ask God to give you grace and peace, as you do, for despite all of the playful things of the season, the true reason we celebrate is because God sent his Son, Jesus, into the world for us and for our salvation. Allow the holy Child to touch you deeply where there is emptiness and longing this year.

God bless you!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Friday, December 23, 2005 12:43 AM CST

Had to go back and read the daddy entry - your family is so blessed - because of the time you had with Ryan - and all the love that is in your family! It shines through with every entry.

Have a blessed Christmas my friends.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Friday, December 23, 2005 8:11 AM CST

Thanks for the new picture.

What a doll.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 23, 2005 7:42 AM CST

Those are the cutest pictures ever..

We miss you buddy everyday..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, December 22, 2005 11:57 AM CST

Fussy Cat is so beautiful and her smile is just as bright as Ryan's always was. I hope you have a good holiday and we miss you all so very much. Give Elizabeth lots of hugs and kisses from us. Tell Phillip we said hi and we miss him when you talk to him. Love to all of you and Merry Christmas.
Jody, Emily and Garry
- Thursday, December 22, 2005 9:01 AM CST

Thanks for the update.

Boy Elizabeth is really growing up!!
Cute new pictures you posted.

Glad she likes her book.

Thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 22, 2005 0:34 AM CST

Just wanted to wish you all a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and A HAPPY and HEALTHY NEW YEAR!!!! God Bless!!!
Kelly Cox <mommyjo26@yahoo.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 11:05 PM CST

Andrea and Elizabeth,
It was sooo good to see you guys last week. The last couple of times you have been in I was not at work so I missed you. Elizabeth is such a ham but she is soooo cute and I enjoyed playing with her. I love the pictures of the kids, I didn't realize how much they look alike. Hang in there Andrea I think you are doing a wondeful job of keeping up with Elizabeth and carrying on wih Ryans wonderful life he had. You are doing a fantastic job. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of you. Hope to see all of you soon.
Lindsey, Kaden, and Brookelyn Elliott <lindseyelliott7802@sbcglobal.net>
Hannibal, MO USA - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 9:10 PM CST

Sending you all our love and prayers for the entire Brown Family.....love the pictures of Ryan and Elizabeth!! Andrea, sure hope your feeling well.....is the baby kicking? :) Thinking of you...and Nana Sherry too!
Love,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <JOY2JAK@ADELPHIA.NET>
boynton, fl usa - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 5:56 PM CST

Just want to let you know that someone in Michigan is thinking of you. I think about you and your family all the time. I think about Ryan all the time. I'll continue to pray for you and ask that you receive peace and comfort during this Holiday season. Merry Christmas.
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
- Wednesday, December 21, 2005 4:38 PM CST

What a message from the heart. When you open yourself up to everyone like you do in the journal entries it shows your strength and your love for Ryan and the rest of your family. You amaze me niece, but you always kind of did. I was really glad that I got to spend time with you guy's at aunt sue's, even if the aunts were there. I do feel as if Ryan is beside you and Phillip in everything you do. He was a joy and inspiration to everyone who knew him. You guy's have so much to be proud of and nothing to be ashamed of. love you guy's and have a good xmas.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 21, 2005 7:41 AM CST

Beautiful pictures. Keeping you all in our prayers. Have a Merry Christmas.
AM Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, In usa - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 7:17 AM CST

Andrea,

I still check in on you frequently and pray for you, Philip, Elizabeth and Ryan daily. I pray for Philip's safety overseas and that he will soon be able to return home and I also pray that you will feel Ryan's presence around you. God bless all of you at this holiday season. Merry Christmas!
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Philadelphia , PA - Wednesday, December 21, 2005 6:17 AM CST

Praying for you and your family this holiday season. Everything I start to type doesn't sound right, because I know everything you have been through has been so hard and here I sat worried about what I type and I only know you from this wonderful site of Ryan's. Anyway I think you are a strong woman. You know you have to go on even if you don't want to. This is making me cry now aren't I a big baby. I know Ryan is with you and your family everyday. I will be praying for anyone that is missing someone this Christmas.
Lynn
TN - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 3:07 PM CST

You all were heavy on my mind this morning as I drove to work on a cold, cloudy day. While I was driving through the valley, the clouds looked as if they went from one end of the landscape to the other. But, as I came up over the hill, I saw what couldn't be seen from down in the valley...and that was the most amazing ring of light just hovering above the surface of the land. So please remember that even on the darkest days, you sometimes only have to take a few steps (or drive a few miles) to see the light. It's always there, even when you can't see it or feel it. Ryan will always be with you and God promises He will never leave us. Keep on keeping on!
Love, Roy, Jen, Drew & Cole Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 12:47 AM CST

Hello,
I check up on you daily and it was good to hear you all are back safe from your trip. You are such a strong woman, I pray daily for God to continue to give you that strength for your little girl, hugs and kisses to your whole family :)

xoxoxo
Melissa H
Burleson, TX - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 11:53 AM CST

Hey Andrea,
It was good to read an update. I'm glad you and Elizabeth got home safe. I hope you all have a good Christmas and enjoy the peace and quite with your mom and Elizabeth. I'll be thinking of you all like always!
Love, Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@homtail.com>
Nebo, IL - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 9:57 AM CST

Always Thinking of you, Ryan and your family are always in our hearts and thoughts, everyday we think of him and you guys. Have a Merry Christmas and always remember that Ryan will be there in spirit..

Always Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, December 20, 2005 8:08 AM CST

Phillip, it was so wonderful to hear from you and thank you for sharing your awesome dream with us. I am so thankful to God that you are safe. You are covered with a lot of prayer. You are very special and I also am thankful you got Andrea to marry you. You both have a special bond and strength that transmits out with every word you write in your journals. We should be consoling you two but a lot of the time it is turned around and we are consouled with your words and your expression of love to each other and to your children. Please know your decisions are to be proud of, because we know they are joint decisions and I believe God has a BIG HAND on your lives, and has a very special purpose for you and Andrea and your whole family. I love you all. God Bless!
aunt carol <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Monday, December 19, 2005 5:31 PM CST

HELLO BROWN FAMILY,
PHILLIP YOUR JOURNAL WAS SO NICE TO READ. YOUR RIGHT, ANDREA IS A VERY STRONG PERSON AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN. I'M SURE SHE THINKS THAT YOU ARE PRETTY STRONG TOO. I HOPE YOU ARE ALL DOING WELL. MERRY CHRISTMAS

LOVE,
BRYCA
BRYCA INCE <BRYCA10@HOTMAIL.COM>
BOWLING GREEN, MO USA - Monday, December 19, 2005 10:21 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth
Just thinking about you all a lot this week. Thinking a lot about our little man and missing him a lot. Phillip I am giving dad the ground deer meat so he can make your jerky and get it to you. Glad to know you are doing okay and keeping all or you in our prayers. Love and miss all of you. Give Elizabeth kisses, can't wait to see her again soon, sure miss the fussy cat.
Jody
- Monday, December 19, 2005 10:06 AM CST

Just stopping by to let you know that I'll be thinking about you guys this week (even more than usual, that is). I'm sure that Elizabeth will give you lots of happy smiles but I also know that there's another little smile you'll be missing tremendously on Christmas morning.

Sending you warm Christmas hugs and wishing you peace.
Love & hugs from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Sunday, December 18, 2005 3:30 PM CST

Thinking of you all this morning. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
- Sunday, December 18, 2005 7:51 AM CST

Hello. I'm a former 6th grade student of Mrs. Debbie Kessler. And I jjust want to say that I don't know what your going through but I kind of do. You see my cousin has a brain tumor in his brain stem and he's getting through it but the bad thing is that his wife is going to have a baby. So, if he doesn't survive this then his wife will have to take care of the baby by herself. Once again, it's not the same but kind of close. I think that it's wonderful that you have gotten passed your son's death. Your wonderful parents, and your new baby will be very fortunite to have parents like you two!!!:):):):)
Lindsey Crocker <xxmelekalikimakaxx@yahoo.com>
Florissant, MO United States - Saturday, December 17, 2005 2:36 PM CST

WOW!!!! Phillip, I'm so glad you did the journal. We all miss you too. And every word you said about Andrea is true! Ryan has always been with you and will continue this journey with you.

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!
BYE, LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, SEE YOU LATER!!! (wink, wink)
Forever Aunt Meme
st peters, mo usa - Friday, December 16, 2005 8:47 PM CST

Thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 16, 2005 9:57 AM CST

It is absolutely WONDERFUL to read an update from you, Phillip! Ryan's visit sure is a powerful message- how comforting to have such a vivid reminder that he is wherever you are... I know you're tough, but it gives me added peace to know Ryan is right there with you.
I agree with you about Andrea- she is an amazing wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend... the courage and strength you both exhibit is an inspiration- I feel so fortunate to have you as my friends.
Stay well and safe, Phillip.
My love to you all-
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie
Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN - Thursday, December 15, 2005 6:24 PM CST

what a beautiful dream!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, December 15, 2005 11:15 AM CST

What a nice surprise to see Phillip's entry when I popped in for a visit tonight! Phillip, you and the rest of the guys and gals over there are in our prayers daily. It sounds like I should've sent you extra jerky to hold you over until you get that deer jerky you're waiting for! LOL When we go camping in northern Michigan, we often pass a little shop that sells every kind of jerky you can imagine...our kids get a kick out of the "turkey jerky" but we've never tried it. We did try ostrich sausage (another fun one to say) a few years ago at the state fair. Our son Zach loved it...I, on the other hand, couldn't get past the thought of what animal it came from:)

Anyway, you stay safe over there and keep having those awesome dreams. They say that our loved ones who have gone before us are closest to us when we sleep...I guess your visit from Ryan is proof of that:) Take care of yourself and hurry home.

Andrea, it sounds like you've got one heck of a man to share your life with. You must be so very proud of him. I'm sending big hugs your way tonight!!

Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Wednesday, December 14, 2005 9:50 PM CST

Philip, I loved yoru entry. Always praying for your entire family.
Jennifer Hines <creative_jenny@yahoo.com>
Mesa, AZ USA - Wednesday, December 14, 2005 3:00 PM CST

Dear Brown Family, Phillip I am so touched by your entry. Your description of your wonderful dream gave me goose bumps head to toe. I'm so glad that you know Ryan is with you every step of the way. & I agree whole heartedly about Andrea. She is the strongest woman I've ever met. You're both so strong. God bless you and I'm praying for all. I think about you all every day.
Lori Anderson
St. Charles, MO - Wednesday, December 14, 2005 10:17 AM CST

Hi!

We received our beautiful bracelets in the mail today. We will wear them with pride.

Thinking about Ryan alot today. What a sweetheart.

Hope you're feeling good Andrea. Nice to hear an update from you Phillip. Glad you got your box. We'll have to get another one in the mail to you.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 13, 2005 11:49 PM CST

Oh my goodness...I don't sign much anywhere, but what an awesome entry by Phillip (sorry, I can't remember right now if it's one "L" or two "L's"- my dad has two; my cousin has one, so I've spelled it both ways all my life)! One that you would want to leave on there always. And touching. God bless your family!
becky bustin <gabustin@aol.com>
gallatin, tn - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 1:35 PM CST

What a great Christmas present for Phillip, and for us to be able to experience Ryan's visit to his daddy through Phillip's remarkable words. We love you Phillip and really do miss you -- you have both always been able to make the tough decisions, people should learn to trust that you can make the best decisions for you and your family.

Love you
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Tuesday, December 13, 2005 10:22 AM CST

Oh, my gosh, Phillip, it is so good to hear from you. I cry with joy that I have the chance to know you.

Isn't it good to know that Ryan is now your guardian angel? Stay safe, kiddo. You are loved and missed.
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Tuesday, December 13, 2005 10:11 AM CST

Hey Dad is was so nice to hear form you it brought tears of joy when I got to read about yuor dream. I am glad he came to you please remember we are always praying for you family and our troops.

Take care, you have a wonderful Guardian Angel to watch over you.

Missing you very much Ryan..

Always Believing..

Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, December 13, 2005 8:06 AM CST

Hey surprise it's Daddy. You have no idea how good it was to read your!!! update and to know you are ok. I haven't forgotten the deer jerky but have been a little busy lately. Got to spend the evening with the two {oops} three lovely ladies in your life. Tried to protect Elizabeth from the mean old aunts but they kind of ganged up on me.Still enjoyed being with everyone. Miss you bad and I know that you have some really good company over there. The little guy is with you every step of the way. Proud of you in ways that can never be said, and your wife is still showing just how strong and loving of a person she is. Take care and and will see you when you get back.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 13, 2005 6:24 AM CST

It was so good to hear from you. I miss you (no one to be mean to). Remember, our little buddy is always with us everywhere we go. In this big picture of life, most things are so small after what you have gone through with Andrea. Return home safe. We love you and miss you so much. I am so proud to call you my Son in law.
MIL <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Monday, December 12, 2005 11:54 PM CST

I know it's been like forever since I've visited you.
I have just been so busy.
But I think of you always.

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees,
Around the world below,
With tiny lights like Heaven�s stars
Reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular,
Please wipe away that tear,
For I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs,
That people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music don�t compare,
With the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you,
The joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description,
To hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart,
But I am not so far away,
We really aren�t apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones,
You know I hold you dear
And be glad I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
I send you each a special gift,
From the heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory,
Of my undying love.
After all �Love� is a gift,
More precious than pure gold,
It was always most important,
In the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other,
As my heavenly father said to do,
For I can�t count the blessings of love,
He has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas,
And wipe away that tear,
Remember, I�m spending Christmas,
With Jesus Christ this year.
LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA MY LOVING DAD'S SITE <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, December 12, 2005 11:27 AM CST

Hey big guy! It was great to know that you had time to do some reflecting and to know that you are safe. I have never had a doubt that our little buddy is there with you and is helping to keep you safe. He loved his daddy very much. He loved his family very much. He is missed so much. Andrea is one of the strongest women I have ever met also. You both have went through this with such grace and compassion for wanting the best life for Ryan even if it was only five years it was five wonderful and action packet ones. You are both wonderful parents and Elizabeth and the Bull are both lucky to have you guys. Stay safe, and know that we are praying for you, thinking about you and waiting for your safe return. (All of you).
Jody
- Monday, December 12, 2005 10:33 AM CST

Phillip, it was great to hear a journal from you! You do have a very strong wife that has been such an inspiration on so many people. You and your family have been an inspiration to me. I think about you all everyday and pray for your family daily. With love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Nebo, IL - Monday, December 12, 2005 9:09 AM CST

What a nice surprise!! I called your house this weekend, and I heard Phillip on the machine. And now this. Andrea, I have been thinking about you a lot this week. I know it is hard, but you amaze me. We are missing all of you so much. Noah told me this morning on his way to school that God gave you a new boy because you were such a good Mommy to Ryan. Sometimes they amaze me.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Monday, December 12, 2005 9:03 AM CST

Glad to hear from you Phillip. You are so right, Andrea is the strongest person and you need to give yourself some credit too. You two have so much to be proud of, the decisions you have made and the children you have raised. When you get a chance to look at things from the outside, you realize just how strong you two are. Take care of yourself and I'm glad Ryan is there with you.
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Monday, December 12, 2005 8:23 AM CST

lit a candle at 7 for Ryan....
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, December 11, 2005 7:46 PM CST

Sending all my prayers! I hope you guys have a great holiday season. You all will stay in my prayers and thoughts.

Brittany Dahlen- One of Maddie Paguyo's friends <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Sunday, December 11, 2005 4:27 PM CST

Just thinking of your family this holiday season.
Hugs and prayers!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
WWW.CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/AL/BROCK
Amy <tinleynbrock@yahoo.com>
Odenville, AL - Sunday, December 11, 2005 3:38 PM CST

Andreas- you're an awesome person. I've never met you but I know by reading your journal. I'm thinking of you all the time, espcially now during this holiday season. I'll continue to pray for you and your family and Ryan will forever be with my heart. Hugs, hugs, hugs and more hugs!!!!!!!!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI - Friday, December 9, 2005 9:37 AM CST

I saw your tree, Andrea. I think you did a great job on it. Have you ever seen those old movies where there is a very special ornament that gets hung on the tree in someone's memory? Or like the bell that's on the Christmas tree at the end of "It's a Wonderful Life"?

Every ornament on your tree seems to be filled with those wonderful, special moments that you will always remember. Your Christmas tree will always be a legacy to the special love between you, Phillip, and your children. It is beautiful. Be very proud of it.

Love you, hug the girl for me,
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, December 9, 2005 7:37 AM CST

Andrea
How truly beautiful to give so
many wonderful Christmas gifts to
another five year old. What a fantastic
tribute to Ryan.
praying for Elizabeth, and, of course, you, too.
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 9, 2005 7:20 AM CST

Andrea, it's so good to hear from you. I am not going to say I know how hard this is for you, because I don't and I hope I never do. But I am praying for your continued strength each day. Phillip, continue to protect us and make us proud. I am praying for Elizabeth's health and for a healthy baby boy. May Ryan continue to reveal himself in your lives! Have a blessed holiday. With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Thursday, December 8, 2005 7:56 PM CST

Andrea, you are such a strong woman. Ryan must be smiling from ear-to-ear because you made Christmas special for that little boy. And that little boy will probably never forget that someone took the time to give him a happy Christmas. Maybe some day he'll pay it forward and do the same for another little boy. It's just another example of the ripple effect of goodness that your amazing Ryan left in this world:)

Big hugs to all of you!!
Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Thursday, December 8, 2005 2:42 PM CST

Andrea, thank you so very much for sharing with us your pain. Ryan was too big of a life source to not be missed, and missed deeply.
I am so glad that you are going forward and you are learning to live again. I think we all understand that your life will never be "normal", but Ryan would not want you to wallow in it. What an awesome mom he has to have the strength and love to remember the kind of person he was and to want to continually honor that. The power of your love and devotion as his mother will gaurantee that Ryan D Brown will not be forgotten. And maybe through the strenth of his life and all our "bee-lieving" there will be fewer and fewer families that will have to look at holidays without their most precious gifts, their children.

Love and prayers to you and Cricket, Phillip, Nana, Meme too...
I still bee-lieve....
Colleen, Michael, Conner and Bennet
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles , MO USA - Thursday, December 8, 2005 2:25 PM CST

I dont sign as often as I read the wonderful updates, but I am trying to get better about it. I make it a point to get on here everyday and read what you all have wrote. In some way Andrea you have helped alot today from your journal entry. I have been having a few bad days since my husband has been deployed and just to read what you wrote made me feel alot better knowing that there are others going through tough times right now. I continue to pray lil Ryan every single day and I pray for all the caringbridge children and their families. Even though I am fortunate to have 2 healthy children my heart still goes out to anyone battling this ugly disease because I lost my mom to it when I was 13 years old so almost 13 years ago. All I can say is that it does get easier with time, because now I am 26 years old and it gets easier every day. Well I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and CONGRATULATIONS on your new little boy!!!! I am so excited for you! I will continue to pray for your little boy and for your husband as well as the rest of our troops and their families. God Bless Everyone.
Kelly Cox <mommyjo26@yahoo.com>
Clarksville, Tn USA - Thursday, December 8, 2005 10:39 AM CST

Andrea, thanks for updating. You are always in my thoughts and prayers...you, Elizabeth, Phillip and always...Ryan. What an inspiring idea to adopt a 5 yr old boy off the Christmas tree....I cannot for one second imagine your pain, day in and day out...the little things that will out of the blue remind you of something Ryan did or said....there's so much that you are dealing with.....and you do it with grace Andrea. You are loved and prayed for by so many....sometimes it's a helpless feeling, you just want to make everything all better and we can't...but we will always be here in spirit and never ever forget our Ryan. Sending you warm thoughts and tons of hugs.......Love and Best wishes,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david

P.S.-Keeping Elizabeth in my prayers.....and the little bundle.
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Thursday, December 8, 2005 10:17 AM CST

Andrea, Thanks for journal update, it is so good to hear about what is going on with the Brown's. I will be sure to light a candle for Ryan on Sunday and continue to have you in my thoughts and prayers daily.
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, December 8, 2005 8:56 AM CST

Candlelighters.org is one of the few organizations that raise money for childhood cancer. Donations may be made in many denominations starting at $5. Please if you haven't done so, visit the website and see Ryan's ribbons. The holidays are such a joyful time of the year, please spend them with someone you love and give them an extra big hug. I think I need to do a journal too. Please take the time to look at the big picture of what we call our life, the little things just don't matter when you are without a treasure like Ryan. Have a safe and Glorious Holiday Season!! Remember without all of you, we would not have made it this far. KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!
Nana Sherry <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, December 7, 2005 10:48 PM CST

Andrea - I really enjoyed your message, because you are very real with us. I hope you can see how strong you are right now. I'm sure you don't feel that way especially on days that you are wallowing, but you have an amazing strength. Don't be too hard on yourself. It is wonderful that you have your mom to help you at this time.

Your family remains in my thoughts daily. I think it is a wonderful idea for you to adopt a young boy each year. This act of love and kindness is just more proof that you and Philip are very special people and God is pleased that in your time of sorrow you are reaching out to others. It really touches my heart that you are doing this. (And it definitely does not sound like wallowing!)

I hope the pregnancy is going well and that you get good news from Elizabeth's tests. You are in my prayers. Remember that you are loved and thought of daily by people all over the world.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Wednesday, December 7, 2005 10:47 PM CST

Hey guys! I'm sorry I haven't signed in much in the last 5 months or so. I've tried many times and can't. IF I make it past the picture on the journal page, I typically sit here starring at the signing page with a loss of words but full of emotion. I Love You guys and miss you all, esp Ryan. I know he'd be sooo happy about the baby and the fact that he's going to have a baby brother to go along with sister. I can't wait to see you and Elizabeth soon.
Phillip, keep making us proud and come home safe!!!!!!! We LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!!

Aunt Meme <mkymse10@hotmail.com>
st peters, mo usa - Wednesday, December 7, 2005 7:16 PM CST

Just stopping by to say HI.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, December 7, 2005 10:02 AM CST

Just thinking of your family. Hope everyone is doing well. Have a good week!
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 4:58 PM CST

So it is a boy, guess we will have to start calling him bull instead of Cricket. Miss you guy's love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, December 6, 2005 11:57 AM CST

Congratulations Andrea! So glad to hear that things are going well!
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers!
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Tuesday, December 6, 2005 8:54 AM CST

Just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about Ryan today. I'm praying for you.
Shelly <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Monday, December 5, 2005 6:18 PM CST

Always thinking of you and missing Ryan. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings from head to toe.

Always Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, December 5, 2005 3:10 PM CST

Hope you had a good weekend, Love Tiffaney
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
- Monday, December 5, 2005 11:20 AM CST

Just thinking of you all.

Alisa
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, December 5, 2005 10:16 AM CST

I don't know if you've heard of this before, but some of our friends lost a daughter almost 8 years ago and we've participated in this each year since....I thought you may be insterested in remembering Ryan again through this during the holiday season. This is the message that my friend sent to us today.

"...That their light may always shine.....The world wide candle lighting....remember all children who have died. Light a candle in memory of Sarah and all children who have gone to meet our Heavenly Father ... on Sunday, December 11. 7:00pm around the Globe. THANKS to all who do this in honor of Sarah each and every year. We love you all!!

Barb and Bruce"

Sara Hughes <dshughes@netins.net>
Truro, IA USA - Sunday, December 4, 2005 11:14 PM CST

Just checking in to let you know I am thinking about you and your family. So glad to hear about it being a boy. My prayers are with you all, and "Hi" to Nana Sherry.
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Sunday, December 4, 2005 11:09 PM CST

How did I miss that important journal entry before today?! I knew it was a boy!! I don't think that a girl even crossed my mind after I heard you were expecting:) Thanks for sharing the news. Have a blessed weekend!

Hugs & blessings from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com ~Audrey's Umbrella~>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Saturday, December 3, 2005 10:01 PM CST

Just a msg to tell you that I am thinking of you and your family. ({{{{HUGS}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
- Saturday, December 3, 2005 8:03 PM CST

I knew it, I knew it, I knew it!!!!!!!!!

Hurray!!!!

So happy for you!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, December 2, 2005 8:29 PM CST

Always thinking of you all, take care

Missing you Buddy Always..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Friday, December 2, 2005 2:59 PM CST

A boy! Congrats! We are due in 58 days! And having a boy! Still praying for you and your entire family.
Jennifer Hines <creative_jenny@yahoo.com>
Mesa, AZ USA - Friday, December 2, 2005 2:57 PM CST

Sherry it sounds like you all had a very awesome time together. And Andrea, congratulations on your upcoming baby boy...I'm sure his big brother Ryan is giving him some pointers! So glad Phillip was able to join in the festivities even if by webcam! You all continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. You are so loving and wonderful.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Friday, December 2, 2005 8:50 AM CST

What an awesome thing! To be blessed with another beautiful life into your care! You guys are incredible parents, you have been such an example of strength and love to the rest of us. We are overjoyed at your blessing and can't wait until Cricket makes his appearance!
Colleen , Michael, Conner and B-nut <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Charles, MO USA - Friday, December 2, 2005 8:26 AM CST

We are so happy for your family.....another gift from God, sent this time with his very own Guardian Angel. Congratulations!
Kathy and Rob Brady (Peyton's Granny & Rocky)www.caringbridge.org/tx/peytonwhite <kathybrady1@yahoo.com>
Granbury, TX usa - Thursday, December 1, 2005 4:26 AM CST

Congratulations Brown Family!! I'm sure he will be as precious as the other two! I still check in, I just don't always sign the guestbook. We keep Phillip in our prayers. Love to all of you and again . . . Congrats!
The Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 9:25 PM CST

I would have guessed a girl.

love and blessing for your bundle of boy-joy!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 30, 2005 6:21 PM CST

congrats on your new blessing....sending prayers your way...

God bless
Ozzie <ovieira@hartz.com>
Harrison, NJ - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 3:11 PM CST

I'm so excited for you about finding out what the baby is. I hope you all had a good Thanksgiving and everyone is doing well. Thinking of you always! Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 9:29 AM CST

I was wondering if its a boy. I just recently announced to everyone that I am pregnant and I am having a girl. Maybe GOD really is trying to help us in ways that HE can.

congrats!!

Angel Rachel's Mommy
Jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 8:47 AM CST

I knew it Congrats Brown family again..

I AM SO EXCITED, I AM JUMPING WITH JOY..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 8:12 AM CST

Congratulations I ma so happy for you I am sure Ryan is jumping with joy even thought he knew already. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings..

Always Missing you little buddy, Congratulations to you too.

Keep Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, November 30, 2005 8:10 AM CST

Congratulations on your wonderful news. As always I'm checking in to see how you're doing and love reading the updates. I don't always sign but want you to know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN u - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 9:36 PM CST

Just checking in. Congratulations!!!! Wonderful news about the baby. Everyone take care and know we are still all out here checking on you.
Doris
Doris <dorisvbrooks@yahoo.com>
Farmington, MO - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:47 PM CST

Congradulations on your great news.

I would like to ask all of you to say a special prayer tonight for your Aunt Sis and uncle Cecil. He is in ICU at JMH and will have by pass surgery first thing in the morning.

Love to all
Aunt Carol <hchason@tampabay.rr.com>
Plant City, FL - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:10 PM CST

Congratulations!! I am so happy for you-

God Bless-
Kim <kas412@sbcglobal.net>
Bartlett, Il - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 6:09 PM CST

:) I am so happy for you. I believe God works in mysterious ways. {{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 5:35 PM CST

Congratulations!! I am very excited for you, but I would have been either way. I was glad to talk to you and Nana Sherry. Noah was so mad that he didn't get a turn. Every time we see your Christmas photo, Natalie tells me she wants to hug "her" Phillip. We are having Brown family withdrawl. You could send Sissy. She is welcome to sleep in ours closets anytime!!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 11:27 AM CST

Congratulations! Wonderful news! We still check on your family and keep you in our daily prayers. I don't sign very often but you are thought of constantly. Even though we have never met, your Angel has touched my heart. And Andrea your strengh is an inspiration to all wives and mothers.
AM Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 10:43 AM CST

We just knew it was a boy! Congratulations!!
Love, the Doskals <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 10:17 AM CST

The tradition continues..
Andrea, Congradulations on your recent news!!! Elizabeth truly did break the mold. Hope all is well in the Brown house, tell Phillip to hang in there. Love, Tiffaney
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:32 AM CST

Hi Guys,

We're glad you had a good T-day. We are thankful to call you our friends and to have known the cutest kid in Kentucky.

I found the book for Sissy the other day....now if I can find where I put it, I can get it in the mail to her!! We have Phillip's package ready to mail too. Hopefully we'll get both things in tomorrow's mail.

Talk to you soon,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 28, 2005 6:42 PM CST

Hope that you had a very Bless Thanksgiving,
Your always in our prayers.
Happy Thanksgiving Angel Ryan.

Love LaKota and her mom Debbie.
http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Monday, November 28, 2005 6:11 PM CST

It was good to read nana's journal entry and see that you all had a good turkey day. It is a shame that you lock sissy in the closet though. It is all her aunt's fault. I kept trying to tell you guy's that they were a bad influence on her but you just wouldn't listen.Now she is spoiled just like they all were when they were kids. It was really good to hear that you had a chance to talk to Phillip, and to read of Andrea's strength at these times is amazing. Love ya and miss ya.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 28, 2005 5:27 AM CST

Thinking of you..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Saturday, November 26, 2005 1:11 PM CST

Happy Turkey Day!! I know that today probably wasn't an easy day for you but I hope that you each found many reasons to be thankful. Hugs and God bless.
Many blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia, MI - Thursday, November 24, 2005 10:09 PM CST

Happy Thanksgiving! You are in our thoughts today.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Thursday, November 24, 2005 4:26 PM CST

Happy Thanksgiving! Was thinking of you all on this Thanksgiving day and wanting you to know how thankful I am to have met you all. May God Bless you today and always. You are in my thoughts and prayers during this holiday season. God Bless you all and Happy Thanksgiving! All my love, Trishi
trish juoza-clark <trish.juoza-clark@vanderbilt.edu>
nashville, TN USA - Thursday, November 24, 2005 3:23 PM CST

I came by to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving.

