Today is hard I am so tired and sore and sad. I will keep pushing but what I wouldn’t give to have energy again. I miss who I was before they found the fybroid in me. Before the hysterectomy before my cancer diagnosis.
I loaded the dishwasher today, worked all but one hour of my shift, made myself dinner and fought to stay awake to watch an entire tv show it didn’t work cause I know I have to save energy to make it through a shower without falling. 
So I cried in  shower cause I’m hurting and very weak! I miss my friends I have trouble hanging out cause it makes me feel small. 
today is hard. I am allowed to be negative as long as I see the light at the end of the tunnel