There are still no words to rightly describe the hole in my heart. Or the sorrow and sadness I feel.  

I have never lost anybody, or even a pet, close to me to have experienced this kind of pain.  I feel as I’ve been thrown into the depths of despair, a darkest of place.  And I can’t hardly breathe.  

There are a few moments upon first waking up, that I think and feel as if everything is normal, okay, and right.  But as my body and brain and heart fully regain consciousness, I remember, and I weep for my boy and my loss.  I feel so empty.  

How is this my new reality?  No parent should have to go into a funeral home and make arrangements for their 10 month old baby.  It’s excruciating.  I am still so much in shock that Emmett is actually gone.  The fight is over, and the suffering is no more.  There is finally peace for my Emmett.  However.  Krabbe disease took him too quickly.  And selfishly, I want more time with him.  

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Rest my sweet boy.  I so deeply love you.  

In numbness,
Amanda