It’s been forever since I’ve been on here. Overall l’m doing well. Trying to adjust to the new me, because I’ve realized now the old me is not coming back.

I still deal with aches and pains that were never present before. But now my mind goes straight to thinking the pain is a recurrence. I’m constantly noting when the pain started and tracking if it gets worse. Keeping that 14 day window in the back of my head. 

Self breast exams are practically daily and I still get sickened when I have to feel my cancer breast. The lumpectomy divots are ugly, I don’t have all the feeling back, and the scar tissue inside freaks me out. 

My emotions and energy levels are still out of whack. Treatments may have ended but the side effects sure didn’t end when treatment did.  

On a positive note, my hair is growing back and curlier than ever. I’m loving my curls. The weather is turning colder and I put a hat on the other day. It felt so different to cover my head this time, compared to last year. It was like I had to make sure some of hair was showing through the hat. 

I had my annual MRI this past spring and in a few weeks I’ll be having my mammogram. Which will then be followed up with a visit to my oncologist. I have to laugh at myself, I’ve been promoting mammograms and overall breast health, because it’s October…and here I realized I hadn’t even schedule my own! But like I said, I did get it scheduled. 

Take care! #prayfightwin