Hello Friends!

It’s been a while since I last updated you all on my journey. I needed to focus on healing and was unable to write about my journey. The words were just not there. It was a hard place to be for me.

I finished the hard Chemo on January 15th! Every week since then I have been feeling better and stronger. Little by little my world has been resuming. I am able to go out more and see friends again! It’s been nice to feel the chemo coming out of my system and my positive outlook coming back.

I am less than two weeks away from my surgery date. I have been spending the last few weeks preparing my body, mind and spirit for the surgery. I finally feel ready. I know it’s a necessary surgery and I will miss my breasts. But I also feel like I am at peace with the next steps. It will change me but it won’t. I have been working on letting go of my ego around my body and accepting that sometimes we must lose parts of ourselves to find oneself. Does this make sense? I think it’s part of the cancer acceptance process. I am finding that my self love is increasing while I am also saying goodbye to my breasts and my pre-cancer lifestyle.

I look forward to writing more once I have healed from surgery and I have a little more space to allow myself to sort out this whole cancer journey. I am still feeling a little bit in shocked this even happened. It’s such a huge life changing journey and yet, I am not even halfway done with the treatment. So I still have to sort out for myself what this whole experience has meant to me. Hopefully, I will have a lot more to say on what I have learned.

Just know for now, I am happy and feeling better everyday. I feel strong and ready for surgery.

Love to you all!