Angel Rachel's mommy
jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Thursday, November 24, 2005 11:40 AM CST

Happy Thanksgiving.
Cameron�s Aunt Toni <tbrooks4176@yahoo.com>
Abingdon, MD - Thursday, November 24, 2005 11:34 AM CST

Thinking of you today and wishing you a wonderful Thanksgiving with friends and family...hugs!
Colleen Farmer
- Thursday, November 24, 2005 9:19 AM CST

Happy Thanksgiving, Brown Family! Andrea it was so wonderful to talk to you the other night. Phillip, you have a remarkable family. Andrea, I know how hard today will be. There are many of us in that same boat. When it gets too overwhelming, you know I am only a call away. Ms. Elizabeth, we are so excited for Lindsie to keep you sometime. She is a wonderful big sister and babysitter and she will treat you and your lil bro or sis wonderfully when she has the chance to sit for you all. I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. GOD BLESS & be careful coming home!!!!! Phillip stay safe and have a wonderful Thanksgiving. You all are always in my prayers.
Roscella Meeks <prmeeks@bellsouth.net>
ft. campbell, ky - Thursday, November 24, 2005 7:51 AM CST

Thankful to have you as friends,

The Ross Family
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005 6:40 PM CST

I want to wish your family a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope to run into you while you're in Missouri. With love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 4:13 PM CST

I've shared these beautiful words with a few others and I want to share them with you today too.

WHEN [poem]

When
When you feel overwhelmed by the things you have to do
and you know you need to start but you haven't got a clue
When the hour hand is moving faster than it should
and you'd stop it in a second if you thought you could
When you wonder how on earth you'll make it through the day
and you feel like raising hell cuz heaven's just too far away
When anger and fatigue are running in your veins
and you're looking for he sun but eh skies are full of rain
When every single breath feels like a chore
and the fears you thought were buried are knocking at your door
When every dream you built up is going down in smoke
and every prayer you whisper feels like a joke
When the friends you thought you trusted turn their backs and walk away
and you want to speak your mind but you don't know what to say
When you're trying to remember but you constantly forget
and you're hanging on to hope but you're haunted by regret
When you're trying to take it easy but everything is hard
and you ant to find your freedom but you always feel on-guard
When every single sunset only makes you sad
and you want to just forgive but you can't stop being mad
When the questions keep on coming but the answers lag behind
and you're lost in the confusion of the fog inside your mind
When your heart is feeling heavy and your spirit's feeling down
and the look upon your face is frozen in a frown
When you wish that you were proud but all you feel is shame
and you're hiding in the dark 'cause you cannot see the flame
When you wish you could rejoice but all you do is grieve
and you're seeking our your faith but you can't seem to believe
When the colors all around you fade to gray and then to black
and you put your best foot forward then retreat under attack
When you think everything's wrong and you're sure nothing is right
and you hold on to your vision but the end is out of sight
When the song you're trying to sing is quiet as the moon
and the star you wish upon falls way like a balloon
When it hurts too much to laugh 'cause all you do is cry
There's a reason to continue I will tell you why
If you are reading this it means you are not dead
and every breath you take and every thought inside your head
is a crystal clear decree that God believes in you
and as long as you are here He's got more for you to do
and if per chance you stumble and fall down on the ground
and look in all directions but see no one around
it could be that everybody else has fallen too
and as much as you need them somebody else needs you
So rise up, my friend, and welcome this new day with a shout
cherish every second and drive away the doubt
Walk right through the shadows, I promise there's a way
Then find out why the good Lord's given you another day

copyright (c) 2005 by david m. bailey.

Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005 12:27 AM CST

I hope you are doing well this week. I know how holidays feel while you are missing the ones most important to you. Just know that we are here for you with whatever you might need. We are thinking of you and praying for you. Andrew popped in unexpected yesterday, and of course he had to find out how Elizabeth is doing. We miss all of you so much.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC 28307 - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 8:13 AM CST

Amen to Uncle POP Bill's entry. Even though we can't take your pain and loneliness from you, we can support you, and hold you when you need it, and whisper in your ear that we love you, we are proud of you, and we wish we could help you more as you move through this valley. But ultimately, only God can carry you through it.

Phillip, please take care of yourself. Your return is the brightest spot on your family's horizon right now. Happy Thanksgiving, precious one.
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, November 23, 2005 7:20 AM CST

Still bee-lieving.... always
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Wednesday, November 23, 2005 6:44 AM CST

My dear sweet niece. There is no one that can question the way you conducted the time we had Ryan here with us. He loved life to the fullest and everyone who knew him loved him to the fullest. It is easy to look from the outside and sy should have would have could have. But you and Phillip are the ones who went through it and only those who have been there God Bless them have a clue as to what feelings are going through your heart and mind. Those people are still there and wouldn't want you trying to walk thru this alone. Those of us who have only suffered a small part of the loss that you have don't want you trying to get thru this on your own. So dear please don't try to go it alone. We all love you guy's and we know what kind of job and pain you took with our little buddy and we are proud of you kids and the tremendous love and courage you showed thru this. nuff said
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 22, 2005 3:06 PM CST

Hello Brown Family,

I found these lyrics posted on another site. Although this song is about Melissa Etheridge's battle with breast cancer, I think it resonates for all of us who are cancer "survivors." We may not bear the physical scars but the wounds run deep. It's because of Ryan and so many others that we keep running, keep searching for a cure, keep praying and keep beelieving!

I Run For Life (From Melissa Etheridge's Greatest Hits)

It's been years since they told her about it
The darkness her body possessed
And the scars are still there in the mirror
Everyday that she gets herself dressed
Though the pain is miles and miles behind her
And the fear is now a docile beast
If you ask her why she is still running
She'll tell you it makes her complete

[Chorus:]

I run for hope
I run to feel
I run for the truth
For all that is real
I run for your mother your sister your wife
I run for you and me my friend I run for life

It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken its toll
And they cut into my skin and they cut into my body
But they will never get a piece of my soul
And now I'm still learning the lesson
To waken when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for us all

[Chorus]

And someday if they tell you about it
If the darkness knocks on your door
Remember her remember me
We will be running as we have before
Running for answers
Running for more

Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, November 22, 2005 10:18 AM CST

Thinking of you guys/girls.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 22, 2005 1:24 AM CST

Thinking of you guys tonight and hoping all is well.
Hugs from Candy <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, November 21, 2005 8:30 PM CST

Just dropping by to let you know that we always thinking and praying for you. Sending a lot of hugs aand blessings your way...

Ryan sweety I miss and think of you everyday...

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Sunday, November 20, 2005 8:34 PM CST

Just a msg to tell you that I am thinking of all of you this morning! HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Sunday, November 20, 2005 6:13 AM CST

Hi Brown Family! Hope everyone is doing well. Just stopping by to say hello and let you know I'm thinking of you. God bless!
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Friday, November 18, 2005 7:42 PM CST

Just stopping by to wish you all a wonderful weekend and to let you know that Phillip's box of goodies is on its way! I hope you're all doing well.
Hugs & blessings from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com>
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Friday, November 18, 2005 8:32 AM CST

Andrea, I woke up thinking of Ryan and Phillip today, of course, I fell asleep praying for Ryan and Phillip last night, so I am guessing I just never stopped praying! Just want you to know that you are all in our prayers daily. Stay strong and know that we still beelieve!

Nana, we are adding Sam to our prayers, thank you so much for letting us know of him.

Love, The Cosby's
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, Mo USA - Friday, November 18, 2005 8:11 AM CST

Hi everyone - I decided instead of a journal tonight, I will do a guestbook entry. I need all of Ryan's caringbridge family to visit Sam Walsdorf's page tonight. Sa m is five years old and was diagnosed July 25th with a DPG. Sam's parent's just received the news that his tumor is growing and he has been sent home from the hospital on hospice. The Walsdorf family could certainly use the support and prayers that we received in June and July when we were facing this with Ryan.

It brings it all back. No family should ever have to go through this. It is just not fair.

Sam's address is: www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf

Please stop by to let them know we are there for them and please include Sam and his family in your prayers.
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, November 17, 2005 10:58 PM CST

Hey Cutie how are things in heaven I bet there wonderful, well buddy I just stop to say Hi and mention that your family is always in our hearts, thoughts and prayers.

Always Believing..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 10:02 PM CST

I know I don't sign this as often as I should, but I think of you guys daily. I wish I had the words to heal all your pain and sorrow, but they always told me time will heal it. It does not completely heal the hurt and emptiness you will have but it does make each day easier and managable. As the holidays approach, I feel the pain with you, as I think the holidays and their birthdays are the hardest for me. Just know I pray for you all daily and hold you so deep to my heart. You are not alone, although you do feel so many times.
I pray that God and Ryan and Doug watch over Phillip while he is gone and bring him home to you safely.
God Bless you
Love and Kisses to you and Elizabeth
Hope to see you soon
Gram Bet <rogersbet@yahoo.com>
Hillsboro, MO - Thursday, November 17, 2005 9:04 PM CST

I don't sign in as often as I used to or should, but please know that I still think of Ryan all the time and I am still praying for you and your family. And although we have never met, your beautiful Ryan has touched my heart and will forever be with me. HUGS!!!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmerann@yahoo.com>
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, November 17, 2005 6:04 PM CST

Just stopping by with a hug and a smile to let you know that I was thinking about you all today. Those little angels always have a way of letting you know they're around! Enjoy.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, November 17, 2005 11:19 AM CST

The pictures are so amazing that bg smile so cute. I will always miss you Ryan. May the Lord always caress you with blessings..

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, November 15, 2005 8:08 PM CST

we don't sign in much. there are times i want to but can't. We miss you guys, and especially our little chicken butt, and can't wait to see Mommy and Sissy over the holidays. There is so much i wish i could say or do...
Phillip, keep making us proud, brother. we love you and miss you.
Uncle Cory, Aunt Heather, Tony, and Baby Ashton.
Uncle Cory <teamgiantmtb@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, November 15, 2005 3:10 PM CST

I couldn't get the website
but I'll try again with Candy's info
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 15, 2005 9:14 AM CST

Hi there, I was doing my daily checking in on you all and love the new pictures. That is the Ryan that I remember so well. We used to think he looked just like my nephew Dalton when he was that age. Our family has always thought that Ryan and Dalton resemble each other. I hope you all are doing well. I think about you everyday and continue to pray for your family. With lots of Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Tuesday, November 15, 2005 8:47 AM CST

Thinking of you always ..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, November 14, 2005 8:53 PM CST

Justing thinking of you guys, sounds like you have your hands full.
Love, Tiffaney <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Monday, November 14, 2005 11:10 AM CST

Just thinking of you guys

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 14, 2005 10:48 AM CST

Miss you guy's. Sounds like sissy is starting to get nana's number. The only thing is she still has to learn that no matter how many times we tell her she still won't go away. We would miss her if she did though. Love ya and talk to ya later
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, November 14, 2005 9:20 AM CST

Just wanted to let you guys know you are still in our thoughts and our prayers....

Still Bee-lieving....
Colleen <Colleen.Cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, Mo USA - Monday, November 14, 2005 8:18 AM CST

I just wanted to let you know that I wasn't able to get onto the Adopt A Soldier page using the website you gave in your update but I found it here: www.wil92.com

I just thought I'd pass the info along in case anyone else has the same problem. Have a blessed day!
Hugs from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia , MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Monday, November 14, 2005 8:05 AM CST

Thinking of you today. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Monday, November 14, 2005 7:47 AM CST

Just stoppin' by with a hug and a smile to let you know that I was thinking about you all today. Have a wonderful week!
Candy Belanger - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Sunday, November 13, 2005 1:43 PM CST

I hope that you are doing well. We are thinking of you today and always. Always praying and beelieving in your guys. I hope you have a relaxing weekend.
Love,

Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Saturday, November 12, 2005 8:51 PM CST

Always thinking of you guys. Have anice weekend..

Always thinking fo you Little Buddy..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, November 11, 2005 9:32 PM CST

Wow--I love the new picture. Thanks.
Doris <dorisvbrooks@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 11, 2005 5:12 PM CST

Happy Veterans Day.
The flags in our neighborhood
look great. Hope that you guys
have a good day. We think of you
and the cutest kid in Kentucky
every single day.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, November 11, 2005 9:59 AM CST

Ryan little buddy how are you? Are you having a lot of fun in Heaven, I can just imagine how fun it must be. You know I always ask y sisters and brothers to say hi to you for me. I am sure they do and if you see them can you tell them that even though I didn't met them they are in my mind and heart just like you are little buddy.
You know I told my sons about you they think your great they said you are a awesome big brother. My sons said that they know that Sissy and little Cricket are always going to have a wonderful Guardian Angel watching over them.

Well little guy I have to go, but remember that we will always have You Buddy, Mommy, Daddy, Sissy and little Cricket in our hearts and prayers.

Always praying for all our troops!!!

Always Believing.....
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, November 10, 2005 7:14 PM CST

What a beautiful new photo! We think about all of you each and every day, and hope you are somehow, some way, managing to cope. Our little one has complete scans again in January, so as usual, we start holding our breath a couple of months early.

Please take care of yourselves, and know that many of out here in "Caringbridge" land think of you and pray for you daily.
Kathy and Rob Brady (Peyton's Granny & Rocky)www.caringbridge.org/tx/peytonwhite <kathybrady1@yahoo.com>
georgetown, TX usa - Thursday, November 10, 2005 8:51 AM CST

Ryan and your family are always in our hearts and prayers.

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, November 9, 2005 7:51 PM CST

Love you guy's and miss you alot. Tell the big guy hi for me when you talk to him next, I tell the little guy Hi alot. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, November 9, 2005 5:42 AM CST

Thinking of you always..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, v - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 9:19 PM CST

Just wanted to say hello and that I was thinking about you. Your friend from the Hopkinsville Eagles Club.
Shirley R. Ezell <ezells@dynasty.net>
Cadiz, KY USA - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 3:37 PM CST

Phillip, Andrea, Sissy and Cricket! Just wanted to let you know you are all in our prayers, our hearts, and our minds. Thank you,Phillip, for making a sacrifice for all of us here, and thank you Andrea, for showing us all how to use our strength and smile on the outside while the inside is still shattered. And thanks to Sissy and Cricket for reminding us all what life is really about. And thanks to Ryan, who taught us about love, and life, and laughter, and bee-lieving...

We love you guys and we still bee-lieve, yesterday, today, and however many tomorrows it takes until each child has their miracle.

Colleen, Michael, Conner and Bennet
The Cosby's <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 3:12 PM CST

I'm just guessing, but I don't think God would have promised us that we would be conquerors if there wasn't something to be conquered...praying for peace in the midst of the battle in your hearts, your minds, and that big sandbox Phillip is in!

In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-38
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, November 8, 2005 12:34 AM CST

Andrea, Phillip and Fussy Cat,
Just reading the new entry and glad you are staying busy and that Phillip has been able to Web Cam, when BJ was there that made me feel better than a phone call because I could see him phyiscally and know he was okay. Phillip we THANK YOU and pray for you everyday. Ryan, we miss you all the time and love to see your pictures with your beautiful smile. You are our missed and loved so dearly.
A friend sent me the following and I thought of all the happy times Ryan brought us and how grateful we all our for the deposits. We love all of you and miss you dearly.

We can all learn a lesson from this great old girl!

The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully
dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed
and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to
a nursing home today.

Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary.

After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home,
she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready.

As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual
description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been
hung on her window.

"I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having
just been presented with a new puppy.

"Mrs. Jones, you haven't seen the room ...... just wait."

"That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied.
"Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my
room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged... it's how
I arrange my mind.

I already decided to love it "It's a decision I make every morning when
I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the
difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get
out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do.

Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I'll focus on the new
day and all the happy memories I've stored away .....just for this time
in my life.

Old age is like a bank account ...you withdraw from what you've put in.

So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank
account of memories.

Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

Hugs and Kisses.
Jody
- Tuesday, November 8, 2005 10:51 AM CST

Thanks, Nana, for the update.
I've been asked to sew special
bags for the Veterans' Home in
north St. Louis, so I am heading
to school now to start working.
Hope to have 30 completed before
Veterans' Day.
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 8, 2005 10:50 AM CST

Thinking of your family, and praying for you daily. Ryan touched the hearts of so many, and will continue to touch people's hearts as your family tells his story, the story of a young, couragous and loving boy's life.
Keeping you all in my prayers,

Brittany Dahlen- One of Maddie Paguyo's friends <brittanydahlen@hotmail.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Monday, November 7, 2005 10:29 PM CST

Your family is in my prayers daily. I just wanted to tell you that the pictures are beautiful. I can tell by the pictures that Ryan was a very special child. You can see the love in his eyes and the joy on his face. He is watching over you.
Brenda <carlellis@alltel.net>
Eastanollee, GA - Monday, November 7, 2005 12:34 AM CST

Many times I don't have much to say but please know that I think of Ryan all the time and also you and all your family. I pray for peace for you and I wish I could give you a hug.
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI - Monday, November 7, 2005 11:22 AM CST

Always thinking of you and missing our Little Buddy. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, November 7, 2005 10:34 AM CST

Wanted to say hi and let you know I'm always thinking of you. Take care and remember was love you all and continue to pray for your family daily. With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Monday, November 7, 2005 8:48 AM CST

Late happy birthday, Phillip. Love you,

Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Monday, November 7, 2005 7:30 AM CST

I had to share this story with you, because I know Ryan would of love for you to read it. I posted it a t Cavion's site, but it goes to you too.

I have story to tell you, yesterday was one of my son's playoff games. It was against the toughest and undefeated team the Panthers. Well, Panthers were winning in the first quarter 14-0, and amazingly the second string guys started to win with a little help. You see there was a cloud shape like an Angel I automatically knew, don't ask why I don't know, but I knew it was ne/CAvion and ky/Ryan. This feeling just came over me to ask them for a little help and wouldn't you know it they did. For example they were in the farest part of the field and they ran a 90 yard touch down, (I am right my son just came in and told me that they did a 85 and 90 yrds touch down he so excited and he says thank you), with 8 seconds left in the 2nd quarter. When I knew it, we were been help. When are team ran the longest yard touch down, and no one tackel him, the Panthers just look like they tripped on something or fail backwards by themselves oh I know who was doing the pushing our beautiful Angels. After that the 3rd and 4th quarter was so amazing they kept on losing the ball it was jumping out of their hands. They kept on falling we always knew who had the ball from the Panthers it look like we knew their plays. Oh my God I know that we had help from our Angels with everything that was going on. I know I never met Cavion, Ryan and all our littlee Angels in heaven, but I think of them everyday, because I live my life differently, because of them. It gets to show if you believe it will happen, I wanted to know they were okay. Even the coaches said we had Angels watching over us and of course I smile and said "I know who they are" I know our kids play a great game, but I know deep in my heart we had a little help you had to be there, I know a lot of parents felt it.

Your son is very much alive in our daily lives and I am so glad he came to visit. At the end of the game the cloud finally started moving you see the cloud never left it was there all along shape like this big Angel. Once the game was over it started to move. Within a few minutes it was dark the moon came out shape like a smile and the brightest star ever was shining. I know it was them telling us that they had fun and "your welcome." Oh because I was jumping with joy and thanking them all along.

Yesterday was so amazing and I just had to tell you that Cavion, Ryan and all our little Angels are still touching many lives from up above in heaven.. How cool is that :) now I am crying I am sorry!!

I hope my story makes sense I was excited to tell you guys that my thoughts might of got mess up..

We want you to know that we always thinking of your amazing sons along with all our other little Angels.

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Sunday, November 6, 2005 9:39 AM CST

Belated Birthday Greetings, Phillip!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, November 5, 2005 9:12 PM CST

Happy birthday, Phillip!! We are always thinking of you and your family. The kids loved the new pictures. Ms. Sharon had suggested that Noah could keep sending balloons to Ryan. Noah chewed me out when he saw your pictures. He was mad that I hadn't thought of it, too. We love and miss you all.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA - Saturday, November 5, 2005 6:32 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHILLIP, PLEASE KNOW WE ARE ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU.

ALWAYS IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS..

MISSING YOU BUDDY..
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, November 4, 2005 7:48 PM CST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHILLIP!! I'm sure your special lil' guy, Ryan, is sending you lots of kisses as well as Elizabeth and Andrea. Lots of hugs,thoughts,and prayers, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Friday, November 4, 2005 6:23 PM CST

Happy Birthday Phillip, you're in our thoughts and prayers.

Andrea, love the new pictures. Thinking of you always and sending our love your way.
Phyllis, Mike, Adam & Matthew <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Friday, November 4, 2005 5:57 PM CST

Philip..first and most importantly.. THANK YOU for your service and dedication in serving our country. Happy..Happy..(belated) but none the less heart felt Birthday. May our Lord send ministering angels to keep watch over you on this journey..bless you.
cathy <ccharon@comcast.net >
- Friday, November 4, 2005 5:43 PM CST

Happy Birthday Phillp Keep safe and come on soon. I'm sorry those Card's couldnt pull it out for u. Best Wishes i drop u a email really soon.
wes <wesdaman05@charter.net>
hopkinsville, ky - Friday, November 4, 2005 4:56 PM CST

Happy Birthday Phillip!!! Remember how much I love you and how proud I am of you.
MIL
- Friday, November 4, 2005 4:45 PM CST

Happy birthday Phillip!
Andrea, there aren't many days that go by without us thinking of you and your family. You are prayed for often. We love the pictures!
Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN USA - Friday, November 4, 2005 1:42 PM CST

Andrea, What a great picture of your two strong guys. Thinking of you guys everyday. Give the "fussy cat" some kisses for us.
Tiffaney and Cristian <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Friday, November 4, 2005 10:53 AM CST

Hello Brown family,
Just wanted to let Phiilip know how much we appreciate the scarifices he is making to ensure that our country remains a free one. I know this is a difficult time for him to be away from his loved ones. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. It was great talking with Andrea on the phone the other night. She is really a strong person whom I admire. We love you all!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, November 4, 2005 9:40 AM CST

What cute new pictures! I love the pic of Ryan and his Daddy. Elizabeth looks cute as a cat even with the screaming face.

Hope you are feeling well Andrea. Take care of yourself!

Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Friday, November 4, 2005 8:16 AM CST

LOVE THE NEW PICTURE OF RYAN AND DAD. I KNOW HE IS TAKING CARE OF DADDY FROM HEAVEN. KEEP ON TELLING STORIES ABOUT RYAN WE LOVE TO READ THEM. MAY THE LORD CONTINUE TO SHOWER YOU, OUR TROOP, YOUR FAMILY AND RYAN WITH HUGS, KISSES AND BLESSINGS..

RYAN I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU BUDDY, I ALWAYS ASK MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS TO TAKE CARE OF YOU UP THERE IN HEAVEN. BUT I AM SURE YOU ARE GIVING THEM THE TOUR..HA BUDDY :)

ALWAYS BELIEVING!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, November 3, 2005 9:39 PM CST

Love the Ryan stories!! There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think of him. What a sweetheart!!

Love the new picture too. Thanks for sharing,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 3, 2005 4:14 PM CST

Sissy,
We had a "cat" at school.
She didn't seem to mind her tail,
but I did have to warn her to be careful
when she went potty.

prayers and love and fond memories of Ryan
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 3, 2005 9:11 AM CST

Thank you so much for sharing stories about Ryan and pictures of Ryan with all of us. I love hearing them and seeing his precious pictures. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI - Thursday, November 3, 2005 7:25 AM CST

I can tell you first hand that the little guy liked to crawl in bed "nakey". What a surprise that morning with that little bare bottom snuggled up next to me. He and the rest of you thought it was really cute. SO did I and it is just one of the many special memories that will carry with me for always. Hope the big guy is doing good and I know the little guy is watching over him, I also don't blame sissy for trying to get the tail off of her. Nobody likes those big long tails following them around.I also know what the little guy done with those balloons now, and I thought it was thunder. love ya's and miss ya's
upb <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, November 3, 2005 5:42 AM CST

Thank you so much for sharing such a funny story. Its amazing what kids like to do and those are the wonderful memories that we would never forget. You all are always in our thoughts and prayers..

Always Missing you Ryan..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 9:52 PM CST

Dear Ryan's Family
I found Ryan's page through another CB page
I'm so sorry for your loss.I share you pain as my son Jacob recieved his Angel wings this year also..
my heart breaks for you all

love Jacob's mum

Deanne www.caringbridge.org/me/jacob Our Aussie Angel Jake
Alexandra Hills Brisbane, Queensland Australia - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 4:16 PM CST

Hey there,
Elizabeth and Ally had the exact same costumes this year. By the end of the night Ally's tail had the mainge after being in the rain, it became a funny joke. Hope you all are doing OK. Your always in my thoughts and prayers! With Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 3:16 PM CST

Andrea and Elizabeth,
It is great to hear that everything is somewhat stable for you all. Looks like Elizabeth needed a Tiger Costume instead of a little cat costume. Our family thinks of you guys often. Wishing you peace, and love.
Roy Doskal <rdoskal@techelectronics.com>
St. Peters , mo - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 1:27 PM CST

Always thinking of you and I am sure Ryan Love the balloons. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings.

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 8:53 AM CST

Andrea and Elizabeth,
I am glad you had Jen and her gang over to do the balloons, I am sure Ryan saw them and loved them. Sister you sure looked cute even if you were an unhappy cat. Hope Phillip is doing well, let him know we are all praying for him and all the soldiers with him to return home safe and sound. Keeping you in our prayers and thoughts. Love to all.
Jody
- Wednesday, November 2, 2005 8:46 AM CST

Just want to let you know I'm thinking of all of you today...Ryan, Andrea, Elizabeth and Phillip. I'm keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers. ((((HUGS))))
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Wednesday, November 2, 2005 5:32 AM CST

Just thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, November 1, 2005 10:48 PM CST

i just wanted to let all of you know i appreciate you keeping us up to date with ryans condition before he past away and i love how you are still keeping him alive in your thoughts and prayers and good luck to his mother on the new baby i would also like to know how to order more keep believing bracelets
Ashley Heinold <ashley.riggle@radioshack.com>
Festus, MO United States - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 3:04 PM CST

Always missing our Little Hero Ryan, the pictures are great. Both of them look so cute. You and your family are always in our thoughts and prayers..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 1:15 PM CST

Glad to hear you had a good birthday Andrea. Hope Elizabeth had a good Halloween. Phillip, it was good to see you had time to get on th website and let us know you are okay. We pray for your safety everyday. The pictures were great, I sure miss our superhero. Love you all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, November 1, 2005 10:16 AM CST

Dear Brown Family,

What a great picture of Ryan as Spiderman, and Sissy as a Ladybug! I know you have to be missing him. I am sorry for your pain.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Monday, October 31, 2005 5:09 PM CST

We are thinking of you all!
Love, Sherri (Kara's mom)

www.caringbridge.org/oh/kara

sherri <ketch16@yahoo.com>
ohio - Monday, October 31, 2005 2:20 PM CST

Happy Halloween Brown family. Hope you have a great week.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Monday, October 31, 2005 1:48 PM CST

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Sunday, October 30, 2005 11:42 PM CST

Andrea, I'm so sorry that I missed wishing you a Happy Birthday. I hope that you had a nice day. I'm sending big hugs to the whole Brown gang tonight!
Hugs & Smiles from Candy Belanger <zacheric02@msn.com http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm>
Livonia , MI ~Audrey's Umbrella~ - Sunday, October 30, 2005 11:23 PM CST

Thinking of you always... you are always in our prayers..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Sunday, October 30, 2005 12:09 AM CST

Hi, it's me again. My mommy had a wonderful birthday, I was her big surprise. Now Daddy has a birthday soon, it's no fair, I don't get presents when they do. If you want to send Daddy a birthday card, email Mommy, Mema Pat, or Nana and they can give you his address. I have to go, I am supposed to be in bed. Heck, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!!!!!

Love you Daddy!!!!!!
Pork Chop <elizabeth ryan @loveyou.com>
- Sunday, October 30, 2005 7:14 AM CST

hello to everyone i am doing well. i really miss you all. being over here makes you relize how lucky we are to have what we have. i miss my family everyday.
Andrea i want to thank you for being a loveing wife and so strong. i love you all and be home soon.
phillip
- Sunday, October 30, 2005 4:05 AM CST

Thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 29, 2005 10:10 AM CDT

Hi to my favorite Brown family,
Hope you are getting enough sleep now that Elizabeth is back Andrea:) Thinking about you a lot, hope your birthday was full of surprises - sounds like Phillip, as usual, did a great job of surprising you from so far away. Way to go Phillip! Miss you all and hope to see you soon. Love you to the moon and back.
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Saturday, October 29, 2005 1:05 AM CDT

Hey Ann & Elizabeth,
Happy late birthday Andrea! I saw a picture of a puppy today at work that looked just like Miki, and had to tell everyone about me and Ryan and how I would always tease him about taking Miki home with me and Josh :)

We have an architect that my work deals with, and Alan that works there, has learned some pretty upsetting news about his 8 year old son. I thought maybe you would be interested in looking at Caleb's site. www.caringbridge.org/visit/calebznehring

Have a great weekend! Tell Phillip we said hello and Josh can't wait for him to get home so we can take a road trip to Kentucky.
Jenn <jennlmorg@jcn.net>
Crystal City, MO - Friday, October 28, 2005 2:38 PM CDT

Love the pictures he is so adorable. You and your family are always in our thoughts and prayers.

