Well, I have lots of time to reflect With all of the ups and downs that we have experienced with my health, I have been relatively self-aware about my emotional responses. This one has been quite different.When we received the terminal diagnosis my emotional reaction was sadness and resolve.This time my emotional reaction is anger. I’m tired of this, of course there’s nothing to do but clench my fiss and scream at the sky because there’s no one to blame. So, I think I shall be doing that. there’s plenty of biblical warrant for clenching your fists and yelling at the sky in the psalms. So I feel quite confident. about sharing my feelings with God.
It is a strange experience to have unresponsive limbs, though my left arm and hand are improving, I still have some distance to travel. Having an unresponsive. Limb is like having a surly teenager. You ask her to vacuum the living room and when you come back she’s asleep on the couch.
I am projected for discharge this Friday. I will be going to outpatient physical And speech therapy. Pray for Jaci. She has done far more caregiving than any spouse deserves to, and I do not want to be burdensome to her. That said. I am ready to leave the hospital. I have spent way too much time in hospitals in recent years, it will be good to sleep in my own bed. I won’t be completely independent. It will be close enough.,Though. As always we relish your calls, texts and visits. Please know that part of our gratitude for such is an eagerness to accompany you amidst your life’s challenges as well , so never hesitate to ask us for help.
May God’s presence be palpable to you, in your heart,, in your home, and in your relationships,
Karl
