Hello Team Kerry!

It’s been a year…. 

I genuinely felt after a year, my life would be back to “normal”, however it’s far from it, unfortunately. 

After an extensive recovery, I attempted to return to work in October. Upon returning, I found myself extremely frustrated. I couldn’t do a job and function as I had for so many years. I wasn’t retaining what I needed to be a successful member of a vivacious team. I was slow, forgetful, and unable to keep up in a vigorous environment I had thrived in many years of my life. Not being able to be an asset and go getter took a huge toll on my well being, my mental health, and my reality. Having to accept you’ll never be what you once were is very damning in many ways. My anxiety was heightened, and the stress began to take a toll on my health as well. 

I developed another pulmonary embolism in my lung, heart palpitations, black outs, among other things. My doctors and I decided on taking another leave of absence to focus on getting well. After my leave of absence I also learned that due to the surgery, Ive developed a hiatal hernia and hypothyroidism. In addition to severe sleep apnea, and the increase symptoms of severe surgically induced menopausal symptoms. Due to the blood clot, I’m not able to take any hormonal medications to help treat these symptoms. 

Currently, I’m at a loss and find myself falling into a sinking sand and suffocation of depression and defeat.