I kind of don't want to close this caringbridge account.  It just makes Mom's death more real.  So I'll keep it open for now. 

Today I factory re-set Mom's phone and sent it back to US Cellular. I had been holding onto it.  Having that phone made it feel like she was still here.  She's not.  So the phone got sent back.  I'm sad about it. 

Losing Mom has been horrible. Losing her stuff and her accounts just adds insult to injury.  

We're still writing thank you notes for all of the sympathies and memorials that have come in.  Angie wrote most of them.  I have written several.  Writing and sending them makes it more final.  More real. 

I've tried to fill my heart with music and doggies.  These things usually fill my heart.  I don't know if my heart will ever be full again.  It's so injured.  I guess people move on.  I guess I'm moving on.  I don't know.