My name is rachel and im battleing depression and addiction i drink alcohol everyday to try and hide my pain i dont wanna drink anymore but i find myself drunk all the time and the alcohol makes me more depressed i know i have to change to survive for my daughter. have to love myself more and be able to accept my flaws and hope one day find my happiness the person iam when i drink feels no pain so i try to be that person as much as possible i no i can do better but i no only i can help myself. I am dealing with bad depresson and anxiety i thought for some reason my depression was do to things that i went through in the past as far as life experiences but that is not the case it is things from my childhood that are coming to the surface the abuse from my father was really bad my mother passed away so that is my only parent so i am trying to forgive him so i can move on.