I'm fixing to bury my uncle tomorrow and as I looked on at visitation tonight all I could think is "could that be me before too long"? I'm a new wife to an amazing man who ive waited forever to find. A mom to two amazing women and now a stepson. A mimi to 5 beautiful babies. Im 50. Young at heart and always ready for an adventure. BUT there's the looming presence of cancer that keeps me from being all I want to be in all of those roles. Im angry. I'm scared. But Im positive and Im a fighter. And thank goodness Im a believer in the Lord. Without Him I wouldn't be able to think beyond the big C. I wouldn't be able to have hope and faith in the unknown. 

I looked at my uncle and I thought how loved he was. How respected he was. What a huge void he will leave in this world. Then I reflected back to myself. I want to be remembered as a positive light who used her journey to help others. I pray im respected for the life I've lead. I hope my family doesn't forget me. Most of all I trust in the Lord to keep me here just the right amount of time to do His will. Whatever that may be. That being said, im going to fight to be here because that is the person he created me to be. I can't let Him down right?