Charlie Day 11. Emotions: depressed, excited, exhausted, ready and blah. Dropping the oxiplaton (probably not spelling that right) was HUGE for C10. Zack had a crazy amount of energy, was able to eat and drink right away and felt sooo good (considering, of course). He did have a couple days of deep rest and his neuropathy is still severe, but overall, he has had a great two weeks. 

So SURPRISE...I know you ALL will be shocked but we got hit with another blow. Owen (our 1.5 year old) is going to be getting double eye surgery next Wednesday. He has been severely cross eyed since about 6 months and his optometrist finally said it's time. We are hoping that the recovery time isn't super brutal. 🫠 I see Owen's surgery as motivation for Zack to get through these two final rounds as he has said that we can then just fully focus on Owen 💙

On a lighter side, Zack met with one of our pastors today for a couple of hours and I met someone who reached out with a similar story and we both feel a little better after that. Our faith has gone in ebbs and flows throughout this and having our pastor be so realistic about the journey was refreshing. For me, talking through the spouse journey was such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders to truly know, deep in my core, that I am not alone.

I've talked to some people how this journey can be SO lonely. We have all of you and so much more but at the end of the night, tucking my kids (even Zack 😉) into bed, it is just me...well and Micco. And it is just me explaining to my 4 year old that no, daddy won't have cancer forever. It's just me making sure Zack is in fact breathing in the middle of the night. It is just me trying to keep everything organized and steady. BUT with all of that said, the meals, the messages, the yard help, the fundraisers, and everything else helps remind me that in those short moments, yes, I am alone, but I have this village to lean on outside of those times. I guess what I'm trying to get across is that although there are lonely aspects, focus on the support you have to keep going. 

Life can be so brutal and sometimes, all we can do is wake up and choose to keep fighting. And that's what you all help us do each day. Thank you all so much, we love you and Charlie Day 11, we're comin to kick your ass 🥊🥊