Well... Unfortunately, I was once again admitted to Mayo Clinic late Wednesday night due to some of the same symptoms I've been having from my previous post - lack of appetite, nausea, stomach/colon/back pain,  and some internal bleeding.  I type this message as I wake up in the hospital bed for the 5th night in a row and I'm sooooo ready for this to be over with.  I have lost a significant amount of weight and just to put it into perspective.  When I started this battle a year ago I weighed 160.  Going through chemo I would fluctuate up and down from 140-150 or so.  Right now I weigh 129 and I believe my lowest was about 124 a few days ago.  

This time my blood work came back with yet another new infection - 2 forms of E. Coli. and the Norovirus is still hanging out in there.  My immune system is exhausted and I can tell.  We have multiple viral/bacterial infections, stomach ulcers, and a flair of ulcerative colitis which has not happened since 2016 when I was able to put myself into remission the naturopathic way changing my diet, using supplements, and exploring Chinese Medicine.  

I am still staying strong, but the amount of pain I have endured has been debilitating for weeks now.  When I look back and think that this has been going on for almost 2 months it's pretty wild to comprehend. This time around they took biopsies via endoscopy and colonoscopy to see if they could find more answers via biology.  The one ounce of optimism that I have from all of this is that I know in my soul it is all for a reason. That I need to go through hell in order to help people get through a similar fight in the future.  I know that I will be healing others now and in the future and that truly keeps me motivated to continue this battle. 

There is no true talk of being discharged yet, but I think I am close.  We shall see. 

Many people have asked what they can do to help and it's always so difficult to answer that question.  I'm not quite sure.  It would be great to receive prayers, meditations, and healing constantly sent this way even if you are not physically close to me.  I will take all that I can get. 

Much love to you all and more updates to come. 

Matt