wow. I was told I am selfish by Jake. I've only been asking him since October 11th, when I got out of the hospital to get the yard and basement done. For 4 weeks he spent day after day playing video games over Corey and Pats and now that hes working, he has no time to do what he needs to do here. I am selfish for wanting it done so I can be a candidate for the transplant. I am selfish because I want an answer from rick as to what we are going to do. I get it, just like I said would happen and Rick assured me that he would and could handle everything... well, he can't. By the end of a week of work he's done. He needs that down time to collect himself and relax. I understand. It's just not a recipe for successful health for me. I guess it's all on me. Shit, if the decision comes down to the wire and things aren't in place I guess I won't be going through with it. How could I even be that selfish to think I could get this transplant with all the adversity surrounding it.