I wish I would have started this 28 yrs ago when I was diagnosed.  This is for my granddaughters so they know how hard I'm trying to fight MS so I can be an active grandma--instead of one in an wheelchair.  My heart breaks every min of the day for them.  I want to be more than what I am for them.  This disease is so unfair.  I want them to know I'm always with them even when I cant be.  They are the must important part of my life.  My greatest fear is to leave them.  I cant bear the thought of it.  Missing events with them tears me apart.  Yesterday was a bday party.  Summer was 7.  How can my body do this to her.  I wasn't there.  I left her down.  I promised I never would.  My body hurts but not as much as my heart does