Kevin’s Story

Site created on April 7, 2023

Please do not bother with “Tribute”. That money just goes to the website and they misleading make it seem like I need it.
If you wanted to donate, there is a ways to help link with an old GFM or my Venmo.

My isolation address until 6/19:
Kevin Hamm
2040 Gardi St.
Bradbury, CA 91008


It's been a long journey! 

I'm Kevin, 37, originally from the Los Angeles area, although I moved out to Nashville, TN in 2021. I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis (PPMS). I was diagnosed back in 2014, and had some pretty obvious symptoms for a few years leading to that diagnosis.

I remember the day I was diagnosed. I was already having quite a few issues, although only brought on through physical activity, back then.  I got home from the doctor's, in a bit of shock, I wept and did my best to finish out the work day remotely. Then 5 o'clock hit, I closed my laptop and said to myself, whelp, we were this disabled yesterday, I just now know what it is called. And got up and went to the gym. That was almost 10 years ago now and although I've become significantly more disabled, I have not lost an ounce of resilience.  I have had a strong will my entire life and this disease has only lead to my "life" difficulty setting being a little more challenging.

Symptoms of MS can very very different for each person. I am fortunate enough to not have any pain and have not had any cognition issues. My effects are all right sided.. My right hand/arm are pretty useless. I can put things in my hand and it can hold them. I have a limp when I walk and a thing called "drop foot", where my foot drags a bit and I barely clear the ground as I walk.

Not losing any cognition is a blessing, because the amount of knowledge I have to absorb in this battle is insane. Science behind the drugs I take and their mechanisms, Clinicals trials and studies, the broken system that is healthcare and all their nuances that are meant to impede you, ther insane amount of "miracle cures" that are supposed to help me, you name it. With any major health issue, you have to fight for yourself, even with doctors. I don't tell doctors about my ailments and hope they'll help me anymore. I research, find out what I am going to do, tell them and we discuss why it is or isn't a good idea.

I feel like I could go on and on about this journey and my adventures. But, for somewhat, brevity's sake. I am now deep into this disease. Slowly losing the ability to use my right hand at all and fearing the loss of my independence, which I still, mostly, have. I have found out about the only successful treatment at halting this disease HSCT and am pulling the trigger on the treatment. It's going to be a hard 6 months+ of destroying my immune system and isolation while it rebuilds. Hopefully, I'll come out better on the other side. Join me on this journey, I'm sure I'll need help and friendship along the way!

Also make sure to read the updates, there is already A LOT of information in the first one (it's the exact same as what I posted to my GoFundMe). I go into a lot more detail on HSCT is the first one.

NOTE: Some people have asked how to help, there is a "Ways to Help" link in the navbar of this page, I've added my old GoFundMe fundraiser and my venmo. "Tribute" is something separate and just goes to CaringBridge.

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Newest Update

Journal entry by Kevin Ham

Hello all,

Just thought I'd share some updates/clarifications. Last week I had another blood draw to look at my levels. Nothing major to report there. Everything is still, slowly, increasing. I'll start my vaccinations at 6 months post.

Last time I discussed my increased difficulty in walking. Turns out my spasticity (tightness) has increased, which is what's making it harder to lift my leg and walk. I've made some adjustments to my device aides and started doing PT exercises, so I'm managing it a bit better now. I guess increased spasticity is something most people experience post-HSCT, so it's expected and hopefully will get better over time. So that is good to learn.

This past weekend, Summer and I went to Detroit. I was honored to be a groomsman in my good friend David Gorman's wedding. We were obviously a tad nervous, especially through the airport. So far, it appears it went smoothly and I didn't catch anything.

While in Detroit, Summer pointed a very interesting thing out. I haven't really drank in 6+ months. When I have a single drink/beer, I notice my walking immediately gets more difficult. Imagine I'm already "dragging" and barely clearing the floor. Although I don't feel drunk, my body immediately feels it and that dragging/barely clearing the floor intensifies. WELL, I raged this weekend, and Summer pointed out that regardless of how much I drank (a lot), my walking wasn't getting any worse. This happened both nights and I even had a little to drink the next morning. This is very good news b/c it means my body's is responding in a new and better way. I honestly have had very few, if any, wins in my 11+ years with this disease and this very much feels like one. Side note, I also have reverted to not getting hangovers anymore (yes, please envy me). This all feels like some interesting body revitalization. I do still notice my gym fatigue, so I'll have to start paying closer attention to my body, when it would've normally fatigued.

My hair... is curly now. Which is also a consistent post-HSCT occurrence. Not crazy and I don't mind it, but the sides being curly, drives me nuts. It's better after getting my first haircut for the wedding. That too can revert back over time.

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