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I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
but the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask him to lift your spirit as I tell him of your love
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I'm walking with the King.



With Much Love

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven, and though it must appear,
A rather strange idea, I see everything from here,
I just popped in to visit, your stores to find a card,
A card of love for my parents, as this day for them is hard,
There must be some mistake I thought, every card you can imagine,
except I could not find a card, from a child that lives in heaven,
they are still a parent too, no matter where I reside,
I had to leave, they understand, but oh the tears they cried,
I thought that if I wrote to you, that you would come to know,
that though I live in heaven now, I still love my parents so,
they talk with me, and dreams with me, we still share laughter too,
memories are our way of speaking now, would you see what you can do?
my parents carry me in their heart, their tears they hide from sight,
they plants flowers in my garden, there my living memory dwells,
they writes to other grieving parents, trying to ease there pain as well,
so you see Mr. Hallmark, though I no longer live on earth,
I must find a way, to remind her of her wondrous worth,
they need to be honored, and be remembered too,
just as the children of the earth will do,
thank you Mr. Hallmark, I know you will do your best,
find a way to tell them, how much they mean to me,
until I can do it for myself, when she joins me in eternity.


I know Christmas must be so hard for you although I can't comprehend how difficult it must be.

All my love,

Viks

I hate hearing of all the hard times your family has been forced to go through, but I also know what a VERY strong family you are and how you always end up landing back on your feet. If there is ever anything I can do for any of you, please feel free to let me know. You've got my e-mail address and I'm more than willing to help out in anyway that I'm able to.

Your family -- including *Maxie*, of course -- is ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

With Much Love,

Due to the lack of updates, I'm hoping and praying everything is alright with everyone.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

With Much Love,

With Much Love,

With Much Love,

I was posting this picture on Cassie's site, and thought I would swing by your page to say "hello", I hope the vans now fixed, are you still in amemila?

Lots of love

Viks

With Much Love,

Always thinking of and praying for your family.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

We're always thinking of your family and remembering *Maxie's* sweet smile. We hope all is going as well as it possibly can be for you these days.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

With Much Love,

To Julie and Christy --



With Much Love

SO GLAD CHRISTMAS WAS GOOD FOR YOU ALL YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS

With Much Love

Sending many happy thoughts and prayers your way!

With Much Love

Found your website on another carinbridge site. Wanted to stop in and say hi. I will be keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.

THINKING OF YOU ALL TO DAY

WWW.CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/SC/TYLERTUCKER

***Christy -- I love that picture that is posted on the front of *Maxie's* page. You and those two gorgeous boys of yours look fantastic!!!***

With Much Love

With Much Love,

www.postpals.co.uk

Christy

My thoughts and prayers are with you, hon

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you...

Just stopping by to let you know you are in my heart and prayers and we have not forgotten Maxie. May God draw near and fill your heart with strength and grace, but most of all, hope.

There is constant joy abiding
In Christ my Lord and King;
Of His love that passeth knowledge
My heart and tongue shall sing.

He is all in all to me,
And my song of songs shall be,
Hallelujah, O my Savior,
I am trusting only Thee.

When my path is veiled in shadows,
And clouds above me roll,
I can smile amid the tempest,
His glory fills my soul.

I can see his bow of promise
Through tears and trials deep;
I can hear His voice like music,
That lulls my care to sleep.

I shall yet behold the praise Him,
And dwell in perfect peace
In the golden land of beauty,
Where cloud and wave shall cease.

Sending a ton of prayers your way.
Love and hugs
Judy

Catch An Angel

I saw the beautiful "Maxie Butterfly" on Cheyenne's page! Ooooh, it was so pretty! Beautiful boy, you are SO MISSED...and the day so longed for, when we see you whole and well in God's glad city!
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Hi Robert! Guess what? School starts here this coming week! Thursday my kids go back for a new school year! When do you start back? Are you ready???? : / Mine are!
Would you give your Grandma Julie a big hug for me!

Lotsa love and hugs!



I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

I just love that picture of your "new" cabin. It looks so beautiful!

Wishing you a fantastic weekend!!!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Thank you for sharing that beautiful story. I had tears in my eyes by the time I was finished reading. CONGRATULATIONS on the new house. I can't wait to see pictures of it -- if you're willing to share, that is. It sounds absolutely gorgeous and *Maxie* seems to love it.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Happy 4th!!

I just can't wait til you are in that cute lil cabin and sharing pictures with us! Ooooh my.. just reading the description of the babbling little stream, the birds singing - it sounds like such a beautiful place!

Take care friend!
Love and hugs




I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Hoping all is well since an update hasn't been made in a little bit. I hope all of you know that my thoughts and prayers are ALWAYS with you.

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

hello dear friends. so so sorry we have not been able to sign in lately..computer problems. hope your doing well today. may your memories be sweet and your tomorrows bright.

Always in our thoughts hearts and prayers!!
~*~Samantha’s Story~*~

Because growing up is hard enough without cancer!!

YOU ALL ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS

May you find comfort knowing Maxie is an ^^Angel^^ watching over you.
All my love,

Click to visit Simply Enchanting Angels

My daughter, Princess Elizabeth, is a Cancer Warrior

Stan

Happy Heavenly Birthday, buddy! I didn't know you, but I feel as if I do by how much I've heard your Mom talk about you. I know you are missed by MANY people.

Julie

Thank you for the beautiful memories you shared. You and everyone in your family are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers. And of course *Maxie* is remembered daily.

Hoping all of you have a great Memorial Day weekend!

Sending lots and lots of BIG hugs and MUCH love your way!!!

Hi Grandma Julie!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to you and to Christy. Chris.. please don't work yourself this hard.. your family needs you! SIGH.. Hi Robert! BLESS YOUR HEART! My mom slipped on a step once and went all the way down on her tailbone and also cracked it. YOU MUST BE ONE TOUGH GUY!! I still remember how much pain my mom was in for so long, after that.. and like you said Julie.. that pain is for YEARS! Robert, I am praying the Lord will heal yours and you won't suffer these long-lasting effects.

Maxie - you are SO MISSED.. by so many!
Ya'll take care!
Love and hugs,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

With Much Love,

((((( Hello Friend )))))
I was so sorry to read about your aunt. I know Robert understands, but it hurts to see his family feeling so sad. Hey, I agree with you about Chris - be THE BOSS!! Hehehe! Seriously, it's too much, and not worth it, as you say.. to run yourself in the ground as Chris is doing.

Are you still planning the Texas trip (seeing the Fiveash crew?) I read about Melody's family's recent visit there. It sounded just wonderful - very special time. It would be such a blessing to meet the Fiveash gang! I hope you guys will be getting to go there.

Sheeesh! What a MESS on the stereo turntable!! Good grief! People can be such jerks! Why not just send it back? Why destroy it first. The CREEP! Grrrrrr....

Well, it's Monday morning, and I am cranky! LOL!! I better get another cup of coffee! Hehehe! Have one with me, my Julie buddy?!? : )

Take care - have a good week!
xoxox


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

NEVER NEVER FORGOTTEN!!
My Hannah remembered! Remember last year, how she prayed so hard for him to make it to his birthday. Hers was the week before his.. March 29. They are the same age. Her heart was broken to pieces that week when he just couldn't hang on any more. :"( She received some birthday money again this year.. and solemnly remembered what she did with her birthday money last year. :"(
We are grateful he is well and alive in heaven. We just wish so badly, he could have stayed here.

Happy Birthday to you Grandma Julie. You are loved, and I am glad it's your birthday! Be sure you take along your camera when you go to Texas, and get some pictures of you with Papa Roy and Donna... what a blessing that will be, to see them!!
Love and hugs,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Happy Birthday sweet Maxie. You are very missed here. Love, Tracy and
Katia (a.k.a. "The Ladybug")
Fighting leukemia AML with a vengence!
Sharing Hope on the Wings of a Ladybug

Today I Thought of You

I sat and watched a sunset today
The way we once used to do
I recalled the tranquility it brought
Today I thought of you

I watched a little child at play
While others played with him too
I thought of all the times you played
Today I thought of you

I watched a mother leave her child
And walk away from the school
I remembered the times when we did that
Today I thought of you

I watched a wedding taking place
As I sat and observed the bride and groom
I know I'll never share this with you
But today I thought of you

I saw a little girl in a store
Buying candy for her brother too
I remembered you and your sis
Today I thought of you

I sat in a church in the back pew
The family torn in two
They were burying their little boy
Today I thought of you

I saw a cloud up in the sky
The background a beautiful blue
I thought of Heaven and where you are
Today I thought of you

No matter where I'm at
As long as my memories come through
I'll always think of you daily
I'll never stop thinking of you

Sharon Bryant Angels Remembered

You are never far from my heart and prayers.
Much love
Judy
In Loving Memory Of Jennifer

Hello Julie and family,

Oh my.. a long year. A whole year - in some ways, it seems far longer, in other ways only yesterday. One thing is certain - beloved Maxie, you live in our hearts!

Today has been rainy here on the Gulf Coast, and tonight they are telling us to brace for very severe and dangerous storms. It seems fitting in a way - to think of these terrible storms coming today.. yet tomorrow, Easter dawns. Life is much the same - with its fierce winds, hail, lightning, the possibility of tornadoes ripping through, and lives being tossed upside down. Yet the day is coming when Easter dawns eternal.. and the storm of life will be over - and His people will LIVE forever, with Him. The promise of tomorrow is LIFE, eternal. God has guaranteed it, by raising Jesus from the dead.

I know that you and your dear family will endure the STORM "today".. because you KNOW that tomorrow - EASTER DAWNS.. and it foreshadows that sure day when it will dawn forever! And we will be together with him.. all the storms of life over and done with. WHAT A DAY.. and it IS coming! Keep your anchors securely in Him!

Love and hugs,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

HAPPY EASTER LOVE WWW.POSTPALS.CO.UK

Thinking of you this Easter and always. May the glorius fact that HE IS RISEN fill your heart to overflowing!
Love, Eileen

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

Whoooooooo Hoooooooooo!!! Robert, you are doing an awesome job!! This year is almost over and then you will be a 5th grader! I'm so proud of you! I know it has been hard to concentrate at times.. hard to keep your mind on school when so many things have happened in your life. You are a strong, good hearted boy! And very determined, I can tell! Keep making those good grades - one day who knows.. you may be a very determined, dedicated researcher who finds that cancer cure.. or a doctor who lovingly cares for kids who are battling this disease.. or maybe you will just be a hard working daddy of healthy children.. maybe you will name one of those kids after his Uncle Maxie! Maybe that boy will grow up to find the cure!! WE CAN DREAM, HUH! And just maybe our dreams will come true! Keep working hard little man!

Hi Grandma Julie! I know.. you think I forgot you! I promise I didn't! I stopped by here many late nights to check on you. I was just too tired to sign the book! You know our hubbies had surgery together.. it really threw a monkey wrench in my routine! Hehe! Glad both these men are on the mend and our routines are almost back to normal again! : )
Take care friend!
.... No rules, just love. YES INDEED! That's a beautiful thought!
Love and hugs,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Thinking of you and sending prayers for stength all the time. (((hugs)))



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

Hi Sweet Julie,
My hubby has been sick for a couple of weeks and had surgery this week also.. so I haven't been by daily, but sure have not forgotten you all. How's Chris doing after his surgery? I know that must be painful to recover from. OUCH!

Bless your hearts - I can so identify with the lost machine recordings (been there-done that) and the phone with Maxie's voice recorded on it. Do you know for years, I kept my Mom's hairbrush in a ziploc bag and now and then I would take it out and breathe in the scent. It was comforting. I knew every time I opened the bag, that scent would weaken..but I needed to breathe it in now and then. Recently I ran across it, opened it and carefully took the hairbrush, brought it to my nose and breathed - I couldn't catch the whiff anymore. :"( I cried.. but then I thought - there are memories in my heart that can NEVER be taken from me. It is painful as the tangibles fade over time. But I can actually "remember" that scent and conjure it in my mind.. love never dies!

God Bless you Friend! Ya'll take care!
Love and hugs -


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Hi Grandma Julie (my buddy!)

Been a lot of stuff going on around my house this month.. I have made several visits here but not been able to have time to sign the book. Just wanted to let you know tonight - I still come visit you.. still remember you all in my thoughts and prayers.. still love you!

Hang in there Robert. This school year will soon be over.. and I remember 5th grade was really fun!

Ya'll take care -
Love and hugs,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Thinking of you always ...

Peace to you friends, in the coming year.
God Bless,


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Hello Dear Julie -
Christmas Blessings to you, friend. I've been thinking of you.. I know it has been so difficult to have Christmas without Maxie. WE MISS YOU SWEET BOY - SO MUCH!!! Keep going forward Grandma Julie, toward that reunion day. Dear Robert, I hope Santa was very good to you! : ) I see you got a COOL bike! Enjoy it!

Love and Hugs to all the Lagourney crew!


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

HI Grandma Julie,
Your chemo angel Sharon wrote some wise, wonderful words below.. I just wanna say AAAAMEN!!!
I think about you every day, 'specially over my coffee! : )
Day by day... walk in faith. One day our faith will become SIGHT! We will see what we have believed, what has been promised!
LOTS of LOVE!



I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Wishing you all a holiday filled with warm and loving memories,joy and peace but most of all hope in the reunion that awaits us all in Heaven.

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
With tiny light, like Heaven's stars
reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular,
please wipe away that tear,
For I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
For it is beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask Him to lift your spirit
as I tell Him of your love
so then pray for one another
as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in Heaven
and I'm walking with the King.

By Wanda Bencke~
May God bless you.
Love and hugs
Judy

Wishing you a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year that will fill you with new-found Peace, Joy and Strength.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

(((Good Morning to my friend Julie!)))
I know it has been a tremendous relief to get financial things arranged so they are not so burdensome. Financial difficulties can really sink one's spirits. Getting out and about was really good for you too! It's very hard to go, but it sounds like once you got out.. you guys actually had a nice time! WHAT FUN!! And I bet Robert's little heart is feeling very hopeful now that his Grandma is talking about a Christmas tree! God bless you Julie!! You are so big hearted, even when in pain.. remembering the needs of others around you. I pray that God would comfort you in a special tender way, and help you to find a special peace from Him this Christmas season.

Thanks for the Squirrel Tales link! Did you know that at Legacy, we support them? Squirrel Tales has always been a favorite place for me to visit.. a LIGHT in the darkness of the cancer world. So many good sections, you could stay on their site ALL day!! And it is very uplifting, and encouraging. I have a special link to them on the "Causes we support" page. They do a beautiful service to all who are on the cancer journey.

Well Ma'am.. you take care of yourself. We're miles apart, but you are always here in my heart!
Love and Hugs


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Just thinking of my friends.. wishing for you, a peaceful Thanksgiving in which the spirit of gratitude reigns, even through tears. Maxie buddy.. you are so loved, and missed so much. And Robert, you are a special blessing to your family - they cherish you, sonshine boy!! How's MoJo? : )

Ya'll take care of each other. Sending you lots of love, Julie.. thanking God for the friendship we share. You are special!

Love and Hugs


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Stopping by to let you know I'm thinking of you and wishing you guys a very happy Thanksgiving...I'm sure Maxie will be joining you as he always is there. :-)

Love and prayers,



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

Thinking of you at Thanksgiving and always!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

What a beautiful picture!!! Just to let you know you are in my heart and prayers. We have not forgotten!!
Love and hugs
Judy

Awwwwwwww, I LOVE the baby picture!! NO WONDER you fell in love, Grandma Julie!! He was an adorable baby! Look at that smile! I bet Robert was a cutie as well! He still is!!
Awesome, special boys - Robert and Maxie!

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, especially when I read my email early, while drinking coffee.. I think how nice it would be if we lived up the street.. then I would slip down to your place with coffee in hand and we would welcome the day together. Sigh..

You guys take care of each other. You're always in my heart!
Love and Hugs


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Just stopping by to let you know you're never far from my thoughts and heart...


http://lightingchildrenslives.org

Awwww... just seeing Roy's sweet message below, has got me all teared up again. :"( It just breaks my heart for my friends to have to be hurting so much. It was encouraging though, to read that things have been a bit better in your house the past day or so. It's up and down like a roller coaster.. but I pray the good days will become more frequent with time. Thank you Julie, for sharing Maxie's friend Shawntae with me. I visited her shortly after I received your email - what a pretty girl and I can tell she's very close to her Mom. Bless their hearts. I'll keep them on my list, and visit them more.
Love you Friend! Take care and have a good weekend!
xoxo


I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



Lighting Children's Lives
Caged Kids

Hi Julie !!! Just wanted to let you know that I sure do miss reading your journal.....I miss hearing about what your doing, how you are, and what Robert is doing.....I pray that Christy will get better soon !!!!!!!!! Your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers !!

Cathy .·:*¨¨*:·.Friends Of Allie.·:*¨¨*:·. <sister_2@hotmail.com>
Weatherford , - Saturday, October 30, 2004 0:07 AM CDT

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Julie I just read back the last 3 entries, my God I had no idea about Christy! I am so sorry. You and Robert must be terrified. I hope they get this figured out for her soon.

Is there a school social worker or hospital social worker maybe that can get Robert more involved in group activites? I feel so bad for him! Poor kid has been thru so much!

I vented about the yellow ribbons too (damn that Tony Orlando). And when we had Ronnie's birthday party at a hotwheels themed pizza place, the parents stayed and we ended up paying an additional $9.95 a head per parent for 15 of them. For PIZZA for crying out loud.. its insane. We didnt have it either, we are always flip flopping who will be paid as late as possible this month.. but you do what you have to. I could have easily had the party at home, but when your cancer kid wants something, they get it...

