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it's been a long time since i updated this journal. probably becuz every day is up and down. i know that i love robert so much, and i can't handle the idea of losing him..😭. some days (like today) you can't really tell there is anything wrong. he's got the same wants and dislikes, looks the same, and he mostly acts the same, except sometimes he sleeps a lot.
we sold my dad's Ranchero this past weekend, and he was right in there with us, chit-chatting with the buyer...just like robert's always been. i have to check the house (and him) several times a day and lock up at night. i miss him doing that, but i have no choice now.
the other night the doorbell rang, and he jumped up to get it. i went running after him telling him not to open the door, but i was too late...thank God he got hung up opening the guard chain, cuz he only got that far. i was beating on his back telling him NEVER to open the door like that at night, unless he knows who it is. turned out, it was round table pizza with 2 orders that we didn't place. we don't know how they ended up here, so we threw them out. a little while later, robert came into the bedroom with them, asking me didn't i want my pizza? i told him to throw them out again. it was sweet.
he is still eating his coveted "honey oat cherrios" and leaving them around the house. the other day he surprised me by picking all the spilled ones up around his chair...and this was just before his caregiver, Pie, came by.
he still gets along great with anyone, loves all the dogs, insists on wearing too tight jeans, and i have to squish him in with a well-worn belt, then his Christian t shirt, then his Afghan Daddy sweatshirt, and a Christian cap. i think whenever i imagine him, it'll be in that outfit.
he can still take scotty for a walk locally, and find his way back (or scotty does...hah!). he misses driving, but can still sometimes remember directions to places. he still makes new friends (like the buyer of the Ranchero), and i'm so glad for that. it's good to see him "holding court" again. my heart breaks to think of life without him...🙏 🙏 🙏 😭 🙏 🙏
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