Family & Friends,
 I am writing to you one last time. It has been particularly hard for me to start this journal entry, as you can tell by my absence over the past two months. I wanted to write it so many times. Fortunately for me, I am in counseling! And I can work through emotional barriers in therapy to move forward in my daily life. In time I have realized that I was struggling to write this post, because I didn't want caringbridge to go away.
Many of you have wondered out loud or to yourself how I am doing. And I am here to tell you that I am OK. I am actually so OK, that it's kind of annoying. You may ask yourself ' how can a young woman who just had her life ripped away from her come to work with a smile?' or ' how does this young lady who just lost the love of her life plan a party for her friends, or eat right or exercise or make time to do her makeup in the morning?'. Well the answer is you. All of you. 
This last year has taught me more about life and love than I ever knew existed. You don't know what you don't know, I suppose. 
So, here I am, at the start of a new journey. Thanks to all of you for making me believe I am strong and beautiful on the inside and out. When you hear it over and over you start to believe it. Kevin meant what he said 'don't wait until heaven to know you are uniquely loved'. And per usual, he is right. I am so loved it's beyond my comprehension. I have new keys to life. A life I didn't know was possible. 
I initially intended on attaching the eulogies spoken at Kevin's services to this post, but caringbridge doesn't have a good option to do so. If you would be interested in reading them (they are ALL AMAZING) I would be happy to e-mail them to you. Please send me an e-mail.