Missing you Ryan!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, October 28, 2005 12:01 AM CDT

I love the pictures. Of course it made me miss Ryan even more and wish, like you, that he was here to enjoy this Halloween. Elizabeth, I'm glad you won the coin toss. You really have a gift when it comes to writing. Keep up the great job. I hope you are enjoying the time with Nana. Scooter and I want you and Mom to come over and play one day soon. We love you!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, October 28, 2005 9:27 AM CDT

We hope you had a wonderful birthday. Just wanted to stop by and let you know we love you guys.

Buddy (Don), Debbie, and Ashley Hill <donthelegend@cox.net;debhil@hotmail.com>
mesa, AZ USA - Friday, October 28, 2005 0:39 AM CDT

Andrea - hope you had a wonderful birthday. Thinking of you today.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, - Thursday, October 27, 2005 10:03 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! Hope your day was filled with beautiful signs from Ryan, smiles and giggles from Elizabeth and some really good cake! Hugs from Michigan....
Lisa
Macomb, MI 48044 - Thursday, October 27, 2005 1:00 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! I just know that it was special. Big hugs sent to all - keeping you and everyone in my prayers.
Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, October 27, 2005 7:19 AM CDT

Always thinking of you and your family I hope you had a great birhday!!

Always missing you Buddy! I am sure you help mommy have a great birthday...
Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, October 27, 2005 7:09 AM CDT

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ANDREA!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS!

Dear Brown Family,

I have not signed Ryan's guest book for about a month, as I am having difficulty getting my posts to add. I do hope things are going as well as they can possibly go.

God bless you all!

Grace and peace,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Thursday, October 27, 2005 3:24 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! Hope you had a good day.

Elizabeth, it's so good to hear from you. Tell your daddy hi next time he calls and that we're all thinking of him and wishing him well.

Thinking of you and sending love to you all
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:36 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea!!!
Hope it was a good one.
You're always in my thoughts and prayers
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles04@comcast.net>
flint, Mi - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:12 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea I hope you had a good day. I don't write but I check on you every day so keep letting us know how you are doing. Tell Phillip hello and that we are all praying for his safe return. Love to all
Aunt Carol <hchason@tampabay.rr.com>
Plant City, Fl - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 7:36 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! I am sending lots of prayers your way with all that is changing and has changed in your life. I stop by and check on you often.
caringbridge.org/visit/billyjohnson
April Larkin <alarkin@vzavenue.net>
Seaside, CA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 7:14 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!!!
You have been in my prayers!
Jacklyn Gant <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill, ga - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 6:53 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea!
Colleen Farmer
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 6:33 PM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND GOD'S SPECIAL BLESSINGS TO A VERY SPECIAL NIECE. I LOVE YA LOTS. THANKS FOR REMINDING US ELIZABETH, I ENJOYED YOUR JOURNAL. TELL DADDY HI, AND LET HIM KNOW I AM PRAYING FOR HIM. GIVE MOMMY A HUG FOR ME AND A SPECIAL LITTLE PAT FOR CRICKET.
AUNT CAROL <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 5:49 PM CDT

Happy Birthday, Andrea.
prayers and love from Missouri
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 5:25 PM CDT

Wow Elizabeth!!! You are good at journaling. They are sure teaching you well!!! Give mom extra hugs today for her birthday!!! Tell daddy hello for us when he calls.

Happy Birthday Andrea!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 3:04 PM CDT

Happy birthday, Andrea. Here's 10 hugs for your birthday, another 10 to share with Phillip because he was so good to you on your birthday!

Elizabeth - I love you!!
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 2:45 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea, Was so wonderful seeing you last week, Elizabeth is something!! Have a great day give Elizabeth a big hug and Nana too. Thinking of Ryan. Love to all of you.
Nonie Vicki <vpursifull@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 1:20 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea, I still check on you everyday and you,and your family are in our daily prayers. Hope you have a great day!
Ann Marie Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 1:04 PM CDT

Happy Birthday, Andrea! I hope you have a wonderful day and we send special wishes out to Nana too...you are so blessed to be able to celebrate your children and have them close by. If it wasn't for our moms, none of us would have a birthday to celebrate - so thanks to all the moms out there working hard to make a positive influence in this world through their children and especially to Ryan's Mommy & Nana for being such an inspiration to us all!
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 10:43 AM CDT

Happy Birthday! I hope you have a bunch of great smiles today. Elizabeth did a great job with the update. Please know that you are all in our prayers.

Cameron�s mom
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West hartford, CT - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 10:01 AM CDT

Happy, Happy Birthday Andrea we wish you the best. I know that Ryan is leading the Angels in a singing chorus wishing you a Happy Birthday as well..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling , VA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 9:59 AM CDT

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!! I hope you have a great day. With Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 9:27 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! I hope your day is filled with laughter and love and magical kisses from your little ones that know they were super blessed to get you for a mommy!

Loves and hugs and still bee-lieving......
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
ST Peters, MO USA.. thank you Phillip! - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 9:15 AM CDT

Elizabeth,
Tell your mommy that Happy Birthday wishes are headed straight her way from Pennsylvania. There will be a special someone up in heaven who will watch over all of you while you and Nana help to make this a special day for your mommy while your daddy is away.
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Philadelphia , PA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:56 AM CDT

Elizabeth tell your mommy Happy Birthday from Illinois!!!! That was very sweet of you to do the update.
jeni
rockford, il - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:34 AM CDT

Happy Birthday!! I hope you have a relaxing one. Andrew has informed me that I am now only allowed to cook a roast "Andrea's way." Thanks! We are missing all of you very much. It's hard for me to imagine Elizabeth talking. We've been gone far too long.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:33 AM CDT

Elizabeth, that is just too sweet. Tell mommy Happy Birthday and give her lots of hugs and kisses for us. I'm glad you get to hear from daddy a lot, you all are in my thoughts daily.
Love, Tiffaney and Cristian <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:28 AM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea! Hope you have a wonderful day.

Elizabeth - it sounds like you have been busy lately. Its always fun to spend time with grandma! Be sure to give your mommy a hug today!

Always praying for your family!
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigtoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 8:19 AM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!!! Elizabeth give mommy lots of hugs and kisses for us today. Tell Dadddy that we miss him and that we will be glad when he is home. And tonight if you get to play with that special someone give him hugs and kisses from us as we miss Ryan something terrible. Love you all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 7:57 AM CDT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING YOUR FAMILY'S JOURNEY FOR QUITE SOME TIME AND HAVE BEEN PRAYING YOUR YOUR FAMILY. I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY AND THAT YOU CAN FEEL ALL THOSE HUGS AND KISSES RYAN IS SENDING.
PAT ZELLMANN <P.ZELLMANN@KLEINET.COM>
YOUNG AMERICA, MN USA - Wednesday, October 26, 2005 7:57 AM CDT

HAPPPPPPPY birthday Andrea. To a very special great nephew and great niece's mommy. I miss you guy's and I was sure proud to see aunt nae wasn't able to do anymore damage over the weekend. Tell daddy hi when you talk to him. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 26, 2005 5:20 AM CDT

Dear miss Elizabeth,
Please tell your mommy Happy Birthday and give her a great big hug for me. You are right....she is a very special mommy. Please also let your daddy know that he is in our thoughts. You know I think that someone visits Lucas too but like you he isn't talking! Always thinking of you guys.

Melanie (www.caringbridge.org/wa/isaac) <mtropple@comcast.net>
- Tuesday, October 25, 2005 10:19 PM CDT

Happy Birthday Andrea. I imagine it will be a tough day for you without your two guys but you know that Ryan is watching over you. Remember that a whole bunch of people are thinking about you and sending good thoughts your way. I'm sorry I didn't see Elizabeth last week-end, I was really looking forward to spoiling her some more but it sounds like she and Nana had a good time. Uncle Pop Bill can breathe easy now, I didn't spend 2 week-ends in a row with her. My love to you and Cricket.
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 25, 2005 8:35 PM CDT

Just in case you didn't read my journal entry, MY MOMMY HAS A BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!!!!

Elizabeth Ryan <loveyou @hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 25, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

Always thinking of you, I hope you all are okay. sending ((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) your way with a lot of love.

Always missing Ryan!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, October 25, 2005 9:52 AM CDT

Phillip, Andrea, and Elizabeth,
Just a note to let you know you are all on my mind.Hoping sissy is feeling better. Love you all and praying for you.

Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, October 25, 2005 7:59 AM CDT

Just checking in on your family. Hope you have a great week.

God bless.

Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Monday, October 24, 2005 9:19 PM CDT

Hi, Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
Just wanted to let you know you are constantly on my mind.
Love you,
Aunt Susan
- Monday, October 24, 2005 4:38 PM CDT

Just thinking of Ryan today and just wanted to let you know. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS.
Colleen Farmer
- Monday, October 24, 2005 3:11 PM CDT

Just thought I'd stop in to say hi. I was thinking of Phillip this weekend when I baked my banana muffins. I'll have to make some for him when he gets back. Kiss Elizabeth for us.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.netg>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA!!! - Monday, October 24, 2005 9:05 AM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you guys.

Always missing Ryan!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Sunday, October 23, 2005 5:41 PM CDT

Hi, just want you to know that I'm thinking of you and I'm sending you lots of hugs today. HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
- Saturday, October 22, 2005 3:02 PM CDT

Hi, just thinking of you today and sending some hugs! HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
- Saturday, October 22, 2005 1:18 PM CDT

HOWDY ALL! SOUNDS LIKE YOU ALL HAD ALOT OF FUN OVER THE WEEKEND! ANDREA AND PHILLIP I FEEL SO VERY BLESSED TO HAVE YOU BOTH AND YOUR CHILDREN TO BE PART OF MY FAMILY, AS WELL AS ALL MY OTHER NIECES AND NEPHEWS,IT WAS SO GOOD TO GET TOGETHER AT THE FAMILY REUNION. I HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR ELIZABETH, AM HAPPY THEY ARE FINALLY COMING UP WITH SOME EXPLANATION. PHILLIP, YOU and YOUR COMPANY ARE ON OUR PRAYER LIST AT CHURCH. pLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. HUGS AND KISSES TO YOU ALL....

AUNT CAROL <crlmcn@aol.com>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 1:02 PM CDT

um - I wasn't asleep by 1:15 'cause Auntie Nae was too loud playing with Elizabeth!

I am so glad to hear everything went well for Elizabeth's check up. That girl can put away some liquid (who does she get that from, Nana?) She is just so much fun.

Hi, Phillip. Please take care of yourself and know we all love you and pray for your safety.
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 9:47 AM CDT

Not Ever Gone Just Moved On

The Angels were listing.
As I sat, here in heaven,
With Angels listing in,
The Angels heard me Praying,
They also, heard me saying,
Dear Lord God, our Father,
Let your light shine brightly,
On those, I�ve left behind,
And look after them Lord,
Through your Angels,
Dear Lord, Please be kind.

The Angels listened in,
When they heard me crying,
The Angels listened in,
Of this, there�s no denying,
Lord, now that I am with you,
And those left behind, so bereft,
I ask, you turn their sorrow,
Into gladness for tomorrow,
For, as I am now here with you,
And hope, is everywhere,
With Angels, and the best of care,
Lord, I finally plead of you,
For those, I�ve left behind,
Through you Angels,
Dear Lord, Please be kind.

There is much compassion dearly,
For those I�ve left behind,
And the Wish, that they see clearly,
To find the strength, and hope,
For hidden deep within us all,
Is a determined spirit, to cope?
Yes, the Angels listened in,
And with me, they watch over you,
With guidance, love and care,
Just look up, I�m always there.

Be patient, be still, listen and hear me.
Life goes on, and I will, see you, again.

Always thinking and praying for all of you..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Friday, October 21, 2005 9:07 AM CDT

It was very dissapointing to read that aunt nae had another shot at poor little Sissy. It was good to read that the DR. didn't think anything serious was wrong with her but the poor kid doesn't have a chance if you keep exposing to all those bad influences. maybe you and her need to just come live with me and we can probably keep her from getting to spoiled. Hope the big guy is doing good in you no where and it is always good to hear news about you guy's, and see the entries from all the other friends you have acquired lately. checked in on the crazy dream ladies site and seen where she was making some changes, good for her. We can't allow ourselves to live in the past. Miss sharon said scooter was back to school and I sure hope things are going good for her. Miss you guy's and all the ft family, and really hope this crazy schedule settles down a little and i can get back to whatever normal might be. Give sissy and cricket a kiss for me and hope to see you all soon. I really miss my little buddy, but right now I feel he is watching over Daddy and the rest of the 502 so they can all come back safe. love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 21, 2005 5:34 AM CDT

praying for sissy
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 20, 2005 8:49 AM CDT

So HAPPY to hear that things with Elizabeth are good! Been saying lots of prayers for her (as well as the rest of you!!) :-)
Big hugs to you all today.
(Andrea - if you wouldn't mind - perhaps you can send me an address for Phillip (if you put in it any of your updates - I'm a total scatter brain and missed it!)- I'd like to send a card or two if it's ok.
Have an awesome week my friends.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, October 20, 2005 7:43 AM CDT

Thinking of you guys tonight.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 19, 2005 10:22 PM CDT

I am glad to hear that all went well with Elizabeth. It's good to hear that they aren't ignoring your concerns. I hope Andrea is feeling well. I still can't convince Andrew to add to our family. He has a busy schedual coming up...it would just help if we knew what it was! I am glad to hear that you are keeping busy. It's always the quiet hours that bother me when Andrew is away. We love and miss you all.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 7:37 PM CDT

Dear Elizabeth,
I had so much fun with you last week-end. We have so much fun when Uncle Pop Bill isn't around! I also enjoyed seeing you on Monday at my office. Everyone thinks you are just too cute for words! Of course, I have always known that. A what do you know, you are coming to stay at my house this week-end - wahoo - we will have lots of fun.

Miss you, love you

Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Wednesday, October 19, 2005 3:43 PM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and send some love!! Always praying for you all! It's so hard to believe it has been 3 months since Ryan left this world. I can still see him in my mind as if it was yesterday shooting his uncles with the water guns out back! Yet it seems like it's been an eternity, too. Praying that each day the pain lessens a little bit more and the happy memories will crowd your eyes to block the tears.

Still loving, still bee-lieving....

Colleen
The Cosby's <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 1:49 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth,and Cricket,
Glad to hear we have an idea of what is going on with our special girl. Glad you had a good visit while you were home. Hope all is well in the sandbox for Phillip and everyone is playing nice there. Keeping you in our prayers.
Jody
Boss, MO - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 12:40 AM CDT

I was glad to see a new updated journal entry. I'm glad everything is good with Elizabeth and I hope she gets to feeling better soon. It was really nice to see you all at the Colorfest. Thinking of you and praying for you all always!
Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 11:04 AM CDT

Just drop by to tell you I was thinking about you guys today. Praying that you had and have a wonderful day.

Ryan I know you are having so much fun in heavin with all of your friends and my brothers and sisters. Say hi for me okay. Always Missing you Buddy, our Little Hero Ryan.

Always Believing!!

One of your fans!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, October 19, 2005 9:12 AM CDT

Thinking of you today and praying you had some peace today and have more for the days to come. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth and Cricket,
Just a note to let you know that I am thinking about all of you and hoping your spirits are up. Hope Elizabeth's doctors appointment goes well. Miss you guys. Hugs and kisses to all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 3:01 PM CDT

I Said A Prayer For You Today

I said a prayer for you today,
And know God must have heard.
I felt the answer in my heart
Although He spoke no word.
I didn't ask for wealth or fame,
I knew you wouldn't mind.
I asked Him to send treasures
Of a far more lasting kind.
I asked that He'd be near you
At the start of each new day,
To grant you health and blessings
And friends to share your way.
I asked for happiness for you
In all things great and small,
But it was for His loving care
I prayed the most of all.
Author Unknown

Thinking of you and your family. Always in our hearts, thoughts and prayers.

Always thinking of you Ryan.
Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterlin, VA - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 11:54 AM CDT

Hey Guys, Just a quick note to let you know I haven't forgotten you. Scooter has finally started back to school. Her first day was 17 October. She was so excited I didn't think I was going to be able to get her ready. She had a great first day. She was a little disappointed because the kids didn't pick up on the fact that she had her hair cut. She has been wanting to get 10 inches cut off for a long time and donate it to Locks for Love or Wigs for Kids. She finally talked me into it so we went last week and had it cut. It looks cute, but I liked it better long. I was very proud of her for wanting to donate her hair to help other children. She's pretty special, kind of like someone else we know and love. I'm glad you were able to take some time and go home for awhile. I still want us to get together and let the girls play. I'll call you in a few days. Take care. Love you guys.
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Tuesday, October 18, 2005 7:23 AM CDT

Hope you guys enjoy your week. Beautiful fall weather here!!

The Ross Family
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 17, 2005 10:38 AM CDT

Hi Andrea, I just wanted to let you know you were being thought of today. You are on more times than I write. I am glad Philip is in good spirits. I can not believe what a big girl Elizabeth is becoming!! It seems just like yesterday she was born. I sure miss the stories of Ryan. I can only imagine all the stories he will tell us someday.
Angel Cheyenne's Coach Slate <ulcardfan@verizon.net>
San Angelo, TX USA - Monday, October 17, 2005 10:18 AM CDT

I hope you trip is wonderful, please know we always think and pray for you, Phillip. Elizabeth, new baby and Ryan. May the Lord always shower you with blessings from head to toe.

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, October 17, 2005 8:19 AM CDT

I hope you have a safe trip back to Kentucky today. We have been thinking of you and missing your family. As always, we're praying for the 1/502. I know they have a very special guardian angel looking out for them.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Monday, October 17, 2005 6:04 AM CDT

Hi kids, hope you enjoyed your time back home. It will sure be good when the lad gets back from kitty litter land and we can all get back together.Miss you guy's, especially both ryan's. Try not to be to rough on sissy, she comes by those temper tantrums honestly, just like her nana and the other aunt's. Love ya talk to ya soon

unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 17, 2005 5:19 AM CDT

Sherry and Andrea,
Sent a note to Phillip this weekend. I am glad he is in good spirits and busy. I am thinking about Elizabeth and hope she is okay. Her temper tantrums sounds like my parrot's. She also carries on and then looks to see who's paying attention. lol!
Bonnie - Audrey's Umbrella <bonnie@braintrust.org>
Rye, New York - Sunday, October 16, 2005 7:58 PM CDT

DEAR ANDREA,
JUST SEEING HOW YOU AND ELIZABETH ARE DOING. I HOPE YOU ARE ALRIGHT. I HAVE BEEN READING THE WEBSITE ALOT LATLEY. IM SORRY I DIDN'T DO A VIDEO AT THE FAMILY REUNION, BUT IF YOU GET A CHANCE (ITS NOT THAT IMPORTANT) JUST TELL PHILLIP I SAID HELLO. I HEARD ABOUT YOUR BABY AND I THINK IT WILL BE GREAT FOR YOU PHILLIP AND ELIZABETH TO HAVE A BABY IN THE HOUSE. I CANT WAIT TILL ITS BORN. MEANWHILE HAVE A GOOD TIME AND I'LL KEEP YOU AND PHILLIP IN MY PRAYERS
LOVE YA LOTS,
SADIE <DASCHUND_LVR_4_EVA@YAHOO.COM>
AFFTON, MISSOURI USA - Sunday, October 16, 2005 1:54 PM CDT

thinking of you!
I can always use another bracelet.
I'll e-mail later.
xxoo
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 15, 2005 9:56 AM CDT

Just a Friday Hello.

Hope you guys have a good weekend.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 14, 2005 4:52 PM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and let you know we are thinking of you and praying for you all. Have a safe trip back to KY.
Still bee-lieving!!

Colleen, Michael, Conner and B-nut <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
ST Peters, MO USA - Friday, October 14, 2005 1:23 PM CDT

{{{{{HUGS!}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Friday, October 14, 2005 5:45 AM CDT

I'm just checking in. I'm glad to hear all is well. I would just like to add a little note: For those of you who check in from Louisiana, Missouri, the Cindy Perkins that you have asked for prayer for is not the Cindy Perkins from Louisiana. When I read that I immediately called Hazel Perkins to see what was going on and she said it was not her Cindy! I just didn't want anyone else to read that and have the same reaction I had. Hope to see you guys at the Colorfest this weekend! With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:02 PM CDT

In My Dreams
by Heather Gustafson

Another night
I awake with my heart pounding
A tear running down over my lips
The taste of salt awakens me
Realizing where I am
I lay back down
Wanting the dream back
In my dream it is so real
In my dream
I can hear the laughter
see the smile ~ I've never seen
You turn to me
With the most beautiful blue eyes
With a smile you seem to ask
"Can I?"
A nod of my head and you run
Looking around
Not knowing where you
Want to go first
Thru the sand
Down the slide
Then to the swings
That smile again ~ those blue eyes
With a gentle voice
"Push me mommy"
"Of course my baby, my love, my son."

Ryan
by Stef Knudsen

I quiver. I shiver.
They tell me the news.
I wonder why He chose you.
I walk the streets remembering you
No matter what they say,
it�s still the same.
Only you could fill the empty void
I know you�re okay and feel no pain,
But with each passing day
I say a prayer asking God to take care of you.
We miss you and love you.
In our hearts is where you�ll stay,
Until we meet again in Heaven someday.

I just saw this poems and I couldn't resist sending them to you I hope you like them. I am always thinking, praying for you and missing Little Ryan D. Brown.

Always Believing. Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, October 13, 2005 3:48 PM CDT

Andrea - I really enjoyed seeing you and Elizabeth yesterday. She is such a cutie. I have been 'advertising' my new bracelet and everyone wants one. So, if you are at Colorfest, you may get mobbed!! Just remember to stop by the pharmacy everytime you're in town. We're always thinking about you guys!
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO USA - Thursday, October 13, 2005 1:46 PM CDT

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Thursday, October 13, 2005 1:45 PM CDT

I haven't been posting daily as I did previously, but that doesn't mean that I'm not praying for all of you daily. For the safety of Phillip & the rest of our brave troops, for Sissy who is turning out to be such a character (do you suppose Ryan is tutoring her from Heaven..."hey, Sissy, try this!", for Andrea's healing & good pregnancy, & for the good health of Cricket. May the Lord continue to provide all of you with everything He knows you need each day.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Thursday, October 13, 2005 1:36 PM CDT

I am so sorry for your loss, yet, I am heartened that your family is growing and that you can find strength in your beautiful daughter, and your unborn child. I wish you peace and strength in dealing with your husband's absence, I sincerly hope you find help from your mother and family, although I know that is by no means a replacement for your wonderful husband. I hope you heal, I am not going to claim to sympathize with your loss because I honestly do not know and cannot imagine your grief. May you find comfort, guidance, wisdom, hope, and love from God.
A. Cook
NC - Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:40 AM CDT

Andrea and Elizabeth,
It was so good to see you two yesterday! I had a blast playing "fetch" with Elizabeth. She is an absolute doll baby. Hopefully next visit to Louisiana we can have lunch together. Hope to see you at the ColorFest. Take care and have a safe trip home. With love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:29 AM CDT

Hi,

We sent an email about the bracelets. Devin was soooooooo excited to hear about a "Ryan" bracelet. Very neat!! Can't wait to get them.

Last night at dinner we were talking about the new baby. Devin and Kara are so excited. We are all hoping for a happy healthy pregnancy for you.

Glad to hear Elizabeth is ahead of schedule and hitting those 'terrific twos' a bit early. They are just so cute at that age. Give her some hugs from us in Utah,

The Ross Family
Hippie bus kid <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:19 AM CDT

Sounds like that Elizabeth is going to be growing up too fast! :-)

I don't have andrea's email address (let's just say I can't locate it right now!) - could you please email it to me? I'd love to and be proud to wear a couple of Ryan's bracelets. I'm sure that my daughter and some of her friends would like to wear them too - and it is so coincidental - that they're high school mascot is a BEE and it is a ZEEBEE!!! and they are always BEELieving in something! Thanks.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, October 13, 2005 8:18 AM CDT

I hope Elizabeth and new baby grow to be healthy strong kids. The whole family has fortitude immeasurable to common people. Andrea, I think of you more often than not and hope Phillip will come home to his family soon, in good spirits and health. Your website is lovely, Ryan would be proud for sure. I never got to know him or your family but the pictures displayed on the website clearly show to me he was loved and cared for completely. I know you have the strength to carry on that for your others and carry on Ryan's legacy.
Jen
Clarksville, TN USA - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 10:05 PM CDT

Noah and I held a hug fest for Ryan today. He is missing his buddy. I guess we all are. I am glad to hear that Andrea and Elizabeth are visiting with Nana. I was also glad to hear that you have spoken with Phillip. You are all in my prayers.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 7:50 PM CDT

LOVE ALWAYS BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Wednesday, October 12, 2005 1:22 AM CDT

Sending a lot of hugs and prayers your way. Always thinking of Ryan and you guys. May the Lord continue to shower you with love and courage..

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 11:53 PM CDT

sending love
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 11, 2005 8:24 PM CDT

Hope everyone is feeling well this week. You are in my prayers.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 4:28 PM CDT

Hi Guys,

Hope this week is a good one for everyone.

Alisa

Hippie bus kid <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 11, 2005 3:43 PM CDT

I can't imagine how difficult things must seem and be right now. My family and I are praying for you and that Phillip and his troop are safe. May God Bless You and bring you peace. The Landry's
Stacie Landry <stacielandry772@hotmail.com>
Maryland Heights, MO 63043 - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 1:08 PM CDT

Sounds like your reunion was alot of fun. I saw a sign this weekend that said "Shake any family tree and a few nuts are bound to fall out!" I know this is certainly true for our family...at least Roy's side :) Isaiah 41:10 says, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." How amazing to know the voice that spoke the world into existence can speak directly to you and me. Hoping you are filled with joy you can't explain and bumblebee swarms to remind you that Ryan is still so near. I don't know if they have bumblebees in Iraq, but I will pray that the reminders are abounding over there for Phillip too.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 12:02 AM CDT

Dear Andrea,
I can not imagine how life feels to you right now, with your sweet Ryan in heaven, and your husband so far away. It is good that you are going home to be with your family. Having loved ones near will comfort you. I am writing to Philip today:o)
Bonnie - Audrey's Umbrella <bonnie@braintrust.org>
Rye, New York - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 11:00 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
It was so great to see the girls at the reunion, Phillip you were missed. It took Princess being told a few times before she remembered where you were. Elizabeth has grown so much just in the past month. Wishing you a safe return to Kentucky, Drew and sister. Love to you all.
Jody
- Tuesday, October 11, 2005 10:28 AM CDT

Thinking of you today and sending you more hugs! {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI - Tuesday, October 11, 2005 5:52 AM CDT

How cool that Phillip can post to you from across the world! Just thinking of your family and always praying for you.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
florissant, MO - Monday, October 10, 2005 3:49 PM CDT

Hello everyone thanks for cheaking up on the family. I miss you all dearly! i will be home soon. Andrea remember Ryan is not only there with you but also here with me! he is watching each and every step i take to make sure i make it home. I love you all and see you soon.
Daddy <phillip.ryan.brown@usarmy.mil>
you know where i am at, bfe kitty litter box - Monday, October 10, 2005 7:23 AM CDT

Ok so the aunt's beat me to her, but I still got credit for spoiling her so bad. It was really good to see all the entries in the guest book, but it was super seeing all the OLD family members. And Jody got to sissy before aunt nae so she wasn't quite as bad. Hope the big guy likes his video and be sure to tell him how much we miss him. Natalie, daddy is super cool, not for jumping out of planes but because he is you and Noah's daddy, that's what makes him super cool. Love ya and miss you all
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 10, 2005 5:09 AM CDT

I was just thinking about all of you so I wanted to come by and say hello. Autumn was definitely in the air in Michigan this weekend! The trees are starting to change, our sweatshirts have been brought out of storage and fluffed in the dryer, the Halloween decorations are up, and best of all...the cider mills are open for business! There's a gallon of fresh cider sitting in my fridge right now:)

Have a wonderful week!
Hugs from Candy (Audrey's Umbrella) <zacheric02@msn.com http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm>
Livonia , MI - Sunday, October 9, 2005 11:04 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan and you family today. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings from head to toe. Sending a lot of HUGS and PRAYERS from Virginia..

Always Believing!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Sunday, October 9, 2005 9:05 PM CDT

Thinking of you today. Thinking of Ryan today....hugs hugs hugs hugs!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Sunday, October 9, 2005 3:54 PM CDT

It was great seeing everyone at the family reunion yesterday and I hope Phillip enjoys the video! Elizabeth is growing so much and is a beautiful toddler. The bracelets for Ryan's foundation was a wonderful idea. Look forward to seeing you next week-end. I am just glad I got to Elizabeth yesterday before Uncle Pop Bill!

Love you much

Aunt Nae
- Sunday, October 9, 2005 2:51 PM CDT

Sending you lots of love and prayers today!
Tina Tomlinson <tinaltomlinson@hotmail.com>
Herndon, KY - Saturday, October 8, 2005 3:39 PM CDT

Andrea, you and your family are in our prayers.A firend of mine is stationed at FT. CAMPBELL and that is how i found out about Ryan and I have my church praying for your family.
Gloria Saylor <gloria_saylor@hotmail.com>
Nortonville, KY HOPKINS - Saturday, October 8, 2005 11:20 AM CDT

Hi Andrea,

Sorry you are feeling so lonely. You are ALWAYS in our thoughts and prayers. If there is ever a time you'd like someone to talk to, just give me a call.