Is Robert part of Super Sibs? We have to get him involved in something, to make him feel special. No offense, but he's been the "brother of the cancer kid" for so long, that now he's lost that identity. I know my Rachel was going through a lot and feeling left out. There just wasnt enough time or money or energy to go around for the siblings. And you, geez, trying to keep the stuffing from falling out of your life, you must feel like a rag doll being pulled every which way....
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, October 29, 2004 10:50 PM CDT

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Happy Halloween and a Happy (late) Birthday Robert.
I hope you are doing well and will have a great weekend.
Julie and Christy, hugs
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Friday, October 29, 2004 10:36 PM CDT

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I just spent the last 8 hours reading your entire journal, the story of Maxie. Now I feel like I knew him even though I am a stranger. Your story is a book that must be published! I cried, laughed, smirked, and even screamed once. I am a 60 yr. old Grandma too, but am a lucky woman as my Alex is a healthy, sweet 4 yr, old terror. I will think of your family everyday and say a prayer everynite for God to keep you strong and finally bring you a quiet, restful heart. And everytime I see a butterfly, I will have to smile and remember Maxie!
nancy <nls622003@yahoo.com>
st. Louis, mo USA - Friday, October 29, 2004 4:12 PM CDT

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Lots of prayers coming your way ...
Jennifer Irons <RKnAMommy@aol.com>
Hayward, CA 94544 - Friday, October 29, 2004 3:04 PM CDT

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hello - i met you on pogo tonight. This page made me cry. I am praying for you and your family. My daughter, Maycee, has a web site too. www.caringbridge.org/sc/maycee

Anita <nbryant63@cs.com>
Clover, SC USA - Thursday, October 28, 2004 0:46 AM CDT

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Hi Julie, So sorry tht you are having a bad time right now. I am praying for all of you. Christie, I hope that your tests will be over soon and you will be on the mend.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT, I hope that your birthday was "GREAT". I hope you have a wonderful party and get lots and lots of presents. I always loved those presents when I was a kid. Pig out on cake and ice cream, too! You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Jesus loves you and I love you. Much love and mnay hugs from Ohio, Barb

www.caringbridge.org/oh/heidi "become an organ donor . . . give your heart to Jesus"
Barb <babogner@earthlink.net>
Mansfield, Ohio USA - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 12:12 AM CDT

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Robert
Happy Belated Birthday to You.
You should have gotten my card by now.
I am glad you got so many - WOW!!
Hope you have a great time at your party.
Sonya London (ZooKeeperSonya) <funnyfarm67@yahoo.com>
Derby , KS - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 10:30 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
I hope you get all that you wanted...
Tami (Allie's MSN Angels)
Prescott Valley , AZ - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 9:18 AM CDT

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My prayers continue for all of you and that Christy starts feeling better. Hang in there Julie...
Hugs
Marjie <jmr@mahaska. org>
oskaloosa, ia United States - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 8:54 AM CDT

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT. WISHING YOU A GREAT DAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. YOU ARE A VERY SPECIAL BOY. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE YOU HAVEN'T MET THAT CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. GOD BLESS ON YOUR SPECIAL DAY.
Mila <shalen@shaw.ca>
Vancouver, Canada - Wednesday, October 27, 2004 3:02 AM CDT

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HAPPY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!!!! I just want you to know what a handsome, special, and AMAZING little boy you are...I hope that your day was as special as you are!! You and your family have found your way into my heart and I am sending lots of happy thoughts your way from Oklahoma!!

Julie - I am praying so very hard that Christy's health will start to improve and am praying that God will give you the strength to bear all that you do daily....you all are very much in my heart and prayers!
Laura*Allie's MSN Angels* <okiemom1068@hotmail.com>
Shawnee, OK USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 11:01 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday!!!! i hope you have a great birthday party and get everything you wished for!

Jennifer (allies msn angels) <madisonsmama2004@excite.com>
Durant, OK USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 10:59 PM CDT

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Hi Julie !!
Just wanted to say that if the people that came to Robert's birthday party are friends..They should have offered to help pay..They know how much of a strain your family have been under...As for the 2 people that posted something to upset you..Please just go delete their entry..Your family does not need this !! Now to other things, I hope that Christy is doing better !! Hope she got to enjoy the day with Robert...And for Robert, I hope you had a nice day..You deserve it sweetie !! Take care ya'll !!
Cathy ^Allie Scott's MSN Angels^ <sister_2@hotmail.com>
Weatherford, Tx USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 10:07 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert!!!!


Dana Sanford (Allie Scott's MSN Angels) <pooh_n_tigger2002@yahoo.com>
Spring Arbor, MI - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:18 PM CDT

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HI Julie,

Man.. if it ain't one thing.. it's ten, huh. : / Siiigh. Guess I will throw in two cents worth about the pizza party too.. hehehe... are you ready? There is NO WAY.. NO WAY you should be expected to feed the parents who "stay" during the party. I've never been to a party yet, and I am a Mom of FIVE kids (so I have been to a LOT of kid parties) but never one yet, where the hosts paid for the food for those parents who stayed. In EVERY case without exception..the parents gathered in another section of the restaurant and they ate (at their own expense) and visited each other, while the party went on across the room. They stayed out of the way until it was time for it to end.. then retrieved their children and left. I can't believe FAMILIES would come, even expecting to be FED by YOU.. because their child was invited. It just ain't done that way UNLESS the invitation specifies FAMILIES! Don't feel bad about it! The area can be set up for the children and you can tell the parents they can either leave and come back at ___time when you are finished, or they are welcome to stay at the restaurant or wherever, and you will be finished at ___ whatever time. Most will stay.. and will take that time to eat, themselves while you guys party. That is customary and there is nothing wrong with it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!!! God bless you Sunshine!!
You too, Grandma Julie! I am remembering you all in my prayers; you have been through a LOT. God bless ALL my friends on Caring Bridge, for it is true.. MANY have been through this painful journey. And none of these precious families would wish it on another. AMEN? AMEN!
Love you sweet girl!!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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I think a donation jar would be fine- if some people dont agree with it- then they dont have to give! I personally would be happy to pay for some pizza for everyone!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!!!!

I am sorry that some people are hurting so much on this site they have to blast you for your great ideas. You have every right to feel every single emotion and thought you do- They are probably sorry they didnt think of something so wonderful for themselves when it was their time.

Someone wrote you should say 'that sucks' and move on. Well- that may have worked fine for them but you are only expressing yourself and your grief differently. That is what this site is for. To say, out loud, scream, how you feel. You are a great writer- dont let anyone stop you form venting all you want. That is why I come to check on all of you here.

Try to hang in there and hold it together-

ROBERT NEEDS YOU ALL!!

I miss Maxie too and I am praying for you all the time-


Ellen
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 8:36 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert!!! Love, Karalyn
Karalyn Fabiani <karalyn729@comcast.net>
Audubon, NJ - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 8:19 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert! Enjoy your tattoos!
Devan
Mt Washington, KY USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 8:08 PM CDT

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Julie
First of all, WHAT A WONDERFULL PERSON YOU ARE!!! I visit Maxie often, and always read your journal entries. Pelase dont let anyone get yyou down!!! I think people should really think before they speak :-(
Happy Birthday to Robert. I hope he had an amazing day. and my prayers for Christy.
I know you are taking a lot on Julie. :-( And I wish my prayers were enough to make all of the pain and heartache go away!! I know Maxie would want you to be happy again. Hang onto him sweetie. I know its tough. Just hang on to him and he will be with you.
I am so very sorry for what you are going through right now. PLease know you have sooooo many prayers coming your way.
We love you. We support you. And we are here for you.
God bless
Nancy

I love you Maxie.
Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 7:19 PM CDT

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Robert, I hope you had a wonderful tenth birthday. I sent you a card, and hope that it got to you (it was a Harry Potter one).

Jennifer *Allie's MSN Angels* <thecoonfamily1@aol.com>
Ukiah, CA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 6:47 PM CDT

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Hi Julie
I am sorry that there are fool's out there !!When you have a party for a child it is for the child not their parents too! Or the invition would've said and parents invited too!
So since it didn't say that you are not responible for them
I am so sorry to hear about Christy i will be praying all goes well for her. As for breing to old and grouchy to raise Robert i can relate to the grouvhy lol, But i am sure everything will fall into place for you, Remember to take just one day at a time:)
IM when you get the chance
Hugs Marty
Marty <AngelTears1793@aol.com>
Louisville, Ky USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 5:01 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert! I hope you had a great day.
Renee (Allie Scott's MSN Angels) <renee.lorck@gmail.com>
Somonauk, IL USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 4:28 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday to Robert!!! God bless you, sweetie.

Julie - I am so sorry that life is so difficult for you guys right now - on top of everything you've already been through. I'm sending hugs and prayers.

Love, Kelly - /\i/\Samuel J's mama
http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/samuelj
Kelly
Pittsburgh, PA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 4:13 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert!!!! I hope you have a great day!!!!
Sarah Allies MSN angels <kemebu@gmail.com>
Bixby, Ok USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:55 PM CDT

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY Robert. Enjoy your special day.
Mindi & CamiJo (Allie's Angles)
Sun Valley, NV USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:53 PM CDT

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~Happy~Happy~Birthday~Robert~~
Have A Great Day
Filled with Friendship, Love & Family!!
Hugs from Nebraska
michelle ~Allies MSN Angles~
David City, Ne. - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:30 PM CDT

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Sending birthday wishes to Robert!
thinking of you all!

Annie (Allie Scott's msn angels) <kinseydivine@gmail.com>
TN - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:30 PM CDT

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TO ROBERT:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY DEAR ROBERT. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!
(Be very glad you couldn't hear me singing that. My dogs are HOWLING!!!!!)
TO JULIE:
I have 4 children, so you can imagine alllllll the parties that I have been to and I don't expect the birthday parents to feed me when I choose to stay. I know the expense. Even when the parents invite me to eat, I graciously tell them "no thank you". (Unless they are offering cake, chocolate cake. yum yum) Anyway the parents of the invited child should understand the cost and not add to it.
Praying for you all!!
Debbie <dss52356@yahoo.com>
Hoover, AL - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:30 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert!!!!
Kari Z. (Allie Scott's msn Angels) <zfamily00@hotmail.com>
Wauwatosa, WI - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 2:13 PM CDT

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope my card found you! :) You are such a handsome boy, and I hope you have a great birthday!

Just wanted to say something to those who spoke negatively to Julie....this site is her outlet...her way of getting things out...so let her write! Don't judge her...you wouldn't want people judging you! Yes, Michael, her family may not be the only one who has been through the loss of a child and financial trouble, but she's not required to write about everyone else...this is Maxie's site and she is writing about Maxie's family.

Julie,
I'll continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!

Lisa S. <stepp8955@bellsouth.net>
KY USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 1:48 PM CDT

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Julie,

Don't let a few "MIss Manners" devotees get you down. I have a son who's nine (Patrick) and I never expect to be fed by the hosts of a kids party. If I stay for security reasons, I sit at another table and order and pay for my own food. (Chances are, Patrick wouldn't want me joining in anyway.)

I want to make a suggestion about Christy. This may not work for you, but it helped my mom and her friend when they were grieving. After my mother lost her younger brother (who was like a son to her) and her neighbor lost her husband, they decided to take a walk together 2-3 times a week around a neighborhood park. There were days when they both cried during the entire 1-mile trip, days when only one or the other cried, and days when they purposely talked about other things. It helped them get their feelings out, share their grief with each other, and get a little exercise. There were many tears, but there were also rainbows, chirping birds and budding flowers. They even managed to find some things to laugh about. Maybe you and Christy could take a few walks together when Robert is in school and she is feeling up to it. Maybe it will help get both of you through.

Please tell Robert "Happy 10th Birthday" coming from friends in Florida!
Debbie Davis
Largo, FL - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 11:27 AM CDT

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Julie,
My heart goes out to you during this happy but stressful day. I hope that Christy gets better and Robert has a great birthday. I will be thinking about you and sending prayers
Barb <barbilens@msn.com>
La Crosse, WI USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 10:10 AM CDT

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Julie,

Wow. So much stress now, with Christy and Chris and the party - please just take one moment, hour, day at a time. Your words in this journal keep us updated on how you and your family are doing and for us to support you, comfort you, be there for you in whatever small way we can be. DO NOT let unwanted advice hurt you. When finances are tight, every added expense brings so much worry. Personally, if I take my 8 year old granddaughter to a party, I do not expect to be fed, though, obviously customs may be different in different parts of the country. It seems perfectly acceptable to me to plan the pizza only for the children. Wishing I could give you a hug, Kathy P.S. Happy, happy Birthday Robert!!
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:59 AM CDT

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Julie,I'm sorry that some people don't exercise better judgement before they write down their thoughts;that they don't give the situation it's due and react accordingly or if they have something to say,not to hide. This is your space for unloading your grief and although some might not agree with you or anyone else's methods,it's unconscionable for any decent human being to attack you.Everyone is different and handles things differently-that's what makes the world go round. Anyone reading your site should support you,try to lift your spirits and give you advice in a respectable way especially if asked.And two responses did offer their opinion but maintained their anonimity.Not sure why;but I guess that's human weakness. I agree that Robert deserves a special birthday but maybe not one so big under the circumstances. I always believed the ones at home in a controlled environment with a limited number always worked out best.And the timing of it can eliminate the need to feed the children a meal.And parents are likely not to stay. Even if you go to the restaurant,it's a kids party,you are NOT obligated to purchase the parents food.They made the choice to stay;let them pay...but yes you are responsible for the children. Chips,drink and a cake is more than enough at a home party. Games can be organized;finding them off the internet should be easy. Since its Halloween time you can find some appropriate games. Maybe even making a craft item thats not expensive.As far as games to pass the time... I've made a fishing game at parties where you can decorate a box in the theme(if its birthday,halloween etc-wrapping paper is a choice )then you get a long stick and tie string to it. At the bottom secure a magnet to it. Then draw and cut up things to place inside the box(again depending on a theme -for Halloween can use spiders)attach paper clips to each of them and place all in box. Each child gets a turn to 'fish' for items in the box. Give a time limit and the one with the most items is the winner(and only one item can be fished out at a time) Grab a bag of inexpensive candy or themed pencils that can be given to winners of each game.Julie I wish you luck and commend you for loving Robert so much that you realize his need right now to feel special.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:52 AM CDT

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I have been following your heartbreak for some time now. I felt it was time to sign in and let you know you are special. You will find the strength to endure what has been handed to you. Robert will have a GREAt birthday regardless of the incidentals!! My thought is when it comes to children the memories greatly out weigh the money. Have a great time!!
JoAnne <rojoliro@optonline.net>
nj - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 9:12 AM CDT

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A possible solution to the overgrown party (which now includes 30 sets of parents...it has become common for parents to stay at parties...security, you know...none of us feel safe leaving our children in a public place where just a few people are watching many children): It is clear that you can't have the party you want. Your daughter being sick is no time for you and your husband to take on the party yourselves. May I suggest a party at your home for Robert and two or three closest friends. Yes, this means canceling the other party, but I don't know that you have a choice. In this way you'll probably have only have 3 or 4 children to entertain. You can feed them pizza, chips, pretzels and soda at home much cheaper (and you also may not have parents needing to stay). You could also have one or two favorite videos (rent them or make them a present or have Robert share a couple of his). It will be disappointing to cancel the party and you may need to put some time between this cancelled one and the new, smaller party...which will give Robert's Mom a chance to get better. Disappointment? Yes! But I don't see an out and the matter of feeding all the children and all the parents may not be avoided any other way.

I've had good luck having an EXTRA special time for my children and a few close friends. Instead of having a hurried time entertaining many children and adults. I also figured my children didn't need lots of toys at one particular birthday...do they come to expect that many for every birthday following it?

Asking for cards on the CaringBridge site it is a wonderful idea. A card, heck anything in the a mail, is fun!

I hope this helps,
Denise
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 8:11 AM CDT

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PLEASE DONT SAY MEAN HURTFULL THINGS ON THE CAREBRIDGE WEB PAGES ,THESE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN HURT ALL READY ,THEY DONT NEED THIS ,IF YOU CANT SAY ANYTHING NICE PLEASE DONT SAY ANYTHING AT ALL, IF YOU DIDNT LOSE YOUR CHILD OR GRANDCHILD, YOU DONT NO WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE FEELING ,IT DRAINED THEM MENTALY AND FINANCIALLY , GETTING THROUGH THIS WITH MAXIE ,IT LET THEM WITH NOTHING . INSTEAD OF WRIGHTING MEAN THINGS ,GO TO GOD IN PRAYER AND PRAY FOR THEM.ALL THINGS ARE POSSIABLE ,IF YOU NO GOD,

SHARON COX <SHARON @TEARTOWN .COM>
GREENVILLE, SC - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 7:46 AM CDT

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Hey there Robert, your sure a handsome little guy !! I hope you get alot of neat stuff for your birthday..Please help grandma & grandpa take care of your mommy, she needs you now !! Maybe she will be feeling alot better soon..You have a great and wonderful day !!
Cathy ^Allie Scott's MSN Angels^ <sister_2@hotmail.com>
Weatherford, Tx USA - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 3:39 AM CDT

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Thinking of you always.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring place
- Tuesday, October 26, 2004 1:27 AM CDT

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A Mother's Tears

I have filled an ocean with tears.
Salty and bitter, they flow from my soul.
All the grief, all the pain
All the sadness, all the fears.

All the hurt, all the whys.
All the could haves, all the loss.
All the regrets, all the lost chances.
All the wants, all the goodbyes.

I have filled an ocean with tears.
Sweet and soft, they flow from my soul.
All the joy, all the laughter
All the love, all of the years.

All the rewards, all the smiles.
All the triumphs, all the hellos.
All that was right and all that was good.
All the kisses and hugs from my child.

I have filled an ocean with tears.
Salty and bitter, sweet and soft.
For love, for sadness, for joy, for pain.
I have filled an ocean with tears.
- Anonymous

Just a poem that reminded me of you, Julie, and Christy.

Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Tuesday, October 26, 2004 0:48 AM CDT

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I have read your complete journey and felt the need to write. I am truly sorry for everything that each of you have gone through. With Christy, Stan and Maxie. You have each suffered a lifetime of sorrow that no person deserves.
I would hope that each of you can find a ray of sunshine each day for Robert's sake. He needs each of you more than ever now as you need one another as well.
I do agree with the person that wrote about NO jar for collection at Robert's party. This is a party with children. They don't except to have to pay their way at a b-day party. I would not want Robert to feel like a charity case at his own b-day party. It seems you have been and continue to be blessed with people helping you.
I hope that you take this in a positive way and know that others that know you personally feel this way.
Take Care
Thinking of you, VA USA - Monday, October 25, 2004 9:18 PM CDT

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I have signed in a couple of times before, and felt compelled to say that I agree with you about the ribbons. The childhood cancer ribbons and support our troops ribbons are very similiar and are confusing when on the back of vehicles! I will keep Chisty and your family in my thoughts and prayers.....
Laura and Angel Ryan <lladd@iupui.edu/www.caringbridge.org/fl/ryan>
- Monday, October 25, 2004 12:47 AM CDT

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I have not seen an answer to your journal question: Is it proper to put up a donation jar in the in the party room to help cover the cost of all the pizza?
Simply: You don't invite someone to an occassion and then ask them to cover the cost. The only except is a fund raiser and then, if the meal is part of the donation, people pay up front (before they come). Additional funds, at a fund raiser, may be requested. But remember, it was advertised as a fund raiser specifically.
Hope this helps,
Answering
Same every place in the US, - Monday, October 25, 2004 8:19 AM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert! Your guinee pig and you in that picture is so adorable! your one handsome DUDE! I hope you had a great special day.
kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
in - Sunday, October 24, 2004 8:02 PM CDT

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Happy Birthday Robert:)
Have a great one, love the present your gramma got you,
You are a cutie:)
Hugs Marty
Marty <AngelTears1793@aol.com>
Louisville, Ky USA - Sunday, October 24, 2004 2:21 PM CDT

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Hi Julie,Christy & Robert,
I know it's very difficult to get control of your
life when you lose a loved one but Maxie would want
all of you to go on and to enjoy the life you still
have ahead of you..Maxie was such a fighter his
strength and courage just amazed me he was a very
special little boy and he will live forever in the hearts
of all of us..The tree that i planted in his memory
continues to thrive and has grown so much and each
time i walk by it i have to stop and look at it and i
think about how precious Maxie was to all of you and to
us who grew to love him through his journal..Thank you
for giving us all the chance to know and love Maxie he
will live forever in our hearts and in our memories..God
Bless you..
Trish/LegacyOfHope/PrayerBears <Rrntbyr@aol.com>
Kingston, TN USA - Sunday, October 24, 2004 9:46 AM CDT

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Thinking about your beautiful angel today. I'm so sorry to hear that Christy is so sick. Prayers for all of you are on the way!

