Torie’s Story

Site created on February 1, 2021

Just a little insight to my story and any updates I have to share. 

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Journal entry by Torie Richards

Today I saw something that frustrated me, shocker, a Facebook post. I know people who have not experienced Cancer pain, or have not witnessed someone suffering Cancer pain can't begin to understand. But when did we as people start judging others so much, that we can't even give them a chance? Someone on Marketplace is selling glass jars to put your "pot" in. Ok, yea, maybe not the best idea, but hey, at least they are trying to make money to support themselves, right? Well not according to a Marketplace member. He commented "Great more airheads getting high." It took every ounce of self control I had to not comment. Why couldn't this guy roll his eyes and keep scrolling, like many others did I'm sure. He had to bring this person down, who probably needs the money. But here is what I'm more frustrated about. Just because you smoke "pot" or how I like to phrase it, use medical Marijuana, does not make you an "airhead" or a "pothead." Yes, there are people who have given those who use medical Marijuana a bad name, but here's the honest truth. Everyday, every second of everyday I am in pain; and I know of others with a Cancer diagnosis that are in even more pain! If there is a medicine that can help "numb" that pain or distract from it, take it!! Now of course there are people who take advantage of that. But most people, most people are like me; they use medical Marijuana every now and then when their pain is so bad they can't move or get comfortable to go to sleep. And here's the thing, even though I am in this constant discomfort I don't take anything until my kids are in bed. It's not a high, it's a means to distract oneself from the God awful physical and mental pain that Cancer brings. Now with all of this being said please don't judge me, I merely want to inform others of this stigma and the reality of how severe a person's everyday pain and discomfort can be. Like right now, as I sit here helping my 7 year old daughter with her school work I'm not fully "here," because I have got severe radiation burn from my radiation treatments and the pain from that is enough to make a grown man cry. Im not trying to toot my own horn here, but everyday that I can get out of bed and not instantly succumb to tears because of that pain; I consider a win, 100%!! Again, I'm not looking for sympathy, or hand outs or pity; I am alive because of these Cancer drugs. But that does not mean that I don't have a love/hate relationship with them; but I digress, that's for another post  😀. Just remember, we never know what people maybe struggling with or suffering from. We should never judge a person, ever really, but especially before we know them or know their "story." 
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