Hello my faithful friends and followers of this journey.
Today is my third of 6 chemo treatments - so I am at the half way mark, After that we will start surgery and then 30 rounds of radiation. Your support and encouragement inspire me to continue to share this journey with you.
At the end of last month I said out loud on Facebook that I was going to go 100 miles in January. I wondered if that was a good idea shortly after. Nevertheless, I planned to share the 100 miles with my family. So far I have personally only gone 6.5 miles of intentional exercise. With the help of my girls we are at 45 and with the help of a dear friend who donated her 25 that puts us at 70 miles for January. 30 more to go to meet our goal and 11 days still left to make it happen. That puts us at more then half way there and we did it together. In it Together.
With all of this in mind, it's a new year. I just turned 50 -- another half way number. I will overcome more then I ever had to in my life so far. I will ring the bell, I will be cancer free. I will thank God for all of it - because all of it is for a purpose. Sometimes I just can't see it yet - but because I look back and remember how I got to here and now - I see God's hand in every detail and circumstance - and that history propels me forward in hopeful expectation no matter what. In it together.
And what if I die? Ok remember I like to see these morbid thoughts all the way through so let's allow ourselves to go there. What if I die? God has already given me more than enough and all that I need. He has numbered my days and I trust that - I live my life hoping not to waste a single one in case it's the last. Sure there are moments wasted being angry, offended....God help us not to waste too much of those. I really don't think I am dying of this - but just in case. For the doubters, question havers or wonderers in the room - absolutely no shame but seriously let's talk about that. In it together.
I would rather live my life believing, expecting, hoping and yearning for Heaven and be wrong in the end - then to live my life not believing there is a God and living without hopeful expectation and yearning of Heaven and be wrong in the end. This isn't a blind faith. Certain things we do move in faith without seeing - but God's Word and His Spirit moving me and meeting me is very real. In it together.
God will and can and does meet you wherever you are - it's never too late and there isn't any level of bad that makes you unable to approach and ask and think. All are welcome - wherever you are. It's not a believers job to convince you - just sort of a natural and healthy response to what God has done in us and through us. We just can't keep this good stuff to ourselves.and when we do share it’s only planting seeds- God does it not us. In it together.
I don't know where you are at today with God - but when I was waiting for my results in October, I told God that if I had to walk thru this valley - I would share every step with the world. Yep we talked about it. That's when I sort of knew I had cancer. God was preparing my heart and encouraging me before the results came in positive, before I was told the type the level the length of treatment and the narly side effects. I was ready - and I decided ahead of time how I would cling to God thru this and bring you all along with me to watch. To encourage you and introduce you to Jesus. In it together.
Don't close your eyes!
Ask my parents - I was writing as a little girl and rhyming, home made cards and poems, then I was writing eulogies, anniversary and birthday poems, moving to Florida poems, birthday invites....then after Jesus saved me I wrote about what He spoke and wrote and moved in me. Still. It's my absolute privilege to share that - when i tried to get published - lots of doors shut in my face so i started a blog and so here I am. Now I have cancer. More people pay attention to me now. It's true. And it's why I think God allows these times of trouble - the bible tells us to use our experiences and encourage others. In it together.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in trouble."
I am halfway thru chemo today. Two months into a year long treatment. It doesn't matter where you are in your journey, in your life - halfway there, almost there or just starting. In it together.
Together. To gather. Two gather. Where two or more gather in His name - it's Church. Did you think that when you and I meet here - we would be in Church. We are! In it together.
Today is the day. Your next choice, your next conversation choice, your next choice of words to say or not to say - to others or to yourself. Choose what brings life. Our choices are in our control. It took me a long time to learn that - still learning. And I share all of what I learn with you...because really we are in this life together. I don't think we were ever meant to do this alone We are not alone. In it together.
Thanks for letting me drag you along. Much love.
PS sharing a favorite song of mine that my husband sent me today - its called Empty and Beautiful - a perfect and timely word when fighting battles. We are not alone - Jesus is right there waiting.
Pouring out empty and beautiful