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Sunday, October 24, 2004 7:36 AM CDT

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Dear Robert and Maxie's Grandmother,
I'm the little girl who sent the scooter to Robert and I hope he likes it! I have the same one and I ride it to school 32 blocks.
My mom says wear a helmet! But mostly have a great birthday from me.
Love from Arabella
Arabella Uhry <auhry@nyc.rr.com>
New York, NY USA - Saturday, October 23, 2004 9:28 PM CDT

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I am so sorry you are going through this right now! If only I could help in some way!
Your whole family has my fervant Prayers!
LOVE ALWAYS,
Cindee mom to Joseph (www.caringbridge.org/or/sonjoseph)
Cindee <Syndleeg1@aol.com>
Portland, OR - Saturday, October 23, 2004 6:52 PM CDT

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Julie, Christy, I didnt know what was going on. Im so sorry Christy is sick, I need to catch up on your journals, I was just emailing with you and had No clue all this was going on. When It rains it pours, truly! Christy you must take care of yourself for yourself and robert. You have many many memories unmade yet with robert he needs you. I am praying for you all.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, October 22, 2004 5:49 PM CDT

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Julie,

I think I have signed your guestbook once or twice, but I have read your entire journal. I'm sorry that your real life friends (at least most of them) were not and have not been there for you. Please know that there are plenty of people in the cyber world thinking about you, Chris, Christy, Robert and your beautiful Angel Maxie. I hope that things begin to look up for your family. You definately deserve it. I hope that Christy will start feeling better soon and that little Robert has a wonderful birthday!!!
Jessie (Allie's MSN Angels) <jpetersen@tcco.com>
Bremerton, WA - Friday, October 22, 2004 2:44 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,
I am praying that Christy will be able to take control of her life and health, and realize that though she has suffered GREAT loss, she also has MUCH to live for. Robert is a strong boy, but his shoulders are small.. he is only a child. He needs all of you!

I'm praying for you, my buddy.. that you would have the strength you need also, to keep going, keep living! A little boy is watching! He needs to see your hope!
Love you!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Friday, October 22, 2004 11:28 AM CDT

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Julie and family,
Good Morning! I am so sorry to hear Christy isn't feeling so good. I truly hope she starts to feel better. God Bless. Always in my prayers.
Michelle Zammat <whisperpur@yahoo.com>
Belcamp, MD USA - Friday, October 22, 2004 10:43 AM CDT

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Praying that Christy's health improves.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Friday, October 22, 2004 10:39 AM CDT

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Julie....when it rains it pours! I hope Christy feels better and that she starts taking care of herself;Robert deserves at least that.His fear must have been tremendous.Christy needs to surrender to outside help;not just to medication. She needs to actively participate in grief counseling.Julie,I will pray for you to maintain your tremendous strength that supports your family so well.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 22, 2004 9:13 AM CDT

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I am praying for all of you at this difficult time.
Tracy Feeney "Allie's MSN Board" <feeneyd@earthlink.net>
- Friday, October 22, 2004 9:11 AM CDT

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Julie, thinking of you all...hoping that Christy will feel better soon. Poor Robert, I can imagine how scared he is. I will try to reach you again soon.
Kellie Davideit (Angel Ian's mom) <kelbri27@optonline.net>
Metuchen, nj usa - Friday, October 22, 2004 1:52 AM CDT

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Julie...I know I am a stranger to you and your family....but I just want to wrap my arms around each of you and do something...anything..to help with your pain..my heart breaks at your words...but all I can do is pray...and I am praying so hard..for your strenth to carry on and for Christy's health..and for sweet little Robert...if there is ever ANYTHING...that someone in Oklahoma can do for you..please do not hesitate...I will be there!
Laura*Allie's MSN Angels* <okiemom1068@hotmail.com>
Shawnee, OK USA - Friday, October 22, 2004 0:02 AM CDT

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Julie,
you are so right. I truly appreciated all the little things that my friends did when my mom was dying. It was amazing to watch so many people crying at mom's funeral but never sent her a card or called her. My in-laws were the worst culprits. it is the people you dont think will be there for you that are there at the drop of a hat. I ache for how you are feeling and it is truly difficult to be alone in your time of need. Hugs to you
Haley <haleymo@aol.com>
- Thursday, October 21, 2004 5:07 PM CDT

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Julie, you've got mail! Just wanted to make sure you read it. Still thinking and praying for you and your family!
Lisa S. <stepp8955@bellsouth.net>
Inez, KY USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 10:10 PM CDT

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My heart is aching for you! I am so sorry for your loss- I am beyond words. I just wanted to let you know that someone in Texas is thinking about you and your family. I have you in my prayers- Maxie was a beautiful child, you are right...his eyes do look like an old soul's. What a blessing to have had him for a son. Lifting you up in Prayer tonight....

HUGS
Wendy
Wendy (Allie's Angels) <stroudtx@sbcglobal.net>
Irving, TX United States - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 9:46 PM CDT

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I just found out about your site today. I just wanted to let you know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers and I am so sorry for your loss.
Lisa (Allie's MSN Angels) <Rxdrone@aol.com>
Melbourne, Fl - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 9:30 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and wishing you peace and strength.
Please know that there are a lot of people like me, whom you've never met that are thinking of you and praying for you. I don't know if that helps, but I sure hope so!
Karen (allie's MSN angels)
Stow, OH - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 12:08 AM CDT

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To The Lagourney Family,
My heart aches for all of you. I juyts want to let you know that I am here for you in WI. I just now was directed to your website via "Allisons Baby Center Angels." I do not know what I can do for you, but I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. Please give an extra long hug to Robert for me. Please email me if you want to talk or even just to vent. I am a very good listener. I am sending many ((((hugs)))) and ^^ prayers^^ your way.
Much Love and Many Prayers,
Barb <barbilens@msn.com>
La Crosse, WI USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 11:45 AM CDT

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My heart aches at the pain that shows so deep in your words....I wish there was something I could do to help...just know that I will be praying so hard for each of you....to find the strength you will need to go on and to find comfort in your love for one another....you have someone in Oklahoma who cares and will be thinking of and praying for you all.
Laura*Allie Scott's MSN Angels* <okiemom1068@hotmail.com>
Shawnee, OK USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 0:56 AM CDT

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My heart goes out to you and your family! I was just showed your site today and so touched by your words. You brought tears to my eyes! And made my heart warm knowing that there are still caring people out there! Wishing you warm and happy thoughts!
Dawn <dawn7246@wi.rr.com>
Milwaukee, WI USA - Wednesday, October 20, 2004 0:12 AM CDT

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You wrote so beautifully today,i think you said everything that needed to be said,maybe someone reading will be inspired to just be there for families going through this kind of thing because they read your entry.

Sending you lots of strength and love right now.

Love Theresa xoxox
Theresa Heath <danjotay@comcast.net>
Rowlett, Tx - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 11:12 PM CDT

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Why is Cheyenne only going to be around for a little while longer? I went to her website after I saw your journal entry to see where I could send a card or something to her or something..it does not sound like she is doing badly.
Ryan <animaldude4444@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 8:10 PM CDT

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Thank you so much for posting to Amy's website. She also had one of the most horrendous yeast infections I have ever seen, in additon to the mucormycosis. Believe me when I say, that is when you needed support the most. I don't totally understand why, but it seems so common that people pull away when we need them most. I think a lot of it is that they just don't know how to react when someone is facing or experiencing a loss like ours. I experienced so many of the things you talk about in your post. Amy's neighbors that she had only known for six months were awesome.....they took her dog for a walk every day...visited her, etc. Her closest relatives and friends (not all, but many) seldom came around. They were waiting for her to get better!! Never happened and then it was too late. Then, after the funeral, we got few phone calls and fewer visits.
I was so angry for about 1 1/2 years, then I just had to let it go....because it was hurting me more than anyone. I still blame the Drs. but I am trying to let the anger go.
I hope people do learn from your post....it is so right on!!

Amy's mom
www.caringbridge.org/sd/amyschroeder
Rosemary Harris <Rosmaburg@aol.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 11:18 AM CDT

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What a powerful entry. And one that seems so true. I was just reading on another site yesterday how the brother of an Angel feels so alone. Thank you for the advice and for reminding us what we can do to help.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 8:57 AM CDT

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Hi Grandma Julie,

Thank you for the wonderful words of advice; I am sure that they will be put to good use. Of course, I wish that there was a way to help you through these days apart from sending words over the computer from afar. I'm so glad that Caringbridge has been of some comfort. You are so often in my thoughts....love, Kathy
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Tuesday, October 19, 2004 8:18 AM CDT

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Hi
Thanks for giving me an insight into how people feel and think. If I ever meet another family with a need who lives close to me, I know what to do. I just wish that you had the support when you needed it the most.
~Joanne's Page~
Care Mail!

Joanne <joanne_173@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, October 19, 2004 1:00 AM CDT

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Julie, I wish I lived closer to you so I could come give you a big hug right now. And Joseph would keep Robert company. I will never forget Maxie. Love, Karalyn
Karalyn Fabiani <karalyn729@comcast.net>
Audubon, NJ - Monday, October 18, 2004 6:48 PM CDT

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Hi Julie:)
Was so happy to chat with you, hope i get to again real soon, somehow i caught a bug and haveeee been so sick ( dizzy ,etc } hope it passes soon. Love the new pictures you have up! Did you ever find out what that was that Robert wanted? If not i'll figure out something << wink wink >>
I bet your glad Christy is going back to work Grandma needs some me time! But i also know you and you know it will do her good, Hopeing she gets trough the rough days ahead with the med change, Now take care and REMEMBER
Take One Day At A Time
Hugs Marty
Marty <AngelTears1793@aol.com>
Louisville, Ky USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 11:08 PM CDT

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I also considered my sweet Rachael an "old soul". She always, like your Max, seemed so much wiser than her years.
I too understand how difficult it is to go on. Getting up every morning is a big challenge.
Rachael was my only surviving child...dead at 19. Don't know any words of wisdom, this grief experience is a horrible experience. I wonder if the doctors that treated our children experience grief? I know, I'll never know.
Max is the King of CB...then my Rachael must be serving in his court. I hope they make a great team!

Kathie Mayo www.caringbridge.org/mn/rachaelmayo <winkatmayo@hotmail.com>
Winona, MN USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 6:05 PM CDT

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What a cutie, Maxie. I bet he's getting all the girls in heaven. I'm glad that Christy is feeling better... I hope that all the following days find you in greater ease. Julie-I hope that you and Robert are doing good. Take care. You are in my thoughts and prayers always.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Sunday, October 17, 2004 5:42 PM CDT

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Your grandchildren are gorgeous! May God bless you during your difficult struggles. . . Blessings from Pittsburgh.

Chris A.
Pittsburgh, PA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 9:01 AM CDT

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Julie, I have been reading your past journal entries (for about 2 hours) and I just want to say that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I have no words to make you feel better, and I am sorry for that. I just hope you all remember that Maxie will always be with you! I lost my papaw this past April (complications due to cancer---I hate that word). And it is still so hard for me, but it makes it a little easier knowing that he is looking down on me and that someday I will be able to hug him again!

Remember, you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Lisa S. <stepp8955@bellsouth.net>
KY USA - Sunday, October 17, 2004 0:56 AM CDT

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I really adore the new picture of Maxie that is on the home page tonight too. Look at that precious little guy, eh? What a doll baby boy! What a good looker. He looks like a little Cole Hauser. Cole Hauser is starring in a new movie called "Paprazzi". Look him up on the internet and look at his photos. Maxie looks like he would have grown up to look just like him. Oh he was also in 2 Fast 2 Furious as Carter Verone. I happen to think Cole Hauser is the most gorgeous man God or whoever created! I believe that man was put here for me to look at and sigh. And I think Maxie was just a good looking. And I believe his spirit is still as strong and hansome as ever.

Please try and work with Christy. God knows it is hard what you ladies are going through. But the people who post on this page are right when they say Maxie would be torn up if he knew. Don't let him see you guys having such a hard time. Remember to make it easy on him no matter how hard it is on you. I know he can still see the two of you. So find a way to come together in all of this pain and sorrow. Let it make your bond stronger. My heart and prayers are with you both.
Tracee Saltz <TraceeSaltz@mchsi.com>
Norwalk, Ia - Saturday, October 16, 2004 7:46 PM CDT

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I just love the new picture you have up of Maxie. What a handsome boy. I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you and your entire family... I cannot even imagine the pain that you feel. Please know that your family continues to be in my thoughts.
Jessie <jpetersen@tcco.com>
Bremerton, WA - Friday, October 15, 2004 4:02 PM CDT

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I just love the new picture you have up of Maxie. What a handsome boy. I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you and your entire family... I cannot even imagine the pain that you feel. Please know that your family continues to be in my thoughts.
Jessie <jpetersen@tcco.com>
Bremerton, WA - Friday, October 15, 2004 3:51 PM CDT

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Oh Julie, my heart breaks for you. It seems you are expected to keep everyone standing. Without a doubt, Christy needs counseling and sooner than later. Julie...if you don't take care of #1 YOURSELF you will be good to nobody. Their grief will just get added to yours and you will all drown. Don't let that happen. You know it's not what Maxie would want for you all.Maxie trusted in both you and Christy completely and got the courage to FIGHT...why don't you trust in something higher than yourself and let HIM guide you. Let go and let God.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Friday, October 15, 2004 9:57 AM CDT

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Oh Julie
My heart hurts so bad for you tonight, I have kept up with you ever since Maxie first got his page { but i am just not a signer sorry :( But tonight i felt i have to write to you
Julie i wish i was a neighbor so i could walk on over and give you a great big ((((((((HUG)))))))))) because my gear friend you need someone to take care of you! You have been through so much and have been everyones shoulders to cry on to lean on , NOW you need a time Julie wish there was a magic wand i could wave around you and make you feel better but we know life just isn't that way, so we have to plunge ahead, So Julie please e-mail put me on your IM and i will surley love to chat with you I also have SLE LUPUS and Fibromaglia and have lost a child, My heart can only imagine what you are going through as i have a relationship with my oldest grandaugther like you had with Maxie and i know i just would fall apart or feel like laying down to die like you want to But Julie Robert needs you everyone around you needs you And Julie us caringbridge family loves you Or we wouldn't be coming back to check on you So please Julie talk with me Know i really DO! care Please take care
Hugs Marty
Marty <AngelTears1793@aol.com>
Louisville, Ky USA - Thursday, October 14, 2004 9:13 PM CDT

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Oh Julie: My heart is heavy for you all tonight. First, I loved Jennifer's guestbook entry. She always writes so beautifully. She is completely correct, GOD IS THE ANSWER. You really need not look for "other" ways - He IS the way. Please, find a Pastor to talk to. Open your heart, really learn the teachings of the bible - you will be amazed at how the Holy Spirit can change your life. If you are open to it, it will truly fill every aspect of your being. Finding someone of the Faith that can truly walk with you in your spiritual journey will be so beneficial. I know this from experience, I took a religion class that was offered by the church of the school my son attends. We studied Luthers Small Catechism. It opened my eyes and heart in ways that are incredible to believe. Along with taking this path, counseling could be a good option. Talking it out with a second party can be very purging. These two methods combined (of which I have done both myself) are life changing. Don't try to go through this pain on your own, there are people that can really help you come to terms with everything. Just search them out, pray daily, grow in your faith.....please know that I am here along with so very many on the Caringbridge that have come to love Maxie and you and your family, I will always be available to listen and encourage. Please email me anytime. God loves you, he will never forsake you. I am sure you feel your Faith being put to a great test, to an almost unbearable point. Please just keep reaching out to Him, God does know your pain and your needs. He will hold you in his loving hand, always.
Blessings,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Ej's Caring Place
- Thursday, October 14, 2004 8:34 PM CDT

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Maxie, some how you got embedded into my heart. And I feel you all the time. And I think of you every day. I think of your family, and read of thier struggles and I sit here in tears. I wish to God that none of this happened. Please reassure them that nothing is thier fault. They miss you so much. I look at your eyes Maxie, and they get me every single time. I am one of many who visit your site every single day. I know I am just one, of the many who cry.
Keep close to your family Maxie. They need you sweetie. They miss you and are struggling every day.
Help them.
"God speed little man, sweet dreams, little man"
Nancy
http://kellycountry2002.homestead.com/Index.html
Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:38 PM CDT

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Hello dear friend. I'm sorry to see that things have gotten no better for you all. Rather than forge ahead, it seems as though you are all shutting down in your own ways. It's so easy to do, and with fall here and the weather getting a little more dreary, it makes such a good excuse to just close yourself in and shut down.
I wish I could tell you what got me through, how I did it, or how I still do. Unfortunately, I can only give that credit to God, because I really don't know how I buried Ty and lived to tell about it. My journey with him has changed my life forever, but for the better--not the worse. Your family has had so many scars placed upon it's exterior...Christy's kidnapping, Stan's death, Maxie's birth, Maxie's death---it's like a little soap opera. However, what's most important is not that scarred exterior...it's the gorgeous interior, filled with love that beams from every crack and crevace. That's the thing that's most important. Unfortunately, it seems as though your family is falling apart at it's seems. Poor Robert is left to worry about his mommy, as well as you and Chris. He wants you all in bed before he goes to bed to be sure you're all safe and sound, I'm sure. He wants to know you're not going anywhere. He needs security, safety and love. For his sake, you and Christy need to get some counseling and find a way to get through the hell and on to the heaven that awaits you in raising Robert. I know how hard it is to lose the child you love more than life, but I also know that for the child left behind, it is important to try to make life normal and safe. He's 10 years old, and needs his family now more than ever. If you can't get help for your own sake, get it for his.
I am in no way trying to judge you, my dear friend, only help. I can see from here the pain in your heart, pain that overwhelms you, like an elephant sitting on your chest. It's normal to grieve, normal to hurt, but you have to find a way to live, too.
I will pray that God takes your hand as he has taken mine, and leads you every step of the way until you find your groove in life...you and Christy, both. You are right, it must've been God that tapped you on the shoulder and told you, "Shut up and love him!" when you first held Maxie. Little did you know that he would change your life forever.
This time, when GOd taps you, turn around and listen. Let him lead you without questioning where you're going, if you're there yet, and how long it will take. (Don't be like a little kid on a car trip!!!! ha ha)
Please, do it for Robert. DO it for you. Do it for Maxie.
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, October 13, 2004 5:40 PM CDT

