I think it goes with saying that our trip to Italy was an amazing success. We did a Viking Cruise, which is not necessarily our demographic (mostly retired people) but it was a magical experience. For those who did not see the FB pics then here is the 936 pictures we took: https://photos.app.goo.gl/G12SDN1eG1ZQVkzL8

I'm not really sure I understand jetlag but we got home of Saturday May 4 and I was able to see the sun rise in Rome and set in New Orleans. Very long day. Certainly feeling the fatigue.

As I posted previously I had scans scheduled for the Monday following our return from Italy, as well as chemo. I'd be lying if  said I wasn't nervous but this is life now.  Scans started early, 7am and was wrapped up with the MRI and CT by 8:30. Got blood work done and then headed upstairs to the 5th floor to see the doc. Got in the room within about 30-45 min. The results of the CT had come back already. I asked the MA what it said and she told me she was supposed to wait but she whispered (it says NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE!, but act surprised when Dr. LaVie tells you.

Dr. LaVie comes in and says he's happy with the CT but wants to wait for the MRI. As we were sitting there the MRI came back: "No definitive evidence of metastatic disease"

Now both reports came back the same, no living tumor. I was excited and then Dr. LaVie said, "I don't think we need to do chemo today. I think you are done for now"

I was happy, confused, in a daze. It's over? I'm done?

I got home and was exhausted so I laid down and woke up 2 hours later. I woke up with a huge sense of relief and then it hit me: the release. I hadn't processed anything properly over the last year and a half and it just came out; tears just started coming. I went to each of the girls and hugged them and thanked them for being strong through all this. I cried on their shoulders, then I cried some more alone. The battle was won.

Thank you to every single one of you who has cheer me on and sent me words of encouragement over this process. You made the processes doable. You gave me strength when at times I had none. Thank you. 

I love y'all.