Check out your local Volvo dealership. Hopefully they are doing the Alex's Lemonade pediatric fundraiser event this week.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 8, 2005 9:50 AM CDT

You and your beautiful family are in my prayers. I think of your sweet Ryan daily and I never even met him. What an angel!
Heidi Foster <heidi_foster@yahoo.com>
Locust Grove, GA USA - Friday, October 7, 2005 10:11 PM CDT

Dear Andrea,
I am friend of Carla, Cameron, Charli, and Charles Brooks and learned about your extraordinary family from Cameron's site. Bless you, bless you, BLESS YOU and Elizabeth, Phillip , and the Little One! Especially bless Ryan who brought your family so much love in his short time on Earth. Trust that Ryan's God-given love will be the glue, stone, and cushion that your family needs in this difficult time. Cry as much as you need because tears are cleansing. Hug your daughter and yourself to your hearts content and Phillip will feel it. Don't be afraid to be human. Wishing you ALL THE BEST!
Tracy McKnight <mcknight@mrsc.ucsf.edu>
Oakland, CA USA - Friday, October 7, 2005 9:35 PM CDT

I will be thinking of you all on Sat. while walking Matthew's Miles.
Angel Melody's Daddy
Rob Schleigh (www.ourmelody.net) <rob@ourmelody.net>
- Friday, October 7, 2005 9:29 PM CDT

Andrea...I cannot even imagine what you are going through. You all have touched so many lives and I want you to know that I will be forever grateful for knowing all of you. My prayers will be with Phillip...and you all. May God grant you peace of mind and heart. My love and prayers are with you today and always.
trish juoza-clark <trish.juoza-clark@vanderbilt.edu>
nashville, TN USA - Friday, October 7, 2005 8:06 PM CDT

Annie <penguini1982@yahoo.com>
Rochester, MA - Friday, October 7, 2005 5:34 PM CDT

I hope you are having fun and good weather at your family reunion. We picked Andy up from airborne school yesterday. Natalie keeps saying that he is "super cool" because he said that he thought jumping was cool. I am glad to hear that your appointments went well. We are thinking of you.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Friday, October 7, 2005 4:23 PM CDT

Andrea,

Be assured that you have my daily prayers, along with those of my daughter, Colleen, who is 14 and visits your site frequently. She commented the other day that she thinks that her penpal she got through school, who also is stationed at Ft. Campbell, went over to Iraq at the same time as Phillip. I know it is a girl she was corresponding to but I don't remember her name. Colleen has kept in touch through the letters they write in school.

I always pray that somehow you will be able to feel Ryan's presence around you and that this will help give you some peace. I say a prayer for him every day too.

Take care of Elizabeth, yourself, and the new little one currently on the way.

Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Springfield, PA - Friday, October 7, 2005 2:39 PM CDT

Andrea,
I just read your site and will pray for your family during this very difficult time of losing Ryan. I pray for Phillip that he returns home safe. I read of Ryan on Cameron's site. I am Carla Brooks Aunt Kathy
Kathy Smith <shak5000@att.net>
Sunset Beach, NC - Friday, October 7, 2005 10:17 AM CDT

Even though you do not know us, you are in our thoughts and prayers.
The Stringfellow Family
Ladara Ranch, CA - Friday, October 7, 2005 9:46 AM CDT

Hope to see you and Elizabeth tomorrow at the FR. Always thinking about you guys even if I don't get here often. I have a work group setting up care packages, and we will include Phillip. God Speed.

Cheri
Cheri Charleville <cherittfncyc@aol.com>
St. Louis, MO USA - Friday, October 7, 2005 9:29 AM CDT

Always praying and thinking of you and missing our buddy Ryan. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings in this difficult times. I will be praying for our troops to come home safe and sound and for God to bless every step you take in this lifetime journey with out your little buddy..

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Friday, October 7, 2005 9:11 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, and Cricket,
Just a note to let you know that we stopped by as we do almost each and every day. And that we continue to miss and grieve Ryan and keep him in our thoughts daily. We are praying for all of you and that Phillip returns home safely. I can not wait to see you and that beautiful Elizabeth tomorrow. Love and miss you. Be careful on your way home.
Love,
Jody
Jody
- Friday, October 7, 2005 6:22 AM CDT

Love you guy's and I am really looking forward to Tomorrow. just hope the sisters don't get to Lady bug before I do or they will have her ruined for the rest of the day. I'll get Ryan to help me and we will win as always, he could always come up with a way to win. He sure has a winner for a mom and dad that we are all proud of. love ya and see ya tomorrow.
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 7, 2005 5:10 AM CDT

Dear Ryan's family
I'm so sorry to read about the loss of your beautiful boy
nothing anyone can say will ease your pain you just have to take it 1 day at a time
love jacob's mum Angel Jake
Deanne www.caringbridge.org/me/jacob
Alexandra Hills Brisbane, Queensland Australia - Friday, October 7, 2005 1:06 AM CDT

Dear Andrea,
I still think about you and your family. Please know I am praying for all of you. God gives us the love and caring of family and friends to help us through difficult times of loss. I am so glad to hear you and baby are doing fine and how well Elizabeth is growing and developing into her own special person. How precious! I pray for the safe return of Phillip and all our men and women serving in Iraq and other countries. We are so fortunate to have such dedicated and brave young people serving our country. God Bless.
Cathy Vance <cvance@centurytel.net>
Palmyra, MO USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 10:15 PM CDT

Hi Sweetpea,
Miss you all and am looking forward to see you and Elizabeth this week-end. We are here for you always, every minute of every day. We can't feel your pain but we know that as intense as ours is, yours is unimaginable to us. Keep believing Andrea and Phillip, keep believing that you will be reunited, with each other and with your son, that your new baby is a gift, not to replace but to enhance and that we will never, ever, forget who Ryan was and what he means to us. He is our forever hero.

Love you to the moon and back
Aunt Nae
- Thursday, October 6, 2005 9:19 PM CDT

You were on my mind tonight so I thought I'd pop in to say hello and let you know that I'm thinking about all of you.
Hugs from Candy (Audrey's Umbrella) <zacheric02@msn.com http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm>
Livonia , MI - Thursday, October 6, 2005 7:07 PM CDT

Just stoping by to say hello. Glad to hear the updates on Elizabeth, you and "cricket". Love to you always.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 4:09 PM CDT

Andrea,
Just a note to let you know you and your family are all still in my prayers. It is so nice to read about Elizabeth's growing process and even her challenges. I know you cherish each day with her. Also congratulations on the new baby, what a precious gift. I will pray that God continues to bless you and your family. We are so honored to have your husband serving our country and pray for his protection and safe return home to you. You are not alone. God has his arms around you and each of us who reads your words are lifting you up to him. God bless you.
Sue Bridgman
Palmyra, MO USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

So glad to hear that Elizabeth, you, and baby are doing okay. I have been thinking about you all a lot lately, especially because of the Relay for Life just going on in town. Mom said she was really excited that she got to talk to Phillip at Heritage Day in BG. Let him know that we are all thinking of him back home. I will keep on praying for you all everyday.
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Thursday, October 6, 2005 2:02 PM CDT

Andrea
praying for God to protect Phillip
and to bless you and Elizabeth and 'Cricket'!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, October 6, 2005 12:58 AM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and say hello and let you know that you all have been in my thoughts and prayers. I still do not have all the particulars ready for our ceremony here at school to honor Ryan. I will let you know as soon as I can. I know this is a difficult time for you, please know that I am here for you any time you just want to talk. I still want you to bring Elizabeth over to play with Scooter. She would love to see you both. She will be going to school on 17 October. We went to the doctor last week and he was thrilled to see her back to her old self. She has begun to use her walker and has even rode her four wheeler! We will continue to pray for all of you. Keep in touch. We love you!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 11:44 AM CDT

Andrea, Thinking of you, and Phillip, and Elizabeth, and baby, today... but mostly about Ryan. I still bee-lieve. Forever.

Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Thursday, October 6, 2005 11:23 AM CDT

Thinking about all of you and keeping everybody in my prayers..
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles04@comcast.net>
flint, Mi - Thursday, October 6, 2005 7:02 AM CDT

Hi Andrea,
I'm a friend of the Brooks' family (Cameron). I've looked at your page a few times but was hesitant to write. Ryan has a special place in my heart and you also in my prayers because Ryan and my youngest son share the same birth date, right down to the year. Seeing the birth date on screen really hit home for me and that night I went back and since then read several old entries and "got to know" you guys--especially Ryan's devoted grandmother; I guess trying to somehow share and identify with what you were going through. I will continue to check on you and pray for you and know that you being held by the Father. I pray that you feel His presence whenever those empty feelings arise.
Callie S. Crowder <callie.crowder@cscwealth.com>
West Orange, NJ - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 11:24 PM CDT

Andrea and family,

I am a new friend of your Mom, Sherry, and have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. We are all very proud of your Phillip, and the rest of our troops, and pray that he is fine and will be home with you soon. I hope you can find peace in your heart, cherishing all the wonderful memories you have of Ryan.

Mary Walsdorf (www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf)
Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 10:22 PM CDT

Still here checking regularly. Thanks for the email about Phillip. Glad that you've met my friend Tami across your street. Still praying for your family...
Rachel McLamb <rachel.mclamb@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:55 PM CDT

Hi. Just wanted to leave a little msg to say that I am thinking of you. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:36 PM CDT

Praying for you and your family.
Kathy Sanders <kathy_sanders@comcast.net>
Richardson, TX - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 6:24 PM CDT

Annie and Elizabeth,
I wish I could grab hold and hug your neck so tight. You have been amazing, but what you have been through has to be the ultimate in hard to do.
We love you and Phillip and little Elizabeth, and Baby.
You have to know this baby is a blessing and you will grasp it with open arms.
I lost something one time but not as you have. All I could do is think, someday if I try hard enough and believe enough, I would open my world back up to love. It happened and I am so blessed.
You have been strong and a wonderful mother, you will endure and you will be Annie with a smile again.

Aunt Barb <partney.inc@earthlink.net>
St. Louis, Mo usa - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 5:46 PM CDT

Thinking of you today. HUGS!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 4:01 PM CDT

Love Always BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 3:02 PM CDT

Hugs and kisses to all. Hope you made it safe with no problems from any of the passangers.(angel Ryan, Elizabeth, and Cricket) Tell everyone hi for me, and the lawn is mowed. See you when you get home.

Jen Shaw <tjdbcshaw@yahoo.com>
Ft. Campbell, Ky USA - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 2:59 PM CDT

Know that there are so many people that do think of you and hope the best for you. I ache for your loss and I'm sorry you had to go through this. I look forward to reading about your new baby and the excitement that comes with a new little one.
Melissa <pricemelissa@charter.com>
- Wednesday, October 5, 2005 12:22 AM CDT

I'm glad you get to go home. There's just something about mom and home that makes everything better. Enjoy your time together. Just want you to know that I check in often and still continue to pray for your family.
Susan
Hannibal, MO - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 11:09 AM CDT

I just wanted to stop by and tell you that you are all in my prayers. I visit often and pray for you always. Hang in there Andrea, GOD provides, even when it seems you are alone. Prayers and hugs to you, your baby girl, your angel, your peanut, your soldier and all the soldiers wherever they may be.
Katy Hammond <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 10:04 AM CDT

Hi, Andrea,
I'm glad to hear everything went well with the doctors. You know, dear one, you are in a place where none of us have been. That empty place in your heart doesn't go away, even if you don't share it. If you want to tell us daily how you spent the day missing Ryan and Phillip, go ahead. You will still get our love and support, without limit.

Everyday I talk to God about you and Phillip. I know He listens.

See you Saturday. Love,
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, October 5, 2005 10:04 AM CDT

I will keep praying for you and your family - I am sure your feeling pretty empty right now - Wish I could say something to cheer you up, but words can never take away your pain
jeni <jvanfossen@racadj.com>
rockford, il - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:35 AM CDT

Andrea,
I'm glad the appointments went good for you and Elizabeth. Make sure when your in Missouri to stop by Homecare and visit us. I bet Elizabeth is has changed a lot since the last time I saw her. I hope you have a good day. Thinking of you always!
Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:31 AM CDT

When we are totally empty is when God can completely fill us up and use us to do great things. He has already used you and your family to inspire and encourage so many others. I pray that his grace, peace and joy continue to flow over your lives and into your hearts.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:22 AM CDT

Hi Andrea, I just wanted you to know that I have you and Elizabeth in my daily prayrs along with Phillip and all our troops no matter where they are.
Love ya
Aunt Kath
Kathy Waite <katnstv1@sbcglobal.net or kathyw@Bola.cc>
Louisiana, MO usa - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 8:22 AM CDT

Dear Andrea,
You have continued to be in my daily prayers, although I don't get to the guestbook like I should. I know it is difficult with Philip in Iraq.
My husband left for Iraq when I was about 5 months pregnant. I felt so empty, and angry that I was going through it alone - that is not how I'd pictured the "perfect ideal" pregnancy experience. To top it off, my 22 year old cousin (who was like a sister) became ill and died of leukemia only 2 weeks before I gave birth.
I am sharing that experience here because I want you to know that there are people who know exactly how that empty feeling is, but you WILL get through and have a wonderful life ahead with a new, precious life.
When Randy was in Iraq he took a laptop and webcam. I don't know if Philip can or not, but we used those all the time. I would place the webcam so he could watch our son play and even sleep during naps...he would always say he was babysitting for me "virtually". Maybe you can do something like that. Also, his unit said he could go home for R&R if he knew when the baby would be born, so I was set up for an induction. (As it turned out he didn't get to come home)
I hope each day is better and you will find peace & joy.
Christina Hays
Ft. Leonard Wood/Bowling Green, MO USA - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 7:43 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth,

Our love still goes out to you, and we send daily prayers also! It sounds like a great idea for you to go home for a litle bit. The change will be good for both of you. You will make it through this time a stronger person. I know somedays it doesn't feel like it, but you are making progress. Have a safe trip!
Chad & Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN USA - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 7:21 AM CDT

Andrea and family,
You inspire me. Thank you for sharing your journey of your precious son. Yon are an incredible woman! I learned that the small stuff in life are so meaningless and petty. That sometimes we over look what is important to us and that is family. You show such love for your family, and you are so brave. Although you have been on a roller coaster of emotions and will continue to be, your love for your husband and children is incredible. Stay close to God and he will give you the grace to get through the tough days ahead to follow. My prayers are with your family, I am praying for our troops also! If you want someone to email me please do so.
Erin Emerson, Jacksonville FL
Erin Emerson <erinemerson@comcast.net>
Jacksonville, FL - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 6:26 AM CDT

I know the sadness that you feel because I see Leahs mommy going through the same thing right know. It breaks our hearts that we cannot take away some of the pain. Sometimes you just feel like hugging them and never letting go. Congrats on the pregnancy, hope that it goes well. My family will pray for your husbands safe return.
Trina
Trina <Slatinsky@talkamerica.net>
LaSalle, MI USA - Wednesday, October 5, 2005 4:46 AM CDT

There can't be a family anywhere in the world any prouder than we are of you and Phillip. I don't know where you get your strength, but I admire you so much. Please be careful coming home tomorrow and watch out for the fools on the road.

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!
Mom <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 4, 2005 10:32 PM CDT

We just wanted to stop by and let you know you are still in our thoughts everyday. Although we don't sign the guestbook as often as we would like, we still check up on you daily, and keep wishing positive thoughts for all of you. We love you and miss you!!
Buddy (Don), Debbie, and Ashley Hill <donthelegend@cox.net;debhil@hotmail.com>
mesa, AZ USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 10:08 PM CDT

So sorry to hear Phillip had to go. However,we should all sleep better knowing people like him are fighting the fight. We look forward to seeing you guys back in Missouri! Tell Phillip we are all praying for him back home. With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, Mo USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 9:14 PM CDT

Hi Annie, Know that we are always thinking and praying for you and Ryan. We was so saddened when we got the news about Ryan but I hear there is gladdness in your life now with a new angel coming in your life. I will be praying for you and your new baby and Phillip to come home safely. Hope to see you and Elizabeth at the Reunion this weekend
Terry Chapman <chappy53@earthlink.net>
Festus, MO USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 8:23 PM CDT

Thinking and praying for you today. Always missing our little buddy. Take care and know there is a lot of HUgggggsss going you way..

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 7:43 PM CDT

Hi Andrea, Just a quick note to let you know we are thinking about you. We will keep you and your familey in our thoughts and prayers. Hope to see you on Sat. at the family reunion.
Love Aunt Barb
Barbara Charleville <masquawbc@earthlink.net>
Eureka Springs, AR USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 7:39 PM CDT

Thinking of you today and sending love your way. You're in my thoughts more then you know. Sorry I don't always sign the guestbook.
It's great to know you've talked to Phillip already, I'm praying for him and your family always.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 7:14 PM CDT

Just wanted to stop in and give a little love!!

Loving, praying, hoping, bee-lieving.....
Colleen, Michael, Conner and B-nut <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Tuesday, October 4, 2005 1:25 PM CDT

Andrea, I pray the pregnancy is going great. I will be praying for Phillip and all the troops including my brother-in-law who are overseas. May the Lord continue to shower you with blessings fo smiles, comfort and happiness.
Sending a lot of ((((((HUGS)))))))
Always thinking about you,

Always Missing you Ryan...
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Monday, October 3, 2005 8:18 PM CDT

Hey Annie,
Please let Phillip know that we are all praying for him and all of the men and women risking their lives to protect our wonderful way of life. Hope you aren't having morning sickness or any other unpleasant symptoms from little cricket.
Debbie <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Monday, October 3, 2005 6:10 PM CDT

Thinking of you today. HUGS!!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI 48124 - Monday, October 3, 2005 12:24 AM CDT

Andrea,
Good to know all was well with cricket. Glad Elizabeth is doing well. Keeping you all in our prayers. Love to all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Monday, October 3, 2005 8:43 AM CDT

You all remain in my thoughts and prayers...especially Phillip as he is deployed. Hope you get answers from the doctor pertaining to Elizabeth. Thinking of dear Ryan and always keeping him safe in my heart. God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton, fl usa - Monday, October 3, 2005 8:36 AM CDT

Let us know what the Dr. says. Miss you guy's but was good to here you had talked to Phillip already. Tell him I won't forget the jerky but it will have to wait till i get some more made. Love ya and miss you guy's
unclePopbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, October 3, 2005 8:29 AM CDT

We are always checking, thinking and praying for you.. May the Lord continue to protect you and bless you everyday with strength, love and courage.

Always Believing...

Thinking of Ryan always!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Sunday, October 2, 2005 9:19 PM CDT

We check in daily to see how you are doing.

God Bless and provide strength to get through each day. You are amazing!

God Bless!

Janis Goehner <JanisGoehner@Hotmail.com>
Lakeville, MN USA - Sunday, October 2, 2005 5:19 PM CDT

I'm glad to hear that Phillip was able to see your baby before he had to go. We'll be praying for all of you during this busy time.
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Sunday, October 2, 2005 4:07 PM CDT

May God bless and keep you always!!
Laurie Wilkey
Urbana, IL USA - Sunday, October 2, 2005 9:42 AM CDT

Just thinking of you guys. Hope Monday's appointment goes well.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 1, 2005 9:42 PM CDT

I pray you are having a wonderful weekend. May the Lord always shower you with blessings from head to toe. I will be praying for your husband to be safe, Elizabeth to get better, for your pregnancy to be good and for a lot of smiles.

Always thinking of Ryan!!
Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Saturday, October 1, 2005 9:10 PM CDT

I hope that today was a decent day. I am missing Ft. Campbell and my friends there. Too bad we are more than a block away from you. Kiss Elizabeth for us. Andrew keeps asking me for updates about all of you. We aren't used to being so far away yet.

Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Saturday, October 1, 2005 5:37 PM CDT

Love you guy's. Back in the states and didn't have many chances to get to the internet so missed alot this week. If you need anything call, wished I could have come down before phillip left, just wasn't possible. Love ya and hope to see you next weekend.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 1, 2005 7:46 AM CDT

congratulations! I have to admit, when I read that you are pregnant, it made me so happy for you and your family.

Angel Rachel's Mommy
jeanne <crowman2766@aol.com>
king of prussia, pa usa - Saturday, October 1, 2005 7:40 AM CDT

Thinking of you today. {{{{{{{{HUGS!}}}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Saturday, October 1, 2005 7:04 AM CDT

Tonight was the Relay for Life here in Pike County, MO. There was only one person with more luminaries than Ryan. It was kind of surreal, hearing his name being read so much reinforced what we already know, that he is very loved and very missed. But at the same time, we love him and we miss him and we don't want to hear his name being read "In Memory Of". I would have loved to have been able to watch Ryan walk the survivor lap.

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!!

Support your local Relay for Life and help find the cure!
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Friday, September 30, 2005 9:15 PM CDT

Always thinking and praying for the Browns....

Always Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Friday, September 30, 2005 6:41 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan and your family today, May God continue to give you comfort and shower you with blessings from head to toe...

Always Believing
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Thursday, September 29, 2005 9:36 PM CDT

I'm thinking of Ryan today as I do everyday. I hope you are doing good today - hugs to you all! {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, September 29, 2005 2:20 PM CDT

Glad things are going well with the pregnancy. I hope Elizabeth starts feeling better soon.

Thanks for the address for Chance...

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 29, 2005 10:23 AM CDT

Hi there, I've been thinking about you all a lot the past couple of days. I finally heard the song by Mercy Me. I love it. I also heard a really good song the other day by Kenny Chesney. I can't remember the words, but its a new one he has out. I'm glad to hear everything is going good with "IBBIT" (itty bitty baby in there) and I hope that you all can get Elizabeth feeling better again. Take care and remember I love you all! Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Thursday, September 29, 2005 8:44 AM CDT

Check on you often, but think of you even more. Prayers for peace and strength for your entire family.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Thursday, September 29, 2005 5:35 AM CDT

Phillip and Andrea,
You are always in my thoughts, as is Ryan and sweet baby Elizabeth. Hope all is going well for you this week, I know you are very busy -- I miss you all and am really sorry I was not able to go down last week-end.

Miss you to the moon and back, love you even more.

Aunt Nae
- Wednesday, September 28, 2005 10:19 PM CDT

Always thinking of you guys and missing Ryan!!!

Always Believing!!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 7:21 PM CDT

Hi Guys, just letting you know I'm thinking of you all. I hope all is well. With Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 9:08 AM CDT

Phillip, Drew and Elizabeth,
Just a note to let you know we are thinking about you and that we love you guys. Hope sister is still doing well. Can't wait to see you all at the family reunion. If you get time check out Kenny Chesney's new video "Who you'd be Today" its on CMT.com I think you will like the song,it is very touching. Keeping you in our prayers.
Jody
Boss, MO - Wednesday, September 28, 2005 7:54 AM CDT

Andrea, I just got to reading your entries from when our modem was down. Wow, it sounds like my Hannah and your Elizabeth were going through the same things! I know the fear you must have felt - - because I felt it, too. Hannah has been temporarily diagnosed with "irritable bowel syndrome" (as my nursing friends say " what they say when they just don't know"). We are watching for food allergies, possibly celiac. I hope you are not too wet right now and that you are feeling well. I sure miss the updates on my KY hero! I know he is flying high and proud, but he is missed by so many of us here.
Angel Cheyenne's Coach Slate <ulcardfan@verizon.net>
San Angelo, TX USA - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 9:46 PM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you and your family. Ryan and you guys are always going to be in my hearts, thoughts and prayers. I pray the pregnancy is going good. May the Lord bless you with a lot of miracles.

Keep Believing!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 9:13 PM CDT

Hi everybody, Just wanted to stop by and say I love you!
You are always on my mind and in my prayers. God Bless!
Aunt Carol <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Tuesday, September 27, 2005 4:44 PM CDT

Just dropping off a note to say I am thinking of you. Hope you are feeling well Andrea! Love to you all.

Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 11:29 AM CDT

I hope everything is going well. Just wanted to let you know that I'm think of you and your family and I think of Ryan all the time. He will forever be in my heart! {{{{{HUGS!}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI 48124 - Tuesday, September 27, 2005 8:14 AM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you and your family...

Keep Believing!!!

Always thinking of you Ryan :)
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Monday, September 26, 2005 9:28 PM CDT

What exciting, thrilling news!!!!!!!!!!! Hope that your pregnancy goes smoothly for all of you!!!

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 26, 2005 7:30 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
Just thinking about you guys and wanted to let you know we love you all and are praying for you. Hugs and kisses.
Jody
Boss, MO - Monday, September 26, 2005 1:56 PM CDT

CONGRATS!!!! We are both so happy for you two. You are in our prayers daily and wish the best for you each and everyday.
Love- Heather and Travis Mazzanti <hawinton@comcast.net>
Elk Grove, Ca USA - Monday, September 26, 2005 1:55 PM CDT

I hope your day today is a good one. Noah keeps talking about your new baby. He is trying to figure that one out!! We miss you!

Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Monday, September 26, 2005 1:25 PM CDT

Just wanted to drop a note to let you guys know we are still praying, still loving, still bee-lieving!!!
Times will be hard, life will be tough, tears will flow, the heart will break. But at the end of every darkness the sun will once again rise. Hold on to that and know that you are loved.

The Cosby's
Colleen, Michael, Conner and B-nut.
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Monday, September 26, 2005 10:29 AM CDT

Andrea, I came by to tell you a little story but I read your wonderful news and had to say CONGRATULATIONS!!!! You and your family deserve some wonderful news. I know Ryan must be shouting from the heavens above. He will always be with you and your families.
I took a lot of comfort in this. Last year at Chey's birthday she was so weak and could not blow out her candles. McKayla and my Hannah helped her blow them out. This year, I know there was Troy and Ryan blowing those candles out - - not because Cheyenne could not do it but because she loves those two and couldn't help resist them!
Angel Cheyenne's Coach Slate <ulcardfan@verizon.net>
San Angelo, TX USA - Monday, September 26, 2005 10:06 AM CDT

Thinking of you guy's. Hoping everything is going ok. Had another visitor over the weekend, that little bee just kind of hung around the whole time I was working on Jody's 4wheeler. Wonder what mischief the little guy was up to this time. Love and talk to ya later.
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 26, 2005 5:11 AM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you!!

Keep Believing!!

Thinking of you Ryan.....
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Sunday, September 25, 2005 10:09 PM CDT

Congrats! We are so happy for you guys! With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Sunday, September 25, 2005 9:37 PM CDT

Thinking of you. {{{{HUGS!}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI 48124 - Sunday, September 25, 2005 8:44 PM CDT

What wonderful, happy news!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, September 25, 2005 7:04 PM CDT

Congratulations Andrea and Phillip.....how very exciting. And what a beautiful gaurdian angel Ryan will be to this new addition. Sending warm thoughts and cyber hugs to all...give Grandma Sherry a hug for me too. Glad you all enjoyed an evening out.....Ryan's spirit continues to light the way. I think of you all often and wish you peace always. Thanks for updating. Hugs,
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Saturday, September 24, 2005 5:32 PM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you. I am glad you had fun at the concert and the gathering. Continue been strong.

Hi Ryan I wonder how much fun your having in heaven it must be great. Thank you again for the little addition.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Saturday, September 24, 2005 3:57 PM CDT

Dear Phillip, Andrea, Elizabeth, Grandma Sherry, and All,

I am glad Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth were able to attend the social gathering. I am sure you had fun, as you should. I know Ryan would have loved the bouncy room, the food, and all of the people. It is good to think of him, when you are having a good time, doing things he would enjoy.

I am very glad Andrea and Phillip are pregnant. I will pray that this new child is as much of a blessing as Ryan and Elizabeth have been. My own dear dad was such a blessing, being born about a year after his six year old brother died, joining an older sister, four at the time of his birth.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, September 24, 2005 7:05 AM CDT

Sending big hugs of congratulations along with prayers for a healthy and morning sickness-free pregnancy:)
I'm very happy for you guys!!
Candy Belanger (Audrey's Umbrella) <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia , MI - Friday, September 23, 2005 8:40 PM CDT

Congratulations!
the Hardin's <hardinrt@bellsouth.net>
Covington, GA USA - Friday, September 23, 2005 3:10 PM CDT

Congratulations on the news. I know that this baby will be very loved by those around it and those watching over it. I am so happy for you all.
Continuing to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Friday, September 23, 2005 2:04 PM CDT

Andrea and Phillip,
I'm just dropping you a line to let you know that I care about you both. Im sorry that I didnt make the services for Ryan. Kaye and Amy told me that it was beautiful. I am SO happy to hear about the new baby!! Please give Papa Denny and Nana Loves for me. Kiss that baby girl and I cant wait to see you three again.
Ps. Im back at work now...
Rebecca
Nashville, TN USA of Course - Friday, September 23, 2005 1:49 PM CDT

I am so happy for you and your family. Ryan will be busy watching those two babies!!

You are in our prayers!

Cameron�s mom
Carla <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Friday, September 23, 2005 12:38 AM CDT

Praying and thinking of you always!
Congrats again. I know Ryan is smiling form heaven!

We miss you Ryan!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, va - Friday, September 23, 2005 12:37 AM CDT

Dear Firends,

I am writing today not only to promise you continued prayers, but also to ask for yours as well for BULLDAWG. I have written a letter explaining, so here it is. God bless you!

Dear friends,

I have been in close contact with Uncle Bulldawg. Many of you know him as a faithful friend, follower and reliable prayer warrior for MANY CaringBridge friends. Up until just recently when his home computer broke, he followed over 100 CB friends EVERY DAY. I know that he has personally spent many, many hours on his knees on behalf of our friends. Well, Uncle Bulldawg needs our help now.

B's home is SQUARELY in the path of Hurricane Rita. He and his wife and family (and pets) are evacuating to northern LA, but in his own words "Except for by the grace of God, I don't think we'll have a home to go home to." The trip north has been grueling. What should have been a three hour ride has taken nearly 24 hours of sitting in bumper to bumper traffic, with only a 2 hour nap in a parking lot to call rest. One of the family cars broke down and had to be abandoned en-route... Gas is low, stress is high, and they still have 60 or so miles to go.

Bulldawg has asked for prayers for himself and his family. He has asked that we post on CaringBridge pages and guestbooks. As he put it "We need all the support we can get." Please, please pass the word for these faithful members of our CaringBridge family, and shoot them a note to let them know that you are praying. He can be reached (eventually) by writing Bulldawg759@Yahoo.com.

