I know. I am sorry It has been a long time since I have posted something. I have been through many dark places in my mind wondering if I had the strength to keep moving on. It has been a most  difficult and challenging journey. So many times i cried in despair and wanted to give up but I did not. Part of me did not want to journal anymore because I had nothing to say. In a way I have been soul searching alone. This can be scary and lead one to dark thinking. It did for me at times. I cried out my pain many times w Libby listening and providing support. I know I have God by my side so I knew somehow I was going to make it. PET scan was on Friday and on Monday I was the news that I am now cancer free. We did it. I thank you all for your support and prayers. I will live to see my son excel in pilot career. I will be w my wife and family sharing good times . I will be w my friends. Cannot wait to hug you all. Most of all thank you God for giving me new life. Amen.  This will be my last post. Thank you and God bless.