Day 5 post mastectomy: I’m feeling more mobile and less likely damage anything. Weekend visits were great and kept me occupied because I surely can be restless. Use of my time has been weighing on me a lot lately. Months have lapsed yet I feel like my life is still on pause. I want to do so much but don’t. The thought that I’ve been in a alternate temporary life for 8 almost 9 months is suffocating. In order to combat the cancer I muffled or stunted the growth in every other aspect of my life. Rightfully so but it’s complicated. With this territory I believed that me being home under treatment would be the best year in school for the kids despite the cancer but it has instead been a struggle for us and them. So for the next few weeks I want to turn things around and prepare for the school year to end on a good note. My thoughts are always so scattered but I’m working on it though!