years of struggle trying to find solutions to my issues has made me cynical and angry. I do my best to navigate me way in a very broken system. it is more than a full time job to get the assistance I need, to find solutions, to just get through the day. while I am working on moving from point A to point B there is the pain, a constant reminder that things are not alright and a pill or injection whatever else is being offer is not a solution but a temporary band-aid. I so wish I could afford to see an Ayurvedic practitioner in hopes of learning what is going on with my health and maybe have a better avenue than this pill or that pill with a list of side effects that only make things worse not better. how i wish i could just rest, put myself into someone's hands how knows what they are doing so i don't have to exhaust myself asking so many questions. why is it so hard to find the help i need and not go bankrupt?