Today was my last radiation treatment.  I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about it.  I'm happy of course, but it just doesn't seem real yet.  Actually, none of this seems real.  I still can't believe all of this has happened to me in the last 6.5 months.  I think it's probably because it's all been a whirlwind of appointments, treatments, and surgeries.  I haven't had time to really let it sink in.   Also, I still look sick - my hair hasn't started growing back, I barely have any eyelashes or eyebrows, and I just don't feel back to "normal" yet.  People have told me I need to celebrate being finished with treatment.  I don't know if I can fully celebrate being "done", because I will never really be done.  There will be follow-up appointments and tests, and the fear of the cancer returning will always be there.  I think about that every day.

 I did ring the bell today though, and I was surprised at how emotional I felt.   No more driving to the hospital daily, getting treatments, seeing doctors and nurses, getting labs, etc.  I'm so thankful for the awesome care I have received throughout this.  I had some awesome nurses, knowledgeable and caring doctors, and my nurse navigator is incredible and was with me every step of the way (and even came to see me today for my last treatment 🥰).    I am thankful to be done with active treatment, and I'm looking forward to spending the holidays with loved ones.  Thank you all for following me on this journey, I am so grateful to have you all in my corner. 💕