Thank you!
Mavis

Mavis Friederman <MyThreeSonsAndME@aol.com>
Ringoes, NJ US - Friday, September 23, 2005 11:15 AM CDT

We are praying for your family from Kansas City. Congrats on the new baby. I will pray for a happy and healthy pregnancy for you!
Shannon Allen <sballen@kc.rr.com>
Shawnee, KS - Thursday, September 22, 2005 9:51 PM CDT

Congratulations! What exciting and uplifting news! My prayers are with you. God Bless
Kim <kas412@sbcglobal.net>
Bartlett, Il - Thursday, September 22, 2005 8:21 PM CDT

Your family is always in my thoughts and prayers!!!

Ryan such a nice gift!!!

Keep Believing!!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Thursday, September 22, 2005 4:52 PM CDT

SO HAPPY FOR ALL YOU GUYS. GODS BLESSINGS ON YOU AND HAND OF PROTECTION ALL AROUND YOU. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE AND GROWING FAMILY. I THANK GOD FOR ALL OF YOU!!!!
I ALSO THANK HIM THAT NOW WE CAN FINALLY TALK ABOUT THE LATEST EXPANSION MOVE. :)
aunt Carol <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Thursday, September 22, 2005 10:45 AM CDT

Whooooppeeee! Another extra special Brown child. What wonderful news. I am so happy for all of you. I'll bet Ryan is grinning that terrific grin of his from ear to ear. Now he'll have 2 siblings to watch over as the big brother! Hope you're feeling well, Andrea. Now all 5 of you will be in my prayers!
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Thursday, September 22, 2005 10:18 AM CDT

I can't believe you held on to the information so long, I couldn't write in the journal because I wanted to TELL! I am still as excited as I was before - can't wait to see you next month. I will have to get the CD of your favorite songs, yes Phillip, I do have a CD player, now I need to buy a CD and then I can even use it! LOVE LOVE LOVE TO YOU ALL
The Amish Aunt
- Thursday, September 22, 2005 9:35 AM CDT

I just wanted to let you know that I'm so happy to hear about the new baby. Elizabeth will be a great big sister. She learned from the best. You and your family are still in my thoughts and prayers daily.

Mary Dicus <arcticcat_27@yahoo.com>
Fort Campbell, Ky - Thursday, September 22, 2005 8:46 AM CDT

I am soooo glad to hear GOOD news!!!! I can just hear the excitement in your words....congratulations Andrea. I'll continue to pray for your family and all the others that have been or are going down this path. I wish for peace, health and strength for your entire family.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Thursday, September 22, 2005 7:33 AM CDT

Congratulations on your wonderful news! I bet Ryan is tickled.
Kristen Brannock <kristenb@rfsnc.com>
Raleigh, NC - Thursday, September 22, 2005 7:08 AM CDT

Congratulations!! That is wonderful news and I know that Ryan had some part in bringing you a wonderful new addition to your family. I pray for all of you everyday and hope that God is bringing you some semblence of peace and understanding. I don't post on here often and you don't know me, however, I just want you to know that Ryan's story has helped me to try and be a better parent to my 3 1/2 year old. God Bless you all and grant you peace.
God Bless,
Stacie Landry
stacielandry772@hotmail.com <stacielandry772@hotmail.com>
Maryland Heights, MO USA - Thursday, September 22, 2005 0:50 AM CDT

Congrats on the new addition to your family! I know Ryan is smiling down on your family from Heaven & is so excited to my a big brother again! God bless!
Angie Rachels <angierachels@hotmail.com>
Sycamore, GA USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:54 PM CDT

Congratulations. I know that Ryan picked out the perfect brother or sister to send to you. I am thrilled for all of you and you will continue to be in my prayers
Kathleen
St Peters, Mo - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:43 PM CDT

Congratulations! What awesome news! Ryan will be a big brother yet again! You are in my prayers and I pray that God grants you incredible peace and understanding to make it through each day without your buddy. Your life is a witness to others and I hope you know that your selflessness and always asking for prayers for others, does not go unnoticed. God Bless.
Heidi Foster <heidi_foster@yahoo.com>
Locust Grove, GA USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:35 PM CDT

Congratulations on the great news. You both make great parents and this baby is going to be lucky to have you both as parents. Ryan would be so excited I just know it.
Lindsey, Kaden, Brookelyn Elliott <lindseyelliott7802@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 6:25 PM CDT

Congratulations! I think of your family often. A new baby is such wonderful news...how blessed you must feel. I smile thinking of big brother Angel Ryan watching over Elizabeth and the new baby. Am sure he'll be grinning when he alerts you of stinky diapers, too! I pray for your peace and happiness and that the saddness becomes less of a burden as the days go by.
Christine Peay <chrispeay@frontiernet.net>
Brooklyn, MI USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 5:58 PM CDT

Congratulations!!!!!!
Kristi Schoolfield <snickles04@comcast.net>
flint, Mi - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 4:33 PM CDT

Hey guys!!!! I'm glad you finally told everyone... It was driving me CRAZY not to tell everyone! I Love You all.

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!
FOREVER AUNT MEME <MKYMSE10@HOTMAIL.COM>
ST PETERS, MO USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 4:04 PM CDT

Congrats! on your wonderful news. I'm sure you're all excited and we know Ryan is too. He's watching over you all the time. Praying for your family!

Lynn
TN - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:44 PM CDT

Congratulations! So good to hear the great news, and that your concert was awesome.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:33 PM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip & Ryan, so glad that you all got such happy news!! Still praying for you all and thinking of your beautiful Angel every day.
Anderson Family (Mike, Lori & Jacob)
St. Charles, MO United States - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:24 PM CDT

I am very excited for your family. I hope you are feeling well. Noah thinks that we should have another baby thanks to Nana Sherry!! I have been missing all of you so much. Noah has been stopping people in public to ask for their pop tabs. Kind of akward when they are officers!! He is on a mission with those things. Just goes to show how much you are in our thoughts.

Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA!!! - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:18 PM CDT

Philip, Andrea and Elizabeth, we are so tickled to hear the good news. I also agree that babies are God's true blessings. I thank him everynight for mine and pray for you and Philip that things are getting better and for Ryan that he is happy. Congratulations, great surprises come in little packages!!
Chris and Cindy Stark <cstark6@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 1:33 PM CDT

Congratulations!!!!! This is such wonderful news. I am so thrilled for you. WOW What a blessing!! I have been thinking of Ryan alot. Every time I hear "Sweet Home Alabama" or that song from ColdPlay I think of Ryan.It seems like just this week I have heard those songs ALOT. He will forever be in my heart and I will never forget him.I am truly blessed for meeting you all and am so thankful for that!!! Please know I am here for you. I will check back soon.
Christie <christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Campbell, Ky USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 12:48 AM CDT

Andrea I am sure that know matter what you are doing and no matter if you are enjoying yourself that thoughts of ryan are always foremost on your mind. You should be smiling knowing that Ryan is watching you and wants you happy. Congratulations on the new addition. praying for an uneventful pregnancy and peace of mind for you and your family.
god bless you
carol <cowens624@wideopenwest.com>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 11:41 AM CDT

HOORAY!!!! We were hoping your family would be growing again and are so glad to hear the good news! I think it's impossible to look at ultrasounds or watch a baby being born and not believe in God and miracles. We still beelieve!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 10:46 AM CDT

Congrats! I very excited for you all.
Jennifer Henry <jennmichelle2004@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 10:22 AM CDT

What a joy and blessing. Love you all,
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 10:18 AM CDT

Andrea-
SOOOOOO glad you posted the wonderful news- I, too, was having a hard time not telling everyone! Like Nana said, babies are such an incredible blessing- heck, so are 2 1/2 year olds, 13 year olds, 18 year olds... you know how I feel about children- I wish I could have 20 of them...
Your update is so upbeat- nice to see you have had some really good days. I've been doing well, too- busy, busy, busy...
Thinking about you all every day- Keegan is still talking about Ryan daily- and hoping we can get together sometime very soon...
With much love,
Julie-Maddie's mom www.caringbridge.org/mn/maddie
Julie Dornisch <juliedornisch@yahoo.com>
Mpls., MN - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 9:29 AM CDT

CONGRATULATIONS!! I am so excited I am screaming with joy with tears in my eyes. I am so happy for you. Please know that we are always here for you and will always be praying for you and your family. May the Lord shower you with blessings for head to toe. The Lord once more shows his love, please trust that Ryan and your family will always be in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. If there is anything we can do to welcome the new addition please let us know.

Always Keep Believing!!!!

Congrats Ryan you are a big brother again!!!
We miss you buddy!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:52 AM CDT

Shout it nice and loud, Andrea! You deserve too! Love and hugs and still bee-lieving!!!!!!
Colleen <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters , MO USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:43 AM CDT

Drew,Phillip and Elizabeth,
Glad to hear the concert was great. Hopefully sister is feeling better. I have been looking through all the pictures like I promised and will try to get them out to you this weekend, as I have to get an package that will protect them while in the mail. I am glad the world now knows about the baby, and I am sure this one will be just as beautiful as Ryan and Elizabeth. I know he would be so proud as he was such a great big brother.Love you all and enjoy your visits with the family. Hugs and kisses.
Jody
Boss, MO - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:34 AM CDT

What wonderful exciting news. Our family keeps you in our prayers everyday. And I just know Ryan had a hand in this blessing.
Ann Marie Ranschaert <Ranschaert.AnnMarie@Orbital.com>
South Bend, IN USA - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:34 AM CDT

The minute you said that you had something to tell I just knew what you were about to announce. I'm so happy for you all. I'm also glad you had such a good time at the concert. I continue to pray every night for your family and say a few words to Ryan each day. I'm always thinking of you all and I'm always here for if you ever need me. Congratulations again!!!!! with Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 8:13 AM CDT

Ah, what a great gift! I am thinking that Ryan pulled a few strings when he reached heaven to leave Elizabeth with a playmate! Very awesome. I pray daily for your family. Big hugs!
Jacklyn Gant (friend of Colleen and Amy's) <jacklyngant@coastalnow.net>
Richmond Hill , ga - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 7:48 AM CDT

Hey guys! Well I'm like Nana, glad the cat is out of the bag so we can tell everyone how happy we are about the new addition news. Of course I have talked about it to a few people at school who were close to Ryan. He is in my thoughts daily as you are too. Glad you enjoyed the concert. It sounds like they put on a really good show. Scooter is finally getting around better. We had some emotional times with her the last few weeks, but she is finally coming back around to her happy go lucky self. Please continue to pray for her. She has a lot of therapy to go before she will be back up on her feet. She too is excited about the baby. I dropped some more pens by the house yesterday. I hope Phillip is happy now that he has one of his own. If you need more let me know and I can get some this weekend when we head back to Owensboro to visit Ray's dad in the hospital. Well better get busy. Take care. Love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USE - Wednesday, September 21, 2005 6:38 AM CDT

Well it is about time you let the cat out of the bag. Nana really has a hard time keeping those kinds of secrets and she just kind of swells up the longer she has to keep it in. We all know nothing will ever replace Ryan. But this one will be just as special and will see if we can't make them just as rotten. Love you guy's and will talk to you later.
unclePopbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 5:07 AM CDT

Thank goodness, anyone that knows me can testify as to how hard it is for me to not tell something!!! I am so glad the baby news is out. My kids like to torture me by saying, "I am going to tell you something and you have to promise not to tell anyone." You might as well take food and drink away from me, I am miserable trying to keep it in. Well, enough of that!!! I am so happy and looking forward to becoming a Nana again. Dozens of grandchildren could never replace our little Buddy or any of the others, but babies are such a blessing. Please continue to pray for our family and all of the other CB families. Pray for our troops in Iraq and on the Gulf Coast. Remember the victims of Katrina, Ophelia, and Rita.

Happy Fall.

Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, September 21, 2005 2:01 AM CDT

CONGRATS! Baby news is always great news! Glad to hear you enjoyed the concert. May God Bless you always.
Jennifer and Zack Attack
bremerton, wa - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 10:36 PM CDT

Wow, what wonderful news! I am so happy for you. It really brings a tear to my eye to think about your new little gift. I hope the pregnancy goes well for you and that you are feeling okay. I check in every couple of days still and think of your family often.

Mercy Me is an awesome band. And like someone else said, "I Can Only Imagine" is an incredible song that just brings me to my knees. Glad you enjoyed the concert.

Take care!
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO 63031 - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 10:07 PM CDT

Congratulations! I'm excited to hear that you are expecting a new little person! :) I hope Elizabeth is doing better and getting over what she had the last few weeks. I'm glad you both had a great time at the concert. It's okay to get out and have some fun and to smile. You have to...I believe it helps heal and brings peace. And of course, I have to let you know that I think of Ryan often - every day, and he will forever be in my heart! There are so many things that I do and see throughout the day that makes me think of him. I have a 5 year old son and 3 year old daughter and I have taught them to say...'guess what?' 'stinky butt' They got such a kick out of that the first time I said it. I think they were in a bit of shock. :0 But now, they say it all the time and think it's just the silliest thing. {{{{{HUGS!}}}}
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 9:34 PM CDT

aww man let me tell u guy congration on being pregant im really happy for you guys. I know ya had a hard last few months im always here for u guys i was going to go see coldplay sunday nite but i went to the titans game that morning so i was tired but i had tickets hope u guys enjoy the show see ya next time ya out the eagles let me know call me 270-881-0918 that my cell next time ya in town and let me know when ya be up so we can meet up talk to u soon sorry i havent been on or signed the questbook talk to u guys later love ya Wes.
wes <wesdaman05@charter.net>
hoptown, ky - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 9:32 PM CDT

HELLO TO YOU ALL, I HOPE THIS NEXT HURRICANE COMING DOESN'T CAUSE YOU ANY PROBLEM DOWN THERE. THE WEATHER IN THE GULF AREA HAS BEEN REALLY SOMETHING LATELY. AUNT CAROL FAYE,IF YOU READ THIS, LET US KNOW YOU AND AUNT HELEN ARE OK..ANN, YOU AND PHILLIP AND ELIZABETH ARE ALWAYS ON MY MIND AND IN MY PRAYERS. I REALLY LIKE MERCY ME, THIER SONGS SURE DO TOUCH. I FIND MYSELF PAYING SO MUCH MORE ATTENTION TO BUMBLE BEES LATELY. I GUESS I FIND MYSELF PAYING MORE ATTENTION TO A LOT OF THINGS. I GUESS AGE DOES THAT, AS WELL AS KNOWING GOD DOESN'T PROMISE US ANOTHER DAY. LOOKIN FORWARD TO FAMILY REUNION TIME TO SEE YOU ALL. I LOVE YOU

AUNT CAROL <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Tuesday, September 20, 2005 4:03 PM CDT

Thinking of you always!! Glad you had a great time at the concert :)

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 11:16 AM CDT

Hi Guys,

I missed checking on you while we were away. Hawaii was just beautiful. We had such a great time together. Hope that you guys have a good week.

We got some SUPER, terrific news yesterday. Clean scans and NO more chemo!!! Devin starts his 5 year countdown today. Its been a long 2 years.

Always thinking of you,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 20, 2005 8:25 AM CDT

Talked to nan last night and she told me that you guy's had a real good time at the concert. It is good to hear that you two shared some quality time together, but Andrea you probably could have had a really good time if you would have left the old man at home. He probably wanted to sing along and act all kinds of goofey and have fun, and laugh and cut up, you know all those things you do at concerts. Tell all I said Hi when you talk to them, Tell Todd we are proud of him and will miss him while he is gone. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 20, 2005 5:15 AM CDT

I really like Mercy Me. I think that everyone could relate to their songs. I hope you had a great time at the concert. I still think of you guys everyday and continue to pray for your family.
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO USA - Tuesday, September 20, 2005 0:35 AM CDT

Just a quick msg to let you know that I'm thinking of you today. Sending you lots of {{{{HUGS}}}} today!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Monday, September 19, 2005 2:03 PM CDT

Always praying an dthinking of you.

Keep Believing!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, September 19, 2005 10:42 AM CDT

Hope you enjoyed your night out at the concert. I'm praying that God gives you some good moments today & everyday.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Monday, September 19, 2005 10:24 AM CDT

Hello , i was just checking in to say that i think about Ryan and the family quite often, i am always looking at the site for updates on how you all are doing. You are in my prayers. Lynika (Dot 6 Clinic)
Lynika <lynika.l.adams@vanderbilt.edu>
Nashville, Tn Davidson - Monday, September 19, 2005 8:15 AM CDT

Hey Ryan's clan, hope things are well. Miss you guy's a bunch and was thinking about my little buddy all weekend. Hope Kelly and Andy didn't get blowed away out there. Love ya and talk to ya later.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 19, 2005 6:24 AM CDT

Hello Phillip and Andrea, just wanted to say that the lyrics a really touching and hit home about lil Ryan...I pray for you two all the time. Take care, Ill come visit when Im back visiting my brother Nate and Kris. Take care you guys..

Love Always
Andrea Jeanne Halsey
Andrea Halsey <Cutecuttergirl15@hotmail.com>
Olympia , Wa USA - Monday, September 19, 2005 0:05 AM CDT

We stop by daily to see how you are doing. We enjoy the songs by Mercy Me as well. The song "I Can Only Imagine" brings tears to my eyes. I bet for you it does too because along with coming face to face with GOD, but with Ryan as well!!!
May God Bless your family and provide all the strength you need until that wonderful Blessed day arrives when you are all FINALLY together again, F O R E V E R ! ! ! ! !

God Bless!!! And hang in there :)

Janis Goehner <JanisGoehner@Hotmail.com>
Lakeville, MN USA - Sunday, September 18, 2005 9:11 PM CDT

You all are always in my thoughts & prayers. May God send you every blessing He knows you need every day.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Sunday, September 18, 2005 7:24 PM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you and your family.

Thank you Ryan..
We miss you.

I will always be Believing!!

Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Sunday, September 18, 2005 6:45 PM CDT

Andrea and Phillip...the words from the songs are beautiful, I can see how they mean so much...hoping you both enjoy ColdPlay tonight...always thinking of you guys...keeping you in my prayers....
Hey Ryan...you know I'm thinking about you too buddy...sending you hugs in heaven sweetie.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Sunday, September 18, 2005 6:19 PM CDT

Phillip & Andrea,
Checking in regularly, appreciate the updates. Hope to stop by and visit soon.
Rachel McLamb <rachel.mclamb@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Sunday, September 18, 2005 2:45 PM CDT

Annie and Phillip,

Just wanted to let you know that the Cold Play concert was FABULOUS!!! It was by far, the best produced concert we have seen (except for Prince, that is!). Chris and the band sounded better than on their CD's (if you can believe that), and he was so nice and "down-to-earth. He mentioned being excited to play in Nashville the next evening. Hope you guys enjoy the show as much as we did. You deserve some fun time together!!!!

Love, hugs, and prayers for you all!!!!!!!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Sunday, September 18, 2005 1:29 PM CDT

I love MercyMe! There is another song I think you could really be blessed by. It is "healing Rain" by Michael W. Smith. I hope you can hear it sometime. I think about Angel Ryan and all of you daily. May God bless all of you with peace and love!
Rhea
Topeka, Kansas USA - Sunday, September 18, 2005 5:54 AM CDT

Thinking of you & your angel Ryan....free of pain & challenging his kindergarten teacher in Heaven to keep up with him. Hope you have a great time at the concert. Hang in there, guys!
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Saturday, September 17, 2005 10:22 PM CDT

Hi! I really like the lyrics! My prayers are with you all.
***********************HUGS*********************************
Kaley <Buttercupkaney1@aol.com>
Sulphur, LA USA - Saturday, September 17, 2005 3:05 PM CDT

Hugs and oodles of prayers!
Love
Mary, Mike Slade and the kids <mar-e@rogers.com>
Guelph, Ontario, Canada - Saturday, September 17, 2005 1:44 PM CDT

Just a quick msg to let you know that I'm thinking of you and wish you both an awesome time at the concert tomorrow evening! I hope Elizabeth is feeling better. I think of Ryan every day and he will forever be in my heart. (((((HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Saturday, September 17, 2005 10:51 AM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you and your family. May the Lord give you strength everyday.

Keep Believing!!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Saturday, September 17, 2005 9:17 AM CDT

LOVE the lyrics! I think of all of you every day. Prayers for peace in your heart and strenght to get through the days.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Friday, September 16, 2005 9:14 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know that I still think about you and Ryan on a daily basis. I hope the whole family is doing good. Our prayers are with you.
Mary Dicus <arcticcat_27@yahoo.com>
Fort Campbell, Ky - Friday, September 16, 2005 6:08 PM CDT

Hello all. Praying for you....for courage, strength, serenity....all of which will probably come & go for the time being, but eventually settle in for the majority of the time. It's the being patient that is so difficult. But in God's time, it will be there for you. Keep the strong faith that has gotten you this far. God will not abandon you. Still wishing I could have met Ryan, but in reading the journal entries I get a sense of how very special he was & still is. God bless.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Friday, September 16, 2005 11:31 AM CDT

I hope you all have a good weekend and enjoy the concert. I'll be thinking of you all. I'm still jelous you get to see ColdPlay and I don't. With Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana , MO - Friday, September 16, 2005 10:06 AM CDT

Andrea. Phillip and Elizabeth,
Just wanted to stop in to say hello. I know there will be good days and bad days in the future and for unexplained reasons. Continue expressing your feelings in the journal. God will continue to give you strength to get through the good days and the bad days. I think that the journal writing will be good for you and it lets us know how you are really doing. I'll stop by in a few days. Love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, September 16, 2005 9:26 AM CDT

Andy introduced me to another wife that came here from Ft. Campbell earlier this year. Noah told her about his friend, Ryan. The surprising thing was that she already knew about him!! Apparently, a friend of hers from Ft. Campbell forwarded an e-mail to her about your little Buddy. She said she has been thinking about you since. It never stops to amaze me just how far Ryan's love has traveled.

We love and miss you!!
Kelly Mackrell <mommymack@earthlink.net>
Ft. Bragg , NC USA!!! - Friday, September 16, 2005 8:48 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Grandma Sherry, and All,

I just stopped by to take another look at the beautiful picture of Ryan on the homepage. I think of him, and of you all, often.

I am glad you are finding some comfort in Christian music. The writings of Madeleine L'Engle always help me, when I am in bereavement, or working through some difficult experience. She continues to live and write, but is now in her 80's. She has written autobiographical material, children's and adolescent literature, poetry, devotional booklets, and novels. You should be able to locate many of her things in your public library.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Nothing loved is ever lost or perished.

~Madeleine L'Engle, in her Newberry Honor Book, A Ring of Endless Light
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Friday, September 16, 2005 8:03 AM CDT

Always thinking of you, your family and your adorable Angel Ryan. May the Lord always be with you and help you. HUGD and KISSES!!

Miss you a lot Ryan

Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, September 16, 2005 7:33 AM CDT

Andrea,
Thinking of you and your family always. I love the song lyrics and I just may have to go out and buy the cd.
God Bless,
Karen
Leahs mommy forever
Karen James <pkkl916@hotmail.com>
Livonia, MI - Friday, September 16, 2005 6:23 AM CDT

You are courageous and kind. Thank you.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Thursday, September 15, 2005 10:13 PM CDT

Hey Andrea:

Thinking of you and your adorable Angel Boy. Beautiful lyrics.

Annemarie, m/o Ross
www.caringbridge.com/ny/rossmanhattan
Anne Saputo <annesaputo@aol.com>
New York, NY - Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:34 PM CDT

Hey Guys!!
Sorry I haven't "talked" to you in so long. School/Work has been very overwhelming and I just can't seem to find the time for anything. I know this is no excuse, just wanted to explain my "absence". Even though we have been busy, we have been thinking about you and Ryan constantly. Alex wrote a beautiful story about Ryan in class. She wrote about how special he was and how she can't wait to see him again.

Guess what?? We are attending the Cold Play concert here in St. Louis on Sat. evening! Hopefully, they won't get to worn out by putting on a GREAT show for us, therefore, lacking in luster for your show on Sun.!!!!

Praying for you all! Hugs and Kisses for all!!!
Debbie Kessler <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Thursday, September 15, 2005 6:13 PM CDT

Just want you to know that I'm thinking of you and I'm praying for you and your family. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, September 15, 2005 1:10 PM CDT

Sending much love, prayers & thoughts of your being surrounded by peace. Have a blast at the concert!!
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Thursday, September 15, 2005 12:16 AM CDT

I want you to know that I haven't forgotten Ryan nor you nor the rest of your family. I'm going to keep praying.
Susan Hight <hights3@yahoo.com>
Snellville, GA USA - Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:23 AM CDT

Awesome songs! We have the CD and love it!
Always thinking of you guys and keeping you in my prayers!

Big hugs to you all.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL usa - Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:19 AM CDT

Hi guys always thinking and praying for you.

Always thinking about Ryan.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:12 AM CDT

Just checking in with you guys. It's good to hear you're getting out and about. I hope Elizabeth is feeling better. Have fun this weekend! With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 9:26 PM CDT

I just wanted to check in with you guys. I check on you quite often but, never can find the words to type. I think of you all of the time.I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain in some way. Please know how much we all love you and are praying for you. I will check back soon.
Christie Sitton <christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Campbell, KY 42223 - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:16 PM CDT

I love MercyMe also. I love listening to 'Jesus' music (that's what Cameron calls it). It changes my mood. God is the best support system. I feel like He's the only one that I can talk to sometimes. He knows what I need before I tell Him. I think about Ryan alot and your whole family (even Nana!) Please know that you are in our prayers.

Cameron�s mom

Carla <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:25 PM CDT

Andrea

I found your website while visiting Leah James' website. I pray for peace and comfort for you and all of the families who have walked this path. I am sure that Ryan and Leah are up in heaven smiling down on their families and are finally cancer free. Peace and Comfort
Stephanie <neppy@wideopenwest.com>
canton, mi usa - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 1:19 PM CDT

I think music can be a great healer...so glad to hear you are finding songs that speak to your hearts. Have a great time at the concert on Sunday!! They are in St. Louis on Sat. Wish we could go but Roy's sister is getting married this weekend and duty calls!
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 12:31 AM CDT

I am so jelous of you, I love ColdPlay. That is one CD I can list to over and over and never get sick of the songs. I got it after I say a preview for Peter Pan last year and love every song on th disc. Every time I hear Fix You I think of Ryan. I hope you enjoy the concert. I'll talk to you later, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:35 AM CDT

Just stopping by to let you know we think of you guys daily, and pray for peace and comfort for your family.

Kathy and Rob Brady (Peyton's Granny & Rocky) <kathybrady1@yahoo.com>
granbury, TX us - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:07 AM CDT

Hi, Andrea and Phillip,
It's been a while since I've signed. I just usually don't know what to say except I love you all. Hang in there. Lean on God. I love the Mercy Me songs, too, but Natalie Grant's song HELD is the one that really touches my heart right now. I'll send it to you.

Love,
Aunt Susan <susanself@sbcglobal.net>
- Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:36 AM CDT

I am sorry to hear about your tough days, but know he is always with you even though you can't see him. Always remember that we have you in our hearts and prayers. I will pray for better days ahead. I hope you have a great day t the concert.

Miss you Ryan!

Keep Believing!!!

Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, September 14, 2005 7:27 AM CDT

Hey Ryan's clan, glad to see that the songs you found helped some. Every little bit adds up to help get by. Enjoyed my talk with Phillip the other evening and it is good to hear from Kelly and Andy, have them to tell my little buddy Noah I said Hi. Enjoy your concert and remember I am always here for you guy's. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 14, 2005 5:03 AM CDT

I'm sorry to hear that Monday was so bad. I know that a good day can turn for no apparent reason. You are in my thoughts and prayers. We miss you so much. I have to smile every time Natalie says "yeah, uh-huh." Every day there is something like that to remind me of what is important. Thanks for helping me to remember that. Have fun at your concert this weekend...I wish we could be there.

Love,
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 8:33 PM CDT

While losing my husband 12 days ago is nothing compared to your loss of your son, I'm finding that if I try very hard to focus on the beauty of God's world it seems to help me. Today I saw a gorgeous bright red cardinal on the pear tree in my back yard. A hummingbird flitted by so fast I almost missed it. And the most enormous neon yellow butterfly hovered around me for almost 5 minutes. I have a thing for butterflies, since they are the symbol of a new beginning. Perhaps that was my Bob hovering to let me know that his beginning is fine & that I will find mine, too. I choose to believe. Still praying for the healing that will come in time to your family, but it just seems to be so slow. I have such a wonderful support system all around me & I'm glad you do, too. It helps me a lot. And I can literally feel God's loving arms supporting me while I try to handle my grief & go on. I pray you feel it.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, th - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 8:30 PM CDT

Hey Guys!!! Just checking in to say I Love You all very much!!! You need to tell everyone to go to Chili's the month of Sept. You can buy a Chili and the proceedes go to St Jude's. Also, 100% of all profits on Sept 26th go to st. Jude's too. If everyone goes there on that day, imagine how much money will be donated to try to cure this beast!!!! I wasn't sure if you heard about that or not.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!
PRAYING TOMORROW WILL BE A GOOD DAY FOR YOU ALL!!!
Forever Aunt Meme
St Peters, Mo USA - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 8:27 PM CDT

Andrea,

I stop by here often to check up on you and to say a little prayer for you, for Phillip, for Elizabeth and, of course, for Ryan. If we didn't beelieve, we would have nothing, right? As always, I pray that each day you adjust to this new normal, the normal without the physical presence of Ryan, but with the knowledge that he's always right by your side and that one day you will see him again and you will hold him tight in your arms.
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Springfield, PA - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

Just to let you know that I stopped by the website and to let you and your family know that I'm thinking about them. The picture of Ryan on the main page is a good one. Glad to hear that Elizabeth got good results from her test. Wishing you a good week.
Lynn
TN - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 11:15 AM CDT

Thinking of you all and keeping you in our prayers. Glad sister is doing better. XOXOXO.
Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 8:31 AM CDT

Always thinking of you. Prayers and hugs going your way...

