Well I still miss you Jan!  It has been two years and my eyes tear up again.  How can this be?  I have wanted to talk to my friend so many times.  I keep the thoughts to myself.  Your voice is in my head, I can picture or hear what you would say.  You are not here but I know you well.  I go places to have a vacation but I miss going on vacation with you.  It is just not the same without you. I fear losing you in my head.  The farmer family misses you...  I keep on living but it is different.  I still remembering you passing but I try and focus on our fun times. I laughed freely with you, like no other.  Thank you for you.