I have aml. Diagnosed 2017. Fell out of remission 2019. I need a transplant.  This is the journey of my life. I don't know if I am as strong as people say I am. But this is my journey and I am not ready to leave this life.  Chemo is rough i have reactio .  Currently my blood counts are low. I'm a natural worrier. So this battle effects  me in every way. I could not do this without my family. I am scared 90% of the time.  I want my life back so I can help others. I don't want to be a burden. I will fight with all I have. Failure is not an option.