In a few hours we will leave Mississippi for what is most likely my last time. It’s the hardest thing I have done since my diagnosis. How do I say goodbye to my baby, my oldest and my whole heart. How do let go knowing I most likely won’t see him again. I can not imagine the pain you are in right now. I would imagine hannah funeral and death makes it even harder knowing I won’t be here much longer. I would give anything to take this pain away Ryan but I can’t fix his one. I am so proud of you. Even though I missed all of your childhood my whole life gained purpose the day we rebuilt our relationship. I will never forget your Facebook post right before my brain surgery. I remember it being the first time I ever believed you were proud of me and I was so proud of myself.