Well. I have written a lot of half-entries since last time I posted.  It is hard. Not blogging, per se, but life. Life can be difficult. Or as my dad says, "It's not easy." (has said that like 4 times, but i'm choosing to make it a thing)

I’ve spent today composing emails in pursuit of a check I was owed three weeks ago. 

I’m freaking out because it’s late afternoon on a Friday, a time I know to be not ideal for the question, “Where the hell is my money?” No one cares about my money. I do. But that’s it. And now… I have been sent from this person to that person, then onto the next and I *gulp*  now have to write an email to the Big Boss. The Big Boss whose main job is to say “No, there isn’t money for that.”   A Big Boss whom I have been informed did not approve my original timecard for my first week of work at this job.  [Why did he not approve it you ask? Well, my fear is that I was brought onto this project a week early and without the appropriate approval. Mmm. Yes. All people in positions of leadership deserve to be there! (I'm shaking my head no).   Look, any parent would give their child a great job if they could. But it is my strong belief that MORE parents in hiring positions should be asking themselves, "Just because i CAN do this.... is it a good idea?" They should ask themselves, "Yes, this is my child whom I love but... are they good at jobs?" And even if the answer is yes, my child is good at jobs, one might delve deeper and ask, "Okay, but should... they... just...  be given one?"  Something to think about! 

It's kind of like giving your child a motorcycle before they have ever sat their wet diaper on a two wheeler. Like, no that is really awesome your kid has good balance and that motorcycle is very pretty to look at and sounds cool to say you haveeee but ... do you realize there are going to be other people around your child as they drive that thing off into the world? And once you give that kid a motorcycle, it's not real easy to go back to the tricycle, know what i mean? 
How did I  get here? I don't have time to explain!! (my eyes are rolling)]

I’m overthinking and I would like to call my dad to talk this email out out-loud. I’m running into an issue with that as he is not taking phone calls at this time. 

And now I have taken a break to write this entry in effort to clear my mind and  - it was a bad idea because now I am …. Starting to realize the truth of the matter.
My main guy is not accessible in this realm. 

Ok. Done thinking now!!!!!! Thank you!! 

Er - one last thing.... 

Today is my mom's big brother Scott's birthday. 

There are no cardinals in California.