Journal entry by Kate Reidel —
Cancer can take my boobs but it sure as heck cannot take my smile!!!
Trust me, it’s not all unicorns and care bears around our house; both Peter and I can contest. But I sure do try, even on the worst of days to find that smile within me.
My midwest self has always done it but recently, I have become more in tune of my feelings while doing this: while I am walking or running I love validating the people I go by with a smile or nod of the head. No words- just acknowledging the presence of a human being. Some smile or nod back but there are also many that don’t know what to do with a strangers greeting.
But WOW! When you get someone to smile back, it is a true high! I believe that human beings have a 6th sense of touching someone without physically touching or speaking to them.
I believe a smile to the strangest of strangers puts good karma into the world. When someone validates me back, I always wish for a great day or evening to that someone. And you know what? I think they can feel my thoughts and hope the good karma I put in their world gives them a warm feeling of love. I can honestly say a strangers acknowledgment to me makes my day a better one!
Today, as I was running, I was smiling out to the world in remembrance of Bella. She passed away 1 year ago tomorrow. But a year ago today, was the beginning to her new beginning. I teared up because with every gust of wind, I felt her smiling down on me. I really like to believe she was.
Ahhhhhh. A core value I have had to reiterate again and again to myself lately. It hasn’t been easy but I know I am blessed. I had surgery almost 5 weeks ago and recovering well; really well, actually. Mamma Marge has told me she loves telling her friends that I was running errands at Costco with my sister 3 days after; I love hearing it too!
4 weeks after my surgery, I started running the streets of Columbus. Yesterday, I ran 4.5 miles nonstop at a pace of 10 minutes per mile. I couldn’t feel more proud of my body right now.
I have tolerated chemo with little side effects compared to others. I survived a double mastectomy with auxiliary lymph node dissection and learning to love my new body as I plan to remain flat. On Monday, I start my first of 25 rounds of daily radiation; minus weekends. I am told that I will get tired…I hope to continue to defy the “what to expects” during cancer.
Really, at the end of the day, I hope to look back at my treatments and smile: they have given me LIFE!
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