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I have endured Battle after Battle, winning some but losing more as time continues on Year to Year since 2002 either it has become Stronger or I have become Weaker. No matter which I have lost more and more of who I used to be yet not able to connect with the so called "new" me as it isn't mine anymore. It has taken my Mind into another dimension so far away making thoughts, words, memory a scrambled mess intertwined where I must attempt to find the words to form an intellectual conversation while some form of pain is banging and beating my body distracting my mind even more. My Body hates me as it won't work right or when I need it to. I am so much weaker and less the person I once was. It hurts to move let alone perform some form of movement that results in the attempted destination. I am lost in this mumble jumbled mess of a constant fight against all that it throws at me. When will it be TOO MUCH and I end up reaching for that White Flag to end all the Battles in a Final fight that I just am incapable and maybe even too tired to continue on with the torturous afflictions inevitably losing the WAR!
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