Journal entry by Nicole Lewis-Keeber —
Hi all, I hope you are doing well. I wanted to give a few updates.
1. My last herceptin is 9/30 unless something changes at 230pm It is times like these that I am mad at the pandemic. I would have loved to have Jason there with me for the last one, and to be able to walk out into a celebration with friends. Grief is complicated.
2. My port removal will be 10/9, 1 yr from when I started chemo
I wish I could feel like this journey is over but I will need to make a decision about starting a new estrogen blocker since the pill did not work, they are recommending a shot. I will be honest taking those meds makes me nervous but they improve the statstistics around re-occurance.
I won't lie I cried in the shower today. It has been a long hard year. No one will really know what it was/is like for me. I am unpacking the trauma, and the gifts and hoping to have this in my rearview mirror soon.
What I commit to today is to not try and suck it up because it could have been worse or others have it worse. It was MY experience, it was hell at times and I will cry and mourn what has been lost if I want to
1. My last herceptin is 9/30 unless something changes at 230pm It is times like these that I am mad at the pandemic. I would have loved to have Jason there with me for the last one, and to be able to walk out into a celebration with friends. Grief is complicated.
2. My port removal will be 10/9, 1 yr from when I started chemo
I wish I could feel like this journey is over but I will need to make a decision about starting a new estrogen blocker since the pill did not work, they are recommending a shot. I will be honest taking those meds makes me nervous but they improve the statstistics around re-occurance.
I won't lie I cried in the shower today. It has been a long hard year. No one will really know what it was/is like for me. I am unpacking the trauma, and the gifts and hoping to have this in my rearview mirror soon.
What I commit to today is to not try and suck it up because it could have been worse or others have it worse. It was MY experience, it was hell at times and I will cry and mourn what has been lost if I want to
Patients and caregivers love hearing from you; add a comment to show your support.
Help Nicole Stay Connected to Family and Friends
A $25 donation to CaringBridge powers a site like Nicole's for two weeks. Will you make a gift to help ensure that this site stays online for them and for you?
