Better late than never at starting one of these. 
We are nearing Landon’s 2nd “cancerversary” next month and the old memories of a normal life seems so far away. As of Wednesday Landon started cycle 7 of maintenance, he had a spinal with methotrexate, iv vinCRIStine and started his 5 days of steroids. We found out on Tuesday that his ANC (absolute neutrophil count) is low so he’s on a oral chemo hold until at least December 5th. That means no school for him until then. Which also means higher anxiety for mom. The fear of him getting sick, especially with this measles outbreak a couple towns over is terrifying. Wanting to just keep him in a bubble until treatment is over but I can’t. Oh how I wish of a normal life again, not having to worry if a fever or illness could take my child away from me. Wishing that I didn’t have to hold him out to get a needle in his chest every month so he could get chemo. Wishing that he would just eat like a normal kid and not just snack all day, and now he’s being tested for diabetes. Chemo took away his taste buds. I hate how much cancer has changed my baby. He’s the most sweetest loving boy he doesn’t deserve it. No child does.