My heart is heavy tonight. Everybody knows my condition. Especially my closest people. These people know first hand what a difficult road Ive traveled.  My condition today may be  unbelievable to you,  but I assure you its real. Im sorry you rather me hide the truth and just reply, Im okay, because you feel it sounds better.  This isn't a stranger or a passerby. This is the closest of closest that should want to hear the real pain or what the Dr. said.  
If you are going to answer all the questions you ask me because you already know your answer.  Don't ask.  If its to much for you to see or hear, please stop asking.  Im living it.  Id much rather have a conversation  about you and not be picked apart.