Keep Believing!!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 8:18 AM CDT

Thinking of you today - hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs and more hugs!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, September 13, 2005 7:29 AM CDT

Just stopping by to send love, hugs & prayers to all of you. Hope Sissy's feeling better, & that you, Andrea & Phillip, are having some good moments thinking about our little buddy & the happiness he brought to everybody.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Monday, September 12, 2005 3:23 PM CDT

MY prayers nadn thoughts are with you. I am glad for the good news I hope she is feeling better and better. I hope you had a nice weekend it was beautiful outside. Well take care family.

Keep Believing
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Monday, September 12, 2005 11:54 AM CDT

I just thought I'd let you know we have been thinking of you. We are into our house, and we can't wait for your visit. Kiss Elizabeth for us. Andrew has been missing her a great deal. I'll be in touch.
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Bragg, NC USA!!! - Monday, September 12, 2005 11:13 AM CDT

Hey Ryan's bunch, just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you's. Hope the weekend was good and that you enjoyed your trip. I am sure you visited the cemetary and told our little buddy how much we missed him. Wished you could have came to the family day but I didn't have much time to visit, was a pretty busy day and I am sure glad it is over with. Read where Mrs. linda experienced her first 4wheeler ride, seems she was a little skeptical, needs to come down so we can take her on a good ride in the hills and bottoms, after that she will be hooked. Love you guy's and hope you didn't let those aunts get their hands on sissy over the weekend and spoil her some more. Haven't heard from BJ so don't know what his unit is doing in New Orleans but I am sure he is busy. Talk to ya later
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 12, 2005 10:47 AM CDT

Good news for Elizabeth! Prayers are awesome!

Thought of you all over the weekend! Went 4 wheeling (at the ripe age of 48 and for the first time!) on Saturday. I was a little hesitant about doing it but I remember reading about all the fun that Ryan and family had doing it.. I figured if a child can do it - I can do it! 1/2 right there -- a child CAN do it -- old ladies....better to stay standing with 2 feet on the ground! :-) Will I do it again? Probably! :-)

Big hugs out to the rest of you. Always in my thoughts and prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <Secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Monday, September 12, 2005 8:10 AM CDT

I was just thinking about Ryan today as I was painting the treehouse in the backyard. My boys were "helping" and I just wanted to finish but then I just let 'em. So, now, my boys have brown spotty skin but they had a good time. I just want you to know that Ryan's journey has impacted ours. Thanks again for the reminder to play with our kids.
Shelly Van B <jayandshel@msn.com>
reno , nv - Sunday, September 11, 2005 4:41 PM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, and All,

I continue of think of sweet Ryan, and of you all. I know you must ache every day, but some day, you will be with him again, never to part.

God bless you all!

In the sure and certain hope, and with my love,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Sunday, September 11, 2005 4:25 PM CDT

Stopping by to give Elizabeth some "feel better" hugs and smiles. I hope that yesterday wasn't too difficult for all of you. You are still in my prayers each day.
Candy Belanger - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02@msn.com http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm>
Livonia , Michigan XOXOXOXOXOXO - Sunday, September 11, 2005 2:52 PM CDT

Sending lots of hugs for Ryan & your family.....along with the constant prayers. Extra prayers for little Sissy's tests.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Sunday, September 11, 2005 12:28 AM CDT

Thinking of Ryan this morning as always - I pray that he sends you and your family more signs to let you know he is watching over you. I hope that you are doing well and I continue to pray for you and your family. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Sunday, September 11, 2005 8:49 AM CDT

Always praying for you. I am so glad to hear that Elizabeth's test have turned out positive.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Saturday, September 10, 2005 3:26 PM CDT

Thinking of all of your family so much today, which is bound to be a difficult one. I pray that God's strength continues to help you get through each hour. I'm so relieved to hear of Sissy's test results & praying that she will be herself soon. I imagine that in some ways these past two months have been the longest of your life, without being able to cuddle & smell your precious Ryan. (I always thought that the smell of my little boys' hair reminded me of a warm birds nest.) The sweet memories you have of that darling child are mingled with the grief of the unbelievable loss you have borne. But you have made it through 2 months, as difficult as it has been. That is something to hold on to. One hour at a time, my dear Andrea, Phillip & Elizabeth. I continue to pray for God's grace & peace to enfold you.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Saturday, September 10, 2005 2:03 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, Sissy and family, extra prayers for you today. Two months can seem so long sometimes. It feels like an eternity, yet as a mom I know that it seems like only yesterday my boys were babies. It seems in life that pain lasts so much longer and is so much stronger than happiness. I pray that God will ease your daily struggles of life without Ryan here. And that you will always feel Ryan's presence around you. You are great parents, and you taught Ryan the strength love has, he will never leave your hearts, your souls, or your lives.
Loving, remembering, honoring, bee-lieving....

Colleen
Colleen Cosby <Colleen.Cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Saturday, September 10, 2005 11:10 AM CDT

I'm so glad to read Elizabeths tests turned out good. I'm sorry she is still vomiting. Give her a big hug from us. Hugs,thoughts,and prayers, Angelique and girls

www.caringbridge.org/oh/harleiparker
angelique parker <pfloyd326@yahoo.com>
ohio - Saturday, September 10, 2005 8:54 AM CDT

Wonderful news!!! Will continue to pray for the entire family. Thinking of you always....hugs from Michigan.

Lisa
Macomb, MI - Saturday, September 10, 2005 8:28 AM CDT

Phillip & Andrea,
We still keep you in our prayers, it is good news to hear the Elizabeth is doing better. We will pray for her recovery. Thanks for updating the website like you do!
Chad & Brenda Hunley <bcsquared@bellsouth.net>
Clarksville, TN USA - Saturday, September 10, 2005 8:09 AM CDT

Good to hear they didn't find anything serious with sissy. I still think she just needs more m&m's and alot less of her aunt's cause they just spoil her. hope yesterday went well at the zoo and you have a good weekend. love you guy's.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 10, 2005 6:09 AM CDT

I'm glad that you all had a great weekend, Anne, Phillip, sissy and Ryan, you all are always in my thoughts, not a day goes by that I don't think of you all. I LOVE YOU ALL very much. I hope to see you soon. Love PaPa D
Dad <djw101046@sbcglobal.net>
Eldon, Mo USA - Friday, September 9, 2005 8:31 PM CDT

Philip, Andrea, and Elizabeth,
I am sooo sorry to hear of your loss. I feel terrible that I have not kept in touch more often. Now that I have a son of my own I cannot imagine what it would feel like to be in your shoes. PLease let me know if there is anything I can do for you and your family!
Trisha Jones <troberts1@hotmail.com>
Macon, MO USA - Friday, September 9, 2005 7:20 PM CDT

Andrea - thank you for the update. Just a quick note to let you know I continue to pray for you and your family and Ryan is always in my thoughts, everyday, throughout the day. {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Friday, September 9, 2005 3:53 PM CDT

Still praying for your entire family, which obviously includes Ryan. He will always be there. And like so many others who never had the privilege of actually meeting him, I fell in love with him & the rest of your family from reading the guestbook & all of your journal entries, seeing the precious photos of both him & Elizabeth. Your most recent entry was excellent. Sometimes we just don't know how to express our feelings, thus we unintentionally say or do something hurtful. Your guidelines have really helped. May God's strength continue to guide your lives. Hoping to learn of Sissy's test results & praying that it is something minor. (I just know that Ryan has already become teacher's pet up there in kindergarten!)
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Friday, September 9, 2005 1:21 PM CDT

Just wanted to tell you all that I am still here thinking and praying for you all. You are all in my heart and you have made me look at my life and children in a completely different light. Lots of Love,
The Hammond Family <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Friday, September 9, 2005 11:16 AM CDT

I just want you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers everyday along with Ryan. Ryan touched my life in so many ways along with your family. Just know that I will always think of you, Ryan and your family. May the Lord help you and your family with strength, courage and blessings,

Keep Believing!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, September 9, 2005 8:40 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth
Just stopped by to let you know I have been thinking about you a great deal this week. I stopped by the house on Monday but didn't get an answer. I did leave a little something for you Andrea, hope you liked it. Ray and I found these things this weekend when we were in Owensboro and of course I thought about Ryan. Ryan continues to be a main thought in my day. Please know you all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, September 9, 2005 6:47 AM CDT

I went to the Zoo on Tuesday (my last day of
vacation) and, of course, thought of Ryan while
I was there.
Praying for Sissy!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 8, 2005 6:35 PM CDT

Hi Brown Family,
I wish I had some inspiring words for you but I am going thru exactly the same feelings as you. It is a terrible thing and no parents should ever have to go thru this. Praying for peace for both of us and that we get some very evident signs from our angels. Hugs to you!
Karen
Forever Leah's mommy
www.leahsjourney.com
Karen James <pkkl916@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, September 8, 2005 2:41 PM CDT

Thinking of you and sending hugs your way. Thanks for the updates. I'll be checking in again soon to see how Elizabeth is doing. Hope she's doing better.

Love to you all
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Thursday, September 8, 2005 12:44 AM CDT

Ryan will always be remembered. He brought and through your updates still brings a lot of sunshine to people. He is a very special young man. Your whole family has touched my life in a way that humbles me. I truly believe and KNOW that we will all meet up in heaven together someday.

Keeping you all close in my thoughts and prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, September 8, 2005 11:53 AM CDT

Andrea just know that Ryan will NEVER be forgotten. He has touched our lives in a way that couldn't possibly be forgotten! I have the family picture you sent last Christmas...I have it by Cheyenne's pictures and Melissa's and Brittany's....we may never have met face to face...however the connection is as real as can be....I continue to pray for you and your family and will keep dear Elizabeth in my prayers for good results!! God Bless.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Thursday, September 8, 2005 11:26 AM CDT

Andrea, Thank you for posting that. I had read it before and have thought of you guys each time. Know that Ryan couldn't be forgotten if we tried! For a little guy he made a HUGE impact. He has been on my mind a lot as we go through "Childhood Cancer Awareness" month. As I start my "mission" to deluge any and all politicians with questions on the funding for more research, Ryan is in the fore thought of all my actions, and soon all my local politicians will know his name as well! You have been an inspiration to me as a parent. Thank you. God Bless you and Phillip, Sissy, Nana, and Meme and the boys!

Always Bee-lieving.....
Colleen, Michael, Conner, and Bennet
The Cosby's <Colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA - Thursday, September 8, 2005 11:13 AM CDT

Your family and ryan are always in my thoughts and prayers. May the Lord shower youwith non stop blessings from head to toe.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, Va - Thursday, September 8, 2005 10:31 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth,
Hoping sisters test come back ok and that she gets to the road of recovery soon. She is such a beautiful girl. Hope you guys have a great time at the ZOO take us some pictures so we can see this Hippo. We love all of you all and are keeping you in our prayers. Love and hugs to all.
Jody
- Thursday, September 8, 2005 8:56 AM CDT

Andrea, after reading your journal today I found that I am guilty of a few things. When I write that you are in my thought I guess I should say that Ryan is also. At night when I pray I don't just pray for your family but I have a little talk with Ryan as well. I tell him I hope he is having fun and that we are helping him look out for his family. I talk to him a lot in the course of the day in my thoughts. I think of you all so many times in the course of each day. I pray for your strength and i know my prayers are working. I will be looking forward to your next journal. Until then please remember I'm thinking of all of you always. With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Thursday, September 8, 2005 8:13 AM CDT

Thanks for the update, and you never have to worry about us forgetting Ryan, can't happen. He had such an impact on all of us and will continue to have for the rest of our lives. We also will never be afraid of saying his name or talking about him because he is still a part of our everyday lives. I can't feel you and Phillips pain, or nana's or sissies, but I know I hurt for you guy's. The bravery and courage that we see from you kid's facing the everyday challanges of life that he is still so much a part of just proves where he got all of his from. He wasn't walking down those hallways with you yesterday, but he was in front of you leading the way. He will always be leading the way when times get rough and will have a hand in each and everything that you guy's do, so he will never be forgotten.

I finally got caught up from the weekend and guess what, the house seems so empty without all you guy's there. Have a good day at the zoo friday with Ryan's Hippo and please be careful while you are traveling. If you want the invitation is still open for family day at the mines Sat. Love you guy's
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 8, 2005 6:52 AM CDT

Thank you so much for sharing with all. Can only imagine how difficult that trip back to the hospital was. I am praying for good news on Elizabeth!!!! Thank you again for reminding us to appreciate all that life puts in front of us and to hug our children and remember what a blessing they are. Hugs from Michigan...
Lisa <lvalent1@ford.com>
Macomb, MI - Thursday, September 8, 2005 5:53 AM CDT

Thinking of all you this morning and praying you have more peace in your hearts, laughter and smiles. I also think of Ryan everyday and visit this web site everyday... {{{{{HUGS}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, September 8, 2005 5:24 AM CDT

Hey there Sis and Bro,
Just checking in and telling you all that I Love You all very much!!! I'm glad you were able to go with us last weekend and I can't wait to see you all again.

STAY STRONG AND KEEP BEELIEVING!!!!
FOREVER AUNT MEME <MKYMSE10@HOTMAIL.COM>
ST PETERS, MO USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 9:33 PM CDT

Andrea:

I was just thinking of you guys and wanted to take the time to stop by and let you know. I am glad to hear you had a nice weekend.

Warmly,
Susan Griffin mommy forever of Jakey Bear
Griffin <@aol.com>
Palm City, FL usa - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 4:39 PM CDT

I went to see Ryan's head stone today on my lunch hour. It is perfect for our little buddy. You all did an awsome job designing it. Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 2:34 PM CDT

To change my last entry - I guess I shouldn't have said devilish - we all know that there are no devils in heaven! :-)

Perhaps Ryan was being a little "impish" over the weekend! OR he was being a typical boy.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 10:36 AM CDT

Are you trying to say that your angel was being a little devilish over the weekend? He's watching everything you do...and I know he'll have his hands in something! :-0

Always keeping your family close in my thoughts and prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 10:26 AM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you!!!!

Keep Believing!!!!!!!
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 10:25 AM CDT

Praying all goes smoothly today, and that all tests come back perfect.
Love to you all, Mary <MaryKitchen@TumbleweedFoundation.org>
- Wednesday, September 7, 2005 6:47 AM CDT

So glad to hear you enjoyed a few smiles over the weekend. I'm certain that Ryan was smiling right along with you. Thanks again for sharing with us. Praying for peace in your heart and a few smiles each day. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Wednesday, September 7, 2005 6:30 AM CDT

Love you guy's. Hope sissy's test today go good.Let us know what you find out. I think she just needs some more m&m's.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 7, 2005 5:19 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, I am so sorry to learn of your loss of Ryan. My friend's daughter, Claire Tatom, also had a glioma and passed away July 4th. It's been very difficult to see the sadness on Claire's mommy's face. My heart aches for all the mommies who had to lose their babies to this disease.
Joani Wagner <joani.wagner@insightbb.com>
Fortville, IN USA - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 10:29 PM CDT

It sure sounds like you had a great holiday weekend! How wonderful for you all. Lots of laughter heals the soul. Still praying for you. Hope all goes well with the rest of Sissy's tests. Thanks for the update, Andrea.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 5:57 PM CDT

Sounds like a great weekend filled with laughs and special memories. How wonderful it is to know that Ryan is making his presence known so you never have to feel you are going on without him!
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 2:43 PM CDT

Hi there, I'm glad to hear you had a pretty good weekend. I thought about you all a lot this weekend, I was hoping that you all were enjoying the long weekend. Take care and I'll write later, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 1:33 PM CDT

Thinking of you today. {{{{HUGS}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 8:39 AM CDT

Hello Gang,
It was soo good to see all of you. I loved my time with all of you but especially with Elizabeth and Ashton, they are such good babies. I hope Elizabeth is feeling better. I am glad you all had a good time and although we did not have Ryan there physically, he was there spiritually. I could see him in Elizabeth's eyes and in her actions, especially in that smile that shines of mischief just like his always did. I can't wait to see you all again. Love to all.
Jody
Boss, MO - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 8:37 AM CDT

Just a reminder that I am thinking and praying for your family.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 8:23 AM CDT

Hey Ryan's clan. It was really good to have all of you here this weekend. I had alot of fun and enjoyed each and every minute. The atv rodeo was kind of hard at first but I am really proud of you guy's the way you handled it. When the little boy next to us was named Ryan we all were a little apprehensive at first. But it went well and I am glad Phillip had such a good time, even if he did beat me on my own four wheeler. Sunday was a new experience for most of the crowd, and we still had fun. I also believe my little buddy had a big hand in getting everybody wet, even in the tipping of meme and mikes canoe. He just used Daddy and my physical bodies to do it. It was good to see everybody laugh. And thank you Jody for watching the two babies so the mom's and dad's could go and have fun. Sun night we played UNO and nana kept changing the rules just like someone else liked to do. I still don't know how she escaped the setup but I think some little guy felt sorry for her, plus she caught me looking at her cards since OUR look out let us down. Love ya all and really did enjoy having all of you guy's down. Hope to see ya soon and if you can and want to Sat. is family day at the mines and would really like to see ya there. Love ya
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 6, 2005 6:00 AM CDT

Thinking of you tonight and wanted to check on you. Hope Elizabeth is feeling better. Congratulations to Philip on his promotion. Andrea, we think of you often.
Love, John, Cheri, and Kent Grantz <jcgrantz@alltel.net>
Rineyville, KY USA - Tuesday, September 6, 2005 1:49 AM CDT

I'm thinking of you all and I HOPE that Elizabeth feels better!
Connie(WI Angels/FOA) <conniecalvo@earthlink.net>
San Antonio, tx - Monday, September 5, 2005 11:08 PM CDT

Katrina has reached so many people and devastated too many to even conceive....sorry to hear you all have been effected by it as well...we had lots of leaks last year with the hurricanes and finally found someone to replace the roof....keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers as you face daily struggles without Ryan. Sometimes, when you get close to families and their dear babies...to follow this journey unfold...of pain, fear, hope, and incredible bravery...until the journey ends at heavens gate....and these wonderful families, such as you all...are left with that void that nobody can fill...you feel so helpless...just know the one thing I can do is continue to be supportive, even if it's just through CB...to also always, always remember Ryan and honor him in some way....everyday. Be it through a kind deed or word...Love to all.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
boynton beach, fl usa - Monday, September 5, 2005 5:55 PM CDT

I hope all is going well for you. We have been wishing we were on your float trip because it has been in the fifties here at night. We are leaving in the morning for NC, but I will be checking in on you. We love you.
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Campbell, KY USA - Monday, September 5, 2005 2:22 PM CDT

I have been missing from the guestbook for a while, but have never stopped praying for your family & thinking of you. My husband Bob suffered a massive hemorrhagic stroke on 8/26 & finally peacefully got his wings on 9/1. We are so very grateful to God that he didn't suffer nor linger. So please accept my apologies for the gap in my entries to your guestbook. As you hopefully have experienced, I feel God's loving arms supporting me & am at peace. This is nothing compared to losing a precious child, however. I continue to pray for all of you.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Monday, September 5, 2005 12:44 AM CDT

Always thinking of you and family..I will continue my prayers for you and family.

Keep Believing
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, va - Monday, September 5, 2005 11:52 AM CDT

I was just thinking about you guys so I thought I'd stop by to see how you're doing. I hope that Elizabeth is feeling better now and that you were able to get your roof repaired. I'm so sorry that you have had one thing after another to deal with lately. I'm thinking about you and keeping you in my daily prayers. Ryan is still very much in my heart and in my thoughts each day...he always will be:)
Candy Belanger - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02@msn.com >
Livonia, MI http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm - Sunday, September 4, 2005 11:35 PM CDT

Thinking of you tonight...I pray your pain subsides and smiles of the happy times take over. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa
Macomb, MI - Sunday, September 4, 2005 8:48 PM CDT

I was raised in Clarksville, TN, so know the area...and now live in Missouri. I hope you're doing okay today mom. :) We have a dear friend going through what your son went through....so I'm sending up prayers for you tonight.
Charlotte <charlotte@walsworthsolutions.com>
Trenton, MO - Sunday, September 4, 2005 7:25 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you today. ((((HUGS))))
C olleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Sunday, September 4, 2005 7:00 PM CDT

"...We often think in our short-sightedness that gifts are only those things that make us feel good. We can sometimes wish to ignore the Cross, which is far from pleasant, but is nevertheless God's love for us spilling out and enveloping us all. What a gift." ~Alaric Lewis, O.S.B.

Dear Brown Family,

I am continuing to remember sweet Ryan and to think of you all.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Sunday, September 4, 2005 11:51 AM CDT

Still thinking and praying for your family.
Joe and Liz O'Donnell <eodonnell1@kc.rr.com>
Gardner, KS United States - Sunday, September 4, 2005 8:32 AM CDT

You will always be in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers. May the Lord continue to give you alot of blessings.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Saturday, September 3, 2005 11:03 PM CDT

sending love
mrs pam <?preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 3, 2005 5:35 PM CDT

Dear Phillip, Andrea & Elizabeth,
You were right about Ryan's headstone being so special - - it is just perfect. For anyone that isn't familiar with Fairview Cemetery, it is a beautiful and peaceful country cemetery that is very well maintained. My parents and grandson are also buried there and I always gain a sense of peace and comfort when visiting there, so I hope your family also experiences that as time goes on.
I am still checking your website daily and have all of you in my thoughts and prayers often.
Love,
Janet
Janet <l-f-f@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Saturday, September 3, 2005 4:37 PM CDT

Please accept the condolences of (Yamaha) Star Riders Chapter 132, St. Louis, Missouri. The word of Ryan's passing has been told to our chapter as we prepare for the upcoming 'Ride for Kids'. Our thoughts and prayers go with you in the days ahead - may God give you peace and comfort - we know that He has Ryan in a safe place.
David Bryan <davidalanb@att.net>
- Saturday, September 3, 2005 3:31 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillp and Elizabeth
I just wanted to stop in and let you know you were in my thoughts and prayers today and everday. I too have my good days and bad days with all that has happened, but I know Ryan is in a better place and is playing with Becca, my little Angel and having a pain free time. I am so thankful Ryan and your family entered my life and feel I will be a better person because of that relationship. I am in Owensboro, KY and have been since Wednesday. Ray's dad had open heart surgery on Thrusday and it was not as successful as we had hoped. There have been a lot of complications since the surgery and we are not sure what the final outcome will be at this point. It is all in God's hands. Please keep us in your prayers as it is a very difficult time for us. Please remember Linda Tune who signs the guestbook at times from Franklin, Tn. She lost her husband yesterday from a brain hemmoragh. He was 76 years old. Well I guess I'd better go. I decided to take advantage of being able to sign the guestbook while I could. We love you guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Saturday, September 3, 2005 10:20 AM CDT

Thinking of you today. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Saturday, September 3, 2005 6:55 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I just thought I would let you know that I continue to think of Ryan, and of all of you. May God bless each one of you!

I remembered Ryan beneath the Jesus and the Children stained glass window, at St. George's Episcopal Church, here in Clifton Park, on Thursday night. I pray for several other children there, including Connor Hunley, Cheyenne Fiveash, Ian Davideit, Michaela Brewster, and now Jason Archer. May God bless them all!

May God also bless all of the people in New Orleans, and in other places hard hit by Hurricane Katrina, and all of those involved in rescue, medical care, recovery, feeding, counseling, and rebuilding.

Beneath my signature, I will add the collect for this weekend.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Grant us, O Lord, to trust in you with all our hearts; for you always resist the proud who confide in their own strength, so you never forsake those who make their boast in your mercy; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit; one God, now and for ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, September 3, 2005 2:53 AM CDT

Hello Browns,

Just stopping by to say hi. Glad that you guys are safe. We are headed to Hawaii in the morning. Hope to have a relaxing week soaking up the sun!!

Always thinking of you guys,

The Ross Family
Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 2, 2005 11:27 PM CDT

Just wanted you to know that I am still praying for you.
Pat Jernigan <roypatj@aol.com>
Columbus, GA USA - Friday, September 2, 2005 10:30 PM CDT

Hugs and oodles of prayers being sent to you all from Canada!
Love
Mary, Mike Slade and the kids <mar-e@rogers.com>
Guelph, Ontario, Canada - Friday, September 2, 2005 2:59 PM CDT

Dear Angel Ryan's Family,

This poem brought me a lot of comfort during a recent bereavement and I hope i'm not being presumptious in sharing it with you. I just hope it brings you a little bit of comfort. I am holding your family in my prayers.

I�m Free

Don�t grieve for me, for now I�m free
I�m following the path God has laid you see.
I took His hand when I heard him call
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work, to play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that peace at the close of day.

If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss
Oh yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life�s been full, I savored much
Good friends, good times, a loved one�s touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don�t lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts and peace to thee
God wanted me now; He set me free.

~Author Unknown~

With Love, Hugs and Prayers,
~Emma
Emma <star_heartuk@yahoo.co.uk>
UK - Friday, September 2, 2005 2:54 PM CDT

I just want you all to know that we are still praying for you all. What a beautiful poem, read and re-read it when you have your weak moments. All our love,
The Hammond Family <katy.hammond@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Friday, September 2, 2005 1:34 PM CDT

wishing you nothing but the best. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Friday, September 2, 2005 11:13 AM CDT

Thinking and praying for you always!!!

Ryan, buddy I miss so much true I never met you in person, but I feel like I have known you all my life. A piece of my heart disappear when I found out about you and that you were gone. I never got a chance to send you anything, but I promise I will send items to the other kids fighting this awful desease in you honor.

Andrea, Phillip, Elizabeth, Mema, and family,

You will always be in our thoughts and prayers, our family knows your pain we went threw it a number of times and we know how hard it is. Please just trust in God he is the only one that can help us. I pray that he caress you and your family with blessing and help you threw this journey that you just begun.

I hope that Elizabeth is feeling better.

KEEP BELIEVING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take care
Crickenberger's, Mldonado's, Fuentes, Aceituno, Alonzo and Rodriguez <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, September 2, 2005 8:37 AM CDT

Thinking of you all.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, September 2, 2005 7:48 AM CDT

I miss you already. We are at my mom's house, and Natalie is looking for Elizabeth. Noah is on a mission. He has informed his entire family that they need to save pop tabs for Ryan and his teacher. Thanks for all of your help this week. Kiss Elizabeth for me.
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Campbell, KY USA!!! - Friday, September 2, 2005 6:58 AM CDT

This morning I would like to ask for a special gift in memory of my Grandson, Ryan Douglas Brown. I am asking everyone and I mean everyone to do something to get involved and help those less fortunate in Alabama, Mississippi and Louisiana. Organize a clothing drive, or a food drive, or send a check to an organization that is helping there. Here in Louisiana, Missouri I hear there is an eighteen-wheeler being loaded with food and supplies. I heard about it last night. We are a small town of around 3,500 to 4,000 people and I know that truck will soon fill up. So in memory of Ryan get involved. I know there has been destruction all the way up to Kentucky and I know if Ryan was physically with us, he would want something to be done to help the small children that are now without proper nourishment and clothing. If you have a pile of clothing that you have been saving for a yard sale, now is the time to donate them to people that have literally lost everything. Do what you can and God will reward you for it.

Continue to pray for our family, for our troops in foreign fields and now pray that the people of the United States of America will step up and do the right thing for those less fortunate.

Elizabeth, Mema hopes you get to feeling better real soon. I love you and miss you. You are such a sweetheart. Andrea and Phillip, I know this bug Elizabeth has is wearing you out. Be strong and remember you have a lot of family and friends praying for you. Stay strong. And last but not least, Ryan, I love you and miss you, too. Thank you for the way you make my heart flutter as I think about you. The poem that was sent yesterday, in Ryan's Guestbook, was beautiful. Thank you.
Mema <pattycapp44@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO US - Friday, September 2, 2005 6:16 AM CDT

Prayers for your family. Thank you for your writings.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Thursday, September 1, 2005 10:37 PM CDT

I just wanted to stop by and let you know I was thinking about your family. I know how hard this time is for your family. You are in my prayers.

Love,

Diana, Mother of Angel Katherine (DPG)
Diana Cross, http://www.caringbridge.org/tx/katherinecross/ <diana@houston.rr.com>
Houston, TX - Thursday, September 1, 2005 10:06 PM CDT

Thinking of you. {{{{HUGS}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, September 1, 2005 8:08 PM CDT

Thinking of you guys, love you all.
PaPa D <djw101046@sbcglobal.net>
Eldon, Mo. USA - Thursday, September 1, 2005 7:51 PM CDT

Praying for you.
June <junehumphrey@yahoo.com>
Goodlettsville, TN, God Bless The USA! - Thursday, September 1, 2005 1:54 PM CDT

Hey guys! It was so nice to visit with Phillip this weekend. I would've loved to see Elizabeth & Andrea too. I hope your roof gets fixed soon. As always, you're in my prayers.
Kayla Walker <kayla_w2003@yahoo.com>
Bowling Green, MO - Thursday, September 1, 2005 1:48 PM CDT

Praying for you and your precious baby girl. May your days be filled with beautiful memories of your dear Ryan. My heart breaks for you.
Friends in Christ,
Leslie Ellenburg
Leslie - Mom to Jared and Katie <leslieellenburg@wmconnect.cm>
Greeneville, TN - Thursday, September 1, 2005 12:03 AM CDT

I'll Be There

Daddy please don't look so sad,

Momma please don't cry,

Cause I am in the arms of Jesus and

He sings me lullabies.

Please try not to question God,

Don't think He is unkind.

Don't think He sent me to you,

And then He changed His mind.

You see, I am a Special Child,

And I am needed up above,

I'm the special gift you gave Him,

The product of your love.

I'll always be there with you,

And watch the sky at night

Find the brightest star that's gleaming,

That's my halo's brilliant light

You'll see me in the morning frost,

That mists your windowpane.

