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Sign In to Show Your SupportHave you ever uncontrollably sobbed out of joy? I never had until 3 days ago. My aunt, who you may know or read about in my previous post, who had been unexpectedly placed on life-support that we withdrew and remained by her side until she passed away, did not pass away. She resurrected. It’s been quite the journey for my family, all within a time span of only a month. It’s been heavy, confusing and incredible. But I’ve sorta been in this limbo of disbelief, not able to fully except this miracle out of protection for myself- until her independent phone call to me 3 days ago, where she was 100% herself, my very special aunt. A ghostly feeling yet it was fully real. She was fully back. And when we got off the phone, I was brought to my knees in a sort of sobbing that wouldn’t let up because what I was feeling was the deepest joy and gratitude that I’ve ever experienced feeling- it was like I had tapped into something supernatural, something I did not know as a person I could feel or witness.
I record voice memos on my phone often so I don’t forget experiences. The last three on my phone I replayed to myself last night, all labeled Shirley. Two are from moments just being with her by her bed in the hospital when death felt palpable and the last recording is the moment I just shared with you, getting off the phone with her and feeling a swell of joy and overwhelming gratitude-something I never ever want to forget.
Life is so incredible in this sense.
(photo of the bouquet she made me on my wedding day)
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