I have been doing a lot of reflection these past two weeks and am sure will continue doing.so. My family went on a journey with our Father we weren't expecting to go on.  Instead of going on family vacation I went to the James with a very enlarged spleen and Acute Leukaemia.   My God was with me every hour of every day. Its amazing how I remember up to being wheeled into the James on Saturday but then nothing until right before surgery for splenectomy on Tuesday when my mom,  brother and sister arrived for hugs.  Then after surgery I was unresponsive for the next four days.  
Starting chemo. 
Then going home in late September until my stem cell transplant. 
Was scary. Being used to having my nurses and PCA in and out of room. Giving me meds. IV's.

When I came home 7 1/2 weeks later I thought is this real?  Do I really have leukemia? Am I really going to have to do a stem cell transplant?  I/we all wanted to do the transplant Now !! But it was a slow process.  I had to have more chemo, bone marrow biopsies,  Fred, Darrick and Brett tested to see if a good match. 
My favorite verse has always been Proverbs 3:5-6. I had to Trust HIM.  I couldn't lean on my understanding.  Knew I had to say He was jn charge. And believe He was directing the doctors to make the right decisions.   
He has been there in the driver's seat the whole time.  Giving Shawn safety on the roads as he traveled back and forth.  Us not understanding why my dad was called home.  But in so going allowed my mom to be able to help me with my recovery time. 
We don't always understand why things happen.  We have to rely on Our Father to be there for us.  He loves us. He takes care of us.
God is bigger than anything that happens. 
Trust Him.  Look at the positive things that happen in our lives. Look for the joys in each day.
I am in remission.   Brett's stem cells are working in me.  I am home. I am able along with my mom's help to take care of my two precious sweet huggable smiling granddaughters on Monday and Tuesday for the last 6 weeks.   I don't have my energy or strength.back but getting there.
God is in control 
I dont know why this happened.  But trust that God has used me to touch someone heart.