I thought I was done with journaling but then this thought popped in my head the other morning and I felt compelled to share it with you. I needed to drop my van off to the dealer for an oil change. I knew where this business was located but thought I'd just plug it into my GPS for "fun". I blindly followed the audible directions even though it felt wrong. It is called a smart phone for a reason, I thought to myself. Well, after about 8 minutes of driving in a circle, I came to the conclusion that indeed, I am smarter than my phone. I was on the wrong path. I was listening to the wrong voice. Why would I doubt what I knew in my heart was the right direction? 

I've been listening to the wrong voice since my dad died. I'm unable to share more on that other than to encourage you to listen to the voice of truth...God's Word. It is the only instrument for right living. I'm reminded that God can handle anything I throw at Him. My doubt. My questioning. My pain. My brokenness. My anger.  He alone cannot disappoint. He alone loves me unconditionally. He alone can save me from myself. 

Listen to some of the lyrics from the song Blessings by Laura Story:

We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win

We know that pain reminds this heart

That this is not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy

What if trials of  this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are Your mercies in disguise