The most exciting news? No more neutropenic diet! I'm eating watermelon with salt (keep your salt-hate to yourself!) for breakfast. It is glorious!!! Being able to eat what I am used to eating and nourishing my body so it feels good is something I will never take for granted again. 

The least exciting news? One week out from chemo and I feel terrible. I've had a chunky fire-red rash covering my face, neck and chest (see picture). I've been dizzy, off balance, and cognitively compromised. I've had large periods of inactivity because my heart rate skyrockets from simple things like walking 10 feet.

Overall Mood? Better today than yesterday. Better yesterday than day before. I feel an upward trend. 

Concerns? Still many. My numbers are off in some areas and of course, I read a lot into that. I am afraid of this chemo. The last chemo drugs had more defined side effects, but I felt pretty confident I wasn't destroying my body in the process. I don't feel that way about the current chemo drugs. 

Wisdom to live by today? Thank you, G‑d, for allowing me to live and have this time, these precious moments.