Today was day 1 week 6.  Its been really icky the last 4 to 5 days.  I think it's caught up to me.  The radiation is really starting to make its mark inside and outside my neck. Throat and tonsils are really sore and kinda raw.  Like strep but a bit worse.  Ran out of pain meds over the weekend then a debacle with scripts and wrong pharmacies and liquids vs pills and needing a swallow study I was just a weepy mess. 

I felt so dumb but to be in pain is not something Im really cool with when its sometbing that can be helped I guess.  So really long day of adding more meds, ointments,  supplements and appointments oh and feeding tube stuff too because I guess lost 15 pounds in two weeks and I cant be starving my body while its fighting cancer so instead it'll be 5 or 6 hours a day gravity feeding (think IV pouch draining down i to the tube into my stomach) so I dont puke or aspirate.  45ish minutes to take in 2 bottles of formula then staying upright an hour....three times a day

I'm just so emotional I hate it!  Anyway.  Just a short update.  Please keep praying more now than ever because now Im in the hard part.  I may only have 2 weeks of radiation left and 2 more chemos but it'll still take time to heal after Im "technically" done so dont quit praying just yet!!!  <3 

Anyway,  I thank everyone for praying.  Even if you silently close your eyes and say God Bless this Family.  That counts!!  

God Bless
Love Erica <3