That's me, in the summer showers,

I'll be dancing in the rain.

When you feel a gentle breeze,

From a gentle wind that blows,

That's me, I'll be there, Planting a kiss on your nose.

When you see a child playing,

And your heart feels a little tug,

That's me, I'll be there, giving your heart a hug.

So, daddy, please don't look so sad,

Mommy don't you cry.

I'm in the arms of Jesus,

and He sings me lullabies.

~Author Unknown~

I Miss you a lot "chicken butt"

May the Lord continue give you strength to help you in your time of need.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, September 1, 2005 9:34 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
I hope sister is feeling better soon, I hate her being sick. I am glad your roof is still holding under the pressure. B.J. has been activated to go to Lousiana and will leave Tuesday for 30 days to help the victims and the clean up. I would like to wish the best of luck and love to the Mackerall family you have been a blessing to this family and we are so glad to know that you were there with Andrea and Phillip when we could not always be. Thank you for that Kelly, Andy, Noah and Natalie. As Andrea asked please pray for the troops not only over seas but here at home helping the Hurricane victims who also really need our prayers. Love to you all and hope to see you soon. Hugs and kisses to Elizabeth.
Jody
- Thursday, September 1, 2005 8:14 AM CDT

I'm glad to hear you all are doing ok with the storms. I was starting to get worried when you hadn't updated for a few days. I hope Elizabeth starts feeling better soon. Take care and we love you all!

Ashley <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Thursday, September 1, 2005 8:12 AM CDT

May God bless you all and help you thru this difficult time. I don't know you but found you thru another caring bridge site. I check on you daily and pray for you. Let God be your strength and comfort.
Murphy's <rmnmurphy@wmconnect.com>
SC - Thursday, September 1, 2005 6:52 AM CDT

Psalms To Use During Bereavement:

16:5-11, 23, 27, 42:1-7, 46, 90:1-12, 106:1-5, 116, 121, 130, and 139:1-11

Dear Phillip, Andrea, Elizabeth, Grandma Sherry, and All,

The above is a list of Psalms I read, when I am in bereavement. I hope it may be of help to you.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Thursday, September 1, 2005 3:30 AM CDT

Just stopping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers!
Love from a friend of Maddie's.

Liz Shay <lshay90@aol.com>
mpls, mn usa - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 11:23 PM CDT

Love you guy's, and it is hi and dry here so pack up and let it blow. Aunt Carol was right you know, we haven't lost Ryan because we know exactly where he is at. And someday we will be able to hear all his stories and he will confess to all the fun he has had playing little tricks on us. Love ya and see ya soon.
ps. BJ is on his way to La. to help with the flood victims, his unit ships tues.
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:45 PM CDT

I need to make on more entry tonight. Recently there was a guestbook entry made in Ryan's guestbook by Sam's Nana. Sam was diagnosed with a DPG in July 2005. So many of you know the horror of what Sam's family is going through at this point in their life. So, instead of emailing each of you individually, I am sending out a plea to the caring bridge families to visit Sam at www.caringbridge.org/visit/samwalsdorf and embrace them the way you have embraced our family. For all of Ryan's family, friends, and followers, please visit Sam. Include Sam in your prayers and let his family know we are there for them. Sam is five years old and was supposed to start kindergarten Aug. 22, just a few weeks after Ryan would have started. Maybe Sam is our miracle.

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:44 PM CDT

Love you, miss you, see you later.
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:12 PM CDT

hope the roof doesn't leak too much!
thinking of you all with love and
of course
prayers
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 31, 2005 8:33 PM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
Once again I have found a place that will allow me to get on the guestbook. I too will miss Noah as he was my one connection daily with our little buddy. When he came by today to tell me goodbye for one last time I really had to hold back the tears because I didn't want to upset him or the other kids at school. I use to rub his head just like I did Ryan's. I was so glad to get a chance to see you yesterday. I am sorry I have not been great about coming by. Scooter being in cast has really put a dent in my travels. When I leave school I feel like I have to get right home to releave my Mom. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers daily. As I tod you yesterday we are doing something at school to honor Ryan and will get back with you soon on that. Remember I love you guys.
Ms. Sharon <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USA - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 8:07 PM CDT

I have checked on you guys off and on for a while now! I am praying that you all will be protected during the bad weather!!!!

www.elishahenderson.com
mary <zoehappyheart@hotmail.com>
Euless, TX USA - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 6:04 PM CDT

Hugs from Canada!
Elizabeth,
I lost both of my brothers and now it's just me and my parents. so although I don't know how your parents feel I sure do know how you feel. It's just not a lot of fun being an only child is it? So this is a special hug from one sad sibling to another.
Tracey
Edmonton, AB Canada - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 4:33 PM CDT

We miss you Ryan!!!

Devin
My site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 31, 2005 4:02 PM CDT

Just wanted you to know we think of you and your sweet Ryan often and you and your family are in our prayers. I stop by often and ((hug)) Ryan. My heart is with you and your family.
Jennifer Erwin <graciebaby28@yahoo.com>
Ft Campbell, Ky 42223 - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 3:52 PM CDT

Just wanted you to know I'm praying for you. I think of Ryan often. Thanks again for sharing him with us.
Shelly Van B..... <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 12:48 AM CDT

Thinking of your family.
The Stringfellow Family
CA - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 11:24 AM CDT

praying, remembering, crying, loving, bee-lieving..

hugs to all of you!

Colleen, Michael, Conner and B-nut!
Colleen Cosby <colleen.cosby@usbank.com>
St Peters, MO USA!!! - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 11:22 AM CDT

Hello Brown Family, It's Lynn. I haven't done an entry since before Ryan passed. I was on vacation when Ryan passed. I'm so sorry for your loss! Ryan is pain free in Heaven. I read the journal entries yesterday about the services. It sounds like they were beautiful. Sherry your entry from yesterday just broke my heart. I'm sure all of your hearts have a constant ache. Angela, Thank God for Elizaabeth! You have to be strong for her and I'm sure she keeps you busy. Phillip, congrats on your promotion. I will be keeping all of you in my Prayers!
Lynn
TN - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 11:22 AM CDT

Hi Adndrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth,

Just thinking and praying for you to let you know you will always in my hearts and thoughts. May the Lord and Angels be with you to help you with your pain to let you know Ryan is okay.

I miss you so much baby boy, that if I would be able to trade places with you I would. I hope you know how much you have change our lives you always be miss. I will always pray for peace and your family's hearts without you.

Congrats Phillip.

Chris, Alma, Abel, Emilio, and Emmanuel <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:10 AM CDT

Thinking of you today. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 9:05 AM CDT

Dear Andrea, Phil, Elizabeth, and All,

I am thinking of Ryan, and of you all, on the last day of August. God bless you all!

Below my signature, I will add the collect for the day, as St. Aiden of Lindisfarne is one of my favorites.

Grace, peace, love, and the hope of Heaven,

~Colette~

Collect For Feast Of St. Aiden Of Lindisfarne,
Missionary, Abbot, and Bishop, 31 August 651

O loving God, who called your servant Aidan from the peace of a cloister to re-establish the Christian mission in northern England, and gave him the gifts of gentleness, simplicity, and strength: Grant that we, following his example, may use what you have given us for the relief of human need, and may persevere in commending the saving Gospel of our Redeemer Jesus Christ; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.

Gratefully. Faithfully. Peacefully.
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A, - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 6:04 AM CDT

My thoughts and prayers are with your family; I know there aren't words that can touch the pain you're feeling right now. I hope that you won't have any more damage from the storms; the damage from Katrina is truly catastrophic. I hope your little Elizabeth is feeling better soon; a cold can really make little ones feel miserable.
Denise Ward <deniward@shaw.ca>
Winnipeg, Canada - Wednesday, August 31, 2005 1:49 AM CDT

Hi Andrea & Phillip,
I stop by often but I don't sign in. You guys are never far from my thoughts and in my prayers. Glad to hear that you met my friend (your neighbor) Tammy. Hope to see you again soon.
Rachel McLamb <rachel.mclamb@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 9:59 PM CDT

Hi Andrea,

I often want to leave a message and can't think of what to say. I really feel like the families we meet through caringbridge, especially the one's with the same tumor, are personal friends. I miss Ryan.

My husband and I were in Ft. Bragg (my daughter was born there) when he was in the Army. It was nice.

Please hang in there. If you want to get away to Connecticut you know you have a friend. (There's not much to do here but eat!)
Cameron�s mom

Carla <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 8:05 PM CDT

Just checking in on you and sending love and hugs to you all.

Adam wants me to be sure you know he's thinking of you and is sending you hugs too. He's finally opening up and talking about Ryan. He looks at his soccer picture often and has snapshots out from the trophy nights so he can remember all the fun they had those nights. He didn't get to spend much time with Ryan but misses him dearly.

Phillip,
Congratulations! We're so proud of you.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 6:55 PM CDT

HI EVERYONE! JUST STOPPING IN TO SAY HELLO AND I LOVE YOU.
THE SALESMAN NANA BOUGHT HER CAR FROM TODAY TOLD ME YOU AND PHILLIP WERE WITH HER HERE SAT. HE DIDN'T EXACTALLY SAY IT WAS YOU HE SAID THE ONE WHO LOST THEIR BABY. I THOUGHT LATER..THEY DIDN'T LOSE HIM! THEY KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT WHERE HE IS! MAYBE THEY LOST THE EVERDAY PHYSICAL WALK AND TALK AND TOUCH THAT THEY HAD WHEN HE WAS HERE WITH THEM BUT
AS FAR AS LOSING HIM....NO WAY! IT IS SO COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT YOU KNOW, THAT YOU KNOW, THAT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHERE HE IS AND NO LONGER IN PAIN AND HAVE THE PROMISE THAT SOME DAY YOU WILL BE REUNITED. PRAISE GOD FOR THAT PROMISE! I FEEL SAD FOR PEOPLE WHO DO LOSE LOVED ONES AND DON'T KNOW FOR SURE WHERE THEY ARE AT, OR HAVE THE ASSURANCE THAT THEY WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN IN A PLACE OF PERFECT LOVE. HE WILL ALWAYS BE NEAR AND DEAR TO EVERYONE WHO KNEW AND LOVED HIM. HIS LIGHT LIVES ON IN ELIZABETH AND IN YOUR HEARTS, AND IN THE HEARTS OF ALL WHO CAME IN CONTACT WITH HIM. I WILL HAVE TO SAY, THE BOY HAD AND STILL HAS, A MAGNETIC PERSONALITY. I BELIEVE WHEN YOU DO THE ALBUMS FOR ELIZABETH THAT THAT PERSONALITY WILL SHINE THROUGH THE PAGES AND MAYBE SHE WON'T REMEMBER HIM, BUT SHE WILL FEEL HIM AND HIS LOVE FOR HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS.
Aunt Carol <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 30, 2005 5:59 PM CDT

No words today, just prayers for you and your family. Hugs from Michigan.
Lisa <ltvalente@comcast.net>
Macomb, MI - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 4:19 PM CDT

Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you today and always. My prayers are always with you and I always smile when I think of Ryan. He will forever be in our hearts! {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 1:55 PM CDT

Sherry my heartbreaks for what you are all going through. Your words speak volumes...I'm glad you found the grieving grandparents group....to have others you can realte to and share your grief with...that understand exactly where you are coming from. I think of Andrea and Phillip and you everyday. Ryan was just an amazing child. His legacy is him...his memories....still will never completley understand...why. Just know Ryan's name will be spoken often, he will never be forgotten.

Congratulations Phillip. I know Ryan is so very proud of you as well. God Bless.
Kathy-mom to David
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 12:06 AM CDT

Scattered words and empty thoughts
seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
seems I don't know where to start
But it's now that I feel your grace fall like rain
from every fingertip, washing away my pain

Though the questions still fog up my mind
with promises I still seem to bear
even when answers slowly unwind
it's my heart I see you prepare

The only place I can go is into your arms
where I throw to you my feeble prayers
in brokenness I can see that this was your will for me
help me to know you are near

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe

I Still Believe by Jeremy Camp

Praying that God's grace falls like rain on all of Ryan's family and loved ones that love him and miss him so, so much.
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 11:46 AM CDT

I thought I had sent my entry this morning but my computer went down and it doesn't look like it got sent. I just wanted to write you a little note to say HELLO and to let you know that I was thinking about you all. I hope the storms aren't too bad where you are. It looks like on the weather that you all are getting some of the effects of hurricane katrina. Stay safe! Love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana,, MO - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 10:49 AM CDT

Thank you Mema,

For sharing those wonderful memories in meant so much. I never met him in life, but with everything I have read I feel like I had known him his entire life.

Keep those memories coming, I would like to know more about Ryan and how fun he was. I can imagine him doing the same things in heaven.

Andrea,

I will pray for you to get the strength to continue on. Please remember the good moments only not the bad ones. I am sure he is looking down on you to take care of you in his sister and Daddy.

Andrea and Phillip,

My mom is 65 years old she lost 12 children in a period of some years. She lost 4 boys ages 9yrs, 7yrs, 4yrs and 2-1/2 yrs and 8 girls ages ranging from 2-5 yrs of age. I was telling her about you and Ryan she started crying, because I reminded her of her losses. She told me things to tell you.

She said to concentrate on the good memories not on the bad. They might fade with time.
Right a journal of everything you remember, a book even as long as you have everything in writing, but only the good memories.
Do a scrapbook of him and Elizabeth for her to see it when she is older.
She also said you don't have to change his room you can leave it the way it is for as long as you want to or need to, it will help you with time.
SHE REMINDED ME AGAIN TO LET YOU KNOW TO PLEASE CONCENTRATE ON THE GOOD MEMORIES ONLY TRY TO FORGET THE BAD ONEs. SHE KNOWS ITS HARD, BUT JUST TO MAKE AN EFFORT WITH TIME IT WILL PAY OF.

I know why she says its important, my mom tried to tell us about our brothers, but all she can remember is when they were passing and when my 9yr old brother told her he didn't want to die. Oh She also remember when my 7 yr old brother was playing with rocks, but this is the only good memory she has. So Its hard on me as their sister, I don't know how they, were what they like, or anything so I can't even tell my sons about their uncles and aunts. Thats hard not knowing, because we didn't even get a chance to meet them. I also ask myself why them and not me. She said it might not happen to you, but why risk it.

She knows how difficult this time is for you, she is glad you have Mema to rely on. (my mom's mom die when she was 12yrs old)
My mom also knows that the pain of loosing a child stays with you until the end of your days, she doesn't want to say the pain will get better. The pain will always be the same, but you will find and learn ways of handling it by the grace of God and family. You are always going to cry in silence and at any moment when you are alone, when you see something that reminds you of him, or just sitting, around doing nothing or doing everything to keep you busy, you will always cry in the outside or inside. The pain will always be there, but is up to you and with the help of God to decide how to handle it.

Andrea,

My mom mention that she will pray for you as grieving mother to another to find the strength from inside to go on for your daughter and husband. You might not know it, but your the glue of your family with out you it can fall apart. You were bless to have Ryan for 5 years, I wish like everyone else that it would of been more, but God had a plan and who can say no to that. He chose you for this wonderful Angel to love him, take care of him, adore him, because he knew you have a wonderful heart and family.

God knows why things happen the way they do, we don't, so we are left with why's and a lot of pain. I know, because I ask everyday why children they just starter life, but I will never get a straight answer, no one will. So all we can do is pray for his guidance in our life, because he will always show us the right path to take in this difficult times.

Just know that are family knows your pain specially my mother. With tears in our eyes we tell you that we will always have you in our hearts, thought and prayers. Wishing the Ryan continues to give you signs so you know everyday his okay.

May the Lord caress you and your family every second of your lives.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 10:19 AM CDT

Dear Phil, Andrea, and Elizabeth,

What a wonderful tribute from Mema! I am glad she, Grandma Sherry, and all of you, have wonderful memories of a dear little boy, who now dwells, in wonder and joy, with God.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Tuesday, August 30, 2005 5:16 AM CDT

Thinking of you guys today. With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Monday, August 29, 2005 8:48 PM CDT

Hey It's us again We decided to share the little saying with everyone if it's ok?
TIDES Of LIFE By Dan Wiley
At the beach when the tide is going out, and the waves recede and it seems that nothing is happening in the sea. But the truth is that great swells are gathering strenght beneath the waters, building energy for the time when the tide will return..
It is similiar to times in our own lives when something we have depended on is gone and we are left with a feeling of emptiness and sadness.
At times like this we can take heart knowing that an unseen strenght is building within us. And if we can only be patient, relying on a sure faith, the tide of life will turn, and happiness and fulfillment will once again return to us. Maybe you or someone can find solace in this, I know I did when I needed to.
Mary and Steve
Mary and Steve schutz <ablkdurango@wmconnect.com>
Puyallup, Wa USA usa - Monday, August 29, 2005 8:26 PM CDT

I have tried for almost 4 weeks to get this page to download so We could sign the guest book. I think the web site is very busy and today I was fotunate to be allowed a simple slot to sign. That should tell you how much Ryan (God bless him) and you all mean to every one. Andrea and Phillip and Elizabeth I sent you a little poem type thing I hope you recieved it and in some small way it helped. Sherry, your entry was very powerful, I sat and cried as I read it (the 26th I think)God bless you. Mary and Steve Seattle, Wa.
Mary Venturi_Schutz <ablkdurango@wmconnect.com>
Puyallup, Wa usa - Monday, August 29, 2005 8:05 PM CDT

Hi guys,
I think of you constantly and miss both you and our little man. Pat's letter reflects so much of what goes on with all of us every day, there are constant reminders of Ryan and the thoughts of times we spent with him, good times, happy times, great lifetime memories, as simple as many of them were, a water gun fight, a grin on his face, a joke he would play on us. I think about those good times daily but my heart still cries in the intense pain of my grief.

Now we have the future to look forward to, our pain will never leave us but we will keep those wonderful memories of our dear Ryan forever. We will always love him to heaven and back and back again. We love both of you and you know how much I adore our darling little Elizabeth! I pray for your family to continue to grow emotionally and spiritually.

Love you see you later
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Monday, August 29, 2005 7:45 PM CDT

What an awesome letter from Mema Pat, I still think when you see him next he will say "guess what" and his answer will be "chicken butt", with that sly little smile and that gleam in his eyes that let you know that he was thinking of what to come up with next. He was such a character and as Pat said so full of life and energy even towards the end. I can still hear his giggle as he runs over people with his jeep or he has the neighbor boy yelling "mayday mayday we have went to far" as they take a wild jeep ride. Ryan was so special to all of us and is so dearly missed. We continue to love him and miss him and pray daily for comfort for Andrea and Phillip, and sister. We love you guys and hope to see you soon. Give our hugs and kisses to Elizabeth.
Jody <garryp@centurytel.net>
- Monday, August 29, 2005 3:12 PM CDT

Every day I think of Ryan. And everyday I pray for you and your family and ask God to continue to show you his love and give you the strength to get through the day. {{{{{HUGS}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Monday, August 29, 2005 2:37 PM CDT

My work schedule has changed, so I am not able to get online as often anymore but we are still thinking of your family and praying for you all the time.
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Monday, August 29, 2005 2:11 PM CDT

Oh Nana! I know exactly what you are saying. I remember sitting in the hospital cafeteria with my son, shortly after his daughter had been diagnosed with CCSK (www.caringbridge.org/tx/peytonwhite). The surgeon (who we have not so affectionately named "Dr. Doom and Gloom) had told us that she had never seen a tumor like this, and she doubted my granddaughter would be alive in two years. Anyway, my son was obviously frantic and stressed to the max., and I said, "Son, for every other 'disaster' in your life, I could always find a way to 'fix it.' My mind and heart and soul (as his Mother) know there is no way I can fix this for you. If I could, I would tear that child out of her bed, and put myself there in her place in a heart beat. But I can't. It breaks my heart, but we are just going to have to leave this one to God. A year later, and with "No Evidence of Disease" at this moment, I still feel the very same way. Not only do we have to watch our grandchildren go through all of this, but we watch our precious children suffer and worry. All I can do - and I know you feel exactly the same way - is to be there for them for anything and everything they need......when they cry, when they pray, when they hold their babies through the vomiting, and the fear of needles, and the fear of strange medical personnel, and the list goes on and on. Thank you for putting all of those feelings in writing so eloquently. Nobody expects to be nursing their children through this god awful disease. We are all thrust into this world with very little warning, and we stumble about and just do the best we can. Please know that we think about your family, and include them in our prayers each and every day. Kathy & Rob Brady (Peyton's Granny and Rocky)
Kathy and Rob Brady <kathybrady1@yahoo.com>
Granbury, TX usa - Monday, August 29, 2005 1:12 PM CDT

Just wanted to check in and let you all know that you are still in our thoughts and prayers always. May God Bless you and bring you peace. The Landry's
Stacie Landry <stacielandry772@hotmail.com>
Maryland Heights , MO USA - Monday, August 29, 2005 10:45 AM CDT

What an awesome letter from mema pat. I know now where Phillip gets his way with words from. I could feel her love for Ryan in every word she wrote. We all miss him, the grandparents and the parents, the aunts and uncles and all the extended family he brought into your lives. But we know he is safe in Gods arms now and watching everything we say and do. He will be there waiting on us to tell us all the things he has discovered and to show us around in that special way he has. Love you guy's and really hope to see you soon.
unclePOPbill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 29, 2005 5:09 AM CDT

Phil, Andrea and Elizabeth,

I was lying on the couch this evening, it was around 10:15, just waiting for the news to end so I could go to bed. As I lay there, I thought man I don�t want to go to bed. That is when the crying starts. I think I have cried myself to sleep every night since our Ryan went to Heaven. I lie there and think about him lying in that cold, cold ground, alone without us, and the tears roll. After a while, I settle down and remember that he is not in that cold, cold ground and he is not alone. He is with all the other children that have gone on before him and he is having the time of his life. Eventually, I drop off to sleep.

Tonight as I went to bed, and yes, Phil, I am hugging that stuffed animal you gave me with Ryan�s shirt on it, I decided I was going to think about the happy times we had together. After all, that is the advice I have been giving you all for almost two months now. Anyway, about the time that thought struck me, I heard a train whistle. That train whistle immediately brought back a pleasant memory for me. When Ryan would get up in the morning and we would sit at the kitchen table, him eating his cereal, me drinking coffee, he would hear the train whistle. He would jump up out of the chair and immediately demand that we go see the train. Here I am not dressed, still in my pajamas, my hair is not combed, my teeth have not been cleaned, I have no shoes on, but he is ready to immediately chase to the riverfront to see the train.

After settling him back into his chair with a promise that we will go see the train after he eats his breakfast and I have time to get dressed, we head off down to the river. We get down there and naturally that train he heard has already passed by. But we walk around down there and he throws rocks or sticks or whatever he picks up into the river. I sit on a bench and watch him as he plays. The sun has come up and is shining on the river and I have always had the thought that I don�t think there is any prettier setting than that particular place down by the river. Here I am sitting with God in all his Glory with my grandson throwing rocks in the river. I had Heaven right there on earth. I know if we hang around down there for a while and there is no hurry to get back home that another train will come by. And sure enough, he hears the whistle and it is almost like he is standing at attention. He stands very quiet and watches as each and every car passes by. When the train has cleared the track, then he is ready to walk back home to see if Papa is out of bed.

Ryan loved to walk. He and I and Papa would walk every evening. He would run ahead of us and I would yell to him not to cross the street. He would wait for us at the end of the block and he would hold out his arms like he was a crossing guard. He would look both ways and then tell us it was all right to cross. He never got tired. We never had to carry him back. He liked to walk and he liked to go in different directions. We always let him choose the route and he could always find his way back to our house. Always full of energy.

Another of the favorite memories I have is racing around my living room coffee table with Ryan. He would get out his bag of cars and he would divide them up between me and himself. I would end up with three of the sorriest looking cars you have ever seen and he would have fifteen or twenty of the best looking cars on the lot. We would then commence the race. He would always have to lead the way and I was never allowed to pass him, thus he was always the winner. We would race around the coffee table and then park them in a straight line. He spent a lot of time making sure each and every car was lined up with the bumpers in a straight line. Then he would choose a new car and around the table we would go again. On my hands and knees, we would circle the coffee table and as with the first car, he would be the winner. We would do this until each and every one of his cars had won the race.

One day, I remember, he found out he could ride the skateboard. He would place the skateboard at the top of the sidewalk and would sit down on it and propel himself down the incline on the sidewalk. He did that for over a year, but then one day he discovered he could stand up on it but he needed a propeller and that happened to be his Mema. He wasn�t satisfied with the short sidewalk in the back of the house. He discovered the long sidewalk out front. He would stand on the skateboard and I would pull him up and down the sidewalk.

Ryan and I played ball one day until he nearly wore me out. He would hit the ball and then try to help me catch it. If he happened to hit it any distance, he would run like he was running around the bases. I believe that one day when he would not give up, he was so tired, so sick, but would not give up will be in my memory forever and forever. He had the strength of Hercules that day and would not let anything spoil the day for him. I begged him time and time again to sit for a while, but there was no sitting. He had a game of ball to play and he was going to play, and play we did.

I thought about the time we went to Chuckie Cheese. He was so excited. We sat down to eat pizza and he would take a bite and be off to play a game. Every now and then he would come back, take a bite of pizza, and off he would run again. Such energy. We had to follow him around because he would win tickets but then go off on to the next game and just leave his tickets hanging there. I don�t remember how many tickets he ended up with but he had a wad of them. Didn�t think I would ever get them run through the machine for him to cash them in. He was on steroids at that time and I just couldn�t understand how he could move so fast and with such energy. I was thoroughly done for by the end of the day.

I remember his telephone calls. He would say �Mema, guess what?� I would say, �What?� He would answer �Chicken butt.� Never quite understood where this came from but that was standard conversation with us at some point in our telephone talk. He would ramble on and on and then he would just drop the telephone after stating, �Love you, miss you, see you later.� The telephone might lie there several minutes before you all would realize he wasn�t on the telephone anymore. He would be off watching cartoons and I�m sitting there waiting for someone to either come back on the line or to hang up the telephone. And, he always asked to talk to Papa at which point he would ramble on and on.

I remember the day he road his bicycle and showed me where his school was. As I lay there thinking about that, my thought was he will never graduate from school. But he is in Heaven with Jesus and he is being taught by the best. He is eating from the Tree of Knowledge and he is learning everything he needs to know. He is not alone there in school as we know there are little ones that have gone on before him. He loved to sing and I can just imagine him singing in the choir. Those beautiful little voices blending together making lovely music for everyone to hear. I can still hear him singing Sweet Home Alabama in the back seat of his car. I loved the nursery rhymes he would sing. He knew them by heart and loved to have everyone in the car sing along with him.

I have the memory of him being so gentle and kind with Elizabeth. We would try to get her to give him a kiss and she would just smack at his face. He never cried out. He would just reach for her and try to kiss her. He would have made a wonderful big brother and we all know that he is not only still her big brother but also her guardian angel now.

There are other memories I have. I miss him so much and as I prayed for a miracle for Ryan I also prayed that God would take me too. But God did not have that plan for me. I have other grandchildren on this earth that need me and love me as much as Ryan did. I do know, though, that when my time comes to go to Heaven that he will be there with his arms open wide, running to me, shouting, �Hi, Mema, I love you, I�ve missed you, welcome Home.� I can�t wait. I am so pleased that he has a home in Heaven that it takes away some of the pain. I will never forget him. I will always feel the pain of losing him, but I will have my memories, not only those I have mentioned, but many, many more.

I am tired of crying, although I will never stop completely, but I will try to follow my own advice and think about the good memories I have instead of dwelling on something I cannot change. It was God�s plan for Ryan�s life and we does have the final say. I pray that you too will find some comfort in the memories you have of him and I know those memories include those days of pain and torment, as I do remember those also. But remember the happy days, the trips you were able to take, the days at the beach, holidays with family, trips to Wal-Mart, many others, all these God has given to you to remember, to cherish, and to hold dear to your heart. I love you guys, remember that also.

Mema <pattycapp44@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO US - Monday, August 29, 2005 0:36 AM CDT

My heart goes out to you, and your family. Your precious little Ryan was so courageous. We have a 5 yr. old grandson, Sam, with DPG and undergoing radiation. It is such a terrible disease. My prayers are with you for peace, knowing you did everything you could for him.

Mary Walsdorf <walsdorf@msn.com>
Longmont, CO USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 11:03 PM CDT

I am so sorry for your families loss.... your story brought tears to my eyes, and i am off to kiss my little one.. god bless

hailee

melissa <angels4hailee@cox.net>
cavecreek, az u - Sunday, August 28, 2005 8:32 PM CDT

Thinking of you today. Sending you love and {{{{HUGS}}}}!
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Sunday, August 28, 2005 7:47 PM CDT

Thank you for your writings. Prayers for strength.
Corella Thorbeck <cthorbeck@aol.com>
Plymouth, MN - Sunday, August 28, 2005 7:12 PM CDT

Just thinking of you and Ryan and wanted to let you know that. You all are always on my mind and in my prayers. Hugs from Michigan!

