It happened on Wednesday, January 12th. LJ had been in the ICU for a full week, and although I posted there was a 60% chance of survival, I came to understand that it was actually much, much less than that- the doctors were shocked he even made it through the first night. 

That evening I went to church to bring my boys to AWANA and opted out of helping with youth group to just sit in my van. There I cried and prayed;

🙏🏻 I told God that I knew he could see that no matter what he chose to do with my husbands life I believed he holds the future and knows what’s best, even when it doesn’t make sense to me.

 I told God that I didn’t need him to reach down and touch LJ- He is so powerful all he would need to do is breathe and LJ could be healed. 🌬 And I petitioned to God —if He was able to fit keeping LJ here on earth within his will for us— to enable him to stay. I journaled a prayer that ended “..breathe your breath of life. Show us your mighty deeds!” 🙏🏻

📖 I then picked up my Bible to read Psalms (because David is far better at complaining than I am! 😆) and when I opened my Bible I was in Ezekiel, however, instead of flipping back a few books to get to Psalms, I found my tear-filled eyes drawn to my highlights from years ago “.. then you shall know I am the Lord..”.

Again and again that phrase was highlighted. I kept reading the next one and the next one. 

18x (LJ’s special number…a coincidence? 🤔) I read that phrase as I flipped to the next page, and then the next. 

when I flipped the page a third time- I saw written in the margin (from many years ago) “It is not for your sake I am about to act, but for the sake of my holy name.” And on the adjacent page a doodle from years ago said, 

“I will cause breath to enter you.”

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I found out later, that on that same night, our Chiropractor had been praying for us and had a vision - seeing God blowing breath into LJ.👀🌬