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Dear Julie, Christy, Robert and Chris,

I am praying that your spirits will somehow be lifted from all your pain. I wish that all the people who have signed your guest book could somehow magically take away this pain. I wish there was more that we could do to help you than just write some silly words down in a guestbook. I know that I, for one, usually have no clue just what to say and I end up sounded like a complete moron :-)

I just wanted to stop by and let you know that not a day goes by that I don't think about and pray for all of you and Maxie. He was my first introduction to the Caring Bridge world, and I will remember him forever.
Lisa <Lohlisa2004@yahoo.com>
New York, NY USA - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 3:04 PM CDT

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Julie, hang in there! I know you have heard this many of times, God those not put more on you than you can handle. Ask God to came into your life and take control. God wants us humble. I know he will get you thru all of this just trust in him and let him show you the way. Robert really needs you and his mom. I think of your family all the time. I set in church and pray that God takes the pain away. Do you have a big brother program where you live? If so that would be good for Robert. I lost my mom at a young age(22) and that was the hardest thing I've been thru, it take years to get use to. I still think of her all the time and wonder if she would be proud of me and my kids. I know that losing a child would have to be harder than losing a parent. Just take one day at a time. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Try to get someone to came and talk to christy if you can't get her to go to the doctor. Robert needs her right now. God bless you and your family!!!!
Lavonne Penn <lpenn787@earthlink.net>
Mount Airy, nc - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 12:58 AM CDT

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Julie,
I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers! Please take Missy's invitation and join a church...if not that one than another! You will find so much comfort there and they can help guide you and your family to the help you need. I am praying for all of you as you travel this devastating road of grief!
Stephanie Moore <patrick.moore@insightbb.com>
Louisville, KY - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 10:32 AM CDT

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Julie you are a strong mom and granny to all your family. i still pray for you that God will confort you all. i no its not easy but let him touch your heart and let him be there for you. a friend always judy.
judy martin <elaine210@aol.com >
lynchburg , va - Wednesday, October 13, 2004 10:10 AM CDT

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Just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you always. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

My website

*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetcolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 12:20 AM CDT

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Dear Julie,
I want you to know that I pray for your family every day! I have been helping to start New Venture Church (the one Mrs. Dearmon's husband is a pastor of). It meets at 8:30 and at 10:00 on Sunday at the Charmike theater on Alverser Drive. It has been a wonderful experience so far. There are lots of people there to love you and care about you. It would be wonderful if you came and gave it a try. You can definitly feel God's presence there and you have fun too! I hope to see you there.
Love,
Missy
Missy Blackmore <lovingnlearning@yahoo.com>
Chesterfeild, VA USA - Tuesday, October 12, 2004 11:37 AM CDT

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Hey Julie, Christy and Robert:
I feel you pain and continue to pray daily for all of you.. I hope knowing we are still out here thinking of you helps in some small way.... I wished I could do more so until I can I will continue to pray for you all
I hope you feel all the support from us out here...
Hugs
Marjie <jmr@mahaska. org>
oskaloosa, ia United States - Monday, October 11, 2004 10:26 AM CDT

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Sweet Julie and Christy,
As Always you are in my prayers! Oh how I wish I could take away your pain. All I can do, is to tell you that you are very much cared for! You are loved!
Peace be with you!
Cindee mom to Joseph (caringbridge.org/or/sonjoseph)
Cindee <Syndleeg1@aol.com>
Syndleeg1@aol.com, OR - Monday, October 11, 2004 2:53 AM CDT

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Dear Julie and Christy,
Your sharing is heartbreaking, but very truely. We are struggling on the same journey. Our children's absence makes us hurt so much because their presence brought us so much joy. Seeing the following sentence on another girl's site and we want to share with you, "Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith ... it is the price of love."
Though the path is rough, we pray and thank God for those precious memories of happiness with our beloved ones. May the Lord's compassion fill the forever emptiness in our hearts because of the loss of our lovely children.

Benjamin, Paulina, Erin (Forever Family with ~Esther~) <Mercy2Live@yahoo.com>
Fairborn, OH US - Sunday, October 10, 2004 10:28 PM CDT

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Julie,
I think that what you are feeling is normal... normal signs of grieving. Christy's son died, she's feeling exactly what you felt when Stan died. I'm so sorry that you all had/have to go through this. Cancer is a monster and no child deserves to have it. I think that God knew that you guys could handle this, he chooses the best kids and the strongest families. And as for Robert, he's really confused and sad right now. Maybe you have to be alright (not ok, just alright) in order for Robert to feel like he'll be alright too. Take it one step at a time. The pain will never go away but it will ease in time. And, besides, I don't think that Maxie wants to see you in this much pain. Celebrate his life every day and honor his memory. Don't let it be like he left you in sorrow, just think of all the good times that you shared. And you were blessed with his short time, here on earth, honor it now. Take care.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Sunday, October 10, 2004 9:31 PM CDT

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Julie as hard as it is for Christy it will only get worse if she gives in to the suffocating fear. Really. First she doesnt want to go to work then the next thing you know she wont be leaving the house anymore. This isnt what Max wanted for you guys. You have all been through hell, and its not going to be easy but you can do it. I hope Christy works with compassionate people who understand the situation...
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Sunday, October 10, 2004 7:36 PM CDT

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Just a short hello from me,



Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Sunday, October 10, 2004 6:11 AM CDT

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Grieving is so individualized as you are witnessing but the unfortunate part is when one wants to curl up and withdraw from the world...the world keeps moving with or w/o you as you are witnessing by the mounting bills. I pray you all get the strength to handle living without Maxie's physical presence and to be able to turn the grief into memorializing Maxie's courage. Just think at how strong he was in dealing with his cancer and how he always put other's feelings first. What a wonderful legacy for you all to admire.Prayers continuing...
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, October 9, 2004 2:59 PM CDT

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Julie, christy, praying for you all, im sorry its so difficult for you all now, Connor is not well at all. He needs lots of prayers.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, October 8, 2004 10:51 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, I have been trying to think of what to say to you after going back and reading the past entries I realized that you had a hard time with your grandkids being mixed and maybe you still do. But I have two girls that are biracial and I think they got the best of both worlds. Maybe by the time robert and my girls get old enough it want matter what race you are. If the adults would leave things along the kids would not see color anyway. Your grandsons are beautiful. I hope I did not say anything to upset you that is not my intent. I will continue to pray for you Chris, Chrisy and Robert. God bless you!!!!
Lavonne Penn
Mount Airy, NC - Friday, October 8, 2004 12:13 AM CDT

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Hi Julie & Christy, I'm so sorry you're so stressed, it's such a hard thing to go through. I haven't signed in a while, just haven't thought of anything to say. I think I wrote you that Maxie told me I'd be okay when I went in the hospital for my breast cancer surgery. Just a very fleeting image of him, but I certainly felt sooo much better. I remember thinking "if anybody knows, you do Maxie." :) Now I'm having radiation therapy for 6 weeks, then either chemo or harmone therapy for 5 years. Lordy, I'm almost 65 now. Good thing I have a prescription plan at work, huh?! Guess I won't be retiring for a while though. Ah it's more fun to work anyway. I hope Robert has a wonderful birthday party! Hi to Chris, too. I know it's hard to keep going sometimes...just keep putting one foot in front of the other, I guess. I'll be praying for you all.
With Much Love,
Miss Judy
PS By the way, Maxie had a very serene look and a slight smile on his face when I "saw" him. I know he's happy to be where he is, but sad for you because you're all so sad.
Miss Judy <taejme@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Thursday, October 7, 2004 7:31 PM CDT

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Asking Jesus to surround you with peace and comfort...


Pat Leonard <DPLeon@aol.com>
Montclair, CA - Thursday, October 7, 2004 2:47 PM CDT

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I continue to pray for all of you!!!!!

Hang in there...
Hugs
Marjie <jmr@mahaska. org>
oskaloosa, ia usa - Thursday, October 7, 2004 10:02 AM CDT

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I just wanted to let you know you are being thought about. I lost my brother almost 2 years ago. I know that does not compare to losing your own child. I pray for you to find some inner peace and joy for Robert.
Britt <nwspinel@smsd.org>
Shawnee, KS USA - Thursday, October 7, 2004 7:51 AM CDT

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I've been praying for you every day since I found this site in February. My heart goes out to you all.
Debbie
Largo, FL - Thursday, October 7, 2004 7:49 AM CDT

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Letting you know that I'm thinking and praying for you all.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, October 6, 2004 10:28 PM CDT

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Julie-Haven't talked to you in a while, I hope everything is okay. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Karalyn
Karalyn Fabiani <karalyn729@comcast.net>
Audubon, NJ - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 8:07 PM CDT

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One day at a time, that's all we can face sometimes. Let me know if you drive up to NY, I am not far from the City and would love to meet you all...I can play tour guide if you like :)
Kellie Davideit <kelbri27@optonline.net>
Metuchen, NJ USA - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 5:11 PM CDT

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HI Grandma Julie!
I haven't forgotten you! One of my precious Legacy Prayer Warriors passed away this past week - a 2˝ yr battle with cervical cancer.. left a 12 yr old son behind. :"( Any way you slice it.. CANCER SUCKS, huh. :"(

I love the pictures in the little zeocast thing on the front page! SO SWEET.. SO "Maxie"... Dear Lord, I miss that sweet boy too. :"(
Ya'll take care. Give sweet Robert a BIG HUG!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 11:58 AM CDT

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Julie, Christy, Im still storming heaven with prayers for you all. You truly do need to get away. Can you post a fund raiser on the front page so people can donate to it. Put it out there to remind them of your goal and how close or far you are to it, Like on Katias page once it was posted they are very close to reaching a goal they needed. Connor urgently needs prayers . ANd Cancer just sucks its an awful theif in the night it grows while you sleep it seems. what a monster. Good luck with the party we just had one for our 10 yr old, Im partied out! Utter chaos 10 boys sleeping over! We stayed at home did the traditional pizza ice cream cake. bob for apples, scavenger hunt in the neighborhood. Flashlight tag. twister. they had so much fun. I hope you feel better soon julie, Can you have a garage sale??? put the money towards the trip. Maybe we should email Oprah Daily!
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Wednesday, October 6, 2004 8:21 AM CDT

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hey from florida,, i live about 45 minutes from disney,, if you can get here and go to disney,, you have a free home to stay, i wish i had more to offer but thats my life for now the hurricanes messed things up for awhile,, but we have a roof over our heads, and you are all more than welcome to stay with us. try not to think about christmas yet, you may just need to do it different and im sure you will not be alone. If I can just say for one moment what I have learned from Maxie and you,, My mom died 9 years ago,, and I go thru the motions of xmas,, for my son who is 12,, we just lived thru 4 hurricanes here and lost 7 trees,, I'm planting a tree in my front yard for Maxie, I was going to do it after hurricane season,, but I have a mission now on christmas morning I have one problem can you tell me what kind? I want to tell you your family will never be alone,, you are all so loved and you have so much love to share with all your stories and I want to Thank You
Carol
carol kirkpatrick <carol_kirkpatrick_58@hotmail.com>
deltona, fl usa - Sunday, October 3, 2004 1:44 AM CDT

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It sounds good that you are having a party for Robert... he REALLY deserves one. He has been through so much for his (not even) 10 years of life. He sounds like an amazing little boy. A special gift to feel blessed for. Maxie is always with you all, he's watching over his family. Maxie was a special boy too. I hope that you have a great Oct and that you are in less pain. Take care.
" The dance of life must go on, no matter how much the tune of the music changes."
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Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
mpls, mn - Saturday, October 2, 2004 6:37 PM CDT

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Sending you lots of hugs and well wishes ... you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Jennifer Irons
Lighting Children's Lives
Jennifer Irons <rknamommy@aol.com>
Hayward, ca usa - Friday, October 1, 2004 4:09 PM CDT

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You don't know me, I don't know you but your website has comforted me. I lost someone very close to me this year and I FINALLY cried tonight and dealt with it after reading your web-site......your word's have blessed me and many more I am sure.
MB <blessed@aol.com>
somewhere out there, - Friday, October 1, 2004 10:49 AM CDT

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Hoping Robert has a great party, he sure deserves it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!!!
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Thursday, September 30, 2004 8:48 PM CDT

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I wanted to tell Robert Happy Birthday!! May all your days be filled with happy thoughts and BIG smiles!!!
Tammy(Tatertott) <Tatertott7460@aol.com>
Sioux City, IA USA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 9:15 PM CDT

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Christy, he certainly was a special boy. A star, just like on the home page. I hope he and Ian have met up in heaven. Thinking of you all...
Kellie Davideit <kelbri27@optonline.net>
Metuchen, NJ USA - Wednesday, September 29, 2004 11:32 AM CDT

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Christy, Im so glad your writing your feelings. that is so helpful. Maxie knew how much he was loved. He was a brave young man. ANd sounds like so so much fun! im sure you miss him terribly. Did your mom tell you about my dream?? maxie is vibrantly well. Oh why did your mom say she wasnt going to Love him when he was born??? Email me sometime you need a friend,
kim
in - Monday, September 27, 2004 11:36 PM CDT

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Christy, I'm glad your writing your feelings and the good times you had and your are gonna have many more,I'm VERY glad I got to be your friend and got to know Maxie!! I'm thinking about you and Robert, Julie and Chris all the time and I hope u keep thinking positively.*HUGS* to you all!!!
Tammy (Tatertott ) <Tatertott7460@aol.com>
Sioux City, Iowa USA - Monday, September 27, 2004 9:38 PM CDT

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just sending our love and support across the miles...

always in our hearts thoughts and prayers!!
~*~Samantha's Story~*~
karen n sammi <mpbowler1@aol.com>
- Monday, September 27, 2004 7:44 PM CDT

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Hello.
its me Darlene, Tyler's grandma,
you guys are wonderful, you have the lost of a child to deal with, and all the pain, but you still have the time to love and care about Tyler, , no wonder maxi was so
sweet, he had you all, to love are care about him,
and i bet Robert is really sweet to, i no you all miss maxi, but he is with you in sprit, he loves you all, and one day you will all be together again.
http://www3.caringbridge.org/sc/tylertucker/ <TURPIN10648@aol.com>
GREENVILLE, SC - Monday, September 27, 2004 5:47 AM CDT

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Julie, Christy, Robert, I had a dream of maxie last night, He was sitting under a tree playing a video game, Looking so bright! and vibrant. he smiled the biggest smile as kids came and sat under the tree to play with him. It was a very touching dream, And I can see his face so clearly still. Maxie is well! very well! Im praying for you all so much. i know nothing helps right now but know your loved and people care. I just wanted to tell you about my dream! Heaven is breathtaking, in my dreams I cant even imagine the Real thing.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Saturday, September 25, 2004 9:32 PM CDT

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Maxie,
Just saying hello to you today. And shedding a tear as I always do. You are such a beautiful beautiful boy. And Ican see you are missed beyond words.
Help your family Maxie. They struggle an dmiss you so much.
"God speed little man.....sweet dreams little man"
Nancy
http://kellycountry2002.homestead.com/Index.html
Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com>
- Saturday, September 25, 2004 7:32 PM CDT

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I am still here with you. Time doesn't erase much of that pain does it? It sure takes a lot of time anyway. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Maxie is still with you. Please believe that. Please share some things that you know were signs from Maxie. You know what I mean. Only someone who has suffered the grief of a lost LOVED one knows what I mean. You just know when they are checking on you. Tell me about those times.

Tracee Saltz <Tracee Saltz@ mchsi.com>
Norwalk, Ia - Friday, September 24, 2004 10:00 PM CDT

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Hi, I just read Maxie's story and there is ALOT in common with my daughter's journey. She too died from RMS of the liver. Similiar radiation side effects as Maxie and it came back FAST in the radiation bed after it was originally removed. I will continue to check back on your site and say a prayer for your family.
Matt Brady http://www.caringbridge.org/de/haley <arizona422@comcast.net>
Newark, DE - Friday, September 24, 2004 10:32 AM CDT

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I too am a member of this club, of course I wish I wasn't, but I am. I still check your website often to see how you guys are doing. I am sorry for all your pain. Please try to take care of yourself.

www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy
Paula (Mitch's mom) <Phstyln@aol.com>
Vancouver, Wa - Thursday, September 23, 2004 7:45 AM CDT

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I lost my brother to leukemia in 2002. He fought a brave, amazing fight. He loved everything Moose too. You are in my prayer.
Britt <nwspinel@smsd.org>
Shawnee, KS USA - Thursday, September 23, 2004 7:19 AM CDT

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Julie, I must agree with everything you said about the "club" that so many of us never wanted to join, but were initiated into. My son Aaron has battled melanoma for over two years now, and will have two more spots biopsied in November. The ugly cancer beast will not leave him alone. I'm always here, just a keyboard away.... love, Kathy
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 1:45 PM CDT

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Julie, how wonderful it is to put a face with the journaling! I check Maxie's site daily, and pray to him every night to keep watch over his family here on earth. Thanks for sharing your life with all of us and know we wish you well and are here for you always!! God Bless you and the whole family.
Stephanie <ocean7369@yahoo.com>
Sacramento, - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 1:10 PM CDT

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I still pray for you daily. The "childhood cancer club" is on that no one wants to join. We may never understand why some are "drafted" and others aren't, but all of you in the club have my thoughts and prayers daily.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Wednesday, September 22, 2004 8:45 AM CDT

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Julie,firstly,you and the family are in my thoughts and prayers daily. You have such an ability to put your thoughts down so eloquently in your journaling. Thank you for sharing yourself that way. BTW...love the pic of you and Maxie!
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Tuesday, September 21, 2004 11:50 PM CDT

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Sweet Julie, Christy, and Robert,
We were drafted in May of 2003. After they told us the news, that Joseph had cancer. Everyone kept asking us if we were OK? We (DH and I) were numb. I felt like we had been hit with a baseball bat, but hadn't felt it yet. Everyone else saw, but we couldn't feel.
We are still in the fight. Joseph is doing pretty good right now, but the fight is still fought.
Maxie's site is one of the first ones (Caringbridge) that I came accross. I thought, wow there are others that feel the same way I do. Then when Sweet Maxie took a turn for the worse, it felt like my own child. I have never prayed so hard.. I know we have never met, but I love you and your family all the same. Thank you for being here. Thank you for sharing Maxie with the world. He was a true angel here on Earth, and now in heaven.
May God Bless you always, and know that our family still prays for yours!
Cindee mom to Joseph (caringbridge.org/or/sonjoseph)

Cindee <Syndleeg1@aol.com>
Portland, OR - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 10:33 PM CDT

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Thinking of you everyday.
Kimberly Price <jepandkim@hotmail.com>
Rocky Face, Ga USA - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 8:02 PM CDT

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Dear Julie, I read your message in Cheyenne's guestbook today, and somehow I found my way to this site. I am so very sorry for your loss. I have lost both parents to cancer (colon and brain tumor), and I can sympathize completely when you say it is a club you do not want to join. My prayers are with you and your family. I pray for your comfort and healing. I admire your courage and plain speaking. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Linda
linda champa <lachampa@mintz.com>
boston, ma usa - Tuesday, September 21, 2004 4:08 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, hope this finds you, Christy and Robert coping okay
Chris ~ Gooch's Site ~
- Monday, September 20, 2004 10:22 PM CDT

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I have read your story about your precious boy. I hope that his memory can someday bring you comfort. I have 4 healthy grandchildren and I know I am blessed for that. Please continue to pray for comfort and I know your little angel is watching you from above..
Linda North <Lnorth3@kc.rr.com>
Kansas City, Mo USA - Sunday, September 19, 2004 0:52 AM CDT

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May God and Family be with you. May they wipe your tears, dry your eyes, and uplift you and your loved ones into eternal happiness. Bless you and family!
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- Saturday, September 18, 2004 10:10 PM CDT

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hi julie
well for one i couldnt agree more,no one should have to go threw this bull !! I got the trees planted no plaques yet i planted them where we use to live. i planted mitchells apple tree and the weeping willow tree ill let you know when the plaques are done it might be next year ... the maritimes have such harse winters so i might wait til the spring !!
take care abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
truro, ns canada - Saturday, September 18, 2004 7:31 PM CDT

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Dear Julie (My sweet friend & best Grandma in the world),Christy (Supermom),Chris(the strong silent one)and Robert(The smart,handsome one),

I absolutely LOVE the slide show of Maxie. It brought tears to my eyes remembering him and how sweet and loving he was. God has a wonderful Angel in Heaven. He sure knows how to pick-em. You are all such a loving family and you just keep it up. Robert will grow up to be a great person with all of you behind him. He is reacting from his own grief and loss even if he can't express it all in words. He is doing so well in school...aren't we all very proud of him? I know I am. Just keep consistant with him at home and set reasonable limits allowing for his time of mouring in his own way. He will feel your love and fairness and will react to it in a positive manner. Christy is on the right track by arranging her schedule to be home with him as often as possible. She is a SUPERMOM. Grandma Julie is a loving person who tries to be the caretaker for the whole family. She is such a special person and you are all lucky to have her. Things will get better with time. Keep up the good work and God bless you all. You are an inspiration to me.

