I have some good news to share today. I started this Breast Cancer journey in September 29 th of 2020. I will never forget sitting by myself after my diagnostic mammogram being told by the radiologist sorry but you have Breast cancer that has also spread to your lymph node. I never thought I would find out that day. I expected the results to come after other tests. I asked him how sure he was and he stated he was sure. I sat there in that room and sobbed. After the biopsy it was confirmed and things started to go very fast.
When you receive a diagnosis like cancer you initially see your life flash before your eyes. I always felt I appreciated my life but you appreciate every day alive with those you love so much more. It’s funny but people around you also appreciate you so much more. I could literally feel the love and prayers lifting me up. That sounds funny and maybe a little weird but it was true. It’s such a joyful feeling that I selfishly I pray won’t go away after the treatments are gone. This was the beautiful blessing I received from such a terribly life changing diagnosis. I believe there are blessings in every situation if we look for them.
I do know So many in this world don’t have the support I was blessed to have. I know first hand that there are many worse off then I am and not so lucky. I know at any moment the cancer could come back as it has for some of my close friends who are still fighting hard. You know who you are and know I am here and am praying every day for you victorious recovery. I am so grateful for all the prayers , support and love shown to me and my family this almost past two year journey I have been on.
Good news is today is my last chemo infusion. I will be taking a Her 2 blocking Chemo medicine for at least a year and estrogen blockers for at least five years. My journey will never be completely over because the thing with cancer is it’s unpredictable but right now I am a survivor and God willing I will stay that way. My goal is to get to heaven but not just yet.
I’m sitting here right now waiting for my last chemo “cocktail” to finish so I can ring that bell and hopefully continue on my “No evidence of disease (NED)” journey. So much introspective , joy and fear all wrapped up in one emotion today. I hope through this caring bridge I have helped people on their own journeys of triumph. Even if I help
Just one person it would have been worth it.
I wish you enough
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how grey the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.
(The copyright for this poem belongs to the author: Bob Perkins)
Much love , Kathleen