Journal entry by Mary Schultz —
Today is a lot of things…
1. Friday
2. A week that she’s been home…. a week of the new normal.
3. It’s Mom’s 77th Birthday!!!
For reasons we can’t understand except that it’s just how the universe works… starting with that first one, when Sue’s kidneys shut down and everything was looking very bleak, FRIDAYS have been particularly challenging throughout this journey. Contrary to this society we live in, that focuses so much on making it to Friday (TGIF!!)… Mom’s worst hospital days - the ones when her hemoglobin was too low, or her blood pressure was too low, or all her vitals were just not great - were the Fridays.
Last week, on the 7th Friday since she’s been admitted, we broke that streak!
Mom came back to her home - her cute little apartment, in the building she’s loved for almost ten years now. We had put in a lot of work getting it ready for her return (all the BIG thank yous go to my sweet Jeff - he was a champ!!). “Ready” meant clearing out lots of stuff that no longer served any purpose, and preparing the space for me &/or Kathy to be here - all. the. time.
That first night, a week ago… Kathy and I sipped chardonnay, watched the Sweet Sixteen, figured out how to provide nourishment through a feeding tube, and read Mom all of these caring bridge posts and comments, pausing when one of us needed to ride out a surge of emotion. Picture the most surreal Girls Weekend imaginable.
The week has gone well, all things considered. Mom is feeling good, and getting around the apartment swiftly. Each of her at home services (home health nursing, PT, OT, Speech, personal care attendant) have been here at least once, and our first outing for an iron infusion and an in office doctor appt was accomplished without incident.
Kath & I… hmm… we’re taking turns? making it work? doing alright? completely overwhelmed? talking to each other more that we have in 35 years? beyond grateful? juggling a lot? processing everything in our unique ways, as we always have? reflecting on family dynamics? happy our kids are grown, and thankful we both married incredibly capable partners? missing our dogs when we’re not home? taking it one day at a time?
ALL OF THE ABOVE.
Back when it was becoming clear to Sue that she was in for a very long haul, she stated that her goal was “to be normal by my birthday”. (I’m not going to dig into why I find the use of the word ‘normal’ problematic - this was her declaration). At many points, a more realistic goal became simply to be alive on her birthday. Here we are, on the morning she turns 77… somewhere in between Alive and Normal. Celebrating.
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