Please know that I keep you all in my prayers daily.

{{{Angel Hugs}}}
Angel Sharon


Sharon <SShar16@aol.com>
Whittier, NC USA - Thursday, September 16, 2004 2:28 PM CDT

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Julie, I feel so bad that Robert is feeling insecure....but man oh man, what he's been thru for such a young boy!! I remember my daughter's friend died of Hodgkins while they were in HS and her younger sister became a hypochondriac thinking every ache she had;that she too was going to die from cancer.Siblings all react differently,but whatever the way;one must make them feel as safe as possible. And I think you and Christie are doing just that!Maybe it would be a good idea that the school counselor talk to Robert once a week or so....create a 'friendship' where possibly Robert will open up about his fears. He might not yet be able to express what he's feeling so instead he's acting out. The counselor should be trained in drawing things out of Robert....it might help.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
STL, Mo - Thursday, September 16, 2004 11:31 AM CDT

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I just love this sweet picture of maxie! I sorry robert is having trouble, ALot of kids are great in school over acheivers actually so they dont burden there family anymore. But then at home the rage and anger comes out. I mean if adults cant handle it how is a child suppose too??? I would be so angry if i lost my best friend / brother. Robert is doing great I agree! Christy is such a good mom re arranging her schedule, working doing what she must to take care of her baby! I pray for you all the time! Feel better to! Im going through simialr stuff so I Understand.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:28 PM CDT

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My apologies for being a guestbook slacker, and not signing for awhile! I have been visiting almost daily, just haven't signed! My thoughts and prayers are with you always! God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><


http://lightingchildrenslives.org

My website


*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetcolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Wednesday, September 15, 2004 2:25 PM CDT

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Dear Maxie,
I visit you and your family every single day. Today I was drawn to sign the guestbook. I absolutely love the pictures in your slideshow precious boy. You have a beautiful, and loving family that miss you more than anything in this world. My heart and my prayers are with them.
God bless you sweet Maxie. "Godspeed little man"
My love
Nancy
http://kellycountry2002.homestead.com/Index.html
Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, September 14, 2004 7:00 PM CDT

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I love the slideshow. All the pictures of Maxie are beautiful, of course, he was a beautiful child. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Tuesday, September 14, 2004 10:18 AM CDT

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Julie, I just finished watching Maxie's slideshow and I have tears streaming down my face. What a precious child;so handsome. Moments like this one can't help but ask'WHY!?" Still keeping all of you in my prayers!
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Monday, September 13, 2004 11:07 AM CDT

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I think about you so often, and say a prayer for your hearts to be comforted.
My 9/11 memory is on our webpage.
Stephanie & RachelJoy <mom2rj@comcast.net>
- Sunday, September 12, 2004 1:17 AM CDT

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I remember 9-11 I was off from work that day and was watching the news, whoa did it really get to me. I did not leave the couch all day. It was so tragic to me and I will never forget. I pray for you to get some peace in your life right now, I know that I am not in your shoes and do not know what it feels like to lose someone so close. My heart goes out to you.
Debbie
Fenton, Mi USA - Saturday, September 11, 2004 9:24 PM CDT

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Yes Julie..its been 3 years already..can u believe it???? I had gotten my son off to school and was watching the "Today" show(since I'm a native NYer transplanted in STL I was getting my daily NY fix)I was watching when the second plane hit. It was so surreal. After the instant shock wore off I immediately called my sister whose husband is a NYC fireman.He had just left the house and was over an hour away from the city so WHEW,no where in the thick of things!Then there were a few tense hours as waiting to hear where my cousins husband was(NYC Police-Deputy Inspector)He was at the site and had just left the immediate location to go get on his uniform;as he drove straight to WTC upon hearing it on his police radio in the car on the way to work)Another WHEW,he wasn't there as buildings collapsed. Then it was on to worry about my cousins son who works in WallStreet....WHEW,he was making it home SOMEHOW with all the chaos in the city.My sister was the only person I could get in contact with by phone. Anyone else I called,there was just silence on the other end of the line,no ringing... nothing.Such eeriness.So now after several hours of back and forth we had accounted for everyone...but did we? My sister called me back in the evening saying that no one had heard from our good friend (A Battalion Chief in the fire dept)....Wait,someone said he had off that day.Good, another WHEW....which became short lived as it was discovered that he went in on his day off to volunteer to man phones as it was primary day in NY. And as soon as the news came in....he took off right to the WTC.Last anyone heard from him was when he called two of his children who worked in the area,telling them to evacuate the buildings they were in and get HOME.He was doing this as he entered those burnings buildings to help save civilian lives. He never made it out alive.........never to be found,nothing ever identified.My brother in law spentt weeks down there at Ground Zero searching in the rubble for survivors....then for bodies;all the while motivated/driven to find his/our friend so the family could have closure but that wasn't meant to be.He is a HERO. And thats where I was on 9-11.
Tricia <TRiciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, September 11, 2004 3:35 PM CDT

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Julie,
There is so many questions in life that can't be answered. You will find those answers in the next life. I can't imagine why it had to be you and your family to go through this, but God has the answers. Maybe God thought that you could handle this, Christy could handle this and he needed more angels. I guess, he thought that you guys were strong enough to handle it. And you are strong enough that is why you are still here, living. You all will be reunited again, so know that it's not the end. You will see Stan and Maxie again!!! And Stan is sure watching over you and taking care of Maxie and Maxie is watching over you too. You are a very strong family and I admire you so much. I don't understand what it's like to loose a child but I know its something that no one should go through. Stay strong now, Robert needs you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Minneapolis, MN - Friday, September 10, 2004 1:14 AM CDT

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Of course I would stop by and read today. It's strange hearing someone else's memories of that evening. I wish there was something I could say - or send a hug - that would make things better at least for a moment. One day you will have the answers to all your questions. Hang in there guys - there is still work to be done on this Earth.
Tracey <goads@verizon.net>
Vandenberg AFB , CA - Thursday, September 9, 2004 10:09 PM CDT

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Oh Julie, how awful! I am sorry that I do not have any magic words of wisdom or great comfort for you. I hope you got to spend some time with your family today, remembering Stan. Thinking of you all.
Kellie Davideit <kelbri27@optonline.net>
Metuchen, NJ USA - Thursday, September 9, 2004 9:26 PM CDT

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Oh, Julie, I really do not have any words after reading today's entry. I did not know the circumstances of Stan's death, other than I knew it was not an illness. So much suffering for you and your family.........you are in my thoughts and prayers today. Love, Kathy
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Thursday, September 9, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

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hi julie and cristy its darlene tylers grandma hunn , i no you are hurting and i wish i could wave a wond and make all the pain go away , iam praying for you all ., i read the story on maxies page today with tears rolling down my face , we think how hard things are for us but you can always find some one in worst shape at least for now our baby is still with us , but yours is in a better place but i no you want stan and maxie with you , , god bless you
DARLENE COX AND TYLER TUCKER <TURPIN10648@AOL.COM>
GREENVILLE , SC - Thursday, September 9, 2004 11:26 AM CDT

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OH Julie, My heart aches for your pain. You have been asked to endure so much. Stay strong. I pray for your mind ,heart and soul to be comforted.
Tricia <Triciabxny@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, September 9, 2004 10:30 AM CDT

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Julie, Just letting you know I'm thinking of you on this difficult day. Take care of yourself. Love, Karalyn
Karalyn Fabiani <karalyn729@comcast.net>
Audubon, NJ - Thursday, September 9, 2004 9:35 AM CDT

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I was checking in to see how you guys are doing and by the last journal entry I can see not very well. I'm not sure who wrote it (Julie or Christy)-All I can say is I'm sure you did the best you knew how at the time with the information you were given. I'm sure Maxie knows every decision you made was out of love for him and hope for his future. We all are just doing the best we can.


www.caringbridge.org/wa/mitchellboy
Paula (Mitch's mom) <Phstyln@aol.com>
Vancouver, Wa - Wednesday, September 8, 2004 2:07 PM CDT

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Oh poor Julie,I'm so sorry that you are still haunted by all the questions. Until you find peace with that you'll never feel settled. Do you think you could meet with his doctors and ask hard questions now. I know you might not 'hear' the answers that you want from them, but if anything they will HEAR you and hopefully change the way they approach things in the future?I think it will release some anger from you.
Tricia <Triciabxny@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 8, 2004 9:06 AM CDT

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HI CHRISTY AND JULIE ,hello just checking in on you iam praying for you, no that god is with you always , I NO THAT THIS IS REALLY HARD FOR ALL OF YOU , YOU MUST FEEL LIKE THE PAIN WILL NEVER END http://www3.caringbridge.org/sc/tylertucker/,
Darlene cox <TURPIN10648@AOL.COM>
GREENVILLE, SC - Tuesday, September 7, 2004 8:35 PM CDT

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Dear Julie, Christy, Chris and Robert,
Not a day goes by that I don't think and pray for you all. Whenever I see a moose, I think of Maxie and we are in what they call Moose Country, they are everywhere! Maxie touched my life even though I didn't know him as well as all of you in your journal writing. I check on you daily but don't sign the guestbook often, which I should. Hope Robert has a good week at school!
Hugs,
Anne S, <legendkees@iwon.com>
Keshena, WI - Monday, September 6, 2004 11:05 AM CDT

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Julie: Hope you are feeling better after having the teeth pulled! :( Take good care and thinking of you as always.

Christy: I love the picture of Maxie from 1997! What a cutie! You just LOOK at Maxie and you fall in love. What a great child and I know how proud you must be to be his Mom. Hoping each day finds you "feeling" just a little bit more of "joy" in your heart.

God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Thursday, September 2, 2004 7:39 PM CDT

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OUCH!!! I hope you feel better after having those teeth pulled!!! But look at it this way.............ICE CREAM DIET!!!!! Hoping that Robert is liking school(as much as a kid LIKES school) and continuing to pray for your entire family to find a level of peace that makes it easier to carry on w/o Maxie on earth.
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, September 1, 2004 10:40 AM CDT

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I linked here from Kody's page, I usually don't read the angel stories, they make me too sad (obviously a different type of sadness than what your family is experiencing every day). I've sat here for the last two days (I'm suppose to be working) reading your family's story. I have a daughter who just turned 2 on 8/27/04 and can't even comprehend the pain you must feel. I just wanted to let you know that your Maxie sounds like a wonderful person. I wish I would have had the opportunity to meet. I am sure that he is watching you from above, the butterfly incidents lead me to believe that. My father died suddenly when I was pregnant with my daughter, I was only 22 so it was very hard on me. I remember we had to go to WalMart (I don't like that place either) to get something and all of a sudden the song "Pennies From Heaven" came into my head. I immediately looked down and there in the parking lot was a penny. I knew it was a sign from my dad.) I hope Robert had a good first day at school!
Jessie <jpetersen@tcco.com>
Bremerton, WA 98312 - Tuesday, August 31, 2004 1:17 PM CDT

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It's Susi, Hannah's Mom again. I should have given you Hannah's web site!! www.caringbridge.org/ca/hannahrowley/
Susi Rowley <painthorsegirls@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, August 31, 2004 2:29 AM CDT

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Hi to the whole family, This is Hannah's Mom. I know the pain you are all feeling and I'm so very sorry for what you are forced to go through. I want you to know that God will meet you in this terrible time and comfort you. I am sitting with my pen,paper and Bible every morning to read His word and write my thoughts.I try to write one scripture down that I can cling to for comfort each day. It does help me to remember the love and faith Hannah had in God and how much she wanted everybody to know Him and love Him.I tell Abigail (Hannah's little sister) that it won't be long till we get to heaven and we can be confident that we will for sure go to Heaven if we love Jesus and stay close to Him our WHOLE LIVES!! She has been worrying about the what ifs in our lives. (what if we don't go to Heaven, what if Mommy dies before me etc.) Hannah was being treated for almost 5 years and she saw many many friends die. It was and still is so sad but it really bothered Hannah when some mommies let their child's death stop the joy of living in their own life and the lives of the other children. She used to pray for those parents and remind me that she didn't want me to cry all the time if she ever died. I even found a note to God from Hannah that said, "dear Lord, please help my Mom to stop crying. I don't want her to spend the rest of her days crying" She wrote this note in responce to a week when I couldn't look at Hannah without crying because she was so week and tired it seemed she might slip into a coma or die. I now keep that note in the kitchen and read it often. As a Christian, the Bible says when someone dies as a believer that we still have a hope. That Hope and the love i have for Jesus keeps me going . How happy I'll be when he calls me home and I get to see my beautiful daughter in her perfect body with sooooo many crowns. I know she got extra crowns for the suffering and I used to tell her that and read that scripture to her in Romans chapter 8. She liked me to read to her the Bible. God Bless you and may you find strength in Him and live for eternity. I will continue praying for you.
Susi Rowley <painthorsegirls@earthlink.net>
- Tuesday, August 31, 2004 2:25 AM CDT

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Julie, Christy, Chris and Robert,
I don't know you guys but I have followed your journey for months. I found this beautiful story about a butterfly's journey and thought you guys might enjoy it. I know it is very long, but the minute I read it I thought about your precious Maxie and the butterflys he has sent to you all.


Becoming a butterfly…

I was sitting outside on this beautiful spring day, enjoying the blooming crabapple trees, redbuds, and daffodils. A small white butterfly fluttered around me and shared the following story about a special little angel.

In a place where time does not matter, a precious little soul lived in complete joy. She was so full of love and light. She really was more like a light, a beautiful light that is beyond description. She felt the presence of many other souls around her and she was completely immersed in the love that they shared freely. There was also a very special light that was so infinite and awesome that all the other lights referred to it as God. All the souls wanted to be very close to God’s light and love, and that of course brought them all even closer together.

God approached this precious little soul one day, and complimented her on her mastery of loving and being loved. He said, “You are so special, and I love you so much. I want to share you with others so that you can teach them to love and be loved.” the little soul said, “God, I love you so much, and would do anything to please you.” God explained that the little soul could come to the earth school to teach other souls how to love and be loved. “In order, to go to the earth school”, he explained, “you would have to be born into a physical body that would cause you much suffering. And you will have to leave light and love you experience here.” The little soul cried. “But God, I want to be here with you always. I love you so much.” She immediately felt a pang of guilt for being even a little bit selfish. You see she was so aware that real love is only experienced with complete selflessness. This convinced her that, even she, the master of loving and being loved, could learn even more about loving completely, and unconditionally by visiting the earth school herself.

God made some promises. First of all, she would be given many guides and angels to help her on her journey. Secondly, she could choose her parents and family. Thirdly, she would only have to stay few years or as long as she could stand to suffer in her physical shell.

She chose the perfect mommy. Her mommy loved her so much, and she understood what her needs were. But the little soul knew that she could make her mommy even better by being her teacher. She took this task very seriously and was so happy to have a mommy and a whole family that she could love so much. And they loved her very much too. They shared a special bond that reminded the little soul of the bond that she had with God. And as it happened, the light that the little soul emitted without even knowing it touched many other people. They would say things about her like “You have a beautiful smile.” “She really lights up a room.” “She has a twinkle in her eye.” “She is an old soul.” They did not really understand what it was, but they knew the little girl she had become was very, very special.

Even though the little soul missed the closeness she had with God, she was very happy loving and being loved on the earth school. Many angels came to visit her in her dreams to give her encouragement and support. However, it did not take too long before her physical shell started have difficulties. She felt pain in her head, and most of the time, she just ignored it and continued to smile and play. But eventually, the pain got worse. Her mommy did not know what was the matter at first. The doctors tried to give her medicine to fix her physical shell. Before long mommy and many, many others, began to pray to God for the little girl's healing. God answered their prayers. The little soul was healed and became more and more selfless despite her physical pain. The little soul learned that she, the master of loving and being loved, could make a great sacrifice in order to teach others how to love and be loved. God was so proud of the strides that the little soul made on the earth school. He also saw what a great teacher she had become. She had reached out to so many people. People in every part of the earth school were impacted by the lessons that the little soul taught, especially her mommy.

Finally, the angels pleaded with God to bring the little soul home. You see, the little soul resisted their calls because she had become a real master of loving and being loved. She no longer wanted what felt good to her. She wanted to love and help others by teaching them how to appreciate life more fully. She knew that there was so much work to be done on the earth school. She resolved that all the pain and suffering she could endure was worth teaching even one person how to love and be loved.

Finally, God himself came to her in her dreams and reminded her of the beautiful light and love that awaited her at home. During these dreams, the little soul was comforted so much even though she felt so much pain from the fear and worries of the earth souls.

The little girl remembered how hard it was to be born into the earth school. She did not want to leave her home with God then, and it was so painful when she had to gasp for her first breath of air. So many earth souls worried about her, and that made her concerned. God told her not to be afraid about being born back into the light. Even though her physical shell would appear to be suffering, her soul would be set free soon. Her soul would soar like an eagle right into the light, free of all pain and suffering.

