Recovering during re-entry has been a grab bag- I have my good days and bad days, some days I’m tired and some I’m energized and I think I go through every emotion you can think of daily, all of them. My entire body was swollen for a bit post radiation and my chest and underarms areas are still sore from surgery, this body will never be the same. And this drug they have me on (tamoxifen), we aren’t friends, & I don’t think we ever will be. But, I’m carrying on.

Signs of normalcy like going to work and mustering the energy to cook dinner are beginning to bring me joy, oh, and the running, the running is saving my spirit and soul from going to dark places. We are actually en route to the Methow valley for a race that I’m running tomorrow and it’s the nicest weekend that we’ve had since October. The sun is really fueling this vitamin D deficient lady, yay sunshine!

My reconstructive surgery date is set for August 7th and it can’t come soon enough! The Capri-sun packets that are in the place where breast tissue used to be are terribly uncomfortable. This whole process is not for the faint of heart. There’s just a lot of things that they don’t tell you so needless to say, there have been some surprises here and there. What’s a girl to do?

Peace, love & joy.

Onward.