Happy Spring!
Due to my most recent scans of my leg and lungs, showing some increase in the size of the tumors, my doctor has recommended a change in treatment.  My treatment now consists of a 24-hour infusion.  This means, I go into the cancer center, hook up to the treatment and leave holding my machine and chemo bag.  These zip up nicely into a bag that I wear over my shoulder, sort of like a large cross-body bag. So far, this treatment makes me incredibly tired and somewhat nauseous for a few days.  I received my most recent treatment on Friday, April 12th and I am just making it through my day without multiple naps. Every day that passes is a little easier. The word on the street is that I will likely lose my hair again. :( My kids are aware of my new treatment and have been awesome.  Ozzie comes and kisses my head while I nap and the other day, while falling asleep together,  Ellie put her hand on my wrist and whispered, "You are so brave." Jordan continues to find time between her many jobs to drive me places, help out with the kids, and make us smile with Myrtle. 

Here is what you may not know...I am scared.  I know that makes people feel very uncomfortable because they want to believe that I am not.  It is strange if you think about it.  Who wouldn't be?  And sometimes when I hear myself talk, it is still surprising I am referring to myself. "This will be my fourth type of chemo..." I heard myself say the other day.  I think that is one of the scary parts.  I am all for trying new treatments that work but every time I try something new, I worry that I check off a box of options left on my list.  

I can't possible write an entry without mentioning Caitlin Clark. For some, it may seem like a silly obsession. To me, it has brought so much hope, joy, and excitement to our household. One girl, who happens to be great at basketball, has brought so many people together, to cheer on and empower other women. Maybe I was desperate for a new hobby, or maybe I loved the attention it brought to women in the game and historically. However you slice it, it was exactly what I needed this winter. I made such wonderful memories with people all over the world and I still fly my Iowa Hawkeyes flag outside my home (at least until the Indiana Fever one arrives) to remind myself and my kids what it means to dream big.🌻