He told her to remember the beautiful butterflies that she loved to watch on sunny days outside. He reminded her that the caterpillar encased itself into a dark cocoon. Once the caterpillar was ready to be transformed, it broke out of its shell destroying the home it had grown accustomed to. But once it did, the butterfly was free to fly and bask in the light, enjoy the sweetest nectar, and immerse itself in the beauty that surrounded it. God told her that soon, very soon, she would fly like a butterfly again. All she needed to do was to immerse herself in the light, God’s light. The little soul liked this idea very much.

She did just as God told her. She focused on the light, and surprisingly, the more she did that she began to feel less pain and she became less afraid. Finally, she completely forgot all about her pain and her shell. She began to feel lighter and she floated then soared right into the light. She eventually found herself right back at home with God surrounded by all the loving souls and God’s beautiful light. It was so much easier than being born into the earth school!

Her mommy was very sad to see her physical shell suffer so. It was very difficult to watch her little girl struggle for her last gasps of air. And even though it was very hard, her mommy stayed right by her side and gave her so much love that it set her free. All the earth souls, including her mommy were very, very sad that she left them. Their hearts ached for her physical presence, even though they knew in their hearts that the little soul was happier now that she was freed of her shell.

The little soul's light shined ever so brightly because she was the truly the master of loving and being loved. She felt beautiful and free and so, so happy. She was not sad at all about leaving the earth school because she knew that she could return often. And now she had a reason to also. She would show up in the most beautiful places she could pick, and also send lots of love to her mommy and family and friends. She would always be there as long as the earth souls were willing to look. She would be a beautiful sunset, a twinkling star, a rainbow, and most definitely a butterfly.

The sounds of wrens and cardinals singing brought my attention back to all the beauty that surrounded me. The little white butterfly fluttered by again. And whispered this in my ear, "please share this story with all you can. So many fear the change. They fear loss and suffering. Please let them know they should never fear becoming a butterfly." A gentle breeze blew, and the little soul flew gracefully away promising to return.
I fouund this on a neat web site: www.bennetsbluebutterflys.org
Debbie <dss52356@yahoo.com>
Hoover, AL - Monday, August 30, 2004 11:37 PM CDT

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Julie, I hope your day was better than yesterday.One day at a time....... BTW...how was Robert's first day of school?
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Monday, August 30, 2004 9:40 PM CDT

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Julie, sorry to hear you had such a crummy day yesterday. I hope today was better. I am just amazed by your butterfly. I really think Maxie is trying to let you know he is okay. I hope Robert had a good first day at school. I find it strange when school starts in August, it's always after Labor Day here. Thinking of you all...
Kellie Davideit <kelbri27@optonline.net>
Metuchen, NJ USA - Monday, August 30, 2004 9:16 PM CDT

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Julie: I was hoping and praying that you could NOT stay away! Wonderful to have you back, for I would miss your journaling very much. I hope every tree lives FAR longer than Maxie's 10 years also. :) Are the hummingbirds still around? I don't know much about them except they are beautiful...I don't see them around here where I live. I love birds though, especially the Mourning Doves around here...I love to hear their cooing. Did you receive my little package? Only asking because I want to be sure it arrived safely. Well, take good care.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Monday, August 30, 2004 9:07 PM CDT

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Julie...So glad to see you back. I did not think you could leave all of us hanging. LOL Seriously, so many of us enjoy your journal so much. I hope things will get better. Sometimes you really wonder, don't you? May God continue to Bless You and Yours.
Chloe <FCA777@aol.com>
Decatur, IL USA - Monday, August 30, 2004 2:00 AM CDT

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I have been following Maxie's site and story for so long, it just didn't seem right that I wasn't going to be able to keep up with all of you!! I know that in the best of worlds, I would never have heard of your family through Caringbridge but that wasn't to be.

While I so understand why you would want to move on, I am very glad to be able to read your journal again, to cheer with you and for you and offer my prayers for your peace.


lynette <lynies1@aol.com>
aloha, or usa - Sunday, August 29, 2004 9:05 PM CDT

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Dear Julie,
I continue to check on your family everyday, and say a prayer for you too. My little girls and I are a part of a Bible Study group with Mrs. Dearmon. After reading one of your entries, we decided as a group to surprise you guys with school supplies for Robert. I now see you have what you need-except for the index cards that I would be happy to pick up for you. We purchased various things because Wal*Mart did not have a forth grade list. We have the supplies for you if you would like them (maybe to use as refills and such through out the year). If not, I will return the items and exchange them for a gift card for your family. If nothing else, this gives Robert a story to tell---he had 8 beautiful girls pick his supplies out for him--lol! Let me know what works best for you, and know that we have a large group of people praying for your family. I know today was rough, but isn't it amazing when you feel like you are ready to throw your hands up, God sends you just the reminder you need that he is always there!
Feel free to give me a call #639-7152 or E-mail me lovingnlearning@yahoo.com
Missy Blackmore
Missy Blackmore <lovingnlearning@yahoo.com>
Chesterfield, VA USA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 7:45 PM CDT

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SNICKER... hehehe.. oh girl.. what an up and down day! But hey.. you hung in there, huh! : ) Sure am glad Christy could come for you! She saved the [HOT] day, huh!

I hope your Sunday is peaceful!
XOXOXOX
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, August 28, 2004 7:27 PM CDT

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Julie,
I am so glad that you are writing again! I understand so much why you would need to take a break! I am also glad that you are having some "good" in your day!

I didn't know that you had been a race car driver! That is so cool! Your family is so amazing and wonderful!

What wonderful experiance to have Maxie come in the form of a butterfly! Ohh how he loves his family! You can just feel it.
Bless you Julie, and Christy, Robert, and Chris!
Here is to more Good in your day.
Love,
Cindee, mom to Joseph (caringbridge.org/or/sonjoseph)

Cindee <Syndleeg1@aol.com>
Portland, OR - Saturday, August 28, 2004 1:19 PM CDT

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Julie, that butterfly story is so amazing! As strange as it might seem;I bet its so comforting. You are never going to believe this....Today I saw a black butterfly with beautiful blue spots at the bottom of both its wings fluttering around my flowers in my garden. It flitted around me several times then would go from flower to flower,seemingly fly off and then come back. Maybe it was Maxie thanking me for 'begging' you to write again!!! LOL Have a good weekend!
Tricia <Triciabxny@yahoo.com>
St.Louis, Mo - Friday, August 27, 2004 10:10 PM CDT

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Hi I have never signed book but I have been visiting page for many months. I hope the poem below you will enjoy. God Bless You
Note From Jesus
My child, I know your heart is broken,
For I’ve heard your prayers to me.
Please know that I’m beside you
And I want to keep you free.

Free from bitterness and self-pity,
Over the sorrow you have to face.
Remain steadfast and trust in Me,
My love will fill the empty space.

What’s happened is not your doing,
So trust Me to be your guide.
With all that you are going through,
Know I’m walking by your side.

You’ve asked Me over and over,
"Why must I go through this again?"
I can only tell you my loving child,
This was caused by worldly sin.

You’ve done your best through the years,
Now give it all to Me.
You’ll be stronger when I’m finished.
I promise, just wait and see.

I alone can heal your broken heart.
And all your burdens, I will bear.
We’ll make it through together,
If you’ll trust my love and care.

All my unfailing love,
Jesus
Lori
- Friday, August 27, 2004 9:49 PM CDT

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I knew it!! I'm glad that you started writing again. I came here almost everyday, hoping there was an update. I was thinking Julie will write, she has to. I'm glad that you did!! I love how you guys put new pictures of Maxie on his site!!! Well, you are in my thoughts and prayers always. In time, things will get somewhat better. Just keep your heads up. Both Stan and Maxie are watching over you.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Friday, August 27, 2004 1:05 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, I just have to tell you how happy I am that you're back!! You really have a way with words, and you inspire a lot of people to continue to fight the beast! I emailed you a few days ago that I had just found out that I had breast cancer and would be operated on yesterday (Aug. 25th). Well I was, and the whole time I was in the hospital before the operation I kept thinking about Maxie and what he went through. I was scared to death, my blood pressure went sky high, and I was shaking like a leaf. I thought of Maxie and started to pray and within minutes I started to feel a peace I hadn't felt before and my blood pressure came down close to normal. When I woke up from the operation and the doctor said he got it all and there was none left, I can't tell you the relief I felt. I said a prayer to thank God and Maxie for being there for me. I came home yesterday in the early evening. I want to thank you, too, Julie, for writing about Maxie so myself and many others would know him. I keep you in my prayers, Julie...you may never know the extent of the good you do with your writing, as hard as it is on you. I love you, Julie. Keep up the good work as long as you can. Thank you again.
With Much Love,
Miss Judy <taejme@aol.com>
Naples, FL - Thursday, August 26, 2004 7:09 PM CDT

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Prayers of Love
are sent your way,
May the Blessed Lord
stay with you and comfort
you as each day passes.
Angel Toto <angeltoto_qol@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, August 26, 2004 12:31 AM CDT

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HA HA!!!

I was just checking some Caringbridge sites and came to Maxie's with some hopeful anticipation - and - YES!! Julie will continue to inspire me with her words! (Hopefully, we will hear from Christy, too!) I know that it is difficult to read of so many children with cancer, and ESPECIALLY hard to read that they have lost their battle. But you really do inspire us and we really want to know how you are doing and how we can help,even if all most of us can do is pray. (And I am a believer in prayer!) So, welcome back, for however much and long you can continue. Love, Kathy
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Thursday, August 26, 2004 12:05 AM CDT

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Julie; I am sooooo glad you are continuing. I have been doing lots of praying for you as I can't imagine the pain and agoney youare going through. I do hope you can feel our love and support for you especially on the worst of days. I wished I had magical words to ease your pain and help you through this all I have are my thoughts and prayers. So remember we are here doing our best to help you out... Praying today is a good day..
Marjie Rinehart <jmr@mahaska. org>
oskaloosa, ia United States - Thursday, August 26, 2004 9:10 AM CDT

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WooHoo!!! She's back!! One day at a time Julie...one step at a time;for now don't look beyond that. Prayers continuing for all of you!
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
St. Louis, Mo - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 11:45 PM CDT

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Dearest Family,
I have been thinking of you and your Angel today. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find peace and comfort in the beautiful memories of your precious child in heaven.
God Bless you all,
Island Princess

Butterfly Island

Island Princess <mooks@bellsouth.net>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 5:30 PM CDT

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Hi Julie! Hope your daughter is doing well, and how is Robert? Did school start yet in your area?
I'm just one of Lynn's prayer warriors from Legacy checking in to let you know we are thinking about you and your family, and saying a prayer for Jesus to give you His peace and comfort, as your heart is still heavy with grief over your beloved Maxie. But, Maxie, I have every confidence is experiencing joy and happiness we could never have on earth, since he is in the loving arms his Savior.I am so glad you are there for Robert. It is sometimes hard for boys to express all they are feeling, and you are so good with words Julie, and can help him so much with everything he must be going through.We all love your family here at Legacy, and think of you with great fondness, and we remember your sweet Maxie along with you. God bless you!
B.J. <ebjoel225@aol.com>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 2:17 PM CDT

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Julie I hope you are doing the best that you can. I'm glad to see so many feel the same way that I do...........will miss your updates,but know you must do whats best for Julie. I think of you all often....
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
- Wednesday, August 25, 2004 2:14 PM CDT

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Christy & Julie,
I would like to do something for Robert, would it be Ok if I sent him couple outfits for school. I know life isnt easy for you all right now, and Im not a miracle worker, but I can do that. Please e-mail me if it is Ok, with your adress and his clothing sizes. I think about you all daily!
Kelly <Kelly1837@adelphia.net>
Twinsburg, OH USA - Wednesday, August 25, 2004 9:06 AM CDT

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As you said, I too have had periods when I cut down on visiting the sites, because it just gets too overwhelmingly depressing. But much like Terry said, its like an addiction, you keep looking for that one kid whose going to win, and pray that the trend becomes a positive one instead of always negative. You know we all wish you peace, you have had a lot to endure. And Christy and Robert, its been a nightmare for all of you.
Chris - Gooch's mom
Share the Love
- Tuesday, August 24, 2004 10:39 PM CDT

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I understand your need to "get away" for a while. You guys are in our thoughts and prayers often. Love, Tracy and Katia




Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 24, 2004 1:20 PM CDT

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Dear Julie..
I'm home from my 10 day visit in Washington St... got in late last night. (gotcha a little surprise too!) I thought of you so often while there. I had to come by this morning and see how my friend is doing.. and reading your last entry, my heart is broken for you, for the pain, for the suffering that goes on.
You'll never be alone. You have made friends for life. How much better it would have been to have never met up with any of us.. and to have been allowed to keep Maxie instead. For reasons not understood this side of heaven, that was not to be. Instead you are stuck with us. SNIFF... but we love you, and we will always care. We share the pain. May God give you peace - somehow, some way.
Loving you always,
Lynn

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 12:12 AM CDT

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Julie...I can, TOTALLY, understand your feelings here. People have told me, numerous times, that I need to cut back from the time I spend here, but I just can't. Maybe it would be a good idea...I really don't know. If you ever want to talk, please feel free to email me...grandma to grandma. Please know that you, your family and your beautiful angel are in my thoughts and prayers.

God bless...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Tuesday, August 24, 2004 10:37 AM CDT

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Hey Julie. I hope you someday find it within yourself to come back to caringbridge. I know how hard it is, but I also know how much healing takes place within this journal. It's good for you to have a forum to speak your mind, one where everyone can relate, everyone understands, and the word 'death' isn't considered to be so taboo. It's good to take a break, to walk away and smell the roses for a while, but just remember we're always here.

Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Sunday, August 22, 2004 6:55 PM CDT

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Julie, I totally understand your not being able to read other sites. It is heartbreaking to get so attached and watch these kids die. You do Need a break From Death I do to, I have cut down tremendously on all the sites. THose of us that suffer from Depression its very hard to read about Dyeing children ! So many have died this year already. Of course its hardest ont he families that have lost there child. Weather you keep the questbook up or not Maxie will forever be in so many hearts. He will Live through you all and Robert. Poor robert trying to grow up. Christy breaks my heart to send her my love! I will email you privately on a few suggestions I have for you.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, August 20, 2004 10:01 PM CDT

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If you do write again I will be happy to listen- yall are like my family- I cried for Maxie with you and I understand not being able to keep reading about others. You do become very attached reading such personal and touching posts-

Thank you for sharing it all

Ellen
chesterfield, VA 23832 - Thursday, August 19, 2004 4:47 PM CDT

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Julie and Christy...I will miss your journals on Caring Bridge. I have followed you for a long time and my thoughts and prayers will remain with you and your loved ones. Thanks for keeping us all updated for so long. Hopefully we can hear from you both again sometime. I do have your EMail address Julie and I will keep in touch.
Chloe <FCA777@aol.com>
Decatur, IL USA - Thursday, August 19, 2004 6:04 AM CDT

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Greetings,

I am very sorry for the loss of your son. I understand needing a break and time to heal. My daugther has been fighting a brainstem tumor for over 12 years, the battle is not ending and reading about others who are suffering the same illness and loosing their battles has gotten too much to bear.

Please know that your son has touched many lives in his short lifetime and will continue to live in those cherished memories.

Blessings and many prayers,

Shari and Nicole
www.caringbridge.org/nm/nicole
Shari McElroy <ShariMcElroy@aol.com>
Belen, NM USA - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 8:16 PM CDT

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Dear Julie and family,

Although I will very much miss reading your words, I can understand why you need a break. Please know that Maxie will ALWAYS be remembered by myself and so many others. And that I'm so grateful that he had such a loving family during his short time here on earth. I am very sure that Maxie is with Jesus, and I am also sure that that knowledge cannot always help the pain and grief that is so overwhelming. I will think of you often and will remember Stan next month. You have had an awful lot of pain come your way and I truly hope and pray for some better times. Maxie's tree continues to grow..........Love, Kathy
Kathy Welch <abbysmamaa@yahoo.com>
Lexington, Ohio - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 5:49 PM CDT

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I'm left speechless again. Losing a child must be the hardest thing anyone can go through. It will take a long time to heal, but yet you will never be healed all the way. All I know right now is that Robert needs all of you very much. Maxie will never be forgotten. Life needs to go on. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 3:29 PM CDT

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All my love is with you and the family. You all will remain in my prayers ...

Jennifer
LCL
Jennifer Irons <rknamommy@aol.com>
Hayward, CA usa - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 2:10 PM CDT

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Dearest Julie... I find myself with yet another day of unspoken words... Words unspoken because of the loss of a child. The Lord lifts my heart and reminds me that through Him all things are possible. *** Hugs *** without words are God's arms around you and your family. Embrace them... by giving and receiving... find "Heavenly" comfort in *** Hugs *** through family and friends. Many prayers are being said for you and your family... When you lie your head down to sleep each night... always remember Stan... Maxie and the Lord are "Lovingly" giving you strength for the new day yet to come. May God Bless you... your daughter... and her beautiful family always... *** Hugs ***
Deborah Lavis **HISChldrnRAngelz** <HISChldrnRAngelz@earthlink.net>
Corona, Ca USA - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 1:58 PM CDT

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Thinking of you





Love Viks From Post Pals and Bears Who Care

viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 11:19 AM CDT

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Julie, Although I will miss your words of wisdom greatly, I understand you need to do whatever you have to,to try to heal. Please know that I will think of you all often&will continue to pray.I'd love to beg you to continue to write because sadness is a part of the grieving process&you need to get it all out& I love the honesty in your writings....also the humor.Julie...stay well, I will miss you!
Tricia <TriciaBxNY@yahoo.com>
St. Louis, Mo - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 10:32 AM CDT

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Even if you do not continue to write, please know that many people are still praying for you. I pray that you will be surrounded with love as you continue this year of firsts without Maxie.
Briana Roehling
Pflugerville, TX - Wednesday, August 18, 2004 9:23 AM CDT

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Christy: How my heart goes out to you. Your pain, still so fresh....feeling one day as though you have the power to forge ahead and the next as though all the wind from your sails is gone. Please know you are in my prayers.

