A Year Ago Today                                                                                                                                                            

A year ago today a heart stopped beating.

A year ago today I lost my best friend, my soul mate, my lover, my wife.

A year ago today my two daughters lost their mother.

A year ago today the dearest of friends ascended into heaven.

A year ago today Mary Anne became completely pain free.

A year ago today she started her spirit journey helping and guiding others.

A year ago today she gave me a gift.

A year of unwrapping: why her, why me, why us, why now.

A year of tears, heartache and missing her terribly.

A year of grief, sorrow, empty holidays and yet beautiful memories.

A year of living inside the love that was lost.

A year of sadness, laughter, and love with the Silvernail family text group.

A year of courage to begin again, living our daily lives, trying to just be.

A year of looking within and praying for guidance.

A year of comprehending that life happens FOR you, not TO you.

Today I am thankful for 21 wonderful, amazing, blessed years together with her.

Today I am thankful for my family and friends for their love, support and dinner therapies.

Today I thank Hope for Bereavement for grief counseling and support. Talking about grief is mourning.

Today I thank my Break your Chains men’s group for being content with the king within. Ah-ooh!

Today I thank my Costa Rica yogis for the adventure of a lifetime. Pura vida!

Today I thank my Passionate Ease retreaters for a weekend of love, hugs and “Awareness is home”.

Today I thank my yoga instructors for opening my heart, being flexible and seeing the light. Namaste!

Today I’m grateful for my parents and sister’s unconditional family love.

Today I’m grateful for my amazing daughters, who make my world so much brighter.

Today I’m grateful for the gift of a journey I never would have taken.

Today because of ALL of you, I know what love is.

Today a heart is still beating.

Edwin