Lisa Valente <lvalent1@ford.com>
Macomb, MI - Sunday, August 28, 2005 6:16 PM CDT

Natalie is looking for "Fup." We are going to miss all of you so much. Although we will not be close in miles, you will always be in my thoughts. Thanks for everything this week. I hope this weekend went well for you.
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Campbell, KY USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 4:35 PM CDT

Andrea and Phillip, I am sorry I haven't posted in a while. My husband has been home for R&R and we have been spending lots of time together. I have checked on you almost everyday but haven't had the words to type anything. You are always in my heart and prayers.Congratulations Phillip- I do not know anyone more deserving of that rank more than you.I was going to bring my husband by one day to meet you but, I just don't know when a good time would be.We love you and are always thinking of you.
The Sitton's <Christiesitton@aol.com>
Ft Campbell, KY USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 1:41 PM CDT

Congatulations Phillip. I am so proud of you! I think of your family each and every day. I pray that God will comfort you and keep you in his care. Thank you so much for letting me be a part of Ryan's life. If there's anything I can do to help you, I am here. I will continue to pray for your entire family.
Tina L. Tomlinson <tinaltomlinson@hotmail.com>
Herndon, KY USA - Sunday, August 28, 2005 1:28 PM CDT

Congrats. Phillip, it's about time you got the recognition for the fine young man that you are. You and aannie have so much to be proud of and Ryan would be very proud of you both, just like all of us are. I had another visitor yesterday, and it just made me smile when I thought of how often the little fart lets us know he is still withus, even if it is in a different form. The pesky little guy didn't want to get off the 4wheeler even though it wasn't moving anymore. I could just picture him sitting there waiting on the next ride.Like someone else said on the guest book, don't be afraid to go into his room and sit and play with him and sissy. She would enjoy it and so would he. It is good to see so many people still want to be a part of you kid's lives and visit and honor both you guy's and Ryan by stopping by the web site and signing in, it was also good to see the crazy dream lady was back. Love ya and hope to be able to see ya soon.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 28, 2005 7:18 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I just want you to know that I am thinking of you, and of Ryan, today.

I notice that Colleen Farmer, from Michigan, sends you {HUGS} every day. What a wonderful person she must be! God bless her and all of you.

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

The Collect For This Weekend, From The Book Of Common Prayer:

Lord of all power and might, the author and giver of all good things: Graft in our hearts the love of your Name; increase in us true religion; nourish us with all goodness; and bring forth in us the fruit of good works; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God for ever and ever. Amen.
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Saturday, August 27, 2005 9:24 PM CDT

Just to let you know that I am thinking of you and your family and that I will continue praying for peace in your hearts. I will never forget Ryan he will always be in my heart and thoughts along with your family.

May the Lord and Ryan always let you know he is okay.

Alma, Abel, Emilio, and Emmanuel
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Saturday, August 27, 2005 8:55 PM CDT

Phillip, Andrea and Elizabeth,
First congratulations to Phillip, Ryan would have been so proud of his daddy, you were a hero in his eyes. Andrea, my heart breaks when I know that your pain is so great and that there is nothing any of us can do. All we can do is continue to support you,love you and pray that one day it gets easier. You, Phillip and sister are in our prays daily and sometimes hourly when we know you are having a particularly bad day. I hope sister is feeling better. Nana we love you. We miss you all and look forward to seeing you soon.XOXOXOXO.
Jody and Emily
- Saturday, August 27, 2005 8:49 PM CDT

It's been a couple of weeks since I've signed; always checking in but knowing that it is not possible for ME to have the right words. I do know that someday you will all find a new "normal"; never the same but able to go one. I am praying for you in the meantime.
Kelley Williams <kelleywms@hotmail.com>
Franklin, TN USA - Saturday, August 27, 2005 3:03 PM CDT

Philip and Andrea,
I know its hard to lose a loved one and try and make it day by day knowing that that little special someone isnt here living with us anymore. Hes in your hearts and our hearts and if we keep believing that he is here with us it will make things easier. I know it hard when u loved them sooo much but it was the best for him. God does what is right for everyone and for ryan to go to heaven was the right thing to do so he wouldnt have to suffer thru all of that pain. Its hard on us to go day by day without him but hes in a safe place. Its hard to think about whats he doing up there and how the angels are treating him. I think about him all the day and the others that have lost their lives becuase of cancer, car wrecks or just illness. Someone told me befor my grandma died, that my grandpa was sooner or later coming to get my grandma and on her birthday she died. Just the things that people tell us are sometimes true and we will have to believe it. Its sad to lose that special someone, its sad to watch ur mother die in a wreck, its sad to see your little boy is dying, all of these is sad but it happends for a good reason and that good reason will show up sooner or later. Moving on is hard but u have to try! All of the things that ryan did were fun and great and just go to his room and sit down and play with his toys and maybe he will appear and start talking to you. You cant give up on him, hes in your hearts.. Keep Believing!
Unknown <monkeygirl0888@hotmail.com>
MO Usa - Saturday, August 27, 2005 1:49 PM CDT

We're sorry you're all hurting so much. Praying for you all.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, August 27, 2005 10:07 AM CDT

Nana, You don't know me. I learned of your family through reading a guestbook entry from an adult friend's caringbridge page. I felt compelled to send some words your way. No words will take away the pain, but I'm hopeful that words from many will help support you thru this time. So glad you joined a support group. That's so important. Your words regarding your inability to meet your daughter in her 'aloneness' touched me. I'm sure you know this, but she needs you to be able to stay above it. We take turns "going down" and most importantly, we need to "stay above" when it's our loved one's turn to dip into the dark and lonely place of grief. You're "staying above" when needed. Allow yourself to "dip" when necessary. That is our only way to heal. God bless you and your family as you honor your little guy by managing thru. You're right, things will never be the way they were, but we can find a new "normal," as long as we allow ourselves to express the grief when necessary. I hope these words provide some thing for you. Again, no words are going to make it better. You are supported. Utilize it when necessary. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
Patty <patty5258@yahoo.com>
concord, ca - Saturday, August 27, 2005 9:37 AM CDT

Thinking of all of you today. I wish I too, could take some of the pain away. I hope you have some comfort and peace today. I'm always thinking of Ryan. Ryan and all of you will forever be in my heart. {{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Saturday, August 27, 2005 8:58 AM CDT

Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you, Give sissy OXOXOXOX lots of them for me. Love you, PaPa D
Denny <djw101046@sbcglobal.net>
Eldon, Mo USA - Friday, August 26, 2005 8:13 PM CDT

So glad all went well with Sherry...please give her my best. Andrea and Phillip, I think of you both often. Ryan is always in my thoughts and prayers......his little antics that you would post, always bring a smile to my face, his memory shines brightly- he surely left a mark in everyone's heart. Hugs.
Kathy
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Friday, August 26, 2005 6:46 PM CDT

Sending happy thoughts and hugs your way...and an extra big hug for Nana Sherry. I'm so glad that her heart cath went well.
Hugs & blessings from Candy - Audrey's Umbrella <zacheric02@msn.com http://www.braintrust.org/umbrella.htm>
Livonia, Michigan XOXOXOXOXOXO - Friday, August 26, 2005 4:32 PM CDT

A LETTER FROM HEAVEN

"To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do,
and foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you... in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years,
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too....
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and in pain,
then you can say to God at night... "My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented.... that my life has been worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.... you're coming here to me

I will always be thinking of you little baby boy and praying for a lot of blessings for your family. Ryan I hope you know how many hearts ache for you around the world we love and miss you a lot. You taught a lot of us how to live better and appreciate everything a lot more. Tauhgt us to smile and do funny faces more.

Ryan and family I will always keep you in my prayers and thougths.

Ryan please help Jacob, in his time of need and let him know that everything will be okay.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, August 26, 2005 3:02 PM CDT

I saw this and I thought it might give you some comfort.

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come
out of the
operating
room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to
be all right?
When
can I see him?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but
your boy didn't
make
it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer?
Doesn't God care any
more?
Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone
with your son? One
of
the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's
transported to the
university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said
good-bye to her son.
She
ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly
hair.

"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's
hair, put it in a
plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said,
"It was Jimmy's
idea
to donate his body to the university for study. He
said it might help
somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said,
'Mom, I won't be
using
it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little
boy spend one more
day
with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of
gold. Always
thinking
of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he
could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the
last time, after
spending most of the last six months there. She put
the bag with
Jimmy's
belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The
drive home was
difficult.
It was even harder to enter the empty house. She
carried Jimmy's
belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his
hair to her son's
room. She started placing the model cars and other
personal things back
in
his room exactly where he had always kept them. She
laid down across
his
bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

it was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside
her on the bed
was a
folded letter. The letter said:

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't
think that I will
ever
forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not
around to say I
LOVE
YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each
day. Someday we
will
see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt
a little boy so
you
won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have
my room and old
stuff
to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl
instead, she probably
wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have
to buy her dolls
and
stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking
about me.! This
really is
a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I
got here and
showed
me around some, but it will take a long time to see
everything. The
angels
are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know
what? Jesus
doesn't
look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I
knew it was Him.
Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom?
I got to sit on
God's knee and talk to Him, like
I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that
I wanted to write
you
a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I
already knew that
wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me
some paper and
His
own personal pen to write you this letter. I think
Gabriel is the name
of
the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you.
God said for me
to
give you the answer to one of the questions you asked
Him 'Where was He
when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place
with me, as when
His
son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He
always is ! with
all
His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've
written except you.
To
everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper.
Isn't that cool? I
have
to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write
some more names in
the
Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with
Jesus for supper.
I'm,
sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore.
The cancer is
all
gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain
anymore and God
couldn't
stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He
sent The Angel of
Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special
Delivery! How
about
that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

Baby Ryan I will always be thinking of you and your family. I will continue to pray for Daddy, Mommy, Elizabeth and your family find peace without you here. I know you are watching from above next to my brothers and sisters. Say hi to my brothers and sisters for me would you. Oh little Ryan we miss and love you a lot.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Friday, August 26, 2005 9:05 AM CDT

Love you guy's
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 26, 2005 5:40 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

After Eucharist tonight, two visitors to St. George's (a dear friend of mine and her friend) and I went out to dinner. All three of us ordered fish, and when it arrived, it was sitting on a wonderful bed of rice, with PEAS AND CARROTS! You know who I thought of, don't you?

May God bless the sweet soul of Ryan Douglas Brown, and may he comfort his playmate, dear little Elizabeth, and all of you, who knew and loved him best!

As I pray for you tonight, I also pray for Pam and David Archer, whose teenage son, Jason, entered eternal life this afternoon. Jason is survived by younger brothers, Justin and Joshua, a little sister, Jenny, grandparents, and a girl friend, Katy. They can be reached at www.caringbridge.org/tn/jasona/

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~

Almighty God, by your Holy Spirit you have made us one with
your saints in heaven and on earth: Grant that in our earthly pilgrimage we may always be supported by this fellowship of love and prayer, and know ourselves to be surrounded by their witness to your power and mercy. We ask this for the sake of Jesus Christ, in whom all our intercessions are acceptable through the Spirit, and who lives and reigns for ever and ever. Amen.

~The Book Of Common Prayer
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Friday, August 26, 2005 2:20 AM CDT

{{{{{{{{{{HUGS!}}}}}}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, August 25, 2005 9:39 PM CDT

Always thinking and praying for you. Hope you can still feel how much love there is for your family.
Anissa <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Thursday, August 25, 2005 6:43 PM CDT

Sending you some extra hugs today,

Always thinking of you guys.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 25, 2005 3:30 PM CDT

I'm praying for your whole extended family. (Thanks, Nana, for reminding us that you are all hurting, too.) May the good Lord bring you whatever He knows you need each minute...strength, comfort, giggles, joy, love & closeness. You are all such a very special family. I know He is carrying you all in His loving arms. There is only one set of footprints in the sand. He will never abandon you.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Thursday, August 25, 2005 2:05 PM CDT

Hi Ryan' family,

Here thinking of you and your angle up above. I have asked my brothers and sisters that we have lost to take care of Ryan and show him the fun sites up in heaven. I will always remember your son and the lessons he taught me about life. Your son is a hero along with all the other kids who have/or are experiencing this awful desease.
I see you and all the other parents who are/or have gone thru this awful experience as my idols. I admire the strength and the will you have to indure all this heartaches.

May God bless you and all of your family.

Ryan, I will always thank you for what you did for me. I never met you, all though I wished I had. Thank you so much for changing my life and my kids life. You are truly a hero we will always think of you thru out are remainder of life.

Ryan's Family,
I will have you in prayers day and night, along with everyone else to give you strength to continue on.
Alma <tetetogo@yahoo.com>
Sterling, VA - Thursday, August 25, 2005 8:57 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth,
Praying and missing you all. Thinking about you daily and praying for your comfort. It is good to know you had a good visit. Love to you all.
Garry, Jody and Emily
- Thursday, August 25, 2005 8:41 AM CDT

Hy there, I hope you all have a good day and know that everyone continues to pray for your strength. Thinking of you always! I got to see the pictures of Elizabeth that you sent Vicki, what a doll baby. I loved the one of her and the frong! With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Thursday, August 25, 2005 8:16 AM CDT

Thinking of you and continually praying for your sweet family.
Praying God's peace, comfort and blessings on you,
Rachel McLamb <rachel.mclamb@us.army.mil>
Clarksville, TN - Thursday, August 25, 2005 7:12 AM CDT

You are always in my thoughts and prayers! I wish you lots of sunshine and smiles today!
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Thursday, August 25, 2005 7:09 AM CDT

My heart is with you and your family today. As I try to work my mind keeps wandering to visions of all the beautiful little angels up in heaven. I'm sure their days are filled with giggles, smiles and hugs. I hope yours is as well.
Lisa Valente
MI - Thursday, August 25, 2005 6:39 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I am thinking of all of you on a lovely summer morning. I will be remembering Ryan tonight, at Holy Eucharist, beneath the Jesus and the Children stained glass window.

When you have an opportunity, you may wish to read some of the books by Madeleine L'Engle. Her writings are available in many libraries, and they always help me, when I want to connect deeper with our Lord, or when I am going through some form of loss. A good one to start with might be her Newberry Honor Book, A Ring Of Endless Light. Another helpful one might be The Summer of the Great-Grandmother, which is about the final illness, death, and celebration of life, of her own mother.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Thursday, August 25, 2005 4:35 AM CDT

Just a note to say that I've been thinking of Ryan a lot - everyday, and I'm sending you hugs and saying prayers for you and your family.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 9:39 PM CDT

Thinking of Ryan and praying for you.

I like St. Louis Bread Company, too!
Jimmyboy is one of our pen pals.
I will visit him now.

mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 24, 2005 8:50 PM CDT

Keep having those good moments. With love from the Browning family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 8:46 PM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I am continuing to think of Ryan and of you all. Some people, with a child in Heaven, fear that he will soon be forgotten. Believe me, this is not true. When I was a young child, two girls in my community died of cancer, and I still remember both of their names, things about them, and the names of their siblings. They have not been forgotten, and Ryan Douglas Brown will not be forgotten either.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and hope,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Wednesday, August 24, 2005 4:06 AM CDT

I have another family that I need to ask all of you to pray for. The Arena family. Jimmy Arena, six years old is my sunshine friend. Jimmy's website is www.jimmboy.com. I know his family would love to hear all of our encouraging words as Jimmy has been sent home and all treatment stopped.

September is "Childhood Cancer Awareness" month. Please do all that you can to bring this to the forefront of the medical community and to your local politicians. One child a day diagnosed with cancer or one more family grieving for a child is one family too many.

Enough of my soapbox for today. Please continue to pray for our family. I for one know that I need it.

Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 9:48 PM CDT

Sending you hugs, prayers, peace & love.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 7:16 PM CDT

HI ANN, I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I GOT THE CHANCE TO SEE YOU AT THE HOSPITAL FRIDAY MORN. WITH YOUR MOM. I AM JUST SORRY THAT I COULD NOT STAY LONGER AND SPEND THE DAY WITH ALL OF YOU, BUT I HAVE NO MORE DAYS OFF UNTIL OCTOBER, SO OFF TO WORK I GO. I AM ALWAYS IMPRESSED WITH YOUR BEAUTY AND YOUR WISDOM. YOUR MOM AND DAD ARE SURE BLESSED TO HAVE YOU AS A DAUGHTER. I FEEL I CAN PROBABLY SPEAK FOR ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS THAT WE ARE SURE BLESSED TO HAVE YOU AS A NIECE.
MY HEART ACHES AT YOUR GRIEF AND SADNESS AND MOMENTS OF LONELINESS. I AM SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU CAN FIND SOME COMFORT IN THE FACT THAT YOU KNOW RYAN DOESN'T WANT YOU OR ANY OF US TO BE SAD. I THINK THAT IS WHY HE SMILED AND LAUGHED AS MUCH AS HE DID, SO YOU HAVE THOSE MOMENTS TO LOOK BACK ON AND HOLD CLOSE TO OUR HEART. I LOVE YOU AND PHILLIP AND ELIZABETH, HOLD EACH OTHER TIGHT AND KEEP BEELIEVING IN EACH OTHER AND GOD AND THE FACT THAT SOMEDAY YOU WILL BE REUNITED WITH RYAN.
AUNT CAROL <crlmccn@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

All I can do from here is pray for you and send you hugs. I think of Ryan everyday. I think of you and your family every day. I'll continue to pray for peace in your heart. {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}!
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 3:15 PM CDT

What a great time Sunday visiting with you, Andrea, and our little Elizabeth. She was all smiles and very playful. I had forgotten how much she looks like Ryan when he was a baby, when I saw the picture on Nana's wall I couldn't tell if it was Elizabeth or Ryan. (It was Ryan).

I am so glad I was able to participate in the memorial service, thank you for allowing me that privilege. I miss him so.

Love you
Aunt Nae <rejewe@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 12:24 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth,

I will be praying for you today and always. Glad that you are having some of those good times mixed in with the sad times and I hope that those good moments get you through the rough ones.
Dot O'Connor <Dotocon@aol.com>
Springfield, PA - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 6:50 AM CDT

Thanks for the update, it is alway's good to see your thoughts and feeling's about the way he tells you he is still watching over you guy's. And he will always be right there, just a smile or a tear away. I miss you guy's even mean old sissy. Her aunt's have just about got her ruined and you should probably not let them around her anymore. Looking forward to seeing you guy's in a couple of weeks and will try to straighten her out if it isn't to late already. love ya and talk to ya later
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, August 23, 2005 5:04 AM CDT

I've not been on-line for a few days but that doesn't mean I've forgotten about you all. You are always on my mind & in my prayers, praying that God constantly surrounds you with every blessing you need at that time. Sending lots of hugs all round.
linda tune <ljtune@bellsouth.net>
franklin, tn - Tuesday, August 23, 2005 1:09 AM CDT

We are missing you already. I thought when we moved here that I would be lonely for my family. I have since learned that you can become a part of any family. All it takes is a little bit of love. Thanks.
Kelly Mackrell <infantrybabe@aol.com>
Ft. Campbell, KY USA!!! - Monday, August 22, 2005 5:56 PM CDT

Thinking of you today and sending you hugs.
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com >
Dearborn, MI US - Monday, August 22, 2005 4:00 PM CDT

Just thinking of you today,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 22, 2005 11:01 AM CDT

We each can create our own environment by nurturing what we want to grow. This is a quote by Stephen Covey that has sat on my desk for years. I happened to notice it this morning and thought of your family. I pray that you are able to nurture the love and hope in your lives and like Nana said, when the sadness comes, that the happy memories of a bright flame will outshine the darkness.
Jennifer Doskal <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Monday, August 22, 2005 10:53 AM CDT

Hi Guys, Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you all even more then usual yesturday. I don't know if it was because it was Sunday or because I heard one of the songs played at Ryan's memorial service. Anyway, I wanted to let you know you are on my mind and in my prayers. With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Monday, August 22, 2005 8:36 AM CDT

Thinking of you all today! It sounded like a wonderful celebration of Ryan's life! I know that he was your special hero. His smile always tears at my heart. Keeping you all in my prayers.
Mrs. Linda Hoover <secureangel@aol.com>
Beach Park, IL USA - Monday, August 22, 2005 7:16 AM CDT

BRENDA My Loving Dad's Site <brurka@shaw.ca>
EDMONTON,ALBERTA CANADA, - Monday, August 22, 2005 2:06 AM CDT

Just wanted to let you guys know how very much I miss you. I pray for our entire family, for the strength to deal with the emptiness we feel when we begin to miss Ryan. I found a quote on a card I received, "Let us not mourn the loss of the flame, but REJOICE in how brightly it burned." Ryan was definitely a brightly burning flame. It seems like I can't feel sad for long and them I remember how brightly Ryan's flame burned. I can still feel his presence and hear him saying, "It'll be okay."

I love you Buddy!!!

KEEP BEELIEVING IN MIRACLES!!!!!
Nana <scourtney209@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, August 21, 2005 10:43 PM CDT

Just a note to let you know that I'm thinking about you and your family today. I think about Ryan all the time. I pray so much that you have peace in your heart and many more smiles and less tears when you are remembering Ryan and all the sweet memories you have. Take care.
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Sunday, August 21, 2005 9:09 PM CDT

Thinking of you guy's and nana. Hope your visit to Mo. has been good and please be careful going home. Give my little buddy a hug and look forward to seeing all of you in a couple weeks, just wish dad could come with you but I know duty calls. Love ya's and catch ya later. Keep Beeeeliveing .
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Sunday, August 21, 2005 7:53 AM CDT

Thinking of you and sending hugs your way.
Phyllis Riley <pmriley4@msn.com>
Clarksville, TN USA - Saturday, August 20, 2005 9:54 PM CDT

Just thinking of you all.
Hope today brings some good memories to laugh about.
Shelly Van B <jayandshel@msn.com>
Reno, - Saturday, August 20, 2005 8:14 PM CDT

{{{{{{HUGS!}}}}}
Colleen Farmer <cfarmer2@ford.com>
Dearborn, MI US - Saturday, August 20, 2005 3:27 PM CDT

Still sending you all prayers. The description of the service sounded beautiful. God Bless you and bring you peace. The Landry's
Stacie Landry <stacielandry772@hotmail.com>
Maryland Heights, MO 63043 - Saturday, August 20, 2005 11:54 AM CDT

what a beautiful celebration!
mrs pam <preschoolpenpals@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 19, 2005 10:21 PM CDT

Phillip, Andrea, and Elizabeth
I have tried several times to get on the guestbook, but have been unable to until today. I found out I can get on at school so now I can keep in touch better. I want to thank you for allowing me to speak at Ryan's Memeorial service on Saturday. It was very difficult to say the words that were on my heart. Your entire family has welcomed me with open arms each time I see them, I feel like part of the family. I guess I really felt the pressure when I was standing up there talking because after I sat back down I realized my notes got out of order and I left out part of what I wanted to say. Andrea really put the pressure on me when she limited me to 3-5 minutes. The last time I saw my little buddy was just before the 4th of July. He was having a really good day and blasting everyone with his Space Blaster. He was even sticking his tongue out at me and Uncle Bill made the comment if he was in my class he wouldn't be able to get away with that. Sorry Uncle Bill, but Ryan probably would just because it was Ryan. Not every child captures my heart, but over the 24 years that I have been teaching there are some I will never forget. Ryan ranks right up there with the best. Although I only knew him for a short time he made me laugh and loved me in a speical way. I will be forever grateful to our Heavenly Father for placing him in my class. I will miss Naoh when he leaves because he is a reminder everyday of Ryan and the special friendship they shared. I love you guys and think of you often.
Ma. Sharon
Herndon, KY USA - Friday, August 19, 2005 11:51 AM CDT

Oops! I forgot to thank you all for including a photo of me and Ryan in the slide presentation! Thanks guys!
Ms. Sharon :-) <beepteacher@worldnet.att.net>
Herndon, KY USE - Friday, August 19, 2005 11:41 AM CDT

Just thinking of you guys,

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Friday, August 19, 2005 11:22 AM CDT

Thinking of you today. I pray God continues to give you strength for today and peace in your heart. {{{HUGS}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Friday, August 19, 2005 9:34 AM CDT

Dear Brown Family,

I have intended for several days to tell you how often I think of the picture of Ryan and Elizabeth that was on the main page, with its caption, "Just like peas and carrots." That was a new expression to me, when I saw Chris Rhodes use it on Justin's website. It, and the picture of Ryan and his little sister, go through my mind often.

Tonight, at Eucharist, in our church of St. George, here in Clifton Park, I remembered Ryan beneath the Jesus and the Children stained glass window. Sadly, I now have a long list of children I remember in this holy place. Some include Connor Hunley, Cheyenne Fiveash, Ian Davideit, Justin Rhodes, Michaela Brewster, and Garrett Burnham. It is a list all too long. I pray that cures will come and come soon.

I love the picture of Ryan with his flag. He was a handsome boy, and Nana Sherry did a wonderful job sharing about his recent service.

I tried to sign yesterday and have tried several other times, but I am having difficulty getting beyond the main page on several of the CaringBridge sites.

God bless you all!

Grace, peace, love, and all good,

~Colette~
Colette
Clifton Park, NY U.S.A. - Friday, August 19, 2005 3:20 AM CDT

Hi! I was brought to your site through Chris's site! I was reading of her amazing faith and seen your son's link and decided to read about him!WOW! What a amazing young fellow!
As a mother of a child who has fought a aggresive form of Leukemia three times at the age of 8 I can say that our children battle every day. God had picked another beutifull flower for his garden in the sky! God Bless your family and know that I will be praying for you all!
Tonya and Stormy Lott <plainsmiles722@yahoo.com caringbridge/tn/stormyrlott>
Tracy City, Tn usa - Friday, August 19, 2005 0:52 AM CDT

Thanks for the play by play on the memorial. It just sounds like it was really something. Everything that has been done for Ryan's memorial just sounds top notch...just as it should be.

That 'Sweet Home Alabama' movie really makes me think. The first time I ever watched it was on Devin's very first admission after being diagnosed. I cannot think of that movie without thinking of how hard these poor kids have to fight just to live. I'm glad that the 5 short years you had with your baby were filled with so many happy memories.....cancer can never take those away from you.

Thinking of you and the cutest kid in Kentucky every day. Devin said that Ryan is up in Heaven now with his hippie bus girl and the rest of the CB kids. According to Devin it sounds like they are all having lots of fun up there. I'd like to think they are just having fun finally being kids without the threat of cancer hanging over their heads.

Thanks again for the update.

Alisa

Devin's site <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 18, 2005 10:49 PM CDT

Sending thoughts of love your way.
Anissa Phillips <phillipsfamily@bigfoot.com>
Florissant, MO - Thursday, August 18, 2005 8:59 PM CDT

Aunt Sherry,
Wow! Thank you for so wonderfully putting Ryan's Memorial into words! I could see all the smiles and hear all of the laughter while I read your journal! Ryan must be feeling really loved right about now (as always!!!)!!!

Phillip,
Sorry to hear they have been working so hard! Hope you and Annie are able to find some quiet time together!

Love, prayers, and hugs to you all!
Debbie <debbiekkessler@aol.com>
Ballwin, MO - Thursday, August 18, 2005 7:00 PM CDT

{{{{Hugs Hugs Hugs}}}}
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Thursday, August 18, 2005 5:52 PM CDT

Aunt Sherry,
Thank you that was beautiful, I feel I did not miss a detail. Way to go Ryan, I know it was you that let the air out of those balloons, that was a good prank on Uncle Pop Bill, it's good to know that you are still having fun. Andrea and Phillip and Sister, still praying for you and keeping you in our thoughts daily. We love and miss you.
Jody <garryp@centurytel.net>
Boss, MO - Thursday, August 18, 2005 8:37 AM CDT

Andrea, Phillip, and Elizabeth I am a co-worker of your cousin Debbie and after hearing your story it has touched my heart. Noone should ever have to bear a loss of a child especially one so young. I have children 5 and 2 and I cannot imagine what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in this time of need. Ryan is such a handsome little man. My favorite pictures are with his fire shorts. He really seems like he is quite the character. I pray that you will continue to find the strength to get through this very difficult time in your life
Tammy Walls <mtwalls@sbcglobal.net>
Florissant, MO - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 10:13 PM CDT

I feel like I was there!!!! That sounds like the start of a great annual celebration. Ryan is such a special little boy - he has touched so many people and will continue to do so. Thanks for sharing him.

Cameron�s mom
Carla Brooks <cmfbrooks66@yahoo.com>
West Hartford, CT - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 9:33 PM CDT

Sending you hugs today.
Colleen Farmer
Dearborn, MI US - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 8:35 PM CDT

Thanks Aunt Sherry for the details of Ryan's memorial, I am so glad the day went well and Ryan got a chance to make everybody run around in circles for him. Andrea, Phillip and Elizabeth- you are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Love you guys.
Tiffaney Contreras <tiffaneycontreras@hotmail.com>
Rolla, MO - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 3:41 PM CDT

We missed the service but thanks to Nana feel like we were there and saw and heard it all. Thank you for continuing to share your family and your journey with so many.
Doskal Family <jdoskal@bullmoosetube.com>
St. Peters, MO - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 1:30 PM CDT

Sherry your description of Ryan's service brought tears to my eyes. What a wonderful celebration for an incredible little soldier. Ryan will always be apart of this journey for me. Forever and ever, all those beautiful children who are now Angels looking over all of us, are forever etched in my heart and soul. Always thinking of you and Andrea and Phillip and Elizabeth. God Bless.
Kathy-mom to David
caringbridge.org/fl/david
Kathy <joy2jak@adelphia.net>
Boynton Beach, FL USA - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 12:51 AM CDT

Nana, your description of the service was wonderful; the next best thing to being there. Remember Brown Family that we are all here for you. God Bless. With love from the Browning Family
Stephanie <jerrybrowning@sbcglobal.net>
Louisiana, MO USA - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 11:51 AM CDT

Way to go NANA a fitting description of a wonderful tribute to a special little guy. Like aunt nae, I feel the family has grown from having him among us. Mom, Dad, Sissy, hope you are having a good day and see his signs everywhere that you look for them. Love ya guy's.
uncle POP bill <bcortneyus@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 17, 2005 8:53 AM CDT

NaNa Sherry, You did a great job of describing the services Saturday. I have to say my favorite picture of Ryan was the one with him getting the pedicure. He had a look of "man this is cool, but I dont want anyone to know that". I hope you all have a good day. I continue to think of you all constantly and pray for your families strength. With lots of love, Ashley
Ashley Minor <ashley_m_23@hotmail.com>
Louisiana, MO - Wednesday, August 17, 2005 8:28 AM CDT

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