Julie: Your last entry breaks my heart for you...I can "feel" how you are all still so broken. I wish there were something I could say/do. I understand your feelings of needing to "step away" from here and "heal". I so very much hope that the healing comes to you and Christy and ALL of the family. I also can understand how you are not looking forward to being in the house alone when school starts. I hope you find the strength to find something worthwhile to fill that time, to ease the void in your heart. My prayers are with you and the family every day. The one's that have passed are so HAPPY where they are, it is the loved ones "left behind" that must deal with the heartache day in and day out. I cannot imagine your pain. I made a "little something" for your home, a small little thing that I hope in some small way will bring a little smile to your face when you gaze upon it and know that someone truly cares about you. It will be on it's way to you in a few days. I hope you decide to only step away from journaling for awhile and that you will be back, but if you chose not to I hope you continue to read the guestbook entries for I will continue to sign in unless you decide to discontinue the page altogether. Here is my email, please keep it and stay in touch if you can.
ej3day6211@aol.com and my caringbridge page is www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Blessings,
Eileen
EJ
- Wednesday, August 18, 2004 0:36 AM CDT

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Julie and Christy,

I just wanted you to know that I found your site through Cheyenne's and read through the history. Please know that you are not forgotten and alone. Caring people are only an email away...
Lots of love,
Angelina's mom Jennifer www.caringbridge.org/mi/angelina
Jennifer I <ssteve44202002@yahoo.com>
Warren, MI USA - Tuesday, August 17, 2004 9:51 PM CDT

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hi guys
i just bought 2 weeping willow trees and i was planting one for mitch and one i was going to give to my parents but know im thinking im going to plant it and get a plaque made up for all mitchs caring bridge buddies in heaven with him ,sounds good to me ill keep ya posted ok

love abbie «♥Angel Mitchell♥»

<afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
- Monday, August 16, 2004 7:42 PM CDT

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Thinking of you and keeping the Faith!
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, August 15, 2004 7:40 PM CDT

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may you have the strength & courage to carry on as your little one has done so himself. my deepest sympaty to u & your famiy.
Rob M <nismopartsguy@yahoo.ca>
Brampton , On Canada - Saturday, August 14, 2004 1:56 AM CDT

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God Bless. I just read Maxi's story through thick tears. I told my own son when he came to find out why I was crying. He said he was going to use his allowence for a Maxi tree. Which made me cry more. The angels are always looking down and smiling at you, your love for them is never ending. Just as their love for you will never end. Their strength will carry you through.
Jennifer Duczak
Lakewood, Wa - Saturday, August 14, 2004 1:40 AM CDT

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http://lightingchildrenslives.org

Sending warm thoughts and smiles across the miles!

God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, August 14, 2004 1:29 AM CDT

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Just stopping by to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you always. God bless and *warm hugs* ><>†<><



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

Check out my website

*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Thursday, August 12, 2004 9:36 PM CDT

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Coming by to wish my dear friend a peaceful evening. One filled with a gentle breeze, a fresh cup of coffee, and angelic hugs from her sweet Maxie.
Julie, I know that as the seasons begin to change, and summer turns to fall, you will be filled with memories of the first day of school, Maxie and Robert playing in the leaves, and cups of hot chocolate on cold nights.
Always remember those times, and try to duplicate them with Robert when you can, sharing your stories of Maxie with him, too. That way you are not only making new memories with Robert, but you are carrying on Maxie's memories, and helping Robert feel like a part of them.
It would be good for both of you.
Know that you are such a beloved grandma, and your love and passion for those boys is evident in every word...
Your friend in Missouri,
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, August 12, 2004 7:19 PM CDT

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Julie, Christy, Robert and Chris,
Just wanted to stop by and send some big((((((((((hugs)))))))))). You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Sweet Maxie is never far from my thoughts!
Hang in there!
Cindee mom to Joseph (www.caringbridge.org/or/sonjoseph)

PS, Christy, you are beautiful!!
Cindee <syndleeg1@aol.com>
Portland, OR - Wednesday, August 11, 2004 1:28 AM CDT

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I JUST FINISHED READING YOUR FAMILIES JOURNAL. MAXIE WAS VERY SPECIAL. I WISH I HAD THE MAGIC WORDS TO TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY BUT I THINK WE ALL KNOW THERE ARE NO WORDS TO ERASE THAT TYPE OF PAIN. YOUR FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH. ALL I CAN SAY IS I AM SORRY FOR YOUR PAIN.THAT SEEMS SO SMALL FOR ALL YOUR FAMILY HAS BEEN THROUGH. PLEASE KNOW THAT YOUR FAMILY IS IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.

CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/WV/FREDAFOX
RUTH <BLUEEYED_FEMALE@MSN.COM>
HINTON, WV - Tuesday, August 10, 2004 3:17 PM CDT

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Stopping in to say hello. Hope all is still well. Your hints are killing me! So glad to detect a little humor, even if it is on your own behalf!
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Tuesday, August 10, 2004 10:12 AM CDT

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Maxie was a cutie. He will never be forgotten. Take it one day at a time. I love how there's a new picture on the site all the time. Just wanted to let you know that Maxie and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Monday, August 9, 2004 5:06 PM CDT

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Hello all

Always thinking of you guys and praying for strength for you to endure the road you are on.......................Love the Butterfly story..I read some stories like that in a book called "Hello From Heaven" Pretty interesting book.

Cheryl Shane's mom
http://www.caringbridge.com/ct/lilshane/
cheryl
ct - Sunday, August 8, 2004 10:16 PM CDT

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Hey, my friend and my "heart neighbor"! : )
I'm sorry you guys are having to face loss yet again. : ( You speak so lovingly of Jenny.. she must have been a very special lady. I'll be praying for you, as I know your heart is so heavy. : (

You made a wise statement speaking of living for today. It reminded me of that wonderful piece by Erma Bombeck.. about using the fancy dishes NOW.. to celebrate an A.. or a good day! She went on and on about not saving stuff for "one of these days" but using it for today! I agree! Celebrate any thing, and celebrate the opportunity to tell your loved ones that you love them! Robert is blessed to have you! We all are blessed to have you in our lives.. sharing laughter, and tears, pain, sorrow, and joy.. and our hope of heaven.. and a reunion there.

Keep your chin up, dear Julie.
Much Love!

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, August 8, 2004 9:46 PM CDT

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Julie, im loving the hints/ advice section. pretty informative. I just nair the hairs off the chin. LOL what a pain, they start after age 30. The good thing is you pluck them i see many people that dont pluck and its a scary sight! I think of you all so much and keep you in prayer. Im still so sad about maddie being gone and now celeste. THey all just seem to not survive it. Its very depressing, but You want to cheer them up and pray, offer hope, WHen you read the entries on the websites you can almost tell which child is going downhill. I will never understand why children must die. It is so unfair and just awful. ALl we can do is pray and trust God through it all.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, August 6, 2004 9:02 PM CDT

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Stopping by to say Hi and to let you know you are in our thoughts and Prayers.
Much Love
Chris Ullrich - Bella's Grammy <c_ullrich@msn.com, www.caringbridge.com/page/isabellaledesma>
- Friday, August 6, 2004 11:59 AM CDT

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Just stopping in to say hello, still thinking of you and sweet Maxie.
Patty, mom to Joey, **JOEY'S WORLD** <lucky43560@aol.com >
Long Island, NY USA - Friday, August 6, 2004 0:02 AM CDT

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Hey, Julie--you'd better watch out for those pesky butterflies, they'll get you everytime...trust me!
Sorry to hear about the "Hairs on your chinny-chin-chin", it's just not fair, is it? I like the mascara trick, you sound like you have a little McGuyver in you!
Remember that shirt..."Sometimes I pee when I laugh."
Work on that one for me, would you please?
xoxo
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, August 5, 2004 6:32 PM CDT

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Hello, dear friend. I am so glad to hear that some laughter has begun to infiltrate your home, even if it is slowly. Days turn into months so quickly, and before you know it, you will have reached the first anniversary of Maxie's death. My wish for you is that time does not slip away from you so quickly that you find yourself lost....it is important to remember Maxie everyday, but also to try to take babysteps forward toward "normal." I know it is a joke to even utter such a word after having lost a child, but it is still true. Life can pass us by so quickly, as you have learned in the past year. Since Maxie was diagnosed, a whirlwind swept you up, spun you around, and spit you out, without Maxie. It's hard to remember if you paid the electric bill, or when you bought that mystery carton of milk in the fridge..but yet you can probably remember the date that Maxie made an improvement, or the day his health began to decline. Life changes, yet the outside world stays the same, seeming to pass you by. Now is the time when you need to ask Maxie for strength, ask God to get you through, and just bear down and jump back into life. It's hard to do, because you feel as though you'd be betraying Maxie to try to resume 'regular life' again without him, as though doing it would deny that he were missing from it or something. I know, I've been there. But you have to remember that he wants you to have fun, to laugh, to live.
'Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep...
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, i did not die.'

It's true. There is so much truth in that, and I want you to remember that on the bad days, and on the good days when you start to feel guilty for HAVING a good day.

Monday I was with my 17 year old brother school shopping...we saw a t-shirt that said
"Sometimes I pee when I laugh."
Test that theory. Laugh till you pee, and know that Maxie is laughing with you. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for Robert. You'll benefit from it, too.

With love from your pal in Missouri
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Wednesday, August 4, 2004 3:19 PM CDT

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Hi julie and family, I am so glad I was finally able to successfully get on your site.(My old computer) I am from Legacy and we all prayed with all our hearts for your dearest Maxie, and were so saddened when he was called home, yet so happy that his suffering was all over, and he was safe in the loving arms of Jesus.
What a handsome boy Robert is! Why he looks every bit of 12 or 13, instead of 9! For a minute, I thought he was Maxie, and then I found myself wondering what Maxie was doing in heaven right this moment!
I also wanted to say thank you to OutKast for what they did for your family, and how much we appreciated their kindness and generosity to your family, whom we all came to care about so much.How I hope they know Jesus even as Maxie did, so they will meet face to face one day in heaven. I am so happy to hear that you are all well, and taking care of each other. Julie, what a great tip about telling the new owners about feeding the birds.
Just wanted to let you know you are still in people's hearts and prayers!
B.J. <ebjoel225@aol.com>
- Tuesday, August 3, 2004 8:46 PM CDT

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Hi Julie, thank-you for the great advice, I wish someone would of told us where the septic tank is. We still have no idea where it is:) I have a feeling one day we will though. I am so happy you still write, your a wise soul and have so much to offer, I think we all can relate to you on different levels, whether its guilt, sadness, small joys in life. It's always a pleasure to stop by.
The Coe's <jillcoe8@cox.net caringbridge.org/va/trevorco>
Hayes, VA - Tuesday, August 3, 2004 9:42 AM CDT

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Hi Friends!!

Just stopping by to visit these handsome fellas! : ) OK OK.. you too Grandma Julie! :D Hehehe! Ya'll be good!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, August 2, 2004 8:44 PM CDT

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You are always in our thoughts and prayers and Maxie will be remembered for EVER AND EVER!!!
Love,
Tracy and Katia




Tracy and Katia <tmsol87@aol.com>
- Sunday, August 1, 2004 3:43 PM CDT

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Thinking of you all this morning, sending you lots of love and hugs... I'm out of coffee here.. sure wish I could step out my door, and over to my friend Julie's house, and share a cup with her!! : )
Have a peaceful weekend!
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Saturday, July 31, 2004 8:29 AM CDT

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Christy, Oh My gosh I love the butterfly maxie story. remember last week or so I signed the questbook and said i wished so much that maxie could give us s sign he was o/k or what heaven was like, something anything, then this. That is not a coincidence. That just made me cry and get chills, So thank you Maxie I know you now now what we think and say. And you tried to say your fine , happy and flying free. I dont think you a butterfly everyday all day. But I think you were to see mom. Maybe tomorrow you will be the sunshine in her face. I am just so glad you let mom know its going to be o.k. Christy I am glad your working. It will help so much! you keep hanging in there you have come sosoooo far! Your my hero! love you all,
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, July 30, 2004 11:07 PM CDT

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Christy, I absoleutly loved the entry and the story about the butterfuly. I had tears streaming down my face with joy for you and thankfulness that Maxie was there for you.

My prayers are with you and I see answers to them by each day and the job going so well.

A loyal and faithful follower.
Melissa <mehartley7@yahoo.com>
Dallas, TX USA - Friday, July 30, 2004 1:59 PM CDT

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This weekend I will be walking in our local Relay for Life. I will be walking in memory of Maxie. There will be a luminary lit in his memory, here in Eugene, OR. May God bless you! *warm hugs* ><>†<><



http://lightingchildrenslives.org

My website!
*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Thursday, July 29, 2004 9:12 PM CDT

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Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers daily. I was in a little town sightseeing the other day and they had little bobble head Moose sitting on the counter and thought of Maxie immediately. I'm glad he stopped by to see you and let you know he is ok. ((((HUGS))))
Anne
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 11:30 PM CDT

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AWESOME butterfly story! I am so happy to get the sense that you are starting to "heal", God is pulling you through all of this. Do I get the impression that you would like another baby???? Tristan - wonderful name!! I think Maxie would definitely approve of you passing on your love to future children. God bless you all.
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Ej's Caring Place
"Keep on taking one-day-at-a-time" :)
- Wednesday, July 28, 2004 8:57 PM CDT

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I am so happy you are seeing the signs and vindicating them- know Maxie is always around you and loves you- never miss a sign!!!! I am soooo happy for you!


Ellen Williams
chesterfield, va 23832 - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 8:25 PM CDT

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hello,this is tylers nanny Darlene,
well ,we ,we are still fighting,we are at musc for scans,to see if the spot on tylers lung has growed any
we wanted to let you no that we are thinking of you every day ,and i feel that maxie has heard our prayers, sooo tyler will be ok , cause we no that he has talked to god about tyler,we love you all http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/tylertucker/
DARLENE COX <TURPIN10648@AOL.COM>
GREENVILLE, SC - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 6:06 PM CDT

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That was Maxie. He wanted to let you know that he was ok so he had to be the pretties butterfly so he could catch your eye. Don't feel bad if you have a normal day. You need to have normal days. Maxie is always with you. He may not be here physically but his spirit lives. His spirit is always with you and Robert and the whole family. He is pain free. You and your family is in my prayers and thoughts.
Admira <ak301285@yahoo.com>
Mpls, MN - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 12:35 AM CDT

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Christy,

I stongly believe that that was Maxie coming to tell you that he was ok and for you to go on! Sure you will think about him everyday but now you have a visual reminder that he is doing good! What a great gift that he has given you!!!

Hug Robert and your Mom and Dad extra tight today!

:o) Sara
Sara <Saroo@bellsouth.net>
Cleveland, TN USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 11:04 AM CDT

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I check on your family every day and pray that God will be able to heal your pain. Christy, don't feel bad about good days, look at them as God answering the prayers of many for you! Just because you have a good day does not mean you loved Maxi less. Maxi is having the most wonderful days every day in heaven, and he would want the same for you all.
You are all in my thoughts in prayers!
Missy Blackmore
Missy Blackmore <lovingnlearning@yahoo.com>
Chesterfield, VA USA - Wednesday, July 28, 2004 10:25 AM CDT

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I love reading about the hummingbirds - they are just such beautiful creatures! :) How awesome to see them every day -up close! Glad to read Christy is back to work full-time, I am sure that will help her. It's wonderful to have a great boss....good for her! :) Hoping each day finds you all just a little be closer to your Peace. Blessings, Eileen
EJ's Caring Place
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
P.S. - I am sure you know since you have her link listed - but I am just so excited for Katia---that she got to go home today after 11 months in the hospital and RMH! Does the heart good to read that at her site.
"I will never leave you or forsake you." (Heb. 13:5)
- Tuesday, July 27, 2004 3:27 PM CDT

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Hu julie , christy, I love the hummingbird info. I never knew how to feed them so i dont. Pretty cool. I am glad christy is working full time again, I think it will do her good in many ways. She is such a beautiful girl. Robert looks like her. I was so sad to hear issac passed away what a cute special boy. I thought he was doing so much better. Its hard to keep up with all these kids But I pray for them if i dont get around to them all. Im thinking and praying for you.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Monday, July 26, 2004 10:42 PM CDT

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Love and prayers to you.... You will be in my thoughts.
Sarah Tackett <SarahTx34@aol.com>
San Angelo, tx US - Monday, July 26, 2004 12:39 AM CDT

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sending some ))HUGS((((and good thoughts your way today and every day....your never far from our hearts and prayers!!

~*~Samantha's Story~*~>
karen n sammi <mpbowler1@aol.com>
- Sunday, July 25, 2004 7:51 AM CDT

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Thinking of you and praying without ceasing that you will soon find the pain lessening--with God's help, it will. I visit every day, you are never far from my thoughts.
God bless,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Saturday, July 24, 2004 8:08 PM CDT

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hi christy and julie
i check on you guys everyday and think of you guys often. i hope maxie and mitch met up there in heaven what a pair they would be together !! im sure they are
take care guys
love abbie
«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
- Saturday, July 24, 2004 6:46 PM CDT

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Just stopping by to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless and *warm hugs*


*Jennifer C* from Lighting Children's Lives <jenniferc@ilovetocolor.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Saturday, July 24, 2004 12:27 AM CDT

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Every first anniversary of every important event is so hard. But we get through it and go on for our other child. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers daily.
Jeannine Dearmon <jdearmon@comcast.net>
Midlothian, Va usa - Saturday, July 24, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

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tears streaming down my face, hard to type. But I want you to know Im thinking of you all especially today. I know you would give anything in this world to hug maxie again. You will someday. So hold on to Gods promise and it will carry you through till you get to heaven. No one could of cured maxie he had an incurable cancer and thats awful! all the money we waste on other things Kids shouldnt have to have cancer. If we cut professional sports and celebrity salaries there would be enough money to find a cure. Just my opinion on it! Maxie I know your having the time of your life in heaven , I so wish you could tell us what its like. I often wonder what Jesus is like in person, are there pets in heaven ? Homework? chores? Nah! its suppose to be all blissful and like paradise but I still wish you could somehow tell us. I know you great now and happy. ANd I know seeing your family crying all the time is hard , If you could assure them you were fine will you? maybe in a dream. Then mom and grandma can let go a little. Your such an awesome kid. I love everything i ever read about you. WIsh I was running and skipping with you, until we meet have a wonderful time.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Friday, July 23, 2004 10:08 PM CDT

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JUST THINKING OF YOU ALL ON THIS DAY. LET HIM FLY AND FLY AND RUN AND RUN AND PLAY . A FRIEND ALWAYS JUDY .GOD BLESS YOU .
JUDY M. <ELAINE210@AOL.COM>
LYNCHBURG , VA. - Friday, July 23, 2004 9:28 PM CDT

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Thinking about you guys a lot......can't possibly imagine what you go through day to day. Can only hope that it gets easier with time. The one thing that I have learned through what what yall have been through and some of the others that I have read about is to not take so much for granted. Especially family. Maybe that is the lesson we are supposed to be taught from all of this. I am sorry it is so difficult on you.
Paige <pstjulian@hotmail.com>
Mansfield, Tx - Friday, July 23, 2004 7:18 PM CDT

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Christy and Julie,
I check in EVERY day to see what you have written and to know how you are all doing. I think of you always and hope that your days will get easier. I can't even imagine the grief you have. It is so hard to believe any of this could have happened. I pray for you and hope that you know I am always here for you if you just need someone on the other end of the phone to listen to you and not say a word. Always thinking of you all.....Missy
Missy Justice <missyjj@hotmail.com>
Desoto, Tx usa - Friday, July 23, 2004 1:36 PM CDT

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Thinking of Maxie today and all of you ~ sending you all lots of Hugs and Prayers ~
Jean



Jean ~ Quilts of Love <jean@quiltsoflove.com>
Tucson, AZ - Friday, July 23, 2004 1:24 PM CDT

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Julie what an awesome story ! thanks so much for posting it. I cant believe tomorrow is a yr since maxie got sick and was diagnosed, He didnt even make it a year. How sad is that? Life can change almost overnight. ANd I am so sorry you have had so much to bear! Life surely is unfair. But You did the best for maxie and you did all you could do. He may have died even sooner if you werent there cheering him on. Maxie was loved and some people die and have no one that loved them. He wasnt alone and He had a special family. Although his life was cut so short he was such a gift to so many people in his short time on earth! Im praying for you. I know its hard but you have no guilt! you did more than anyone could of done. MAxie loves you all, you know that. P.s I got an email from someone I didnt know today and it was signed MAXIE! I kid you not! Turned out to be someone from ebay.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Thursday, July 22, 2004 10:57 PM CDT

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What a wonderful story, thank you for sharing it.

