Hi everyone. My journey has been filled with a lot uncertainty. 

I am still having difficulty eating. Nothing sounds good or the taste is not good. I continue to lose weight. Which is not good.  I have a high metabolism anyway and they say the cancer makes it higher. They may have to consider a picc line to give me nourishment. I cant fight off cancer if I don’t have the strength or the nourishment. If I force myself to eat my acid reflux kicks in and I throw it up. 

I take daily naps cause I am so tired. I push myself every day to do things that I want to do. 

I do try to go to the grandsons games when I can. It is a distraction from being at home. 

I do also go to church when I can. 

The nice weather has been a Godsend. I have felt been able to be outside. 

We feel some red flags with my care. We are trying to decide whether to switch oncologist. We really like the one we have but the organization is so slow at making decisions and we feel we have to fight constantly to get them to move faster. Please pray for us. It is a big decision that we really need wisdom. 

I have so many downs and ups.  I get so scared and the unknowns really work on my mind so much. 

I have so many people that come to visit and support us. It really means a lot to us.  We truly feel blessed and feel the prayers. Unfortunately I don’t see any light at the end of this journey. I have a verse that I have in my bathroom that I constantly look at. 

2 Corinthians 5:7 

I will walk by Faith even when i cannot See. 

I know that the Lord is walking with me and is in control of all of this. It is just so hard to daily struggle with the difficult things that come up. I get so tired. 

Continue to pray for us. Thanks for being there and your friendship n support means so much to us. 

Love you all💕

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