Journal entry by Jill Haag —
On Sunday I rushed to get to the hospital to see one of my kids. Would have thought it would be for the birth of Terah and Zach’s baby girl but no, Jordan had an accident on his motorcycle. Something I thought about each time he took off. Thankfully he is going to be fine, will take some time. Makes me think once again that my cup is half full, not half empty. It’s been awhile since I have been able to think like that. Restores my faith a bit when life keeps throwing us curve balls. He has a broken vertebrae and big toe, spleen laceration, chipped teeth and very sore swollen tongue that he bit down on. No paralysis and all his neuro exams are normal. Lost consciousness and doesn’t remember what happened, thankfully drivers saw him go off the road and into the corn field so help came right away. He doesn’t have road rash just dirt rash. His helmet had corn stalks in it and lots of dirt. His phone is missing so getting in touch with him will be a challenge for awhile. Good thing that he remembered my cell number to give to EMS. Hoping he is already on the road to a quick recovery, seems to be feeling better today and hasn’t asked for pain meds for awhile. Might change once they start getting him up and moving.
Spent the weekend with Terah as Zach was on military trip. She is looking like the baby could come any time now. Lots of pregnant waddling going on. Glad I went and got to see her and baby bump this late in the pregnancy. She didn’t want pictures taken but I like looking back now to see what I looked like right before delivery. We are planning on being with them for the birth, just need her to keep the baby as a bump for at least a couple of days!!!
So Jordan is bed ridden and Terah spends most of her time right now in a recliner with her swollen feet up, meanwhile I have been feeling great. The month of June was good in that I kept feeling better each week and recovering faster than before physically. One day I actually thought about running up the stairs, note I said thought about, I didn’t do it. But usually I stand at the bottom of the stairs and think crap I hate stairs, anything with an incline is still tough for me. I had a few weeks with some mental health issues that I am hoping I am starting to get under control. I needed to start chemo again just when I was feeling more normal. I have a very hard time staying positive when I feel like shit. My cancer is in complete remission but to keep the cancer away as long as possible I need to use maintenance therapy (low dose chemo). Without drug treatment, the cancer will come back within 1.5-2 years. The chemo drug the doctors recommended has lots of unpleasant side effects. When the drug is shipped it comes with a care package for relieving nausea, vomiting and diarrhea, yahoo. It took a little bit of time but the side effects have gone away for the most part and I have been feeling much better over the past week. I will see my oncologist this week for blood work to make sure my immune system is still going strong and that my kidneys are working as best as they can, fingers crossed. It is wonderful to wake up in the morning and think about what I want to accomplish instead of what am I going to be able to today. Trying to see the cup half full
Spent the weekend with Terah as Zach was on military trip. She is looking like the baby could come any time now. Lots of pregnant waddling going on. Glad I went and got to see her and baby bump this late in the pregnancy. She didn’t want pictures taken but I like looking back now to see what I looked like right before delivery. We are planning on being with them for the birth, just need her to keep the baby as a bump for at least a couple of days!!!
So Jordan is bed ridden and Terah spends most of her time right now in a recliner with her swollen feet up, meanwhile I have been feeling great. The month of June was good in that I kept feeling better each week and recovering faster than before physically. One day I actually thought about running up the stairs, note I said thought about, I didn’t do it. But usually I stand at the bottom of the stairs and think crap I hate stairs, anything with an incline is still tough for me. I had a few weeks with some mental health issues that I am hoping I am starting to get under control. I needed to start chemo again just when I was feeling more normal. I have a very hard time staying positive when I feel like shit. My cancer is in complete remission but to keep the cancer away as long as possible I need to use maintenance therapy (low dose chemo). Without drug treatment, the cancer will come back within 1.5-2 years. The chemo drug the doctors recommended has lots of unpleasant side effects. When the drug is shipped it comes with a care package for relieving nausea, vomiting and diarrhea, yahoo. It took a little bit of time but the side effects have gone away for the most part and I have been feeling much better over the past week. I will see my oncologist this week for blood work to make sure my immune system is still going strong and that my kidneys are working as best as they can, fingers crossed. It is wonderful to wake up in the morning and think about what I want to accomplish instead of what am I going to be able to today. Trying to see the cup half full
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