My love and prayers are always yours...


Lauran <kinglauran@qwest.net>
Iowa - Thursday, July 22, 2004 7:52 PM CDT

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Julie-

These milestone dates are so painful without our sweet boys here to smile at us and see us through. Hugs to you and to Christy. Thanks for sharing the story. It's really sweet.

Love,

Kelly, Samuel J's mama
http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/samuelj
Kelly
Pittsburgh, PA - Thursday, July 22, 2004 4:02 PM CDT

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What a beautiful story, you just flooded my eyes. Your so kind to share, I've learned so much from you, your family. And I loved that picture of beautiful yound Maxie with his mommy. Always thinking of you.
Jill Coe <jillcoe8@cox.net caringbridge.org/va/trevorco>
- Thursday, July 22, 2004 2:00 PM CDT

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Dear Christy and Grandma,

Please know we continue to pray for you. The road is really difficult when we can't stop missing our loved ones.
Today I read the following words from a book. I shared it to another parent and would like to share with you, too :)

"The memories have lost their beauty. They are not comforting; they are painful. Sometimes they bring tears to my eyes ... Who can I turn to but You, God? ... But can You begin to mend my heart? I need to begin the slow process of healing inside, so that my treasure stock of memories will gradually stop being a source of distress. I want to stop avoiding them - and to know I can carry them with me into the future.
Today I need to be confident that the God who created the best times of my past is planning good times ahead."

God's promise, "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." (Deuteronomy 31:8)

Our prayer, "Lord, help us to face the memories that cause us grief. We trust You to once again make my memories from the past a source of joy ... and in the days ahead to create wonderful new memories for the future. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen."

Benjamin, father of Esther
Benjamin, Paulina, Erin (Forever Family with ~Esther~) <Mercy2Live@yahoo.com>
Dayton, OH US - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 3:20 PM CDT

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Just wanted you to know I still think of Maxie often, and look at his quilt from time to time. I wasn't sure I wanted to continue to stitch for Love Quilts after Maxie left because it effected me worse then I thought possible. Every one of the kids need to know the love that Maxie had from us, and it keeps Maxie close in my mind every time I stitch a square.
Mariann (JCR) <jmwfurry@msn.com>
Albuquerque, NM USA - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 3:07 PM CDT

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Just a note to let you know that we are keeping your family in our prayers.
Kim Henderson <khend1@earthlink.net>
Rutherfordton, NC - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 12:55 AM CDT

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So wonderful to read an update with a "little happy" in it. You all so deserve to have some "happy moments". I know they are fleeting and rare, but will come more and more often over time. I pray every day for that Peace to fill you and for new memories made with your family to be stronger than the "sad" memories. Sweet Maxie is always with you and always will be. What a wonderful boy he truly is.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Wednesday, July 21, 2004 10:01 AM CDT

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From one grandmother to another, I can surely sympathize with your pain. Please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.

Much love...
Terry Snyder (Angel Jalen's "Am-Maw") http://www.caringbridge.org/fl/jalen <vix207@aol.com>
Royal Palm Beach, FL - Wednesday, July 21, 2004 8:34 AM CDT

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Click here for The Snowglobe of the Month!

Thinking of you, knowing no words can ease your pain. Know I am here, know I care.
Blessings,
Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
Lighting Children's Lives
- Tuesday, July 20, 2004 11:57 PM CDT

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Words are beside me this morning. I love you all so much and continue to pray for all of you.
Jennifer Irons <RKnAMommy@aol.com>
Hayward, CA USA - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:53 AM CDT

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hello maxies wonderful family ,
you all are sooo strong , i just hope that if God wants tyler in heaven that i can be as strong as you all . tyler is the little three year old with the same cancer as maxie ,
and he is haveing a hard time ,eleven surgeries now ,
but i no that God is with us ,i still read your web page and pray that you all will find some peace .it just must the the worst thing to lose a child ,there cant be any thing worst ,i no your hearts are breaking ,i cry when i read your page . my heart acks for you all,our little tyty will now fold his hands in prayer ,
http://www.caringbridge.org/sc/tylertucker/
DARLENE COX AND TYLER TUCKER <TURPIN10648@AOL.COM>
GREENVILLE, SC - Tuesday, July 20, 2004 4:57 AM CDT

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Julie, Christy I wont ask how your doing, I know not well. Listen to me for 3 min. What your feeling is Normal. You need time and it hasnt been near long enough. Of course its still fresh and thats all you can see is the pain, needles, test. Maxie suffered and Died from a horrible cancer there is nothing pretty about it and the memories surrounding it will always make you sick to even think of it. You need to Allow yourself to grieve however long it takes. You found out maxie was sick and then he was wisked away to tests, hospitals, pain, suffering, fear. It is Not Fair. I do not blame you for being angry. I would be so angry too. Maxie was special and through his short life he touched so many people all over the place that never even met him. God Knows you have been through enough he weeps with you. You must not doubt there is a heaven . You have to Believe and Invision the day you will be with stan and maxie again. You have to many Doubts. ANd that is one thing you cant doubt. God promises that , He died for us all so we can have eternal life in heaven. I know its hard But try to thank God for taking care of maxie till you see him again. ANd isnt it wonderful there is a heaven?? Without it we wouldnt see our Loved ones. It is the only Thing I hang onto when I loose someone I loved. I know loosing a child is different, I know there is nothing worse. ANd the empty pain must make you feel like you cant breath anymore. But I Know God will Pick you up and carry you through like he has before. God doesnt cause these things. He just helps us through them. God Wept seeing his child maxie suffer. we are all Gods children. God does not wave a magic wand over all pain and sickness in life. What would Heaven be If earth was perfect and pain free???? Your being to hard on yourselves. You couldnt be with maxie everyday. Maxie Knew how much you loved him and he didnt Die alone. In time you will remember happy times. Its to new right now . just getting through each day is all you should concentrate on for awhile. Make a scrapbook of maxie that will make you think of the happy times. I planted a tree in my yard for maxie! And I know Maxie is watching and wants you to smile again and enjoy every single moment of Robert. Because you know to well how short life can be. You have alot of love and support. Your a special family dont loose site of that, Although it will never be the same without maxie, you can be happy and have a wonderful life with robert, christy and grandkids, great grandkids, Hang in there God does Love you.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
IN - Monday, July 19, 2004 8:09 PM CDT

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Stopping in from your Quilts Of Love Family to let you know that your in the angels hearts thoughts and prayers
Blessings
Angel Chris
Quilts Of Love
Chris <wardsweb@earthlink.net>
Los Angeles, CA USA - Monday, July 19, 2004 4:34 PM CDT

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Stopping in from your Quilts Of Love Family to let you know that your in the angels hearts thoughts and prayers
Blessings
Angel Chris
Quilts Of Love
Chris <wardsweb@earthlink.net>
Los Angeles, CA USA - Monday, July 19, 2004 4:34 PM CDT

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Julie-

I wish that words could take away this pain, but I know they can't. Just know that your family is still in the hearts and prayers of many, and that you are all loved.

Kelly, Samuel J's mama
http://www.caringbridge.org/pa/samuelj
Kelly
Pittsburgh, PA - Monday, July 19, 2004 2:15 PM CDT

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Just to let you know I am thinking of you and your precious Maxie and praying you find peace, joy, and hope. I also want you to know Maxie has not been forgotten!

Love and hugs
Judy
Catch An Angel
Judy <tnderheart@yahoo.com>
- Monday, July 19, 2004 10:18 AM CDT

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Julie.. just wanted you to know we have not forgotten you or Christy or Maxie or Robert. Hang in there and remember you did the best you could do always. None of us have a crystal ball to see if what we are doing or decisions we are making are the correct ones. Maxie could feel the love you had for him... Hang in there always know there are lots of us praying for all of you even on the darkest of days !!!
Marjie Rinehart <jmr@mahaska.org>
oskaloosa, IA United States - Monday, July 19, 2004 9:48 AM CDT

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Julie: Once again, your entry just broke my heart. I wish there were something I could say that would REALLY make a difference and get your world moving forward instead of being at a standstill. I pray every night for you and your family. It's the most I can do for you and I DO believe in the power of prayer. God bless you and keep you and may you feel that love surrounding you every day, especially on your darkest days.
Love, Eileen
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej
EJ's Caring Place
- Sunday, July 18, 2004 6:58 PM CDT

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hi julie and christy
i was thinking of you guys and robert today and just i would let you guys know your always on my mind.
love abbie

«♥Angel Mitchell♥» <afraser1@tru.eastlink.ca>
- Sunday, July 18, 2004 9:38 AM CDT

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Im sending all my love to you all,

Love

Viks
viks <viks@postpals.co.uk>
- Saturday, July 17, 2004 12:46 AM CDT

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I am so sorry for your loss. I understand the pain of losing a child. I am new to the brain tumor world, but not to the bereaved parent world.

We too, are in Richmond, VA, at MCV.

I wish you and your family peace and comfort. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Gina <OneAngelsMommy@aol.com>
Montpelier, VA USA - Friday, July 16, 2004 7:22 PM CDT

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Okay, Julie, you made me cry again. I liked that you realize that Robert needs to make some new memories, some without Maxie. I know it hurts to say the words, but it's true. In fact, you all need to try to make some new memories. Whether it's driving 400 miles from home, or just renting movies and popping popcorn, it's something that you need to do. It will help so much in the healing process, and it doesn't mean that you're moving on and forgetting Maxie, it just means you're moving on WITH him. He's still part of the family, he always will be, and he's never going to leave. He'll be right there in the middle of the floor with you, the popcorn and the dog....laughing at the movie and loving you all.
Make some new memories, okay? Do it for Maxie and Robert, and in the process, it'll help you, too.
Hugs and Kisses,
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Friday, July 16, 2004 6:01 PM CDT

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even though we only know each other through caringbridge, we share the bond of being cancer moms. Let the memories help...celebrate the good times and remember..when the breeze blows past thats gentle kisses from above..and when you feel the sunbeams warming you that are her hugs. Maxie's spirit will never leave you..hesurrended his body but not his spirit. That lives inside your heart!!

Always in our hearts thoughts and prayers...
~*~Samantha's Story~*~

karen n sammi <mpbowler1@aol.com>
- Friday, July 16, 2004 7:25 AM CDT

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Just stopping by to let you know your family is on my mind.

Alisa
www.caringbridge.com/ut/devinross <tiredofcancer@yahoo.com>
- Thursday, July 15, 2004 12:20 AM CDT

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Stopping by to let you know that your in our thoughts and prayers.

Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
God be with you!!!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota~*~



http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 12:39 AM CDT

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Julie and christy, I thought you were still gone,.I missed you. Hey you journeled or came back on my B day the 11th. I kinda chuckled at the panic attack in wawlmart. i to have panic attacks and I agree thanks to great meds and Drs, I too venture out now! that is such a huge thing 400 miles?? i wouldnt of tackled that. Im so proud of you . your my inspiration! I need to put my little one down to bed. i will talk to you later.
Kim <dakk2222@netnitco.net>
In - Tuesday, July 13, 2004 9:24 PM CDT

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You are so wonderful to help your family sooooooooo much. I am always thinking of you and the family. Sending you love and prayers always ...
Jennifer Irons <RKnAMommy@aol.com>
Hayward, CA usa - Tuesday, July 13, 2004 10:11 AM CDT

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YES YES YES!! We missed you!! You had mentioned in a previous journal post, that you would be going, so I knew that's where you must be.. but it was lonesome here without you!! : / I can understand the feeling of needing to stay close to home, stay close to all that is familiar and beloved. But I know it was good to visit these wonderful folks who have been such a support along this journey. Sounds like Robert had a GREAT time too!! : ) I sure am glad he made this trip with you Julie! I'm glad you are back home.. it's so very good to "see" you here again.

Have a peaceful week.. don't worry about getting everything back to order there, immediately. It will happen. Take care, my friend.
Love and Hugs

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement
Lynn <lynn@legacyofhope.org>
Panama City, FL USA - Monday, July 12, 2004 8:52 AM CDT

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Julie, Christy & Robert,
Just here to let you know that you and your precious angel are still very much in my thoughts and prayers...

~*~*Girlie's Page*~*~

Love always,
XOXOXOXOXO
Janice <janiceliew1981@yahoo.com>
Melbourne, Australia - Monday, July 12, 2004 6:09 AM CDT

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Sending lots of prayers your way. +++++++++++++++++++++++++
Love LaKota and her mom,Debbie
God be with you!!!!!!!!!!
~*~ LaKota~*~

http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/laplafcan <LaKotaDeb@hotmail.com>
St.Cloud, MN - Sunday, July 11, 2004 11:01 PM CDT

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Just stopping in to say hi and that I am thinking of you guys.

www.caringbridge.org/mn/dustin
Kris, Angel Dustins Mom <buser_lady@yahoo.com>
- Saturday, July 10, 2004 12:53 AM CDT

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Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers each day. I hope Roberts toe is all better now. ((((HUGS))))
Anne
Abbotsford, BC Canada - Saturday, July 10, 2004 11:19 AM CDT

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JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOUR FAMILY!!!

CARINGBRIDGE.ORG/WV/FREDAFOX
RUTH <BLUEEYED_FEMALE@MSN.COM>
HINTON, WV - Friday, July 9, 2004 10:23 PM CDT

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Sending good wishes your way for a peaceful weekend!
Love, Eileen
EJ'S CARING PLACE

"Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." 1 SAMUEL16:7
- Friday, July 9, 2004 8:13 PM CDT

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So sorry for the long break from visiting, the computer...blah blah blah.
I hope you're all doing okay, I think of you so often...and Maxie, too, of course. HOping Robert is doing okay, hoping you're getting through your days and realizing with each one that passes that Maxie is okay, and God has things for you to learn from Maxie. The lessons don't stop just because he's gone--besides, he's not really gone at all.
It's been almost 3 years since Ty left, and I still learn from him all the time. I can't even imagine life without those lessons, those little hellos he sends me, those little memories that make me cry. Go with the flow, girls. If you want to cry, cry. If you want to laugh, laugh. there's no right way, so just do what your heart tells you, and know that Maxie is right there with you.
Big hugs for all of you,
Jennifer Naeger www.caringbridge.org/mo/butterflyty <jnw_jnn@hotmail.com>
- Friday, July 9, 2004 6:17 PM CDT

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The letter is beautiful. The tears flow freely. I am glad you wrote the letter to his best friend.

So many parallels between Maxie and Savannah, it is unnerving. My daughter is also in a box, right by my side now. It is the best decision I ever made in my life. Her true love also can be with her night and day.

I think about you guys so often. It hasn't seemed to get easier, actually harder. But we families are survivors. I believe we were picked because we have this quality.

I hope you have a peaceful summer.


lisa www.caringbridge.org/ar/savannah <m-lhurley@centurytel.net>
russellville, ar usa - Friday, July 9, 2004 5:23 PM CDT

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You'll don't know me I got the web address off of drewb's caringbridge page that you had signed. Drewb is my little brother. I am very sorry for what your family is going through. the caringbridge page is wonderful. you will be in our prayers
Terry Brown <MarykayAshland@aol.com>
Ashland, VA USA - Friday, July 9, 2004 9:06 AM CDT

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Dear Beautiful Maxie
I cant make it through the tears AGAIN. And I never even knew you sweet one. I thought that I was the only one tho, that thought of what Judith looked like now, after being in the cold ground. I try really hard to remember her sweet and precious face. Its just so hard. I think your wonderfull Grandma was right, and did the right thing. I have a friend whose parents had her cremated for the very same reason. So she wouldnt be in the cold ground...so they'd take her with them if they ever moved away.
I think of Judith every single day. And I Still cry and miss her so. I'd like to think she met you in Heaven too. She alwaays tried to be a little helper. She was 10 when she died too. Just a baby.
Anyways, I thought I would come and pay you a visit again. I always check on you Maxie. You are sooooooooo missed.
Just as I miss my judith.
God bless you maxie
Nancy
http://kellycountry2002.homestead.com/Index.html

Judiths Memorial:
http://www.geocities.com/kellycountry2002/angelgirl.html
Nancy <thebratt72@hotmail.com>
- Thursday, July 8, 2004 2:03 PM CDT

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Hi Julie and Christy,

Just stopping by to say Hello. I check on you guys all the time, but do not always sign the book. I apologize for that. I will try to be better. You are always on my mind - do not ever forget that. Julie, the letter for Amber is beautiful. We are having that same debate in my family. I want to be cremated as well, and my husband does not understand. I may have to borrow a few lines from your letter (if that is ok).

Christy,
I am ready when you are to add Shawntae to our "Prayers needed" page. Glad to hear she is doing a little better. I am also ready to prepare Maxie's Memorial page when you are. Also, I was wondering if Robert would mind having a 9 year old Pen Pal from Pittsburgh. He is going to get one anyway! LOL! It was really good to hear from you last week. I hope we can work on these things together. I meant what I said to you about Maxie.

Well, I hope Robert's foot is all better soon! Hope tomorrow is a good day. You guys deserve so much more than the hand you have been dealt. Keeping you close to my heart, and in my prayers.
Mary

(((((((((((((My friend Julie)))))))))))))))
SNIFF.... try not to think of the things you saw on that tv show. Try to remember when those dreadful thoughts come.. that NOTHING can hurt us once we shed our body and enter heaven. Neither the hot flames of cremation, nor the unnatural removal of the fluids that kept our bodies alive..replacing them with preservatives. None of these things can hurt us anymore, when we leave our body behind, to walk into heaven and the joys of heaven!

Maxie (and even Stan) are closer than you think.. for they are RIGHT there within the DEPTHS of your heart which loved them both so very much. :" /

Sending you lots of love, weeping with you..

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

A LEGACY OF HOPE! Cancer Support & Encouragement

Praying you have a safe and blessed 4th of July weekend!
*****GOD BLESS THIS WONDERFUL USA!!!*****
Love, Eileen--Lighting Children's Lives
My webpage is:
www.caringbridge.org/il/ej

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