Kim’s Story

Site created on October 24, 2018

Thankfully, I have always been very good about scheduling my annual physical and all that's associated with it.  Even though I had to have a diagnostic mammogram last year - turned out to be no big deal - I wasn't a bit worried about it.  So, after having my annual mammogram, when the phone rang early the next morning and I was told that I needed to go back in for 3D imaging and ultrasound, because there was "something new that wasn't on last year's images", I tried to tamp down the fear.  Especially when I was told that it would be a week and a half before they could get me in.  We had tickets to Hamilton the next night and I had a business trip that next week to Chicago and Des Moines, which was at least a distraction.  Finally, last Monday came and I went in.  The techs were all very nice, but anxiety was on high - especially when the ultrasound tech was clearly also taking pictures of lymph nodes.  Sure enough, the radiologist came in a few minutes later to tell me that we needed to do a biopsy - but that my lymph nodes did look good.  A small reassurance at the start of a very scary week plus.

The biopsy was scheduled for Wednesday and God sent an angel in the form of the most reassuring radiologist ever.  After days of Googling, my prayer going in was that my BIRADS score was 4 (4 = suspicious, 5 = confirming what we already know) and that, if it did turn out to be bad, it was early.  He told me both things - saying that the area "looked cystic except there is some retraction...  but I have seen that in scarring before."  I needed the reassurance because they said it would be 72 hours - 72 business hours - before results were in.  That meant, Monday would be the earliest we would get the results - five days.

By Monday, I was pretty much in the fetal position and staring into space, waiting and I knew my family would be, too,  Mom and Dad were supposed to be packing to go to North Carolina the next morning.  The waiting really is, in many ways, the worst part.  The phone finally rang at 2:26pm.  My doctor is usually straight to the point, but there were a lot of pregnant pauses as she asked if it was a good time to talk.  She said it was breast cancer, hormone positive, but that was really all that she knew, because the rest of the tests and the rest of the answers to my questions take more time.  They know that people want an answer, so they deliver that part now and I'll have an appointment within a day or two where we would know more.  By that evening, I had my first appointment with an oncologist set for Wednesday - three weeks since that first phone call to go back in.

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Journal entry by Kim Hirsch

October 22nd was the anniversary that reminded me of how scary last year was.  November 8th is the day that I would rather think about - the one where we could finally start to move on from the fear and look forward.  Today is the one year anniversary of my surgery and feeling like I was finally taking control of my body again.  I scheduled the one-year follow-up with my surgeon, Dr. Ngo, today quite purposefully because it was just important to me that it would be on the exact day.  She was so delighted to commemorate it with me that I got all teared up and tissues were dispensed.  Dr. Ngo is so thorough that I feel like I am being well-watched over and couldn't be more grateful that she's on the team.  How fortunate that, when asked "do you want to see a particular surgeon?" and my reply was, "whoever can see me soonest", she was it.  At the time, I didn't really care because, in the back of my mind, I thought that I would end up at the Mayo, since they are known as the best.  How fortunate that random chance gave me a doctor much closer to home that Mom, Dad and I just instantly liked and trusted and knew that she would be the best for me.

It has been a busy year.  Around the time of my last update, I went into a new role at work - the lead for our advisory team.  I also continued to have an active role on our customer engagement team because I love going out and talking to clients and getting up in front of people to do presentations (surprising no one, I'm sure.)  I have put on more frequent flier miles and hotel nights than ever before, but I've really enjoyed it for the most part.  I'm working harder than ever and it is stressful a lot of the time, but that I have the energy and the good health to be able to do all of it is something that I am thankful for.

I take a daily pill and, every month, I get an injection in my tummy (it's fun when they hit a blood vessel and a fountain gets started!), but as I get it in the infusion center and the people around me are all undergoing chemo reminds me of how lucky I am.  I'm fortunate to live in a world where studies showed that it was okay for me to skip the toxic part of treatment.  A few hot flashes (really, more warm periods) is a small price to pay.  I try to remember to do my physical therapy exercises - not quite as faithfully as I should, but I have almost a normal range of motion, so it's good enough.

I wanted to take this opportunity to thank all of you again for the love and support that came at me in droves for weeks and months and ever since.  What a wonderful thing to feel and it is returned right back at you all, each and every day.

Now, I just have to figure out how to get a Sunday appointment next year.  :-)
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